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Journal Entry Lucid #5 Dream, Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background:

Dream fragment 1 from 5:00am-6:53am" Obama got jokes?": I watching a YouTube video with my sister. It was Obama he showed up on a stage as if a rock star. He was doing some dance as he walked to the pulpit. He was speaking some sort of weird language. It didn't make any sense. My sister and everybody in the crowd seemed to be enjoying it. I didn't quite understand why they enjoyed it. oh yeah he also jumped on top of someone in the crowd.

Dream fragment 2 from 5:00am-6:53am"Drive to school ": As I was driving to school I saw my friend, BN. The odd thing was that he was in a car with his dad on the wrong side of the street. I said hi to them. The dad looked at me weird. While I was driving away I thought hmm they were on the opposite side. My car turned for some reason and I had to do a quick 360 to make it face the right direction.

Dream 1 from 5:00am-6:53am"Distractions": I spectated a life of an addict. The addict was doing heroin, and lots of it. The mother which was played by my mother was crying, and my sister was also present with her. My mother was crying, saying that she lost her child. I got a glimpse of this heroin they were talking about and it looked like coco powder or chocolate powder. I said that is not heroin, heroin is darker than that. I had enough of this and started to participate in the dream. I became into being in my grandmother room. I turned on the light and saw all these shopping backs. My mother and sister came back home. I walked out and started to get some water from the fridge. My mother was telling me she was disappointed. I thought do they think I am an addict.

I realized it was a dream. It was like my body was vacant, without a mind. I can use my body. I looked at my hands and did a RC, just because. I counted 1,2,3,4,5,6,7, but as I counted I realized that the dream was starting to fade. I quickly resolved the counting by saying I have 7 fingers it is a dream. I started rubbing my hands. The scene went from a dark and dimly lit area to a lively place. It looked like morning and it was at a perfect temperature. As I was about to walk outside through the back door, someone grabs me by the hand. It was my sister. She said, "You have to come with me." I told her no (I was tired of my family distracting me). She said,"I am trying to save you". I thought,"from what? but realized that I should concentrate and ignore her". As I walked outside the house. Their was a beautiful fall tree with orange leaves, along with a nice park like area. I walked pretty far while rubbing my hands. It was crystal clear.

My sister comes outside the house and calls my name. I walked so far that she was the size of my hands from my perspective. I told her to go back inside and mind her own business. She didn't listen and began to walk. I didn't want to baby sit her like I did my dad in the other LD, so I warned her. I told her she better go back inside or I will have to stop her. I got angry and I pointed my hand towards her and tried to use telekinesis to throw her on the wall. I managed to stop her in her tracks but nothing else. Then this alien space ship appeared and it cut her into pieces, it was gory, and even her head got decapitated. I knew it was a DC, so I didn't care. I said, "I warned you, but that wasn't me." I saw her body come back together just like from the game, Prototype.

She said while her voice distorted back and forth from a man to some sort of alien species, "You should have listened to me I am on a whole another level". She jumped in the sky and landed next to me. From looking like the size of my hand she was right in front of me. She transformed into Alex Mercer than into the black guy from Prototype 2. He swung his blade at me. I had a brief thought about Alex Mercer, and my hands transformed into a shield. I thought, "Another distraction". I turned around while rubbing my hands to keep lucidity. The sky was now blood red. It was dark world to live in. I didn't have fear though. As I was walking away. I told him not to bother on attacking me because their is a force field protecting me. I was bluffing, I have never used a force field in dream and didn't know if it will work. He then walks to me and hugs me out of happiness. He said to me," that is exactly why I want to kill you. you know how long I have been waiting for this moment, I wanted to kill someone like you for a long time". I thought "what a dreamer". In prototype when he kills someone he could have their power. He was sad that he had to kill me though. I didn't care because I knew it was a dream. I was just angry that he was distracting me.He picked up a dead solider and he told me that the solider ratted on me. He tossed the dead solider's body on the floor, and he started telling me a story about the virus. He said,"after the virus infected people humans were being sold off to be killed. At last now...(I don't remember what he was saying because I was trying to walk away). I responded that is good. He said "no" in a desperate voice,"they sold us for only one penny!" I woke up instantly.

Reflection: My anger really shined in this dream. The scene transforming, my sister transforming was due to my negative energy. But it is what it is, next time I would handle this type of situation with love. I don't know how though, I don't want to be distracted by DC even if they look like family members.

Journal Entry Lucid #5 Dream, Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background: One thing I have changed in my routines lately is my meditation. I have been doing love and kindness meditation. I enjoyed it very much. When I woke up around 2:40 am, I studied for my exam and didn't expect to become lucid since I didn't read anything to do with LD. Before going to sleep I accepted that I can have a LD, and it doesn't matter what day it is. While going to sleep, finding a comfortable position, I said to myself," next time I am dreaming I will realize that I am dreaming" I said this a couple of times. I didn't let it stress me out though.

Dream fragment 1 from 4:40am-6:01am"": I was in a class room about to do some test. I asked people do we have a test they told me yes. I got mad and complained about not having enough time. I then got really upset towards the teacher.

Dream 1 from 4:40am-6:01am"Genie ": I found myself on the computer. I got up and realized that the time passed for me to go to school to do my quize. It still looked like night time though. I got upset and was running back and forth for some reason. I ran to my parents room and my dad was sleeping. I thought that is strange he can't be home this early if he took my mom to work. I heard a horrible piano player in my garage. Usually if anything suspicious happen in waking life, I would excuse it by some explanation but since I have started doing RC, if a weird or bizarre thing has occurred I would assume it is a dream and do a RC. I still hear that annoying piano player.I thought this is a dream.

I woke up in my room and I thought hmm, let me do a RC. My body was out of sync with my mind and was already doing an action of it's own. I ran to my room door and I saw my shadow run in front of me. That was when it clicked.

I said this is definitely a dream. This time the dream didn't try and disintegrate itself so I didn't bother rubbing my hands. I walked over to my living room and was about to go outside using the front door. I walked half way and saw to my left a dark pathway to the front door, and to my right I saw my backyard with some light on. I stopped and thought if I go to my left I might wake up, the right (backyard) does seem reasonable. I went outside and hoped over the fence to my neighbors yard. I made up the scene. I went into their "house" and came out to where they put the trash. I thought let me try and meditate. I jumped into the air and put my legs into meditative pose, hopping to fly like I did in another LD. I fell right away. It felt painful for a slight second. I started concentrating, but I didn't close my eyes because dream might change. I saw my legs start to float above me, while legs crossed in meditation posture. My legs fell when I stopped concentrating on the breath. I tried again, I told myself to feel the breath and it's lightness. This time my whole body flew up.

I saw this little genie like spirit, when I mean spirit it was blueish and it was kind of see through. It was not an actual spirit. It appeared and I thought the most natural thing to do was to follow it. I started to fly with it. We kept flying around for quite some time. I saw some houses, but the dream was starting to loss it's details. This should have been the time I did the hand rubbing thing and reminded myself that it was a dream, but I was too interested in flying more. My father appeared and he was trying to tell me advice. I didn't want to hear him so I flew with the genie, some how he followed us. He kept saying, "you should not LD all the time", and he said that in the most automated voice I could think of. He then said, " you can trust this genie because Buddhists don't believe in demons". I got fed up with his constant phrases so I said to him at first with anger," Shut up! I know what I am doing". He looked very sad and I didn't want to create a negative outcome in the dream so I said, "sorry, dad, I didn't mean to yell at you, but I know what I am doing, I love you". I hugged him, even though he was a DC.

As we were flying by I saw this plant rising from the floor next to some ladies. I wanted to test control so I landed and imagined the plants rising up like an explosion, with the concrete on the floor destroyed, you know something epic. I then lifted my hands up. "Whoop" nothing, I thought, "I need to work on control." I flew away following the genie and the genie took me to a well. My dad followed us their again. I saw these plants and they looked beautiful. They had this little opening on the top of them, like a rose. My dad was either going to get some water from the well or he was going to touch the rose. I stopped him when I notice that the rose shot a little dart and it gushed out poison. After I did that their was no genie. I woke up. I wanted to go to sleep. The position I woke up in was not bad but realized that it was 6:00 and I had an alarm set up for 6:10 to get prepared for the exam.

Journal Entry Lucid #4 Dream, Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background:
Dream fragment 1 from 4:30am-5:372am"": I was walking with this girl down a street. She was saying something about going to the other side faster. Then we hopped on top of a bus station. She got bored of waiting and saw a train coming she jumped and I followed. We realized that it was transporting prisoners and I jumped out knowing that polices don't play. She stayed but their was someone else with her now. The guy that was on it ended up being on a Documentary that I was watching. He was crying about his stupidity. The music started and the screen started to fade as if it was ending. It then popped back up, and they are playing basket ball. I thought to myself let me see if I can participate with them and I reached out for the ball.

As soon as I did that I became fully lucid. I started moving the basket ball back and forth creating pysical motion and thus the dream didn't end. I realized that I wanted to do something so I let go of ball. The dream started fading again so I started rubbing my hands together. The dream was constantly trying to disintegrate. I kept trying to maintain it. It went pitch black I thought to myself think about the sensation of your hands moving together. I came back into the dream. The dream was highly detailed. I can see the tiles. I tried touching the tiles and I saw this little baby face on one of the tiles. Their was four in one tile. I thought that is strange but I didn't care because I was lucid . I grabbed the basketball from the DC and they were asking me to give it back to them. I screamed at the dream, "THIS IS A DREAM AND i COULD DO WHAT EVER I WANT." I felt my voice come all around me, it felt good and refreshing. I had a thought of insecurity slip that said their is people around you. I responded I don't care this is a dream. I gave the basketball back to DC and they acted like nothing has happened. I thought what could I do. I was still dependent on my hand rubbing together and the dream has not stabilized. I wanted to fly but knew that it would wake me up. I wanted to do something big but I couldn't with out my hands. I thought what is the best way to minimize effort, without losing track of hand rubbing motion. I remember that I can conjure up things just by turning away and turning back. I also remembered when I had a training exercise for LDing in a partial LD that doors can be portals. I turned around and created a doors. These doors I envisioned would take me to places, somewhere exciting. Their was multiple doors next to each other. I went to one of them and it read, "STEWI" I laughed at it, and went in. I was inside of a library. I was amazed by something and I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid#3 /Semi-Lucid Dream,Lucid, Semi-Lucid, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I slept earlier again. I have been sleeping earlier for some reason. I prepared this time and meditated 30 minutes before I normally get sleepy. I still got sleepy while meditating, but the difference was I didn't lose consciousnesses of it. I realized I was falling asleep and I would immediately get back into posture.

Dream fragment 1, from 7:50pm-12:42am"": I had a dream about my neighbors for some reason. I don't remember the details that much, but I remember my fence was either torn or I was flying over it.

I got up and played some video games. I was just trying to be happy since I have been sad for a couple of days. I watched something. After a while close to 4:10am. I was getting sleepy. I closed my eyes for a while. I started seeing all these images (people, things, random things)and sounds playing in my mind. I started to remind myself that these are just the construction of my mind and that I should not be convinced by them. I was sitting next to my bed legs crossed with my eyes closed. The images started to be more detailed and consistent. I was getting too involved with the images and I started talking to my sister and I realized that I was still in my room siting down. I got up right away. My heart was pounding. I then said a phrase to remind myself that I will be dreaming soon. I then went to sleep on my side.

Dream fragment 2, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was at the parking lot of my school. I think I realized I was dreaming. The dream scene changed. I woke up. I started talking to someone about life and I said that life is a dream we can experience together, and that I believe I was in life's dream. I saw my cousin, sister and a random women. I told them that this is a dream and if we want to have lucid dream we have to hold hands and meditate on life's dream (or life's illusion). My sister and cousin left because they thought it was stupid. The random girl stayed. I don't know her, but for some reason I cared about her. I was on the floor looking at the details of my bed. She was standing right in front of me. This was when I payed attention to her. I looked at her, she was black and she was wearing just a bra and underwear. She asked me why I want to have a LD with her. I told her when you are lucid you are so much more smarter. Her and as a general statement.

Dream fragment 3 from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was spectating a life of a newbie "gangster" lol. He was being taught how to snatch people's hat on the road. We were now on the free way. I saw him drive past a parked car then he came back around and drove backwards and stole his hat. The guy was completely clueless.


Dream fragment 4, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was walking with this guy. I suspect he was the first guy I told about "life's dream". We were going past this market place. These people were informing people on what gives diarrhea. They wanted us to buy their product so they kept hassling us. We politely declined. They brought these impersonators. They acted like they were ninjas. They hit the stranger I was with. At first he didn't bother do anything but ignore them. He got mad and did some weird move and took out the guy, put him to sleep, and he kicked the girl as a warning. He was supposed to be Bruce Lee's son.


Dream fragment 5, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was now semi-lucid and I was being trained in the dream, flying skills. I was told to fly around a river or a lake, but the color of the water looked like tropical water, light baby blue. It was a beautiful scenery. The mountains rose up high, the fresh air hits the skin, the trees, and the sound of the water. It was a harmonious place. I tried going up at first it felt more like a 0-gravity. I never felt it but I was barely flying. I was spinning around while trying to go a couple of feet. I started to use my will to control myself, I think the body of water also influenced me. I can't swim for a long period of time, but it was pure willpower. I aligned my body first. After it was straight I felt like I could fly normal. I didn't fly like the superman. I had my hands backwards, unlike superman. I flew around with ease and it felt natural. Of course this is not my first time flying in a lucid dream, but this time I did it with ease.


Dream fragment 6, from 4:30am-6:07am"": The dream changed. I was less aware of myself, but I was still a little aware and I felt like I could do anything I wanted. Me and a couple of people were on a mountain around Chile. I saw this military truck passing by on the mountain. It had bio-hazard mark on it. I thought it would be cool to try and use telekinesis. I looked at the truck and lifted my hand. I aimed my right arm pointing at the truck with my hands( like iron man). I clenched my fist and the truck exploded. It was decently far away, but I saw this nuke go off. It was a small nuke but I could see the shock wave coming towards us. The mushroom cloud was rising up high and spreading through the air. Since the truck was at a lower level elevation and far away the cloud was rising up to us. The shock wave was still coming for us. Once it hit, we were on the ground. None of us died. I said sorry to the crowd. They said it was nothing. The mushroom cloud disappeared. We started smelling this rubber burning smell mixed with something else. It was horrible. It was making it harder to breath. We tried to run away but we were coughing like crazy. We glitched on the map we couldn't pass a certain boundary. I told my self just like a game I can leave, so I did.


Dream fragment 7, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was now semi-lucid again and flying. The clarity in this dream increased drastically. I was back in the training area with the body of water. I was flying when I became semi-lucid. I was enjoying the flight around the lake until I saw my family next to this little bridge on top of the lake. They were walking on the water. They told me to join them. I never consciously walked on the water I thought. I believed that I could do it. I started lower my self to the water. My feet went through it and I felt the water. I flew up again and thought about my experience with solids and how they behave. I told myself I never sank through a solid before. I then told myself to believed that the water will now act like any other solid I ever experienced. I put my foot on the water again, this time I landed without going through it. I started running around the body of water like a madman all happy. I saw these fishes underneath me. I was blown away by the spectacular moment that I am experiencing, I had a little doubt. I noticed my doubt right away and reinforced belief. But my mother said,"watch he is going to fall inside". When I heard her I fell immediately. I didn't sink though I instead started to fly away. It was hard at first because of my unbelief after sinking in. I reminded myself flying before and I started to fly. I went up very slowly and dramatically. My hands raised to my stomach like dragon ball z characters. I asked my mom why she said that. She responded, "You were going to fall anyways. I didn't do anything."

Journal Entry Lucid #2 Dream,Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background: I woke up around 3 and I tried to make some music on my computer. I read just a little bit. I did 2 or 3 reality checks just because. I didn't read Stephan LaBarge's book like I usually do. I was very sad. I tried to go to sleep at first and failed. I read my vows then I tried to go back to sleep. I started listening to some music. As I was listening to the music I imagined myself crushing all my problems. Destroying it from the Earth. I told my self it wasn't good that I am destroying but it was for a noble reason, freedom. I kept doing this. I didn't know that their was some emotional tension because I began to cry while doing the visualization. I went to sleep wanting a lucid dream but accepted the fact that I may not get one and I just wanted to sleep.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:40am-5:22am"": It was pitch dark and I found myself in the hallway of my house. I started hearing these loud vibration sounds. I thought who could be making all those sounds. Fear came in my mind. I then saw my grandma's room light so I thought maybe she is brushing her teeth in her room. I was about to use bathroom but it was too dark to pee, so I tried to turn on the light. It didn't turn on. I thought, "that's odd it took it a while to turn on" then realized it didn't turn on. I became lucid. I then ended up on my bed I tried to stay in dream, but it was pitch black so I gave up. I then awoken but I did WBTB right away. I didn't move my body. I started feeling the vibrations along with some nice sensations. I wasn't too scared of the vibrations this time. I thought to myself I can go back into this dream. I was in my room again. I knew it wasn't my physical body so I tried to wiggle out of this paralysis that I felt in the dream. I tried furiously and failed. I tried to move, nothing. So, I thought to myself I should just try and keep my awareness. I then heard these two guys talking outside my room. I tried listening to what they were saying. I was scared and I found my body on the floor next to my closet. I could move now, so I started to move my hands. The dream started to fade. I woke up in my room and the light was on. I looked at my hands, not reality check. I thought since I could see the room it was not a dream and with that thought I woke up.

Journal Entry #Lucid 1 (Lucid, non-dream)

Background: This is my first post. I am not good at writing so this may not seem interesting at all, but nonetheless it was to me. This would be my 16th lucid dream but most of them are not long, due to me not stabilizing the dream when I have the chance, just like this one. This is my 2nd WILD experience the other one was a very intense dream compared to this. I just want to post the process in which both times became successful, so that I won't forget and maybe it might help others get some idea of there own.

My process:

1) I don't know if this will affect a WILD, but I do about 20-24 reality checks during the day. I aim for 2 an hour but I sometimes might do 3 or 4 and sometimes just one an hour.

2) I drank lots of water before going to sleep. My bladder i guess likes to wake me up 3-5 hrs depending on what time I sleep. If I sleep at 8 pm, I would wake up at 12:30 am, 9 pm at 2, and so on.

3) So wake up in night and write down your dreams before you pee. This is actually very important, by placing importance on your dream instead of your bladder, your brain will place importance for it as well.

4) This is also important: MEDITATE. You know the usual meditation, close your eyes, concentrate on the breath, for this particular mediation do not try and control the breath, and come back to the breath when thoughts arrive. Also do it in the dark helps you concentrate. You could also do a simple phrase meditation, " I will realize that I am dreaming" This made me a critical thinker in a dream and helped me question my dream state, but this will not give you a WILD. (I am not good at meditation. And the experience won't always be the same, so don't expect too much) I do a short 10 min meditation sometimes 15 min I until develop sharp concentration, but feel free to do more or less.

5) Fail at an OBE: Kind of sounds weird but failing an OBE (out ot body experience will take you to a dream).The first time I laid there motionless for some time and with little success of an OBE, so I gave up and went to sleep, and woke up directly in a dream. The second time, I was listening to binaural beat made by the great Robert Monroe, as he likes to call it Hemi-sync. If you guessed I failed again, I laid there for 1 hr motionless, without realizing it. But when I stopped trying and told myself to go to sleep I became successful, not with OBE, but with sleep paralysis. As I was almost asleep I heard Robert Monroe's voice, "remember what you want" I don't know if it was from the audio that I was listening to or if it was the hallucination. I said to myself, I want to come out of my body. I started feeling the vibration, and also the hallucination. I started hearing a sinister laughter, very high in pitch, it was terrifying. I was terrified, of not only the wild hallucination, but the vibrations. This was my first Sleep paralysis experience as well. So instead of trying to come out my body, after the vibrations have subsided, I let the dream take over. (to be continued down in the dream section)

DREAM: I saw the dream being formed, and no it does not have to be as delicate as other lucid dreamers make it to be, mine was a little bit aggressive. I saw numbers, colors, random objects flying over, I was spinning along side the numbers and objects, which can only be described as an acid trip. And I look down I see all these blocks. They looked pretty simple at first, but when I thought, "is this a city?" it became a city. let me remind you that I was floating in the air as the dream is being made. Then I started falling, and as I was about to hit the ground I couldn't help but think about Prototype, the game. I hit the ground, the floor cracked and the shock wave killed some people. I saw the people running, I kept telling them that it was an accident and they don't have to fear me.( I like pleasant dreams and pleasant lucid dreams). Every one I turned to started running, even if they didn't see me do it, the fact that it was in my conscious, triggered them to run. So I thought for a minute how do I convince them I am a good guy. I imagined a cyclops to appear, I turned and looked, and there was a cyclops. I started to fly and I beat the cyclops with one punch to the face. They cheered and accepted me as a good guy. The dream was starting to get fuzzy, and I lost my lucidity.

Update to self:
I have not came across a technique that works perfectly yet.
I have came across techniques that work sometimes and not other times.
My idea is doing everything out of happiness and love. In most of my LD, I normally go to sleep content not raging for a LD, but still wanting to LD.
So what ever can make it more enjoyable then it is worth the time. Even reading books, watching a show, as long as you are happy with still focused mindset on LD you might get it.
Meditation is important as well but again do it out of happiness. I started doing love and kindness meditation out of love and happiness and I had consecutive LD those nights.
2/16/16: came back to read my first entry on the website. Since I have fallen short on LD because my focus changed to school, I lost my motivation. I come back to read my first post, and this is a reminder to future me that happen to glance at this page: I know that school is important, but it does not give me happiness. To remind myself: Why do I practice lucid dreaming? Its because life is short, and it is best to live it to the fullest, live it lucid.