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Bedtime too late + too much arguing on FB right before bed + too late dinner = weak recall

conclusion: GET TO BED BEFORE MIDNIGHT. 22:30-23:00 preferable.
GET OFF OF THE COMPUTER SEVERAL HOURS BEFORE BED
Stop arguing on Facebook. It's like teaching a pig to sing: it just wastes your time, and annoys the pig (Mark Twain).
Take time to calm the mind.

At least I slept a pretty solid almost 8 hours.

Bedtime: 00:20
final Wake: 08:00

+ earlier very active dreams, lots of people [DS] busily doing various tasks, details forgotten

+ in a large, rectangular exercise room, I'm at the entrance on a long wall, my son and a woman on the opposite wall right corner from me, on their stomachs, doing very high back bends. Their upper torsos and arms are raised high in the air, they're amazed themselves, and say that there is (some force?) aiding their ability to do this high back bends so easily. I try myself, I enter the room, turn to face where I entered, and showed that I was able to also do very high back bend, without the aid of this force. I tell them to come over to me and the other corner and to try there (they do?). I go to the corner where they were and do another high back bend, I do not see the difference and think there is probably no force.

A woman clerk comes up to me and is perplexed about the backbend force, and then the topic becomes something about cosmetic products on a shelf (?)

bedtime ~ 00:15 (too late!)
final waking: ~08:20

Failed WILD from 4 to ~6 hours after bedtime disrupted REM and sleep rhythm, resulting in low awareness, fragmented, short dreams when I finally did manage to get back to sleep (approx ~6 to 8 hours)

Felt sufficiently drowsy, but spent too long thinking about overly-stimulating thoughts/dream goals.
Once or twice got to hypnagogic imagery (a bright orange fire in the distance).
Had to focus 100% on prolonged total mind and body relaxation in order to sleep, had to turn over several times because of arms going a bit numb

+ Playing indoor soccer with another woman against the Queen of England, using a transparent beach ball containing some papers, the other woman is hogging the ball, I get a couple of kicks and finally score a goal

+ My fiance and I are eating some baked goods in the kitchen, I see some more on the counter and reach for it, but she doesn't want me to eat it

+ My cousins are holding a crafts workshop, it's a sort of race building things out of large-sized double-tipped cotton ear swabs on a mini-loom-contraption, I have to use it right-handed so will probably lose

+ [f] I kick a soccer ball, it goes straight, I think about kicking technique and ball angle, I think I made a pretty good shot

+ observing a football play, the offensive quarterback is fumbling/juggling the football, then heads backwards into tall grass to hide [goes into hospital beyond grass?]

+ friend is selling time-limited internet access coupons on the side of the road, there are several foreign customers paying foreign currency, one buys one coupon, another buys a handful, I think this is a surprisingly profitable business

+ inside a room, there is a row of work booths with lower and upper levels, I think there is not much room inside, you can't stand up in them

early:
+ [something about N&A]
+ comparing my very deeply tanned (nearly black) arm vs. my friends, to see who has the darkest tan, 3-4 arms all put side-by-side, at first I think mine's darker but then think grade-school friend EB's is darker
+ [doing something with some guy]

mid/final [early waking]
+ I'm hosting an outside party where the guests are all seated in an outdoor amphitheater [DS], A (of N&A [DS]) asks for a Coke, go to get it from the cooler, I can't find it but see A's retainer in the cooler bottom
+ Looking up at a snowy hill through a chain-link fence, tell guy there that "well this year the snow didn't make it through the fence at least," at that moment some snow breaks off and rolls down to the fence, "spoke too soon!" I say
+ In a crowded (school?) corridor with people, looking at brightly colored small plastic packages (like individual tea packs) in a display case, turn to "friend" near me to say something and realize it's some random girl I don't know, continue observing the contents of the display case

2021-08-23

Late bedtime always wreaks havoc on recall, as does watching videos before bed. Almost not recall at all, but managed to dig up a couple fragments:

+ On top of some tall moving platform, I'm intercepting footballs tossed by the opposing team players who are playing on the ground below me

+ In the back seat of a car going somewhere juggling some items, the people in the front are talking to me about something


2021-08-24

Weak recall phase...hoping for more upticks soon!

+ Tossing an Aerobie indoors then outdoors with some guy
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2021-08-25

Scotch-fueled dreaming night, pretty good in fact:

[early]

+ [people in places -- forgotten]

+ racquetball/squash: playing 2-on-1 2 young woman against me, I can't make shots, I call interference several times, one of them disagrees and cites the rule

+ playing a hand of poker: I'm dealt a full house (A-A-10-10-10, plus some other cards), I bet too aggressively too soon and everybody folds, I gather the cards to avoid showing my hand and shuffle

[mid]
+ in a small "dune-bug" like vehicle with a really long gear shift handle, I'm showing that it's hard to stall this thing

+ [late fragment] working out in a gym [DS]?

+ outside in a flea market, I see lots of garbage/litter on the ground in my area, I think about cleaning it; I'm arranging my passports and documents on a table, I'm concerned it's open and accessible to all, so I try to move a small portable table between the walkway and my documents, I think (somebody says?) it won't be enough to protect them

[late]
+ in a low small boat with a black dangerous animal (cougar/puma?) sitting right behind my, nuzzles my head from behind, I'm leery of it, deja vu, scene repeats

+ enter and move through a cluttered shop, narrow aisles, follow a girl(?) she's trying to sell something(?), I give the proprietor a handful of papers to sell he looks at them and says they're "Honda parts," and I see he has a large Honda-branded section against one wall; he opens a small box full of papers and puts my papers into the box

3 distinct recall periods, and one long vivid/present dream to finish things off, a good night and welcome improvement!

Bedtime 22:30
3mg melatonin about 22:00

Final waking 09:23

Still moving immediately after waking, but thinking of recall very soon after waking

Nothing written until morning.

04:00
[early]
+ [something with people in places -- forgotten]
+ I'm driving a car at night I'm stopped at a stop light at a T intersection (on the vertical leg of the "T" facing the top bar on the right hand side of the street. I'm waiting for the green light. I notice that the light has turned "grey", the lower circle that is normally green has turned grey. I'm anticipating the green, I'm preparing to turn right. The light turns green, and the guy behind me honks as I'm beginning to move, I think he's really impatient. I make the right turn but something's off: on top of the road is a huge, tall pile of loose dirt, the entire roadway has been covered with it going on in that directly. I'm a bit concerned about being stuck, I realize this is a construction zone and I need to get out of here. I turn around and head back to the intersection, driving in the tamped-down area of the dirt in the middle. The car drifts a bit to the right and I'm a bit concerned but it holds straight enough and I enter the intersection, now preparing to turn left at the light, which is still green for me, there are a lot of cars in the oncoming direction. The light is turning red but I decide to complete the turn regardless.


MILD, SSILD, recall, relaxation just couldn't grasp one of the earlier scene sequences
Visualization, some dream arm floating started, some dreamlets

06:30 Still awake, but getting drowsy
Go for full relaxation, "give up," "let it happen," "stop trying"

[mid]
+ FA, check clock, it's 11:23, boy it's late, time to get up
+ Outside jogging, I decide to get some exercise, I'll probably sweat, but I feel light on my feet, I'm wearing sweat pants. It's early morning, buildings/shops are not open yet, see women in headcoverings outside [Muslim?], I'm thinking about location and directions, the place I need to get to is ahead and to the right. I run up to some buildings, I think it's a bank, there's a man standing there. I turn right run past closed bank, into a still-closed suburban business district

09:23
[late]
+ [dreamlet] Looking at a rectangular sign with red LEDs forming words, on top of garage roof
+ ... standing inside some area with some people (not seen) looking out into a terrace. There is an oversized grey couch there. I am really liking the look of this thing: it is very long, very wide, with ample room to sleep on. I think you could sleep with your SO there very comfortably. I'm going on and on about how attractive and comfortable that couch looks.

I'm outside (on that couch) lying down to sleep. I wake up, and there is a deja-vu sequence about waking up and reaching for my retainer, which I'd put aside on a side table when lying down to sleep, this repeats at least once.

There is now the issue of paying the hotel bill. There is a group of who slept on that terrace (it's a hotel apparently), had coffee and breakfast (which I didn't remember), and now we are being charged as a group for it, despite us not being "together" in any way. There is one young man who cannot pay his bill, "I'm trying to get home" he says. I'm grumpy that we have to pay the way of this young freeloader who can't pay his bill. I'm closely examining a pile of receipts detailing the costs and who they're for, but can't make much sense out of them. Still grumbling about paying, our group gets on a bus. There is a woman in our group who decides to foot the bill for the young man. She takes out a large wad of cash in order to do so. I think that I should show some Christian charity and pay for his bill as well. On the bus I take out my wallet and want to pay the woman, I take out my wallet and my cash is strange looking, like colored paper and receipts. I want to give her half of what she paid for the young man.

Our group is waking up and gathering, we've stayed somewhere in separate hotels. "Did you like the facilities of your place?" the woman asks me. We're walking towards a place with shops/restaurants and entertainment. We pick up one of our group, also a woman, she was staying in a place with a storefront with the large word SNAKES written on it. I smirk to myself what she was probably doing with the snakes. Ahead is the entertainment area, and I notice some midgets there who are probably providing a show.

+ I'm with a guitar, I'm trying to turn it over (it's back is facing me) but its strings are caught on something. Especially the string with the thin line of red coloring running through it. I successfully unsnag it and get it turned over so the strings are facing upwards. I'm now planning on playing what I know of Clapton's "Tears in Heaven," and perhaps the few bars I know of "More Than Words." It will really impress them, I think. I think I need to broaden my repertoire of pieces so that I can put on a pleasing performance without repeating myself too much.

bedtime ~23:00-23:30

wake 06:00

+ I'm standing on the ocean coast in a fairly large city, it's built up with walkways, water on my left. A large single-file procession of blue Indian elephants is emerging from the water and heading up on to land. I think they've sum a very far way, only to arrive for a live of slavery. I'm climbing up over green metal railings to move higher up away from the water. At the top there is a mailbox which I open, and it's full of letters and colorful postcards from well-wishes and people offering advice.

+ Standing on a snow hill, at a corner where very skilled skiiers (racing?) are "parallel sliding" down a very narrow and steep portion of hill (only about one ski-length wide), then zooming around the corner and proceeding down the hill. I'm looking closely at how they are holding their feet. It's just just a simple parallel "hockey-style" slide, they actually have one foot out of their boot and that ski is upside down, and they have a complicated stance with the free foot on top of the skis and their legs really held tightly together. I imagine it's quite a trick to get their feet out at the hill and put them back later. One of the skiiers is (I think, doesn't really look like him) my late Scoutmaster NB (with a beard).

I move higher up the hill and enter a sort of gift shop where the floor is covered in ice and people are skating (?). I notice a lot of little trinkets spread around (on foldable music stands?). Someone is with me and they are saying something like "this is what you get with local delivery"

Standing on the ski hill in the snow, at the bottom of a run, moving up the hill, I'm thinking about the inflatable, 2-man canoe-style sleds that are racing, and that a winning team (mine?) had the strategy of just not breaking at all until they were close to the bottom. I'm saying "so, they probably had to start breaking about a kilometer from the bottom?" I'm imagining they're breaking with their hands and feet.

Another (3rd day in a row?) morning back to sleep victory. It really helps having made a decision that getting in another sleep cycle is important and something I'm dedicated to doing.

+ very early (2-3am) morning appointment at the US citizenship application office, paper forms like airline boarding passes are spewing out of a machine and confusing me as to which one is the current form, I see paperwork with the hand-written name of my late wive's maiden name which confuses me

+ Scene of late wife in freaky mime face paint on an out-on-the-town trip with others that I never knew about, then I'm amongst them walking and threaten one of them with a switch-blade

+ party in a huge crowd, they're all standing in response to some ritual that I'm unaware of

+ walk by a gym (I used to attend?) with a group working out to an aerobic routine [visible through glass wall, dreamsign], I scrutinize the instructor to see if it's someone I recognize

+ [fragment] walking by a large vehicle parked that turns out to be a patrol boat?

Uptick in recall with a bit more sleep, finally. Fragmented still, but a lot more content with more details recalled

(earlier)
+ large open dining area, we're at reserved tables, a new incoming group heads towards a large table in the corner, I think this might be our table, too

+ starting to climb up a tall stairwell, there's a guy there who's gathered a lot of large, empty, plastic, orange watering cans at the bottom, I decide to help him out by hauling a bunch of them up with me

+ walking through an orchestra (rehearsal?) strings section, they're all playing synchronized pizzicato

+ (underground parking area with rooms?)

(later)

+ in old adult PTL home living room, see (young son?) outside throwing a rock at a passing car, see the rock bounce off the passenger front window, think about the possibility of throwing more rocks through the space between parked cars, (I'm naked?) late wife and kids appear on the lawn outside (party?), I move to close the curtains (again) for privacy

+ [vivid] in home in quiet area of foreign country [England?] with woman owner, I say "it's such a quiet area here," I'm wandering through the rooms looking closely at decoration and things on wall, like pictures, think I have a lot in common with the owner, I see pictures of orchestral string instruments, I think I'm a musician, too, now she's a man, who specializes in "pronouns," [selection of them?] I try reading one of his worksheets, hand-written in pencil on white paper, despite seeing words on paper I can't make sense of them or of where th pronoun selection comes into it.

+ walking outdoors (naked?) towards a large multi-story building (heading home?), see a woman in the distance walking a parallel path, get up to tall building/barrier, look up and see the various levels including an open terrace roof where I think people spend a lot of time, imagine heading up to the 2nd/3rd level on the elevator and think the people there will be surprised to see us. The buildings here are all tall.

+ avoiding young, very well-dressed [fancy suits] security, who are guarding stairwells and elevators in a building complex, I'm bringing a large cup [movie-sized] of popcorn [all food is forbidden here] in with me, and turning to shield view of it with my body as I walk among them and rush for the stairs

+ [something about white vs. dark meat on chicken, it's actually colored red]

Very late bed-time, after midnight, this always results in low recall, no exception today, just a few fragments

+ walking along a side walk, lots of people around. There are spots to the right (away from the street) where people are lying and (sunbathing?). It's like a resort. It's a narrow strip (colored dark green?) where only two people can lie abreast. I'm thinking about how the people will pack themselves into this area, and whether they'll all fit? There's a man with me and we're discussing / thinking about the cooking of the ground meat (visible in a large frying pan in front of us), he's asking me my opinion on whether we'd rather do the selection and cooking of the meat ourselves, and I agree that we should. He tells the (waiter? cook?) this, who seems hesitant about it but agrees.

[I think there was a lot more but it slipped away]

+ [just before waking], scene in a large public building location (library?) with tables, there's a guy (politician?) speaking about something, some political question with consequences, advising some course of action.

+ I arrive at band practice in a middle-school band. I hear their players who play my instrument, and they're not very good, poor tone. I'm confident that I'll really surprise them with my playing ability. But I'm missing the part on which I blow. They present me with several new variants. They're odd-sized (too large) I notice. Other people's versions of these are usually not ready to play i know. I try them though, and find them very responsive, and say they'll do.

I'm playing some melancholy, minor-key tune to accompany a portion of the dream.

They say I'm going to need to play "the first movement of the Mozart." This is not an issue for me, I know it well. I imagine the tune in my head.

+ driving in traffic on freeway, weaving back and forth between lanes, it's stopped, starts up again, I see why, there's a huge pile of dirt in right in the middle of the lane. I swerve quickly around it, using turn signals (I think it's silly to use them so quickly), I take an exit (left side!) and realize I've taken the exit too soon. I'm going to have to turn to the right and hope I can make it to the place I originally intended to go.

+ (continuation?) I'm at a stop light on a road, I'm on a (bicycle?) There's a girl here (following me?) and we go to a (hotel?) room. (I'm abducting her?) We're talking, I'm asking her questions, she's answering in English which surprises me, I say "It's really convenient that you can speak English!" I take pictures of her and I notice that there's a camera in the room, I think this is concerning but imagine they couldn't be spying on the guests. Then the girl takes the camera and starts taking pictures of me, I am really not so good with this and tell her "these pictures will be just between us, right?" I get a bit dominant-feeling and lie on top of her (we're clothed) and give her a light kiss on the lips, she's receptive, I'm starting to think this could be a very "interesting" situation here.

We're at a table? in a restaurant? with other people. I say "I don't post pictures of myself on the internet" thinking again about the pictures we took together. I realize that all this time with her, I never have fixed the flat tire on my bicycle, and I tell her this.

+ body on wheelbarrow lifted up on top of car and dropped off the back, it breaks into pieces (bloody legs, etc) and I think what a mess, why'd they do that?

+ climbing up on to the (our)? bed at the top of a super tall tower of bunk beds. It is made neatly, twin sized, blue blanket/bed coverings, long way down, some woman is arranging something, I'm wondering about things falling down the sides?

+ [last dream] preparing for an army bootcamp/travel, packing a backpack, find a pile of orders/prescriptions (I see the writing on them), I'm wondering about packing warm clothing -- a heavy sweater (which I'm wearing). Room for all this stuff? I should be prepared in case of frozen weather, I'd rather have redundant warm stuff and not need it than need it and not have it, we'll be miles away from civilization.

I return to my room and all my stuff has been cleaned up. Panic at first, then I see the stack of prescriptions/orders on a small night table. It's late, when am I going to get those prescriptions filled, we're taking off in the morning.

In a high place, looking down on some musical performance? It finishes up, I say "everything was good/it's all ok", but a somber dangerous-looking man standing near me turns away, I know he was very critical of the performance, I notice with a close-up view of his face that he has a horizontal deep gash (not bleeding) about a 1/4 inch deep and about 1.5 inches long on his right cheek-bone area.

I move down some walk-way towards a pharmacy, I check the hours on a sign, it's open until 00:30 I think. I'll be able to fill my prescriptions without having to wait until morning when we're leaving and when it may be too late. There are lots of people at the counter, I see through the glass doors. A clerk is saying, I'm sorry, we're all out of <the musical instrument which I play> for rent, you'll have to check back in 5 days.

Moving further down the walk-way there is a little segment about some video game? There is a narration from a girl about how she is not going to be joining any quests except for <something>. Across the way on the other side I see a sort of video game display (but it's "real" not a screen) showing a person surrounded by a lines of blue sparks, this is a sort of shielding spell, and the writing indicates that this spell is (either the result of of a requirement of ) a particular quest, for which (you need a group of players to complete)?

+ I'm in a long line waiting for service. I'm with my fiance/GF. The people are packed pretty tightly in the line, mostly young adults. I step out of line briefly and the girls behind me quickly move to take my spot, I try to step back in, it's my place after all I think, but they keep nudging ahead of me as the line moves forward. The line reaches a point where an official is stopping people and letting one through at a time, there is a small in-between area with doors before and after, the service we're waiting for is behind the farther door. When I get to the first door, some guys sort of crowd in front of me, I think that this is rude, I should be together with my GF. As people are served, these guys move in front of me into this "no-man's land" waiting area where nobody should be standing, so I also move forwards to try to preserve my place in line.

I finally get to go forwards to the service point, there is a woman in a high little room almost one story higher than the ground level. I hand up something to her and she says I've forgotten the main application, which I then hand up to her (in a transparent file cover?). She quickly says there is a problem with my name, companies in this country will not want to hire me, she's implying I have to change my name. I explain I can't do that, all my documents are all in my current name and it would be a nightmare of mismatched names (if names don't match in this place they do not consider the document valid). The woman is not persuaded. She leaves her little high-cubby-room and enters some staircase leading down below ground level. I'm still trying to explain to her about my name.

About an hour of insomnia between 03:30 and 04:30

+ In a large white cube room, trapped here? Floating around in it, like there is no gravity, jumping from wall to wall, rotating head over heels while doing so. There's another guy here who's an enemy?

+ On the control deck of a military ship, looking for enemy planes with radar, doing various searches, not finding anything except a "parachuter." The military are very neat and precise, they label even the electrical outlets with markings indicating (how much force is needed to pull out the plug?). I clean some small object I'm holding using forced air from the control panel, I think I've used military equipment to do so. I look down and see the (deck captain's?) equipment tray lying on the ground, I think I've used some of his stuff.

On top of a structure in search of a fugitive (the parachutist?), following people down into an interior stairway. There's a guardian large woman at the bottom, and we engage in some sexy time, short, she stands up, says "thank you!" but she needs to get back to work. I continue walking throughout the structure, and come across an open cafe.

Inside everything is branded/colored dark green: tables, aprons, etc. I approach the counter and the open kitchen behind is visible, where the employees are continuing the prep for the day (it's just opening hours apparently). I'm intrigued by what look to be gigantic bananas. It is a South American themed cafe. There is a large table/structure/assembly line there where they are prepping tropical drinks: fruits or blenders with fruits inside are being prepared in order to be blended in a machine, and the drinks can be purchased. I'd like to try some but I think they would be too much for one person.

+ outside, at D, night, near structure currently under construction, look back at main house, think [something...]

+ Basketball -- in a court, playing, high on the side wall of the court is some contraption, a small cylinder, grasping and pumping this cylinder has some effect on the game, I'm trying it, there is the notion that this is cheating?

+ In a garage, walking around a sort of a wreck of a car, it's really falling apart, it was part of a family taxi business? The frame is blue.

late bedtime, ~midnight or later. Fall asleep slowly, L reading on phone, takes a while to fall asleep

no early recall first couple of wakings
2nd/3rd waking set stronger intention for dreaming/lucidity
took longer to get back to sleep after this
a lot of wakings, shoulder bothering

up out of bed ~08:00

later, lots of scenes/fragments

earlier:
+ in apartment, some old g/f (wife?) has returned, at first I'm happy, but the she starts nit-picking me endlessly and I'm crestfallen, and think being alone may have been better

+ romantically together with an older, unattractive woman, she mentions "we need to talk" (about our relationship), and I think about responding "well, one option is not talking" but I don't say anything because that will probably not be received well.

Sitting close (holding her in my arms, we're sitting on a couch/bench, her back is to me), she makes a pun/joke, I get it, I laugh, and say was a good one, she laughs to and is proud of her clever pun

later:

+ (f) I need to satisfy some quest or set of requirements, I think I have time, but others say no I have to finish all the tasks today

+ (f) at some point I'm wearing shorts, and I wonder about how approprite this is?

+ parking scooter [DS!] on a curving curb, I'm looking closely at the curb painting, there's a red zone there, a crosswalk just ahead, and I'm trying to remember the parking rules. There's a car in a spot ahead that looks like it's not marked, and there is enough room for the scooter to park so I want to move ahead to that spot. Where I'm looking at parking right now is just in front of a crosswalk, and is too close to be legal, I know.

Walking on (back along the sidewalk the other way from how I approached on the scooter) is a building (and an outdoor mailbox where I pick up the mail?), it is dark/twilight outside, and I see lights inside the building in a basement complex. I "recognize" the building and the apartment within (think it's where students live, or where I lived?).

I'm in a room, and suddenly I see Rb. Mlls (company R) leaning in from an open window to the outside, and I jump with shock at seeing him because he wasn't there before. He comes in an gives me tasks to do? With some fat young woman whom I don't like?

+ maneuvering in traffic at an intersection, I join a flow with some cars to my left, I realize I'm cutting off one of the cars but keep merging left, we're turning left, then I enter some storefront. Inside is a gaming parlor and the view switches to a video game screen . I'm using a joystick as the game control. The joystick has a yaw input (twisting the stick instead of just rotating it) and I'm experimenting with this as well. The game is played on a circular "board" with different icons/images and the point is to make a full circle of your chosen icon, while others are trying to do the same. No matter how fast I manipulate the controls and replace my icons, the other players keep placing theirs, and I can't make any progress.