FryingMan

23:15 bedtime, yay!

00:00 Wednesday 2014-03-12 Competition #17 night #5

02:35

F1) The Flintstones in a park

1) going through an entrance with S2, he takes his shirt off, I make a remark about this. We enter long hallways, we start playing hockey on the super slippery floors with a puck of some sort. We're running down the hallways and richocheting the puck off the walls to each other. Someone scoops it up (it has become a vinyl record in a paper jacket) and drops it back down to the floor.

F2) a teacher summons a shuttle

05:35

2) Horses on a hill in the distance, "Hey look at the horses let's go watch them," they move away. There are some closer horses by a fence, coming closer, suddenly a man turns around next to the horse and looks at me. He is dark/middle-eastern looking. He starts talking about a strange cow/horse thing on our left, it is a bizarre looking beast.

3) I'm bicycling with a group of friends including CL. CL is riding a bike that has a large console on it like a big motorcycle. I'm looking at the handlebars of the bikes the others are riding, I'm trying to determine if they're the old curly-style of road bikes, or the straight out style of mountain bikes, it looks curly-style at first but then resolves as straight. One rider is saying he gear broke and it took hours to fix. Another is saying that his gear broke and after replacing it the chain/deraileur in the front is a few millimeters unaligned so he is always having to fiddle with the gear shift lever to stop it from clicking, I see him fiddle with it. We jump out bikes up to the roof of cars and then back down.

4) sitting high on a shelf in the corner of a tall/huge room, the strange cow / horse thing from #2 is there rolling on the ground, I watch as its head moves between the border of the light and the darkness, I think it will sooon see me and I don't want it to.

5) Happy Birthday, G! I'm in G's house for his birthday. There are two women there, one lying in bed and one standing up. I decide to check out the woman in bed, she's very old and wearing lots of make-up, I think "ew." A bunch of people have gathered together to wish G happy birthday. A woman is pouring a drink I think is for me but G swoops in and takes it, it's a large drink I end up with a small one. I start to make a toast, I'm trying to find the words to praise G, I start the toast praising G, just then a bunch more people arrive I can see them approaching the house from outside, I decide to wait for them to enter before continuing.

6) Standing outdoors outside a restaurant, I'm waiting for people. I go check the internet router which is lying outside around a building, I think the people I'm waiting for may be using it. I think about returning to where I was waiting and go to Jack in the Box and get some Monster Tacos.

F3) showing my wife something on the computer

F4) some weird things on the ground near my car

06:00 - 07:42

Thinking about the dreams, thinking about work. Eventually decide to sleep more and finally eventually fall asleep again.

Took a long time. Probably slept at 08:00

09:18

7) Nighttime at old neighborhood partk, I'm on the middle level, I'm with a car and a bicycle. The lower basketball level I can see is packed with cars as if it were a parking lot, I see a black guy slinking and jumping between the cars, I figure he's trying to steal the cars or the stereos. He's really hipping and hopping and zipping around quickly darting between the cars very suspiciously. Then a second guy shows up with him, I think "OK it's time to get out of here," I move to put my bike quickly in the back of the hatch-back car, I try to close the door of the hatchback but the bike's in the way, I try slam slam slam harder and harder to close it but it won't latch. Then the two guys are on my level and approaching me. I get the back door to latch finally and I quickly get in the drivers seat and turn on the car. One guy is coming to talk to me by the driver's window, I know this is a technique to distract me while the second guy will go around the other side and try to carjack me. I pretend to give him my attention and behave like I'm distracted but I'm really getting the car ready to go. Then I slam on the gas and pop the clutch, the takes a while to get going, like the clutch is really soft, but I get going eventually.

8) driving down a steep hill with my (deceased WL) aunt. I'm the driver she's in the front passenger seat, her window is open, we're driving by houses on the right, she tries to grab something from a pile of papers on some guy's mailbox as we pass by. We have to go back, she needs to do something with this paper, I stop the car and put it into reverse and try to go back up. The car is very weak or the clutch is very soft, it doens't engage well, the engine is really revving but we're moving in reverse very slowly. I hear a horn honking and look left/forwrads and see that there's a long line of traffic heading downhill in our lane, I must have caused a traffic jam with this maneuver. I coordinated the foot brake, the hand brake, the gas and the clutch to get going in reverse back up the hill. We make it back to the house.

Inside this guy's house, he's ordered something and it has arrived and I see the packing containers, he's in the bathroom washing it. I don't want to meet him so I move forwards and descend a stairway to an office area. I meet his wife and talk about something here. I then have a view of this office area from a higher floor looking through blinds, it's night and I see the lights in that room contrasted against the darkness outside and I know that's where I was earlier talking to that woman.

There's a guy talking to the landlord of this house and he's asking about keys. I know I have the keys.

I'm working with some guys in this house on a device that can control the minds of people over the phone. I'm the technical lead behing this project and I'm proud that everyone knows this, I'm adjusting and connecting wires, connecting the devicer to a phone system. I see the two wires connecting into the box. I joke about calling people and telling them to "send all your money to <my name>." I give a test call to a friend, he says it sounded very automated, I listen to a message from the system and it does indeed sound like computerized text-to-speech, and the words become garbled and incoherent and lost most of the words and you couldn't make sense of what it was saying.

9) I'm watching some adult VHS tape, I'm interrupted, I return to find a tape sitting on the table partially deconstructed / disassembled into pieces, there are two guys, JB and someone else, I suspect they know what's on the tape and they sabotaged it. I'm trying to put the tape back together, I pull a long stream of the tape out of the taple player and try to manually wind it back up but I don't think this is going to work because it's badly twisted. I'm conversing with these guys, the topic moves to transferring media from one place to another, they don't believe I can do it, I say I can so, I give a detailed account of "hooking wires to the video player, through the video converter, and then to the DVD burner," I say this a few times.

10) I'm looking at a blank greeting card together with my mother, in their living room, it is dark. It says on one page "Diablo," a there's a picture of a little guy with horns and cloven hooves, I'm puzzled but this, on another page of the card there's a large artistic white/grey picture close up of the devil's head (with "devil" written over it?) sporting an evil grin, I think this is a VERY questionable card to be sending someone, I say to her , "you can't send this card!" and my mother answers, "Oh, I'm going to send it anyway!!" My father is bringing in large pieces of glass and white plastic/metal lawn/deck furniture into the living room, he had just washed it, and he's going to build a display case out ot it.

09:28 up out of bed

23:15 ? bedtime, yay!

00:00 Tuesday 2014-03-11 Competition #17 night #4

04:07

1) On the ground floor of a huge multi-story movie theater. It's closed. The staircase is to the left I think about sneaking up and having a look around, it's a big theater and I've always wanted to see what it looks like. I go to the right into the staff bathroom instead. It's a good thing I'm in the staff bathroom club because the regular bathrooms are closed. I'm carrying a plastic cup with a toothbrush in it. There are young people in there, joking around, sloshing things into other people's cups. People are carrying tall cups with toothbrushes in them. Someone is saying he was pranked and someone put shoelaces in his ??.

2) 50 year old friend CL and his son. CL is shirtless and buff, his son looks like him but smaller, CL is on left, son on right, we're going up stairs, we're going to see if the elevator is working but a gong sounds and that means it's time for a prayer, someone doesn't want to to it, I don't know the words but I'm singing along. The view has changed to outside bright daylight, and after singing the prayer the Mother of God says "the Father has no Father because he's the Father."

3) With some guys in a car I'm giving directions. I'm saying "go to the left, then the right." a guy in the car disagrees and says "no that's the <something>" this is his hometown and his neighborhood, I tell him he probably knows the name of every stone and of every pebble, and you probably would name <some thing> the "bliggersnabble" or the "schlorbleflap", that stone over there.

We're in some guy's house, he's coming home he looks up and sees us, I pretend that I'm trying to help him get rid of something, and set the table.

F1) A guy getting out of a car, shooting something by a house, and saying "the best part of this is that you get to be with Henry."

4) in my childhood room, I'm giving a technical presentation. Someone asks me if I can give thte presentation again, I say I'll only do it if I have notes. People gather together to listen to the presentation. There are a bunch of colored pencils/crayons hanging in the air and I'm commenting on the colors, these look like new colors, there's in particular a very special blues and greens, I'm searching for the term for these colors, "they're not pastel, but they're....?" and somebody
says the (fake) name for them and I say "yeah yeah yeah that's it that's the name!"

F2) picking up a desk lamp which fell/swivelled over and putting it back up on the desk.

07:09

5) I'm arriving in a large dark hall with lots of people sititng around sparse tables, I'm there to get baptized, a big guy says that we need to bring our own firewood to heat the baptism water. He says without that the baptism won't go well. We didn't bring any firewood, I look to my wife and say what shall we do? Luckily there are some manly handymen in a shed, the shed door opens and I see stacks and stacks of firewood, we can use that. The handyman start building a sort of little bridge about 4 feet high and 4 feet long, I'm fascinated with the construction. They take several pieces of wood and start the frame, sliding it into place in a special way it is curved. They start putting on rubbery sheets and pulling them tight, pounding the structure with large mallets, pulling it tight and pounding things into place, the bridge is shaping up with a solid walkway covered in this (green?) rubber.

I'm coming out of a garage-like place and see a group of people standing just outside in the light, they're standing with a big tub of water in their hands, I know this is a "suprise baptism," I check my shirt, it's a white shirt but it has logo of some company I used to work for, I think this is an innappropriate shirt. Their first slosh misses entirely, and I walk more towards them to help them along, I'm sort of sorry for them that they're doing a bad job, the second slosh of water at me gets me wet on a corner of my shoulder, it's not very much, the 3rd slosh also misses entirely.

6) I'm arriving at a home coming up the stairs and we're opening the door, it's FF's house, I'm thinking about his nose (which is large/funny) but I don't see it directly, he's standing to my left. We enter the house and I look at my naked arms, I see the skin on them, (they don't look like my arms), F's wife says something about my skin. There's a table that a cat is jumping at and I see a little fast moving yellow blob, I look closer and I see it's a tiny birt about the size of a golfball, I urgently tell F that his bird has gotten loose, but it turns out that it's just a wind-up toy bird.

8:06 getting up for the day

11:30 - 13:00 2km swim / one hour

00:00 Monday 2014-03-010 Competition #17 night #3 insomnia sucks and the paradox of intent

04:22

F1 entered and followed a snowy path
F2 at a drive through window with Arnold Schwarzenegger
F3 in a very tall steep roller derby with son and our cat kept falling down to the middle of the rink.
F4 pressing buttons and flipping switches on a bottle of shampoo with women around to enable something with a cat
F5 outdoor picnic with the D family.

Couldn't get back to sleep

06:00 up to kitchen for snack and reviewing why I'm not sleeping.
Held purring cat for a while, scratched its head.
Sit in rocking chair for a while.

06:30-ish back to bed.

Decide to hell with it, I had basically no problems sleeping in this bright noisy room before lucid dreaming practice. I take out the earplugs, take off the sleep mask, and decide to let whatever will happen, happen, including just lying there for another couple of hours, not trying to do anything at all.

And of course I fall asleep in about 5 minutes . The paradox of intent.


08:14

1) I'm trying to control a squirming annoyed infant in my arms. It's dark. I bring its face to mine and sort of kiss/suck its tiny (sort of doll-sized) nose and it calms down and it looks into my eyes and gives a cute little baby laugh. I do this a few more times. Face actually sort of creepy and doll-like.

2) A group of people are gathering around in a living room to start a reading, they ask what we've been reading, my wife jumps in and answers for me, we start reading out loud but there's a lot of noise coming from somewhere, I walk into the room to follow the noise and find it and it turns out it's coming from a two-way baby monitor. I walk back into the house as I "know" the parent with the baby is in a bedroom somewhere, I think the parent is annoyed at the noise of our reading and is making noise to annoy us in return, I find the bedroom where there is sound but I do not go in. I return back and am walking by doors, one is cracked open a bit with light and I think that is my friend MR's room, he seems to be stirring / getting up. I'm walking in a narrow aisle between a bunch of single / cot beds.

3) Documentary: The Man Who First Discovered Gold in Alaska. A grizzled distinguished older man with a grey and black streaked beard is standing outside his restaurant talking to the camera crew. He's telling the story of how he was the first person to find gold in Alaska. (At this point: I was then seeing his memories through his eyes). The very first time he panned for gold he found enough right away to buy himself dinner. I see gold flakes under flowing water, and some coins. He wrote messages on paper and folded them up and put them under a stone. I watch as hands fold up a paper and put several like it underneath a stone. It's easy to see the paper I think it's not very secure there.

09:00 up for the day.
09:45 at gym, light weights, some bike, light quick swim, sauna

00:00 Sunday 2014-03-09 competiiton #17 night #2

00:08 bedtime

05:30

1) (WTF?) I'm looking at the ceiling of a room and there are large square gray constructs there arranged in a pattern. I think this is some sort of billiard table and I look for shots I could make and think about where there things would move around to if i hit them. On the walls across the room there are tracks that go up and down along the front of closet doorways (IWL I think this was my parent's bedroom), and two billiard balls are racing up and down these tracks. One of the balls is trying to jump ahead of the other one. The balls are replaced by small dogs and they brake hard by sticking their front legs out straight in front of them and digging their butts into the ground and dragging them.

07:06

2) I'm outdoors, among trees, doing something with the ground, there are tools here. I notice some long straight channels in the ground (looks like made from cement?) that go from one are to another area and I think I need to make some more of these channels. I'm trying to find a tool that will help me gouge the ground in the proper shape. The tool I'm thinking of is like a giant allen-wrench-shaped crowbar, but all I can find are some axes, but I know these won't do a good job. I go looking for my partner with axes in hand to see if he has the gouging tool. I'm carrying the axes two in one hand at first then adjust (like a good boy scout) to carry one axe in each hand proper safety-merit-badge-boy-scout style.

I'm approaching an area where there is a line of shrubs going from my left to my right, I'm near the left end of this row, beyond this there is a hill going up on which are close-built colorful houses in many rows going up the hill. A woman appears from around the row of shrubs and sticks a plant quickly in the ground near the end of the line of shrubs, and she disappears again behind the back of them, I think she's marking her territory. I see my friend/partner and ask him about the tools and he doesn't know. I see a house to my left and a plant that marks the boundaries of the property lines. Then I'm looking up at the rows of houses and telling my friend how to get to a particular place I know up there, you have to go up a steep hill and turn onto a street.

3) can't pick up papers in driveway, why do I bother picking them up I'm not going to use them anyway, I see some handwriting on a page and assume it's my handwriting. There are some people parking and approaching I think we're probably in their driveway I think we should leave we're probably freaking them out. A guy says we're going to use the papers again. The pages are turning into confetti and getting blown away, I can't pick them up. The guys says something about "think of all the computer stuff it was harder to do without what we did."

4) Walking through crowded hallways in some high school. I see a drinking fountain in front of me I want a drink but it's a bad one, as the stream of water flows horizontally and way too close to the bowl/faucet so you risk touching something dirty. A bit farther down the hallway I see a drinking fountain with a more vertical stream. A teacher is showing me around. I wonder if I know anybody at this high school. There's a little 2-lane bowling alley, very very narrow lanes with kids bowling there, I see a control room for the alley next to it, there's a boy sitting in there and there are lots of controls and computer circuit cards and wires there. I think that's awesome. But then just beyond it there's a full sized bowling alley with "23 lanes" full-sized. As I'm walking by the lanes on my left I watch a boy bowl (right-handed) a gutter ball. I think the kids would be amazed if I got up and bowled a strike.

I come across an odd lane where the whole lane is rippling in waves about a meter high and one meter apart between crests. 4 people are standing in between the waves, and the game involves getting the ball to move from one wave valley to another. You also get points to doing maneuvers with the ball. One couple of the people, boy and girl, start doing something that causes the ball to orbit around their necks and heads, and they start kissing. I get a "camera zoom" view flying in a circle towards the woman's face and keeps zooming and zooming up to her lips and I see she has a bit of a mustache (WL day residue!) and the dream ends while the view of her lips keeps on zooming until they fill the entire view.

00:00 Saturday 2014-03-08 competition #17 night #1

01:11 bedtime. Family serious situation event, no avoiding the lateness
Long to sleep, very stimulated. Required self-hypnosis relaxation, probably slept no earlier than 01:45

05:52

1) Cancan dancing party. Several couples in a room cancan dancing, small apartment living room combined with a kitchen, the women are stripping. I'm on the other side of the room, the women are sitting on the couch, they're wearing big fluffy cancan burlesque-dancing multi-layer skirts. Their legs are up and underwear sort of visible underneath all the layers of skirts. One of the men comically crawls out from the couch passing beneath one of the women beneath her skirts and reaches up for a feel as he goes by. A guy asks me something like "with all your super powers, are you able to avoid getting a hard-on with all this going on?"

2) I'm in some guy's house. I see a GIANT rat, beaver-sized, white. It's fairly slow, I think we absolutely have to catch it, we can't let it set up house underneath the guy's bed. I start to chase it, it goes from room to room. It goes in to the bathroom, I close the door on it to trap it and call to the guy. I'm in the bathroom holding a container/cup of soapy water, the rat has shrunk to the size of a small mouse, and it has dunked itself into the soapy water. "Oh, no, it's trying to drown itself!" I declare, I pour out the water and the rat/mouse under a faucet and turn it on, I'm trying to rinse off the rat to save it. It's not moving, the guy says too late, it's dead, it's gone, I keep trying to rinse it off to save it (directing the water into the mouth of the thing, "saving" it!), I see from below the rat mouth, there is a strange two-layers of mouth, larger outer mouth and a small normal rat looking inner mouth with long teeth open in a dead-looking position. I'm looking at these mouths for a while.

3) I've just arrived with my parents at their retirement complex (false location memory). My parents are behind me (I never see them), I'm leading the way into the stairwell, I remember this place, and I perceive that I know exactly that my parent's apartment is, and I want to show that I know the way by finding it myself. I intend to go up a set of stairs and down a hallway a bit. Still on the ground floor entry area, there's a very narrow pathway of uneven paving stones, we walk along this. I approach a table, it shows the remains of cups of drinks, my mother behind me says "see this shows there's always something going on here," there's no way around the table, so I start to climb up a chair to walk directly over the top of the table. Then I suddenly see two women sitting at the right side of the table, I step down immediately and say "oh I'm sorry I didn't see you," one of the women says "oh you saw us." I'm walking along the right of the table right by the two women. One of them does not look very old, young-side of middle-aged, dark hair. She addresses my mother talking about me saying "we have to bring him here more often for a visit," I think she's probably interested in me. I have a glimpse of a head of black hair with some strands of gray here and there. A gong sounds, my mother tells me that this is the signal that the group BBQ is starting, a midnight BBQ I think to myself. I want to go to the BBQ and eat something. Walking over open rolling grass hills, like a golf course, there's a man next to me, very distinguished looking with a big head of hair and a strong bifurcated chin, a Dudley Dooright looking sort of fellow, talking about his family, the women or one of the women at the table were in his family. A staff member arrives, we're at my parent's place, he opens (the dishwasher?) and there's a HUGE shelf of silverware, he gathers up a big armload of it to take to the BBQ, I think this is rude to take this stuff from my parents.

Long back to sleep. Figure might as well get up for WBTB

WBTB - sit in chair and continue relaxation. I'm avoiding looking at the time so I'm not sure exactly when I got back to bed.

Still hard to sleep, finally relax mind enough to head towards sleep, takes a lot of self-hypnosis relaxation but I finally fall asleep, no idea of the time.

???

I wake up, do some recall, don't record, no idea of the time, fall asleep again.

F1) in a house, we're visiting, a group of people, I'm looking around at the floor and we've totally trashed the place. Toys, food, garbage, everywhere. I think it's going to take a really long time to clean all this up.

F2) sitting with a group of people inside, someone hands me an envelope, it has something for me from a previous company, I'm opening the envelope and reading it, a guy comes around and I think he wants to read over my shoulder and I don't want him to.

F3) in a courtyard outside a home, there's a guy there, and a dumpster, and a ping pong ball inside the dumpster. A guy is grilling a multi-layer piece of chicken, I see him flip over the inner layer.

11:38

F4) mafia guys all stuffed together sitting in large wire grocery shopping cart, I'm standing right next to the cart. They're planning a big family meeting, I ask about what if you don't show up, they say you're considered as leaving the family and are as good as dead.

4) I enter a room where our young friend ND and a friend of hers are playing. I have a big bucket of water and I pour it out into a toilet. The water from the bottom of the toilet overflows badly (much more than whatI poured in) and floods the floor of the room. The water is sloshing and flowing around the room, it's about 6 inches deep. I'm scrambling around like crazy trying to figure out what to do I find a sort of mop and try to push the water towards one of a number of really big drains in the floor. One of the "drains" seems clogged so I turn the mop upside down and use the handle end and jam it down in to the "drain" to clear it up, a few times, it doesn't work, then I see more clearly that this particular thing in the floor was a fan and not a drain. At some point later the water has all drained out.

F5) wife on phone talking about costs of jazz lessons, she repeats, $65/hour. I think it takes a long time to learn jazz, my friends in school spent years in jazz band learning to play jazz, it's not something you can pick up quickly.

Great just what I need: a night of dreaming of work. Bleh. That's what I get for a near-bed-time weekly status meeting. At least with the time change it'll be one hour earlier for me soon.

+ trying hard to solve some imaginary work problem all night

+ I need to render the elephants without using a proprietary graphics algorithm and I'm concerned I'll have to write all the code from scratch

+ Some guy is in detail describing the limitations of the system, the X coordinates can only go from -10 to -6, I see an overhead visual graph of this. Also something about only being able to use one side of the coordinate axes.

+ I'm standing outside on some bend in a path, I'm looking at several little signposts with pictures of them stuck in the sand. One is of a little girl, one is of a woman, one is something else like a little a little Pikachu character or something. I sort of adjust and push down the posts more firmly into the sand.

+ I'm at an outdoor company gathering. A woman is sitting down on the ground, I feel I'm acquainted with her (just as a work acquaintance). I sit down right behind her with my hips turned to the left, my right hip is at the base of her back and she leans heavily back on to me, she is not protesting. Her entire upper body/back is firmly against my chest, our heads are close together. It is nice! She pushes back and forth a few times, I feel the weight of her body against mine. I get even more daring and lean forwards and lightly kiss her left cheek just in front of her left ear. She mumbles something like "easy..." or "careful...." we're right out in the open and I know I'm married there could be consequences. She has medium length blonde hair and I think she's 30-something. She may be the woman on the signpost, I never see her face.

Spoiler for sorta sexy time:

I'm sitting with another woman on a chair/recliner. I wonder if the first woman can see me and is jealous. This second woman is sitting on top of me, and my privates are positioned right there between her slightly open legs. I'm wearing grey sweat pants. She is lightly running her thumb in circles about the tip of my [ahem] through my sweats. I'm trying hard to suppress an erection.

I'm standing up, adjusting my grey sweats trying to adjust/hide my protuberance, when I realize I'm shirtless. I'm quite self conscious about this (I'm still at a work event after all). I see my shirt wadded up as if carelessly thrown to the ground farther on.

Walking through the people I encounter a small boy I see his face, I think he's the son of one of the women I was flirting with. He is trying to tell me something but there is a very loud noise and I have trouble hearing him (WL vehicle noise from outside perhaps?), I eventually understand from him that he was selected by some celebrity (?) to ride in a helicopter. I clasp my right hand with his in congratulations, and I think about swinging him around but I remember I have a hurt right shoulder (WL true!).

I'm looking for lunch, I approach the lunch tables set up. There are other people standing there. I see there are only little pieces of sliced chocolates. I exclaim in frustration, "Oh, God, fucking SLICED CANDY for lunch!???!!"

I see closer to the podium, where a company person is about to make some announcement, that there are a few open-face sandwiches left. They are weird many thing multi-colored layers, I start putting some on my plate. I notice to the left there are some guacamole sandwiches left. They are also open face, lying on their sides, with solid dark green tall slices of guacamole on thick pieces of dark bread. Some guy is encouraging me to eat, because when he talks I will need it.

Awake and up unti l10:30, feeling cold and tired so back to bed, some sort-of WILD attempts, can't get in to a dream despite the buzz feeling. Must have slept at one point because there was a 30 second dream. Then wake at 12:30 with pretty odd recall.

12:30

+ I'm in my dentist's house in a bedroom, a lot of people are around, I'm in a rocking chair that falls over first to the right, then to the left, the dentist's (son?) helps me up both times, I see the dentist out in the hallway eating from a take-out container, I'm waiting for him to finish so I can ask him what I should order everybody from Chinese takeout.

+ I'm in a sort of chorus line? I'm looking for another performing group, there they are on the magazine advertisement. They're all facing away from the camera and a girl in the center apparently has no bottoms on. I'm trying to read something on the page about the name/location of the group(?) but all I can read is an apology that one of the performers was wearing purple instead of black, I see one performing whose outfit is phasing between purple and black.

A (dance teacher?) is berating a parent for not understanding the issues of the child, the mother does not want to hear it.

+ I'm arriving home from work, trudging up the stairs laden with food, I hope my family appreciates my work. At the table are kids and my "wife," who makes a sharp comment about appreciating the meal, I say "yum" unenthusiastically.

23:51 bedtime <<<<!!! W00T BEFORE MIDNIGHT!

00:00 Wednesday 2014-03-05

07:01

No recall? That sucks...wait...here it comes...ah, got it. These are from earlier wakings mostly, and I remembered them!

+ in my childhood neighborhood park, on the basketball court level. Lots of people are playing with red, white, and blue basketballs, just like mine. I'm sort of a coach. I'm a bit disappointed that people are kicking them around. The players vanish, I go to pick up my ball, there's one that looks like it in the bike rack corner but is deflated, ah, there's mine a bit farther down towards the fence. I sense that there are 2-3 people who wish me ill / no good / want to catch me on the middle level above me, so I decide to take of flying out of the park. There's some sort of odd ceiling above me but I clear that and head for open skies, willing more speed from the point source of infinite energy in my head. I sense that they see me flying away.

+ I'm on some sort of open train flatcar. Arriving at a transit hub/hotel. I go to a desk with a young woman to register. I think the accomodations have something to do with sharing a room with her. She's nice at first but then she looks at my papers and she frowns and says suddenly "I can't help you there's nothing available." I know somethings up and I say "You're lying! Where's your supervisor?!" She's talking with a supervisor and she says "these <tickets> could be used by *anybody!*". I say that's because they were only very recently arranged by the company.

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This maybe warrants a

+ Non-lucid, but last night I saw streaks of old, pixelated computer-graphics looking lines in the sky. My only thought? Wow those look like pixelated old computer graphics lines in the sky DOH! They emanate from a thing in the distance. Looks like a space ship I think. Then there's the Star Trek starship Enterprise flying about 500 feet off the ground firing bright white phasers in all directions from phaser turrets placed all over the ship's body, and the ship is floating serenely from right to left, turning a bit to the right. I'm wondering about these phaser mechanisms, it seems there are actually mirrors used which rotate to direct/aim the phasers. Then I see one of these mirror constructs up close, I think those must be powerful mirrors. Then I'm down inside the mirror construct like being in a vertical closet in sort of a bin on the bottom pushing controls to get out and I can't. There's a helpful woman assistant there right across from me being very patient telling me what to press but the bin is still not releasing me.

Perhaps day-residue of alien space ships and experiments?

+ I'm thinking of going into the guacamole business! I'm stirring a big tub of spicy guacamole with lots of red hot pepper sauce mixed in. I'm thinking that I can buy avocados and sell them and if they get too ripe I can make them into guacamole. I'm outside a building on an empty lot and there's a large sign for some imaginary Mexican hot sauce.

07:45 drowsy enough to sleep more? I try. Get close. Some SSILD, some relaxing, some daydreaming.

08:58 close enough to my time limit: get up for the day!

Less awareness, but lots of long dreams, only fragmented memories, many random moments. Didn't voice record so much detail lost, but did do mental recall for some while.

+ walking along the shore of a lake, shore to the left, water to the right, a foot or two above the water, a guy in front of me gets mad at a huge boulder and pushes it in to the water, then jumps in after it and keeps on splashing it as I walk by shaking my head wondering why he's doing that.

+ leading some people to a sort of cavern/room where there is a wall/entrance made of beautiful semi-precious stone, like a giant door-sized polished geode.

+ with children, scooting over a floor that is as slippery as ice.

+ trying to find a pool table in a crowded pool hall, one comes free but another group is also waiting for it, I look at the pool tables and see many covered tables but they are really small and of weird shapes.

+ my son tells me that a friend of a friend of his saw me in a restaurant doing something obscene. I think this may be true but I can't admit it, that would be disastrous. I think my best bet is to deny it and try to discredit the source.

+ in some barracks moving among lots of people, many are shaving at sinks/mirrors, the leader of the group is placing some burdensome responsibility on me.

+ my wife is going to go on a walk in a frozen forrest with a friend of hers.

another good recall, lots of detail, two wakings, this time more wild and wacky

00:00 Saturday 2014-03-01

00:40 bedtime

08:41

+ back at a house where I used to rent (or sold?) there are Indian men there (Asian Indian), I'm looking for an old picnic table, I see a new wooden picnic table in the yard, I meet the new guy there he asks me to come pick up stuff, there are folding chairs, and the old picnic table. I'm leaving the place going out through a fence, the fence opening mechism is controlled by a jerry-rigged medium-sized garden shear which you squeeze the handles to operate the mechanism of the gate to open the door, and a rubber band pulls the shears open again after you stop squeezing it. I'm interested in this mechanism and say I wanted to build something like this but couldn't I was impressed he could build it.
A small nuclear bomb flies ahead of me I see it hit and the blast flowing out in all directions, I see the hit adn the blast several times. I think about flying up to look down on the damage. I think that can't be good for the area.

There's a meeting (talking about the bomb strike?).

+ On an outdoor path heading out of the city. To my left are growing a lot of vegetables, like pumpkins, and tomaties, all around there are thick patches of growing vegetables. I'm talking to someone on my left and say "if everyone in the whole world did this there would be no shortage of food." I happen upon an outdoor nursery on the right side of the road with a samping area. I'm looking at all the things and concentrate on the habanero peppers, all kinds of different varieties. One of the guys who works there comes out and tells me the names of the varieties I see some longer thinner ones in a plastic container. I hold one "pepper" up in my fingers it's supposed to be really hot I can feel the spiciness directly through my fingers, it looks like a leaf of raddichio lettuce more than a pepper. Someone is with me and says "oh my god it's free!?" and starts grabbing handfuls. I'm not sure it's free but take some peppers.

I'm back at my house with my basket of "peppers" in my garden to plant them, one of them nwo looks like a huge carrot that has split due to age and the juices are running out I think I should have chosen one that wasn't split like that. The peppers are weird they have two parts, the long pepper part and a really long stem with a small flat round pepper meat head that you also need to plug into the ground. I'm looking at a flyer from the nursery that reads that they want people to return at least some heritage seeds back to the nursery. The flier reads that of all the people who rented baskets from them only two people sent back any seeds. I'm planting them in a row, and the guy from the nursery is giving me advice where to put the tops and bottoms, and says not to push one hard but just drop it into the soil. I think hmm I guess there is money involved. They rent you packages of plants but you're supposed to return the seeds. I felt bad I didn't give them any money.

+ inside a huge house. Funky / home-made house. I'm sitting around a table with a bunch of people, talking and having a good time. I get the impression that all these people all work together somewhere. I have a sneaking suspicion that I know these people and that I've seen them before. I look around the table slowly, looking at each different face intently, I'm trying to place them. There are men and women, some funny faces some regular. And I say tentatively, "Do you guys....work...at the *card club*?!" And there is instant silence all around the table. Nobody wants to answer. Someone eventually says "yes." I didn't know where the card club was but I figured out it must be in this house run by that older grey haired bushy mustache man in his 50s/60s.

I'm walking around the house looking for the bathroom I have to pee. I can't find a bathroom. I find a strange water/heater apparatus with a moving pump hooked up to a small rack of shoe-box-sized computer systems. I had earlier seen the man working on something in the house, that must have been what he was working on. I see down a stairway to a level below the main level it looks dirty/junky/not finished basement areas. Someone points me down a hallway to the left . I enter a room with a little step up, the step is nailed on to the wall at about hip level, and it leads to a very small slit of a doorway leading to a tiny bathroom. The opening to the room is about 2 inches wide. I couldn't possibly squeeze through the opening.

A female country music singer starts singing about the bathroom, I say it's a thumbalina bathrrom because it's so small, and immediately the singer sings loudly "IT'S A THUMBALINA BAAAATHHROOOOOM..." (sings more stuff about it). I say "that's what I like about this house, you have all this funky little stuff like this tiny bathroom."

I'm at the far other end of the house. I notice the colors are pale purple and greens, pastels. I'm talking to the owners and say how I really love his house and say how huge the house is, you could walk forever in all directions in it. He says yeah when he's working on something on this side of the house and forgets a screw in the bathroom it's a long walk there.
Someone asks me about this man and asks if he's Episcopalian.

Outsider the house in the street/road I see kitty-corner a little strip mall with a dunkin' donuts and some other shops. I think "wow, this place is so awesome they even have a dunkin' donuts across the street I imagine that people come to visit and bring donuts all the time....

more recall coming in: washers, dry cleaners

...Inside the donut shop I think there's donuts and there must be fruit, too, but nobody ever buys the fruit, there's a woman behind the counter cleaning a bunch of huge grapes. My parents are in the store and they say they're "donut vegetarians" (meaning they never eat the donuts only the fruit).

Driving away from this place it's dark twilight, a hilly road, heading down through curvy road, I see a freeway onramp sign but the freeway number plate is to scratched and faded I can't read it. I think it reads <freeway #>, so I take what I think is the onramp. It's going downhill steeply, the road becomes heavily grooved with the grooves pointing down hill, the grooves are about 1-inch deep and 1-inch wide. I think that they really help with grip in the rain. I'm going faster and faster (there's no car, I'm kind of floating), I think about my sister because I think she lives in these hills...

.... another memory different dream: walking on dry earth climbing up a hill. I look at the ground and see the dry and light quality of dirt, I look at the vegetation on the hill and think I must be in California. There is a fence at the top of the hill the top of the fence is bent over under a tree, there's some sort of park on the other side of the fence, I go in ther are people there. I'm in a group of these people, I look at their faces, they're kind of Mexican/Pacific Islander looking. Some comment about more and more people are making the town bigger. It's some sort of park and I'm meeting my children there.

... back to the road...there are more and more gough marks I'm going faster, I think this is where people lost control and ran off the side of the road, I lose control and run off the side of the road into the dirt where there are very long think tight coils like vehicle suspension coils but hundreds of feet long. This area is under a lot of trees. I think what does my sister do here, and she tells me "I never go faster than 75 mph." There is a pathway here made up of boxes/doors/scrap painted wood about one meter wide and long and curving off ahead, my sister says "when that's wet you lose control and hydroplane on top of this path".

At the end of the path it's lighter, my sister is sitting on a fence to the left and is sitting next to a patch of yellow and green growing zucchinis, there's a little animal rustling about in the leaves and my sister is touching this plant.

+ Driving through a town, I notice a dry cleaning store across the road on the left. They take in your dry cleaning and they send it off to the dry cleaning factory and get it back and you pick it up again at that store. I look inside the store from across the street and it's almost empty. I see an outdoor complex of laundry stations where you can come to do laundry with big sink areas with an old roller dryer, there's a woman using it who tells me "yeah I'm still drying your pants this way."
Elsewhere in the town talking to my wife on the phone, she asks where I am she's annoyed I'm not home.

I'm standing and looking at this dry cleaning and laundry places, standing looking at them and analyzing them. I really felt like I was there, like it was a waking memory. At the table with the card house employees was also a high awareness moment, I really looked slowly and intently at each one of their faces.

08:56 it took me 15 minutes of non-stop fast talking to get all that voice recorded.

Awake for a while, eventually I gather my will to empty my mind and get back to sleep.

13:03

+ Sexy time on a stage. Afterwards, I'm in the hall, I leave out the back and come in around the front.

+ A huge parking lot is absolutely packed super tightly with parked cars. I'm with my wife we go down to the end of the lot we're looking for our old parking spot. Wife says we used to park right here, it was in a driveway, so I said I didn't think so. We're looking on the grounds and see the old markings of previously painted spot numbers they're close/tight together. Some other woman (the lot manager) and another couple are talking, my wife butts in and says "excuse me excuse me, let me just say something let me just say something," she's upset. I go back to the entrance area to this parking lot I'm now inside a restaurant. I'm standing on a counter, there's a guy there preparing a to-go tasty breakfast for me. He gives it to me. I'm looking for a fork to eat with I'm saving some for my wife I'm not sure if she's eaten anything or not I ask her did you get any of this.

+ A guy is judging girls who are singing in order to select one to sing in his restaurants, I know the judging is rigged and the girl was selected already ahead of time. One of the girls who I know, who is singing really well, he interrupts here and says "yeah yeah yeah only you and <this other girl> are any good," but he selects the other girl. I know it's rigged.

+ In a bar with a stage, some guy is going up on stage, I'm reassuring him that he'll do fine, he gets up on stage and starts acting like a total buffoon and goofy, I thought "oh god why did you do it like that if you'd done it like normal it would have been fine." There were a couple of waitresses standing in front of me by my table urging him on, I pinch one of them on the leg/butt and she then pinches the 2nd other waitress on her butt, who then looks back at me in shock with a "did you just pinch me?" look on her face.

+ a celebration, a bunch of young ladies, a bachelorette party.

+ scene at some house at night time, on the large front lawn, the house is in the distance in front of me, Indian family, father mother, couple of kids, a kid comes out shell-shocked, something happened, his (her?) feet were burned I knew, he/she is asking "where's the water?" I know he/she wants the water for the burned feet. I bring all the family together into a group hug, the father says "everything is OK why do we need to do this?" I say it's OK for the family to hug and to be brought together.

sometimes my dreams are wild and wacky, sometimes there more mundane, this last night was more mundane, the night before was more wild & wacky. Nice amount of detail again though, from 2 wakings.

00:00 Sunday 2014-03-02

00:30 ? bedtime

07:00

+ wife tells me: "You know I love you dearly but when we were making love earlier you farted and it so startled the priest that he didn't know what to do so he just left."

+ I'm babysitting some little kid, we're arriving at my parent's house, we're walking down the driveway and he smells my breath and says "What is that smell!?" I'm concerned because I realize I've had something to drink and I don't want his parents to know. At that his moment his father arrives outside on the street to come pick him up.

+ In a car about to start driving a line of girls walks by on the right I open a window to high-five them as they walk by, they start screaming at me not to back up because I'm about to run over something behind me.

+ I'm looking at an overhead map of the city that shows where my older son is working. I arrive at the office following my son I'm calling his name but he's not hearing me or not responding. I pause at reception wondering if they'll let me by I decide just to start walking in to the work room and they don't stop me. I call to my son again and I'm carrying a pad of technical drawing paper that I think he needs because he's working on maps.

+ In the same place (?) a room filled with people sitting down, young men are wearing blue shirts. The guys at the rightmost seat in the row stand up one after the other from the front to the back of the room, the guys make a religious sign when they stand up.

+ I'm in a bunker looking out of the narrow slit, there with mother, father, sister, bro-in-law, we're looking at and talking about the weather coming in from the ocean. I see in my vision a remote hillside near the ocean where the weather can be better detected, so I decide to go fly there and check it out. I fly into the air and head in that direction but somehow can't fly very fast. My sister tells me whatever I'm doing it takes a long time to fly out there. I tell her I'm going to fly out at super speed. I tell my sister "I can't do it if you're watchig". I arrive at that remote destination and I'm in a room with cabinets wanting to return to my family and to show them how far I flew I wanted to bring back a string/yarn with me but I think it's not going to work since it will run out of string before I make it all the way back. I try a few times taking off with string or fishing line but I realize it won't reach The last time I stop taking off and fly back I see a cat in my left peripheral vision following me which then jumps to catch the string I'm carrying.

+ Inside a place with a bunch of workers. There are valuable things there inside boxes I call to the work master to tell him we must one by one go by each box to make sure that nothing was taken by the workers. I'm holding a silver tarnished trump, the work leader is the guy who plays the trumpet. He says it's a beautiful trumpet but it's tarnished, I spit on a spot and rub it with my fingre and see the tarnish. I ask him to play a piece and hum the tune (Handel's Messiah: The Trumpet Shall Sound) but don't remember the name. He starts to play and I get weepy and cry because it was my father's favorite piece. and he's no longer with us (false memory), my mother and son are sitting in the audience and my son (s2) is starting to make all kinds of funny comments.

I'm pretty awake at this point after doing this recall. I keep reaching for more and more recall. Daydream a bit. Eventually I gather my will to empty my mind and I sleep again. Probably awake until around 8-8:30

10:00

+ driving with my mother, she's driving I'm in the front passengers seat she's not paying attention to the road (we're driving on GP Blvd) she keeps looking at something in her lap. I keep telling her stop that pay attention to the road, I see that oncoming cars are swerving very far into our lane several times. There's a lot of traffic in the oncoming direction, a large line of cars, someone says this is because of the protests at a house we pass up the hill on our right. This was at twilight. Now in daylight down in the city driving down Sol. Ave. I'm trying in vain to put on my seat belt, I keep pulling it out again and again and trying to buckle it but I can't find the right place to buckle in. The car then loses all electric power, and I'm in the back seat the dashboard has gone black and the seat belt has gone extremely tight and I can't move at all. We're just coasting down the road with no power it's a slight downhill so we could coast for some ways. I'm thinking "how in the hell will I get to school now." I tell my mother to coast to somewhere at least so we can stop in the shade but some cars brake in front of us and we must stop in the road.

We're on some sort of side street I'm standing outside the car, some guy comes up very friendly middle aged guy with a cheery face and start talking about things like countries being aggressive or not aggressive. One guy comes out and I fake-recognize him, I shake hands, tell him yeah yeah, I recognize you, "my name is <full name>", and ask "did you work at <former company-x>?" I'm not sure if he recognizes me or not. I feel like I recognize him and fake-remember his name as "Gabe Martini" I think he formed a partnership to start another company.

+ my children (as of about 8 years ago) are sitting in front of a computer in my sisters old room at my parent's house. S1 is wearing odd glasses like coke-bottle-bottom lenses, they're both wearing glasses, I say "remember the primary rule of programming, step-wise refinement. Make a function that does something and then write it later."

+ in a hostel with young people. There's a girl by my place, a boy beyond him. I'm taking off my pants and realize there are people in the room and hunker down behind a chair, I'll put my pants on when they're not looking. I think I should ask the girl out because I have a car (remembering my first college car). There's an annoying girl on the other side of me that is messing with my things, she's pulling my earbuds out of my pile of things and one of the plastic ear pads has fallen out and she's complaining that they don't work for her. I tell her it's an advanced sort of headphone system that doesn't work with all systems, and I see a little circuit board. She's upset that I'm not helping her to get it to work, and I tell her angrily it's my stuff, this is a personal space here, everyone's bed is a personal space, and I point around the room, the middle area is shared space, but everyone's bed is personal space. I see a video game scene briefly.

I'm walking around the floor of the hostel, it's dark, there are lots of white doors in the hallway. In one room I get a glimpse of a girl taking off her shirt, I back out quickly feeling embarassed, then go back for another peek . I go into another room, guys are in there, not the right room, back in the hallway, go back into our room, which is a 45-degree diagonal corner door. Now there are two girls on the other bed. I see them clearly. The girl sitting to my left on the bed is a blonde and she says her name is "Gippie" (hard G). I shake her hand.

I'm sitting on the floor they're sitting on the bed, I think I should invite them out because I have a car. I think I'll ask them to kiss me when we get to my car. We go out. The next stop is some place where I'm going to find dates for the girls. There are guys and girls there but they look really sleazy and skanky and are older. They start talking about sex but I say these are good girls I don't want to find bad boys for them. Behind me there's a particularly nasty girl who starts speaking really fast gibberish barely can make out any words, but I laugh anyway to show I think I understand what she says even though I think it's nonsense.

A young man comes for one of the girls and stands before me there's nowhere to sit so he sits on my lap I'm not excited by this he's a dude, he has a big platter of presents for the girls, I realize the presents are all full of alcohol he's going to try to get the girls drunk, I see for example 8-balls full of alcohol. My younger son (s2) is sitting a few rows back on my right and he sees the alcohol platter and exclaims loudly "Holy Shit!". I'm quite upset at him for using such language.

+ weird baseball: outfield is tall rolling hills the inner "outfield coordinator" must shout to the far outfielders because the hills block the view of the incoming fly balls

+ 2 women talking about dreaming: "have you ever dreamed about a dog in a car?" (they weren't talking to me but I answer anyway) "Yes I remember a dream about a dog climbing in through the sunroof -- I think about telling them about lucid dreaming but don't

+ cartoon dinosaur who sleeps for millions of years because he soaks up the water every time it rains

+ there are large sheets of salt-water taffy on the ground, I eat some, there are large packs of cheese I've supposed to take to some company but I think I'll keep it for myself, some woman offers to help me carry them, I decline at first but then accept

+ in conflict with some people I'm accusing them of draining all the water out of the carport, and show my hat sitting on the ground as proof that the water flowed out in the direction of their carport, but the woman there doesn't accept responsibility and I'm upset.

+ playing racquetball, my momentum is towards the back, my weight is on my back foot, but my opponent's next shot goes to the front of the court, I can't make it in time, maybe earlier, scoot my racquet across the ground to the front of the court to hopefully get the shot but it misses

+ another racquetball game, I think my heart is overstrained so I stop playing, then 3 guys bring their beds and cots into the court to spend the night, they have my childhood red LED clock radio and we're talking about what a great radio it is, I hear the announcer over the radio, we're comparing it to a modern radio and the modern one is not as good, the announcer is talking about a baseball game.

took a nap but no recall, almost WILDed, saw an image forming but it vanished when I gave it my attention.

23:45 bedtime -- finally, a decent bedtime. Took 1mg melatonin 40 mins ago to help in readjusting the schedule. Fell asleep pretty quickly.

Set intention to wake up after every dream and recall, and try to DEILD back in.

00:00 Thursday 2014-02-27

04:20 intention worked, I woke up with some recall, I haven't woken up at the 4th hour in some time. Decided after trying to get back to sleep without success that I'm still no so keen on waking up a lot, but I'm going to do it for the hope of increased lucid moments.

+ outside looking at the walls of some houses/ buildings. I don't like the boarded/cemented up windows and I know my younger son doesn't like them, either.

+ inside a house, we'd just moved in, I see a young Indian boy walking through the house wondering what he's doing here he wasn't invited, I walk down the corridor to the entry way I see through the clear glass front door that other people are waiting just outside, I step back to the hallway so they won't see me so I won't have to deal with them. They come in anyway, they're the Indian (asian) family that owned our place before us, they came for a visit. They say it looks very different. It's very messy, lots of stuff on the floor. I say yes with different furniture a place can look entirely different. I look at some of the furnishings, they are odd, like solid 3d mathematical shapes (spheres, cones) made out of a mottled brown granite, stacked on top of each other. My sister says something about the crystal chandelier. I say something about it too and I hear my mother's voice say, "Oh, <my name>!".

We're in a family room looking at a TV mounted high on a wall of from the ceiling. It's showing some (news?) program, the reception is terrible it's really static-y. The conversation topic is about how I don't like cases around TVs because if you're sitting to the side the side of the cabinet blocks some of your vision, I imagine a cabinet that opens by itself automatically. I go up to the TV (which now has a cabinet around it) with a piece of paper to measure the loss of screen space from the side, and show this (about 1/4 inch) to the others in the room.

+ I'm DO? in the back seat of a car with dark/black upholstery, there's a super cute fluffy young puppy sitting in the middle of the back seat, my view position is eye level with the puppy, the owner is in the front seat and is feeding it little treats and saying doggy things like "goooood boooy...". He gives the puppy in the end a little doggy bone treat wrapped in a plastic baggy.

+ I was holding a shovel/trowel in each hand in some fictional backyard scraping the dirt picking up the last poops of my recently passed away dog (who actually died 4 years ago). I thought these would be the last ones I'd ever clean up and I'd never see him again. I said to myself "he lived for 17 years [true], and he lived for 5 years after getting cancer [false]", I got quite upset. One of the handles in one of the shovels didn't fit the shovel head well and came out.

I woke up very upset and emotional. Intention worked too well, after recall, recording, and quick bathroom trip, couldn't get back to sleep.

Tried "relaxing SSILD" for a while and started getting some imagery, but external noise always prodded me awake.

09:00 back to bed....fell asleep eventually in there somewhere.

12:15 woken by wife to fix the internet, solidly asleep, argh!

+ saw a cute girl from the pool, checked her out a bit as she walked by. She walked through the opening of a low square metal fence and said I shouldn't stand so close (to the fence) so people could walk through. She goes to sit at an outdoor table (night time)I see a bunch of young ladies also sitting there. I move to a different place away from that table and realize my computer fell out of my backpack, I pick it up.

+ some struggle, forgotten

+ other stuff, forgotten, quite a bit, due to shock of waking, dang

Well I went ahead and pulled the trigger on my bedside lucid cocktail this morning. Conditions were not ideal: super late to-bed time (3am approx), and it was already about the 6th hour (approaching 9am), so it was dicey at best but I had a quiet home (both kids out in the morning today) so I decided to go for it. It looks like the 8mg galantamine did the trick, plus all the extra choline (bitartrate and alpha gpc).

Again the mixture was: 2x GalantaMind 4mg (each capsule 4mg galantine, 50mg B5, 100mg choline dihydrogen citrate) for a total of 8mg galangamine, 100mg B5, 200mg choline dihydrogen citrate), 1x choline bitartrate 310mg, 1x Alpha GPC 300mg.

Mostly I spent the next 5 hours trying to get to sleep. At approximately 1-2 hours I did start getting pretty abnormally strong HI.

Somewhere in the 2+ hours my daydreams started getting a lot more realistic than usual, with more visual and tactile feedback, but still very much daydreams.

Numerous times I gathered my will and emptied my head and tried to sink into relaxation. Again and again and again.

At one point it finally worked and I got to sleep and dreamed...a lucid FAKE OUT!

I feel myself in bed, and I started getting a solid image appearing before my dream eyes. I was coaxing it on, "Ok, good, solidify, solidify, that's it..." I'm anticipating entering the dream. I see a tall outdoors strip-mall sign pole with several store signs on it. Interesting. I'm looking at them and pushing them into focus. Then I start thinking something like, "aw man, this isn't a dream, this is the view from my bed. You see, there's the KFC across the street, and somebody will come out of that door soon, there's the guy now, he's walking down the street" I watch him go by. Then I get self-conscious that here it is daytime, and I still feel myself lying in bed (apparently outside in a parking lot) (in the actual position I was really in bed), and people will walk by and see me. I think "oh that's ok, people sleep in all the time and see people in their beds." I get up and some woman in her car comes tearing into our outdoor carport just off of the sidewalk in a big rush. She jumps out (with a briefcase?) and runs across the street to the entrance of the subway. I think we need to put up poles to block our carport, but realize that the people who drive quickly into our carport will hit the poles and their cars will go flying into the air.

I follow into the entrance to the subway. Up stairs, through a window/door. Lots of people, I see my wife just inside the window in the crowd (purple blouse?), I notice her chest . I'm trying to push through the crowd to walk faster towards the subway platform, but I can't since there are so many people. I see two pairs of 2 movers (who work for the furniture store at the subway platform, of course!) moving two large cabinets along the walkway with the crowd. They're approaching an overhead beam, I think they're going to smack the furniture top into it, they end up just grazing it lightly.

I go down some stairs and can't find the platform. It's deserted, in a large building. I think I must be at the gym, since the swimming pool is that way. I turn back and see about 20 feet from me who I think is my old grad school girlfriend, I call to her, but then I realize I didn't put on my gym shirt and I notice my bare chest/stomach. I'm not in perfect shape. She turns and walks away, not noticing me, I see a big entryway in the distance...



so that's basically I think good news! It seemed really vivid. This dose seems to work for me. All I have to do now is prepare another little LD cocktail baggie by the bed and wait for better conditions. And with repeated determination I finally got to sleep, despite being all juiced up on choline and the G. I definitely need to take it early in the night, probably not later than 4 hours, maybe earlier, and perhaps work in some melatonin.

Terrible to-bed time, like 03:30, I'm slipping again to bad habits. Still managed some recall, though:

+ at my favorite lake on a plastic blow-up raft, I paddle around to the lagoon, across the lagoon a I see alot of other campers, I try to look at them through binoculars but they don't bring the view closer, I think I see someone looking at me through binoculars. The mouth of the lagoon is a river flowing out into the lake, some people are standing at its edge on the other side from our side, I think the river will keep them out of our area

I've leaving the campsite with a few other people and realize I'm lost, I don't see the familiar landmarks, I look towards the lake and up into the hills and think I see the familiar path. I'm on a bike and heading up very steep hills I have to get off to walk it up, there's a handrailing on the right. I "remember" that the lake is in a valley

I emerge into a city street scene, hilly, with cars and streets and buildings. I'm looking for my car, I have a remote(?) and click it (?).

+ I'm following my jr high sweetheart, she's wearing a pink frilly dress, we're outside and it's dark/night, she asks me if I remember the dress, I don't frankly but say I do, I sort of remember that when she wore it before the belt had pokadots and say so. We arrive at a party at her house, the house is filled with people, I'm standing close to her but feel very self-conscious I don't know what to do or to say. She pours a tiny thimble-full of some (alcohol I think) drink for me/us.

+ I arrive in the outdoor room of my college room-mate (male) "F", I jump up to the top of his bunk-bed and sit on the end with my feet hanging down, it is right up against a fence to the neighbor's house, there is a tall bush/tree partially obscuring the view ahead and to the right of the neighbor's house. My friend climbs up and straddles me facing me hugging me, I'm weirded out by this, I wonder if he wants to make out, that's strange, to be polite at one point I nuzzle the side of his head with mine. He says the neighbors actually broke one of their own windows to that they could see his bed better "so that they could see some new things" (referring to he and his girlfriend in bed). I hear some aerosol cans in the neighbor house and it seems like they're getting dressed. F's girlfriend "D" arrives, I notice she has VERY hairy lower legs starting at about the mid-calf down to her feet. Not normal hair but very dark long and spiky looking hair sparse with the skin visible in between. More like little twigs than hair. She starts applying "spray on shoes" to her lower legs and feet, I jump down and look at this I see a pattern of the boots forming on her legs, I say I'm not into trendy shoes I wear the same brand until the manufacturer stops making them, I take off my shoe and show them "like this 846 model here".

Then I'm at a party of grad-school friends, I see some they see me and act like they haven't seen me in years even though I "know they saw me yesterday," we do one of our jokes acting like TV commercial announcers, "NOW how much would you pay?..". Someone tells me to watch the ham/cheese sandwich. I see it up high on top of a cabinet, someone's reaching for it. Someone's preparing frozen snacks, he pours of the contents of a bag onto a platter to be cooked, it's mostly candy, I see a few pieces of pizza and bacon, I think that's not much bacon it's going to be gone soon.

A rollaway bed is being unpacked, looks comfortable, some other camp kids want to climb up on it, I get on it, the bed is on a raft in the water. My wife is telling me something about a box of chocolates which I don't understand, she's saying something about it is wrong for her brother who is diabetic.

Today is my 6-month LD practice anniversary, and what better way to celebrate than to get a satisfying late morning lucid performing a TOTM, and a good night of recall.

08:00

+ (earlier waking) I'm moving through a house structure and some guys, at the end I think they want to turn me into a werewolf. Lost lots of detail.

+ I'm with college friends in our old house (WFP). I want to go out for a break from studying. I have a bit of trouble speaking but I eventually get it out that I just want to go out for an hour, let's go get something to eat. I know we have a lot of studying to do, people are not enthusiastic about coming out. I walk into the house and see my good friend housemate N.I. Someone mentions going to Jack In The Box. I say "do you mean the one by SP Blvd?" I think everyone's coming out with us, but it ends up that they just want to put in their order with me and we go out and bring it back. One guy tells me his order, something with chicken, I have trouble understanding his order, we need to pay him back, he said no, (me and NI) already paid him back. I see some young women in the kitchen of the house.

+ In a silver-colored large empty building. It is a hospital. There is criticism of them painting it silver/gray, since when cars drive by the headlights will reflect strongly off the paint and disturb the patients. Also the color is scaring people, it's not white, it's not black, it's right in the middle. I'm standing and looking at it for a while. It makes a silvery shiny reflection inside the building and is not good. Daylight outside, somewhat dark outside, it's completely empty.

I turn around and go to leave, I'm with NI from WFP, there is a rack of equipment and books, introductory books and kits about how to work with microprocessors (like the Stamp chip), I say "hey look at that" and gesture with my hand towards them as we go by, NI then grabs one like he's going to shoplift it. I'm mortified by this, I think we'll get caught, I look for a security camera, I see one on the wall, I point it out to him, I say "there's going to get you." He says he better put it back. I think that it's OK because we haven't left the place with the item yet so it can't be considered shoplifting.

+ I'm in a khaki/tan colored tent, it's completely closed, I'm sleeping in there with some other guy. It's a tall pointy-topped tent. I look at the guy's face, he opens his eyes, the face is slightly distorted, something's not quite right, he has blue eyes, he's freaked out because there's no "outside," I tell him "it's ok, it's ok, outside there is blue sky and sunlight, shall we open the tent and see the sunlight?" He says yes. I zip open the front of the tent, we see the outdoors including blue sky, he's calmed down by this. There are several walkways leading away from the tent, one more or less straight ahead bending a bit to the left, another goes off to the right. There are buildings in between the two paths, it's in some sort of complex/compound.

About 20 feet away down the right path are sitting 3 guys kind of dark-skinned , as soon as I open the tent they get up and head my way. I have a feeling "uh oh this can't be good." About 5 feet away they make demands, "give us all your stuff except for (something)!". They're threatening us clearly. I call over my shoulder to my tent-mate and say "call 911 tell them we're being robbed!" Of the 3 one guy goes off down another path (to head off assistance?), 2nd guy disappears, 3rd guy comes up demanding the stuff. I'm frightened but I resolve not to give him anything. We start struggling/grappling. At one point he's behind me, I reach back over my head grabbing his head/shoulders and lean forwards trying to throw him over me. Doesn't quite work. I think though this guy is not used to anybody putting up a struggle. I think "wow people just give things to him without a struggle." At some point my wife comes by and helps in the fight against the robber.

He disappears, I'm looking over down a balcony to a walkway below (I'm on the 2nd floor). There are Indian (Asian) security woman walking around with guns. One reaches up to me (somehow!) and hands me some things. Some are small gold colored keys, I ask "are these the keys to my room?". "Yes" they answer. They also give me a security key. It's like a 6-inch wide fork with a dozen or more tines. On the left 4 prongs are bent down fully, and one on the end is bent down halfway. "Well no wonder those guys (the robbers) were able to get in, this is such a simple combination!"

They also give me a gun, a 6-shot revolver, and 4 bullets for it. There is something not quite right (vs. a real gun), it has a typical cylinder, a trigger, it's in my hand I feel the trigger, I think "where's the safety?" I don't want to shoot myself or anybody by accident. I'm rotating the cylinder and wonder if I should put it on a bullet or an empty. An empty is safer but on a bullet is ready for a fight. I see a little safety switch on a (weird) horizontal platter behind the cylinder. I try putting on the safety and pulling the trigger and it seems like the gun will fire and think that's a crappy safety, I look to the right of the cylinder and see a larger golden safety mechanism, and that seems to lock up the trigger well, but if I pull it really hard a mechanism lifts up from the platter and the gun will fire but it's much much harder.

I take the gun and go out and have fake battles with it, I point it at some guys and think about hitting them in their arms, aiming for the body since it's the biggest target, I'm jumping over some counter hiding from an Indian (Asian) woman who's after me, I then turn and track her and think about shooting her (don't do it though), and how video games have helped my aim.

+ I'm in an outdoor tent, there's a guy there who's a trainer, I'm learning different technique, I'm looking at him, he's choosing the next thing that I should study, he's looking at a screen with the picture of a staff, and I think "yes! I'd like to learn to fight with a staff!" In a foreign language the item is labelled "lepeshka" which I know means some kind of bread, not a fighting staff.

+ In a gas station? There are gas pumps, a guy there is training how to fight against bears. He's down a ramp and successfully fights off two bears. He says "trained bears always go for the head." Their hands go for your head. You bend your arms and put your arms on each side of your head and hold your head with your hands to defend. You then take "two offensive steps backwards." Then he has me try it. I come face to face with a weird pig-bear thing with no discernible face, it's a snuffling grunting muzzle but tall with brown hair. This thing does grab my head. It's in my face with its faceless snuffling snout I take two aggressive steps backwards and think "is that it?"

12:34

lots of dozing on and off, sleep on stomach at one point and dream, but lucid is on my right side

+ revisited the scene of the tent + robber fight. I'm approaching the gates of the compound from the outside. There's a black guy in leather, not sure if he's security or not. Get in the gate, I "recognize" it as the place of the earlier battle. There's a picnic table with scuzzy low-life sorts sitting down at it to the left, I think "we have to get rid of those guys." There is a big lawn of grey clumpy dead grass. I have a thought about lucidity looking at this grass. I'm talking to the head of security who is a black man (he may be Morgan Freeman), I say "ok this time I want a security room with an exit in the back so I have somewhere to escape if I'm attacked from the front." In front of me is a big red (white window trimmings) multi-story building (3-4 floors tall), convex curved, bending back to the left and right. The next time I look up it's a 5-6 story tall elegant futuristic building with totally transparent glass walls facing the yard. Very elegant / rich quarters I can see. I'm hoping to get a central suite with a great view but realize I probably won't, they're for the bigwigs, there's a suite off to the left with a worse view and I think it will do.

+ I'm somewhere up in one of those suites. There are plates of fancy deserts. I see a jelly-tart with a prawn on it, I take a bite, I realize as I bite that I'm very full and I'm not hungry. It tastes like shrimp. There's a woman eating the same pastry thing I am, I ask "did you taste the shrimp?" She says "it's shrimp eggs." I think it's a bizarre pasty flavor.

+ I'm at my childhood park. I have to get by a robot wielding a giant wrench, I get by it. I'm attaching something to the old metal swing frame, with a wrench. It's some sort of bicycle / trainer. Two older more experienced guys are there, now that this is installed we have to use it, and ride a million miles on it, we'll meet back here "about 1am-ish." There's a van and some conversation with people inside it, something about the C. family and AIDS.

+ Still in my childhood park at the same place. I'm on the middle level, looking down to the basketball courts. Enormous pipes are shooting out huge volumes of torrential raging water on to the lower level. There are giant drains where the water is going down. I see a huge bag full of ceramic planters 1m in diameter getting blown easily by the water across the courts. I go around turning off faucets which shuts off the water. I walk down the left-side path and take a drink from a drinking fountain. I (imagine?) a conversation with the mayor and I mention that I just happened to be on hand and turned off the water. I get down to the bottom and see the bag of planters.

+ I'm in a park/playground, in shade, I see a car and people doing something under the car, (are they trying to steal it I'm thinking), there are lots of people around. I'm following some kids, I see topless boys and girls and am amazed because I know they don't do that in America. I'm walking through a few doorways, in one doorway are the parents of one of the kids, a father (to the left) and a mother (to the right), emerging on to a sandy playground area. I grab the mother and bring her with me, and I realize I'm dreaming. It feels hazy at first and I have to "push" my head into clear lucidity, it still feels hazy, but I get a grip and rub my hands and things stabilize. I have the woman standing in front of me looking at me at arms length.

( I keep rubbing my hands and rubbing my fingers against my palms while I'm talking to her.)
(My first lucid interactive conversation with a DC!)

Me: "Hi, my name's (my name), what's your name?"
DC: "Susannah."

She had short hair. Looked to be about 30. I remembered the TOTM! I'm finally going to get my wings I think!

Me: "Who is your one true love? Who is your soulmate?"
DC: (looks confused).

All this time I'm moving around, slowly rotating, moving around the playground, she stays right across from me at arms length, I'm rubbing my fingers against my palms.

Me: "Who is your one true love?"
DC: "My husband."

I'm satisfied that I've completed the TOTM and relax a bit, and caveman dream me (CDM) takes over.

CDM: (with a mischievous expression) "Have you ever kissed another man?....."
Without waiting for an answer I (CDM?) grabs her chest with both my hands and start squeezing.

CDM: "You have beautiful t*ts"

and I slooowly fade to awake. Nooo! Always just when it gets "good" I remain still and have a full-body tingly feeling and think I could really get back in, but I know it's late in the morning and I want to record.