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The Dream:

Once again, I find myself pregnant in the dream world. This time I'm back at school and I've just gone to see the school guidance counsellor to see what I should do. She's a very calm and therapeutic dream character and she puts me at ease.

She tells me she should have a look at me to see if there are any complications. She takes me outside her office and towards a golden bathtub sitting at the end of the hall. She asks me to undress and sit in the tub, but only if I feel comfortable doing so in such a public place. I start removing my shoes but when I'm about to take off my jeans, the previously empty hall is now bustling with people and I no longer want everyone to see what's happening.

She tells me that's alright and that she'll meet me in a room in the basement where there shouldn't be so many people. I then walk down three flights of stairs to the basement. There are some people loitering around but within this basement there's an "inner room" which is completely empty except for a row of beds. Relieved at having finally found some privacy, I'm about to go into the room when I'm suddenly interrupted by Adam (a classmate) who asks me if I'm here for Justin Bieber's morning maths lecture. I'm horrified to realize I also happen to have a morning lecture with Professor Bieber and that I'd been skipping it in order to see the counsellor.

Suddenly the previously empty inner room turns into a classroom and there are desks with students in them and a teacher at the front writing on the board. I sit at the back of the classroom. As the teacher starts his lesson, I start wondering how on earth I wound up being pregnant in the first place. I wonder if the events that led me to be pregnant actually happened or if it was all just a dream. I (stupidly) decided it must have actually happened.

The counsellor is back again and sits behind me in the classroom. She asks me if it's alright if we continue at the back of the classroom where no one will see us. I tell her "No, Adam is my classmate and I'll be mortified if he sees me back there."

So instead I just try to pay attention to the lecture. Everyone seems to understand except for me.

Notes:
Prior to this dream, I had pretty much decided I didn't ever want to have children until I was past 30. The counsellor character sticks out to me because she was a calming presence in the midst of my anxiety. The golden bathtub is also memorable...perhaps because it's so misplaced in the middle of a school hallway?

The theme of trying to find a private place to undress but being unable to find it prevails again. I don't know what else this could mean except that it just reflects my own anxieties about being around people. In each of these dreams, I'm often trying to hide something that is under my clothes (i.e. underwear, a pregnant belly). I'm worried about people finding out about my secrets---whatever those are.

Re-occurring elements:

• the failed search for a private space
• a bathtub
• pregnancy

Dream Signs:

• I'm pregnant (duh)
• I'm also apparently back in high school
• the random bathtub in the middle of the hall

NON DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am standing in the hallway of my school and I see Mr. Moesby from the show Suite Life On Deck. He and I are upset that we can't get into this one school club (can't remember what it was for) because we don't qualify. But then, Moesby gets in, because he has gray hairs. I somehow also get in the club, along with my friend C. C and I are sitting in this classroom with a bunch of older people as part of the club. As I'm sitting in a desk in the back of the room, I notice a hole in the ground. Inside, I see a big group of chipmunks trying to get through, because they also wanna be part of this exclusive club. There is a groundhog (though he looks more cartoonish) trying to hold them off.

Soon, C and I realize how lame this club really is. We switch back to our old class, which was my 5th hour. Me and C are now sitting on the ground in front of the classroom waiting to go inside, but we can't because there is a green net covering the doorway. Inside is my friend M, who says no one else can come inside because she still needs to change. As we're sitting there, I realize that C and I forgot to bring any of our supplies to class, and we both only have a pencil. As I look inside the classroom, I see the art teacher setting up a bunch of cupcakes on a clear plastic cupcake display thing.

I decided that since there was still some time left before class started, I would go to the bathroom. I walk down the hallway and find a bathroom way at the end of the hall, which was never there before. I walk inside, and I have to walk up these steps to get to the one toilet in the room. The toilet is just sitting there in the middle of the room. There is no stall. There is also a bathtub. As I shut the door behind me, a boy named J runs inside and crouches behind the door. I say, "Really? The girl's bathroom, J?" But he ignores me. It's obvious that he's on the run and he's hiding from somebody. I just say, "Well, don't look, then, because I have to use the bathroom." He can't see from where he is, anyways.

I sit down to go to the bathroom, and I do. I even remember thinking, oh, I hope this doesn't mean I'm going to the bathroom in real life! (This isn't the first time I've made a reference to lucid dreaming in my dream, without realizing that I was actually dreaming! Grr, very frustrating!) I'm all done going to the bathroom, but that's when I realize the bathroom has no ceiling, so anyone on the second floor can see down on me. Of course, that's when a ton of people crowded around the edge and started staring at me. I yelled at them to go away so I could leave without them staring at me. But of course they didn't go anywhere.

Suddenly, one kid, called K, jumped down into the bathroom and landed in the bathtub, and everyone is momentarily distracted by him. I take it as an opportunity to jump up and get the heck outta there. I'm walking down the hall and back to my classroom. As I enter, it seems like no one had even noticed I was missing, even though the class was very close to over. I walk up to my art teacher who is still there for some reason, because I see her carrying a tray with the remaining 4 cupcakes. I ask her if I can have one because I haven't had one yet.

She says, "Oh, you haven't had seconds or thirds? Here, take 2 cupcakes!" I only took one cupcake, for some reason. It had hot pink frosting, sprinkles, and an aluminum wrapper. I ate it in a few quick bites, but then I was covered in icing and crumbs and I was very sticky. I walked out of the room to try and find a drinking fountain to rinse off.

I woke up. I immediately checked to make sure I hadn't wet the bed. I didn't. WHEW!