non-lucid

Journal Entry non-lucid #34 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I didn't do any type of meditation. I didn't do any incubation or visualizations.

Dream fragment 1, 8:13pm-2:52am."": I remember walking to the living room. My sister was watching sponge-bob with me. She gave me a sandwich, she asked me to put something on it. As I was walking to the kitchen I thought what was that darn thing she asked for. I opened up drawers. I walked back to her and I said what did you want again? she said mayonnaise, I asked mayo or mayonnaise? not catching they are the same thing my sister said mayonnaise, I didn't catch it either. I went outside and I saw this machine that spun around squirting water all over the place and it propels itself.

I also remember my mother telling me about spirituality, and the part I remember most was an advice she gave me, "remember what makes you happy and try to let go what doesn't".I thought this was a much needed advice. I woke up feeling like crap on my neck and I realized I was tossing and turning nearly the whole night.

Journal Entry non-lucid #33 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:.
I didn't do any technique. I didn't meditate or even RC the day before. Why? I took an exam for chemistry and I couldn't stop thinking about it. It drove me mad. I tried to sustain it but couldn't. And boy did my dream recall suck.

Dream fragment 1, 8:46pm-2:14am."": I was in chemistry class and I didn't do lab. I remember being sad. The group was mad at me because I wasn't trying hard enough. And this guy was telling me humans could live in harmony with animals, there was a deer right next to me. I forgot where I lived so I searched in the air. I was also at the beach

Too lazy 2 write it today, so I will write it tomorrow.

Journal Entry non-lucid #31 Dream, non-dream (Comments)

Background: I prepared for sleep early. I made some juice well it wasn't really juice. I took out some avocado and I pealed it. I put it into a paper cup and I grinned it up with a knife after getting the inside. I put a little amount of water in their. I added a banana, and did the same with the banana inside of it. I added a little amount of milk. And I put some grapes, I had to hand squeeze though. After I had some of that I made me some tea, I thought it was the "calm chamomile" but it something else. The tea tasted nasty so I ate some cookies with it. I tried doing a sleep meditation by Diana Winston from UCLA. I feel asleep before I could commence with the mantras and the visualization. Hopefully tomorrow.

Dream fragment 1, 8:15pm-1:10am."": I was with my cousin FN and she asked me to look for her shoe for her. At first I said no but I said ok

Dream fragment 2, 8:15pm-1:10am."": I helped a girl from my Chemistry class with mathematics.

Dream fragment 3, 8:15pm-1:10am."": I was in chemistry class and we were sitting in a hexagon table like usually. I was with this Asian guy that is from my chemistry class, and another guy. We watched a video about mortality. I don't recall the video. The Asian guy asked me a question(I don't recall) about mortality. I told him it is nice to be alive or to believe you are, and who knows what if we enjoy death. I looked at my body and felt my life force, IDK how to explain it. The dream clarity increase tremendously when I felt my life force. I turned around and they were gone. I thought that is strange. I looked at my hands and started to count, I don't remember if I had a certain amount of fingers. I turn back around and they were right their. The Asian guy smiled at me.

Dream fragment 4, 8:15pm-1:10am."": I was inside church. I saw my counselor and I had to wait to talk to her because she was busy with a lot of people. BS dad was looking for him. They asked me and I didn't know. This multiracial girl, who look an islander came and hugged my counselor saying, "you're so fluffy". I thought it was an insult and looked at her weird and my counselor did same. She said I am sorry I didn't know you spoke English.

I walked to my room (environmental change). I had a half eaten doughnut and I was about to throw it away but I saw my cousin, SA. She was on my PS3. I asked her if she wanted it. She was so happy. She had a twinkle in her eyes. This kid from church, BT, tried to play on my PS3. I asked them if they seen BS. They said he sneaked out. He went into this opening in my closet. I thought how strange once you tell someone the truth and give them freewill, they immediately do something bad. I went outside to investigate.

I got distracted by my sister. She was in the car with many other people. She had her window opened only to the point that I could see her eyes and half her nose. She was on the right side of the car, European style. She said something that was personal. I responded, "look at you! In your half dream state, you don't even know what you are saying". She said, "what?". I tried to explain it to her but she couldn't comprehended. I thought about how she acted in her dream like state and thought maybe that is why she can't LD. She drove off like a manic. I turned around and I see my house, and my sister going their. Their was all these guys, 6 feet something tall. They were all black as well. I became angry, I didn't want them in my house. I told them they better leave or I will stab them with a knife. I told them that this is private property and if i hurt them I will not be responsible. This one guy walked into the garage. I ran into the house and grabbed a kitchen knife. I go to the garage and he has a hammer. He tried to hit me and he missed. I went back to the garage to get a longer knife. I could hear him hitting the wall as if he forgot why he was swinging in the first place. I run back down and they were gone. The walls were ok. I saw my sister drive off. I saw a cop car on the other side on my neighbor's house. Apparently my grandmother moved out and lived in front of our house. The cop was no other than my Calc I, teacher. I asked him to come over so we can talk about what happened. He said he has to talk to his grandmother. I thought wait what.

I turn around and I see a man from my Calc III class, PY. He was now a math teacher. I was going to be in one of his classrooms. He was talking to this guy. The scene looked dark and rainy. As I was trying to talk to PY, he turned around. So I walked through the gates and followed them. They were laughing and talking very loudly. We went up stair and their is a music class room their. They are still talking very loudly. Everybody was looking at them funny. One old lady had the courage to ask them to lower their voices down.

I got up multiple times during this time. And I finally got up at 1:10 am and stayed up until 5:00. In that time span, I tried making music and I watched videos, and I talked to my sister. Yeah she sleeps real late. I also drank some tea.

Dream fragment 5, 5:10pm-7:23am."": I was driving my car in the freeway with my parents. I was loosing control of the wheel it felt like someone was grabbing on to it. I saw a hand but no person. I got into a little car accident where my bumper kissed another. I said I can't drive under these conditions and I parked the car at the side of the free way. A lot of people were there as well. My dad found an an awkward sink and he pointed out how weird it was. I on the other hand was embarrassed that he was using a sink to wash his face in the middle of the freeway.

Dream fragment 6, 5:10pm-7:23am."": I was talking to my teacher about my grades but the assignments I had didn't match his. He kept asking me for a certain paper and I tell him and they don't match. He kept asking me, but I stopped responding. He asked me why. I told him we don't have the same assignments. A TA came inside and got on a lap top. He had chicken grease all over the laptop. I started singing for some reason.

Journal Entry non-lucid #30 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I slept later than usual. Typical Monday recall= bad.

Dream fragment 1, 10:20pm-4:00am."": I was at some party and I meditated with my sister's teacher.

Journal Entry non-lucid #29 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: Technique that I was practicing was MILD.
Dream fragment 1, 8:46pm-1:14am."": I was with this old man. He was tutoring me about something. They told me I have to leave. I went with the old man. We were going towards a military truck. The old man left with another car. I had a war machine gun on my car. I plowed through the gates to get in. I saw my friend HR inside of a car. He convinced me that he was friendly. Him and his friends tried to get the old man inside their car. I put a gernade in the car to kill him, my friend. I got the old man. My friend was mad. He said why you triying to kill me. I told him he tried to trick me. Then he turned into my father and he said you were going to burn your own father.

Dream fragment 2, 8:46pm-1:14am I was venom from spider man, it looked pretty cartoony. Their was alot of venoms in the street. We had to try and kill the hulk.


I got up to do a WBTB. Had a hard time going back to sleep.

Journal Entry non-lucid #28 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1, 8:42pm-1:51am."": I helped my sister look for a ride. I think in the parking lot I tried to sleep. I got up and I saw all these people recording me with their iphones and cameras. I saw lebron james running, he had a full grown beard. He was angry because he's not famous anymore, and nobody cared about him. This other guy next to me got yelled at by Lebron about something. We decided to do some sort of exchange. I take picture of him thus giving him his fame back and he did something with other guy to return favor.

Dream fragment 2, 4:01am-6:00amThis guy took over my room and I had no where to sleep. I was angry at first. I looked at his hands and he had this gassy substance with him. I read SO3, I thought it was chemical. It was inside a water bottle, and I thought oh man that is going to convert into sulfuric acid, H2SO4. It started turning black and bubbling. I don't know what color it actually is suppose to be but I saw black. He fell asleep with it and I tried to wake him up to remove it.

Journal Entry non-lucid #26 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: Wow I am becoming very lazy. I will write down my dream tomorrow, but for context I want the same date that I had the dream.
Dream fragment 1, 5:01am-6:10am."": Something about robbery

Journal Entry non-lucid #25 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: My cousin was telling me about his first LD. I was happy for his fast success, btw he did it with WILD. He doesn't have to do reality checks. For some reason he has SP with imagery at the beginning of sleep. I wish somebody told me about LD when I was a kid.

Dream fragment 1, 5:01am-6:10am."": Me, another girl and another boy were trying to change the school system. We confronted one teacher. We changed the thermostat. We walked up or down these stairs. It was the weirdest stairs ever. It was an illusion of going up but we were actually going down. As we were going through the stairs, an Asian kid pops up and starts telling me about the mistreatment of black people along time ago. As he was telling me this I thought yes that is true but the mistreatment of fellow Asian is unspoken of. The kid started changing back and forth between Asian and black. We tried to navigate around the weird school. We saw stairs that led to more stairs, particularly smaller stairs. I saw stairs coming out of the wall. I lost the two other people with me, but I finally came outside of the school. I saw this guy throwing food at these workers. I warned him if he throws something at me we will have problems. I walked up to a table and I saw really old friends from middle school. I said, whats up and named them. I was spot on in the dream.

Dream fragment 2, 5:01am-6:10am I was playing some music on my computer. Their was some white kid in my house. Well their was two but I met one of them first. I wast telling him about LD. I told him how it is much easier to master if you are a child. One child seemed very interested and wanted to learn more the other one started rolling his eyes. I told him about how my cousin, after me badgering him to try LD, tried it and had a LD in a day's time. I then searched something on the internet and found a Russian cat video. The cat was about 5 ft in the video. I then had a cat in my house and I was trying to give it a bath. It got scared and hid under my bed.

Journal Entry non-lucid #25 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I resolved the problem with my father and he wished me good dreams.

Dream fragment 1, 4:13am-7:43am."": I was given all these powers in the dream. I was flying around and I saw a train from a distance. I landed next to it. The rails that were derailed came back together saving the people. I flew around and landed to get on a bus. I sat next to an elderly women. She fell asleep right next to me. The other women, to the left asked me not to destroy the bus. I got up and stood in the middle of the bus. Somehow this child got on my hand. I picked it up and looked at it from a distance. It started to cry. I put it closer to me it started to relax. The mother rushes towards me thinking that I took her child.

Dream fragment 2, 3:51am-6:50amI was in my garage. Me and two other guys were hiding, we acted like it was WWII and Nazis are patrolling the hallways. They knocked and asked if anybody was there. We were hiding under a bed. This guy starts giggling. We told him to shut up but he wouldn't listen. He held his mouth and started to laugh. Then he said, "there is never a bad moment to laugh. He started laughing with no restraint. The Nazis didn't come in like I anticipated them to. Now we had to get rid of the bed. We threw it outside. We realized that we left money in the bed. We looked inside and there was nothing. My dad told me that we have to retrieve the bed back and throw away the other one. I drove a block away and forgot what I was doing and drove back. I saw the bed in the middle of the street being blown by the wind. I grabbed it and took it to the trash. I saw this police car drive past me. I thought,"act real busy they won't bother you". Then I saw a fire truck. Then I thought, "what happened? did the world end?" Then I hear sirens going off. I hear people screaming. I look up in wonder of the sky. I see jets flying very low. I thought it is the end of the world and I was trying to go back inside the garage. It felt like I was on a treadmill and I couldn't go to the garage. I saw this black guy, gangster wanna be, park his car. I thought he was going to my neighbors' house but he started walking to my house. I forgot about world ending and paid attention to him. My sister invited him. I was not found of her inviting strangers over. I grabbed some screw driver. When he saw that he came up to me and shook my hands. I shook my head, like we understand each other. I went to the kitchen and this guy phased through the wall and shook my hands and evaporated.

Journal Entry non-lucid #24 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I argued with my mother and when I woke up around 11pm and again at 2pm I couldn't remember anything.
Dream fragment 1, 4:13am-7:43am."": It was pretty realistic and gruesome. I thought I was watching news or something. This crazy lady in Africa was running around belligerent. She had a knife and was trying to cut people. Most people ran away from forming a circle around her. I turned around and turned back she grabbed a women by her neck and cut her neck straight off. I saw the eyes roll back the blood drip down from the women's decapitated neck. It sent shiver down my back. She laughed menacingly as the crowd looked in disgust. In one hand she had the head which she raised to the air, and in the other a child maybe around 7 or 8 years old. The child was terrified and was trying to escape. The women wouldn't let her go. I thought why don't they kill her already. Then a sniper shot her and it chipped her head across her eyes. She fell to the floor. The little girl was about to go to her mother, but the lady get up. She grabs the little girl. Her eyes were missing and you could see the chunk of meat was gone. The little girl screamed and the crazy women died. I thought why would she do that just to traumatize the girl.

-something about breaking bad airing again and I had to get ready to cook something.

Journal Entry non-lucid #23 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I argued with my dad before I went to sleep. I then broke one of my vows while talking to him, I made a vow to myself not to talk to them about LD or anything relating to it because they are negative and I don't like it. My dad told me that dreams are worthless. I left after he said that because I didn't want to hear it. I don't know how much importance my subconscious puts on my parents' words. When I stopped talking to them about LD, my LD went up. As I did yesterday and talked to them I don't even remember what dreams I had. The negative energy they gave me made it very hard to meditate as well. I hope tonight I can have a LD or even remember my dreams because me and mom had a conversation that made me sad.

Dream fragment 1, time is not important because I couldn't remember anything through out the night."": I remember I was driving a car and I had to steal something.

Journal Entry non-lucid #22 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:
Dream fragment 1 from 9:10pm-3:20am" Eventually we will die": I was with my little cousin, AL, and I did a reality check. I looked at my hands and looked back but I don't remember if I didn't follow through or it failed. After doing a reality check I got crowded by the dream and went for a ride. I walked around and these old folks were mugging me, giving me all sorts of ugly faces. My mom comes over and asks me to help out the old people. I said no they could help themselves. She looked at me in shock I responded we all get old eventually and we all will die. I thought about the consequence of karma, "this might happen to me when I get old", but my anger took the best of me. I didn't care.

- Also I was doing some math problem and this guy from my class comes over and moves my spot to sit. I didn't seem to mind in the dream though.
- I was also with these ladies and they led me to some hot looking vampire chicks.

Journal Entry non-lucid #21 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:
Dream fragment 1 from 8:30am-2:10am" Self Preception": I was inside a store and I was shopping for cloth. I got a little bio of the guy, apparently he used to work in a store before he went with his intuition and created his own. He walked up to me and he told me not to burn my old cloth before looking at their cloth. I said you think I am crazy. Then I looked at my self, I am not sure if it was a mirror but I saw my image or the image I think of myself. My hair was unevenly cut and my beard was all over the place.

Other dream fragment(not enough details)
-Trying to find some sort of good healthy food to eat from. I went with my sister some where.
-Was doing some math problems with, my friend TO. Some endless problem.

Journal Entry non-lucid #20 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 9:10pm-2:40am"": I was working on a math problem with TO and other people. We discussed this math problem together and I was wrong. I kept working on the math problem trying to get it right.

Dream fragment 2 from 9:10pm-2:40am"": I was passing by a race. I saw this buff man throw a car like it was nothing, a monster truck. He did some cool moves. I asked him what muscle he exercise he told me thumbs.

Dream fragment 3 from 9:10pm-2:40am"": I was trying to do a prank, but didn't. I was spectating some girls life. The towns people or her friends wanted her to stop seeing her boyfriend, she kept refusing. This man came to her and started waving a credit card at her to ditch her boyfriend. When all else failed they threatened to kill her boyfriend. She wouldn't listen. She started running to her boyfriend. She saw him through the window and he had this thing connected to his waist. It exploded, she fell with laughter. It looked like he farted when it exploded and it didn't kill him. It just look like he took a massive dump. Every body laughed but me.

Also dark vadar was wearing an Irish skirt with the instrument playing the star wars theme song.