non-lucid

00:00 Monday 2014-03-010 Competition #17 night #3 insomnia sucks and the paradox of intent

04:22

F1 entered and followed a snowy path
F2 at a drive through window with Arnold Schwarzenegger
F3 in a very tall steep roller derby with son and our cat kept falling down to the middle of the rink.
F4 pressing buttons and flipping switches on a bottle of shampoo with women around to enable something with a cat
F5 outdoor picnic with the D family.

Couldn't get back to sleep

06:00 up to kitchen for snack and reviewing why I'm not sleeping.
Held purring cat for a while, scratched its head.
Sit in rocking chair for a while.

06:30-ish back to bed.

Decide to hell with it, I had basically no problems sleeping in this bright noisy room before lucid dreaming practice. I take out the earplugs, take off the sleep mask, and decide to let whatever will happen, happen, including just lying there for another couple of hours, not trying to do anything at all.

And of course I fall asleep in about 5 minutes . The paradox of intent.


08:14

1) I'm trying to control a squirming annoyed infant in my arms. It's dark. I bring its face to mine and sort of kiss/suck its tiny (sort of doll-sized) nose and it calms down and it looks into my eyes and gives a cute little baby laugh. I do this a few more times. Face actually sort of creepy and doll-like.

2) A group of people are gathering around in a living room to start a reading, they ask what we've been reading, my wife jumps in and answers for me, we start reading out loud but there's a lot of noise coming from somewhere, I walk into the room to follow the noise and find it and it turns out it's coming from a two-way baby monitor. I walk back into the house as I "know" the parent with the baby is in a bedroom somewhere, I think the parent is annoyed at the noise of our reading and is making noise to annoy us in return, I find the bedroom where there is sound but I do not go in. I return back and am walking by doors, one is cracked open a bit with light and I think that is my friend MR's room, he seems to be stirring / getting up. I'm walking in a narrow aisle between a bunch of single / cot beds.

3) Documentary: The Man Who First Discovered Gold in Alaska. A grizzled distinguished older man with a grey and black streaked beard is standing outside his restaurant talking to the camera crew. He's telling the story of how he was the first person to find gold in Alaska. (At this point: I was then seeing his memories through his eyes). The very first time he panned for gold he found enough right away to buy himself dinner. I see gold flakes under flowing water, and some coins. He wrote messages on paper and folded them up and put them under a stone. I watch as hands fold up a paper and put several like it underneath a stone. It's easy to see the paper I think it's not very secure there.

09:00 up for the day.
09:45 at gym, light weights, some bike, light quick swim, sauna

Great just what I need: a night of dreaming of work. Bleh. That's what I get for a near-bed-time weekly status meeting. At least with the time change it'll be one hour earlier for me soon.

+ trying hard to solve some imaginary work problem all night

+ I need to render the elephants without using a proprietary graphics algorithm and I'm concerned I'll have to write all the code from scratch

+ Some guy is in detail describing the limitations of the system, the X coordinates can only go from -10 to -6, I see an overhead visual graph of this. Also something about only being able to use one side of the coordinate axes.

+ I'm standing outside on some bend in a path, I'm looking at several little signposts with pictures of them stuck in the sand. One is of a little girl, one is of a woman, one is something else like a little a little Pikachu character or something. I sort of adjust and push down the posts more firmly into the sand.

+ I'm at an outdoor company gathering. A woman is sitting down on the ground, I feel I'm acquainted with her (just as a work acquaintance). I sit down right behind her with my hips turned to the left, my right hip is at the base of her back and she leans heavily back on to me, she is not protesting. Her entire upper body/back is firmly against my chest, our heads are close together. It is nice! She pushes back and forth a few times, I feel the weight of her body against mine. I get even more daring and lean forwards and lightly kiss her left cheek just in front of her left ear. She mumbles something like "easy..." or "careful...." we're right out in the open and I know I'm married there could be consequences. She has medium length blonde hair and I think she's 30-something. She may be the woman on the signpost, I never see her face.

Spoiler for sorta sexy time:

I'm sitting with another woman on a chair/recliner. I wonder if the first woman can see me and is jealous. This second woman is sitting on top of me, and my privates are positioned right there between her slightly open legs. I'm wearing grey sweat pants. She is lightly running her thumb in circles about the tip of my [ahem] through my sweats. I'm trying hard to suppress an erection.

I'm standing up, adjusting my grey sweats trying to adjust/hide my protuberance, when I realize I'm shirtless. I'm quite self conscious about this (I'm still at a work event after all). I see my shirt wadded up as if carelessly thrown to the ground farther on.

Walking through the people I encounter a small boy I see his face, I think he's the son of one of the women I was flirting with. He is trying to tell me something but there is a very loud noise and I have trouble hearing him (WL vehicle noise from outside perhaps?), I eventually understand from him that he was selected by some celebrity (?) to ride in a helicopter. I clasp my right hand with his in congratulations, and I think about swinging him around but I remember I have a hurt right shoulder (WL true!).

I'm looking for lunch, I approach the lunch tables set up. There are other people standing there. I see there are only little pieces of sliced chocolates. I exclaim in frustration, "Oh, God, fucking SLICED CANDY for lunch!???!!"

I see closer to the podium, where a company person is about to make some announcement, that there are a few open-face sandwiches left. They are weird many thing multi-colored layers, I start putting some on my plate. I notice to the left there are some guacamole sandwiches left. They are also open face, lying on their sides, with solid dark green tall slices of guacamole on thick pieces of dark bread. Some guy is encouraging me to eat, because when he talks I will need it.

Awake and up unti l10:30, feeling cold and tired so back to bed, some sort-of WILD attempts, can't get in to a dream despite the buzz feeling. Must have slept at one point because there was a 30 second dream. Then wake at 12:30 with pretty odd recall.

12:30

+ I'm in my dentist's house in a bedroom, a lot of people are around, I'm in a rocking chair that falls over first to the right, then to the left, the dentist's (son?) helps me up both times, I see the dentist out in the hallway eating from a take-out container, I'm waiting for him to finish so I can ask him what I should order everybody from Chinese takeout.

+ I'm in a sort of chorus line? I'm looking for another performing group, there they are on the magazine advertisement. They're all facing away from the camera and a girl in the center apparently has no bottoms on. I'm trying to read something on the page about the name/location of the group(?) but all I can read is an apology that one of the performers was wearing purple instead of black, I see one performing whose outfit is phasing between purple and black.

A (dance teacher?) is berating a parent for not understanding the issues of the child, the mother does not want to hear it.

+ I'm arriving home from work, trudging up the stairs laden with food, I hope my family appreciates my work. At the table are kids and my "wife," who makes a sharp comment about appreciating the meal, I say "yum" unenthusiastically.

23:45 bedtime -- finally, a decent bedtime. Took 1mg melatonin 40 mins ago to help in readjusting the schedule. Fell asleep pretty quickly.

Set intention to wake up after every dream and recall, and try to DEILD back in.

00:00 Thursday 2014-02-27

04:20 intention worked, I woke up with some recall, I haven't woken up at the 4th hour in some time. Decided after trying to get back to sleep without success that I'm still no so keen on waking up a lot, but I'm going to do it for the hope of increased lucid moments.

+ outside looking at the walls of some houses/ buildings. I don't like the boarded/cemented up windows and I know my younger son doesn't like them, either.

+ inside a house, we'd just moved in, I see a young Indian boy walking through the house wondering what he's doing here he wasn't invited, I walk down the corridor to the entry way I see through the clear glass front door that other people are waiting just outside, I step back to the hallway so they won't see me so I won't have to deal with them. They come in anyway, they're the Indian (asian) family that owned our place before us, they came for a visit. They say it looks very different. It's very messy, lots of stuff on the floor. I say yes with different furniture a place can look entirely different. I look at some of the furnishings, they are odd, like solid 3d mathematical shapes (spheres, cones) made out of a mottled brown granite, stacked on top of each other. My sister says something about the crystal chandelier. I say something about it too and I hear my mother's voice say, "Oh, <my name>!".

We're in a family room looking at a TV mounted high on a wall of from the ceiling. It's showing some (news?) program, the reception is terrible it's really static-y. The conversation topic is about how I don't like cases around TVs because if you're sitting to the side the side of the cabinet blocks some of your vision, I imagine a cabinet that opens by itself automatically. I go up to the TV (which now has a cabinet around it) with a piece of paper to measure the loss of screen space from the side, and show this (about 1/4 inch) to the others in the room.

+ I'm DO? in the back seat of a car with dark/black upholstery, there's a super cute fluffy young puppy sitting in the middle of the back seat, my view position is eye level with the puppy, the owner is in the front seat and is feeding it little treats and saying doggy things like "goooood boooy...". He gives the puppy in the end a little doggy bone treat wrapped in a plastic baggy.

+ I was holding a shovel/trowel in each hand in some fictional backyard scraping the dirt picking up the last poops of my recently passed away dog (who actually died 4 years ago). I thought these would be the last ones I'd ever clean up and I'd never see him again. I said to myself "he lived for 17 years [true], and he lived for 5 years after getting cancer [false]", I got quite upset. One of the handles in one of the shovels didn't fit the shovel head well and came out.

I woke up very upset and emotional. Intention worked too well, after recall, recording, and quick bathroom trip, couldn't get back to sleep.

Tried "relaxing SSILD" for a while and started getting some imagery, but external noise always prodded me awake.

09:00 back to bed....fell asleep eventually in there somewhere.

12:15 woken by wife to fix the internet, solidly asleep, argh!

+ saw a cute girl from the pool, checked her out a bit as she walked by. She walked through the opening of a low square metal fence and said I shouldn't stand so close (to the fence) so people could walk through. She goes to sit at an outdoor table (night time)I see a bunch of young ladies also sitting there. I move to a different place away from that table and realize my computer fell out of my backpack, I pick it up.

+ some struggle, forgotten

+ other stuff, forgotten, quite a bit, due to shock of waking, dang

Terrible to-bed time, like 03:30, I'm slipping again to bad habits. Still managed some recall, though:

+ at my favorite lake on a plastic blow-up raft, I paddle around to the lagoon, across the lagoon a I see alot of other campers, I try to look at them through binoculars but they don't bring the view closer, I think I see someone looking at me through binoculars. The mouth of the lagoon is a river flowing out into the lake, some people are standing at its edge on the other side from our side, I think the river will keep them out of our area

I've leaving the campsite with a few other people and realize I'm lost, I don't see the familiar landmarks, I look towards the lake and up into the hills and think I see the familiar path. I'm on a bike and heading up very steep hills I have to get off to walk it up, there's a handrailing on the right. I "remember" that the lake is in a valley

I emerge into a city street scene, hilly, with cars and streets and buildings. I'm looking for my car, I have a remote(?) and click it (?).

+ I'm following my jr high sweetheart, she's wearing a pink frilly dress, we're outside and it's dark/night, she asks me if I remember the dress, I don't frankly but say I do, I sort of remember that when she wore it before the belt had pokadots and say so. We arrive at a party at her house, the house is filled with people, I'm standing close to her but feel very self-conscious I don't know what to do or to say. She pours a tiny thimble-full of some (alcohol I think) drink for me/us.

+ I arrive in the outdoor room of my college room-mate (male) "F", I jump up to the top of his bunk-bed and sit on the end with my feet hanging down, it is right up against a fence to the neighbor's house, there is a tall bush/tree partially obscuring the view ahead and to the right of the neighbor's house. My friend climbs up and straddles me facing me hugging me, I'm weirded out by this, I wonder if he wants to make out, that's strange, to be polite at one point I nuzzle the side of his head with mine. He says the neighbors actually broke one of their own windows to that they could see his bed better "so that they could see some new things" (referring to he and his girlfriend in bed). I hear some aerosol cans in the neighbor house and it seems like they're getting dressed. F's girlfriend "D" arrives, I notice she has VERY hairy lower legs starting at about the mid-calf down to her feet. Not normal hair but very dark long and spiky looking hair sparse with the skin visible in between. More like little twigs than hair. She starts applying "spray on shoes" to her lower legs and feet, I jump down and look at this I see a pattern of the boots forming on her legs, I say I'm not into trendy shoes I wear the same brand until the manufacturer stops making them, I take off my shoe and show them "like this 846 model here".

Then I'm at a party of grad-school friends, I see some they see me and act like they haven't seen me in years even though I "know they saw me yesterday," we do one of our jokes acting like TV commercial announcers, "NOW how much would you pay?..". Someone tells me to watch the ham/cheese sandwich. I see it up high on top of a cabinet, someone's reaching for it. Someone's preparing frozen snacks, he pours of the contents of a bag onto a platter to be cooked, it's mostly candy, I see a few pieces of pizza and bacon, I think that's not much bacon it's going to be gone soon.

A rollaway bed is being unpacked, looks comfortable, some other camp kids want to climb up on it, I get on it, the bed is on a raft in the water. My wife is telling me something about a box of chocolates which I don't understand, she's saying something about it is wrong for her brother who is diabetic.

Did everything "wrong" but still ended up with some recall. To bed super late (2am-ish), ate a bunch of chocolate late in the evening (I have no caffeine tolerance so it gives me a caffeine buzz), ate a big heavy meal immediatley before bed. Up early for breakfast duty, so only one recalled dream. Not nearly as clear as other nights this week but still OK.

Tomorrow marks my 6th month anniversary of LD practice!

morning (get up) waking:

+ I'm in my (fictional) house, putting on socks, sock on left foot is ripped to shreds at the toes, all my toes show through there's barely any material over my toes, I adjust a thread of the sock from one toe to another. I think I should put on my birkenstocks, but wonder about whether this will hurt my foot (real life memory, I currently have a foot issue). I see outside a window to the path running down the side of the house (very narrow, neighbor's fence is right there), I see bright green grass clumps growing up through the cement pathway, I think the side of the house is dirty/messy and do people ever clean there, I hear the next door neighbour (the next house is just a few feet away) over the fence. I'm thinking about going out to get some fast food.

after breakfast duty, about 1.5 hours later, back for a nap. I'm wide awake, but manage to eventually block off all thoughts and daydreams and get back to sleep.

next two wakings:

+ in a rented house, meet the landlord man, more man friends of his come by, I speak English, but they're (foreign), I repeat in foreign language, they laugh I think at my accent. One guy lies down on a narrow long couch and sinks into it I think it looks like a coffin. There's a rollaway bed by the wall. We say yes everything is fine with the apartment. We normally deal with the landlord's wife. He's older about 60-70.

+ wife and kids are going on a trip they're meeting the bus at the store down the street

+ I'm getting off a bus (at my childhood home, bus route doesn't match real life bus route) I have a lot of stuff, the driver starts going again before I can gather everything up and get out the door, as he gets impatient that I'm taking a long time to get off, I go up to him and yell (foreign language) "STOP PLEASE!", he stops, I go back to my seat, there are so many bags there, I try to gather them all up into my arms.

+ In a room with my wife, I'm lying down, there's another older woman there standing over my head with her feet apart, there's going to be some "swinging" action, I remove my underwear, feel very self-conscious about what this woman thinks of my "equipment", I look up and see some kind of bizarre and unappealing genatalia. I have some concerns about my wife's devotion to me.

+ (DO) overhead view of some sort of game where pieces move over terrain. Bunch of people/kids/ some sort of club?

+ outdoor scene of water and ice flowing and heaving in large pools (residue of watching glacier calving video a few days ago?)

+ a young female doctor saves me from 3 "stroke bubbles" heading for my body through one of the tubes attached to me (I see them), and then attaches a matrix-squidy-like mechanical thingy (neuron stimulator?) encased in a glass tube with thousands of ultrafine metal probes to me and I study it, it takes two-handed operation to work, I'm then in a car with some device telescoping outside of the window and I'm concerned its weight will tip the car over.
There are other bubbles in the tube, the doctor was racing to me from some other location. The squidy thing is highly intricate and very bizarre looking, the glass tube and the squidy thing is about 1.5 feet long and about the size of a fist in diameter.

+ observe a battle to the death for control of one of a set of mind-operated super weapon cars which make the owners wealthy since they're so valuable, and the winner beats his opponent when he's locked body to body with him by transforming himself in to a small child so he is much shorter, and then firing the machine guns in the door of the car through the body of his enemy (and the bullets don't hit the child-man because of his smaller size). The scene begins by approaching a home in a deserted area, some thought about growing corn.

+ working with a technician on diagnosing the problems of a super complicated electronic device, I see him fixing some shorted wires, I'm digging in to putty-like coverings on the nose of the device to expose a necklace clasp which is malfunctioning, I say how strange/funny it is that a tiny simple component can ruin the operation of such an expensive complicated device. We're inside some sort of super-high-ceilinged hangar open to the outside, the device is on its side with its nose pointing to the left.

+ outdoors at twilight playing catch on a large open field, I know the T family (facebook friends) lives just a hundred yards beyond the field, I think how surprised they will be when I show up for a visit since we've never met in person. I start at one side of the field, head across the field and look backwards at where I've been. The T's live ahead and to the left of the final position/orientation.

+ interviewing the owner/designer of some super-secret device (perhaps the one worked on above), he's showing me around the grounds of his design centre, I stand at a beautiful outdoors scene in the shade of trees looking at a crystal clear flowing creek (flowing left to right), there's a Y intersection in the water, and gardens/houses/hlils rising up to blue skies and clouds in the distance, I wonder where we are and ask him "is this nearby the (some real place)?", I ask if they dump their waste into the water and a woman's voice says yes, I was going to try to drink the water but won't now. Outdoors/bright daylight.
The fork of the Y is to the left, extending around a garden containing a house. I want to find out where this place is so I can return (and drink the water?). I'm standing here for some time just looking and wondering where it is.

The above is probably my strongest location awareness in a dream yet, really wondering where I was and trying to place my location relative to other landmarks that I know.

+ (possibly continuing the above) face-to-muzzle with several fierce dogs sliding down some sort of pole/tubes, the point is to hold on, I'm a bit concerned about them biting me

+ playing some food tossing competition with an opponent of mine, I think he's rigged the game, it's like shuffleboards but with pieces of food, first guy tosses a piece of food and the second guy has to make his land as close to the original as possible, he starts with some orange colored cake thing, I think he's messed with my piece, I end up wadding a bunch of orange cake together and tossing it and it lands pretty far to the right of his piece, I think he's rigged the table as well since it's just a foot off of the ground, way too low, -- some people nearby are laughing about a girl in a contorted funny position on her knees. Walking by a table with cakes/muffins on it on the way to the competition I think of eating some. Probably residue from watching "Hook" right before bed (the bright colored imagined food fight scene).

+ I see my old college roommates (real, college age) are repainting the front of our house (fictional) with a mural against a white background, I see my face painted on the mural as one of 3 faces, I'm honored they put it there, it's a drawing of my face looking like how my wife drew me when we were still dating, then the friends are sitting around a circle joking, I'm standing a little ways apart, I think they're talking about me

earlier waking(s?): only memory key worded and back to sleep

+ I'm a student in highschool class (literature?), the teacher beats the crap out of a student to my right who was not paying attention, he screams at another student on the left side of the classroom who was reading for another class, and he criticizes the reading style of another, I move to stop the initial beating but the teacher stops, I follow attentively along with the reading after that . I'm looking at a book with writing in it but (waking analysis) the words are all squiggles, not letters.

+ some police cars are zipping by down the street, and one moving about 150MPH blazes by

+ some people are moving in to a house they've bought, the workpeople are saying it needs more work, they're doing the work, the woman buyer says "I hope you didn't take out the roses," and the guy said yes they had to.

later morning (voice journal all dreams at this point).

+ in a restaurant, I see a childhood friend a few tables away against a wall, I call out to him and ask him if he remembers my name, he remembers first but not last, he says "you're (my correct first name) Taylor!", I say "no, not like Eric Taylor, by the way I love the Friday Night Lights show," I quiz him about where I live, and he gives a joke answer ("about 20 meters north of <somewhere>). and everybody laughs, I realize he doesn't remember much about me, I see a dachshund put its front legs up on a table and take a drink through a straw of someone's iced tea, I think this is hilarioius, then another of my adult friends GS messes with my food and knocks my burrito onto the seat, I reach for it at first (it's broken open) but don't want to eat it "because that's where all the skanky ho's sit!", my friend is laughing uproariously. My original friend who worked in a shop in (some city), I didn't want to embarrass him by asking him if he still worked in that store, he said though no, he turned it into a restaurant, and I should come for a free diner there, some random guy says "let's put on a party for the cheerleaders there!" I agree and point at him like saying "you da man!", he points back and me and we clasp fingertips.

+ I see a large intricate piece of automated machinery, lots of circuit boards, I see the wires, it's making smooth movements placing lenses in front of cameras, I wonder if the arms could move faster

+ lying in a shallow pond, I see crayfish in the water, I reach to touch one, I see and feel springs of cold water, a deer nuzzles me, then 2 baby cows are nuzzling my face with their noses, I see a big jet-black plastic-looking bull with meter-long curved horns, I think if he charges me I'm a goner, I stand up with my sword, but he doesn't charge me. There are two holes in the ground of the pond shooting out the cold water, I wonder if it's safe to drink, I think the source of that water is a river beyond the bank in front of me. The water is about one foot deep, and my moving around startled away the small crayfish and other creatures. I"m lying on my back (waking up?) when the cows noses touch my face, completely covering it, I open my eyes to look up seeing the two "baby" (but still quite large) animals standing over me.

+ I'm eating a thin steak at an expensive steak restaurant, it is brown on the outside, pink on the inside, and a jet-black ribbon runs around the outside of the stake like a piece of sushi, a narrator voice says something like protect your investment, don't use a butter knife to cut your steak (or it could fall on the ground) something arrives in a limousine (steak knives?).

bedtime 01:30 (late late late! argh)

+ my right foot was stuck in the mouth of a walrus

+ (memorable long one!) my search for my former colleague AG at some company led me through a golf driving range, creepy dark underground claustrophobic pipes/rooms, an Indian restaurant where I was the only customer (I left and returned immediately and the waiter had removed all the tables in the room, "wow he's fast!" I thought), a dangerous equipment testing ground (run by AG's group, his group is playing a prank on me leading me around on a hunt to find them) where they burn the equipment at high temperature (I want to get out of there fast), an encounter with a creepy but buxom and sexy succubus doing her best to tempt me into her lair (it was close but her B/O turned me off as I got close, I took control then and asked what her story was, it turned out she had been badly burned), attempting to escape the island in a car via the only road out past corrupt police in the pay of the company, climbing over glass backyard fences, and finishing at a beautiful sea-side scene where I thought I saw a manatee by the water but it turned out to be a palm trunk, and where I had outsmarted some mid-level drug dealers landing in a boat and battled hand (me) versus knife (him) with their leader, falling through a glass ceiling and crying blood tears (falling down in front of me) in order to protect our eyes.

I asked the succubus (this is my waking term for her, in the dream she was just a creepy/sexy woman trying to lure me to her). I'm thinking "why not?" kind of mesmerised by her very large chest, and as I'm coming in to her I catch a whiff of quite strong body door, which snaps me out of my desire, I take control at that point, and start asking her questions, "so what's with you? Why are you here? Were you hurt? Were you sick?". and as I get closer to her she unwraps her (black, kind of fishnet-stocking-like clothing), and shows me the burns on her head and torso. She slinks off into her inner lair still beckoning to me but I don't follow, I know the results will be bad.

With the drug dealer he unwraps the delivery from my team and only about 4 packs (of drugs presumably) fall out, he says "hey where's the rest, there usually is 20!?", I'm smug I know my team has earned money at this mid-level dealer's expense, the drug kingpins are waiting on the shore (this guy's team is in a boat approaching the shore) for the delivery, he comes out brandishing a knife and we fight.

late morning BTB:
Very awake at about 7:30-08:00. Uncomfortable in all positions. Start daydreaming, hoping to drift off into dreams again, too alert, daydreaming gets too stimulating, I think about getting out of bed for the day, I decide no, "you have to want it like you want to breathe," and I want more chances at lucidity, so I gather my will and clear my mind and relax, and soon I'm asleep again!

+ in a house with some friends, having cocktails before bed, joining a middle-aged woman in a robe heading to the living room, "why not, as long as there are snacks" I say, I'll have a cocktail or two, the snacks might be dim-sum, there's not much left.

+ there was a halloween celebration, some adults, some kids, I think about shooting something into a basket hanging from the ceiling like basketball, I don't as it might break the baskets, I think it would be rude to seduce the daughter of my hosts after they've shown me such hospitality, I just flirt with her lightly.

+ someone sees a picture I'm holding including a high school friend (real one), they tell me he has become a University professor, I ask "in Chemistry?" they say yes, I find that a false memory friend ("Andy Grove", actually is a real guy, the former CEO of Intel) has become a professor in Computer Science, I visit his office and see his nameplate, people are complaining that new office equipment required them to throw out all old, incompatible equipment and replace it with new, compatible equipment, I see someone taking away an armload of the old equipment.

+ sitting next to a man at a restaurant at his table, there are lots of open tables nearby, I'm thinking something about this man, I think I visited his table before.

+ a recliner bed had been broken /burned. I witnessed the burn up close lying on the ground, there was small smoke/fire, I see two thin black horizontal burn marks running the entire front of the bed/couch, we go looking for the maintenance guy, we find him holding garden shears (golden?), he comes and fixes it by putting in a long 2x4, the bed used to recline individually half-and-half but now with the long board in it it will only recline as a whole unit.

+ surprised a burglar at my parent's house [most of the furniture was already gone from their living room]: a woman, I take her in a headlock (after wrestling away a heavy wrench from her hands) out to the street where her partners arrive in a big van/truck, a man gets out and points a gun at me, I put the woman in front of me, I'm dialing 911 with my free hand, I eventually connect and shout to the police my address and that there's a burglar with a gun pointed at me and I have a wrench in my hand but haven't used it yet, he wrestles the phone away from me, he shoots 5 or 6 times quickly, I feel pain and see blood on my left side but I look down and can't figure out if I've been hit or not

+ DO: a woman is talking to another woman about dressing ("wear inexpensive clothes but make them look good") going in to a movie theater and watching the economy movie.

+ something about parking in the parking lot at a former job

Not lucid but one of my most memorably long detailed, multi-scene dreams with scene to scene continuity. Probably 15 minutes subjective time at least.

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00:00 Monday 2014-02-03
01:11 bedtime
06:49
1) Sitting at a table in a house with a guy I know, he has a black beard/mustache, I state his name in the dream (but don't remember). We're talking about something. I put a glass of wine for him on the floor behind his right ankle, he doesn't know it is there. He stands up from his chair and starts to step backwards, I say "no no no!" I know he'll knock it over and he does knock it over and the wine spills.

His wife came home and we talked about inviting them to dinner and we started talking to him about his schedule. He's saying he can't do it one day, or another day, I misunderstand I think he's talking about a dinner that he is putting on and I sort of wanted us to be invited to his place.

We go to the kitchen, where his wife is. We were offering him some soup. We brought big barrels of soup/stew was looking for a place to put it. I saw the sink, some cabinets, the garbage (underneath some cabinets) I filled up some containers to the brim with the soup. I felt bad about filling up his containers.

Sitting around a table talking, I'm trying to unlock my ipad, I can't get the 2nd or 3rd character of the code to enter correct, I try at least 8 times, getting very frustrated. I explain my inability to enter my code because my thumbs have to stretch very far in order to hit the correct letters on the screen.

I came back later to the kitchen and noticed the garbage can was filled to the brim with our soup, his wife had thrown it all away. It's time for us to go I offer to help take the garbage out since it's full of our soup., "it's the least I can do," he hemmed and hawed eventually said yes. We're going outside to the garbage, the house is on a hill, there are a lot of switchbacks in the path going up to the garage. We have to go all the way to one side to get to the gate, then walk through the gate and go all the way back the other way to get to the garbage. We reach the gate to the garage, and I play with the mechanism, I look closely at it and examine it. I think about all the different places where my friend could lock this gate, but I don't see two loops of metal close enough together to put a lock through. Perhaps drilling a hole may help. My wife walks by carrying a giant garbage can full of soup wrapped in plastic on her back like a camping backpack. I reach to her to help carry it but she pulls away and keeps going (I know she doesn't like me offering to help once she's already almost finished something).

We're looking at a fence railing and thinking that someone could lie on the fence railing and roll to the other side to get over it.

We're walking back down the hill to the house, it's very steep, and I start gliding in the air. I'm gliding and hovering riding the air currents, but staying more or less in the same place. I'm surprised that I'm not losing altitude and say so, my friend has turned into my waking life friend NM. I quickly gain some altitude even. I say that I have always loved gliding/flying since watching the show "The Flying Nun" as a kid. I love his hill, it's a great place to glide, he mentions that the thermals would be really good over on the highway since the heat radiating up from there is intense and you'd go "VOOM" straight up into the air. I think I could glide forever here! I could go over to the freeway and hit a thermal and get up really high and glide back to his house.

Back on the ground walking in to his front door, the path is very precarious, there's hardly anywhere secure to put your feet. The steps are decrepit and falling apart. The front door is a few feet higher than the path and beyond it, you have to really stretch your legs to get them into the door frame. NM is standing in the door to help me in, I'm trying to get a good foothold. I reach out and hook my elbows through the door frame and pull myself in, squeezing my NM. I think/ask NM wondering how his elderly parents could come to visit, they'd never be able to make it in the front door.

Back around the table with group of people, we're talking about a new company. There's one friend there, and also the inventor of the product at the head of the table. My friend announces he has bought the rights of all advertising of the product for the next several years. The inventor when he heard this was shocked, because he/the company needed to do this . Apparently everyone thinks that I gave this friend the idea of purchasing the rights to the product, I objects saying "hey, hey, it wasn't my idea!" Someone offered me a glass of wine.

Tried alarm-based DEILDs starting at 05:00 but was too awake, didn't make it back to sleep after first alarm, eventually back to sleep at around 07:30, turned off the alarms.

05:30

+ walking on a beach. neighbor boy with mother is there too, his foot gets stuck in between some stones, I'm walking over the sand and over rocks in the sand.

+ work elevators. Walking past a group of people returning from lunch. On an outdoor path. The group starts pressing into me strongly and closely as I try to push past, I keep an eye on my bag to make sure nobody steals my stuff. I"m keeping an eye out for cute women in the group. Someone says "oh, my." I reach the elevators, there are about 3 elevators. There's a crowd, can't get on, elevators open on left, a tour group is there, they don't get on at first, tour guide says "the minimum age is 52."

A bunch of short dreams throughout the late morning punctuated by quick awakenings.

Somewhere in there tried a classical WILD, was reaaaaalllllyyyy sllloooooowwww to get relaxed enough, but eventually felt the beginnings of ragged breathing, jerking eyes, and an "all-body-buzz" which are my WILD noise indicators. No body movement hallucinations, felt a bit light-headed. Tried to remain calm but didn't make it into the dream.

08:00 ?

+ I find myself Looking at a wall of snow about 6 feet away right in front of me. The snow at the top level of the walll is the bottom of a ski run. I"m thinking about how I could try to jump down this wall on skis: how I would try to dig my ski edges into the sides of the wall, and I also think this may not work since the wall is more or less vertical and I'd probably just fall down, the wall is about 10 feet high. As the dream fades I realize I'm dreaming and try to get back in but I don't feel like counting it as a lucid since the visuals were gone before I realized I was dreaming.

09:30 (dreams from many earlier quick wakings)

+ walking past my elderly mother in the living room, she's sitting in a chair. Something snags her skirt and pulls it entirely off her, I'm trying to find the cloth and put it back, she's laughing, I finally can get a hold of the cloth and put it back in place.

+ I'm walking outside on a street with my son, lots of people outside. We're carrying a pet hamster in a glass. There's a pet store nearby. I want to go in and I say there will be a lot of cute animals there. My son is reluctant, he may be concerned that we'll lose our hamster. I look at the hamster it has kind of a shimp-like face with big black closely-set eyes. My son pours some water into the glass with the hamster. I look at it and say it has a stupid little rhinoceros-head.

+ plane crash. I'm in my car at the top of the hills. I see a large commercial jet plane flying overhead at the top of the hills, it's taking off and barely misses me, flying towards the water. I'm driving. I'm in my car then at the bottom of the hills and look up and see the plane flying, and looks like it's in trouble. It flies out over the water. I"m at a red light. I'm leaning forwards to see the plane in the sky through my windshield. I see the plane bank sharply and head back towards me on the land. The traffic light is now green. I drive out of the way so the plane doesn't hit me. I'm driving in water, to the left, the plane will crash land a bit to the right, I think I'll drive way out to the left in the water if I have to to avoid the plane. There are designated parking areas on a pier for the cars in the water.

I walk by the crash site and I see bodies floating face down. There are certified drivers who are diving to save the people, I see several. Someone says "oh, yeah, there's sharks." I think of course there are sharks there is probably a lot of blood in the water from the crash. I see a few people walking away in soaked clothing and I think a few have been rescued.

+ walking by a vietnamese restaurant, I'm outside on a boardwalk, there's a menu posted on a board, I'm reading it and see an item on the menu is called a "whiskey rim-shot." I also see a picture of a big bowl with red liquid inside and slices of hot peppers, I think it's a picture of someone's bowl after they've eaten and used a lot of red chili sauce.

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00:00 Monday 2013-12-30 comp #16 night #18

01:49 bedtime (urgh! bad!)

07:43

1) performance of computer chips. I meet a marketing guy from one company on the street and he rolls out some marketing posters, showing certain companies holding certain spots in the ratings list. I check with the other company that game/performance was not their intended platform.

In a boat with computer scientists, climb up stairs to open upper level for a meeting to discuss the chip performance, there are some big wakes we ride over making the boat rock a lot front to back, I see the water and the waves approaching the boat.

The ships arrives at a place with a whirlpool and a waterfall, they both need to be avoided. I'm in the water. There's a boy in the water, directing our attention to these two dangers to avoid them. (Something weird about berries and chewing these berries and getting them off of your neck). If you avoid the dangers there is a police chase, and the police will always get you. I see an overhead cartoon depiction of a police car chase.

2) my mother is performing a financial audit/full business report of a company. She's comparing the number of employees and expenses versus the goals of the company. She's preparing detailed typewritten reports on large brownish sheest of paper. Her conclusion is that everything is going perfectly well in the company. She's describing the troubles she had producing the large charts in the typewriter, like she at first thought of having to type each letter individually and then having to re-adjust the paper to type the next letter. I see words written in a foreign language as well as English on the report.

3) a company lunch. I see the kitchen where they're cooking. All the food was white. I did not want to eat it. Cheese/chicken sandwiches on white bread, I saw the finished toasted sandwiches piled up waiting to be taken. I wanted to go to a different cateferia for lunch. There was a warning sign posted over a stairwell about how some employees had been talking about a 3rd party company (that specialized in charcoal) and these employees had been overheard discussing confidential information, and the charcoal company was angry. The Japanese CEO of the charcoal company appeared saying something about the history/honor or the company.

F1) last day at work, shook hands with colleages including BI. They were going out for lunch but I had other plans.

4) I was being detained by a big black bald police officer, I'm sitting on a coach in a room full of columns. He won't let me get a drink of water because it's against protocol. There's an annoying little black guy sitting on the couch poking me, I push him. I complain about him and move to the other end of the couch. He puts something in my mouth like a little wafer of ice cream.

Scene in a restaurant where a rich woman is trying to figure out if her (dog can have ice cream?). She's eating lots of cheesecake. I'm sitting on the couch eating ice cream and I put the spoon down on a towel on top of the couch, she comes over, I think she'll be upset about me putting the ice cream on the couch, I pick it up and she says something.

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00:00 Friday 2013-12-27 comp #16 night #15

00:15 bedtime two 200mg tabs of Valerian

04:29

F1) skiing, there's not enough snow

1) arcade game contest, you have to get a huge balloon-like ball through a hoop in the ceiling. The game is arranged with mirrors. It's very hard to see what the goal of this game is exactly, I'm trying to figure it out. Eventually a faint hoop high up in the back comes into view and I know you're supposed to get this huge ball through that hoop. I'm trying different ways, including throwing a deflated balloon, then I get the idea of get the balloon in place to fall through the hoope: I tie a a string to the balloon, throwing the string over the roof of the building beyond the game area, and pulling the string from the other side of the building to get the balloon directly over the target.
Dream changes to their being an attack from one team on another down a river. One team is waiting for the other team, there's an ambush. The older people are upset they didn't want to participate in an attack, it is a betrayal of trust. Is some places the ground is food, like pizza.

F2) A guy says "only people who are believers (O) can come inside".

F3) A guy fails the test of good character, "b" (flat mark) Pyt.T. is grading the test. I see a hand/pencil making a mark on the grading form paper up close.

F4) a campus police offiicer is standing in full uniform in the distance, I see his badge. They're advertising the job of being a campus policeman. There's a guy sitting at a gate then this policeman comes out.

2) bowling in the bowline alley throwing the ball, left handed, it crosses over the middle, hits near the 10 pin, but in a very slow chain reaction all the pins fall down for a strike. I said "wow that's one of the (ugliest/slowest) strikes I've every seen!" Some people were watching, they don't react much. I'm happy to get a strike. I bowl another ball, having trouble releasing it on the proper arrow. I try to stand far back, and approach the 2nd arrow from the left. Look at the ball and the finger holes are all wrong and spread out strangely and there are more than 3, I see the ball up close. I'm playing another guy, I bowl the first ball, and he bowls the second shot, I say "hey you're not supposed to do that, that was my shot." He's upset that I chastised him, and he says "that's the reason why I don't like to play this game," which I think is ridiculous. All the time I'm in the left-most lane of the alley up aginst the left edge of the building. I keep missing my arrow, and the ball at one time skips over an entire lane and enters the gutter of the 2nd lane to the right.

04:40 BTB, doing MILD and SSILD

07:11

F5) watched a woman having a nightmare about being a mermaid. Her legs were short and amputated-looking rather than fishy. Then there's a close up of her bloody decapitated body with the neck stump rubbing up against the bottom part of a couch next to the floor. The view is from overhead.

3) with children trying to watch a movie, I'm in a rocking chair that won't stop rocking, like it's motorized. It's really bothering me, I'm trying to figure it out, to make adjustmets, I say "it's a bad rocking chair, a RC should only rock when you want it to."

We're doing a project with these kids, building something, a little toy house is being fixed up.
Outside with a bunch of kids, they're playing in water.

The kids are playing in the water, a small shallow creek with short reeeds. "we're being sponges" they say. I move to stand in the water too. The kids are naked, and I get naked too. They're all little boys but one is a girl. She's older and she's not naked but is topless. She is shy and keeps turning away from me, I keep maneuvering for a better view. I'm walking in the mud and feel it on my toes.

I'm concerned about making progress on all the projects, the kids are not concerned, they say "you could do t his, you could do that," since they're not concerned, I say, "OK, I'll be a sponge, too."

I see two purple fly-like insects up close with triangular heads covered with insect eyes, their weird mouth appendages are touching each other. I recite the little poem "There were purple bees, kissing in trees." Then I see a very colorful small rainbow minnow flying through the air, it stops in front of me, I see the horizontal stipes of the colors, purple on the top and bottom, and red and yellow in the middle, it's beautiful. I say "hey did you see that?" The guy saw it.

4) in a room, large, tall ceilinged, rectangular, white paint on the walls. It's like a hotel or a dormitory. Son2 is there and wife. Someone rings the bell. Nobody goes to answer the door, eventually I go open the door, I open it, there's a second door, but on the doorknob inbetween the doors is a piece of paper. I take it back into the room and open it. It is a number of pieces of paper stapled randomly together so it's really hard to open and see anything. I eventually see some number, it's a bill for the stay, 1000, or 1900, or 19000.

There's a large toy/model house, one floor is a drawer with a lot of garbage in it, food garbage, and it's wet. Food and dirty. There are strange coins, I try to flip one of these coins but I can't because the coin is too large. I try to do this repeatedly but can't. The coins are rolling around on the ground. I try to find a smaller coin to flip it. I find some "19 r" coins, they're not normal coins, they're only for buying a weird thing. A giant vacuum cleaner starts spewing out sewage into our room. I put it out into the corridor so it's a shared problem, not just our problem.

09:53

F6) a doctor is searching a man for lesions inside and older man's head. I see the top of the man's bald head, his head is bumpy like an egg carton (or snow moguls) all over the top of his head, the doctor is pressing in the valleys of the head poking around trying to find something. I see the front of the face of the patient briefly.

5) in childhood home (DS!!!), I hang up a coat in the hallway closet. We're rushing somewhere. There's a sweater that wouldn't go properly into a drawer. My wife asks me to push it in, I look down and see it protruding from the bottom drawer of a dresser. My wife has a business with Yo Yo Ma, but he hasn't been working recently, but we were still paying him. "If he's not working why in the heck are we paying him for?" Wife answers "he still works occationally, he taught just a few days ago." I say "it's amazing you have so many contacts with famous people." My wife was talking about paying the insurance so we could take care of a pink spot under my arm.

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00:00 Thursday 2013-12-26 comp #16 night #14

00:17 bedtime cup of peppermint (two bags) and St. John's Wort tea (tea big teaspoons)

01:11 long discussion at bedtime, felt very awake, took 3mg melatonin to prevent sleepless night, in retrospect it might have been better to be awake for a while but get some dreams , but I also wanted to "reset" my going to bed time to midnight.

07:45 alarm, up for breakfast duty, no recall, melatonin really zonked me out

09:06 BTB

09:40 phone call, important business matter, had to do some printing and scanning, was almost asleep or asleep, took a while to get there since I was wide awake at the BTB time.

10:27 BTB... I do NOT accept a night without any dreams! Lots of dreamlets/HI. I saw my backpack and the view from the bed out into the corridor very clearly. This one seemed to last for a long while. I did a motionless RC but it indicated awake.

11:47

1) baseball game. I'm in the close outfield just behind 2nd base. A ball is hit and runners are running around the bases. I see a base runner who has rounded 2nd base falling back to 2nd. The runner is naked and he has a giant huge flappy stomach. I'm amazed that that guy can run bases at all he's so fat. He stands up and he's so big with his arms on the ground and his feet in back of him that I think he looks like a centaur. Then he fully stands up and he IS a centaur. He has the face of a famous fat actor and his chest is very hairy with red/brown hair.

2) leaky house & GF
I'm in a big very tall ceilinged old leaky house with lots of sleeping lofts. It is raining outside and the rain is dripping everywhere onto people's beds. I hear the rain pouring into a cooking pot and filling it up that someone has put on their bed. I think my cousin's bed is going to be very wet, he won't want to sleep there. I see damp beddings on the beds. I pick up the pot to empty it. I walk past one bed with a girl sleeping in it on her right side, dark hair, pretty face, light skin, I see her shoulder/top of her chest, she's piled deeply under many feet of blankets, she is the girlfriend of the guy in whose bed she's sleeping.

I stand next to another bed, I'm half-way through taking off my shirt over my head, when my college GF (D.B.) appears and says sarcastically "wow, is that your (celebration?) outfit?", I know I look dishevelled, my hair is a mess. I say "I know I look....'attractive' right now" (being ironic), "but I'd really like to lie with you for a while here, can I?" She says yes of course and comes into my arms. Her bed is right in the open area, my bed is up above in a much more private area, I think of asking her to come up there because it's much more private.

Some workers are moving through the area, moving large objects, the objects are banging into the sleepers lightly.

F1) a big house is a huge toy house model, I see the model a few feet away from me. I know someone is in the garden there.

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00:00 Wednesday 2013-12-25 comp #16 night #13

00:00 bedtime

03:03

F1) I said "bullshit bullshit bullshit..." about the flying man, flying around with a (something?)

04:39

F2) fighting

05:27

F3) someone's trying to get me in trouble

07:22

1) "ship battles & potstickers"
On a ship at night in the Mediterranean sea, one guy is swimming in the warm water, the crew is on board, one of the guys is playing the classical guitar, suprisingly well, I hear it clearly and follow the melody for a while, he's not playing perfectly but still very well, I'm quite astonished such a rough/low-brow guy can play so well.

It's daytime and the ship is moving through the air, we've taken on a huge cargo lot of rugs, piles of rolled up rugs cover the deck, I'm concerned we have too many rugs on board.

Enemy scouts ahead of the path of our ship have spotted us and recognized our ship. I'm in a team to kill the scouts. I try to chop the head off of one guy by hitting his neck from two sides at once with a blade in each hand. It's not working and I'm squeamish about continuing.

Attack scene: inside the ship, the enemies were attacking, the enemies were approaching the doors and shooting in grenades that bounce around inside around corners and exploding. I also shoot some bouncing grenades back at them.

I'm DO: 2 from my team are retreating back to our ship, one, an infantry, makes it inside but stops to help/watch the flying mech partner, which is caught by another flying mech in a strong stream of machine gun fire, I watch the steam of fire, it is ripping our mech to shreds, pieces of metal are flying everywhere, I think our guy won't survive.

I'm in a high place, and a woman is gesturing/calling to me from a platform about 100 feet down a hill from my position and asking "what happened to the potstickers?". There are a few people on this small platform (about 4 square meters). I can't understand what she's saying so I mimic holding a telephone up to my right ear with my right hand so that she will call me. She doesn't, so eventually I fly down to the platform. They're asking me where the potstickers are. I conclude that someone threw away the potstickers which were boiling in the water when the attack began, so nobody knew there were still there in the water and probably threw them out with the old water. I put them in the water initially, then was distracted by the attack, I tell this story a few times. I then see a frying pan with some potstickers/dumplings cooking in oil and ask "hey is anybody going to have these?"

08:31 took 30 drops mother's wort.

F4) DO flying over a map of the US, I was trying to figure out a route to the West coast.

09:59 BTB

11:13

2) "amazingly real imagination" (all but lucid: vivid, active, but without "I'm dreaming")
Swimming in water, I see up ahead some people, I go to them, still in the water, they're talking about what happens when you fall into a pool of juice (different kinds of juices), I say I swam once in a pile of sliced kiwis. I have trouble saying kiwis it comes out like "kee-vees", and I repeat it again, the woman looks at me funny. I swim away from them and see a girl nearby. I say to myself "if this were a dream I would get with her," I reach for her and then my vision sharpens and she comes very clear, it was like becoming lucid without the acknowledgement that I'm dreaming. I'm amazed that my "imagination" is so powerful, 3D, and realistic. Vivid high definition clear visuals, and I have good touch sensation. She's naked and I touch her for a few seconds before the scene changes.

3) "coffee with the drunk blonde"
I'm in some kind of a bar, there was someone I knew there, a beautiful blonde-haired woman in a black evening dress. she was very drunk, I did not want her to try to go home by herself. She starts walking out, I go to her and say "let me help you home, let's go get some coffee." I felt attracted to her. We're starting up some stairs, I said "turn around," she's ahead of me on the stair and turns around and I pull her into a light hug, and I kissed her right cheek through her blonde hair. We continue walking around looking for coffee, I'm holding her closely against my side with one arm around her waist, I feel her against me and I feel my hand on her waist very clearly, it's soft and a wonderful feeling. I imagine some people are looking at me funny (isn't he married?) my answer is "hey she's just a friend and I'm helping her out". I said "let's go for a coffee in the hotel, it will wake you up," she says ok, we're in a restaurant she starts to sit down in a regular open area, where other people also sit down at the same table, I say "no no let's go back here," I indicate a sort of lounge with couches, there's an even darker more intimate area to the right but we don't go there. We enter the lounge area with couches and she says "now this is more like it," there are a bunch of black kids playing games on another couch, and she really likes kids so she went to play with them, I think "oh, great," sarcastically, I go to sit with them.

4) "gangster casino & the mayor"
It's night and I'm standing outside on a sidewalk, I'm next to a business / office building with black shades drawn down over the windows, there is light inside, there are people moving around, I think a security guy is watching me through a window. I'm standing there watching something on the ground. Another guy appears standing next to me and watching me. I'm wearing a robe with nothing underneath. I think it was a bank at first, but later imagine it's a casino.

And older woman was reelected mayor. She was whooping it up in celebration, skipping through the crowds and waving her arms in the air and whopping in delight. She had prepared a gift for the city upon becoming mayor, and she was working on a building-sized banner to proclaim this gift. The gift is a full day of no government regulations, including not having to pay taxes on that day.

I'm inside the casino, it's very small, just a few tables, this is a private/gangster casino, I'm looking for a blackjack table. I see a table with a young skinny sneaky looking Italian looking male dealer, I imagine he's a card shark and very adept at cheating. I find a table but i can't see the table limit sign. I'm poking around the table looking for it eventually find it and see it's a $5 minimum table, I'm turned off by this I only wanted to spend $20 but still play for a while. I'm playing a hand, maybe I lose a hand, the casino chips are huge about the size of a pancake. I give the dealer cash and wait for my chips. I have a bunch of cards in my hand I don't think they're from the table. If these are my cards I could follow the play along with these cards and know exactly which cards are still left, no reason to count cards.

This whole sleep cycle was on my stomach, head to right of pillow, normally I sleep only on my side, sometimes I sleep on stomach in late morning briefly if both hips/shoulders are a bit sore. Quite an amazing dreaming night given the fact that I had a hugely stressful evening last night with a lot of drama. I didn't expect to sleep not to mention recall anything. But I was very tired as well. Got to sleep earlier than normal, I really need to keep my to-bed time around midnight for better dreaming.