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    1. Highschool, Black teen, College, Pills

      by , 03-29-2019 at 01:09 AM
      I had 4 dreams I think today. Thought they weren't special but upon closer inspection, as always, it revealed some deep insights that helped me alot. Perhaps tiny lucid moment.

      Dream 1- highschool food

      First dream took place in the highschool I went to. So I was in the school cafeteria in at the food stall, it was a small partitioned room that was connected to the cafeteria which was basically a large gym, cleared out with some tables. As I check through the foods on sale, I find some duck! They were selling whole duck, roasted yellow, nice and fat and good. It was way over priced though, and other foodstuffs being sold wasn't very interesting. I decided to leave the shop and just forget about lunch. While leaving, one of the boy working there, nice young boy, brownish hair, very cute, is grabbing a roasted duck by the legs, handing it to me. I'm like hey, maybe he got the wrong person to hand the duck to but. DUCK! So I grab the duck and take it elsewhere to eat. I end up in the hallway where I find some highschool friends, they also had duck XD. So one friend begins carving the duck for all to share after I handed him mine. There was a foodtall beside the lunchtable and chair that we were sitting to the right. I wanted some rice to I check out the foodstall. Fried rice, italian rice, etc.. and Rice! Decide to not get it. 5.99 for a tiny bowl of white rice so I'm like no. We share the duck.

      I head back to the original cafeteria food place, and browse through the food again. 24 bucks for chicken, 35 for duck. I'm like costoco's 9 bucks! Haha. But something good did catch my eye. I find a piece of very nicely marbled beef, thing but you could tell it was good quality. Not the best, but it was good. I think it was like 25-40 bucks, so I decide to go for it. Before I buy it, I ask if there's parasite in it, can I eat it raw. The guy at the counter say something like "dunno probably, I'm not sure if that's a good idea". A friend, who also works there now assures him "Don't worry, ZenLD's a badass" lol. I try a sampler for the beef, man it's good! It's like aged nicely, slightly smoked maybe, had a slight saltiness and flavor that is reminiscent of smoked salmon, but gentler. The marbled fat melted in my mouth as I savored slight resistance from the smooth muscles it in a moment of pure flavor ecstacy that felt so real. There's a blonde boy there. He's kinda eyeing my beef. So I tear off a piece and feeds him. He's like "Wow that's so good!" Yes totally good. I decide to leave and I awaken.

      Dream 2- Black teen getting a job

      So I was this black teenage boy. Late into the teens, pretty tall, lean musculature - strong but not bulky kind of physique. Pretty attractive I suppose. I was in a mall, not sure what I was doing there, but I find this stall with 3 older black women, two middle aged, one older. They were recruiting people for charity or some kind of relief or cause. They tell me to join, cuz the pay's really good. They pay me immediately, and I start working already. Totally peer pressured. I think they paid me maybe 60k on the spot. Yes, this organization appears to be kind of a sham organization, more info later. The oldest of the women tells me to make sure to pay your taxes, 30%.

      We head outside and begin walking. Walking on a summer day. Walking towards our first workplace, it also will serve as a inn too. As we were walking I began to converse wit the previous old lady, forget what though. Oh yes, the convo was interrupted by a young black lady, mid to late twenties, she's attractive, but has an omnious vibe about her, she's also the boss of the organization. Kind of develop a relationship with her I think. After a pretty long walk, we find ourselves inside a building. We were on the first floor, it had some gym equipments and things to help keep the employees fit and happy and things. I find 3 middle eastern teens or tweens, who are trying to one-up eachother with some moves- it's like calistenics or dance or I duno what you call it. So I try it. Being a fit teen I do some awesome moves and the 3 of them are like "awesome" and tries to imitate my move. They fail horribly though XD. I take off my clothes to change them, getting hooted by some women while doing so. I head towards where I'd stay, heading outside via the gym entrance. There's a lady there, real stout and tough looking. She's obviously on steroids, with muscles on top of muscles. Body fat of maybe like 1%, probably less. She immediately takes a disliking of me and talks down on me. I don't feel like starting trouble already so I let her go. Shouts "Stop doing steroids" twice to her as she leaves. She twitches a bit.

      We're in a restaurant now I think, not too clear, but most likely an employee dinner kind of thing. One guy had a real uptight persona, reminded me of the buff lady prior, yeah he's the son of the buff lady. The old lady, from the start, puts a stop to him. Peaceful for a while.

      Now in a mall again. Prepping a stall to recruit more people. I meet the young woman again.

      Before I can talk to her, the old lady begins to warn me "don't get invovlved with her"

      Apparently we were dating or something. Turns out, the organization was a money-laundering sham. The woman was looking for someone to use as a scapegoat incase she was caught. Despite that I stayed there instead of leaving.

      She says "Aren't you gonna leave me?"

      I say "No... Because you'd be lonely."

      The old lady, and her 2 friends begin crying. I begin crying as well. The tears we shed was black and tarry, like letting go of some emotional pain. The young woman walks away. I wake up, with tears.

      Did she... cry too?

      Dream 3 - College, geezer
      I was attending a college lecture, university is probably a better word. It took place in a very large gymnasium style building, white floors with desks for students to sit in. There were about 500 to a 1000 students listening to the lecture. I was sitting way to the right. Behind me were couple of acquaintances, dream acquaintances. 2 notable figures among the 5 people. One was a old european looking old man with white hair, he had many a wrinkles on his forehead. We called him geezer. The other was a man in his mid thirties, brown hair, long face, with very spiky hair. We called him long face, or long spike.

      We get into some flashbacks about the pasts of these 2. It took place in a fantasy setting. Geezer was an warrior who'd lost one of his arm during the previous war or an expedition, and Long face, was one of his comrade in the same party. Geezer's retired now, so's probably long face. They were all trying to learn something form this establishment. Just visions of stuff they did playing over.

      Geezer and the others tell me, "the future's up to you."

      I ask "how? I'm not great and admirable like you, Geezer or Long face. Look at how amazing you are, how can I do anything about the future where, both you and Long face both failed?"

      He says "You can do it, believe in yourself" (maybe said you're real smart, you'll figure it out or something)

      I get all emotional and start crying. Wake up in tears.

      Dream 4 - False awakening, Pills

      I'm waking up in a small bedroom, different from where I sleep. I have that I just woke up now don't feel like it kind of feeling. Could have applied gravity RC here. I remember I gotta take my daily supplements for better brain and body. I look for the pills, knock them over with my feet. Looks kind of different, but takes it anyways. I see a mirror and look at myself. Nice butt. And I start having this orgasmic sensation. I think oh no I forgot! Usually this feeling wakes me up so, I wake up, continue getting the sensation and then wake up again.


      Analysis:

      Dream1. Highschool food prices being way too high bled over from memories back then. They were selling only junkfood at ridiculous prices. Store bought fries, refried, resold at ridiculous margins. 5 dollars for a little bit of fries. Wouldn't surprise me if they charged 10 nowadays.The place was ran by a middle aged lady with an ugly expression. Strong romanian nose and accent. Did not enjoy the food there. Kids should be fed better food. I recall during that time I watched a tv report about how delinquent kids were all sent to an experimental school. were fed nice nutritional diet for lunch and they were all transformed into exemplary students. But here it was just greed and laziness. Foods so stale that made mc'donalds taste fresh as sunshine. The establishment was just like a jail, little sun inside, very dungeon like with halls that looked identical and functioned exactly like a maze. I'm not sure who they'd bribed to get the reputation of being the top school in the area, that offered a special program for gifted children. Though I was not in the program, I was in a gifted program in a previous school but never told my parents about it. I just really didn't feel like doing the extra work haha. With many uninspired teachers, with dead-fish eyes staring at you, as if trying to leech your youth through their their eyes.

      Part of me held, a strong hatred for this place I think and I released it after I woke up. And things weren't all bad. We'd walk a mile two away to order fries from a family ran joint, fat fries, home made, nicely spiced. Cheese curds were placed on top, then lathered with hot gravy that melted these them and infusing them together into cheesy goodness. A friend had recommended the place to me and his style was to top the whole thing with black pepper until it was covered in the magnificent black dust of it. Sinuses flushed as waterfall from the nose of the fools who dared to try this foolish yet amazing delicacy.
      PEPPERCORN! From dream last night.

      It was probably important to release those emotions because, in

      Dream 3, I was attending a university lecture. And this is a big one, because none of my previous dreams took place in college. This could signify a kind of growth, or that I let go of something and could progress further emotionally, or dream realm wise. I'm growing and learning. Getting better at lucid dreaming. Dream characters telling me I can do it so I'm gonna do it!

      Dream2. Most likely signifies a relationship. Was in an abusive relationship I think. I still loved the person even though they were horrible. Not a fool though, I immediately cut off all ties once I had enough. But a subconscious part of me perhaps still held that. Tried to remember the times, let go of it. Could be totally unrelated though XD. Crappy experience in a crappy big city.

      Dream 4. I think this is big. At first I didn't notice anything and was disappointed in myself for not getting Lucid, I realized more was going on. First the Mirror. I always, always become lucid in every dream with a mirror, perhaps not immediately in one dream, but 100%. And also the orgasmic sensation, always makes me lucid as well and wakes me immediately after. These two indicates that I'm at the cusp of lucidity. In a way I might have been very teensy bit lucid. Just so small I didn't notice it myself at first. This means I''m getting Lucid. I'm stepping into daily lucidity! YES! MY FEET IS GETTING WET!

      More stuff I ought to write down and take notes but gotta go for now.
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    2. What is norm

      by , 03-27-2019 at 07:54 PM
      So i don't think I had a dream today, had a tiny AP though.

      I was in my bed and felt that "feeling" when you know you can push yourself out. I got myself out, bedroom, things were clearer this time, no darkness. I rubbed my hands to stabilize or clear, but the experience ended soon.

      Things I shuld take note are:

      Yes it seems Ld experience every 2 days is the norm now, no doubt about it. Ld everyday is close... tomorrow! hehee, then every dream. Then focus will be on lengthening. Perhaps should begin that now.

      I might be rem depraved, probably will have extra dreams if I nap or next time I sleep.

      I shouldn't focus on stablization. Focusing so that might be a subconscious fear of things coming apart.

      My idea is to master the art of Teleportation. So I can leave this environment. Being in the bedroom might make you focus on your physical body and that gets you there.

      The teleport technique i been conceptualizing is to create a black hole, then transform that into a portal that people can walk in. I've previously tried teleporting by spinning but it doesn't work half the time and usually has side effects. Could also try closing eyes and visualizing.

      Lack of rem might be from gravity RC, it's making me really aware. It's working too well. I'm catching hypnogogic states immediately and getting too excited. RELAX MORE next time. Maybe not too much, need to find the perfect balance, like an acrobat on a rope. The rope being LD. I recall previous counts of people getting less recall from GRC initially--I believe this might be caused by this too much increase in awareness. Perhaps more SWS forced by the body from the workout.

      AND I got super advice from skipper regarding MILD. Now my MILD is unstoppable! I'll post what he said if I he says it's OK so that could help everyone who's working on mild. Shadow work!

      I'll add more in comments if I nap and dream or receive insights.


      Unstoppable like the force of nature yet rem depraved Lucid dreamin' Lucid dreamer
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    3. black peppercorns, dungeon, boss

      by , 03-27-2019 at 01:11 AM
      Might not have enough time to write everything so I'll just write what I can and add to it later if I can. It's nice to type on the pc, it's way faster than on the phone

      So I had 2 dreams I think. First one wasn't very clear so I don't recall it too well. Second one I believe was split into 3 parts so it could be considered 3 dreams, seperated by micro awakenings or so?

      So about the dream.

      +++dream1 to 3ish++

      So I was selling something to a dealer/merchant/noble. No, not drugs. As I tried to recall it harder throughout the day I believe it was spices or something similar. Although I felt like it's completely random upon further thought, I recalled that yesterday I was quite interested in black peppercorns in my dram last night. Sounds a little far fetched but the dreams are getting linked together! Very cool, would love to have continuation in dreams much like Hukif's DJ if I can choose to do that.

      So After Selling the peppercorn, I made a fortune. The setting was in a middle age europe kind of setting. It was times when spices were super expensive and worth more than gold. So yeah. I was balling.

      So around here my memory may be a little foggy I remember the details but I'm a little uncertain which happened first.

      So what happend was either I hired a bunch of people as my underlings or I began to explore a dungeon that was in that city.

      So maybe underlings aren't the right word. I just hired a bunch of people, either that or more likely they just became my followers and we formed a kind of a mafia/yakuza entity that was pretty powerful or something. Ofc I was the DON No we were not a evil illegal entity or anything but just not a standard entity. Maybe closer to being the final boss kind of deal, but we were totally good guys, I swear.

      Anyways I was deciding on who would becoming my right hand man or woman. I had this lady who ended up being my right hand. She was worried though that someone else might replace her position eventually and that I wouldn't give her the love she receives from me as her boss if she wasn't the right hand. I think she did end up being replaced but I assured her that I loved her all the same - mind you not romantic love totally just love of caring about someone else yep.

      So yeah I think the building he had was a japanese style old fashioned, with doors that you could open by sliding in one direction, rather than western doors where you pull or push. And the furnishing were of similar style; no huge furnatures and stuff, just a few mats that you could sit on.

      So our mission was to clear this dungeon that presided in the city. I'm unsure how many floors it had. But our goal was to reach to the bottom. I believe the closest range of floors it had was between 50 to 100 floors.

      I think the goal, which was to get to a treasure probably, is just my goal of Super Lucid Dreaming. Getting to the bottom of it or the treasure is achieving the GOAL!

      So as we were clearing the dungeon, we were doing some stuff that wasn't suppose to happen. We just skipped a bunch of floors to jump 20+ floors at a time towards the end, didn't manage to reach the end in the dream though. So we were finding glitches in the matrix or exploits much like in a game to get to our goal faster. Yep. Totally ethical and fair. Dungeon walls were brownish if I recall, A little earthy but solid.I think it was me and my right hand (the lady) who led the expedition. We'd get the ancient relic and proceed to WORLD DOM- just kidding.

      I think maybe around this part I replace my right hand. Didn't want her to get hurt or something maybe. She's plenty strong and competent but don't want to get all emotional if something happens.

      The scene ends here I think.

      Replay scene. Selling stuff again. But this time I get a bad noble or something who tries to rip me off. He offered 1/4 of a cent per some unit of measurement for my goods. I get mad and flip everything off. I think ended up getting a good nobleman who sorted things out and punished the bad one. Now I am uncertain whether I went to a dining room to dine with him in the beginning of the dream or at the end, but when I met the good noble (I think he invited me for food, either at home or at office dining room), it was a maroon or dark red kind of dining room. Relatively small, without any extravagant furnishing but you could clearly tell that everything was of high quality. The tables and chairs were of similar dark maroon color that matched the room.

      The dream ends here probably+++

      So if I was to use my imagination to piece it all together. Last night I've released my emotional blocks, found black peppercorns. The black peppercorns (whatever it represented), helped me raise funds for my expedition. And my expedition was into a deep underground dungeon that where I would discover my treasure/goal - Super Lucid Dreaming.



      So I also practiced a little Gravity RC today, it was pretty awesome. I kept getting the urges to try it out so I did. I realized it came naturally to me and it was similar to a personal meditation method that I did year prior. Anyways the two connected and I had this strange moment when I went to pee in the bathroom. I just began to feel the gravitational force in everything around me, inside my organs, outside my body. Pretty interesting. Also trying a new breathing method. I'm stacking the two together. If I do one, I will try to do the other.
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    4. Letting go of trash

      by , 03-26-2019 at 01:44 AM
      So I had one dream and an AP style thing. Bunch of other stuff to note as well i guess. I think the ap was caused from intention to help a fellow DVer with ap stuff.


      Earlier that day.

      I was indulging in earthly vice of online video game and had a video about dream yoga playing in the background.

      Somehow youtube went to a video regarding Quantum touch healing thing. Talking about need to release emotional pain etc. I found it interesting so I decided to read the book and tried a few Techniques.


      I slept for a while and woke up, maybe a few fragments.

      Woke up then slept diagonally and just stopped using pillows. I felt the urge to try out the quantum touch stuff. Felt pain in an old surgical scar. I proceeded to try out techniques. I remembered the video about the need to release the anger. So I did. I remembered all the crappy memories back then and decided to face all the emotions I held back.

      ====memories===
      I had a teacher who was very... Spiteful and one dimensional who based a majority of our grade on notebook cleanliness. Mine was a mess. I never really needed those things. I just remembered everything. And my home life was a mess. Just like my notebook. I got 0 on each of notebook mark and was barely passing even though without that I'd have the highest grade in class.. She made us sign stuff from home that the parents would see the mark.

      My dad flipped. He always flipped. I was so much in pain. Told me to not come home unless I did better. I brought a knife from home at the crap apartment was preparing to off with it. I was caught. Yeah I had friends but no one to really talk about these kind of things with. It was the age of MSN messager and internet was banned. I ran away from home the following day. Was caught back home. That night I was hospitalized

      The stress made my appendix explode. I almost didn't seek help. Part of me wanted to die. A big part. Had a surgery. Botched surgery. Had to stay home (just moved to the house in the dream below, right during my hospitalization) with nurses coming daily to change the gauze that got stuck to the flesh and drain the infection. Nothing to do but watch TV without cable. Money making infomercials and kids shows. Lasted a few months. Went back to school. Stress from incompetent teacher. Wound reopened the same day and repeat above.
      ===memories end ==

      I cursed them all. I don't like being mad but I needed to release the energy. The scar I touched began to hurt. The nerves ran pain through my whole abdominal from the groin up to the chest right below the neck. Shooting sharp pains. Like needle being dug into flesh and pushed through in a vertical line. I honestly didnt even care about all this. About my memories. But if these memories are being replayed in background, they need to be gone, released, transformed. So I can make MILD or just intentions work without stuff blocking it. Yeah might sound overkill for LD fun but I think it's important for many other things too. Need to throw away garbage for a better self. Felt my body getting balanced. Muscles that wouldn't move properly before started to get better. Not prefect but better. I'll keep practicing then.

      Focused on MILD after that, didn't want to dream about angry stuff. Had trouble sleeping.

      +++Dream 1
      I had dreamt about a house I lived in while in high school in the suburbs. I was in the with couple of friends from back then. I went into the basement, there was a furnace. I let the furnace go out of control and it burned the house and everything around it. The heat was slow and heavy, like magma or radiation. I think this represented my letting go of energy stuck deep emotional sink earlier.

      And yes I ran away by myself. I said screw everyone else lol. I'm the opposite of that but it feels good to be bad sometimes

      Went to a plaza nearby. In the supermarket there were special black peppercorns. Duno why but I was very interested in the peppercorns. I saw friends and others escape from the fiery abyss as I excited the store. And continued to check out other places. I found a quaint little snack shack sort of. And my friend L was working there. She was a short cute little Asian girl if that matters. They sold peppercorns there too and it was half the price of the other store!

      I think i wake up now
      ++++

      Stay awake for a while had trouble sleeping. Just focused on breath. Kind of meditation as I lay there. I realized I failed to LD today but. I thought forget about it. Took my own advice that I gave to a dv member about just rest and stuff regarding ap. I just thought I'd get good rest, no Ld or anything.

      +++AP
      When I woke up I had the familiar vibration sound. It's that sound that happens before dream and stuff. I focused on it. Made it stronger. Felt like I lost it so I tried again. The vib kind of waned; I thought I failed but remembered to try to stand up from my previous experiences. I did and popped out. It was very dark though. Couldn't see my hands as I explored my bedroom. Tried rubbing hands didn't work tried again didn't work. I saw trace of light leaking through the curtains so I went there. I opened them and brilliantly bright and warm yellow light basked me.

      Woke up.

      I focused on the vib again and it happened. I pushed myself out. This time I wanted to go outside. Headed out the room and saw stairs (heard whispers like ghosts or watevs but I paid it no mind) most stuff was the same. Went out the door to backyard and I saw those grape pillars you grow grapes (these are not suppose to be there) on that intersects at top like hash tags, not sure what they're called. I decided I wanted to fly through one of the hash tag openings and I jumped. Jumped about 2 3 meters but didn't fly. I climbed up and kept climbing.

      Woke up

      Pushed myself out again. But this one didn't last very long.
      +++

      Pretty long rant but I guess everything is connected. A little before the surgery I had my first sleep paralysis, well maybe many. Wasn't intentional just happened randomly and couldn't sleep. Didn't have much after that. So maybe me letting this stuff go reconnected some stuff.

      My first experience I think was something like this. I had laid in bed for a nap and felt scared and heard scary vibration. I couldn't move and I saw a vision. I heard a heart monitor, "beep beep... beep" and I saw a hospital room. I saw a face of a middle aged caucasian man maybe 40s I think he was closer to 30 but bad health made him look older. Long face,sickly pale white as a ghost, freckles, short graying hair. Face shape similar to Dr. House but long before that show came out. The heart monitor for faster and faster. Beepbeepbeep. Until it flatlined, beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

      Anyways back to Ld. I almost always become lucid in my dreams if I hear the vib during it so could I induce it myself somehow?

      A little week ago I had a DC trying to teach me true meditation. I woke up and heard vibrations when I tried to go into meditative state... Can I master that? Can I meet him again? So many questions.

      Vibrations induced lucid dreaming - VILD would be totes cool
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    5. Body, sigil, beauty pageant

      by , 03-23-2019 at 07:27 PM
      4 dreams I think very brief Ld. Have trouble recalling one dream atm

      1. Ld, just having awareness of the body but i knew I was dreaming, felt the changes of the body in regards to the past 3 days. Felt receiving some force. Kind of a light in the body that caused an orgasm.

      Woke up stayed in bed a while trying to fall back asleep, decided to go pee, made notes on DJ, maybe shouldn't have since DJing wakes me usually.

      Had trouble sleeping for a while. I tn may have had a Ld if I didn't record DJ, being at the prefect lding state. Meditated a bit by bedside to help sleep. Did a few mantra.

      2.dream about bunch of people receiving a kind of personal sigil that gave them powers, I think i received like 7. It's like kind of a spiritual training school or something but I'm not certain. One lady tried to give me her sigil cloth but I didn't want it. She became furious and tried to force it on me. Caused a scene and others stopped her. Maybe I should have received it or atleast hear her out.

      3. Still trying to recall. At same scene as dream 2 i think.

      4. The scene was like a square spiraling halls that went inwards clockwise the middle being the stage.

      Dreaming about being in a beauty pageant. Scene similar to d2 but slightly different. Wearing a polkadot bra that's too large outside of the white dress for some reason. Other contestants are trying to sabotage me. So all the contestants had to the cafeteria and get food there(got a pig head with noodles as a prank) . People are making bets as to who's gonna win, much like sports betting on a digital online platform. I felt overwhelmed and lacked confidence in myself. Someone made fun of my attire. So each person took a turn on the stage and performed their talent. I just sang on my turn. Forgot if I won but I did good if I recall.

      Part 2. So the time reverses and replays. I become a liquid based monster with similar appearance as previous that clings by the ceiling as I progress the scene. Getting closer to the stage. Forget what I did x)

      So yeah, actually might be 5 dreams haha. Will add more notes if i recall.

      I felt a little desponent that I didn't have a long Ld. Didn't feel like writing down DJ but wrote it anyways.

      Did shadow work yesterday that went pretty well on clearing doubts regarding a new mild mantra. This one may be a keeper. It's silly but really excites me. I visualized receiving the power for constant Ld, perhaps my subconscious tried to give it in d2... I'll try it again tonight and definitely receive it this time

      "super omnilucid-dreamerrrr"
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    6. Mansion

      by , 03-22-2019 at 11:54 PM
      3 nld maybe was too tired for ld

      First dream took place in a kind of a bunker we were little kids and developing powers and machines that defied normal physics.

      Second dream took place in a very large mansion. 10,000 to 20, 000sqft probably. Taller than wide. My bedroom was larger than most apartment. Played some strange card games that no one liked with kids of family acquaintences. So we decide to play poker cards. I think a police raid happened they just robbed our home. It was corrupt police not just ones. Maybe was killed.

      Second dream part two. So time reversed and we replay here. I was given an option to carry a device or be jailed. The device was a teleport er that allowed them to infliterate through our mansion systems. When I figured it out it was too late and we were infliterated and done in probably killed.

      Part 3 redo again this time I tell my dream father whose different from wake dad, that we needed to get away. He asked why I just kept saying belive me. Can't belive it but I was happy he belived me in the end. We got away and escaped from corrupt police.

      Dream 3. A spoiled neighborhood child is destroying stuff. Make him pay for it. We go to a coffee shop in antique sports car and i had Gigantic poker cards. They ruined my cards (other customers). Teenage kids. Lose my self identity here I think. Story taken over by some middle age man whose kind of a detective, and a bad ass black teenage boy whose seen things in his life (replays his life scenes here). The black teen convinces the teens to walk a proper path in life or something. The end.

      So maybe more than 3 dreams but the plot was in 3 bits.

      Lasted 2 3 perceived days.

      The mansion seem to hold some significance. In the dream few weeks ago I was moving from a beat up apartment to an old European castle home, got the deed from dream realtor. Prior to that I often had apartment dreams that looked like beat up ones I lived during my childhood. Now it seems like that mansion is my default dream home.

      The LD practices might have contributed to this and since houses represent your inner state or something, I tn the LD practice helped me confront and let go of some childhood stuff? Or subconscious telling me to keep doing Ld practices.

      The police and kids ruining the house probably represents how I'm a little afraid and feel violated sharing my dreams on dream views maybe afraid of being judged. Since I always keep my dreams to my self and always try to fix problems on my own.

      I felt pretty discouraged and really discouraged that I didn't Ld tonight. Much like the last few times I felt like giving up and kept it up, in those nights I had multiple lds. So I'm really certain that I'll be lding again tonight.

      Tweaked mantra, got in touch with my feelings during meditation regarding Ld. I comforted my subconscious in 3 languages (each representing different stages of my life in different countries) and assured them until I felt the blockages and tensions in my body leaving when I repeated my Ld mantra.

      Excited to see the results tonight.
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    7. Cousin, crocodile, jade beads

      by , 03-21-2019 at 02:09 AM
      Had 3 nld dreams. Had a little trouble sleeping so that might have made Ld elusive. First one about my cousin and his aunt, just hanging in their house. Second one I think he was also there, we were progressing pool's that were frozen, it had some mutated creatures that adapted to cold and some crocodiles, we grabbed wooden planks shaped like bats to hit them in the face to progress. In the third one I was in school setting I had these jade pearls and had fight with someone.

      I'm leaving out alot of details but dreams lasted few hrs in perception.

      Today I tried going hard at ada/mindfulness, I was labeling thoughts like in vipasanna prior and today I just tried telling myself "dream " each time I went auto mode. I felt it working pretty well. My first responses were still mostlyvipassana style, and kindness mantra that I've used in the year prior though.

      During my visualization meditation I realized that there's no need to rush. That I'll achieve my goals either way if I stick with it. If I want it quicker then I'll have to try harder but I don't have to beat myself up over failures. I'm still tweaking my practices and if I get to my goals earlier that's great. Otherwise these practices are having positive effects on me either way.

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