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Journal Entry Lucid #8 Dream,Lucid, Comments)
Background: I watched an inspirational video when I did WBTB, I woke up around 3 am, I slept around 4:30 am . It was about success and becoming successful. I also watched a video about Mohammed Ali saying "I will show you how great I am". I watched this before bed. I didn't read about LD though. I went to sleep and I accepted that if I don't get a LD it is because I didn't work hard. Not because I can't have one. I said to myself 'I will show you how great I am'. I kept saying this imagining myself become lucid.

I had a dream but I got awoken up by my alarm at 5:50. I went back to sleep and got this.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:20pm-2:30am"": I was in some room and we were told to decorate something. This girl followed me around and I walked up to her and I said, "what is your name?"she said, "Cindy". She looked down at her shoe all shy. I walked around my sister's room she had art pieces that I have never seen on canvas. Her room is usually a mess so I didn't see it as much. I met some nurses on my way. They were telling me that they were nurses before they even had a degree. I came back to the room and Cindy already decorated it for me. She yelled surprise and everybody pops out of their hiding spot. The decoration looked colorful and vibrant but mostly childish and innocent. Their was flowers and little trees. I told her it looked magnificent and that she knows how to decorate. I thought in my head though, it is still a bit childish but it is fine.

This guy came tripped over a tree Cindy made and he rolled on a movable chair and he kept rolling around for a while. We were all laughing. It seemed that we were in a different context as he fell. The scene changed with out my notice. We were now in some sort of comedy sketch. Apparently porn stars came to watch the comedy sketch. These were not porn stars but people I know in waking life, they are not friends of mine just people that I see around some times. I laid down on three chairs as I watched the comedy sketch. I became aware of that and I thought I wouldn't normally act like this. I started becoming self conscious about myself but for some reason stopped caring. DC were getting upset because I was talking to my friend. They kept looking at me with disgust. Then the alleged porn stars started talking about their nipple piercing. I was still laying down so I didn't see it, but every one else that saw it became disgusted by it. The one that showed her nipple piercing left to her boyfriend. Apparently he forced her to get the piercing. I went outside with my friends to see the drama. I see this guy walking behind her, skinny scrawny guy. It looked like DMX. I started laughing, I said, "DMX is like give me back my crack women!". The DC started laughing with me, I didn't like what I said, I felt sad that I was laughing at somebody's misfortunes. This DC started starring at me, he gave me a death stare. I said to him, "If DMX didn't smoke crack he would be a better role model". He snapped out of the trance, and he said, "ah huh yeah". He grabbed a basketball and he made it. Then I caught the rebound. They had about three now. It kept coming to me. This guy walked by me with his basketball. We switched off. I left them to go inside.

I saw about 3 or 4 people. I thought there is no way all those people left through the door that I walked from. Their was a bigger door in front of us but I thought they couldn't leave that fast. Let me do a RC. I looked at my hands and counted 1..2..3..4...5 but as I was doing this I noticed that for each hand there was multiple copies of one finger as I moved it to count. I realized I was dreaming. I said I am dreaming to the DC. She looked at me without a care in the world. I told her to get out my way. She didn't want to move. I started to get very angry. I tried stabilizing the dream but couldn't. It got dark. I told myself to let go a little of my lucidity.I started seeing this bright light shaking and making, "Vhmmmm" noises.I lost full lucidity and had a dream about being on a YouTube video

Journal Entry non-lucid #34 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I didn't do any type of meditation. I didn't do any incubation or visualizations.

Dream fragment 1, 8:13pm-2:52am."": I remember walking to the living room. My sister was watching sponge-bob with me. She gave me a sandwich, she asked me to put something on it. As I was walking to the kitchen I thought what was that darn thing she asked for. I opened up drawers. I walked back to her and I said what did you want again? she said mayonnaise, I asked mayo or mayonnaise? not catching they are the same thing my sister said mayonnaise, I didn't catch it either. I went outside and I saw this machine that spun around squirting water all over the place and it propels itself.

I also remember my mother telling me about spirituality, and the part I remember most was an advice she gave me, "remember what makes you happy and try to let go what doesn't".I thought this was a much needed advice. I woke up feeling like crap on my neck and I realized I was tossing and turning nearly the whole night.