FryingMan

Well my schedule should be returning to normal now. It's going to take a few days to recover from all the late nights. Still managed a dream or a couple of frags, not sure if they're related or not.

+ I'm on a city street and circling an intersection in a car trying to slow down. Outside there are people from (my home town?) who are critical of me for some reason.

A pig comes down the line of people?

I'm walking up an incline (with my dad?) into a restaurant, I put my things down and try to select a table, they're all leaning because they're on the incline too. My friend (dad?) says "we're going to eat really well!" (?)

recall starting to make a bit of a comeback

+ I'm in front of a screen talking about my code with a guy and a girl. It's some sort of database system and I'm trying to remember the name of the index which is used to look up things in further indices, I'm scrolling through something trying to find it

+ (vivid, present), I'm moving (DO) through a hilly city. Main feature I keep thinking about is a super tall broadcast/transmission tower that I can see at all times. We're going to our friend's place which is near this tower. I'm concerned about the effects of them living so close to this very powerful transmission tower. At some point the hills block most of the view of the tower except for the top. I think this is the Sutro tower in San Francisco.

We come upon (flying DO still) an empty top floor of some parking garage that is slightly slanted and entirely empty except for some kids skateboarding there. I think this is a great place for skateboarding. (1st person) standing on the pavement next to a skateboard I step on to it and want to do some "wheely-circles" [can do IWL]. I start spinning counter clock-wise and I start counting my revolutions. I get going faster and faster and I close my eyes and keep counting, all the way up to 20 and then I step off the board and make a "ta-da" gesture.

I'm then sitting in (my childhood bedroom?) looking at the various skateboards I've had in my life placed on the lower shelf, and thinking about narrow vs. wide trucks.

+ I'm walking outside with lots of people around in <foreign country>. I see childhood neighborhood acquaintance JD there and wonder if he likes it/fits in (because he's of a different culture/ethnicity than the majority here). We're riding in a car/van and talking about work. I'm talking about startups and he says yeah but his other job paid better. I say that the advantage is that even if the start-up fails, if there are like 20 people working there, they're very start-up minded and tend to work at other start-ups. If this start-up fails, then you have 20 contacts spread all throughout different companies.

+(f, impression) where's my backpack, I need it in order to go to school

+(f, impression) water running among trees

+(f, impression) cafeteria line, food, lunch at <company N>.

Placeholder, more detail to come later

wake at about 4.5 hours.
1 hour trying to BTS.
Up for WBTB
About another 2 hours BTS. Try SSILD, following the breath. Finally fall asleep and dream.

+ LD #142 (my young kids, going to school, coins in pockets). in the grocery store, contemplating the somewhat strange eggs, see naked girls riding in the grocery carts ("that's strange, normally they cover up when they do that"), get the urge to fly, don't get off the ground but I try again, I see people jump into the air in front of me and freeze, get lucid, the world turns greyscale, then the void, I try to open my dream eyes but waking eyes open, back to sleep

+ LD #143 running through the frat house, having sex with a woman who's bothering me/stalking me, basement door, stairs, scene fades to me saying "then I teleport them to a different location and have sex with them" and I find myself in bed with a naked beautiful blonde spread out before me, get lucid, sexy time ensues, it's stable and awesome, I say "we're stuck here forever! We'll never get out of here!" (experiment with pretend expectation to prolong LDs, like people who are afraid and can't wake up and seem to have really long LDs that way by getting "stuck" in FA loops). It's starting to look like my best LD sex *ever* AND THEN THE ALARM GOES OFF! It probably is the best so far in fact. Wow.

+(f) long earlier dream, playing cards with people

+ Back in old home
Wandering around inside and outside our old home for a long time. We've returned. Out in the garden I'm amazed to find some plants of ours still growing. They're short but they're living. I pick a leaf or two from them and hold them up for my wife to see. I'm doing something with our cars which are in the garage.

Inside, something's not right. Before we sold the house we refinished all the floors to brand-new condition, but these floors are dull and scratched. I ask my wife "didn't we refinish the floors so that they were shiny and new-looking?" I think the realtor must have been letting people inside the house while we were away. I'm confused and am trying to remember correctly.

Outside I walk up to a car in our driveway (not our car). It is a white, low, sports car, like a miata, with its front pointing towards the street. I see that the gasoline tank cover section on the right rear corner of the car (which lifts up and is made of the car body material) of the car has been left lifted up exposing the gas cap. I think this means somebody has been perhaps siphoning away the gas. I think of opening the gas cap and smelling to see if there's any gas left. I also think about shaking the car to feel for the sloshing gas. I move on.

I look back at the house and see "our cars" parked in the driveway in a way that seems to encroach on public space a bit, but it's still part of our property so we have the right. The house that abuts up against ours also has a parking area covered in concrete outside. That area is on an incline that covers the corner, I think they can park their car there but it is less convenient than our place. A woman turns the corner and stops in her tracks when she sees our cars in there positions, she thinks they don't belong there.

I'm (sitting?) on the pavement near several women who I think are discussing my house (and the cars?). I wonder if they recognize me as the owner of my house but I don't think they do, and I listen in to what they're saying. A third woman indicates that she doesn't care about what's going on.

Inside (my house?) there are two women, and one is trying to fill a bucket up (to water plants) from a strange tap but can't get the water out. I start some sort of pumping motion with the tap which gets water flowing, and then I figure out I can turn the handle and water will flow without pumping.

Outside on the street, I'm riding scooters with (3?) other guys. There is a sign that indicates that the lesser-experienced skater should now get the front position on the scooter and I see the 2-man scooter the back skater takes the front position. Then we approach a 90-degree corner turning to the right, and there is another sign that <some name, famous skilled skater> should take the front position due to the speed and the difficult corner. There's a short straight section, then a 90-degree corner turning to the left, and the other skaters start to cut the corner, crossing into the oncoming traffic lane. I tell them not to do that, because some actor guy (who played Scotty on the original Star Trek) could come barreling around the corner in a car. I struggle to remember his character's name, and finally say "Scotty."

+(f, impression) something about loading up into a space ship

Bedtime slipping badly last two nights, this last night was better (12:30am or so), but need to return to dedication to regular and earlier bed times. Recall is worse on nights with bedtime after midnight I've noticed.

There were more dreams than this and were pretty interesting I sense. Really need to focus on recall to get it back up to a much higher, more present average every night.

+ Electronic project: paper airplane simulator
My friends from high school had finished their digital design/electronics project and were demoing it. It had large swiveling vertical sections on top of the base circuit board. I told them not to move the project until it had been graded, because I did the same thing in my class [true], we kept our project, once working, overnight in the lab, in order to be graded the next day and not to risk something being shaken loose. I asked them what it did and it was a "paper airplane simulator!" I thought about inputting my favorite stunt plane design to see what the project would do.

+ "Ugga Bugga" laughing Baby
I'm (babysitting?) with a baby of some friends. It's in an upper bunk (like a airplane overhead luggage rack) and it (falls?) down into my hands. They want to know if it laughs or opens its eyes. I'm supposed to say a particular word to it. It's eyes are covered with a hat. Instead, I decide to sort of tickle it and say "Ooga Booga!" to it, to which it opens its eyes a little and opens its mouth in what looks like a smile. I call to the parents and say its opening its eyes and smiling. I then say "Ooga Booga!" again to it.

+ Homework?
I'm in class, it's towards the end of the semester. I realize I haven't done most of the assignments. I'll have to do a marathon week-long session to finish them all. But I don't know what they are! Did they hand them out? I ask the girl at the desk in front of me if she has the assignments. Then the woman teacher at the front of the room starts giving out the assignments.

Now I'm way behind on DJing due to late nights hanging out with our guests and lots of car trips showing them around.

2015-09-15 very vivid dream
+ I'm walking up the hills in my childhood neighborhood, talking to people, I come across a grocery store meat counter (empty) and I'm saying usually there is meat in there.

Enter some house and while slightly dark everything is amazingly clear. I'm in a room with two grand pianos right next to each other, and I go "oooh!" at them, I'd love to play them. The owner of the house is clearly a musician, it looks like a music studio room, there are folders of music all around the place. I look down (through a window?) on to an open room a floor below and there is another beautiful grand piano there, and I say "ooooh!" again. I glance out the various windows facing different directions and out of each one I see beautiful views of trees and water in the distance, and say "aaahhh!" at the lovely scenes.

I'm now down in an large open floor plan area, a kitchen/dining area, there is another piano here (the one I saw from above?), and in the distance I see the realtor scurrying around trying to stay out of my way but also interested in what we think of the place.

I come to the keyboard and look at it, the keys are very odd, quite thin (like chopsticks) and oddly curved like the teeth of a "Pau'an" alien in Star Wars. I think of trying to play the Beethoven: Sonata "Pathetique" Op. 13 - II. Adagio cantabile movement [which at one point years ago I could actually play all the way through from memory]


But I can't play it because the keys are too thin, and looking at the keyboard I notice it's not as wide as a normal piano keyboard, either.

Then the realtor is there with our group and is quoting us a price for renting the house that the owner wants: about $900 per person. One of us says "no, no," that is way too high, for that price we could go to Paris for 3 weeks. I think I wouldn't want to be in Paris for that long.

The dream ends with me back outside, now DO floating over water, watching two little girls swimming in the water of the Bay, near a rock, just outside the house we were in. I know they are the daughters of the owner of the house. One girl is about 5, and the second one is a toddler swimming with her older sister. I think the salt water might get into their eyes. They are Indian (Asian) ethnicity.

+ (f) (maybe different dream?)
I'm sitting in some sort of kitchen area working at trying to assemble something on the table in front of me. The owners of the house come by, two Asian women, one of them picks up her keys from a plain set of standalone high shelves, they say something.

2015-09-16 no recall: fair amount of dream activity, but it all receded just beyond my ability to remember any details.

2015-09-17

+ in a parking garage, I'm trying to "reserve" a spot by standing in it, there aren't many cars yet. Outside, a guy becomes aggressive and I have some altercation with him. Later I'm in my apartment and I know he's coming so I go outside to lock my outer 2nd door, and I mistakenly close the outer door and throw the deadbolt (from the outside) and I realize I'm locked outside and the enemy guy approaches. I'm holding my musical instrument which is put together strangely with some sections upside down. I'm trying to reason with this guy despite really not liking him.

+(f) I'm telling someone where something is. There is a wide mountain/hill range in front of us and I'm gesturing and describing the place as being just on the other side of these hills.

+ "sex" with TZ:

Spoiler for sort of sexy action:

I come across her lying on the ground in half-lit area, she's wearing red shorts. I get on top of her and she thrusts her hips up into me, which makes me "enter" her (through clothing?) and we go at it for a few seconds, not much sensation.

+ Angband dream! Overhead map view, I was toodling around a map level, decided I should quaff my Enlightenment potion (actual item) to fully map the level and see all items, landed in some "magic dampening" corridor/trap (not in the game), and was reading about a pool of "coagulated" something that produced a scroll that if you read it would boost your mana super high against a particular monster(?). I wondered if there were magic-impairing terrain if there were corresponding melee-impairing terrain for warriors.

+ motorcycle riding, I like that I'm finally riding on my own motorcycle. I imagine that I will take care of it and clean the chain myself.

+ parking garage, driver drives my car off the ramp. I complain that he moved his hands to the right instead of the left How to get the car off the ledge? Guy: have to pull it out, Me: simple, just put it in reverse

+ encounter woman and girl outside the science musuem. I head home, and on the way see an abandoned cat in a blanket giving birth to kittens. Call out to woman, girl. The kittens are just a big head with big eyes. Back at childhood home the heads are more like rodents and running around getting lost in the couch. I dig up the couch cushions and see the cat has one of the head/hamsters in its mouth, I pry the round ball out of the mouth.

WBTB

+ boat outside window in canal, RM from company R (ex-boss) is the captain, I introduce myself but he can't hear (the boat is *really* loud) me or recognize me until I'm right in his face. I look a lot older than when I worked for him, and took off my glasses, I'm standing in company R because the walls and doors and everything around me is painted solid red! Talk to SS (founder company 3) about how I often dream about the old days at work, and doing chip bringups.

+ see jr high friend DD and another guy. They're moving. They leave a bag of random small stuff there. Is it for me to carry, or is he throwing it away? I decide I must pick it up and carry it.
Go to an area which appears to be a balloon blowing up company. I ask where I should put all this stuff. They say "file it under Lady Gaga, because nobody goes there."

After I file it I turn around and see a woman standing up on a balcony looking down at me from the second floor. Then I'm standing facing her closely with her back to the wall. I notice she's very tall, she goes back and forth between being just a bit taller than me, or right around my height, I can't quite decide. I say "wow you're tall! I'm 6 feet X inches!" I try to think if I should kiss her or not.

+ I'm outdoors on some terraced area, people are all around. I see a girl lying on the ground. I go over to her and get bold and lie on top of her and try to convince her without using any powers to 'engage' with me, she's not interested, dream fades…

… and I return to the dream nearby that girl, lucid. I see the dream forming, and at first the people I see are a strange combo of 2d and 3d. I just relax and try to let the dream settle and see an attractive woman and head for her. But then there's a big announcement about a tornado that is several hours away, and all the people get up and leave, I think that if the tornado is several hours away they really jumped the gun unnecessarily on the early announcement.

+ I'm standing in a room with people. It's sort of like a large kitchen. I see a woman standing at a sink (washing dishes?),

Spoiler for explicit sexy time:

she is bold and I see her grab the hand of a man next to her and pushes it on her right breast. This makes me go "zing" and I'm lucid and I go right up behind her. I reach for her breasts from around her back with both hands, and I made a quick gesture to take down my pants and hers but we remain clothed and I'm pressing up against her. I make a gesture to take off her top and bra, and quickly reach for her (I think) naked breasts with both hands, but a bra instantly appears and I'm grabbing over the outside of the bra. I "whip off" the bra again and make a quick reach and again another (different color?) bra instantly appears blocking me. I then lean up and put my mouth against her right ear and say, "Hey baby, why don't you take off your bra so I can see your <bleep>s?" Then the bra is gone, I look over her shoulder and see I'm now holding each of her naked breasts in my hands, and give them a good long squeeze. I look up and see we're standing in front of a mirror, she is hazy/vague, but I see my head poking up above her and I get the impression that my face matches my current appearance. At one point she turns her head to the right to look back at me, her mouth is sort of strange, open and her lips/jaw looks angular.

I'm in a house standing in front of a screen on the wall, there is a lever control on the left and a knob on the right. I'm seeing the view of the same house I'm in through this screen, and there are some naked girls walking around. Then some people come and I'm trying to cancel this screen image by turning the level and knob, but it doesn't turn off, I start turning more quickly and eventually the image does turn off.

+(f) walking through a large open area with work areas. I'm giving a tour, I point out "this is the crafts area," and to the left there are some more artists areas, but they're private, and the girl there I see shakes her head and does not want to be part of the tour. Then I'm walking through this area with some young people and I forget the details.

+(f) there is a rush of people heading towards the elevator. I get on and lean against the wall because I'm tired, but there are some old people coming and they'll want my spot so I have to get up and give it to them.

+(i) politicians and an election?

+ bowling, get a spare (10 pin)

+(f) observe fight in area with tall walls

+ wild dogs on the hill, they attack, I fight back with Thor's hammer

+ in a guy's house, I'm walking around his bedroom on the upper floor, I need something from his computer but his amber screen is jumpy and glitchy, I need to press the "sync" button and it helps a little bit

+ cousins present
I'm reading a program written by my dad's cousin: her children all feature in the show and so do I. Then I read it again and I see "too bad <my name> could not participate". I see one guy's face clearly, I think he's the son of one of the daughters of my dad's cousin, but I get that family confused with some friends of ours. I think his features are similar in all the male children in that family, they all look like their mother -- but that mother is not a cousin, she's just a friend of ours.

+(f) old man picks up a toy / summons it from nowhere? Riding in a truck.

+ I'm looking over my bicycle: there are some clumps of poop on it, one is one the wheel. I look again and I don't see it, I think that means I leaned over the wheel and it got on to my shirt, I look down and yup it did. I put the bike in the bathtub under the running water. There is a (weird piece) of the bike also covered in poop so I put this under the water and wash it clean. It's a shiny metallic part [unrecognizeable as part of a bike].

I'm thinking if I should wax the bike. I'm now looking at 4 parallel metal beams on it. I wonder if people would laugh if I did wax it and it got "too shiny."

+(frag, or short dream?) There are two bottles of high powered booster fuel in small bottles with little tubes coming out the top. You can pour this into your motorcycle and it would go really fast for a while thereafter

+(i, impression, not even a clear fragment) on the freeway?

+ it's after normal restaurant working hours and I'm heading to McDonald's for some fast food (burger, nuggets). Apparently a lot of other people have the same idea as they appear in front of me as I'm walking, they'll get there first. After hours, I think McD's only take huge orders, like $50 minimum, or 100-200 hamburgers at a time. I wonder if they'll accept my small order. It turns out they do. I think that what they do is they serve your single burger from the large bulk orders, then replace the burgers in the bulk order.

Standing (behind the counter?) with (McD employees?).

Spoiler for sexual situation:

A fairly overweight woman bends over forwards and "backs it up" (we're both fully clothed) into my crotch. She is really grinding her butt into me and gyrating her hips in an amazing way. She's fairly porky and I don't consider her attractive but she is doing such an amazing job than I find my self looking down and imagining doing it doggy-style with her and getting hard. Another McD girl employee joins her at one point?

I'm standing with a guy and a girl (whom he likes?) outside. I tell him that he should play in a band, "because chicks dig guys who play in bands. I used to play in a band, too."

In line for more McD's. It's inside the building that is covered with a clear tarp. There is construction/remodelling work going on there and they only let a few people in at a time. I look up and see several workmen on the edge of the 2nd floor of a parking garage laying layers of wet cement on the vertical surface of the edge of the garage floor. One guy is smoothing it out with a trowel. The edge of the floor is about 1 meter tall and is colored a vivid blue.

It's my turn, a woman directs me inside and tells me to "go upstairs." I go in and it's a confusing collection of stairways and corridors. She points me in the right direction and I go up. I get to a place where there are some more stairways in front of me but they're all too narrow for a person to walk through. It's like I'm standing underneath bleachers that extend above me. Out in front of the bleachers above me there is a show or a concert going on. There's a woman sitting up on the bleachers with a big head which is "in the way." A man says something like "too bad about her head being in the way, or you could climb up there."

+ walking outside sort of "back stage" to the main building who's front entrance is on the other side. I'm walking on my university campus (apparently) and the computer science department is referred to as "K5". I meet a friend from my class and ask if he took the advanced AI class in his first year (I thought he did). He tells me no, that instead he took "architectural modeling" and it was a really tough class.

Slept a bit longer today, quite tired, and had good late morning dreaming. So much that it gave the feeling of "I can't hold all these dreams in my head at once." A big improvement over this last week of onesy twosy dreaming nights. Not a lot of detail but just sort of key moments recalled, but still much better than other recent dreams.

Hopefully this signals a turnaround in my recall heading now for a "local maxima." Not close to lucidity in any dreams.

2015-09-08
23:30 bedtime

2015-09-09
04:30
+ playing "basketball" at the park with a small bouncy ball (one inch diameter, like for jacks). I'm trying to dribble this thing, and it's always getting away from me and I have to run faster and faster to try to keep up with it.

On the hill side where the road leads up to the middle level, there is a hole in the wall and something about the ball going in there and my wife giving stern directions about it.

Lots of water in the evening culminated in a water waking around 5 hours, the earliest I've noticed a waking in at least a week or more. Actually pulled off the will to sit on the edge of the bed for a bit for a short WBTB. Almost felt like I was up too long still, as I felt almost no drowsiness as I returned to bed. Maybe 20 minutes falling asleep, trying to WILD, to a mantra. Fell asleep unconsciously.

+ work, colleagues
I'm in a meeting with J the engineering founder of company R. He's going over a list (written, I see the items on a page as he discusses them) with (Microsoft?) about all the problems in their API that prevent hardware vendors from reaching peak performance. If these are not dealt with in time company R will go out of business.

I'm walking towards a long straight stairway, and pass an office on the left with a guy working on a computer, I feel he's a bit worried about me seeing his screen. He seems to be Josh Brener's character from "The Internship". I'm heading up this stairs and he's beside me, I ask him if "he's going to perforce later."

At the top of the stairs I encounter large crowds of former colleagues. "Hey <my name>!" they call constantly! I wave and shake hands. I see JM (company 3) sitting among others, [probably the only real former colleague in the dream]. I see AM he's standing by some very large mini-refrigerator server systems with lots of blinking lights. I say "<hardware devices> are all smoke and mirrors, all the work is done on these servers!" AM says something in response to that.

I'm greeting more colleagues. Some guys behind me say "Hey <my name>!" I turn and look behind me and see some non-engineering colleagues who I vaguely recognize.

I'm shaking lots of people's hands. Then I see a particularly "good friend" [false] and I say "hey!" and while I shake his hand with my right hand I reach with my left and and slap/clasp his right hand also with my left.

later (multiple wakings, final waking 08:30-9?)

+ billiards
I'm playing a team game of pool. Our opponents are at the table. The guy has a ball and the cue ball against the rail about half-way between the corner and side pocket, and he sets up to bank it into the near corner. He whacks the balls so hard the object ball goes flying at high speed and lands amazingly enough in the corner pocket. The guys around are saying "great shot!" but I'm mumbling under my breath "anyone can whack the balls around like that and get lucky." Then he (or his teammate?) tries to make another shot with a lot of English and miscues and scratches. My teammate takes the cue ball and I remind him he has ball-in-hand because of the foul. There is another scratch and I take an object ball up and put it near the spot.

+(f) sex
Vague, short

+ parking, house with people, story about vacation
Arrive "home" to friend's house the woman is driving and leaves the car parked on the side of the road, I'm a bit concerned that other people are trying to get by it?

I'm telling the story of my recent vacation, I say "I was just in <place> and it was so hot there I was sweating all day long. But at night, it was still *warm* and very comfortable. You could sit outside at a restaurant and be completely comfortable." People around nod agreement in how nice that is.

+ concert, borrow instrument
I have an upcoming concert, and I remember the guy in the house full of people I've been spending time in said I could borrow his instrument. I have a pile of coins to offer in way of some compensation. I go in the house and ask him very nicely if I could borrow his instrument. I'm surprised when he seems hesitant (says no?) because he already told me yes. I recall then that the concert is later *today* and I also have another one tomorrow. I'm screwed if I can't borrow his instrument.

+(f) give toy to boy
I'm in some store-like place. I've unwrapped a medium-sized toy (Lego something?) and given it to the boy. I'm wondering if he wonders why it's unwrapped.

+ in house with people, girl
Again in the house with lots of people (where I'm a guest?), I'm with a girl and I'm caressing her stomach and head north to her chest. I'm a bit concerned about what the guy will thing, the girl is OK with it. I tell her "I love you" and kiss the side of her head, she tells me "I love you, too!"

+ walking through a small city, come across a beautiful path of poppies. There are purple, orange, all different colors, I call to my wife to come look at the flowers.

Outdoors, group of people, one guy is preparing (barbeque sauce?) food? BBQ?

+ long sequence, many scenes

I see a ping pong table, someone I know is practicing his game, there's a normal horizontal table and a vertical one (like folded for storage) (for practicing serves solo?)

A guy goes up high and is offering his truck backed up against the loading dock to take refugees.

I'm covering up my truck with a fake covering with a company name and a phone number and the name of some unhead-of small Asian country starting with "M." There's a phone number on the van but it's very short, it must be a small country. I'll have to drive very carefully in order to avoid any attention from the police. I'm standing here arranging the cover and looking at it for a long time.

I have two cars in the company parking garage. How am I going to get both of them out? I'll have to drive one out, then somehow get back and drive the other one out. I want to get my stuff out of the garage before the employees arrive for the day. Oh, my I must have been here all night long without sleeping!

Employees are arriving early for work already. They're dedicated. It's only about 8-8:30am. How will I get past the guard?

I get out and there are lots of people around, this must be a fancy company everything is catered.

Inside the building (in a bar/restaurant?) there is a small group of musicians sitting in playing formation (4?). I don't see one of <my instruments.> I sit on a high bar stool nearby and start to play. My <mouthpiece> is new and feels stiff and sounds a bit muddy and flat, I say "it's new." There's a guy walking by who I think knows me. I play some fast, messy scales/arpeggios up and down. Including starting on a high A-note and doing my usual fast downward warm-up arpeggio. I'm a bit rusty so it sounds a bit sloppy.

I want something from all the catered stuff around. I see a portable bar of a variety of growing fresh herbs, about 1 foot tall each plant. I look down and see a small platter of some branches of a plant with small leaves and flowers on it, I think "OK, I'll just take this" but someone says no I shouldn't (?).

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The last dream was pretty long, felt continuous, and had a pretty high presence. I'm going to have to figure out some way to wake myself up more at night with my new sleep/exercise schedule, it's keeping me pretty tired. May have to go for a nap during the day.

2015-09-07

00:31 bedtime. Too late, dang. Watched a couple of movies in the evening right before bed, stayed up to finish one. Bad idea, recall fairly poor. Still missing a strong feeling of presence & vividness, at least, or it's vanishing quickly upon waking.

Need to really put strong effort into recall, noticing wakings, and get back to being excited about waking during the night to recall dreams. Wanted to do a WILD attempt but just couldn't get up during the night. Need daytime naps to take the edge off with my increased exercise?

Noticed at least one waking and did some mental recall, I think most of these were lost. Need to record in the middle of the night!

07:21
+ flooded room
I'm in a (bath?)room and some water has slopped on to the floor. I need to clean it up. I'm hitting/adjusting/prying something there and then I realize I've created a huge leak in the bathtub which is emptying on to the floor in a big flow. I scream "HELP! HELP! COME HERE!" to my wife. I try to plug up the leak with a towel and (that stops or slows the flow?)

+ Field/Fries
Walking outdoors daytime alongside some athletic fields the path branches and I take the right branch. I'm walking towards a practice, I'm hungry, I realize I'm carrying a package of McDonald's for the players, I open it up and see lots of packs of fries, I eat some (with ketchup?). Arrive at the athletic practice (football?) there are (small formations doing drills?)

+ winter motel
Walking along the side of a street (curb to my left, street to my right) in an outdoors wooded area, it's winter(?), walking by a line of cars extending out into the road, across it, and well down the intersecting road. They're waiting their turn to check in at the motel. There aren't many motel in this remote area. Most of the cars are white? I glance to the left and see some lights and see the small motel/inn there. I'm glad I had already arranged my stay at another place earlier.

+ charge mammoth boat/sex
LOTR attraction? There are options. I chose the giant mammoth to climb up/board/attack. It's more like a boat. The defenders are in very strong positions above me so it's really hard to make progress against them. There are lots of protuberances and statues to climb on though. I look down to the left and see churning water, with more spiky statues there beneath the surface attached to the ship/mammoth, so falling into the water is not necessarily safe. I make it up to the top and move through the crowd. I grab a very small being (like a doll) who I think is the leader. It's naked? I'm trying to determine its gender, it's not clear. I engage in some sexual contact with this thing.

+ door/note/shrimp
Walking through town in shops, I'm a bit aware of my path [day practice!] was on a side road now I'm on a larger road. I wave to my wife who's farther up the road? We go through a door leading down some steps (still outside), my wife is behind me, I brush her hand which is holding the door and she grabs her hand back and says something about me hitting her hand, I say "well if you'd walk ahead of me where I could see you that wouldn't happen." Down at the bottom of the steps some people glance back at me saying "thanks" (with a sarcastic tone?).I think they wanted me to hold the door for them?

I'm given a note I on a small (triangular?) piece of (dark?) paper instantly recognize as being from my, it's her handwriting, is this her last note to me instead of that email?, It's dated "April XX" and I'm trying to remember date of her passing, was this note before or after that time?

I hear her voice? she is talking about the shrimp. She's saying the heads are tasty but the tails are nasty. "It's too bad you can't just eat the head because it gives you a buzzy feeling." I hold the shrimp in my hand (large prawn style) the head looks sort of normal with some little hairs poking out of its mid-section but the tail looks like a big segmented pink worm body. I wonder why the tails are not tasty, I think it's perhaps because it hasn't been deveined, so I turn it over and pry open the tail to look for a poop vein.

Still waiting for my new & improved regular sleep schedule to kick in. To bed about normal time, and up after approximately 8 hours in bed, but still anticipating the alarm and woke a bit early with not great recall.

Not much sense of having dreamt during the night, a bit unusual, usually I feel that I've dreamt a lot even if I don't remember it.

+(f) something about stock

+ in a foreign language class where I'm not a beginner, but the class is for beginners. The teacher is asking the students to read a text that a beginner now way could read. The teacher asks me a question and I answer in the foreign language using a grammatical form I've heard but I'm not certain of, and I say "but I haven't studied that so I'm not sure I used it correctly."

+ I'm standing outside on the street a few houses down the street from my childhood home at the intersection. Facing towards the park I think there's a cave down below the street with a bear in it. Should I go look at it? Turn towards the uphill and see there's a bear there, a fairly large grizzly or black bear. It's calm, but I move quickly to my car which is right there, if I get inside I'll be safe. I walk around the back of the car to the left passenger door, and get in kneeling on the seat, I'm trying to close the door but my feet are in the way. The bear will get me soon. I keep trying to close the door and it's certainly been too long, but I manage to close the door.

I'm now in the front seat kneeling across the seats with my head pointing towards the front passenger side. I feel the bear's claw lightly swipe/touch me on the head, the window is open and the bear can reach in.

I'm standing up on something like a lifeguard's tall chair. People are saying something like they were expecting me and Sensei to be teaching the class.

2015-09-04 23:06 bedtime (yay on time!)

2015-09-05 07:00 final wake for the day

1. crazy baseball
I'm standing behind home plate and am watching a play in progress. The whole field is in chaos, the players are running around like mad to and a fro. This chaos leaves home plate undefended. My runner who was on 3rd is now way out past center field. I want to send him an SMS on my phone to tell him to run quickly home to score, but I don't have time. He eventually does run home and score?

2. fighting in trees, awesome maneuver; projector & hard drive
I'm climbing a tree with a partner/teammate in a combat situation. He/we make an awesome jump to a nearby tree where we simultaneously hammer in several very long nails, creating a crude ladder that we use to position ourselves perfectly. My teammate has a bow and shoots 4 shots at our opponent in another tree. One shot to the left, one to the right, and two in the middle that "chip away" some material. These are great shots. I'm hanging precariously from a branch by my arms and I ask if I can get down now.

In a small room, sort of cavelike, two guys are there. One guy is projecting a video on to a wall in the middle of the room. I try to find the projector, it is a small device attached to the wall (which is uneven and has a small cubby there), aimed at a small mirrors, which then projects on to the wall as I see.

I'm concerned about the hard drive containing the video footage of the awesome tree maneuver, the projector guy says something about it.

3. girl pictures
I'm in an indoor (office?) place, lying on the ground on my back with my head arched looking behind me and I have a camera. There are a series of (3?) hot girls who come into the room and I take a picture of each of them. I think I want upside down pictures so this is why I'm lying like this on the ground. I think for a moment that I could just hold my camera upside down. I see each girl through the viewfinder/screen and take a picture of them, with the camera making a shutter-sound each time. The girls look at me after I take each picture and indicate their disapproval.

4. window screen -- burglary?
I return to my room and see I left my sliding window open. I'm concerned if any burglars came in. I come up closely to the window and inspect the window screen. I see that it appears to have been pulled away from the window frame in the upper and lower right hand corners. I keep looking at it to try to see for sure if it was opened from outside. I get the idea to check my things. I turn into the room and see one laptop across the room partially hidden under a pile of clothes, and a second laptop on/near the bed, apparently undisturbed/not stolen. Again I turn to the screen. I'm trying to adjust it so that it fits snugly against the window frame. There are some strips of cloth on pulleys that you can pull to tighten the screen, and I pull these and the screen seems to even out again. My wife says "<something> the prayers of the <someone>".

5. movie filming, guy in suit; guy with white wafer cookies
A scene from a movie where a man was putting on his suit in front of a mirror. The camera man was standing directly behind him in a doorway, the scene was successfully filmed in a single take.

I'm standing over a sitting man in some room, I see he has a large pocket filled with waffle/wafer cookies. I know these are bad for him. I pick up one and take a bite. I tell him not to eat these things with processed ingredients, & they're loaded with sugar. He's not interested in my advice.

6. (f) return to awesome tree maneuvers, climbing stick ladder
I'm back around the tree maneuver place, there are lots of kids trying to climb up a very rickety crude ladder made from thin sticks.

7. (f) girl hanging off of driver door while car moving
I'm in the passenger front seat of a moving car, I'm looking out the driver's window, there's a girl standing there, holding on the window. I think she may fall off or get hit by something outside and get knocked off.

8. (f) new (card game? comic?) character, very powerful: Malfoy's Dad
(My kids?) tell me that there's this new powerful character with lots of abilities. It's like I'm looking at a trading card or a card game card, there is a (rotating?) list of his abilities. I see the card and the character looks like the actor who plays Malfoy's dad in Harry Potter.

9. outdoor jazz piece, bass solo
Outdoors, busy urban location like a downtown store area with lots of people walking around. There is a band setting up to play a piece. I stop and stand nearby to watch. I know that the piece they're playing is a (electric) bass solo piece. The bass player is in front of me across a small space, and the keyboard player is to his left. I can see and read the bass player's sheet music. There is an intro line where he only has one note (quarter note on the first beat?) per measure. Then the solo begins on the second line, lots of triplets of fairly high notes. I see the clef marking is a bass clef symbol and I think this is appropriate because he's the base player.

The piece begins. I also see his first note is a middle "G" and I hear this note in my head clearly. The note he plays matches this tone. I'm nodding my head to the beat as the musicians play. The bass player glances my way and sees me reading along his music. The keyboard player also glances my way and sees me really into the piece. I think they acknowledge me as a musician, and they may even ask me to come play in their band.

The bass player is actually playing his notes on a keyboard and I think this is a bit odd.

bedtime a bit late, but natural waking at 08:30 on schedule

didn't record earlier dreams, mostly lost. Felt a bit bad that recall wasn't great at earlier waking. Better recall later. Short late "waking" LD to end the night.

later waking had good detail, vivid/present dreams, middle dream mostly forgotten

1. +(f, unsure) flying an airplane?

2. + crazy basketball [ds]
Playing basketball. Guys are making lots of long 3-pointers at the beginning of the game. During a free throw one guy comes up from the back and makes an amazing high shot that zips through the hoop so fast and and such a funny angle that no one is sure if it is actually a basket or not. Slow motion replay shows that it is. Taking the ball out from out of bounds.

I'm trying to make layups with folded up towels. This is a layup class. I'm standing RIGHT THERE under the basket but none of my shots gets even close. This is frustrating. At one point I use two hands and the "ball" (wadded up towel) goes farther but still doesn't score.

3. +(f) dog
Leaving house with wife and others, the dog starts whining loudly, wife says something like "man up." I'm annoyed by this. I go to the dog (German Shepard looking) and try to put on its collar, which is in two semi circles with round things on each end of the arc. I try to put the leash on to the collar ring and finally get it in place.

4. + uneven pavement SUV
I'm riding in a big SUV in the front passenger seat. (The driver is a guy who IWL our building is having problems with). We're bouncing over uneven pavement. The car's suspension has reached a bouncing frequency that makes the front wheels hop up just at the right time to get over the large uneven sections in the street which are bound with metal on the edges. I say "good job" for avoiding the bumps. I "remember" that on another street parallel to us there is another crack and talk about it. I can't remember the name of the street, I know it is located by turning left then right. I say "what's the name of that street that leads to A. hill?" A guy (in the back of the car?) answers "Crawdad Street(?)". The crack on that street also needs to be avoided.

5. + military presence, wedding/funerals

Standing outside urban environment, we're heading to the church to get married(us? kids?). Other groups are also heading to the church for funerals. A large group with a lot of caskets are approaching, individual men are carrying each casket. Are the caskets empty? That must be heavy. We should hurry, where's my wife? If they get to the church ahead of us we may have to wait all through the funeral service before the wedding. It's bad luck to be married at the same time a funeral service is going on.

There are military helicopters flying just past the fence which is made of poles. The tail section of one helicopter I notice is gradually approaching the fence where it can/will get caught. It does get caught and the helicopter goes down on its side. I have a feeling we should rush the cockpit while we can.

To the right down the street a big company of soldiers runs up. They're wearing red uniforms. I think it's pretty funny that this huge force was sent to deal with us, we're just standing around waiting for the church, ooooh, how scary we are!

6. + crazy racquetball
Playing on a somewhat dark court against a lot of guys. I'm serving and scoring points. I alter my service location between the left and right back corners. I'm serving standing on the right of the service area and serving towards the left back corner, score, count (it seems my score is a bit low for how long I've been here winning points), then I quickly step to the left side of the service box and serve towards the back right corner which completely takes them by surprise and they don't even go for it. One serve/shot comes back off the back wall fast and they can't catch up to it, another point for me. One one point I score by a corner shot against the left front corner.

Another guy comes in to play against me. "Another one?" I say? I think the court is getting really crowded.

There is a woman wearing glasses sitting down on a chair on the right front area of the court beyond the service box. I'm annoyed by this. I tell her she's in the way, and that she could get hurt. "The ball moves at 200mph and your'e not wearing safety glasses." I think I may be exaggerating but on some shots the ball could go really fast, if you put a speed gun on it to measure it it may be closer to 100 mph. She and I get into an argument. "Well you're not wearing safety goggles either!" she says. "Yeah but <something>" I say, I'm getting really angry and she's backing out of the court. She says "I'm a journalist and I'm going to write a story about you" (and your behavior). When she's gone I'm in the service box and start justifying myself to a guy playing. "She did not respond to reason in the beginning, <so things got out of hand>". I'm a bit concerned about the article she's going to write is going to present me in a bad light and people will think poorly of me, even though they don't have the whole story.

(wake and recall dreams?)

7. + LD#139
I'm outdoors in an urban environment. I had to go get something at my car. I start jogging back to the racquetball game. I feel very light on my feet, like I've lost weight. I feel the rub of the jeans on my legs every time I raise them up to jog another step forwards. I think I'll need to change into my shorts back at the court, I hope my racquet is still there.

Up ahead I see girls in uniforms entering a University. School is in session again. They look nice. I do a nose pinch to see if I'm dreaming ["If I were dreaming right now…."], and I am! I debate where I should go. On the one hand I'd really like to play racquetball lucid, I've been looking forwards to that for a long time, I should keep heading back to the courts. On the other hand: girls! I decide to follow the crowd in the right door. There is one girl with long blond hair right in front of me and I go up to her and face her and start talking to her. I ask her what year she is. The dream fades and I'm awake.

Analysis/commentary/misses
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2. fairly reliable DS. I've played basketball with wadded up towels for balls before in dreams. Can't make a simple shot over and over again.

3. this was a longer dream, forgot a lot of it

4. poor memory and reaching for something I think I should know it is a fairly reliable dream sign, need to catch these.

5. lots of odd things here. "How odd is this?" should catch this. Especially the huge company of soldiers running up to our group.

6. Major dream sign, I will catch this one day and play lucid racquetball!

7. Happy that pretty girls got me lucid fairly quickly . Unfortunately, no stabilization, and I should have grabbed the girl and taken her to go play racquetball instead of just standing there staring at her hoping the dream doesn't end which of course made it end. Goals! Narrate! Lucid Lab!

Yesterday IWL I started working on being aware of my path, location, and *how I'm moving*. I paid attention to my legs and the feel of my legs walking, looking down to see them and my feet. I paid attention to changes of direction, location transitions, and transitions in the material the ground is made of. This "feel of my legs inside my jeans" in the dream may have come from that!