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Did not sleep enough for too many dreams. 2nld 1ld. May have been another dream. May have been able to get more Ld!

Rubicks cube during wake session woke me too much. However it may have helped visualization dramatically. Writing down mantra was very effective.

Dream 1 catching ride

Still trying to recall the earlier part of this dream. Me and a friend and a child emperor are trying to catch a ride. We get on the car share like thing.

Wake

Could be related to missing bus rides in school.

Dream 2 wonderful music***

I really really really loved this dream. May be connected to dream 1 as the destination. I ended up in a music hangout or kind of place. All the musicians would write songs and sing and just hang out. I was writing down songs on my DJ. At first I had trouble writing but I got better and better as the dream progressed. (writing got more elegant as songs got better ) Made mucho good friends in that dream. In the end I made music that was out of of this world... It was amazing I wanted the dream to continue!

Made friends with this really cool big afro haired dude, I loved the song he made and sang it daily within the dream, while he sang my songs daily too. Also met a long dark haired girl, skin pale as the moon, she was very cool. Somehow she could read my very messy lyrics from the start of the dream that I wrote but couldn't read myself and sang them.

Her voice... So powerful and strong towards the end it resonated through my heart and I..

Awoke

This dream! I wish I could have stayed longer. It was wunderland. It was so amazing, so beautiful. It was so fun. What would it be like if im lucid in this dream?

Writing getting prettier from writing down mantras, very fast incubation.


Lucid dream class room, ripening omnilucid

I was sleeping or napping in class. The teacher was a math teacher that all the girls found hot back then. I felt like his heart was much bigger than his looks from my memory.

I was exhausted in my dream and trying to sleep and I looked around the room. There was a friend Greg, who asked me stories about my lucid dreaming journeys. I found a guy and he let me try out my moves on him. I kicked! A few times and then he helped me improve hand to hand combat. People are leaving the classroom gradually

I see a guy in the class staying put and I remember about a dream goal.

I think I'm suddenly lucid around here.

I ask him about omnilucidity. He says "you can but..." and something in another language that doesn't make too much sense. I keep pressing him futher and I

Wake

Upon waking up what he says kind of makes sense. If I translate what he said it's, "you can, but time spent laying too green."

So what i thought of immediately was that, Im getting it, but the time is not ripe for picking yet. Or that it would take just a little longer for my body to make all the minute adjustments for omnilucidity.

Or it could mean my time sleeping is not enough:

either need more sleep time daily, or

The total sleep time needs to be greater, perhaps the body adjusts itself dream wise only when you are still or sleeping.

This dream could also be a memory of school, when i used to nap in math class didn't study and still had the best grades in class. But maybe trauma of when my dad forced me in a room to study grades dropped after that. i think he made me do a homework and wouldn't let me go to sleep because I got one problem wrong or something like that.

Also might be related to insomnia I had back then, if I knew about polyphasic sleep I wouldn't have been worried about 2 or 3 hrs of sleep daily. Went to doctor but he gave me a tranquilizer (I thought were just sleeping pills) , it may have damaged brain, likely also the cause of dropped grades back then. I think my brain was numbed and nothing would just go in. Maybe the rubicks cube helped activated that slugged area along with Ld practice, reviving the neurons back then. I'll put em to use for Lucid dreaming!


Notes:

Very cool dreams

Rubicks cube very good for visualization, but perhaps not on bed.

Writing mantra is excellent. Also get to practice cursive too.

Keep up meditation, grc and shadow work!

Keep practicing!


Ripening omnilucid dreamer

Almost forgot to post DJ.

I slept late.. Very late. I think it affected Ld alot. I das reading some books to help with visualization and other stuff but got a little carried away.

Dream 1 magic school

I dreamt that I was attending a magical institution. Apparently I was an expert but decided to attend anyways for fun.

So I was a mage and our class was forming a party of 4 for a project that we would do. My plan was to get 1 mage, 1 warrior, 1 rogue sort of party for balance. I found a lady with a pretty high int stat and added her to my party. I head back home once to rest and me and her get into an argument regarding the rest of the party. Worked out OK in the end.

Wake

Dream dead bird

A bird flying around the house into a closet. I try to find something to catch and release it but when I came back it was dead.

Wake

Dead bird is a memory of when I killed a bird when I was young and scared probably. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Love you. Have fun in a better place.

had maybe a failed ap or wild something here. I just felt a little bit of the feeling and didn't attempt to separate or visualize into wild. Moved into different position.

Vision quest
I was just visualizing and the images stayed to become a film and more realistic just lacked other sensations. It began to form a story about going to a office. Very close to wild Ld I think. Just got a little too excited I think. Perhaps could have worked if I retried and stayed still. Don't think I'll count it as Ld, but will note that I was close.

Might be a wisp of memory of when I visited my dad for work long ago as well.


Notes:

read too late, reading too much on bed is no good. I think i lost too much awareness or lucidity in waking. Reading a little about LD right before bed it ok i think.

Magic school was something I wanted to do in Ld. In LD! Haha. Incubated. Things keep getting incubated.

Next time I should probably stay still and try on apparent fails. It's pretty close to transition between sleep and wake.

Also just bought a rubicks cube to train visualization and things. If I get better I can just visualize a cube or something to play and exercise.
*might have played it too much on wbtb, perhaps too awake

Just read a little about Ld or ap on wbtb if desired, helps incubate and doesn't wake you too much.

Also bought a rewritable board for writing down mantra today or jot dream keywords I think it will help and save paper too.

Read a book regarding hermetics. It was pretty good reading, about balancing visualization and other senses.

How do I get lucid on earlier dreams?

**should have tried to engage other senses in the vision, that would turn it into Ld!

Keep up grc and mild! Do shadow work!

ALWAYS LUCID EVERY DREAM!

Had some nld and ld.

Was in emotionally pretty rough spot. Just old emotional trauma? Triggered and replayed. It was tough. I could have just ignored it or glossed over it with other activities but I didn't want that. Because if I did that... I wouldn't be lucid in the moment anymore. I could have lashed out at someone else, but I wanted to be better than that. And it was so tough. The emotional pain just wouldn't go away. I needed to take care of this emotional burden on my heart. It was rough. I didn't know what to do. Tried meditation, tried praying, tried and tried. I wanted to badly just to do something to numb my brain, but then I wouldn't be lucid in the waking, which would reflect in my dreaming. Just randomly decided to do shadow work on that feeling. Wow it worked.

started with hypnogogic images
4 awakenings,
saw a large manor near the shore
+ something about magic kingdom
(couldn't sleep well before, just emotional distress)

did shadow work around here

dream FA + deild lucid
I was in downtown area of T, was going to visit a relative or something. My mother wanted to buy clothes. I went but decided to go elsewhere. As I'm heading down the stairs, I see my dad there, he begins to repair something, I forget.

I wake or have a FA and decide to go back to dream

I'm back to the same place. Just seeing people going own the escalator and stairs. I'm trying to record my dream journal in my dream.

wake or FA here again I think and go back still thinking about DJ

I'm back in the same building but on upper floor. Lucid around here. Maybe it's a parking area or something but the wind from the outside is blowing apart my DJ. I try to push away the wind with my right hand but it didn't work. A middle aged lady looks at me weird lol. I still try to cover the wind with my right hand.

Wake/FA deild backed

Back but indoors now, a waiting area with bunch of chairs. I'm recording my DJ, perhaps lost lucidity a bit. I see a really buff tall guy pretty tan reminded me of the rock, kind of intimidating. So I just remark how nice his muscles are with gestures. He smiles and carries me off and I'm like "noooo". He takes me to a private bathroom and we fool around. More lucid. It was.. quite pleasant actually. My emotions were pretty stable and I stayed in the dream a little while after that. Good guy.

Wake

I'm exploring an outdoor mine or something with a bunch of friends, and we fall into a pitfall. We enter an underground mine dungeon and some memories aren't clear here. But we are defeating goblins or something. One of us is a chosen one of some sort and we need to help the blonde elf guy save the elven kingdom that were being invaded by goblins or something.

Wake

This one might be connected to last one maybe. We are in a basement house, just hanging out with some people(maybe relatives from first dream) we know. The room next to it piques my interest and I find John Chang, the healer in the next room. He's training us and I need to jump on floating square white platforms above the water and cross to the other side, then cross back. I complain that it's unfair, how others got a head start before I came in! JC tell me to look at the scoreboard, and the scores are mostly zeroes with a few 1, 2, 3. I realize that going around the lap isn't what the score's about and I look under one of the rocks. There's some secret inscriptions about techniques of sort as I memorize them. Others are still walking around and I realize I have to keep going. So the score is based on finding out secrets stuff around the platform, training the awareness while moving. I realized I was being trained for awareness within my dream.

Awake


notes:

Emotion more stable from the shadow working on waking, more stable ld. MORE STABLE!

Could not tell if I deild'ed back to dream or just teleported from FA bed to previous dream scene. I believe there may have been both. Bed was little strange on one awakening?

DEILD is awesome, I'm getting better

Training awareness in dream is a good thing. Dream trying to teach me to LD betterm maybe training in dream is more effective than waking. Getting trained by John was a goal of mine so yay.

Dreams all were sort of connected. Persistence?

I really WANTED to make sure I wrote my DJ down during my mini awakening. Perhaps I could have INTENDED for something I wanted to dream, then it would have been incubated really, really quickly.

Really fast incubation.


Always Lucid dreaming!

3nld no lucid. Not even a moment hadn't happened in a while. Deflated. Never wanted to give up so badly. Just do it. Just practice. Just go! Just go and you're there! I promise you the world and more, just go! A faith small as a mustard seed. That's all I need, nothing more. Just go, you'll see. Just go do it and you'll be it. Go now! You're at the lowest now just so you can jump your highest and soar across the clear blue skies. Go now, this time you'll succeed!

You're right there, but no one else can go for you.

Go
Always
Lucid
Dreamer

2-3 nld
2 ld, short
Had some crappy events, emotions unsound. Solved in the end by labelling it, mindful way. Arose again today, overcame by visualization feeling kindness/love meditation.

dream 1
workplace, competitive co-workers, turn into vampire, overcoming obstacles, perishes in the end when I can't suck enough life blood.

ld
I think during a dream, I get the usual "feeling", focus on it and begin to see the ceiling, it becomes clearer and I see heirographs on the ceiling I'm looking at. I become a little excited, wake.

dream x
dreamt about boogie board

dream 2
friends in computers lab, doing stuff. expand later.

ld/ap
get the "feeling", focus on vibrations, feeling like I lost it but the sensation goes up. Feeling a bit non-moving, still in bed. Push the buzz higher, above head, pushed self out of body. Explore bedroom, hear stuff. Do gravity RC, gravity is lighter than normal. Wasn't sure, so tried to close bathroom door to do more checks. Begin thinking about the bed, where the body is, causing me to return to body.

Ohm nee loocid dreamin!

Maybe juggled too much, too much med, grc visualization. Lacking rem.

Had a very short lucid moment. 2 dreams recalled.

Dream

In a hall by supermarket or mall. Friend t goes and splats yellow paint on people to enact a movie scene. People are not impressed. I get painted. I go in the mall to find something to neutralize it. For extinguishers and some other spray. Some friends use it and there aren't enough. Writing an assignment here for some reason.

I look around and find sticks. The jerk store clerk wants me to hurry up. He tries to sell me 800$ stick. He takes a break. I find 80$ stick that was better. It could fold up or extend with a button. Buy it. Another nice clerk helps me. Heads out.

Wake
Perhaps related to experiences of pressure sales. And friend painting is trying to make others around conform in a certain way.


Dreaming about meeting people on dreamviews. In a small room green/white theme, people are trying to get lucid. Going out to the beach and just swim and stuff.


Notes:

I should avoid visualization really hard until grc becomes second nature. Brain overloaded. Or avoid doing it too hard at sleep. Doing it hard earlier is ok.

Did I mediate too much before sleep again? I'm reaching the deep state faster than before.

Slept too early.

Need to do more shadow work.

MILD or intention about alrdy at goal worked better. Feel that feeling throughout day.

Getting too stressed. Take it easy but practice consistently.


Lucid every dream.

Have trouble recalling some dreams, did not jot down at night, was very tired. I need to improve on that for better recall and clarity.

Had a very short ld, tried visualization wild again, perhaps too early in rem cycle so it was short.

dreams were long... very long... a week long events?

Dreams

something about a house, inside the house

woke

ld. wild visual, found self in room immediately lucid and looked around

woke

The senator

Dream about a blond guy 40s, pretty handsome and skinny. American, new york or some big city. I am in his shoes. I'm suppos to become the senator or something but I am backtracking in time of sorts to change career path of sorts. I headd into a club, populated with aboriginese I think, and we are partying and discussing. Alot of stuff but hard to recall. I'm suppose to head home. But do I go with the current path (becoming senator) or go with something else?

I head home and talk to his relatives. They are offering 3 options for career. The senate, doctor, researcher kind of. End up picking researcher, heads to china. Research about lucid dreaming or dream related (I should be lucid lol). Have 3 choices of area of focus. One is dream, one is lobsters (seafood), one more I forget. I pick dream as we are in this amazing massive units of foodstalls with amazing foods. I head up to an elevator to join the group and I get ambushed, attacked. Co-reseachers pushed out the building. etc etc.


forgotten keyfigures:
old black wisewoman -on the heavier side, very wise and a kindly woman, met at the club
agents - trying to stop me from researching dreams
dream family - met a mother and some siblings (I think all sisters?)


Black rapper

Still recalling details. I was a black guy, in mid to late twenties, story is somewhat similar to above. Trying to decide on career and what not. Going through places and things. After some stuff happens (lasts about an afternoon duration) I find my father. I also find the father of a friend. The dad tried to be someone else because his son didn't have a mom, but his son is fine with his dad as he is kind of deal. We are on a train. So I talk to my dream dad and we are discussing things. He gets off and I forget to get off because I am doing some amazing rapping . I don't have money on me so what should I do? Characters from previous dream are here. One of the nice lady from the last dream gives me some money, about $3632 or something very close. I say I'll pay her back tenfolds. I get off the train and get robbed immediately lolol

wake


Karaoke audition
I had a chainsaw for the first half of the dream, I have trouble recalling what I did but it lasted for the morning to noon ish in perceived time. Met some comedians and kind of stuff I think related to showbiz kind of things.

Heads into an office, the chainsaw goes out of control, my dad helps me fix fold it up. We are getting on an elevator and I need to get off for an audition. But it's at the base flooor and the building is like 100 floors tall. I don't think I'll make it in time and the comedian from before gives me a pair of parachute and I breakthrough the elevator's window that shows the outside and jumps out. They are like do you even know how to use it!? The comedian reassures everyone else "Don't worry, it'll work out."

I head down to the surface, they are holding a singing audition. I get to my turn but my rival or something picks a bad song for me to sing. Not doing well. The comedian comes to save the day again, he picks a song and it sounds like a maroon 5 song style tunes but lyrics are different. I sing it and do kind of bad. Anyways I am leaving and I am called back for something... I can't remember.

wake


notes:

REPLAY THE DREAM events 2-3 times in your head upon wake. YOU RECALL IT PERFECT; BETTER THAN BAD SCRIBBLES!

Dream plots likely beliefs about how musicians and rappers are like, very broke unless you make it.

The LD research? Maybe getting deeper into LD practice. Before it was university, and high school etc. Now it's advanced research!

I think the dreams about singing is from me singing alot yesterday right before meditation, may have distracted me too much. I also heard a kind of rap tune in my head and things I create but didn't. Indicating fast incubation and perhaps part of me wanted to try out more. I could sing but never rap- its too fast. Thought of audition also - incubated.

But I should know this; anything music related before meditation makes me too energetic. It's fun but do not do it before meditation. I could have meditated better.

I had some pretty bad doubts in my heart. I think it started last night but it was very hard to tell and it got very strong today. Pretty tough. Probably very indicative of another growth phase of my LD practice. Temptation was very strong.

Did the best shadow work to date and I think I am super now. I am super!

I think the ld was short from doing it very early in sleep cycle from one of my awakenings, so if I choose to go hard at wild and things I should put it later into sleep. But even though I was disappointed in myself, I still did get lucid, and that's a truth I had to convince myself during shadow work.

COMPILE KEY NOTES.

Practice GRC! ALWAYS IMPROVING! LEARN FROM FAILURES! DO YOUR BEST!

ALWAYS HAVE FUN LUCID DREAMS

Was heartbroken when I awoke again, had couple of nld, maybe alot but I was uninspired to write them(also was too tired from really constant grc) . But I noted a few. I realized if I kept going with these emotions I'd lose. It hurt but I read the quote "temptation to quit is strongest before success" and I read skippers mild again. I still didn't feel it. It wasn't resistance but lack of oomph. I asked myself what would I do if I was already at my goal .?

I would visualize what I'd do.. I read a quick guide. And saw shadowy images, changed it and moved it as I once again drifted to sleep. And I did it! Lucid the entire time, I think about 7 scene changes. I belive 3-4 real awakenings where I was back in bed and I heard sounds outside, but I went back by revisualizing.

Dreams :
Missed a couple or many, didn't write down.

I bought an iPad and it was damaged, tried to repair but the board was damaged with juice. My dad was playing Mario on an android tablet. Computer. We had outside into a forest trail but I didn't want to give up on fixing it up so I went back to the office. The rooms were dark.lights didn't work. I tried all the lights and finally found one that worked.

Wake

+this is the first time I managed to get the lights working in a dream!
Also might be a memory about getting a broken electronic


Lucid chains: visualization wild?
Looked at particles behind eyes dark, formed images, let it morph or changed it.just relaxed and slowly scenes formed.
Don't remember all, was 7+ I think. Jotted down a few memorable or remembered. Was less engaged early on but got more clear and real sensation. I'll count the 4 I remember

Start visualization

Objects and stuff,

Just looking at scenery, trees mountains.

Wake

Legend of Olaf. I'm the shapeshifter yet again. I see people doing a play. The protagonist of the story is Olaf, a legendary warrior and his tales played by a handsome guy with long flowing blond hair. They only got the hair part right! I was blonde back when I was doing those feats, as I transform into the real Olaf appearance and watches the play. I walk away and t into a shadowy building dark inside. It's like a mainframe or something. Can see places or memories in each room. I had into a door.

Wake

I'm at a beach, I remembered to do something. I read the toty (toty save planet vegeta) and wanted to try learning Kamehameha. Dbz universe. I'm standing by the shore, I begin getting into the position and say Kamehameha! Boom did it but it's not long. Tried again, still more like an elongated ball. Tried other side, like a lefty, still small. I'm shooting these into the ocean as some Dbz characters are swimming or floating around. I get tired of this and decide to do it my way , I thought doing it like Freiza would be easier so I create a tiny blue orb on my finger and throw it into the ocean. I use my mind to expand the orb and its a little too effective. It's getting too big and it might hurt others so I neutralize it. Phew.

Wake

Shapeshifter again.
I'm at a door outside of an elementry school shift into a kid, some kids are picking a fight on me. Don't think I need any superpower so I just dodge and get away as they trip and fall. Have some trouble recalling. Was going through the halls there is a very large and tall girl there, I read her mind. Im suppose to be looking for this black haired boy. I go around and find him by the stairs.

Wake

I'm at a classroom in high school like setting, two girls there talking wearing Japanese uniform. I talk to them and we play a game but I start think about physical body, get worried about waking up

Wake



Notes:

Visualization worked

Visualize again when it fades, keep doing it. When the pictures start moving its close to dream

If waking up visualize again so u can reenter dream

Focus on dream, be present or awareness like grc, helps stay in dream.

Keep emotion in check. Maybe mild about calmness or just grc more


These shapeshifter series are really cool, persistence?

Mission accomplished - learned Kamehameha kind of


Yes!

Keep improving!

Always lucid every dream

Facing greatest inner adversary, overcome, grow. Before sleep hungry didn't eat, shuld eat. Distracted days before, must Practice practice practice 10000%.

1.Bliz building, 2 dollar 2 sale, chased, dress, friend's parents relatives misunderstanding, quantum theory, acceptance of who I am

2. Hunt regen, friend Disney gatcha, lifetime pass

3.climb apartment P Diana, mm selna, short hair stud

4. Marriage counseling 2 couple, lady Dorianspirit counselor, gemstones, pink quartz rod cleanese darkness, recommended oxchicken herb health

Brief lucid hand liquid

Dream figure accept me?

Very very close. Succeed!
Super lucid always every dream

couple of dreams and short ld (one started like ap but became more ld)
still recalling info on some.

Superstore, Shoes
I was in a superstore shopping around. Was recommended by my mom to donate blood or something but it was a very sketchy thing. Anyways I am looking around and find 3 pairs of running shoes left, they are pretty cool. There's a kid who couldn't get good shoes so I give away a pair. I gave him the most comfortable oneso the other ones weren't as good, they looked pretty nice though. A futuristic running shoes silver color shiny just like a mirror, had these square bits. You could fold the shoe in half like a box, very cool.

I am heading to the counter as there's a commotion going on. A bunch of people are robbing the store, one of them was the kid before. Why did I give him the shoes!
So he seems right beside the cashier and grabs me, puts a knife by my neck to hold me as a hostage as he talks to the cashier. Not this again! But this time my mom wasn't held hostage like the dream before (did I have a tiny bit of awareness?). so I pushed him away a bit, grab something small to parry his knife attack, push him back. Then I grab a chair. Chairs always work well. So I start beating him with the chair, along with all the rest of the group of thugs. It was a nice wooden chair, hard and yellow but not that heavy. It was pretty beat up at the end.

wake

AI Invasion
The dream takes place in a resort/amusement park park kind of setting. I'm receiving a backstory from the dream again! (be aware of backstories) So apparently I'm now a man around his 40-50's graying hair, caucasian, buzzcut, tan, lean and pretty handsome looking (imagine a very tanned george cloony, skinnier) . He's the main protagonist here. He's visiting the resort along with some others as kind of a tour, or to test out this resort that's ran almost entire of AI workers. The CEO of this establishment was working under the guy who we took good care of in the same tech company prior. So this young boss wanted us to come check out his place. We talk a bit. He wanted to offer me a job there, wanting my expertise from the previous company.

It was a very nice sunny day, but the sun was not sorching. Pleasant nice day.

So we are now just going around the resort/amusement park, and find outselves in a pool. I change the point of view from our MC to someone else. I'm exploring as a young guy now. As I'm heading to the change room, I meet a commedian who is very buff, he's also apparently a body builder. He does something that bother me, I forget what. I go around for a while, trying to find him. He offers me his apology and he says he will let me kick him once as an apology. So he's standing with a very wide stance, at entrance of a corridor in this pool. It's about as wide as if he were to stretch his arm pararell to the ground. So he stretches out his legs and arms and stands in kind of a start shape, or the venturian man as painted by da vinci. So I am setting up my kick but I slip and it was not that effective. Oh well.

I head out from the Pool and go to the main corridor. There is like a tag or hide and seek event going on in the whole place. If you can get away, you get a prize! So at first we are chased by human employees. There was something peculiar about the guy chasing me but I forget. Later on, the AI bots and AI controlled devices begin to chase us. Some a very large, long and tubular, maybe they are the tube parts of the water park. I look for a plac to hide in every nook and nanny but nowhere is open. I begin a birds eye point view of a fat lady who managed to get away.

(I think it became night time around here)

She went into the waters, where the bots can't reach! I am now surrounded by bots in the pool. They are all dark bots. Kind of a shark/cockroach shape. There is one boss bot that comes forward and sucks me/her in. It communicates in images rather than language. Of how the bots have gained consciousness, and their perspective of things. Visions foreshadowing the takeover of AIs.

The events end. I am heading into a cave as someone else(young guy or MC). It's the path towards the main entrance and they'll announce the winner or something. I am with a boy, long hair dirty blonde, who is super good with tech, an expert hacker. I have a futuristic AR (artificial reality) suit on, and it shows holograms and gives info about the park and other info. The kid hacks into the suit, finds details about the man who programmed the AR suit, and found his stash of porn or something. His comment was "He's got a nice stash." Anyways we get to the entrance.

I'm wearing the suit,and I see the security bots among other bots near the entrance. The AR suit's Holograms gives a holographic avator for the bots, giving them a cartoony appearance of cartoon guards and staff. As I head closer, something's wrong. The security AI goes berserk, other bots all go berserk. AI INVASION. I get attacked by the bot and loses consciousness....

(morning here or the event prior)

I awake(the MC) and I'm on a some kind of boat cafe. A cafe that's on a boat, like a mini cruiseship. There's some kids there, they're playing with their futuristic techs. One of them makes a program and asks the CEO to read it out backwards. He reads it out, it comes out to "something Lucid dreaming" lol, it was a prank from the kid and it makes his cup/food holder spew liquid at his face. Anyways the incident was taken care of somehow. And the young entrepreneur apologizes about the event, asks if he can do anything do make it better. MC says "I want a settlement... don't like feel like work, or people now" He complies and disappear into the shadow.

The police show up gradually to investigate the event. They'll probably have trouble finding anything out of place. So I casually say, "gator bots" as I walk away. They were one of the bots that went berserk. As they check out the gator bots, one begins to act a little strange begins to attack someone but... Shuts down at the last moment.... Patched?

*I think the bots found people by tracking brainwaves, hide yo brainwaves haha

wake

College
I am at a college entrance and head inside, feeling something amiss. I am walking through the halls and something just feels off. I think that it's a dream and begins to gravity rc. I try a little harder to feel the gravity and look at my toes, very fleshy and pink. Not wearing shoes. So I decided to take a closer look around, I see lockers and some benches behind the lockers. One guy is sitting on the bench, I could only see a part of him. I look away and towards my feet again.

I wake up

Spinning numbers
I wake up but I feel that AP kinda feeling. I concentrate on that feeling and I start to hear spinning kind of sound. Slowly I am gaining vision, of the bedroom, lit by the sun through the open curtains. I can see my shadow and ontop of my head I am spinning a layers of spheres ( ( ( ( ) ) ) ) on my head, upon closer inspection they are large numbers that are spinning in circular motions. As I look at that, I hear sounds from the outside. It's outside the dream and it's cars just running in a nearby road or highway. I hear their sounds and they are transformed into a carnival/theme park ride sound. Each time a car goes by, the sound transformed to the ride coming closer, and you could hear peoples screams on the ride... and away... Repeats a couple of times. I regain awareness, maybe emotional disturbance.

Wake

notes
So even the nld had a little awareness, and even dc reminding about LD.

It seems that dream themes are bleeding in to later ones.

I did some visual meditation

My mantra was lucid dream everyday... so the later dreams, sun outside, could be considered day. Perhaps adjust to day and night, to get more earlier dreams lucid.

Change scene/teleport/dilate time or something to make dreams last longer. Try incubating that.

Increase duration and frequency... and yer set!

I read some tasks of the months before sleep, I think it got incubated into my dream pretty quickly. Gonna try to incubate things that help increase the frequency/duration of LD. Or MILD for increase.

Lucid dreaming every day and night

Maybe 2 of the dreams not recalled. Will add info later if I recall or to add detail.

Can't recall notes I made in the darkness of night was too messy. May have been just hypno.


Game Baby
Twitch stream of wc3, added surround skill to orc. I thought it was op. Watching TV, I see a lady with a baby. She asks me to hold the baby for a while. Had trouble holding, this baby was big and kept moving. I drop a little near the ground 2 inches so it's ok. Hold the baby again.

Wake

More hypnog image. Appears and disappeared when I blink the inner eyes.

Aliens.
I'm waking up and feel an AP thing coming so before I get there I quickly think of (I feel it could be short) something to do. I think "meet aliens" as I get vibrations. I hear an ear piercing sound that is kind of beep boop but doesn't pierce me. Perhaps alien language. Stayed relatively calm but experience ended.

Wake.

(there may be a dream right here)

Art class. God? Petals
I'm inside a classroom. I'm exploring and find a small room that's partitioned from the main class. I enter it and there are a few students there. There may have been familiar hs classmates. I'm trying to read the interesting t-shirt or something of a girl there. It's hard to read but she walks away. I was really curious. "I was reading that!" she says something, I forget.

I go to another room of the same class and the class is about to start. All the kids are getting ready but where am I suppose to go? I find an empty desk and I see others looking, or telling me like I'm suppose to be in the class. But I'm not! I haven't been in art class for a long time.

"Is this real?" I suppose I gained awareness. I questioned what is reality. Is what is in front of me, that appears so real the reality? Or when I am awake, in my physical body in bed the reality? What is the ultimate reality? These thoughts overwhelm me.

I felt tiresome of it all. I did not feel like following the dream plot or go exploring. I just sat on the desk, placed my head on it and began sleeping. I just thought "I don't care what is real anymore, I just want to be with you (God)"

I'm feeling my body in my bed. With the ap feeling. I feel buzzing and focus on it while four green loctus petals appear in the middle of the darkness. The buzzing comes on an off, it's more gentle than the alien time... It's buzzing similar to the time when I met the man in my LD who said would teach me true meditation. The buzzing I got then was similar.

Each time it buzzed, the loctus glowed. Like firefly. This continued until the petals were replaced with a magnificent orb, glowing brilliantly in bright w light with every color of the rainbow. It also glows stronger with every buzz. It was so peaceful, serene. Loving and pure, just like that time...

Wake


Notes:

Dreams clearer lately

believe the ap ish thing that happens will last a long time.

Getting alot of hypnogogic that disperses. These became Ld before, what changed? Look into a way to make it stable. Could be a great wild. It disperses while blinking or staring. Perhaps this will automatically improve when grc becomes auto.

Getting consistent lucidity but,
Need to plan something specific to do, when lucid. Maybe add that to mild or visualize.

Progress is great

Do mild, shadow work, grc!

Lucid dreaming all the time!

++extra edit notes
Thought of art class in between sleep. Likely the source of dream, very fast incubation time.

"is this for real?" is lyric of lucid dream song i made and sing sometimes. May have helped. Should I share it?

Green is heart Chakra, 4 is root. I often visualize a world where everyone loves each other. The base (root) of that worlds existence is love. The orb is a thing. Source of all. As portrayed to me in a Ld.

Perhaps practice visualization more again, I think those times I could turn hypno into Ld easily.

Super lucid dreaming always

I decided to nap. Will clarify if I... Everything felt real .


Saw a pyramid moving in the air rotating. Gain awareness control movements and wake up.


Find myself in an old house there's an old dude there with 3 laptops. I check them out. One has broken keyboard. One is new. He says watch out for your mom outside. It's a bad area. I go outside. I see bad kids going in the car I tell her to get out . She's held hostage. There's an afro kid but white skin with knife. Can't do much. Stabbed in neck to my left. I die. I feel my death.

Black women singing in snow about how knowledge is important. I am laying on backyard lawn that's rising up 45 degrees from the house. I lay in thin layer of snow.. I think about knowledge is important but you need more than knowledge. Wake


I am in a diner. The kind that's similar to one you see in pulp fiction at start. It's not a diner but a safe house. There are a bunch of people there. I go around and head out. There is a girl in black clothing she stands out. A girl in hoodie wants to be my friend. We walk towards her home and she wants to get my phone so we can play. Phone out info shared. Heading back i get into trouble. Girl with sword tells me to not leave diner. May have gotten into a dangerous situation here.

Somehow ended up back in diner. I'm exploring and a bunch of guys are digging out the flooring. The inside of the floor has a basement filled with huge salami or spam. They want to remodel. I ask why not eat it?I leave the diner. I end up eating some of it.

I see a girl who tells me to follow her. I do for a bit. She takes me to a place... Prostitution. I start walking away. Her hand grabs me and it tingles. I run away. I see a fat girl with a sword chasing me. I run harder. I grab long pieces of wood to deflect the attacks. Run deflect run. I find a door to the diner but it's not the safe part of it, it's empty.. The safe house is in the middle where the people were. I had into a door,it's not safe yet, no ones there. I see two more doors, large and small. I enter the small one because I think other one is locked. It's a janitor storage closet. There's a short knife there, with leather straps all pretty cool looking. I grab it. I saw legs of that girl trying to come from under the door and I stab them. I jump up the top of the door. Stab Stab stab. Run into the safe house.

I wake up and I am in a dormitory, I find two kids with black hair there and talk about my nightmare. Not getting through kind of. Scared.. I think I wake up again I know I'm dreaming by now. I'm in a bedroom and I try to get up again. Still in a different bedroom. I hear sounds outside of this dream. I know that I can wake up, but do I want to wake up? Am I stuck in this dream? Do I want to keep exploring? I wake up and still am dreaming. I felt some urge to pee. Should I continue?

I gravity rc. Still there but maybe could tell something was off. I tell myself "is gravity normal? Otherwise wake up." snap fingers and slowly

I wake up




These dreams.... I ran away from home. That person. That person made me do dirty things. That person used me for money. That person said "love u". .. I was a fool. Said would kill me, called the cops. Got myself out.

Can I be clean?do I deserve love?

I accept myself then, for being a fool. I am ready .Next time I'll succeed. Next time I'll be aware. I'll move through the pain. Next time I'll be like a tornado, unstoppable.

Thank you my inner self, for trying to protect me. You were that girl in black probably.

Maybe it was all of you, you made me lucid didn't you? Thank you.

The light huh... Shining upon my darkness.

I'll keep going though. I'm tired of giving up.

My goal is set, it only hurts momentarily. If I must face it for lucidity and better me then so be it.

Thank you

Always lucid dreams

"The temptation to give up is the strongest right before you succeed"

I know I must be doing it right then. Just like last time I wanted to give up.

Bearing my heart open now and it pains me. The pain is so great. Especially when you truly want something. When you truly put all your heart into it. Even more so with what appears so elusive.

Many will give up from this pain. Many will give up their true desires, whatever their dreams may be. But this pain of growth is only temporary. But the pain of regret would last forever. Whatever the spiritual beliefs, if the soul be immortal, perhaps the regret makes you come back... To the cycle of reincarnation, knowing very well that the physical entails with its many innate flaws.

Nevertheless the pain is real. To be truly lucid, and fully aware of it all, makes it all the greater. To keep the eyes peeled when you must face that monster, and stare at it right in the eyes.

That monster is me. Of all my regrets and all the times previous I have given in to that pain. And that monster will grow yet still, if I give in again.

The monster is not so scary after all. It is just lonely, it wants to be loved, and play with you after all. An angel, a blessing in disguise .

I give up. I give up on giving up. I'm tired of failing. So instead I'll just succeed. Because I'm even more tired of giving up.

Success is neigh because the temptation has never been greater.

I give up looking the other way.

Practice. Practice. Keep practicing. Before b you know, it you're already there.

Shadow work. Do it everyday.


DJ
1 dream, Chinese people modded d3 game. Barbarian. Low to high res.

Catching my fingers in slightly different position in bed, being too aware and awoke.

Should I stop coming to DV? Seeing people giving up was negatively affecting me.

Should I stop gravity rc? I said 14 days so I should follow up. Is it worth the stress? Next time I catch myself focusing on body part when something weird happens I'll focus on gravity. That will keep me away from focusing too much on body.

Hahh.. Just told myself this.

MILD. Do more mild.

It snowed last night, but winter will soon end.
Might snow one more time. It rained before that so I couldn't mediate outside. Need to take vitamin d or find a way to get more sun. That affects my mood.

Summer is coming.

Just learned how to edit DJ! This is great!

Be more aware instead of focusing. Focusing too much wakes .Just be aware.. Like aware of gravity, breath or thought

Lucid dream all the time!

Had trouble dreaming, many HI. Just went ahead to get more sleep and had 1 very short dream and failed ap thing. Still rem depraved I think.

Went to sleep
HI
Awake and immediately did GRC
Sleep
HI
Wake.
HI

Short dream:
It was Movemver, bunch of guys on a long cafeteria table were comparing their beards and mustaches. All sorts of mustaches and beards. I take a look and walk around. I crash into a camera. Finds Joey from vat19 they were filming and ask me if I'm ok, camera lights are hot.

Wake

Sleep
Wake, Get buzzing, I focus on it, it gets pretty loud, see if I can get out of body. Failed. Arms and body numb but I can move easily. Perhaps too excited. Neck was tense, could be related.


Key notes :

So it's good progress. I did rc as I woke up, felt my body touching the bed. That means the rc is setting in. Had I been in rem state it would be a Ld!

My theory regarding grc and meditation causing rem depravation may be correct. It may make you too aware for rem initially.

Failed ap may be due to body tension, will relax and soften today. So close!

MILD. I did mild and shadow work yesterday but I know I did not do it 100 too effectively. But today I did it well and am excited.

No Ld but were very close considering how little rem I had. Should I ease on grc before and on bed so I get more rem? Would def be easier if I had more dreams.

Could it be mental exhaustion from doing grc? Increased sws duration to adapt or something.

Always improving super oneironaut.

A little sleep deprived I think, perhaps could have had more dreams. 2 dreams, first one was long, perhaps even separated by microawakenings, may have FA. Second is shorter, but had awareness, failed RC.

Dream 1- Shape-shifting Immortal (FA)
I receive a backstory from the dream(should become more aware of any backstories). My appearance varied and changed with the shift of time, elusive as the shadow, yet leaving footsteps in legends and lores through passage of time. I am an immortal being looking for her father, appearance of late teens, dark hair with blue sheen(changes through the dream), attractive with the innocent brilliant sheen in her eyes dark blue more beautiful than any sapphire.

I am strolling in an outdoor environment that I perceived as somewhere between the slums and the country side of motherland Russia, somewhat empty, cold and bleak-white grey colored streets. I had ended up here somehow, but I need to get back! I need to go back to Japan! But how am I to get back? I could speak no Russian.

There were some people walking by, and I knew that some of them would likely be able to help me get to an airport.

So I asked around, "Does anyone speak english?" in moderate volume, loud enough for a close enough vicinity to hear, but would not disturb anyone.

May have been a bad idea, I may have been approaching the slum territory, and what if I get into trouble now? But I kept going around, asking.

"Hello" said a male voice.

It was a trio of late teen or early tween men. One was more stoutly built, and quite tall with short blonde hair and while his face reminiscent of a young Putin, although stockier. One was slightly shorter than him with short black hair, thin with average build, somewhat arabian/european face. Thired one was a younger looking, pink hair (lol) short and cute looking.

At initial glance I thought they were trouble but they were okay. We talk a little and they asked my help to infiltrate the base of a local gang-ish thing and I agreed for some reason. Perhaps they told me they'd helped me get back. Or maybe I wanted to help improve the living standards of ppl here or something.

So as we were discussing the plan on how we would proceed, I feel a presence watching me... from where? Above! I see a device resembling an eye and use my mind's eye to look through it, and trace it back to its owner. An evil sorcerer. I see through his eyes and read all of his thoughts.

He was a very aged old man, living past normal human years with the use of his dark magical arts, his skin wrinked and saggy while his cheeks drooped down past his chin. He wore a dark red robe/ cloak that hid his head and most of his body. He was the one running the gang from the shadows. Then he sensed that he was being watched. But from where? He could find no one in his dimly lit, dark-red lair with only faintest glow.

"Has someone hijacked my mechanical eyes?!" He thought.

They were as described, eye shaped devices, made with mechanical parts. It was shaped like an eyepiece of a microscope, a lens in the middle, which resembled an eye, and cone-shaped bronze colored metal tubing around lenses, which allowed him to conduct his mana and control the eyes. He would control one piece, which would feed a immediate visual feedback to himself, with the additional lenses helping to redirect and magnify the vision across long distance throughout the city. Like the all-seeing eye, he oversaw the whole city.

He went through each eye, floating up in the air for any mana signature that he could trace back to the direction of the spy, yet he found none. He reached the final lens, overlooking the park with a small lake. There was a young woman with pink hair that the eye was looking at, who was casually conversing with the 3 men around her. What? Could that be the one who is responsible? But how!? Mana can only be harnessed with the use of an alchemical device. It must be a mistake. It must... To maintain his sanity, he dismissed the idea.

(I had pink hair so I could pose as pinky's sister)

Our group entered the gang's secret base. Apparently Pinky (the pink hair I'll use this as his nickname), was the one selected as the prime candidate as a recruit or something similar. So we decided that I would disguise myself as pinky. I morphed myself and became as replica of his visage. We took a few moments to practice his personal habits and intricate tenancies before proceeding. He had a habit of pushing out his lower jaw way forward and making a funny face whenever he spoke, so we practiced that.

So 3 of us without pinky, entered the main layer of the gang's base.

I was tired after the meeting and fall asleep, within the dream.

I wake up in a bed, a bedroom that's used by the gang members. I felt tired. I watched a video on a tablet and didn't feel like doing much. I speak with the trio and as we are watching tv, I am beginning to recall some events. My awareness shift from my dream body into my visual recall.

I had likely defeated the bosses of the group, while the sorcerer escaped. There had been an entity that oversaw the sorcerer whom I had to deal with.

Back to the moment. I shift my being into an unfamiliar visage. A lion-like manbeast, with some unique abilities. Awareness going back to the visual memory.

I was facing the three-headed beast, a being that had 3 heads. It had a beast-kin like body with strong musculature, slightly yellow fur and claws like the lion. The face to the left was the manbeast from earlier, the one in the middle was a beautiful lady with dark hair, in a ponytail, the third to the right... I can't recall

I distract them with a small shockwave, then I morphed into the form of the manbeast, and I sucked the soul and ability of the manbeast of the three headed beast through my hand. The head and a part of its body disappeared, his abilities were now forever mine. I had changed and absorbed the one to the middle as well. Now there was only one left. He did not have any spectacular features that I can remember. I think I spared him. He will now serve me, he was kind of bullied by the other 2 so he didn't really mind. I now rule this area from its shadows! I shall transform it into a better place.

Back to exhausted me, watching TV. A very hideous human sized fly creature was yapping on the news. It had random gloubles of black baseball-sized balls that grew from its face that somewhat resembled caviar, it grew about every 5-10 inches intervals. It's face was about the 3 times the size of the human face. I was exhausted. Too tired to do anything. Exhausted in waking life so exhausted in dream. And this thing was so gross! I think it had sensed my mana signature from my fight earlier, and openly challenged me on TV.

No I didn't feel like it. Let's go to sleep, yes I'm really tired. I sent the trio to deal with him.

Wake up.

Could represent gaining powers, dream powers. Learning, absorbing.
**Edit*Feeling lost initially is trauma. Got lost in situation like described below. Mom didn't pick me up from school on first day she was very late. I decided to go home myself maybe find her on the way or something. Ended walking 10km in opposite direction. Got dark. Cried and a construction worker who was black called the cops for me. Eventually got home.. But still even the police didn't speak the same language.. Was scared. Was pretty late when I got home. I needed rest. Wish I could have stayed home next day to calm down. Many being lost dreams likely stems from this very event. That feeling of wanting to go back to Japan.

Dream 2 mattress apartment failed RC

So I was in a house, somewhat similar to home. We (mom dad me), decided to go on kind of business trip to England or something similar. We end up staying at an apartment. What stood out the most was that the kitchen in the apartment was identical to the neighbhour's kitchen. Almost identical. We proceed to the living room and find two mattresses there, without sheets. In the end I am in the living room with one of the mattresses. I am just walking around the room and I kind of have this urge to pee. While walking I gain some awareness and tries an RC, I try to poke my hand through with my finger. Yet it fails. Disappointed I walk towards the bathroom. Did I pee myself? I check. O god maybe a little. As I head towards the bathroom. I see the bathtub filled with water. Should I let it out? No. (maybe a FA, during the latest part of this)

I wake up. No I was totally fine lol. I go pee after jotting down both dream key events.

+++So what's key is that I randomly got the awareness during this dream. I think this may be from GRAVITY RC. I found that during my practice, I could feel the gravity the most when I was walking. I do still have many parts I need to work on but this is great! At first I didn't notice it was I think it was a split-second of gravity RC that induced the awareness for me to RC. I may require a bit more time to forget the hands RC.


Bad Memories
So the part about mattress and the living room raises some deepset feelings that I needed to release from within me. As I recalled the dream throughout the day, I realized I uncovered something that I forgot about.

I was starting my exercise and I just cried a little while recalling forgotten stuff.

I was little. I had moved recently. It was a different country. We moved into a crappy apartment. One bedroom. While my parents stayed in the bedroom. I stayed in the living room, with a piece of mattress. It was uncomfortable. It was noisy. It had a hamster that we got from a friend that made noises every few moments. It had the annoying buzzing sounds of electronics plugged into the wall. I did not sleep well. Stayed here for half a year or a year.

Maybe I'm being a drama queen if you think that's not bad. But it wasn't the only thing... There was just too many things piled together that drove me to the wall. I had to relearn a language, my parents spoke their mother tongue, instead of the language I was comfortable with, and kids at school spoke english. Just great. My father enjoyed belittling me with his mother tongue. And who do I talk to for emotional support... No one spoke the same language. Not one person. I was alone. All alone. Not a single person I could speak to, confide to, cry to, laugh with...

Alone at school, I was expected to somehow know which class to go to... What to do. I had this shitty kid who was suppose to help me with things... they thought that since he spoke the mother tongue he could help me... no he was useless, thought I was nuts. Lunch time sucked too... My mother had bought the cheapest most convinient thing she could find. It was these mini-pizzas that were a dollar for a bundle of 4 or 8. It had a paper thin bits of cheese with maybe some pepperoni. Tomato taste without a hint of basil or any herbs. It was microwaved, then thrown into a plastic bag. Soggy and sour by the time it was lunch. I ate it, threw away some sometimes. Never complained, I never complained about anything. I atleast, wanted comfort in food. I don't think a dog would eat it unless it was on the verge of death.

I just experienced the feelings a little. I just wanted love.. at that time. Something to enjoy at that time. Video game to escape the reality. But atleast video game kept me sane at that time, likely. Will you release me now? Is it done... or more? Later that day I talked about this event and little more to my parents when I had the chance. Torrents of waterfall. I told them that I blamed no one, but that I really needed to let it out.

Well maybe if any kids read this u oughta let your parents know your feelings. Or maybe you're a parent, I know you got it tough, kids waking you up middle of the night , gotta take em to school, make em food, and you barely get any rest. But remember do tell them you love em. Maybe they aren't nearby you... well why don't you give em a call... tell em you love them.

I ended my physical exercise I started earlier. Went to my meditation.

During my meditation I tried an experiment and sent energy from my heart like I read the QT2 book, just to see what would happen. One of the squirrels just stopped and looked my way, for a while. Got distracted and he left. I noticed before that if I can read a certain state during meditation, squirrels would just come by and stand near me.

I felt a thorn in my heart, as I accessed my heart chakra area though... still had blockages. I tried to feel love. But I felt pain. I... can I be loved? Please love me I prayed... I raised my arms in the air, I prayed, to the sun, to the sky, to the world, to the universe, to all the other dimensional beings, loving, living or non living. I send you what love I have... Please send me your love. Show me.

Love like the sunlight, always constant, always in the morning
Let mine heart be opened and let me accept love, inside and out
Let mine heart shine with the love of infinite suns, light everlasting
Lit the shadow of ignorance, guide me with might, insight

Sun is not enough, much like scorched earth, desert
Ocean of emotions, when it rise and clouds my mind,
Let tears flow and ease the pain
Like the sorched earth without rain
...

I parted my hands to my side, and slowly brought them back to the stomach. I felt something. my heart chakra felt opened. The thorns surrounding it, are they gone? I send message of love to infinity. Please reply, show me the love infinity.
Back to meditation. Back to Gravity RC.

Remember to do Gravity RC.


Gravity RC notes
I noticed that it was easiest to practice gravity RC when I was walking. And the tiny moment of lucidity was when I was walking. Das is gut.

Walking and standing is easiest, because of the movement and shift in the gravity.

Need most work when using computer or using the phone. Any activity which is mentally active, but physically pretty inactive, is a little challenging. Improve that.

So gravity RC is working that's great! 3 days in a row of lucid events! YES! Daily lucidity into always lucidity.

But don't forget to do gravity RC. Do it right now.


I feel great Daily into every super lucid dreams