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Journal Entry non-lucid #19 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 10:20pm-4:00am" Kid from church": B was the theme of the dream. I don't know what he was doing, but he was there.
I found out while in church that a kid has sleep paralysis and he feels his body going inside of him. I became excited and told him the possibilities that await him with L.D. He was excited but more scared than excited and he told me he is just a kid and doesn't want to do that. I was jealous because I have been trying to induce SP so I have been thinking about that.
Dream fragment 2 from 10:20pm-4:00am" My sister's driving": I was in a P.E. room. I ran across these crazy girls. My friend, EY was all the way on the other side. I reached him and we were talking about something. I turned around and I saw my sister driving like a maniac she nearly ran over this weird girl dancing in the freeway. I then called my sister to tell her to stop driving like that she won't pick up. I tried again and again she won't pick up. I then called my cousin, but she was already walking towards me. So, I told her to confront my sister about her driving. She told me to calm down. We went into the school building. I showed her my apartment. It was a luxurious apartment. Nice carpeting, huge flat screen tv, and artifact all over the walls. I tried calling sister again and the phone was calling random people. I woke up and went back to sleep

Dream fragment 3 from 4:05am-5:30am" Skyscraper football": My uncle was in my apartment and he was telling my cousin that he needs the teacher's signature. She didn't want to. I was looking out the window and boy was it a view. I lived on a skyscraper. My uncle then took us to the top of the apartment complex. A whole football field was their. Then he took out a coach. The coach was yelling at my cousin she was scared and started to cry. My uncle told her she better start respecting him.

Dream fragment 4 from 5:33am-6:09am" Stop a bully": I left the building after talking with my dad. I was walking with this fat girl. she was talking to me about school and I was walking with her to this tall building. As I was walking I looked at my hands and I was about to start counting, but I didn't. The girl then confronted this bully that was surrounded by lava. She told her to stop bullying people or else she would throw her into the lava.

Journal Entry non-lucid #18 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Circus Job": I was working at some sort of circus show. I had to work there to remain at the place. I saw some all around me from the stage smoke. Don't really remember the details.

Dream fragment 2 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Driving in freeway": I was driving in the freeway to go to church. My parents were right in front of me. Then we pulled over some place

Dream fragment 3 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Wrong Mother": I was in my house arguing with my parents. They told me to stop LD, they were both frustrated with me because of my refusal. And my mom was white, but I didn't notice. I went to my mother and she was trying to sleep, and I told her I love her and I didn't mean for the conversation to turn into an argument. She told me she loves me no matter what. I thought, "wow a mothers love is unconditional." Then I saw this creature or shadow pass by. I said what was that? she said what. I didn't see anything. I then did a cheap RC. A women from my church that got me sick was in my dream.

Dream fragment 4 from 4:30pm-6:34am" Acting like a dream": I woke up in my room and I walked to the kitchen to pick up some food. The women from my dream was in my house. I thought that is strange why is she here. Instead of asking myself I asked her what is she doing here? She responded, "I stayed the night at your place". I accepted her explanation and went on with getting some food. She was over there eating some chicken. She was talking about orange chickens. I then walked over to my sister who was washing some dishes. I looked at one of the forks and they were melded together with other metal forks. I didn't question that for some reason. These teenage boys were running around with this BB gun/ nail gun they asked me to pass them a clip. I looked at it for a minute. My father came home and I didn't want to show him what I have so I hid it and I hugged him. I looked at my dads clothing and he had this small and ridiculous jacket on. I told him about it. He said oh yeah i have another one. He takes out this huge jacket that was up to his feet. I then saw them run out my house. I went around the back to give them their gun which was black at first it turned full orange.

I put it in my pocket for later usage. As I was observing a swimming pool this old man comes and tells us to do something. I got mad out of nowhere and punched him. He got knocked out and I said, "he always disrespects us." This other old man was looking at me. He had a shady look and resembled a mobster. I clenched my nail gun. He tells me we have to talk. Then a bunch of old geezers surrounded me, they all looked like they belong in the mob. As I was talking to him I realized there was too much people in my house, so I took him to my parents house. I told him I didn't want to hurt him but he never respects us and he treats like children. He told me to forget about that and we will forget about what happen hear. His friend comes over and tells me to eat a cupcake to honor our resolution. I hesitate but I ate it. It tasted delicious by the way. Then when I was walking to dinning room they said wow that was some great acting. I was on a movie set. I thought wow, they need someone that is totally convinced that they are in the movie for them to get good acting, just like I believe I am in a movie I normally do in a dream. I then woke up and went back to sleep after using bathroom.


Dream fragment 5 from 6:40am-8:04am" Weird guy plays with feces": I was walking in my school. I came out of the food area. This guy pops out and I showed him animal feces and said isn't that disgusting. He said yes that is. It was different colors from different animals. He grabbed it and started smashing it together. He said, "does that bother you?" I said yes that bothers me a lot.

Journal Entry non-lucid #17 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I tried to meditate before going to sleep, but I accidentally fell asleep. I got up and drank some nasty water, then went back to sleep. I woke up feeling like crap later on and could barely remember the dream. I didn't go back to sleep after that.

Dream fragment 1 from 7:40pm-1:34am"": This Indian girl from my class was trying to help me with math homework.

Journal Entry non-lucid #16 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 9:20pm-2:52am"": Construction workers and I wanted to go on top of this huge crane. They were building a bridge of some sort. I was also racing down a mountain. I remembered after writing down old dream.

Journal Entry non-lucid #15 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 8:40pm-1:47am" I can't hear you": I was in a class room. This women was teaching. She was Asian, had glasses on a mildly attractive. Well she asked me how to say my name. I told her. She asked again I told her. This went on for a while. She then started hunching forward to hear me. I started screaming at her. She said still nothing. I felt my throat hurting so I stopped. I woke up to record and accidentally fell asleep, if I didn't kick my dream journal while sleeping I wouldn't have remembered any of the detail.

When I woke up. I didn't read any thing about lucid dreaming, but instead prepared for an quiz for chemistry. I meditated before going to bed. I tried to relax myself and re-enforce the thought of having a lucid dream, but concentration wasn't clear and I had half sleep for a while.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:34am-6:09am" Wet dream": It was a wet dream. I haven't had this in a while, why I have them now doesn't make sense to me. I really don't want to share it, but I want to mention it to easily keep track of dreams without losing them through the pages of dream journal.


Dream fragment 3 from 4:34am-6:09am " The train that leads somewhere": I was on a train. It was going somewhere. I went on it with the thought that it will come back to the original place it came to. I checked my pockets, I had my cellphone and my wallet. I think it had $10 with me. I hopped on the back of the train. As the train stopped for a while, so I came out. I saw this man on the alley that looked like Saul Goodman from Breaking Bad. I told him about my problem with getting rid of old habits and my problem on starting new ones such as lucid dreaming. I turned around suspeciously for some reason. I saw a football player run across. When I turned back around Saul was gone. I looked around and saw him curled up on the floor pretending to hid. I said, "why did you do that?" He told me that habits can't be changed. He told me he has bad habits too.He said the study that supports habits has mostly to do with psychology, not neurology. He said," the study didn't looked at chemical of brain. You will have to fight bad habits forever". I told myself what he told me and accepted it as a good thing. It is all psychological so I can convince myself to overcome it. I walked to football field. People were making fun of a player. He could throw a football very far though. The football was odd. It was long and white. The train was about to leave so I went back to it. I sat in the back once again. As we were passing these construction wood. The wood was passing thorough the train and through me. I looked at my legs and it didn't affect any of my sensations. .

Journal Entry non-lucid #14 Dream, Lucid Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 8:40pm-2:12am" Most Powerful Man in World": This man had conflict with his friend. The man was said to be the most powerful person in the world. He had all sorts of power which I don't remember very clearly but I remember that he can transform at will and cut through dimensions. He used his power to get even with his friend I woke up but I didn't record it upon awakening.

Dream fragment 2 from 8:40pm-2:12am" Samuel L. Jackson chased by Police": I was looking out the window of my kitchen. I see this purple car speeding and cops were after it. He parked his car and changed the color to dark orange. I looked at the driver and it was Samuel L. Jackson from pulp fiction, he had the hair and everythingI got up and recorded what I could here

I read Stephan LaBerge's book. I wrote down notes furiously taking it as serious as a classroom. After writing to the amount I already read. I continued to read and highlight important information. After about 1:30 I ate food then meditated before going to sleep. I felt very feverish so I put the bed sheets all the way up and gave myself a little space to breath from. I kept saying, "next time I am dreaming I will realize I am dreaming and I kept imaging myself doing reality checks.

Dream fragment 3 from 4:34am-6:11am " A Quick Lucid Dream caused by suffocation": I was asking this man about dream yoga. Not just anybody though, he is a Tibetan and has been practicing Dream Yoga for a long time, his name or title is Geshe Tenzin Wangyal Rinpoche. I found him on YouTube and watched some of his videos. So, I went and I asked him if he can give me tips about dream yoga or lucid dreaming he told me, "I know the 11th step to yoga". He looked very confused, as if he didn't know dream yoga. I started gasping for air and I asked him what is going on. He looked at me still confused. I realized I was dreaming and I tried to control my breathing, but I couldn't. I tried again and again, then I thought what if it was my waking body that is suffocating. so I decided to wake up . The bed sheet was on top of me and it completely covered me. I moved it and went back to sleep.

Dream fragment 4 from 4:34am-6:11am " True Nature of Reality (False Awakening #2)": I saw TO in my house. I told him about the short little lucid dream that I had but got ruined by the suffocation. He asked me in return, "what was your 1st dream?". I thought, "Why would he want to know that, does he want to know if he was in my dream or something". I tried to remember, but I couldn't. I took out my dream journal and it said that my first dream was about turning as large as the Earth. I thought "really?" but accepted it. He then told me that he was leaving. I remembered that it was Tuesday and remembered I don't have to go to class until later on. I asked if he wants some breakfast. He said no and offered me a ride. I looked outside and I saw 2 red dark wine colored cars parked next to each other.
I saw that the fence to my house was broken. I went over to pick it up and I tried to take it to my house. When I got there I realized there is a door already there. I turn back around my house changed and their is a fountain with statues, and it looked elegant. I jumped from my house door to the bottom of the stair case which led to the fountain and the statues. It was about a 15 ft jump up for a distance of 70 ft. Apparently the walk way to the statues and fountain connects our neighbors, and my neighbors never saw me before until today. I was jumping all over the place wrecking all the garden roses and flowers. I was running back and forth. I saw a dog as I zipped past it. The dog became very excited, so the owner pulled the collar. I though to myself it would be so cool if I had a bunch of dogs running with me, and I laughed at that thought. The dog got angry and bit me. I felt the pain on my hand but it didn't last long. As I was running away I told the guy if he let's his dog free I will kill the dog. Then I thought I could sue him for that. He put the dog in this garden metal thing that transports dirt. As we were walking this man said let the dog go. I became angry but explained the situation calmly to him. Then they calmed down the dog and let it free. It turned into some hippie hipster guy with shades on. He looked mad. I laughed and said that is not our guy. Then we looked for the dog and the dog was gone. So, I turned to see where the hipster went. It has now changed into my old middle school. I was told that I have a detention to serve, so I was looking for the room. I saw CT, and I asked him if he knows where the room is. A lot of people were passing by so he got distracted and told me no and left. I was thinking at this point what if this is a dream.
Then I woke up. I picked up the dream journal beside my bed and put on the light for it. I started writing my dreams down. I reflected on what happened and I was laughing. I was thinking to myself wow I nearly had a full lucid dream. I started hearing people walk around my house. It sounded like my cousin and her friends. She came to my door calling my name and asked me what I was doing in there I tried to ignore her and kept on writing my dream. She slipped through the door and I saw her. I remembered that the door is locked so she can't get in. With that realization, she popped right back out, I ran to the door and I opened it wide open. I yelled, "how did you just do that ?" She replied jokingly," oops phantom slip!" I said, "that is not good enough". I think I believed it because of quantum physics video I watched long time ago. It was explaining particles in term of a ball. It was something like if you bounce a ball on top of a table infinite times at some point it will pass through table. Then I did a reality check to make sure. I looked at my hands. IT FAILED. I didn't continue my normal routine R.C. though. I turned and the light in my room was now on. I go to get my dream journal. My dreams were now written on separate piece of paper. I thought this will take some time to copy over. My grandmother walks in to tell me she has food for me. My mother walks in to see my room. I looked around the room with suspicion, for I felt this weird oddity about the nature of my experience. I saw the elegant letter "A" in Tibetan on my wall just like I have in waking life. I also saw my vows right underneath that. I thought maybe that is what the Tibetans meant by when they say try to comprehend the true nature of reality. I thought maybe reality is just a dream and we are waiting to be awoken. when I said that I woke up immediately. I don't have a fence to my house or a fountain with statues. R.C still failing, but I only did one.

Reflection: I woke up with a thought and that is, "most people live life thinking that they are awake so they live life asleep, but the ones live life thinking that they are asleep live life awake."

Journal Entry non-lucid #9 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:I slept late, and I woke up at 4am. I read some of Stephan Labergs book and went to sleep about 6:00am. The first dream was fueled by emotion because I was angry that day. Again 2nd dream I have no idea where it is coming from. I get celebrity appearances for some reason. Of course false awakening because I do reality checks when I wake up. I don't know where the "sign" dream came from.

Dream fragment 1 from 11:00pm-4:00am" Racist Black Guy": I was in a classroom, and my old math teacher from Calc II was passing back grades. Everybody was happy about their grades, I was also. My math teacher walked to me and said something funny then left. We were just sitting there waiting for something to happen. This girl, teacher's assistant, from Chem 120 walked in and told us to get to a chair. We all sat on same table. I sat next to, TO, he got up and asked me if I can hold his seat for him. As soon as he got up this black guy steals the seat, and he says, " I ain't even about to give back to him". He looked like a basketball player, way taller than me. I got mad after he said that, and I told him to get up from the seat. He started backing out with the seat because it was a rolling chair. He got up and he said," For real! you ain't going to stick with your own kind?" I told him that it is not about color or race. He got mad and said," You dark ass n*gga". I looked at my skin color, and then his. I started laughing because he was darker than me, and I thought he was joking. I then told him, " I love him for that" (for the joke). Despite my change of attitude towards him, he didn't change, he was still angry. He murmured something before he went in a different class room that got me mad. I went to this wall, they had little advertisement nailed to the wall. I picked out the nail, it was about the size of my fingers. I put them in between my fingers. I was now very angry. I didn't do anything though because he went inside the classroom. I carried this negative energy when I went back into the classroom. I tried to find the movable chair for my friend, but he already was already sitting down. I then put the nails next to him and sat down. The teacher's assistant then kept blabbering about how I am going to get a bad grade in class if I do that again. She told me what do you do everyday? do you waste your time? I got up and I wanted to brag about my grades, but I reminded myself very briefly that showing off is not for me and success is defined by me.

Dream fragment 2 from 6:15am-8:11am" Mr. White's Hit list": I was at a gas station with Walter White from breaking bad. He wanted to kill this man because their was a hit on him. The man was heavily surrounded by private security guards. When we got their, me and a couple of other people convinced Mr. white to leave. It seemed at first that he would listen, but instead he became desperate and tried to run him over. The security guards immediately took him inside a building. After being a little shaken by the incident, he backed up the car and parked a block away. He wasn't deterred by failing. We wanted to leave. The man with the hit on his head tried to scramble to a car. While his security guards were rushing to get going this man shows up to the car and smashes the mans face with a piece of plank. His head was torn off. It looked gruesome because it was blood and stuff mean just gushing out, but it wasn't "accurate". In waking life the skull would have been fractured and stuff like that. Instead it was like he didn't have any bone on him. White wanted to make sure he was dead, he grabbed his gun and walked out the car. He walked very slowly and very calmly, while his face looks furious. The private security guards blame his and started opening fire on us.

Dream fragment 3 from 6:15am-8:11am " False awakening": I woke up from my dream and started writing my dream in my dream journal. My sister shows up and starts talking to me about something. I wasn't listening, but instead trying to remember my dream. Then I woke up.

Dream fragment 4 from 6:15am-8:11am " Sign": I was with my dad inside a car. I started having this nasty cough. I felt it to my bone. I told him I am going to need medicine. He advised me not to take any type of medicine. I was trying to get a very light cough medicine. We arrived at our house while I was asking him. The neighborhood looked very dark at first. It looked like sun was setting. People were running back and forth. I saw this sign outside of my house, on the side walk. I think it read "Here is proof for actual claim to this property" (I assume it was talking about the sidewalk). I then questioned why it would be there. I rationalized it by saying that my uncle must have put it there. I forgot that my uncle has moved out about a couple of months ago. I then tried to remove and realized that I wasn't strong enough and I went to my garage door. Incredible details in this dream, very clear, and I actually felt more connected to this dream.

Journal Entry non-lucid #10 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: During the day I practiced awareness. I would look around and observe my surrounding. One time I looked kind of towards the sun and I started putting my awareness towards the warmth on my skin and the pain in my eyes, which I think influenced my dream. I laughed at thought that the sun can give us both a wonderful and horrible experience at the same time.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:30pm-3:53am" I Felt the Warmth from Sun ": The dream started out very vague. I was in my room and I was battling with some agents. They were destroying stuff in my room like tissue papers, and other random stuff. It seemed like we were miniature, because there was room for helicopters in my room. After a while, they disappeared and the dream was starting to get clearer. I was talking to my cousin at first, she kept telling me a behavior, characteristics, that I have and don't seem to realize it. I forgot what she said though, but I remember we were arguing about it. I came back to my room and I see her sister, my other cousin and my sister just hanging in my room. I told them to move over. It was bright day light. My bed did seem a lot bigger in my dream and the windows did let in more sun light then it would. I laid there, and the ray of the sun made my eyes in pain, I felt it heating up my face and arms. I moved around to avoid the sun. My feet which are always cold touched some one warm. I felt the warmth and the heat transfer. I woke up after that but in waking life I felt cold and my feet were cold. Funny how a dream can imitate something that has nothing to do with waking life.

Journal Entry non-lucid #9 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I had multiple awaking and I was aware of waking up, thanks to a suggestion from strinky, and also from the tutorial about DEID. It was wonderful how many times we wake up and don't actually realize it, but my dream recall suffered a lot. I would wake up and forget. I would go back to sleep with the intent to stay aware but I end up sleeping.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:30pm-2:35am" Let's Smoke Weed ": A kid from my church wanted to smoke weed. I had like a handful. He came and took it. We were in my house and he came out through the front window. It was night time and I didn't know where he went, but I started preparing the weed for him for some reason.

Dream fragment 2 4am-6am "": Some store clerk gave me a 2 dollar quarter that was nearly the size of my hand. I was shocked by it but I didn't question it.

Dream fragment 3 4am-6am "": I was in some apartment complex and I was going up a building by climbing and climbing down. This felt more like a strong visualization because, I would feel my body in waking life and see the dream. I was partially in control, but I can't say "lucid" because I was not fully conscious of the dream itself. Well anyways I saw these nice colorful neon lights and I grabbed it and started throwing it. It felt like it was my conscious choice to throw it, but I didn't contemplate that it was a dream.

Journal Entry non-lucid #9 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 9:40pm-4:35am" Game Controller": I was walking in a narrow parking lot, and I saw my friend, EY, on grass. It was a peaceful environment, there was trees all over the place. There was this black guy, he had a game with him, so a lot of people surrounded him. He was trying to prove to church people that they can control waking life by a game. I was now around some of the church people I know. This one little kid was running around chasing all the others. He had something in his hand I don't what it was, but it was funny when he chased them with it. As I was laughing he started coming after me, I jolted out of there. He was catching up to me so I kicked him as I was running. I was now back at the park and they were controlling the church people like zombies. I asked the black guy how he feels about the game. He told me it's fun at first but after a while it sucks but it becomes addictive.

Dream fragment 2 9:40pm-4:35am " Cheers ": I was walking and these cheerleaders came in front of me and started cheer leading. They were barely dressed. They had these little outfits on, showing most of their boobs and butt. So I looked. My cousin saw that and she told one of the ratchet ones to go jump me. But for some reason they wanted to take a picture of me acting like I was dead.

Dream fragment 3 9:40pm-4:35am " Not a full time Job": I was with this guy, he kept telling me that he has a job to do. He was driving like a manic. When we got their he tells me we are going to rob a store. I asked him, "I thought you said you got a job?" he responds, "I never said it was a full time job". Then the cops showed up and arrested us.

Journal Entry non-lucid #8 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 9:20pm-1:30am" Dragon Ball Z": I was watching some sort of 80s show. It had its own theme song playing. The footage was all about mountains, rivers, basically nature. The show had had this weird robot man. His head was the only thing that was nearly human about him. His brain was just floating in his head. He was shooting laser out of his eyes. He was also levitating stuff. He told the other robots that they will show the true color of these primates.This dream pretty much sounds like dragon ball z.

Dream fragment 2 3:30am-5:45am " Neighbors ": I was with this celebrity and their was a monkey in the room. The room was my parents room. I was telling the celebrity that monkey like to throw poop at each other for fun. He didn't believe me. The little monkey started flinging little poop at us and one got on my hand. I had to rush to the bathroom. It was disgusting. I don't know why I told him that fact. If I said anything else instead of that, this wouldn't happen.

Dream fragment 3 1:30am-5:45am " Messenger that doesn't experience the message": I was at a school gathering and there was a lot of people there. I saw KA there, a girl I used to be friends with.I wanted to say hi to her but I didn't want it to be awkward since it has been nearly a year. I saw her looking at her hands, and looking at the environment so I went to her and I asked, "What are you doing?" She looked at me and said, "get out of my way, I am doing a reality check". She put a little face on this stickers that showed how many times she lucid dream. I looked at it and it showed that she had 3 LD a night. I was shocked. My sister pops out and says, "are you jealous?" I said, "Yes, I am jealous, I showed her about LD. She has out bested me. I work so hard and I am getting nowhere". I then humbly went to her and I asked, " could you please teach me what you learned about LD" She looked at me and looked away. I was angry, but mostly sad, and crushed. I walked away feeling humiliated. I thought to myself, "I am the messenger who doesn't get to experience the message". I sat down on this bench, and did a cheap reality check. I looked at my hands and didn't even count my fingers. This guy sits next to me and tells me to cheer up, girls are like that. He asked me if I wanted to help the school out? So, he takes me up a hill and gives me this can of spray. This black cloud came up and we sprayed the air around it. Little by little the cloud started becoming clearer. After we did that we went back down to the school. The whole place was destroyed. Even the paint on the walls were gone. It looked like mold. I actually never told her about lucid dreaming, but I did tell a whole lot of other people about LD. She showed up in my dream because I walked into her, but she didn't see me because she was starring at my cloth and I was in a hurry to go get my seat, because my class was full and if you don't have a seat it means you will have to stand.


Dream fragment 4 1:30am-5:45am" Ocean's 11 Hangout": I was on a truck. The truck driver drove us recklessly through the freeway. I guess we were inside of a car on top of the truck because I started driving a car as soon as I touched the freeway. I saw this wall, it was like an optical illusion. I can see my friend, JS, stuck inside there. I tried to drive my car into the illusion but didn't go through it. My friend EY, brought a truck so to speak that can drill through concrete. He drilled a nice hole in it, and left. When I went inside I saw the people from Ocean's 11 or a look alike. They were in hiding and were supposedly stuck in their for a couple of months. I completely forgot why I was down there in the first place. The door was still open and I forgot about it. I was amazed by the man made water fall in their cave or hideout. A child wondered in. I directed him back outside before they find out. I thought they might kill him. They were talking about how it is suspicious that they have a lot of coke bottles. They tried to rationalize it by saying it's ok nobody will suspect a thing because his dad's, my dad, dog would drink most of it. I didn't question the fact that I don't have a dog. That child I took outside told other little kids about Ocean's 11 hideout and they thought it would be funny to try and jump them. The kids rushed in with weapons and kept on hitting them. One of the men got knocked out. Then they subdued the kids. One man also stumbled in and I told the guy from oceans 11 to put him to sleep by doing them weird neck thing. He did the neck thing and the guy said oh I think I felt something. He urinated all over himself. I told him he's useless and I woke up sometime after.

Journal Entry non-lucid #7 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: Ever since school started, I had less time to sleep and more time to stress. I guess it is on sub-conscious level because I feel relaxed, but I can't remember most of my dreams. This was the only dream worthy of noting.

Dream fragment 1 from 4:30am-7:30am" Angry Dog ": I was with my dad and sister and we were heading into a house. We didn't know the house belonged to someone else, someone we didn't know. We casually walked inside and this dog started growling at my dad. I told my dad what ever he do, he shouldn't run. My dad started running and the dog instinctively came after him. I jumped right in front of the dog to distract him then I started running the opposite direction that my father ran. I told my dad to leave, and I also told my sister to leave. I picked up a chair and blocked the dog with it. The dog tried to run around it and I hit it very hard with the wooden chair. I did this until the owner came. The dog was badly injured and had a lot of cuts and blood coming out of him. We then hanged around the owner. We didn't know they had a dog. I guess my love for my family makes me vulnerable to emotions (which is good though). If the dog only came after me I think I would have handled it differently.

Journal Entry non-lucid #6 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I stressed myself with countless reality checks on Sunday, and was a little nervous about my school starting so my dream recall was very blurry and at first I didn't remember anything. I tried many times but it came back to me later on when I wasn't trying. From one detail I worked my way up or backwards. The 1st dream is influenced by a game GTA 5, I don't know about the second. The third, I had a conversation telling my sister not to go to parties.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:30pm-2:30am" Airport ": I was in some sort of airport.

Dream fragment 2 3:30am-5:55am " Neighbors ": I heard my neighbor's alarm going off, so I rush over to see if they were ok. It was broad day light but my neighbors are very old. They are probably both in their 80s and they both have medical problems. Before his wife left to a treatment home, he used to take care of his wife. The guy doesn't have any one to take care of him, his children are not there for him. His wife got diagnosed with some brain disease which I don't know in too much detail but I know that she cannot communicate like she used to, all her words would just come out as loud slurs. I think it also affected her memories. Well I just wanted to set the back story to why it was so emotional. When I ran to their door, I saw them coming behind me, with another women I didn't know. My neighbor's wife was in a wheel chair, in waking life she is not in a wheel chair. I then came to them in relief that they were ok. For some reason I just wanted to hug them. I didn't want to leave that random women out of it, and make her feel left out, so I casually hugged her since she was the closest to me. I then went to hug the mans wife and I looked at her eyes, she was full of joy and she had this sparkle in her eyes. I was also so happy that they were happy. She was a little chubby and didn't look exactly the way in waking world, she is very skinny and look as though she doesn't eat. Her husband on the other hand looked exactly the same. I don't remember hugging him, but I am pretty sure I did. Oh yeah their house was shining white.

Dream fragment 3 3:30am-5:55am " Zefrank and The Singing Animals": Zefrank was in my dream and we were talking about how newer generation of children don't think that they should care for others. Me and Zefrank were next to an ocean. Zefrank started singing about something and it turned into some sort of music video with animals singing. I don't remember the details.


Dream fragment 4 3:30am-5:55am" Family Gathering ": I was inside my house and my whole family came to visit. My house was however bigger than it is in waking life. My uncles were there. I went and greeted everybody except my cousin, LY. I only remember of her being annoying when she was younger so I didn't say hi. She did get older, but I assumed she was the same. Then I asked a guy from my church, where all these books came from and he said it belonged to him. I was amazed and jealous that he has access to a wide variety of books. It was all over the shelves as well.

Dream fragment 5 3:30am-5:55am" Block Party": I was at a block party. I told my sister that parties are useless and a waste of time. Of course she didn't listen to me. After seeing every one dancing and myself not, I said, "what doesn't make sense is that I am in a party". After hearing me question the reality my sister and cousin came to me and they said there is a motorcycle over and I should go play with it. I then went to the motorcycle. It was actually a one wheeler, and it looked very futuristic. I got on it and it could go pretty fast. I went about a block from the block party, but I couldn't control the motorcycle very well. It was slowing down on its own. I then tried to make it go fast yanked back the handle, pushed it forward, nothing. As it was slowing down this guy from the party jumps out and steals the bike from me. Not caring too much about it I let it go and did something else.

Journal Entry non-lucid #5 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:

Dream fragment 1 from 8:30pm-1:45am" 2 Split Realities ": I was a spectator in this dream as well. I saw a women talking about an opening for a movie. She looked high class and everybody dressed in suits, and dresses. The women talking about the movie didn't really know what she was talking about, so people tried to ignore her. The main actor, the father, from the movie Taken came out dressed like the 1600s, he said, "listen to thy queen..." while toasting to the crowd with a glass of wine. I saw everybody now dressed like him, but this was not the real perspective, this was the actors perspective. Then my dream showed me another perspective, the real one. He was overly drunk slurring as he talks, leaning on people, and trying to talk to ladies. A mistress in the party, who was in charge of some sort of high and powerful organization put a hit on Ice T, the police put him on their list.

Dream fragment 2 8:30am-1:45am " Friend gets Arrested": I was now with my friend that is a security guard, CN. He asked me if I wanted to join him on his job, I told him yeah and we left. He parked his car and we started having a conversation. I saw these cops pull over and drive off. We didn't think of it as weird since he was a security guard. Then he came back with backup and told him to come outside the car. I was confused, I know that their is a hit on Ice T, but why did they come after my friend. "He is darker than Ice T, he is not black, but he is certainly darker than him" I thought. I couldn't conclude that they are racist since they didn't arrest me. They looked at the back of the trunk, his car was a 4 door family car as well. They ripped off the back bumper. I had to pick it up and put it on the side walk. CT told me, they got nothing on me man don't worry.

Dream fragment 3 8:30pm-1:45am " No Judgment Here": I was waiting with my friend, LS, we were waiting for another friend, BN. He shows up with a child, about 8 years old. We didn't bother asking him if that was his child. All of a sudden a bunch of people showed up and kept asking him to join them, he said," could you guys wait for me I will be back ?". We all said yes, but I became impatient and left. This was because I had to pee in real life to do WBTB and I just couldn't hold it in dream. I left them and I walked away, I ended up in New York for some reason. It was snowing and I just started peeing all over the floor. It was so cold that my pee vaporized. I fell or something and laid on the floor peeing. I finished and got up, this Indian guy shows up and shoots me. I spawned back to life like a game. And shot him, he came back to life as well. I ran to this dark lighted area so that it reduces his accuracy. This train was passing by me. I acted like I got hit. He got on a freight and went to floor and tried to shoot me. I was laughing like a manic. He couldn't kill me. I missed him as well. He jumped to where I was at, and all of a sudden he is Russian, and he ran out of bullets. He asked me in panic how do you reload. I laughed again like a manic, and I grabbed my pistol, I was out of ammo as well. (I don't know how to reload in waking life, but I think it is all the games I played, I did the same sequencing. I just don't know what to call the parts to the gun, but I pulled it, put the ammo in from the bottom and cock it back). I then started shooting directly to his face, he didn't die though. I left him and went somewhere else, Jessica the hot redhead from True Blood apparently ordered female escorts or something, but she felt guilty. They came after my sister, trying to kill her. My sister shook them off her backs, and she was yelling at Jessica. I think my sister asked her why she ordered them, Jessica looked embarrassed and she said, "to have sex with them". I told her it's ok no judgment.

Got up tried to concentrate on my dream, neighbors were having a party and they were playing a loud and annoying song. I had to get up so details escaped me. I used the bathroom after writing down dream. Then I ate some food with my sister. Then read a book, and meditated afterwards for about 10 mins. I woke up and went back to bed a couple of times, while listening to Robert Monroe's hemi-sync.

Dream fragment 4 3am-6am" Dual Personality": I was in a Hollywood studio. This women was playing the part of a girl who had dual personality. After she finished I asked her sister if she had dual personality in real life, she told me yes. I left them because I thought they were crazy. I was now at my middle school. I was on the second floor and my sister was at the stairs and she was trying to fix her backpack. I waited for her. I saw L.J there with other old friends. I went down the stairs, my sister was trying to talk to me about something, but I ignored her. I saw an old friend that was very close to me and he told me that he is upset because I didn't see him or talk to him after we finished school.

Dream fragment 5 3am-6am" Racist White Man": I was in this orange low-rider, and I tried to customize it and they would let me because I was n at the right level. I saw a friend over there in a motorcycle trying to act cool with black shades. I was apparently on vato's territory (from a game). I then drove a way. They were trying to kill me. I saw these grove street gangsters trying to steal cars. I also saw this racist white man pulling a black guy by the afro. He was spewing racist comments. I was angry. When I became angry, I became the white man pulling his hair. I felt the hunger for power, and the satisfaction that he was getting from pulling his hair. To quench his hunger for power he had to hurt and demean others. When I became angry, I reflected the negative angry that he had, and by that reflection became him.

Dream fragment 6 3am-6am" Janitor is the killer": This guy was looking for the killer of his family and, that killer was someone that he knew closely. It was this janitor that he knew. The man had these ugly and un-cared for hair. He had this evil smile on his ugly wrinkled face. The guy though didn't want to believe it and kept saying that he saw the killers face as a child.

Dream fragment 7 3am-6am" Helicopter Fight": I was in this helicopter and it had machine guns. Me and this other guy were in a helicopter war. Shooting at another helicopter. We didn't kill each other, it was all just practice. Then we landed the helicopter and I told them don't worry about the helicopter I will pick it up later. This black guy that looked very familiar laughed at what I said. As we were walking I asked him if he was new to the place. The dream ended without a response.

Journal Entry non-lucid #4 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I went to sleep hungry for the first dream.
Dream fragment 1 from 8pm-11pm" Disturbing mediators ": I was entering a car race. The authorities at the race were doing background check to make sure that terrorists don't get in. Once we were allowed to come in, they gave us tanks. We had a sargent, and he told us that our mission was to defend a basket of cookies & milk. I didn't complain because I was hungry and I wanted those cookies and milk. All these people appeared and they had cookies and milk. They were from a meditation group. We came out of the tank, and greeted them. I was getting prepared to meditate, but the people that came as a meditation group disturbed everybody else; they played loud and obnoxious music, this horrid version of some dub-step. The girl in charge kept telling them to calm down but they didn't listen.

Dream fragment 2 11pm-3am" Eavesdropping Spider": The earliest memory I have was with me and my dad we were on top of a hill and this women was drunk. A successful women, drunk and belligerent. We didn't want her to do anything reckless and kept telling her not to drive drunk. Later on while we are walking. I found this piece of contraption, it was suppose to control everything in the world. My dad asked me if I could teach him how to work it, I told him I don't know yet and I will find out. There was this manikin and I commanded it by the machine to move back and forth, simple commands at first. Then I started making it dance. My dad said, "what is this? you made it too complicated. How can I learn that?" I kept telling him that he will not understand. I made couch, located in the middle of the street, levitate. I found a key inside of it and I gave it to my dad. My dad's face lit up with happiness. As he was celebrating a spider from the couch ran across my body, a big spider maybe about an inch long. The spider was covered with eyes and its legs were red. It didn't bit me, but it squirmed around me. I finally flicked it and it tried to run. Luckily, I trapped it in a bottle. It stuck it's eye out the bottle like those old unrealistic classical cartoon shows. After the incident with the spider, the environment changed into my house. My sister walked through the door and told me that she was going to see old church friends, and she asked me if I wanted to join her, I replied yes. She had an argument with my dad before we left though. I tried to break the ice by mentioning the eavesdropping spider, which had his little eye popping outside the bottle looking at us. They laughed and forgot about the incident. Me, my sister, and old friend, Big Am, were walking together. We met this random enthusiastic man, we walked with this man and met the couple from "Never Let me go" the guy from Amazing Spiderman worked on that movie. Well I said hi to the couple and we walked away with the enthusiastic man, he was so happy to see us that he introduced us to his wife. She was waiting in line at the post office. For some reason they gave out post office like movie tickets from a window and you wait outside. I said hi and quickly moved because a lot of people were waiting in line. This women asked me if I was in line I said no. She then started handing out grades like teachers do in school. I saw some old friends there and they were upset that they didn't do so well. I was now inside my room and Bt was in the room with me. I was talking about mathematics with her. I told her about the complexity and flexibility of mathematics, precisely Calculus II. she told me she knows. She said it used to be one step or two step to solve a problem, but now you have 5 steps to solve one simple problem. I told her about the class I am going to take Calculus III and how the teacher is a tricky old Asian guy. I made a joke that she didn't quite get I said, "he presents problems like Confucius, a riddle".