Lucid Time!

I... I don't even know how to approach dreams like this... If dreams are a measure of the mind, I certainly hope people are willing to judge me on more than these...

I'll go get the dream sins.

I remember (This was two nights ago) a dream about being on my college campus. I was in my digital media class and for whatever reason we were walking around campy. I remember there was this girl in our class with very pale skin, gray eyes and long black hair. It didn't seem like anyone else in the class really paid much attention to her. We were walking by the rec center when, with absolutely no provocation (I didn't even say anything to her or even look her way, I was largely ignoring her.), the new girl proceeds to walk up to me without saying a word and slap me. (1. Dickhead DCs strike again.)

My immediate reaction is one of anger, where I proceeded to kick her down into a mud puddle. She started crying that her clothes were ruined. The weird part was everyone took her side and was mad at me for what I had done. (2. That's unfair.) Apparently the underlying moral was that the girl wanted attention but didn't get it so her first instinct was to just hit someone and see what happened. Apparently what I was supposed to do was comfort her her loneliness. (3. How was this girl in college, this behavior wouldn't fly in a kindergarten...) (4. Also, what kind of rancid moral is this? Someone has an emotional problem and their first resort is hitting a random person, yet they're not at fault...?)

FFWD to last night

A dream about Johnny Test (5. Johnny Test). I remember the episode was about Johnny developing anorexia (6. PULL OUT! PULL OUT! We do not need a 'Very Special Episode' from this show, especially not one in a dream!) and growing his hair long. I don't remember the exact plot but it had something to do with him not wanting to get a haircut and Johnny had his hair really long in a ponytail. (7. Johnny test steals my waking life ponytail hairstyle.) He then stopped eating, and as soon as he skipped one meal his body got replaced with a realistic ribcage. (8. It was disturbing...)

He then ran away from school with the dog, who also had a realistic ribcage and spine. (9. Stop doing that!) Some police came and talked to him. Overused joke about how the dog is a kid with a hair disorder. (10. Okay, one, I'm sinning the fact that I even REMEMBER that that was a recurring joke on the show.) (11. That joke, and by extension, my subc makes fun of kids with disorders. Srsly WTH?) He then hid out behind a dumpster that was in the middle of the woods. The environment around them was realistic now though they were still animated characters. Then some random bad guys showed up that I think were duplicates of themselves. (12. What? Why? Gonna explain anything here? Well I guess the show never did so why should the dream?) Go to random fight scene, but because they hadn't eaten lunch, they didn't have the energy to fight. So Johnny pulls two giant (like car sized) sandwiches out of his backpack and he eats one and so does the dog. We get that cartoony effect where their stomachs are in the shape of the sandwich and then you see the inside of their stomachs and the sandwiches change into big laundry bags full of clothes. (13. WHAT? WHAT? Why did food change to clothing? What is the connection there?) The clothes for some reason gave them the energy to start fighting off the evil clones.

Okay, so then I became a character in the dream rather than just an observer, and there was a duplicate of ME wearing a black leather coat and sunglasses that proceeded to attack me. (14. Boo! Pick a plotline!). Then came the main reason I'm being so hard on this dream and breaking out the dream sins... Because when the duplicate me proceeded to jump and kick, I turned sideways to evade, but I also suddenly rolled sideways in waking life. Apparently my cat wasn't too happy about me suddenly rolling and waking up in my sleep because she flew about three feet into the air and made a yowl that woke up everyone on the house. (24. Dream causes problem in waking life. 10 sins for that.)

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I remember a lot of very distracting sounds and imagery as I was going back to sleep. (HH/HI when I wasn't even trying to WILD... ) I remember I kept hearing sounds like somebody was walking into my room. It was completely non-threatening but it still caused me to wake up because I thought it was someone coming into my room. There was a part where I was in SP and I couldn't move. I didn't freak out. I was just like "Oh, I'm in SP..." In fact it was almost because it was so non-threatening that I ignored it. If it had been a menacing presence, I would have done my darnedest to ignore it. But because I thought it was a parent or cat nosing the door open, I woke up. (25. HI doesn't resort to its usual grim reaper and monster with 8 heads and 12 necks routine when I'm actually prepared for it.)

At some point I began to get hold of a dreamlet where I was driving home from school. But as soon as I realized a dream was starting to form, I woke myself back up.

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I got a test back in my earth science class and saw that I had 89.5/100 points. I remember all of the tests were laid out on this big round curvy table. I remember someone (I think it was my dad) was carrying me around on their shoulders walking down the curvy table like it was a road and stepping on everyones tests. Someone was upset that their test now had a dirty footprint on it.

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I was drawing some rather... risque art in Photoshop. I remember a pair of breasts that I couldn't get to look right. The shading was always off no matter what I did. Don't remember what else was in the painting though.

Dream Sin Tally: 25
Sentance: Covered in Mud

I remember my dad had taken me to subway, and I was wishing he hadn't because he spent the entire drive home (20+ minutes) complaining about this mushroom flavored bread and was saying that it was good in a six inch but bad on a footlong because you would grow tired of the taste. I think my mom was in the car too and she tired to get him to stop complaining. The dream went on for a long while but was pants-poopingly boring.

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I was in the woods. (It felt like the woods behind my subdivision and it felt like it was.) I remember I kept picking up twigs and snapping them into little bits. I remember meeting this girl who wore a hijab. I was telling her about how me snapping sticks was a bad thing because it meant that I was too stressed to become properly lucid in my dream.

3...2...1...

NVM. I looked around and saw woods in every direction. I covered my eyes with my hands and told myself that when I re-opened them I would be on the beach. (I don't know why I tried this, my old-fashioned teleportation techniques almost never work.) But when I took my hands off of my head I was surprised to see that, although the woods in the immediate area was the same, I was now not far from the shore of a large lake, and across from the lake was my subdivision.

I ran towards the lake, and jumped when I reached the shore and kicked on my flying jets. I remember I sort of hovered there for a couple of seconds looking down at the water. I was hovering above it but my jets were causing the water to boil and creating a cloud of steam. Dream Logic told me that this was why so many of my dreams had fog in them. (Granted, this dream did meet the dream sign of it being overcast.) In fact, I think it was snowing. But the lake wasn't frozen.

I flew forwards towards my neighborhood. I remember I was flying very low over the water, and that was a problem because there was a large cinderblock wall. (Not there IWL, obviously. The lake isn't there IWL). I came within half a second of smacking face first into that thing before I managed to get flying to pull up higher than a few feet off the water. (Though it probably wouldn't have hurt me.) Internal logic told me that sometimes I can only fly below certain altitudes because my fire jets are pushing against the ground or water.

So I got over the wall and was now able to easily maneuver in every direction. I flew up, past my house and around. I made my way down the street. There was a school bus getting loaded up with kids. I remember thinking that I was probably dreaming of it because on Thursday, I was driving to college and got stuck behind a school bus. All the little kids were pretty impressed with my idea to shoot by on a column of fire.

It was then that it crossed me that I should do something other than just flying. I looked in the sky and saw the moon in the sky through a gap in the clouds. (The sky was weird, brighter than day, but darker than night, a sort of deep Indigo with a crescent moon directly above). I decided I should fly to the moon and try and land there without making a crater this time. I started flying towards it. I tried to get more power and only focus on the moon so that it would start getting bigger. But the moon didn't seem to be getting any closer. I then thought of the Task of the Month. I figured if I wasn't going to the moon, I could at least try that. I remembered that the goal was to create fire/ice in your hands. I looked down and saw that my feet were generating jets of flame, but my hands were not.

I did a 180 in the air and flipped around, creating flames in my hands and using those to propel me, essentially doing a handstand in the air. Just like with my feet, where my right side projects blue flame and my left projects orange, my hands apparently did the same thing. I then focused in on capturing the details. The flames didn't look all that spectacular, the colors seemed kind of washed out. (The whole dream had a color palate of blues and grays though.) But really projecting fire is nothing new to me. It has the sensation of sort of pushing your energy or chi down your arm and manifesting it as the flame, and you maybe feel a little heat on your hands or feet. I wondered why I was even bothering since march was almost over and there would be a new TOTM soon, but I could at least have wings for a couple days. Wings... Maybe that's a good TOTM for next time I thought to myself. Grow or Manifest wings in a dream.

Okay, but I want to do fire AND ice. I then focused on the right hand switching to projecting ice. The dream went third person as the blue flame changed into a puff of snowflakes, and with a jet of fire on only one hand I lost control and fell from the sky. Back to first person. I fell into the street head first. Thankfully the street cracked rather than my skull.

"Ass tits, not again!" (In retrospect that was a pretty stupid time to try and make ice.) Also why am I cursing 'not again'? This is the first time I've tried this. Something then fell off of the moon and would have landed on top of me if I hadn't rolled out of the way. It was a four-sided dice, with a circle, a five pointed star, a six-pointed star and a 12 pointed star on it. Marcus came over and was really excited because it was made of moon rocks and he wanted to study it.

Come to think of it, why do I always curse with 'Ass Tits' in Lucids? I should make it a dream goal to figure that one out...

The dream started with some boy who would always steal the pies that my mom left in the window. We drew the line when we caught the boy, (who was about middle school aged and wore an orange hoodie.) We drew the line when he stole a basketball from our front yard.

We (me and my mom) followed him back to his house and talked with his parents. He aged back to toddler-age and thew a tantrum. Anyways she offered us to sit down and have a drink and decided that since her son had been bad, he could get out of his punishment if he essentially waited on us for the afternoon to make up for his bad behavior. He brought us sodas.

We became friends with the family and they decided to let us take a trip on their boat. I remember this also had something to do with the fact that the neighborhood was flooded because of spring rain.

Someone mentioned that the current flowing out was because of the unusual amount of rain that we had this spring and that we could expect to see more currents in the flooded area, as well was waves that were as much as 15 feet tall. Sure enough at that moment, a huge wave came barreling towards us, rising, preparing to break right where I was. The boat disappeared and I was left standing knee deep in water.

I frantically threw my hand over my nose and started nose plugging but it took me a few seconds to recognize that I WAS breathing and therefore had the 'dreaming' result. Okay. I turned my attention to the wave. I put my hands out in front of me and slowly spread them apart. I said something like 'Wave Cancellation!'. The wave began to bend (The effect of this was really cool, I remember the wave was very realistic compared to the rest of the dream world), creating a large circular portal that would allow me to pass through the wave. Just when I stopped, this tiny water ball formed in the middle of the hole.

I heard a sound like water going down a drain but on much bigger. Sort of like *SHLOOOMP!* *gurgle* *BANG!* The water ball exploded into a new wave, three times the height of the original.

"Oh, ass tits" (very annoyed)

The wave passed over me and I was underwater. It had no affect on me except it caused the dream to begin to fade out. I remember focusing on the fact that I could still breathe and willing the dream to change to something else, but instead it just faded out.

I False Awakened. I was looking through Trick-or-Treat candy. I remember there was candy that had fun facts about 'Avatar the last airbender' printed on it somewhere. I was trying to find it, supposedly so I could perfect my Waterbending in LDs. I remember all of my trick-or-treat candy was M&Ms. Most of them had already been opened/eaten. I then remember trying to get the gunk out of my eyes and I had a dream gross out moment of giant wads of gunk in my eyes.

I remember being lucid and seeing what looked like ayers rock in Australia. Only in it were carved about a dozen screaming faces (like Mt. Rushmore) only the faces were abstract, distorted, and a little creepy. They sort of seemed to melt into one another, had big pits for eyes and I don't think they had noses. I think there were also two moons in the twilight sky.

I remember thinking to myself 'alright, but where is the rest of the lucid dream?' I noticed that I could still feel myself in a horizontal orientation in my bed, and that I was very close to waking up.

I know there were several awakenings, at 3:15, 5:00, and 6:30 before I got out of bed at about 7:30.

Maybe I was trying a little too hard last night

I'm going to make a few more audio recordings this morning. One of the things I need to focus on now that I seem to be lucid dreaming (heh, I'm basically lucid dreaming nightly, if you count bits like this). I just haven't posted because some dreams were sexy, personal or both. I guess the main goal now is to focus a little more on what I'm doing when I get lucid. I'm going to come up with three goals. (Since people supposedly remember things well in threes.) And here they are.

Goal #1: Manei, NO KIDS!

This cropped up the night before last night, and a couple times while I was gone. Read my previous DJ entry for info. The simple version of this is Manei, my DG is attempting to convince me that it would be fun to explore a future timeline where we have kids. Now I've put up with a lot of the romantic BS (and even enjoyed some of it) but I'm drawing the line here. I can think of many reasons why this is a terrible idea, but what is basically boils down to is the fact that the reality would be awkward, entail too much responsibility for a dream world that is supposed to be about freedom and exploration, and serve no purpose. I'm 20 years old, have no WL partner at the moment and while I might get married in the future, I do not want to ever start a family. I don't see what benefit I could gain from this dream.

I tried to convince myself she wasn't gonna play evasive and would just listen to what I had to say. In general, she's been evasive, annoying, and not nearly as reliable and understanding as she used to be. I used to appreciate her straightforward attitude, but she seems to have lost it. What really annoys me is she won't even afford me the opportunity to express my side of the story with dignity, because she knows I'm opposed to it.

The ultimatum is that we could perhaps explore this timeline in a couple more years, but it's not something I'm ready for right now.

Manei has also lost her profile picture privilege until she cuts the BS and lets me talk to her about what really matters.

Goal #2: Mind Hacking to drop a bad habit

I came up with this goal forever ago, and still haven't gotten around to it. I have a bad habit of biting my fingers and wanted to try using lucid dreaming to break it, since willpower based efforts in waking life never seem to cut it. How exactly I would go about this is uncertain. I might try manifesting a personification of the bad habit and conversing with him/her about how I might break the habit.

Goal #3: Elemental Mastery

This one is even more straightforward. But it's lowest on my list of priorities. My dreams have always held a heavy association with Avatar and the bending arts in it. I would like to master all four elements. Back when Manei was a little more useful, she gave me some pointers on water, so I'm pretty proficient at it. I pretty much figured out Fire on my own and use it for flying more than fighting. (In fact, I have some trouble with using it for fighting, so maybe practice that). I've hardly explored earth and air.

I forget what order these came in.

I remember I was laying on a table/bed/stretcher type thing, in a monestary. There were several monks all around me. I remember seeing my body in third person, being stitched together from body parts from various people. I remember I was observing from inside of a large quartz crystal that the monks had transferred my soul into. The monks were saying they needed to unifiy all of these parts sot that nobody would know who I really was, and lit some candles and started doing some ritual...

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I was with Robin and Starfire (who looked just like they did in the original Teen Titans, always interesting to see 2D animated characters superimposed over a 3D animated world), Green Lantern, and Batman, but they actually looked 'realistic', or as realistic as superheroes can look anyway. There was some talk between Batman and Robin about how Superman had become evil and been locked in an inter-dimensional prison. They figured he would come to his senses after awhile, but he hadn't, and they needed him to save the world from lex luthor or something.

I remember Batman hatched a plan to wrap up Superman in a giant American flag, since he was probably still good at heart and he wouldn't dare disgrace the American flag. So Green lantern and Starfire flew in carrying the big flag while Batman and Robin rode next to them. They entered the inter-dimensional prison that was this weird alternate world.

Basically all it was was an open sky with one large sun directly above. There was a cloud layer below us and floating stone/concrete rectangular prisms of various sizes. For whatever reason they were neutrally buoyant in the air. We saw Superman kneeling on one of these, he heard us coming and jumped up. He said something about not wanting to go back, then lashed out at us and attacked. Green Lantern made a shield. Batman and robin attacked in the batwing but he shot them down immediately with his heat vision.

Superman wound up beating all of the other heroes. As he did, of course I manifested into first person from a simply observational perspective. (Great, good timing...) and he started coming after me. I started hovering, and used earthbending to send the stone cubes flying at him. He cut through them with his heat vision. I blocked his attack with my dreamcatcher shield, I think. My defense might have failed because dreamcatcher shield only works on evil entities.

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Just as the battle was starting the dream shifted on a dime. I found myself in an apartment or hotel room, about six stories up. I remember looking out my window to see that it was mostly blocked by the top of one of those fan shaped palm trees, that was really bright green, but I could see a parking lot. Opposite the parking lot was some mangrove and palm trees, followed by a beach. On the horizon was a huge planet rising over the sea. (Smack Smack Smack like 4 dream signs right there) But I think it was the sudden change in environment that made me actually become fully lucid.

I remember I jumped out of the window and glided down. The dream seemed amazingly vivid and stable, but I remember losing it almost immediately after I landed in the parking lot.

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Now I can't remember if this part of the dream came before or after the previous portion. It seems more logical that it would come after, but it feels like it came before.

I just remember that Manei and I were in a fairly clear dream and we were going to the beach together. The beach was in a bay near this medium sized town on a tropical island. We came down off the boardwalk onto the beach, but we agreed that we didn't like it because it was too crowded. There were some guys who had brought a ghetto blaster and were dancing and we didn't like the music either.

Spoiler for Language:

I'm fairly certain the lyrics that played were "Fuck, Fuck, Fuck a Pop-Tart, yeah!" to some sort of rap beat.

We decided to keep walking until we found a less crowded section of beach. We walked for awhile and found a spot near the lighthouse that was pretty much empty. We put down our towel and started getting settled when the water receded and a big tsunami started coming in. Someone was narrating about how the tides from the big planet in the sky caused tidal waves. (Think that was Marcus)

"Who left that planet there!?" I shouted.

I remember we started running away. Manei said something about getting the kids. I got ticked at her at this point, I already made a point how there shouldn't be kid characters (ours or otherwise) because when dangerous things like evil (Supermans? Supermens?) or fifty foot waves show up. (And they do, very often around here) we do not need to put anyone else at risk. I started stake-running but realized Manei couldn't keep up if I did that. (Why doesn't she have any powers, and if she does, why doesn't she use them?) Then she just ran off in another direction to go to a building and get the kids, supposedly.

We ran into the city and the wave was catching up quick. I remember turning and facing it. No way I can Waterbend something that big, the wave was like 50 feet high. I tired to freeze it but only froze a small portion. As the wave came around the frozen part, more of it froze, and by the time it had passed there was an ice bubble around me. So I was trapped underwater in the middle of the street in a cold dark ice bubble. I stopped 'holding it up' with my waterbending and the moment I did it crushed in. My body died and I floated up as an observer/soul.

I saw Manei on the rooftop of one of the buildings that was above the water with the kids. I remember thinking form observer mode (and I think that she could hear me) telling her why this setup was terrible. Stuff is always going to be trying to kill us, we don't need to drag more DCs into that. I feel like I said something like 'Think of how useful kid characters are in disaster movies!'

She said that this dream was created by her and was supposed to be a test for me about the possibility of this setup becoming permanent, but by setting the dream to have this plot, all she was doing was proving my point. It's dangerous and makes things harder than they have to be.

The dream got a game over screen and went to black. I could hear Marcus' voice.

"This is where the conflict of interest arises. Are you a sigma binary or a bierrenous (I don't think that's a word, Marcus) binary. You must decide to proceed.

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I remember very vaguely being in a house. I recognized the house as that of this boy I used to babysit, except everything in the house was white. Some kind of piano music started playing in the background. A boy (not the one I used to babysit at this house) came out of the closet wearing a white karate uniform. He was laughing and running around.

Then Manei appeared as a very young girl. She screamed. I couldn't tell if it was a happy scream or a fearful scream at first. The boy chased her around a bit and at first I thought they were just playing but the boy pushed Manei down the basement stairs. I couldn't see her at first as it was the only area in the house that was dark, but I moved down to where she was and found her at the bottom crying. I remember thinking that the dream was just 'trying to play it scary'.

Big ol' Dump o' dreams from the last couple nights.

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I was in the simpsons. Literally in the TV show. I remember there was an episode centering around Homer and (what was the wife's name in the simpsons, Marge? I forget. I have never watched a single episode of the Simpsons in my life. Part of the reason that it is so weird that I would be dreaming of them at all.) getting a new car. The new car had this 1950's Raygun Gothic aesthetic to it, and was supposedly nuclear powered like the curiosity rover. It had an RTG under the front hood.

Honestly this seems like a terrible idea. I remember the dream had some filler bits having to do with (Uhh Bart. The boy kid?) and I was him and I had to put on a presentation at school on nuclear power and safety or something, and Bart's school was my old middle school. But eventually what ended up happening was the nuclear car rolled down a long hill when it was parked in this city area and hit a tree causing the Uranium in the RTG to bang together essentially creating a miniature nuclear bomb. The car exploded and Homer and Bart thought it was cool and shouted 'Agian! Agian!' like idiots.

...

I feel like there was also this weird sexual bit about Bart that I have forgotten. Whatever it was about, it's probably for the best it remains forgotten.

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I remember I was at the other middle school, across town from mine. (An... Interesting change of setting to say the least) and I was practicing for a performance. (The only reason I know anything about the interior of the middle school was when I was very young, I took Karate there for a couple of months. But I got thrown out of the Karate group after I snuck away from class and wandered around the middle school for half the night before my parents and the cops found me.) I was Semi-Lucid too.

This was a dream that I have been planning for almost a year now, but never got around to manifesting because of other things getting in the way. (Of course I wouldn't be properly lucid to enjoy it, so this still exists a goal for me to complete in the world of being fully lucid.) I always remembered how there were a couple of dreams (Very close together, about a week) where I saw Manei with some of the girls from her tribe were doing various dance performances, including some with torches. Very beautiful and entertaining to watch.

But why stop there? I wanted Manei to teach me how to do this so I can be a part of that performance.

Apparently that's what was happening in this dream. But I was doing it by 'Being' Manei. I don't see how this was happening but I was controlling her physical body. (This somehow made the learning process much easier.) I was supposed to practice doing a one handed handstand as this was part of the dance preformance. I was doing it on the stage of the middle school.

I then remember two boys (Who looked like Jack and Jon because who else) came and tried to pull the mats out from under us while we kept our balance on one hand. We were supposedly being tested by the other girls that were there and I don't know if these boys were a part of the test or not. But they sure were making it difficult to hold a handstand.

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I then remember I was home and my deceased grandmother was there. She looked like a zombie this time. her nose was missing and she looked decayed but it didn't frighten me. She said that she was happy with how I was growing and changing, but thought that I looked ugly. I remember then looking in the mirror. I was my female dream self, but I was much taller, like Manei. I remember thinking that my body and face shape looked more similar to hers than my usual dream self. It was like being this weird fusion of the two of us.

I said something like "Dang, I look good." I then remember she said she thought I looked bad. I thought about mentioning that it looked like her nose was missing and she was old and wrinkly, but that could come off as an insult. Whatever, looks aren't important. We kept talking for another minute or two, but I forgot what about.

There were a couple of other family members there as well. I think that the 'missing sister' dream character might have been involved.

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I remember I was on a beach. (Haven't had this dream in awhile.) It was cloudy and the weather seemed rather turbulent and big waves kept blowing in from the ocean. Of course this cacophony of dream signs made me lucid. I thought about stabilizing the dream, and sat down in the sand and started making mud pies. This was supposedly my method of dream stabilization, as I focused on how the sand felt in my fingers and how it reacted. I could hear every detail. Every wave crashing against the shore, every gust of wind rustle the palm fronds. The dream was ultra stable, and I could tell. My mud pies and what not that I was making were persistent, even if I looked away form them for several seconds.

I began to get really comfortable, feeling like I was a kid again. I made a classic pathetic sand castle, just a crappy patted down mound of sand with one little twig (I think it was a piece of bamboo) sticking out of the top. In a weird way, this was it. This was the reason that I had first started lucid dreaming. To just be alone, so I could be myself and not have anybody bother me.

Manei appeared and I was immediately snapped out of my trance. She was just standing there looking at me a little ways down the beach. I looked up at her, and just decided to ignore her and go back to what I was doing. (I also remember her hair was blowing in the wind, the breeze coming off of the sea, putting it at almost a 90 degree angle to her. This was very significant somehow) I looked up again and she had slendermanned her way closer.

I think I politely asked her to leave, but she said that she wouldn't judge me for doing whatever I wanted.

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I remember something to do with going over to my old friends' moms' house. (My mom is friends with my old friends' mom.) She gave us three black puppies. I remember me and my dad's puppies were normal sized for puppies but my mom's was very small like the size of a mouse because it was a runt and it had some health issues.

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I remember A dream that had something to do with 'Inside Out'.

I had remembered meeting all of the different emotion characters that I had in my head. I remember the character that the story I was in was actually Fear. There were some differences from my mind and the movie. I remember the emotions could all leave the 'Headquarters' tower on a special tram and did so regularly during the night.

This had something to do with the fact that I was a lucid dreamer, and since the five emotions would go to a secondary headquarters to be my 'lucid mind' when it was time to lucid dream.

My Mind was apparently also structured differently than the one in in the movie. There were still islands of personality and long term memory, but they were in a sense, one and the same. Each island of personality was also a memory matrix (instead of a single core memory) that held all of the memories pertaining to that particular aspect of my personality. The islands of personality were also more like towers, floating above a vast, cloudy abyss, very vertically oriented and strung together by cables and tubes.

I remember there were five major islands that were particularly important that outlined my personality. One of them had to do with astronomy. (The island/tower was like a huge rocket launch pad with something akin to a Saturn 5 on it) I think it had a telescope as well. There was one for Taekwondo, one for my love of art, one to represent my attitude (being straightforward and blunt most of the time) I think the fifth Island was where lucid dreams came from and was supposed to be very special.

...

I remember the five emotion characters could fuse to become me and that was what allowed me to exist in this realm. (Actually, I think there was a sixth emotion character, an orange one. I forgot what emotion he represented. I do remember he had like a monk robe and was rather tall and quite large.) He was also mute.

Fear wouldn't fuse with me because she (My fear emotion was female) was the underappreciated/suppressed emotion. (Much like sadness was in the original Inside Out.) There was some sort of major problem with Fear as she was turning grey and 'dying'. The story had something to do with the fact that I was suppressing too many emotions. Neither the fear emotion or the orange one could fuse when I became myself because I didn't properly recognize them.

Manei also existed in this world. I think she existed in a way very similar to Bing Bong did in the original inside out. Except that she was a total bad@$$ around here.

The fear emotion kept trying to convince everyone that there was some outside intruder attempting to come into my mind but nobody else was listening.

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At some point there was some kind of error and Fearful memories were still being produced, but they were blank. I remember them being translucent purple and there were a lot of them, thousands. And the machine kept spitting more and more of them. Someone said to put them in the memory dump. The memory dump was mostly empty and full of junk other than memory balls.

The fear character was convinced this was the result of the intruder wreaking havoc, and that the inturder would soon arrive to finish them off.

I have a terrible head cold now that I am writing this, so this isn't funny.

...

So the intruder had arrived. I remember this huge white angular flying missile cruiser entered through a portal in the sky, floating above the memory area. It opened fire on one of the smaller personality islands, bringing it down in a single barrage, sending thousands of memory balls falling into the dump. The cruiser continued shooting and destroying memory shelves. I remember I flew on my jets of flame and faced the front of the cruiser. I shouted 'Hey, what's the big idea?!' or something. Then the cruiser stopped, it turned and shot me. This caused me to split apart into my emotion characters again.

Geeze 'Inside Out' isn't supposed to be an action movie.

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I was visiting a nature park with my family. The nature park was supposed to be in a large ancient impact crater caused by a meteor. The ranger station was on the small mountain in the middle of the crater. I remember they had a pool complex that kids were playing in and swimming, and a small hotel.

My dad was taking pictures and my mom was buying stuff from the gift shop. I was reading a sign that said that there are caves in the park. It said that the average cave in the park was 2.1M tall by 2.1M wide by 120 m deep. These caves are formed by glaciers and please do not make loud noises in them as this can cause cave-ins.

A DJ character showed up and started playing some unusual dreamlike music. I started to become lucid but woke up.

My sleep schedule was messed up last night. I fell asleep around 5:30, woke up at 9:00. Did homework and watched youtube videos until about 1:45, then went back to bed and woke up at 6:00. I did not expect to get lucid. I didn't even expect to have any dream recall.

I vaguely remember from my 'first sleep' that had something to do with me staying over at my grandparents' house. They had shelves upon shelves of food because they were preparing for the end of the world. I then remember somebody broke into their house and started stealing all the food. They were really mad.

...

I remember I was living in a city/urban area. (Just row upon row of identical gray tenement buildings. I remember most of the buildings had lots of green plants on them. Ivy and vines, trees growing on the roofs and stuff. That's a dream sign.) I would ride my bike to college/work everyday. It was pretty crowded, but I was navigating the crowd pretty quickly. I could ride in the street. There were designated bike lanes and very few cars.

These two malevolent teenagers approached me and tried to block my path. I went into the street to go around them, and they started chasing after me. I remember they were grabbing at my backpack and trying to take things from it. I told them to stop or they we're going to get it. They just gave me a cruel smile and didn't say anything back.

I remember they chased me for a quite a few blocks. Eventually I came across this construction site that I rode into. I remember there was this scaffolding with ramps that I could ride up. At one point, I even rode my bike across a very thin board that would have been hard to walk across. I started riding my bike across rooftops and such (because dream) and got cornered by them in this clock tower type building. I got off my bike and warned them again. They just approached me with that same smile. It seemed like they were older now, not teenagers, but full blown adults. (I also remember one of them was a black guy now, when he hadn't been that way before.)

Nature Show Guy: And here we see the JadeGreen, scientific name Jadus Oneironoughtus in its natural habitat. It is generally a peaceful creature, but if given no other option, it will attack.

I remember I fought one of the guys by twisting his arm and flipping him over my shoulder into a pile of wooden boxes. He got two black eyes and went unconscious. The other guy phoned his friends telling him to send more guys. I grabbed his arm and made him drop his phone and break it. I then kicked him a couple times and made him fall off a platform. That put him unconscious...

I was worried that I might have seriously hurt the guys, but I saw that they were just knocked out. Four other punks (three male, one female) approached the tower. The leader said that he was sorry his boys had 'acted out' again and he would pay me to have them back. (Woo! Free money.) He wanted me to feel comfortable with the exchange so he told me to meet him downstairs in the subway restaurant.

We met down there. He was actually really nervous around me. He asked me for [the name of one of his guys] and for some reason I handed him a small envelope. He opened it, and turned it upside down and the guy fell out. He gave me a check. I handed him the second envelope and the other guy fell out. They poured cold soda on the guys and that made them come back from being unconscious. The gang leader guy apologized again and bought me a sandwich. (suck up).

I remember my sub sandwich was very weird because all of the meatballs were stuck together. (So it was more like a meatloaf sandwich.) For some reason this really grossed me out. I became lucid and the dream shifted.

...

I was back in my neighborhood, and amazingly lucid. Flying time. (I did promise myself that the first thing I would do when I got some really good lucidity again was go out and fly.) The thing that I thought was the most weird was the fact that the season was actually correct to what the weather is like now.

I took off using my usual method of forcing myself up on jets of flame. I remember the jets of flame and sound effects looked and sounded like the rockets in KSP. (Weird, haven't played that game in awhile. Waiting for the new version to come out.) It took off. Flying was sluggish at first. I said 'faster' but wasn't going much faster. I then yelled 'COME ON!', but not in a really angry way, more of a sort of aggressive 'Let's do it' kind of way. The dream responded well to this and an appropriate flying speed came. I remember I flew very close to the side of a house, within a couple of inches, while moving at about 70km/hr.

I then did a couple of 'barrel rolls' while flying down over the street. Dream spinning never seems to work for me. (Usually not changing the environment.) But the upside is that I can get away with flying stunts all I want and not lose the dream. I thought about that in a dream. I then remember intentionally flying head on into an oversized fire hydrant. (Was about 8 feet tall) just to see what it would feel like. I felt almost nothing but stopped abruptly. (Yeah just like last time) Even though it showed the crash from third person and it looked really painful and made a cartoony 'clang' sound effect.

I took off and started flying again, heading away from my subdivision to see if I could enter a dream-original environment. The trees had gnarled into loops and corridors making for a challenging but very fun flying course. At some point I flew through a treehouse. (In one window, out the other). I then decided that I wanted to head back to my neighborhood to see if I could do some summoning.

I remembered my quick reverse technique for flying that I used to use. Do a (summersalt? somersalt?) in mid air and blast fire jets the other way. Much faster than a slow banking turn. I turned back to the neighborhood. I flew up high over it, getting the whole thing in view and noticing that it was outright deserted. I decided to try summoning at the house of my old crush from way back when. I came in close and saw a big black lab in their front yard.

'That's Familiar' I thought to myself. (Though this time it was big, but still realistically sized for a dog. Not like last time where the dog was seven feet tall.) But the dog was barking at me and growling viciously. Two other dogs came out and started barking too. One of them was a very small poodle or something, and the other one was I think a doberman, kind of skinny ish... Shouted 'NO' at the dog and told him to stop barking, but he didn't listen. I was reluctant to land for the dream journeying into dog attack nightmare territory. But I landed anyway. Luckily all of the dogs just wanted to give me kisses instead.

The dream started to fade out. I remember realizing that I wasn't wearing any pants or underwear, just a tank top. I thought I could manifest them fairly easily, but that it was too late in the dream to matter. I then remember (as visuals went out) hearing an unrelated friend of mine ask why I was on his lawn wearing only a shirt.

I was at a game store with S and C. The person at the store was driving a hard sell at us about this new game that had just hit the shelves. It was a game that was really popular in Japan. In the game, you would drive around these miniature robots. (About the size of small RC cars). But the robots had weapons with real ammunition and could have battles, but on a very small scale. For example, one of the maps in the game was the living room of the house.

Slowly, (Because Dream) this became the reality of the situation. I was standing outside of an abandoned house, with a controller and driving a miniature robot around in a battle. There were other people with controllers too. The battle was taking place outdoors. I remember my robot got destroyed by one of these little quad-copter bots that dropped little bombs all around it that blew up. Then, someone on my team accused the guy who had just killed me of screen-cheating and looking at my controller. The two started fighting but I didn't care because it was just a game.

I waited for a respawn, but then remembered that this was 'real life'. I turned around and asked the other guys what I should do. But they were gone. This big moose/elk (I don't know what kind of animal it was, I don't think the dream even knew) came out of the woods and started charging at me. I started running away from it, but I wasn't looking where I was going and fell into a river. (Man, non-lucidity makes you clumsy) I tried to swim away but it followed me into the water.

The animal tried to swim after me. It seemed to be catching up to me in the water but once it was like two or three feet away it started thrashing around so much trying to gore me with its antlers that the currents it made in the water pushed me away from it just enough for me to not be hit. The animal continued to do this all the way across the river. I stopped being scared at this point because I realized that the the currents would keep pushing me out of the way. When I got to the opposite bank (I was now in a location that was very similar to the park near my subdivision, but it had a big river in it.) I started running again, but I was more lucid now.

The animal got out of the water and but stopped chasing me. It stood up on its hind legs and made this roaring/screeching sound. I remember it had sharp teeth.

Spoiler for Language:

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! That's actually a wendigo isn't it...?

I remember Manei appeared wearing a cowgirl outfit and then threw a rope around its neck and tied it to a tree. I became lucid when I saw her. (Since I've been reminding myself obsessively that dream guides don't exist in real life.) I said something about her saving me for a change and how I actually really appreciate it. The beast was still tied to a tree and still trying to get me. I think it turned into a person.

...

The dream transitioned to a pool. She said something about a her bathing suit (That was black by the way, weird because I thought she hated black). She then said that she got her braces off and gave me this big stupid smile. The dream focused in on the detail of her teeth. She was missing one on the bottom right. (Also, weirdly enough, I've seen that same big smile before and she never had braces.) Inconsistency!

I woke up before we could do anything because the stray cat in the neighborhood decided to have a fight with my cat. I know I attempted two WBTBs, one at 4:00, (After the cat woke me up), and one at 6:00 (Natural awakening). I think there was some fragments, but they got lost by the time I made it downstairs to my laptop.

Maka Albarn and Sailor Moon were fighting. Sailor moon had this powerup mode where she wore a long black dress with these tentacle like things coming off it it. Maka did soul resonance. I never saw the outcome of the fight.

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I remember I was on an alien desert planet, with Simon from Gurren Lagann and Rei from Star Wars. We were mourning the death of someone before heading off on a great adventure in space. The planet was pretty cool looking, the desert looked something like the American southwest with the mesas and buttes, but there were huge bluish-green crystals jutting out of the ground in a couple places. There was also a futuristic city off in the distance.

We then got onto this spaceship to start our journey. I remember the spaceship was just like a platform you stood on that projected a field around it causing you to feel no acceleration and trapping the atmosphere around the spacecraft.

I remember we turned our spacecraft and saw an entire galaxy in the twilight sky. This was probably one of the best 'pretty galactic dream skies' that I have yet seen. We started flying off up out of the atmosphere towards it. We flew through some clouds that I remember looked more and more like clouds of snowflakes as we moved through them.

Then the characters were replaced with my parents. My mom said something about how pretty the snow was. She then opened her mouth and caught a snowflake but went 'bleh' because she thought that it tasted bad. She then pulled it out and showed it to me that it was made of soemthing like cotton and all covered in her saliva. She then steered our spacecraft down twoards the ground, and I saw that we were back on earth, right above our subdivision.

Okay, dream was doing pretty good job up until it replaced the fantasy setting with home and the cool characters with my parents, who may be fine people in WL but are generally quite annoying in dreams. Aside from lucidity, it pretty much only gets worse.

We landed. There were some DCs in our backyard who were making a bonfire or something. I remember they were moving branches around and throwing them into the fire pit but they hadn't actually lit the fire. I remember I became lucid as we were walking up the side of the house to the front door. I tried to fly, but flying didn't work. I tried fire projection from my hand and saw that nothing was happening.

I remember thinking to myself that the reason my powers didn't work was there were no more fantasy elements in the dream. If the dream is too grounded, too close to reality, then my powers won't work because it seems more like I'm just actually awake. (I don't know if this actually applies or not, there was one fantastical element to this scene, the sky was green and orange.)

I tried to dream spin but I felt it lose the dream's clarity too much and could feel my waking body back in bed.

Okay, maybe I can manifest Manei. I haven't done this in awhile, but she's the epitome of a fantasy/dream element being my dream guide, she can fix my powers. (That and maybe I can talk to her about dialing back the romance fantasy a little and actually doing our proper jobs agian... )

"Manei, Kuansen Axio Sosumblue" I said, with the intention of having her appear when I opened the front door of my house. No luck when I did though.

I looked around calling her name a few more times. Nuh uhn.

"Okay, fine then, don't show up when it's actually time to go to work."

I guess that snark was too much, cause I lost lucidity after that. Some people from the government showed up at our door. The asked if my parents were home. I told them I was over 18 and could help them. They came in and said that they were distributing day planners that would allow the citizens of the USA to become more efficient, productive citizens.

I remember they came inside. The inside of our house had changed to this very large (it looked like the inside of a haunted mansion, but we had a big fireplace with a fire going inside of it) There was all of this other fancy furniture that I didn't remember us having.

We sat in the dining room. In WL, the dining room is in the corner of our house, but in dream the house was expanded and there were doors to it on all four sides leading to extra rooms that I did not explore.

They had two versions. One had a bunch of pre listed life improvement activities, like 'eat healthy day', 'go to Library', and 'go for a run' on random days, and written in different random handwriting. The other was blank like a normal day planner. I told them that if they were free, we would just take the normal ones because the extra activities would just drag down our already busy schedules. They really tried to sell the already written in one but I insisted on a clean one.

It turned out to be some kind of scam. The people were not from the government. Plus they were out of stock of the clean day planners. Apparently what had happened was they had one set of planners printed, then sold them to people. At the end of the year, when people threw them away, they would dig them out of the trash and sell them to someone else as an enhanced life planner. After a few years they were so full of activities 'suggested' by other people, that nobody put in their own activities.

Though I want to know what poor chump put 'ESSAY DUE' in bold capital letters taking up the entire space for Sunday. I told the people to get out of the house and and not come back otherwise I would call the cops.

I remember I went to some prestigious school in another town. The first thing that I remember was I was walking too school when I met with this older dream character, who for the sake of plot, we can call Bob. Bob was alot like me personality-wise but about 40 years old.

I remember the school was having this 'rocket science' month where we the school was getting paid by the government to design and build a base on mars. All of the students were given laptops and computer graphics software and asked to submit their best design for a grade that determined if you would pass to the next year or something.

I met bob while walking to school. He said that he had found a whole bunch of these model rockets that the school had just thrown out from the start of the month. Bob told me that he had gone to the same school as a kid but had been thrown out for stealing.

The story went that years ago the school had had a very similar competition for building a moon base. Bob had finished his design, (that was perfect in every way) but a bully (who's design had some flaws) stole his laptop and got rid of her own. Because she was the daughter of the mayor, nobody believed she could do anything bad, and When Bob tried to steal it back, he got caught 'stealing' her laptop (because all of the laptops the school gave us were identical), because the bully was the mayor's daughter, nobody believed she could do anything wrong. Because of this he worked this lousy job for the mayor where he was essentially doing community service forever.

We lit one of them off and it shot into the air. The mayor came out of town hall and yelled at Bob, but then went back in. The rocket had a little parachute and floated back down to the ground. Bob picked it up and told me that I'd better hurry lest I be late for school.

I walked another block or two. Just like you would expect there were more bullies. (Three of them, the alpha bully, the big fat kid, and the small skinny kid.) I remember I tried to fight back but could not. They took my laptop and all of my textbooks, and then all ran off in different directions. I became semi lucid here and chased after the small skinny kid with my laptop who I caught. (Now of course all of these kids had parents who were important in town. The big kid was son of the mayor. The alpha bully was son of the principal. And this kids dad was the sheriff.) When I finally caught him we had arrived at school, he said that he had been bullied into being a bully and he wanted to help me. (And gave back my computer.)

I told him that I had some ideas but I wanted him to stay out of it.

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The next morning, I took a can of spray paint and went into the school's parking lot, and spray painted... a very manly masterpeice... onto the car of the principal. (Bonus points, she had like a really fancy sports car). The school had at this point been exchanged with my own middle school.

I went inside the school and found 'alpha bully's' locker. (Hardly anybody had showed up yet. If I remember correctly the only reason the school was open was that the swimming team would meet before first class.). I don't remember exactly how I got his locker open. I think I just listened for the tumblers with some kind of audio enhancing device that I had invented myself. But right when I did, someone came around the corner. It was one of the girls on the swim team. I did a 'one finger over lips be quiet' thing and she did one back. (Okay, she was on my side, not sure why.) And proceeded to plant the spray paint in his locker.

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In third period all of the bully characters sat next to me. The classroom looked exactly like my 6th grade English classroom except the teacher was really old and mean. The alpha bully kid looked really nervous. Only the big kid was missing. Then someone pulled the fire alarm. I knew almost instantly it was the big kid.

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My suspicion was confirmed. The alpha bully found out he had been framed, and panicked so he tricked the big kid into pulling the fire alarm in hopes that in the confusion, he could get off free. (He didn't). He was getting arrested by the police and struggling to get free. The big kid was getting arrested for pulling the alarm too. Then big bully pulled out a knife and tried to attack the bully for tricking him but the police tazed him. Bob showed up and asked me what was going on. I told him that I would explain later. We walked away from the scene, up on a hill above the school.

Then to our surprise this spacecraft (that looked like a moon lander) landed next to us, and the people from the space agency got out. They saw all of the police and what not (there were a LOT of police now) and asked what was going on. I skipped the details and told them that the pressure on middle schoolers to competitively design a mars base was too much, and some hyjinx had occurred because of it. It was then revealed that the school had been duped. Apparently they weren't using our designs to build moon/mars bases at all and it was all part of an experiment they were doing to see how to make a more cooperative environment at the space agency.

Bob was ticked. He stole their spaceship and flew away in it. That's the last thing I remember.

A way to make documenting your NLDs funny is to play it like the Youtube Channel, CinemaSins. I usually get a lot more than 10 depending upon my recall and just how I'm feeling. (I had one Nonlucid dream get 106 sins)

I was walking at night with my mom. It was summertime instead of winter. (1- Seasonal Dissonance doesn’t get me lucid.) Where I found a bow and a quiver of arrows. I remember it was fairly basic looking. The bow was just made out of a really tough textured black plastic with a string and the arrows were aluminum. We didn’t know who left them there or why, but we decided to pick them up and take some pot shots at logs and stuff. (2- Someone left a dangerous weapon sitting around and that is bad safety protocol.) I asked her if she knew who the bow and arrows belonged too and she said that it didn’t matter, they were ours now. (3- Mom condones what is basically stealing.)

At one point I shot one of the arrows into the water (the lake behind my house) and could not get it out. I thought about using the bow to extend my reach without having to step into the water, but I thought that it might be bad for the bow to do that and I didn’t want to get yelled at by anyone. This led to a few awkward dreamlike minutes of me trying to get the arrow out of the water without getting wet.

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I remember the dream fast forwarded a number of years where I was a superhero like Hawkeye or Green Arrow. (4- Great, I get to be the non-superpowered one with a bow and arrow on a superpowered team) Except my superhero code name was ‘The Crystal Archer’. (3- Okay, that name actually sounds like it would fit me rather well) I remember I had different arrow types custom made each one with a different mineral on the tip. Each arrow was ascending Mohs scale of hardness and the ten minerals in it. The tougher the guy that I was fighting, the harder the mineral on the end of my arrow that I would use. (4-Dream implies that I am carrying around several arrows with Talc tips. Seriously that stuff like crumbles in your hands, what is even the point?) (5-Diamond tipped arrow. Programmers at Minecraft, get on that.)

There was some battle taking place in a town on a tropical island while a volcano was erupting and there was a huge flying battleship up in the sky fighting an alien mothership. (6- Tropical island is a dream sign and I didn’t get lucid.) (7- Flying Space Battleship is a dream sign and I didn’t get lucid.) (8- Alien invasion is a dream sign and I didn’t get lucid) (Also, I think there was a huge saturn planet in the sky) (9-Planets in the sky area dream sign and I didn’t get lucid.) I was in a small town. There were some kind of alien monsters everywhere that the military was fighting, along with the other superheroes. I remember I climbed up onto the roof of this partially collapsed buildings and started shooting the aliens

I also remember I had really weird hair. My hair was dyed black on one side and blonde on the other and was worn down really long and straight. Since (IRL) my hair is brown, and the dye needed touch up I had a black side and a blonde side with a brown stripe down the middle. (10- What is my dreams' obsession with weird hairstyles?)

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Some supernatural event happened. This spurred my mom to tell me that I was actually born from twins and had a sister that had died at birth. (11- Dead/Missing Twin sister I have never met dream agian. This dream is so weird.)

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I had forgotten to go to my Taekwondo studio to teach the white belt class. (As I usually have to do on Fridays.) I figured my Taekwondo master wouldn’t care.

DREAM SIN TALLY: 11

SENTANCE: READ LDS I HAD WHILE I WAS GONE.

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I remember I was a king (or I think a prince) of a kingdom on a far off planet. I was also semi-aware that I was a character in a story, and I was playing my part for the purposes of making a good film. I remember the dream started with my dad going into the hospital. (The hospital was a large underground multi-level room in our very castle) I remember there was a reception area was in the bottom then around that there were three or four levels of doors with rooms where all the hospital rooms are.

I think he was on the top floor, last room. I was with my 'dad' during a routine checkup. The room was dark when someone threw a smoke bomb into the room. I ran outside coughing and heard a gunshot, then heard glass breaking, and saw someone big in a hoodie and baggy pants run off. I went back in. All of the doctors were knocked out. My dad was dead with a gunshot wound through his chest and his middle finger on his right hand had been cut off.

...

I forgot what happened, but the next thing I knew, somebody had turned the leader of the guards on me because I had been framed for the murder. He shot many arrows at me missed. I was still semi lucid to the point where I was basically a ninja, doing flips and running on walls to avoid his attacks.

I remember the guard leader was alone. I remember he had some kind of Nordic name. (Ygradssdil or something?) He was this huge stocky guy with a long black beard and he rode around rather comically on
this tiny alien boar creature that was about 1/4 his size. I remember he chased me up the side of the castle shooting arrows at me. I remember then the 'doctor guards' came after me. These tall skinny men in surgery attire with giant scruples. I remember two of them tried to blockade the door on the roof but I did the splits and kicked both of them, and took one of the giant scalpels.

I eventually managed to shake my pursuers by going into the hospital room. I remember I was hiding on the ceiling. Then in a rush, I jumped down, ran across the huge open room and climbed up the levels to the room where my dad was. I kicked down the door and saw that his body was still in there, not decomposed. But it looked like the room had been left empty for years.

I remember I heard guards behind me, and I was upset because I didn't find any answers to who killed my father. But then someone told them to turn around. It was this guy who looked and sounded like Nick Valentine from Fallout 4. He said that he was here to help me investigate who killed my father. He told me that he was framed too, somebody planted the severed finger on him.

He then took me outside, and took the golden ring that was on my father's finger out of his pocket. He told me that he had analyzed it and discovered that it was not real gold, but rather some other mineral that could only be found on. (He looked down through the alignment of moons orbiting a large saturn-like planet in the night sky.) That one. (Pointed to one of them). The theives of the fifth moon. They seek out this substitute gold stuff wherever it can be found and try to take it back to the planet that they live on where it is mined.

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I remember there was one more scene that was supposed to be an emotional moment for my character where I gave up. I was kneeling on a frozen lake and pretending to be very upset about the death of my father and having given up, because that was what was in the script. (In fact, at this point I think I had figured out the full mystery and was only playing it up for the sake of drama.) I also remember seeing the hooded character from before walking away from me and chuckling.

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I vaugely remember a bit of meeting my grandmother (the one who is no longer with us) Some other younger children were there too and they were pretty disrespectful to her in a way that I cannot recall, but she seemed happy to see me.

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I was at the Wal Mart in the next town over. I only recognized the place because me and S like to walk the trail there to get lunch, then walk back.

I was looking on an Ipad. I remember somebody online had hosted an art contest and the winning entry was a picture of my DC self. Only it wasn't normal. The drawing of him was taller, more masculine and (this was posted on Deviantart) of course he was shirtless and buff with an 11-pack abs and what not. I remember thinking to myself that it's not the worst thing ever but why is that the winning entry? My cousin saw it and he started laughing like a seal.

I thought he was laughing at me so I tried to google something else. I remember the results of this purple cartoon character came up. I scrolled down and there was a bunch more copies of that same picture of me. Apparently after they found out that that person won the image spread all over the internet and became a meme.

525 Posts and 625 DJ entries. Me OCDista.

I was in a zen garden type area. There were several trees in the area and it was nighttime. I remember the trees were one of three types. There were willow-like trees with long hanging leaves. There were pink flowering sakura cherry blossom trees, and there were palm or fern like trees. I remember the pink trees were shedding their blossoms (that were more like small pink roses) everywhere.

I wanted to fly as to not hurt any of them and I started hovering. I remembered my orange flames being exceptionally vibrant in the night and lighting up the area around me. I remember looking up at the sky. The night sky was unusually boring, mostly just an even distribution of small white stars.

Manei appeared, standing in a gazebo. I went over and landed next to her. She looked up and told me that the night sky was beautiful. I guess in a strange way it was, even with its simplicity. (Though honestly, It wasn’t nearly as beautiful as the usual night sky with 8 moons and 12 saturns…)

She ended up getting me into this canoe that she started rowing. We went through a cave or tunnel and came out the other end. The cave had some glowing crystals and/or fireflies in it but I can’t remember them too well. When we came out the other end, I noticed that it was daytime. I also saw that we were about to go over a waterfall. We got out and swam to shore (a ledge in the cave before the cliff.) and left the canoe.

I remember looking out at the view that was pretty impressive. There was a bay or Fjord that we were at the end of. The water let down into a huge circular man-made lake with a circular structure all around it. It just looked like the hoover dam continued around in a giant circle. There were also some small buildings along the side of this structure and along roads running up the side of the mountains.

Clear as day, few clouds though.

I think the rescue scene repeated three times because Manei didn’t like how it went the first couple of times. I said that she should rescue me instead but she didn’t like that idea.

I’m beginning to question who’s delusional fantasy of romance my dreams are actually centered on, because It’s certainly not mine.

I woke up around here.

Semi Lucid interlude bit. I was in a similar location to the one I had viewed previously. Some kinda beach area with large rock pillars protruding from the water. It was something a little bit like sea world or something, only for kids (about the 12ish crowd). I feel like they had some kind of underwater haunted house and I was wondering how that sort of attraction would work. But they also had different pools of water where you could see animals like stingrays and jellyfish. I remember I was with some people who were not really my family.

They covered me in this spray or oil stuff like sunscreen that made me a female. (I don’t know how that works.) Then they put me in a ‘Slave Leia’ costume and started taking pictures of me. And when I say that I was semi lucid, I was only semi lucid enough to the point where I could recognize that this wasn’t real and just couldn’t give a crap about the situation.

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The next thing that I remember was walking up to the front of a large house. I felt like I was in my own subdivision, but the house was much bigger than anything on our development. I just walked inside and when I did, a big black dog walked over to me.

Now when I say big black dog, I mean like six or seven feet tall. I did a nose pincher and yep, dreaming. So I got nothing to be scared of. I said 'Hello' and was completely unsurprised when the dog actually started talking back. We started a conversation and sat down on the couch. His house slowly morphed to My grandparents’ house to where we were sitting on the couch in their two-story room. I don’t think we traded names, but for now, I’ll call him boomer, because I remember he had this characteristic booming voice.

He said that he was my second dream guide. He said that he liked to play games. All kinds of games, ball games, video games, drawing games. But he doesn’t like being treated like a dog even though he is one. He is a human in a dog’s body and if someone so much as teases him by throwing a stick and saying ‘fetch’ it makes him really mad. Overall, he seemed like a nice guy and I could understand why one wouldn’t want a certain brand of teasing directed their way. Eventually our conversation blurred out and we started to lose contact. The last thing I remember saying to him was that I liked his voice and he gave me a funny (kind of irritated) look.

I then remember the dream momentarily re-stabilized. Same room and all, but now Boomer was gone and. Manei was laying on top of me on the couch.

“Isn’t that uncomfortable?”

“No.”

Well it is for me.

Apparently she didn’t take the hint because she didn’t get off me and I couldn’t go anywhere or do anything else.

The dream blurred to under my desk, where I think I was trying to plug in my computer. It was disgusting. There were food crumbs and the likes under there along with lots of dust bunnies along the back wall where the vacuum couldn’t manage. I woke up not long after.

I was standing in the end of a hallway. I was semi-lucid. Everything was sort of pencil-drawn, like an animation. In fact, I think the dream was an animation that I had made for a class. In the animation, the main character was me, and I was reaching for the door at the end of the hallway.

This almost had an animatic vibe to it. It was from first person, and it was jumpy, as if a frame had only been animated every quarter second. But as soon as I reached for the door and opened it, it swung open and things became very realistic. I was not the character that was in said animation.

The door opened to an area high in the sky. Cold winds blew violently in both directions. I then got sucked out and started falling from the upper atmosphere. I looked back to where the door was. It blew closed and shut. It then rotated onto an angle so that it was parallel to me and vanished in a trick of the light.

I recognized this moment. This was from a daydream, and lucidity hit me. I went back to third person and saw myself orient into the dream flying position. I flew down lower, through the cloud deck and saw that I was above a good sized town. I pulled up gradually, brining myself low over the town’s central street.

There was a large arch-like building that I flew through.

I pulled back up and flew past mountains built on clouds. There were towns and cities built up on these mountains too. I remember observing a rich variety of both fantasy and futuristically styled buildings. None of them were notably large.

I continued flying in the same direction. The area with the floating islands ended in exchange for a mountainous tropical area, with a large city akin to macchu picchu. It seemed to be abandoned. As I flew past it, and a large waterfall, I remarked that I must have done something good to deserve a dream like this. (Karma.) I continued flying in that same direction. (That I assumed was northward.)

As I flew for awhile, I passed many towns, lakes, and mountains. I noticed that I transitioned from a temperate climate to an almost arctic one. I seemed to be flying lower and slower than usual. I couldn’t get myself to go higher or faster, despite my best efforts.

I eventually ended up landing on the coast, near what was supposed to be a Middle School. The building looked like something from fallout. Like a 1950’s styled diner, only it was decrepit and obviously long abandoned. I remember finding two things outside of it that were of significance. A lunchbox and a bottlecap/pin type button. The lunchbox was rusted and had a rocket ship on it, and the pin was red with yellow graphics and text on it.

I decided to summon Manei.

“Manei, Kuansen Axio Sosumble”

She manifested out of the abandoned middle school and started telling me a story about it. It had something to do with the metal lunchbox and a pin, But I lost the dream and woke up.

I had found that somebody had printed off a large number of dream journal entries, about 5-10 of them. Particularly ones of a sexual/explicit nature and those pertaining to my dream guide. They were researching them and attempting to diagnose a psychological disorder.

I remember I took the entries and looked through them. I saw that they were not dreams that I had remembered having. I then threw them away. I was then thinking of how I needed to amp up my computer’s security to keep people from reading these.

…

I was walking around to different hotels. I think there was a terrorist on the loose. I became lucid when walking into one of the hotels and did a nose pinch RC. I then realized I should stabilize. I then remembered my goals. I decided I would summon Marcus, since that’s not something that I normally do.

“Marcus, Kuansen Axio Sosumble.”

I remember looking around, confident that he would appear. I saw my friends A and G and high-fived both of them. I eventually found someone who I thought might be him.

“It’s me. I just disguised myself as your [Science Teacher].” (Obviously Mr. [Name Not found], my old science teacher)

“Right. It’s good to see you.”

“Well there’s something I wanted to ask you. Well, two things actually. One, can you make me a new dream body.”

“Well of course, though there is a price to pay. 1000 acts of kindness.” He began speaking in the language of thought. “You see, many dreamers choose to create a self that is different than their real life self. In a dream, the body we choose is just like clothes you wear. They can have some affect on you, but for the most part it’s just a way of expressing yourself. In dreams your soul/consciousness is all that really matters. Manei had me make her body awhile back.”

I guess he was trying to dispel the idea that getting a new dream body was in some way weird or horrific.

I then asked him if he could get me to be a better lucid dreamer. He said he could train me. He sat down at a table in a sitting area inside the hotel lobby. He typed some things on his computer and a virtual training course came up. It wasn’t linear though. It had an entry point on each of the four sides. He then threw a tennis ball inside and told me to run in find it in the shortest amount of time. I ran in. I don’t remember all of the tests, but there were rocks above a puddle of mud and monkey bars. It was really just a test of adaptability, changing styles on a moments notice.

I got to where the tennis ball had landed, in some sand, and dug it out. I then realized there were tennis balls everywhere, each one with a slightly different appearance. I think this was from other people that had failed the challenge. I asked him what one I should throw back. No response. I just began throwing every single one back. I must have wasted at least 20 seconds doing so. 52 seconds was my time, I think. I lost the dream here.

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“Why does humanity continue to advance with such confidence? From the spear to the wheel to the spinning wheel to the internal combustion engine to fusion power to the … well… you know.” (Earth is super developed and futuristically) There are huge skyscrapers and flying cars shooting by so fast they are just a blur.

The camera pans foreward.

“Of all that humanity does, there is only one monument they have ever created that has worried me. The armistice. (A mushroom cloud shaped metal sculpture with human skulls on the surface.) Apparently the artist that created it had used real skulls of world war 1 victims and over the years most of them had been stolen and given a proper burial.

Some other things showed galaxies and the likes. I woke up not long after that.