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Yesterday I went to sleep at 8PM and slept till 7AM, during the sleep I woke up a lot of times and tried WILD huge amounts of times, never worked out. I even don't remember any dream except for a few fragments.
I think I should concentrate on something other than WILD, it's too damn hard. I can lie for 3 hours without moving a muscle but I never even have SP! Yes a few years ago I did WILD a few times, but now it got harder for me, mostly because of my great expectations, I get too excited about possibility of lucidity and what I will do once there.

I was looking for an easier technique and remembered MILD, I'll focus on it, will try to do it for 40 days as some people successfully did on this site. I'll make daily reports on my progress.

My dreams were excessive and vivid last night... but I only recall fragments and I'm sort of thankful for that

Early on, there was a sex dream with me and my step-dad.
There were dreams of being lost while driving and while riding a bike... of a mall and other large buildings.
I remember scenes from a beach and tornados.
Then there was a strange dream of people passing between realities in order to stop dangerous events from happening. One guy was flung beyond the range of their device. (I was him in the dream). He landed next to a hatch in the sand at a beach. The waves were insane and one of them opened a hatch. There were land mines inside, and every time a wave crashed into the silo like storage area, one of the mines would be flung out and it would detonate. 3 other people showed up. One of two of them died from the mines. "My" friends ended up coming to my aid and extended the range of the reality devices. But I woke up before the dream could progress.

Then there were weird TV Ad type clips of ways to commit suicide. None of them were pleasant in the least. One that I recall, was of making a deep slit in your side to pull out some of your guts. Then you fed it into a device connected to a toilet. Once the tension was just so, you would rubberband and hit your head on the ceiling, making yourself pass out, while the device continued to churn your intestines into sausage.

The last dream was semi-pleasant. I was lost and took a back road and ended up near my grandmothers house. I told someone else whose house it was but she didn't believe me. We got closer, then went inside. I started pointing out the furniture which had been favored by different members of the family (my grams took care of her 3 mentally retarded brothers). I expected to see my Uncle Eddy- the only family member still alive today IRL. Instead, I saw my grams. Only, she looked exactly like me when I was in my 20's.
She was wearing a shirt that tied in the front to show off her stomach and I saw several beautiful tattoos.
Then the dream jumped some and I was at a board game or something and there was real money tucked at a corner. I wanted to steal it, lol, but then it disappeared.
Later, my grams came to me and asked if it was mine. I opened the bills and there was a lot of money there (big bills) and some of them were foreign. I told her it wasn't mine (in my mind, pocking $5. is much better than pocketing $20.+)

I recall snippets of shopping; of being in a different country and worrying over my vape supplies.
Oh yes... then I was in another country, but I was having horrific headaches, so I went to the hospital. I was given an occipital blocker and there was much confusion over paperwork, payment and insurance.
I recall snippets of my old Congregation; and more dreams of extreme weather... and something about my kids and the destruction of homes when they were little and resentment about it all.

Morning of October 20, 2018. Saturday.

Dream #: 18,933-02. Reading time (optimized): 2 min. Readability score: 58.



In the first part of my dream, I am in the backyard of the Cubitis home with Zsuzsanna. We are sorting a big pile of laundry in the area near the southeast windows.

Over time, I realize we are in a different world, without considering how preposterous that is (subliminal awareness of the dream state). Eventually, we walk a short distance east, now being in the Stadcor Street house’s kitchen.

An unfamiliar dark-haired man of about thirty years old, implied to be a denizen of this “other world,” looks on as I try to copy a structure for serving a useful purpose for the length of our stay. From what I know so far, the denizens make large metal frames, though I am not yet sure of why. Mine turns out to be a wooden bed frame, though my dream self does not viably make the association (with either beds or sleep). I had mentally created it without lucidity. I study it for a considerable time, puzzling over how the wood is not perfectly straight from different viewpoints, yet I do not feel concern or a sense of incompetence.

“I am good at building houses,” I say with confidence, as I place the wooden bed frame in about the center of the Stadcor Street “kitchen” (still perceived as being outside in a rural area). My dream self does not consider that this wooden bed frame could not serve as a foundation for a house.

“You’re not making it out of metal?” asks the RAS simulacrum (the unfamiliar dark-haired man of about thirty years old), seeming somewhat puzzled, his expression and words causing me to consider if I need to make a metal one as a legal or social requirement. I slowly wake while thinking about what I need to add to our “house.”

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solution

a common factor of communication with the RAS simulacrum is its effort to get me to realize I am dreaming - but it only intrusively dominates when there is not a viable threshold (enigmatic space) thread

the bed frame that my dream self is going to use as a “house foundation” in my dream is wooden though our real bed frame is indeed metal

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dream factors

two locations incorrectly and uniquely combined
west area of Cubitis backyard > Stadcor Street kitchen (east)
directional orientation correct

indoor-outdoor ambiguity (simultaneously being indoors and outdoors)
Stadcor Street kitchen is also outside in “another world” in a rural area
Cubitis backyard is also an indoor area in the first scene

subliminal appreciation of the dream state as being “another world”

incorrect placement of Zsuzsanna in an American setting

dream state indicator as laundry (as I do not wear clothes when I sleep), representing the subliminal recall of having discarded clothes before going to bed

dream state indicator of literally “making the bed” (subliminal awareness of being asleep)

RAS simulacrum does not typically dominate the waking process when I am in first-level dream state indicator space even if I am not lucid

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Non-dream stuff - Woke up at about 8:30 but didn't remember any dreams, fell asleep and woke up again at 10:15, initially remembering a couple of dreams that started to fragment before I got up to write on the DJ.

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Dream:
I was at a computer and looking at a website; it had a plain black background and it was some sort of shop, selling plushies. There was a dropdown box and there were about 5 options. I had a dream memory or dream bit where I bought something like a crate of 200 ram plushies from some other website at a much lower price, for about 50 in total. On this website, each plushie cost anything between 16.99 and 38.99 or so.

I remember buying a goat plushie and when I clicked on the plushie titles from the dropdown box an image changed to show a rotating photo of them as a preview. Then I saw there was a little wolf, called something like "bloodthirsty wolf" or something, and it was really cute and had really large bloodied fangs and had an open maw. The size of the mouth and head looked exaggerated on purpose. Most of the plushies looked to be exceedingly well detailed, despite not being much bigger in size than my closed fist; they were in a cartoony style. I really wanted to buy the wolf plushie too and I think I did, but I started to wonder if I should be spending so much money on plushies. Remember thinking to look at my bank balance, but for some reason my phone wasn't near me and I ended up not checking.

It seems I've forgotten the other dreams as I wrote this one, hopefully remember them or fragments while doing something else...

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Some notes:

• While I really do like collecting animal plushes, I haven't bought any in some time now.
• I also wouldn't, in principle, be looking to buy them online. I like to know the quality of the material as I buy them, as when I was a child I always had a somewhat irrational fear that plushes I had would tear apart etc if you weren't very careful. I still feel like I have to be very careful with some, as I don't like the idea of damaging them.
• There's a big connection to my childhood from plushes in general, as my room had a lot of them by the time I was a teen. Friends often made fun of it if they were visiting and my oldest sibling would sometimes mess around with them which would really upset me and almost make me cry sometimes, though he actually didn't mean it with any ill intent. I just saw things as being very fragile, while he never did.
• A pair of plushies I last bought were two fluffy sheep. The ones available on the dream website seemed to be sheep, rams, goats and wolves.
• I'm not sure what brought on this dream context as a whole, as I see my and my partner's plushies around the house often, every day.
• Edit: discussed the dream briefly with my partner and he reminded me that recently we'd been working with goat and sheep leather, and that was probably what elated this dream context. I found myself immediately thinking about the leather as he mentioned this, and thinking how the fluffy side would be interesting as a material on plushes.

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Scoring thus far:
+ Previous score: 51.0

+ This DJ entry score (breakdown below): 1.0
++ Recall a non-lucid dream: 1.0

= Total score thus far: 52.0

I'm watching a movie and at is at a rape scene. The background was black. There is a woman getting forced to do sexual things with some man. It showed him hunched over the top of her with his naked ass pointed towards me, then it showed them standing up with his dick inside her cat then her sucking him off. When they got finished she was looking at his cock as it hung from inbetween his legs. it was a small pink color, slumped down not looking satisfied.

After that I was up and then go into a new five minute dream

I'm in a bathroom and was about to use the toilet but then I see mass amounts of water in the bathtub. There is a vacuum/ rug cleaner there and it was turn over on it's side with water coming out from the canister inside. It looked like it was cracked or damaged. I get up and ask mom about it and she tells me that she is draining out all of that water so that it don't sit inside and get stagnant. I was slightly afraid of the amount of water in the tub and it seems to be filling up and I pulled up my pants and got out of there.

I'm in a strange place that is very dusty and quiet. Dust roiled up as I walked around and then I seen a fireplace near me. I went over to it and inside was Auric! "There you are!" I felt myself being lifted up and realized that I was in his hand and quickly jumped out of there before he can get me. I heard him say something and then he squeezes himself out and I saw he had his sword out. I ran but I saw him put his hand up "Wait!" I saw him start to fight people and monsters as he made his way towards me.

Lucid

Was walking around a school and a bunch of kids tried to trip me in a hallway. I went outside became lucid as soon as I saw Jamie walking out the front doors with her phone in her hand, she was texting or something. Went up to her as she sat down. I asked , "Are you Jamie?" she looked up and changed her face to someone else and said, "no."

I went up to some kids sitting on the stair railings and said to them. "This is a dream!" Some of the DCs didn't like that and seemed to vanish from pure anguish. I then asked if anyone had seen Jamie? They said no. Jamie was just sitting there staring at me like WTF?!?!?!?!?!? My dream self is pretty dumb at times.

Jamie is still mad.

Various dreams of her being mean. In a couple she is dating my brother in front of me to make me mad. In another I'm walking around didsbury and some cop is giving me heck. Jamie keeps walking by with her hair dyed blond and is giving me mean looks.

Hurt

I am driving with people in a place that reminds me of BC. We stop at some shop to get ice cream. I know Jamie is there. I go to the counter and order Icecream. Jamie comes into the place from a back room. She looks at me and gives a weak smile. She is wearing a long white shirt and I notice her chin is severely bruised. I don't know what to say to her.

Weeks later

Was in a dream where I'm at some crime boss's house and he is supposed to have a meeting with someone. I start remembering and alternate dream where the man he was meeting shot him. I try to tell the crime boss about the man's plan to shoot him, but the way I reveal it just confuses him. A blond girl pulls me into a hallway and into a bedroom. She looks like mikala but not sure. We start sweet talking or something. I say something dumb like. "I'm in all these alternate realities but there is one constant in all of them : Jamie." Mikala smiles at that and kisses me. The rest of the dream I"ll leave out.

I have other dreams about "mikala." I wake up never sure who the girl actually is.

Dara dreams

I'm in Dara's apartment, and we are talking. Suddenly she hears a noise and goes to investigate. Later I had a dream of me standing in a kitchen and holding a baby. Dara is nearby looking at me.

Missing Girl

I'm walking with my dog in the woods. I hear a girl scream and I discover a cave with a deep drop. I hear a girl calling for help. My dog's mother Daisy rushes down the hole to find the girl. I go down and run into some guy. "Did you see the injured girl?" I ask and he says: Yes. He then shows me where the girl is. Suddenly I'm in a big house that's inside the cave. I go through a room where computers are set up for video game live streaming. The man leads me to a room. I see a desk with teeth and blood on it. He indicates that's where the girl was. There are 2 guys in a bed waking up, they are obviously gay. Not sure where the girl is still.

More Jamie dreams


A few dreams I am in a fortnite setting and jamie is with
More dreams at the highschool. In one Jamie doesn't speak to me but she hands me a written test, A boyfriend test. I pass it and she looks disappointed that I passed it as i she expected me to fail. But then she smiles.


In another we are in drama class and we are in a big circle doing some stupid dance. Jamie is a cross from me and beaming a big smile at me.

In another we are walking through a school field and Dara floats by shuffling a deck of tarot cards. "ooh this case is a tough one to crack innit?" She says.

The other night i have a flash of Dropping off Jamie at her house. She goes in through a trap door, she looks and smiles at me, but she looks rough like she hasn't slept for days.

I wake up briefly and I say to myself, "where is Jamie?" I fall into a dream and I see 7 angels with 7 trumpets they point at the throne of God with 7 fingers but the throne of God is blacked out. It's like they are saying," She is there talking with God."

Various Dreams

I'm trying to escape an abandoned mall. I find a flight of stairs which I kind of just glide down. I enter a street and hop over a fence to keep from being discovered. I walk into an apartment complex and find youtubers Omar and James. I ask Omar if he's ever tried bloody mary? He says no. I have a brief flash of walking with them earlier in the dream in the abandoned mall.

Next we are in a flying car in a futuristic city. We fly by these huge apartment buildings that look really futuristic. there is no way to enter them from the ground. Instead you have to fly up to them. I ask Omar if we fly in. He says no. We soon land on a landing where there are seats we strap ourselves into. The seats are attached to a metal beam which pulls us up into the apartments. The place reminds me where Asuka hid for years in an alternate dimension to hide from Walms/Hukif. I remember an Alternate Asuka took her place and created a clone that Walms killed thinking it was the real asuka. My dreams are messed up haha. Anyway we enter an apartment which belongs to my friend CJ. His place is a mess and his girlfriend is around and is a drunken mess. That's all I remember.

Created Friday 19 October 2018

Got a WILD/DEILD loop to note.

Scrap Group 1
Various WILD/DEILD chains. Most collapsed within seconds, often right after I floated out the . In one case, I'm dragged into a white void, where a female voice laughs at and taunts me. Another supposedly had a roach flying around my bedroom before I got up. I slowly spun in midair during the last one, until the dream collapsed again. DEILD transition two minutes later.

Dream 1 - Rickety Tortoise Waterfall Slide

The visuals were blurred. DEILD transition in bed. I float to the lounge, struggling to do so due to fatigue and dizziness. Had to take a moment to rub my hands and (ironic as it sounds) spin in place to stabilize the dream.

With the competition and tasks in mind, I glance at the bureau nearby. Sure enough, the glass tortoise statue was there in its rightful place. With a touch, I brought it to life. Unlike the statue, this creature was small enough to fit on one of my outstretched hands, and was colored naturally instead of the vibrant patterns of its previous glass form. Moreover, the sclera and irides in its eyes were distinctly human-like. It otherwise behaved as any animal of its kind.

I carried the tortoise off towards the living room, levitating it over my hand halfway through for the fun of it. That's when I saw an even larger tortoise was ahead, its shell alone at least 3-feet in diameter. It was struggling in vain to crawl out the glass sliding door. I similarly tried phasing past it, but even with 20 seconds of effort, I couldn't get through. So, I commanded the smaller tortoise to break it. The animal winded back out of view, then, while spinning, flung itself to the door. Despite the harsh impact, this proved ineffective. I resigned to just opening the dang thing, and actually managed to pull it off (quite surprising, given how that rarely ever worked before).

Out I went, to find an impossible structure awaiting me: a massive, rickety tower held together by random junk. I fly myself instantly over clouds and to the top of the structure, if overshooting by a story or two. As per the TOTM, I start imagining a waterfall would await me below.

Things warped. A tall, thin mountain had now replaced the junk tower. Everything now appeared "rendered" in blocky graphics similar to Minecraft. I almost got annoyed, but actually seeing a waterfall below, and hearing Leading Lights from Sonic Adventure, mollified me. I dived towards it, and allowed the water to carry me away. The first few seconds were a bit slow before momentum caught up. I fell into a sheer drop, only to collide chin-first on a rocky overhang. I was then launched away from the stream and into a narrow pit, tumbling around in pitch darkness for a bit before getting sent back outside into the waterfall. The descent continued for a few hundred feet more, until I abruptly crashed back-first onto jagged rocks. Though painless, the shock of the impact nonetheless knocked me out of the dream.