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    1. 2022-08-16 trying to show I can glide, dinner party with crayfish, want to propose to April/August,

      by , 08-16-2022 at 06:48 AM
      BT 22:40, took a while to fall asleep since L was reading and moving about
      OOB 06:55
      awake 05:45 (fell asleep for a short while, one more dream)
      22mg L-theanine, 1g GABA before bed
      3g glycine, 1g L-tryptophan about 21:30 or 21:00

      2 prior wakings with zero recall. A bit unusual, usually I'll have some memories in the 2nd waking. But I'm not delving for recall now before the 5 hrs waking.

      very hot night, had to take off the blankets.

      earlier (~ 0545)

      + hanging out with a male (movie?) star of some sort, he's talking about his girlfriends, he says "You think (they, referring to some other girls) are mine? Psh. They're like 41B [breast size] at most" that gets me thinking about bra sizes, what would be big? 44DD? Then I see the two who *are* his GFs, they are sitting on each branch of an L-shaped branch. They are indeed heftily endowed in the chest department. They're bouncing on their seats which causes their breasts to bounce around, too, and I see that their tops are slightly see-through to the point where I can fairly clearly make out their areolas/nipples.

      Move on down the street, I'm with friends, we're approaching a sort of cliff in front of a very large canyon with rolling hills/mountains below that extends far into the distance. It is night time. This is a flying-dinosaur-riding area, I say "I hear that it's really cool to do this at night!". I go up to a promontory area sticking out into the canyon and want to show off for my friends that I can fly/glide, I'm intending just to step off over the canyon and glide right back to them standing nearly at the edge. But a group of people get in the way and block my access to the edge. They're young men, they're jostling around, and just won't get out of the way.

      Then we're inside a room, and the guys sort of shuffle away, but one of them hits a light switch (but not the right one?). I also punch a light switch right next to it on the wall

      + in a group of young people sitting around a long (picnic-style) table [DREAM SIGN], we're joking, one of the girls has offered me to eat a crayfish/lobster, which I jokingly protest, saying "I'm not going to eat this! Too many legs! And there are people who eat the heads, I understand it tastes like sh*t!" the girl is laughing with me.

      I've been introduced to some girl (April? August? [Some "A" name apparently a month!]) in this group, and I want to ask her our (propose to her?). Then I remember L, I think she'll be pretty upset that I propose to some other girl, she was probably expecting that I would propose to her instead.


      + walking F dog, he runs off into the distance, something has attracted him, I pull him along not wanting to find out, but a group of small dogs appear and all run to us, so F must meet them. We're at the base of a slide, we're walking up the slide, I'm pushing a cart, and people are in my way, I ask the person in front of me to step aside (?) so I can go by. Push through some door into some building(?)

      + in the CS department, walking through an office area, on a desk to my right I see an old classic mac setup, I go and (get some papers?) and return by the mac where two guys are fiddling with it, I punch the eject button on the (CD? disk?) it pops up, I push it back in. I move on. I look at the papers, (it's a grad school application?) I'm looking at the fields that need to be filled out, most are empty, one of them is titled "Admin" (?) which I interpret to mean it is the professor who is recommending me. I head back in to the office to get my professor to sign it, but I think that perhaps this needs to be signed by someone other than my advisor, and I imagine my advisor would just ask one of his colleagues to sign it.
    2. 2022-08-14 better sleep, definite dreams, recall just so-so

      by , 08-14-2022 at 05:51 AM
      Took a combo of L-theanine (200mg) and GABA (1g) at bedtime. 3g of glycine a bit earlier in the evening.

      BT 22:30
      final waking ~ 05:30
      OOB 07:00

      I slept and rested well, with fewer wakings than normal.

      + browsing through an erotic magazine, open up the centerfold for a quick look (dark/nothing really clear unfortunately!)
      + People are in a room full of inflatable furniture floating on top of water, there is a rumor that sharks are nearby
      + I'm regaling a group of people (youngsters?) with a tale of mine, I know one of them has heard it before so I excuse him from listening.
    3. 2022-08-13 B6 experiment gone bad...strange event, jumping across the rail tracks

      by , 08-13-2022 at 10:35 AM
      So Mr. Genius decided it was time to try a big B6 boost at bedtime for a boost to recall, took 100mg, and basically felt like I didn't sleep all night long. Had just a few dreams. Terrible night. Eeeek.

      + at some sort of outdoor event like a concert, tons of people. There was a large odd device that was set up to the (right?) of the stage, it had a bunch of noisy moving solid flaps on it that would change position with a loud "click!", it was someone reading the (minds? evaluating?) the audience members, and I thought that was an invasion of privacy.
      I'm lying with a friend on our backs looking up at the sky [DS]. It had a strange sort of pattern to it, like a large stencil was spread across the sky.
      Thinking about ST near a potted plant(?)

      + I want to jump across some rail tracks to the far sidewalk. I go up to the gap and decide it looks like it's too far to jump. But I back up to get a running start (I'm in bare feet or in socks?), and run up to the gap and notice there are some central lines of asphalt running parallel to the tracks and I can use these to land on and continue jumping across. I make it to the other side OK. Then I turn and look at the rails. Sort of a train arrives, it's actually like a small cart. It has some small things (lights?) poking out of the front, and a conductor/staff guy comes up and adjusts the sticking out thing.

      + [f, vague] need to move through a dense crowd of people through to the other side?
    4. 2022-08-12 avoid zombies, hurry away from CH, basketball, crackers, blackjack, wine glass guy

      by , 08-12-2022 at 07:02 AM
      An actually fairly high recall night, most dreams short, but it seems every waking had recall. A big step up from the last couple weeks...

      BT ~23:15
      final waking 06:55 (a bit earlier probably)
      OOB 07:15 after more recall and voice recording

      Adopted a mindset of acceptance about whatever experience the night brings. Strategy from the book "End the Insomnia Struggle", I applied not only to sleep but to dreaming and recall. Seemed to work out!

      Also, bedtime supplements: full set of vitamins in the evening, including glycine and l-tryptophan right before bed. 1 of our banana cups before bed.
      Didn't walk in the evening. Was outdoors in the sun a lot in the daytime.

      + outdoors daytime in a field (with bottle of pills?) with a girl we're hurrying to finish our business to get out of here before the (monsters/zombies/etc) come out

      + outside CH, on old bus stop, hiding from someone who's coming for us, need to get to destination without being seen, car arrives woman and girl inside, I urgently say we need to go quickly

      + playing blackjack in a casino run by ScoSel (founder company 3). I'm thinking about the 3-2 payout they pay for blackjack. I see/imagine the dealer paying out these blackjack payoffs, first duplicating the player's bet stack, then adding a 50% additional half-stack right next to it. I imagine seeing a player with an Ace, and then the dealer deals a 10 for a blackjack. I wonder if a table is "hot" for the players, if they will change the dealer frequently. The management comes up, it's SS from company 3, he demands for all the players to hand over our watches to him for inspection, I get outraged about this and say "I'd think because of our common employment history you'd be treating us a lot better," and he answers "Because of that, we're taking it easy on you."

      + playing basketball [DS], I'm on the court, make a short, it balances on the rim but doesn't go in, then I'm guarding a girl who has the ball and put my hand up (I see it, missed DILD trigger), and say "it's hard to get a clear shot when there's a hand in your face", there's another guy now with the ball beyond her and I imagine that I could step up and slap the ball away if he tries to take a shot. I'm standing around freakishly tall players (like 3 meters), there are several of them, I think how could anyone my size possibly guard guys this tall in a game, it's impossible. I look at their tall and slightly distorted bodies, their stomachs are poking out a bit. I'm with a coach or trainer of mine, he's setting up a step ladder and climbing up it, he comments about something "that it doesn't usually help."

      + vacuuming up crumbs in a living room around a couch, the carpet is white, I hear the clicking sound of the crumbs getting sucked up the vacuum's hose, I keep finding more, then I find a huge pile of fallen crackers/cookies I get embarrassed that I dropped these, my wife (?) comments about my having dropped them (tsk-tsking me?) and I say "I know I know" and I'm picking them up.

      + observing a fancy dinner party, waiters are bringing the last of the bottles of wine out to the guests, (there's a white wine, chilled and dripping condensation? and a red wine?), one guest gives me an odd salute with his wine glass by putting his whole face in the glass, the glass on top of his head, and slowly dragging the glass down his face before removing it, I think he's perhaps making fun of wine snobs?

      + In a (bathroom?) with a large/unwieldy set of scales the size and form of a printer, trying to stand on it (ceiling too low?), some guy makes wise-ass comments about it
    5. 2022-08-11 interrupted but better / longer sleep; mountain slide, quit drug running, squat yoke,

      by , 08-11-2022 at 06:53 AM
      bedtime 22:45 (?) - 23:00 (?) (not later)
      final OOB 08:00

      waking during the night, from the light level in the room, somewhere around 05:00-05:30 body feels very hot and I feel a bit out of breath
      Maintain drowsiness remains but not progressing towards sleep and mind starts kicking in.
      "Do not think", let go, a bit of Yoga Nidra cycle, adopt "I'm falling asleep at initial bedtime" and totally turn off, a bit of this works and fall asleep.

      New Attitude towards recall: observe, recall, but don't try to "force" dreaming. Welcome the dreams that come without particular expectation.

      Going to try out "I trust you" approach: I do the day work, I know my dreaming mind knows how to (lucid) dream, hand the ball over to my dreaming mind at night and be open and welcome to the experiences, but don't try to manage or control them.

      Lie without covers and body cools off and begin to feel drowsy again. Fall asleep eventually and a few dreams right before waking.


      + Climbing up a steep, rocky mountain with a group, turns into an out-of-control slide down long, slippery rocky slide/chutes, going off jumps and flying through the air thinking "Oh, f%^&!", I have no control of my trajectory and think I'll probably get smashed against the rocks
      The rock is colored in tones of red, orange, brown.

      + Waiting for the crowd around my boss (a famous politician?) to disperse so I can tell her I'm not going to be her cocaine mule any more. Indoors, Dark/twilight lighting [DREAM SIGN]

      + Trying to do squats with a very heavy iron frame/yoke on my back that my mentor gave me to try that had been hanging on a wall. I see it hanging on the wall in front of me, it is several parallel bars (rusty?) of metal with some space (seems too narrow?) to get your head in between. I put it on and turn away from the wall, and try to stand up. I feel the weight of it, and despite it being light enough for me to squat reasonably well in waking like (around 100 lbs) [I think this actually in the dream], I always teeter to one side and lose my balance when I stand up with it.


      + Sitting on and riding down a diagonally-vertically inclined store check-out belt heading towards the cashier at the bottom, the woman in front of me reaches out to the left and slams the "bypass" button. This enrages the (woman) cashier who screams "No f%^&in way am I scanning all of those items manually!" I advise the woman to call for the manager right when she demands to see the manager. Those two get into a fight and the customer woman becomes a man who starts beating up the cashier and calling her the "B" word, my sympathies shift to the cashier as I see how brutal the customer has become.

      + Observing scenes where (actor Chris Pine?) is tied up in various bondage scenarios (inside a car with lots of items, in a wheelbarrow being wheeled around?), there's a woman who is his captor, and a group of people, the group are talking about when they're going to release him, the captor indicates she has no intention of doing so soon.
      + climbing mountain, sliding down slide-like chutes out of control

      + walking behind mentor (female boss?), she's a drug dealer but I'm waiting for the crowd around her to disperse before confronting her and saying I will no longer work for her (?)
    6. 2022-08-10 couple short dream sequences, short sleep, little dreaming

      by , 08-10-2022 at 06:07 AM
      bedtime: 23:30
      little sandwiches, corn muffin, banana cherry thing before bed
      tried 1 500mg NAC before bed. Didn't have any effect on dreams, certainly not more vivid, if anything, less dreams recalled
      final OOB: 07:15
      final waking: 05:45 (probably earlier, this was just when I glanced at the clock)

      Get up for like 10 mins and sit in chair, doesn't really help get sleepy.
      Bed was decently comfortable and I was not too hot after taking off the comforter. Was very warm before doing that, though.

      + dark-ish/twilight lighting [DS] thinking about moving through a building, like a school, climbing first up to a high place outside the building, then entering through broken doors/openings down into the building. (Inside a room with people? -- vague)

      + in daylight(?) we are on bikes in the flatlands and need to get (home? with sister?) up to the hills. I think this will take a long time nonetheless and be a big effort. There are horses and they want to walk this route, it will help them from overheating. We are riding bikes straight ahead, in a pretty big group. There are a lot of muddy/slick places on the path, and my wheels slip and spin a lot, but I make progress. At some point there are water rations given out. The people in control of the water use a device like a black light scanner that they shine into your cup, and when they do this the light reveals (orange? green?) glyphs/runs inside the cup, I see these. They interpret the runes and then decide if you are allowed to have water. I'm pissed off at this affront to the liberty of having water whenever you want to, that shouldn't be controlled.

      + at work at company "N", I'm working on a project that I do not like, I ask my manager Sha.Cly. if I can move back to my original group, but she says that she does not have the free reqs to allow that.
    7. 2022-08-09 impossibly narrow shower, naked at the theater/competition

      by , 08-09-2022 at 06:42 AM
      + In a large group of guys in a shower room. There is one shower with a curtain which is occupied, and there's a line waiting for this one, and there's an open shower stall without a curtain right next to it on the right, I think why not, so I start to take a shower (?)

      At some point I'm looking at a REALLY narrow shower stall. Full height but about only a head's width. I'm really confused by this. I'm looking at it and trying to figure out how even to get inside, and once inside, to do anything like turn around, it looks impossible

      + At a large event in a theater with lots of people [DS], they're calling people/groups up to the stage to receive their awards, I realize I'm naked [DS], and decide I'd better get dressed fast before they call me/my group up to the stage. I'm frantically looking around for my underwear but can't find it. There is underwear of all kinds strewn around the floor, I start to look for pairs that will work but aren't mine necessarily.

      + [forgotten scenes -- vehicles? Fights? Canons? Tanks?]

      +[f] in a dark room [DS] watching (kids?) play on toy cars, they move via slippery sliding pads that slide over the floor, and the vehicle remains in place on the pads.
    8. 2022-08-08 mid and late morning dreams: donuts, car & naked guy, security, bts, ST

      by , 08-09-2022 at 06:32 AM
      Bedtime: 23:00
      meditation/calming 22:30-23:00 sitting in chair next to bed with mask on

      saw a lot of dreamlets while sitting in the chair relaxing

      woke around 05:00 with recall, delved and recovered more, but pretty wired awake. Took out earplugs so as to hear alarm. Mind wandering until about 06:00, decided to get serious about relaxation, put in earplugs because wife was noisy, wrapped t-shirt around head and then sleep mask on top, since it also covers the ears it helps keep it quiet. it's also more comfortable because the shirt is cotton and while the mask is silk the cushion inside is synthetic I'm sure.

      Mind still really jumpy. Can't settle on a meditation or visualization. Need to plan one ahead of time.

      Settled on Breathing relaxation, really focused on letting all tension go. Body scan from feet up to arms with relaxation, then began the yoga nidra track sequence, but stopping at each point to move awareness there and REALLY relax it with an inhale longer exhale. Didn't make it through the left side before falling asleep! Did a few half-assed SSILD cycles before that, too.

      + in bed, see Suz. Bunt.

      + sharing 3 concentric stacked huge donuts with the hugely fat woman

      final waking OOB 07:40

      + DJ MEO #1 2022-08-08 on mac notes
      Three scenes:
      - sitting outside back against building looking out over open field to sidewalk beyond, woman to my left? Brief ST?
      - woman invites me to priest's house, say I have other business, "yeah we all do", think maybe it's a good idea to go there.
      - meet a young blonde woman in a store (I know her?), she doesn't want to come with me and says so, I promise that "she goes first" and she agrees, she
      has a large triangular piece of foil-wrapped cheese with her, we're trying to decide if we should just shoplift it or pay for it, decide to pay, I hand her money to the
      cashier and return the change to her. I see a $5 note left on the check-out counter under the cash register drawer next to a yellow piece of (monopoly money?), and ask if that
      is ours as well. I'm in my sister's room with the girl on a twin bed on wheels in the middle of the room, I think we should move to the less-mobile beds on the walls of the room, she falls off to the left, laughs and says "I'm naked!" I answer "that's the idea!" and pull her up and engage with her <ahem>, she seems very sensitive but likes it, she says "that's better than before where you were just getting saliva all over me!". I look up and notice the open window is looking out on a busy city street with people standing there, I don't want them to look in [DS], go to close the blinds, notice a door right there leading in to the room from the outside and think my sister and brother in law could come home and catch us at any moment. I also notice an entrance to a mall/office building right there as well, I think we should move to my old room where we'll have privacy. I go back to the girl and I see that she is now dressed in a fancy red dress, I say "No, no, no!" (I don't want the ST to be over), she says "I bought this for <the later event?>," I see the price tag, I see "13,...." and think "Oh my god it cost $13,000?!?!?" I look again and think no, that's just 13 in <local currency>", wake up.
    9. 2022-08-03 sea of cubes, break in fight, office meeting, L spreads for the rude man to

      by , 08-03-2022 at 10:51 AM
      23:30 ?

      + [vague, fake?] coding program on computer

      + meet Dana(?) in sea of cubes at CS department, walk through them, see really fat guy in cube on computer with others

      + break in in Mart. apt.: I'm in my room in Mart. in R., and I see a bunch of my little trinkets lined up on the window sill, the window is partially opened. I pull some of them back (?) away from the window because I think someone may try to take them from the outside. A gang of hoodlums comes up to the window, climbs up on the wall outside the window, pull open the window, and enter my room. I scream at them "Get out of here! This is my place!" but they don't leave. I soon am fighting one or two of them, it's a vicious battle. I imagine I have a knife and cut the back of the neck of one of them. In the hallway outside the room on top of a tall cabinet one of them is bandaged and resting(?).
      [forgotten portion]. Outdoors, on the city streets, evening/dark lighting [DS!] I'm returning to my apartment, jogging through the streets. I pass a street vendor display table of sweets, like crunchy bizets, I think for a second, then pick a small piece up and start eating it and keep on running. Out of the corner of my eyes to my right I see the vendor (a woman?) tsk-tsking this bad behavior. I feel bad and stop and pay for what I ate (40 coins?), giving the explanation that "I was attacked earlier!" The vendor makes some response to this.

      + arrive to an office in morning, it is a sea of cubes [DS], say "good morning" (in English and F.L.) to many people as I walk through the hallways between the cubes, turning left and right at times. There is a woman who was waiting for me, saying I'm 30 minutes late. I'm teaching a class? I arrive at cube, it's full of students, some of which are sitting in the next cube but I can see them through the cube wall somehow (like it's partially transparent).

      + Standing outside a bathroom in a hallway with L. One guy enters the bathroom and I see he sits down to do his business, there are not stalls or doors, it's a fairly large room and he is sitting on the far wall way from the door. Then another guy enters the bathroom, the first guy complains, but the new guy is the owner of this bathroom so he's going to do what he wants to do, he sits on a toilet just to the left of the door, quite close by. I want to close the door so L (who has a very sensitive sense of smell) will not smell the results of their activities there.

      Then I'm sitting with L at a table (long picnic-style table? [DS]) , across from us is the rude man who owned the bathroom. He's bothering L. He sticks his finger into L's shoulder and sort of rubs it in. L pokes him back in the shoulder in the same way. I tell him very angrily and forcefully "DON'T TOUCH MY WIFE!!" when I say this, I get a sense of satisfaction from L, like she really likes it that I'm standing up for her like that. (She?) says she may be pregnant (from his finger poke?), and gets up naked (bottomless at least) on the table right in front of the rude guy and widely spreads her legs. She's doing this to mess with the guy. I'm shocked by this and say "good god, L, what are you doing!?" The guy fishes around in her <ahem> for a few seconds and pulls out something, some small cardboard object.

      I'm arriving to a room with L and some other people there, the rude man is now a wise judge, and the group is telling him about different kinds of reality checks you can do.
    10. 2022-08-02 some later morning fragments

      by , 08-02-2022 at 09:36 AM
      Slept decently, but short (late bedtime 23:30-23:45, so lost almost a full sleep cycle)
      Still got up at the 07:00 alarm

      +[f] [vague] watching a (woman?) entering a (cabin?) outdoors

      + hanging out with people at a auto parts counter (also outside?), talking about car components?


      + a woman drives up to our street (house outside the city, dirt roads), approaching from a side road, and stops and parks directly in the path of our road, completely blocking traffic

      + talking with a (young woman?) at a table about how I got my 2nd job: contacts from people I met at professional conferences. At this point somebody delivers a large piece of what looks like petrified rice, it does not look very appetizing.
    11. 2022-08-01 [vivid] very emotional mtg deceased wife; visiting the hood; garden; pillows; insomnia

      by , 08-01-2022 at 07:55 AM
      bedtime: 22:20

      Probably my most emotional, direct, confrontational encounter with my deceased wife these many years after her passing.
      I've had many dreams where she "returns" as if from a business trip, and I'm already with my new wife (usually before we were married), and I have a huge dilemma about whom I will stay with. But this time I remembered...

      ~ 03:555

      + [vivid] I'm driving in a car with my 1st [deceased] wife. She's in the driver's seat driving the car, I'm sitting in the right hand side of the back seat. We are not in good relations, she's upset with me, like our relationship is ruined. Music is playing, and a Billy Joel song begins (seems like "Rosalinda's eyes", the musical climax portion of the chorus), it was "our song" [false, that was Natalie Cole songs], and my wife becomes emotional and says she still loves me. (She cries? I cry?) I reach out and stroke her shoulder to comfort her.

      I'm standing outside in the sunlight in an open area. I look at my hands [I've been working on "I find/see my hands in dreams and realize I'm dreaming"], both of my [true in waking] rings are in place [First time that's happened!], the silver one and the wedding ring, one each on their proper hands ring fingers. I realize I'm married to my new wife now. It's the [familiar] dilemma -- what shall I do? I have no intention of leaving my new wife. I decide to remove my wedding ring for the meanwhile to hide it from my 1st wife. I'm a bit concerned about losing it rolling around loose in my pocket. I notice that the ring has left very noticeable impressions on my ring finger, from the protrusions it has on the inside face [false, this is day residue from viewing pictures of the Oura sleep tracking ring in the day, which has electronics on the inner side of the ring]. I think she still may see these markings and suspect something, I rub my finger where the ring sat in hopes that they'll smooth out and become not so visible.

      My first wife is consulting a lawyer about a divorce. She is reviewing some papers and reading some excerpts from them.

      I'm thinking about what I can do -- I'm married to two women at the same time. This is bigamy and I know it's against the law. I could end up in prison for 10 years. This has me very upset. I'm thinking and thinking what to do. I get the feeling that the marriage to my 1st wife should be annullable for some reason. This thought sticks with me. Then I get the notion that the first marriage ended because she died, so we're not married any more.

      Inside our home. I walk into the boys's room and I see that on their computer screen they're looking at with some colorful image (some game) instead of working on the assignment they're supposed to be working on.

      Inside our CA home, we're there with our two young sons (5-7 yrs aged in the dream). I tell her the truth: "You're dead, you died from cancer several years ago." She moves (sort of aggressively/possessively) towards my two sons (me and my sons are standing with our backs against a wall?), and I intervene myself between them to keep her from scaring them. She seems to realize the truth and she backs off. She knows she has to go.

      In any amazingly touching moment, my younger son reaches up to a bulletin board on the wall in front of us where some of their children's artwork are displayed, and takes down one of his works, and gives it to her so she can have it with her for comfort for all eternity.

      In our final confrontation, my wife and I we are standing facing each other, close, looking in to each other's eyes. She asks me: "Do you think there is life after death? Or do we just disappear into the Chaos?" I say "oh, you can still come and visit from time to time," trying to comfort her. She seems very doubtful, and (maybe says) "really?" (in a very doubtful voice). Then her eyes begin to change: there are (spirals? Like little galaxies) in the center, then they start to flash to pure white (no pupil no irirs) back and forth to the spiral eyes, and eventually remain all white, very freaky/dead looking.

      I wake up, I'm really shaken and have all-body goose bumps. I get the feeling this was a really significant dream and perhaps a real visitation.
      I spend some time fixing the key moments from the dream to memory.

      It takes a long time to calm down, eventually I sleep more and dream some more....

      + in the hood: I'm visiting some people inside their house. Outside the window across the street a large force of (police?) are gathering, they are all armed and I can see the pistols in their hands. They're preparing to storm the house directly across the street. There is a window in that house across, it is dark but with some blue and red lights (like neon lights or LED lights). I think this is not a safe place for us to be, I say "hey everybody, let's move farther inside the house," I don't want us to be hit by any stray bullets.

      (This family I'm visiting is African American?)

      One of the family members (a woman) is sitting in a doorway and is holding a small pistol in her hand. I move a bit back from her.

      +[f] some short scenes:

      I pick up my two arm support pillows and am walking with them to some other room, I'm looking at them and asking someone, "are these my pillows?"

      Some woman is talking to me about what I need to do at work. I'm taking a business trip? I know I need to be up at 7, I think the jet lag from the trip will really mess up my new sleep timing and I'll miss more sleep.

      There are some people outside, there is a corridor/walking below me. On the left are some gym-style exercise machines (some people are using them?). I think there is a lat training machine there, and that I should use it.

      Some woman is inside a large indoor area like a greenhouse, she is tending to things embedded in the floor. It's some sort of (sexual?) performance art / entertainment area, where customers will come later. The woman then prepares to be a customer (?), and along the edge is a bunch of "living" greenery that transforms, and part of it becomes adult male genitalia with curly pubic hair.

      Drifting in an out of sleep, trying to rest, alarm goes off at 07:00
      non-lucid , nightmare , memorable
    12. 2022-07-31 better sleep, later REM, finally some vivid-ish dreams

      by , 08-01-2022 at 07:14 AM
      bedtime 22:45

      waking with recall: 05:20
      didn't fall asleep again, but got close
      got up 07:20 (missed 07:00 alarm)

      + (newly back to) work at company "N" [DS! DS! DS! Need to catch these! VERY common!] office #1
      Long meandering dull rows of work stations, not even cubes, "cubelets" or just rows of computers all next to each other. Everybody is at their desk, nobody is anywhere else. It's very strict here. I go to the kitchen / common area, want to check it out, and a very fat large security woman comes and scolds me (and others there?) that we need to get back to work. Nobody here moves from their seats during the day, apparently.

      In the kitchen area I see a video game arcade area, 5-6 machines (cabinet size) are there and some people are mulling around there playing them. I see pinball! I love pinball. I look more hoping to see an "old-time" pinball, without all the modern stuff, and I see on there on the right! Just a few bumpers and trap holes on the playing field. The machine is standing perpendicular to my view, I'm on its right side, I walk up to it, it's right up against other machines and there's a guy standing right there so I have to push through the gap to get in front of the machine. As I walk by, I slap the right bumper button a few times to see if it works, and I notice that it does. I get to the front of the machine, and start playing, a ball is in play, and I start manipulating the bumpers. I follow the ball around and skillfully trap and hit the ball with the bumpers, aiming for key features. I do pretty well and keep the ball in play for a while. Once I get the ball through a chute all the way back up to the top, I love it when I can manage that happening. It really feels like I'm playing the game! [no sound I think?]

      + Interlude dream in between office #1 and office #2?
      [forgotten details] there's a guy jumping from one tall building to another, as he jumps to the other building he catches on a hanging wire (sideways, like draped between two windows far apart, sagging from gravity in the middle). Then the view changes to me watching him from inside a room in the other building. The man is manipulating two electrical wires to generate a high-voltage electrical attack against the (thieves?) inside the room, it will happen when he brings the wires together.

      (I'm inside the room? People are inside? I walk from one room to another?)

      + office #2
      I'm back in the office. This time the cubes are laid out differently and are more like cube with semi-high walls around them. I'm at the end of (or standing outside in the corridor) my cube looking into my cube. I notice the amount of space, it's not too small, I see the carpet on the floor, I look at it and think there's enough room to lie down there (and do yoga?).

      Then my cube seems like a large closet or enclosed bed with clothes hung all around the walls. I'm sitting on the bed on the ground (perhaps elevated?) Very small, meter square perhaps. I see jeans and other clothes (socks? shirts) hanging up, I move some of them around? I think the employer will not like to see these clothes hanging here if they open the door and look inside.

      I'm standing in my cube and looking out past the far "door" (opening) to the neighboring cubes across the hallway. There are two, one immediately to the left and one immediately to the right, their mutual wall is centered in the center of my view and centered on my cube opening. I look for the name plates and read the names, they are both female names. I notice office equipment in each: printers, desks, etc. In the right cube there is a young woman employee working. She is sitting at her desk with her right side facing me. An HR representative (also female) is sitting behind her talking to her. The discussion is about the company's coverage for various anti-viral, anti-bacterial medications, the HR rep is going on for a while about the possible coverage. The employee eventually says, exasperated, "I don't want to take any (stupid?) anti-viral medication!". She stands up. I recognize her as a former colleague from my 2nd job many years ago. She has slimmed down (much slimmer than in waking) a lot and is very attractive. She looks at me and our eyes meet, we recognize each other, I raise my right hand and "wave" at her using a "wave to a baby" motion by bending only the upper half of all my fingers (sort of a "finger wave"), the same wave I used to young children in waking. (She says "let's meet later"?). I notice her clothing is very loose and flowing about her body, with a large arm opening allowing a generous view of her breasts and torso, I expect to see her naked underneath the clothing but while I see the form of her breasts they seem to be covered in some thin material.

      +[f] motorcycle guy? Some guy is riding a motorcycle, and mentions getting some expensive champagne?
      lucid , memorable
    13. 2020-07-30 no recall

      by , 07-30-2022 at 06:13 AM
      Work somewhere around 04:00 or 04:30 and didn't sleep again until alarm at 07:00.
      Tried listening to some meditaiton/yoga nidra audio tracks that put me right out during naps with no effect.
      Listened to some audio books but found them too stimulating generally.
      Back to bed and relaxed and felt the "twinge" of sleep approaching and being "repelled" every time.
    14. 2022-07-25 dragons blocking parking garage, weird "motorcycle", video game, work buffet and meeting

      by , 07-25-2022 at 12:02 PM
      23:49 bedtime
      08:50 final waking

      long BTS after 6am shock wake from wife's crying out in nightmare

      3-4 major periods of dreams

      first waking (time unsure?)

      + really looking closely at a large, triangular (two triangular faces that meet in an angle in the front), "motorcycle" ( / airplane / house/thing). I'm inspecting the grills and features it has. I think about how it takes off and lands

      + [mostly forgotten] (young?) people in a classroom setting in rows of desks

      middle waking (shock awake?)

      + dragons are blocking the parking garage entrance. Some huge/really powerful scary dragons have settled in front of an underground parking garage entrance. I'm given the task of getting them to move out of the way. I approach from ground level a bit to the right of the entrance. At first there is one dragon but as I approach I see there are at least two more. They are large and very menacing. One is to my left of the main big one blocking the entrance, and I see its head with very long sharp teeth, it looks like a mix between a dragon head and a T-rex head. I'm really quite nervous, and I'm thinking that I need to be very very polite as I address the dragons trying to convince them to move.

      + flying the fighter jet. I'm following a leader jet. I'm not sure if I should follow using instrumentation or just visuals. The leader is making a lot of maneuvers, (down below me?) I don't follow them all. I decide to follow visually, I see the bright blue engine glow from his jet and plan just to follow using that visual. There was a narrative (voice over?) that the leaders trust me with the plane because I'm older (and less impulsive?).

      Visual of a very large triangular Soviet-style fighter or ship, it has an open deck with a lot of tables with instruments/circuitry on them.

      + video game [DO] top-down fuzzy/vague view of the top of a tower where players of a game are battling, the experienced players are easily pushing the newbies off of the top of the tower and getting a lot of points doing this. I manipulate some vague controls and manage to push a few of the better players off. (I fall off the top of the tower, but manage to grab on to a lower level ledge as I'm falling by and say "hey look I made it do this level."

      + buffet at work. Walking along a work lunch buffet, filling my plate, the piles of food are so high that it's hard to take a serving without toppling the pile. I realize I've missed waffles (with bacon?) so I go back and get a waffle (it's hard to take one without upsetting the pile).

      Farther along there is a meeting about to be held. I think Chr Ch. (company "3", "B", "N") is there at the podium along with someone else, there are a lot of chairs laid out in an assembly format (rows).

      last waking:

      + S1's birthday in PTL home. In kitchen with S1. We're celebrating and I say/think "Yeah! Let's get some beers!" There is an elevated (2nd floor?) separate room I see from ground floor, I see/think it is filled with graffiti written on the inside walls. I say "we have to make sure that we lock the windows" [DS] or "that the windows can lock." S1 says that he thinks that this is not possible because of a hole through which people can open the window mechanism.
      A car in the distance is backing up with red/blue police backup lights, I think this is S2 going off to (7-11?) to get (some beer?).
      Something gets spilled up onto a vaulted ceiling?

      + talking to guy about <my instrument> vs. trombone embouchure, he's making circular "sea anemone" style round lips and I'm showing him how mine is more of an overbite, I use both my lips and my hand to show the position of my jaw. Other than hand (HAND VISUAL) I have no body awareness, he's standing about 2 meters away.
    15. 2022-07-06 [draft unedited speech-to-text]

      by , 07-24-2022 at 08:25 AM
      Elevator death squishy S1's stroke or watched on the video Thanksgiving wice skating with the woman on the daughter on city sidewalks woman says go on go ahead and say know I'd like to cruise candy transparent purple volleyball poker hands 2 streets over aces [1st wife] open If church or the department department she won't speak with me I say I just want to talk to you speak with me Greg B. is the head of the department for a moment has one Brown eye and 1 blue eye I think you're looking very sternly a thing easier with the head of the department for professor situation inside the building inside the department People may be sitting at the desk clerk airline entertainment systems on the back of the seats in front of them
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