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"Violence is only disgusting the first few times, then you get used to it."

Then scene change and I'm at my house and African warlords drove to my neighborhood and they went to my house and started practicing their weapons in my house. They used a couple of different weapons, and changed my bathroom into a room with a brick wall and a target with a bulls eye hung on the wall.

At this point the rebel Africans training made me think of borderlands so the whole scene changed into a mix of borderlands and steam punk. I was with my friends in the this town were doing hamster mutilation which was different ways of removing the bottom half of 4 hamsters, it was quite strange, first they started chopping off each leg individually, then removing the torso. Next they inflated the hamster and just pinched off the bottom half of the hamster so it was taking all the air and it popped off, don't remember the other methods they used. I thought they might be mutilating the hamsters for a game, but when I looked at the tutorial for the game, there were all kinds of mutilation techniques but I didn't see anything about hamster.
Yes... the thing that confused me was the fact that the instruction manual didn't say anything about hamster mutilation, not the fact that they were killing hamster.
I tried to throw a grenade to blow up the people doing the mutilation but the grenade mod instead put up a force field around them.

Not patient enough here - maybe I'll edit it more extensive - but for now:

Since some days I do around 5 min. of meditation - only watching my breath and quieting my inner chatter - got to write more on that, too.

And - I sleep with a sleeping-mask since 2 days - that might have played a role as well.

And - I read up a bit on Melatonin, which I sometimes use, when I have sleeping troubles - and I found people swearing on it for LD and info, that a dose of 15 mg is completely harmless.
So - 5 pills I popped - I slept altogether maybe 12 h - no other side effects - woke up fresh.


Edit - bit tired I am today - and I have put up a post in TOTM, which I want to put in here, too:

It's not available over the counter here.
But do not worry:

Studies in humans have shown melatonin toxicity to be remarkably low with no serious negative side effects even at high doses (3 to 6.6 g) administered over a period of 35 days.159,160 Nevertheless, minor reactions to melatonin supplementation such as sleepiness, vivid dreams, headache, abdominal pain, and nausea have been reported to occur occasionally in a small proportion of individuals.

From: LE Magazine, January 2004 - Report: Melatonin and Cancer Treatment

You can find the references there.
Cancer patients receive around 80 mg a day in in other studies - and now please consider - it has been shown to be safe in 3-6.6 grams over 35 days - not milligrams. 6000 mg/35 d = 171 mg a day, if they mean 6 g over the whole period and not per day.

There are threads in the supplement department that seem to say, Melatonin does go against REM and lucidity and vividness and should be taken to be able to fall asleep with stimulating other supps.
This is completely wrong. It enhances vividness and is conductive to lucidity - this I read in several places - and my own experience was really impressive.
I had never taken more than 6 mg for falling asleep before - while I can sleep wonderfully like that - it seems not enough to be noticeable in the dream-department.
Of course one instance doesn't say a lot - I will report, once I do it again!
Something else - with ageing - our natural levels decline - maybe a hint at why children tend to vivid and also lucid dreams..?



Stupid just I didn't journal but slept on after my 3 lucid instances - and so I forgot almost everything.

Good that I did a TOTM and doing it I firmly remember:

First I jumped from the balcony on which I got lucid (old house - noticed it!! - yayy!), which was a bit funny cause I jumped and then hung in the air motionless.
And I didn't want to make flying motions or anything - but in the end I did - good ol' air-swimming..
Swam about a bit - then I saw a woman sitting on a bench and watching birds on the ground - colourful ones in the size and shape of sparrows.
They were walking about in rows, which turned and they walked a pattern like that - hard to describe - I almost forgot what I wanted over watching them.
Then - as I had imagined doing it irl - I "remembered" that there was a little knob to turn to open my chest up. After so many people have reported problems with reaching through their breast-bone - I thought, that would be practical - and it was.
I opened up - reached in with my hand - and got to grip a slimy blob - it didn't beat - it quivered, but more like it wanted away from my grasp.
Got it - tried to take it out, but it was quite fixed to blood-vessels - in the end I had to really rip to get it, which felt weeird - not painful - but I felt the ripping. Looked very realistic, did my heart - only the colour was a bit less than fresh!
My DC didn't like that whole manoeuvre at all - she screamed and ran away - me behind her - and in the end, I threw it at her, but I didn't hit her - she was gone then.
I decided this must be enough.


Later in another instance - I tried to phase through a window - but it broke and by that I got pain from the shards in my hands - weird - heart-ripping is painless - but a window causes me illusionary pain..







There was much more - but I'm too lazy now..

Was breaking free of some area, had a shotgun was blasting at people, made a break for the streets, was walking away from the scene I escaped, then BAM shot in the leg I fall. I think about taking my shotgun and ending myself briefly, but don't, then a man comes up to me and offers me a hand up and I am able to get back on the run and get to the trees/woods/dirt place. I find a dirt cave and hide.

"Sometimes you look at the aftermath of a horrible event with a feeling of pride"

Had a semi lucid dream today. I had no real idea that I was dreaming other than the fact the l that the dream was a previous nightmare so I was walking through it remembering the fun times I had.


I don't know if I actually had this dream or not before but I do know that the monster chasing me was a T.Rex and I spawned a T.Rex yesterday.

The dream was a town that was pretty safe at the real time, but I kept having flashbacks to when I was being chased by the dinosaur. It was a mix off nostalgia, fear, and cheerfulness as I remembered each impossible thing I had to do to escape the dinosaur.

One of those tasks to escape the dinosaur was to run up a destroyed 3 story building and hide behind the small walls that remained while the dinosaur was just outside the building.

At the end of the dream I was in a line with a child missing his parents and I told him that his parents where still at their cousins house. I then imagined his parents killed by a group of adults and their corpses burnt so I believe that in the dream I was lying.

"Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you."

I get home from school and my dad brings out an old puppet that he says is decently creepy. This worries my sister a little bit but I am quite curious what he will bring out.
First he brings out the body which is in a blue puffy costume, like a clown outfit, and it starts to walk around on it's own a little and that makes me sister gasp in surprise, but I'm laughing at how awkward it looks while trying to walk around.

Then my dad finds the head of the puppet and right when he puts the head on the puppet changes completely and I have a feeling that the puppet is all wrong. My sister is already gone, and my dad disappeared somewhere but I hear my sister screaming. The puppet's body becomes very skinny and long and black, I don't know what it's face was like, or even the back of it's head for some reason, even in the dream I couldn't see it correctly.

Right when it gets it's head it changes it's movements as well and I keep forgetting that the puppet is actually a puppet and not a real human, and every time I remember that its a puppet I get very surprised. It starts talking but I have no idea what it was saying, I don't think it was even words, just the feeling of it talking and it's general calm composure. The screaming at this point gets higher pitched.

My dream ends when it's dancing around for some reason and I hug it to show that I accept it as a person and that I'm not afraid of it. But right when I do the live face of the puppet becomes dull and his hand that is hugging me and patting me on the back feels cold and dead, like a piece of porcelain being hit against my bones. That horrified me and woke me up for quite some time.

At the end I couldn't hear anything except for screaming and the knocking of the cold hand against me.

"You can't always get what you want" -Rolling Stones

At 8:30 I had a nightmare and used the structure of the dream to make me lucid. I was put on a roller coaster ride and I thought this would be a great time to try my dream goal of swimming with those whale things. So I went on the cart and went through the slightly creepy ride until I saw a giant pool of water in a giant cave. I tried to spawn a whale in the water but instead it spawned a T.Rex which wanted to eat me. It came out of the ground at the bottom of the huge pool and swam up to get to me. While it was coming for me some heavy metal rock started to play.
When it got to me I already grew tired of trying to erase it using my mind and started to tear apart its face with my hands. The flesh was a easy to rip texture but slightly slimy like raw chicken. The inside of its mouth was very shiny but pink like the inside of anyone's mouth.

It was interesting since while I was tearing it apart I kept adding more teeth to the dinosaur so at one point it had teeth on the inside of its cheeks.

"Somethin about those little pillz unreal the thrillz they yield until they kill a million brain cells." -Green Velvet

The dream was about a drug that we were supposed to monitor cause we were narcotics and astronauts (totally not related other than I kept having flashbacks about being in space). The drugs were hidden inside a rubber ball that didn't bounce, and the drug itself looked like a chewable tablet and had the name of the drug maker on it in big letters that were a different color from the tablet.
First one of the people on my team got excited since he recognized the drug makers name and took the drug and passed out, then I was curious and took the drug as well. The only effect it had was that my vision was blurry.I spit it out quickly since I was starting to pass out as well. When I spit it out it turned into some long red thing that looked almost like a plastic transformer (the toy).

So two nights in a row for lucids, two last night. They haven't lasted longer than a few seconds for the last two nights. Guess I need to go back to stabilizing more before I get moving in the dream. I had 5 dreams I remembered clearly but only annotating the lucids on here.

Pre bed - 3mg Melatonin, 500 mg Valerian at 10pm
WBTB - 2mg G, 250mg C, 250mg Val, .3 mg Melatonin. 4am. (usually do this earlier but alarm didn't go off)

1. In a grocery store at a red box. I was trying one of my CC that has been acting up lately (worn out strip) and it wouldn't take it. I ran it over and over again. A couple got behind me in line and this added to my frustration. I looked for my other CC but I couldn't find it in my wallet. I did find another card but it was probably for a grocery store to get discounts. I got out of line frustrated. I turned around and got ready to walk out. I was at the end of all of the check out lines and reached in my pocket to get my keys. I pulled them out and half were missing. This frustration led me to do a RC and I found I had 6 fingers. LUCID: I immediately thought of dog biscuit TOTM and began to walk and whirled out of the dream. This is probably my shortest lucid to date.

2. I was lying in bed sleeping and heard the TV. I thought maybe I was dreaming since the TV wasn't on when I went to bed. This may have been a FA WILD but I am not sure. I had a couple of dreams after the last lucid before this one. Anyways my eyes seemed like they were glued shut or I was just so very tired. I finally managed to get them open and I was in a bedroom. I looked at my hand and saw five fingers, but I wasn't really convinced. I struggled with my covers a lot and then finally managed to get out of bed. I looked at my hand again and thought I saw a faint 6th finger. This was not my bedroom but a bedroom I had at my dads house when I was in high school. No bells went off yet though. I went to the window and looked out. I saw trees and a street beyond them, it was very peaceful outside and still dark out. I tried to look at my hands again and again a faint 6th finger but it was still dark in the room. I walked to the bedroom door to the light switch and on the way there I pinched myself under the arm. Didn't feel anything, but still not convinced. I then turned on the light switch and it didn't work. I looked and there were several different plates. I switched another on and the lights came on. I looked at my fingers now and had seven on one hand. I checked the other and had 7 as well. Lucid: I thought of going downstairs and getting a dog biscuit, again I immediately spun out. Not sure what is going on lately. Guess I need to work on stabilizing a little more once becoming lucid and I am a little calmer.

Dream 1

I find myself in a living room of some kind sitting there with my fiance. She is talking to me about how she doesnt believe in Lucid dreaming and that its dumb and fake. I tell her that i have to disagree as right now I am lucid dreaming(im not really) I tell her that i can prove it to her by simply playing a few games with her and I can still win because I can control the dream as I am dreaming it. We turn on an old nintendo and put in a few games. One of them was a racing game We played it and i closed my eyes and kept racing and won the game I opened them and said see look i could see the turns in my head because I was controling it. We then put in another game and it was a tank shooting game. I closed my eyes but this time it was harder to control I could tell i was missing several shots due to the fact that my tank and another tank looked so much alike I cheated and peeked and saw which one i was and closed my eyes again and then destroyed the game by shooting every tank and blowing them instantly. I smiled and opened my eyes and told her that I wasnt lieing and that I was lucid dreaming and sharing the dream with her. She finnaly agreed and we just went about doing random things.

Dream 2.

I was in my old town and was driving my Jeep. I was mind my own business going slow when the front tire basicly blew up. I got out and thought that was weird... So i got out got into my old car and headed down a street. I got a ways and my car began to shake very violently I thought to myself what is going on? I looked around and then boom! my front left tire on this car blew up as well. I got out looked at and thought how the hell is this happening.. I got back in and im like screw it im almost to my parents house i can drive it the rest of the way like this. So i did just that i hoped in and went slow and drove the car to my parents house. When i got there it was our old home before it was remodeled my parents were clearing out my old room and for some reason i had lots of dishes in my room and my parents were trying to say that they were nasty and there was cum in the cups and stuff. I told them that is nasty that even thought i would do that and they finnaly were like Oh your right it was just ramen??

Dream 3.

I went to a church and sat with some family friends. It felt like somebody was after us but I couldnt really tell who or why. We stood up and began to leave but one of them forgot their camera so i bent down to grab it and they were gone.

Dream 4

I went to a college and was talking to this girl(dont recall any details about her) she was helping me with the class kind of seemed like a teacher but also a student. I had a new book but then after looking away and back at it there was pencil writing all over the book and it looked horrible. there was also random papers inside the book that were not mine.

Dream 5.

I was superman and I was flying around but I would hit theese spots above water that was a weird gravity flux. It would make me fall down and not be able to fly. I destroyed them one by one and some how made a bunch of rocks go flying into space. I hid myself amongst the rocks as there was some people looking for me. I made my way back to earth shortly after and hit the biggest Gravity flux of them all. I fell down into this snowy ice area and broke off the outershell to this thing. it turned out to be somebodies house that was designed just like the other gravity things I tried to break into it but it had an energy barrier and i couldnt break it but i could pull it and everything. I pulled part of it out and a secuity system activated and it threw me to the ground and poured out this teal colored liquid. It then said out loud YOu can only destroy me when you know the amount of ounces you need . I figured out i needed alot of this luquid and then i needed to stab it when a very long and sharp object. I then began to do jut that and broke the shield.

Dream 6.

I was captured with some other people inside of this giant base. Bad guys were keeping us locked up and then for some reason decided to let us out. We got away from them but then got locked up inside a different cage. Each cage had a different look to it which we found out was because it was custome made for us. One guy had a cage that had all white walls but the ground was all red (dexter related) he was saying it had to do probably with when he can first recall he was found in a white room that was covered in blood on the floor. My room was orange but had white lines on it and there was a few others that had rooms to. The dream became more of a movie and i was watching it in third person seeing the badguys then the good guys. The good guys eventually broke out again and got away and that is when I woke up

drempt i came back from college and my mom and grandma had been in the past really racist but they decided to stop. my grandma said "were learning honey and thats all you can ask"

i was hapapy to be back in the house as a servant.

then my old friend mark ryan was there and i brough him some coffe. i forgot it wasnt insta coffe though and i just put the grounds in some milk with no hot water and it tasted really bad

#285 - DEILD - 4:35AM

I wake slightly realizing I lost consciousness trying to WILD and go right back into it. I feel odd and begin to her my son crying. It sounds echoy and strange so I tell myself he's not really crying. I transition and go to my son's room. I see my wife on the floor changing his diaper. I begin to wonder if she is really in here with him and think that I must look like a ghost to her. She doesn't seem to notice me so I move close to her ear and start singing the theme song to The Monkees. I actually surprise myself how much I know of that song.Suddenly, my wife disappears. I see my son playing around and move to him to interact with him but I suddenly wake up. I fall right back to sleep and realize I am DJing blindly in the dark. Instead of using this to reenter the dream I stupidly wake myself to DJ. I guess I was afraid of losing lucidity and forgetting it all.

#1
I am at a long dinner table eating with people from work. We are discussing new assessments. I express thinly veiled disdain at the idea of more testing. I am worried that they will think ill of me for holding such ideas. One colleague has a University of Northern Kentucky marching band costume on. A bottle of wine is produced.

#2
I step outside of my paternal grandparent's house. It is night. I walk down the driveway into the street. Everything is dim and shadowy. I recall my previous dream and realize that I am now dreaming. Lucid, I break into a run and leap into the sky. I remember mid jump that I should RC and stabilize the dream. I try to get my hands together. I am tumbling through space. I can't control my hands. I bring them up to my face and frantically try to rub them together. No dice. I wake up.

WBTB (5 min) + MILD produced this. Second in as many nights.

I have no aspirations to fly. I have no idea why this occurred. It was almost instinctual.

My dream started off with me at my home. My dad was trying to make something in the kitchen but I messed him up somehow than he told me to leave and I did. After doing something I don't remember I appeared at a apartment. A young cousin of mine told me I had to sleep there with them for the night. He said my brother called and said be careful because of the 1970's killer. That the 1970's killer came into the apartment before with a gun. Than my cousin showed me a gun. I was like OK... Than someone else said keep the door closed. Well, I was laying on the bed and turned to see someone sitting on a baby. I was like oh my god! Move! When was this baby here!? I grabbed the baby calming it down and the person next to me said they don't know. I than got up and left and found myself in my brothers room in the basement. I could see a 2 little girls and their mom but I felt somewhat transparent to them. I became aware I was dreaming and tryed to jump/fly upstairs without them seeing me. But the little girl turned to her mom and said she saw me. The little girl took a broom and tryed hitting me and so I got scared. Than a thought popped up. A long time ago when I wrote about a airplane dream on dream central the guy said it was good I didn't stay downstairs. So I thought it might be bad and ran for the stairs. But someone chased me from behind screaming no! Than grabbed me when I was on the stairs so close to reaching the top. She grabbed my stomach and held me tight. I actually felt real pain and I was like stop! Trying to get up. I looked up and I could see a basketball court with players but than I woke up. It turned out my neck was actually in pain and I could smell smoke. There was a fire somewhere I don't know but not close enough to where I live. So we were safe but my dad closed my window for me cause it smelled bad and I went back to sleep. It was like at 4 or 5 I woke up.

Something to do with my parents setting up for my eighteenth birthday party (that already happened, yohoo reality check!) But the neighbors next door are throwing a party as well and there is a long pointless argument about how much space each person's party takes up.

Something to do with my high school graduation. (yohoo, not for 4 more months, reality check!) The graduation is taking place in this auditorium similar to the one my high school has but it feels like the auditorium is facing the wrong way.

Something to do with staying at some motel. The motel has a convenience store in the lobby with mostly just snack food (chips, candy bars, etc) The convenience store has a refrigerated section that you can walk into and it is much larger than it seems necessary. I eventually find myself outside again. I go into another door and find myself inside a school.

Yeah, that made no sense to me either.

Something to do with me talking with this elderly man outside my house. (Well we were outside my house but it felt like we were way off in the wilderness.) He was talking to me about these throwing darts that he had and explaining to me that at night, wolves come and bite into the back end (opposite the tip, these darts had a small cushion on the back end) and when their fang goes into it, it makes a buckeye and the cushion hardens because of the wolf saliva.
The man says something about wanting to sell weapons and train people in martial arts. He tries to demonstrate these karate kicks but fails miserably.
Then the man decides to teach me something by shooting me with a revolver. (Not the brightest, now is he.) He gets his revolver and it looks really big and bulky. The bullets too look really big and bulky. He has me stand about fifteen feet away from me, and continues. (Don't know if it was intentional or not) shooting all around me.
He gets to his last bullet and aims it at my legs. He fires and the bullet suddenly starts going really slow and everything else stops moving. I Jump into the air and stick there. The bullet moves fast once more and flies under me and everything else starts moving at normal pace again.
Hmm... that was weird that I could dodge a bullet like that. I should definitely keep an eye out if I'm going to have more lucid dreaming experiences. Let's do a reality check just to be
-wakes up-

23.02.2014

Antarctic Machinery (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was on a camp in Antarctica and they showed me how everything worked. There were 3 guys working huge machinery in 2 rooms which were on top of each other. The rooms were built in a mountain; the first floor was missing a wall and the second floor didn't have a ceiling.
The guys explained to me what they were doing. They had to do something on the first floor (Forgot what) and then had to climb up some kind of ladder to get to the upper floor where they had to push some buttons or pull levers, not sure what. Then got down again and repeat the whole thing.
After they showed it to me I tried it myself. It was pretty damn simple. To climb they had pillars full of open latex suits around them. You just had to jump against them and you were instantly kinda wearing one of those latex suits that were attached to the pillar and could easily climb up.
They also had a bunch of these pillars in a row leading outside the 2 rooms, which were probably used as lookout posts.
A woman with black hair, red parka and freckles was there too. She tried out the lookout posts pillars. Instead of jumping from pillar to pillar thow, she immediately jumped to the furthest away one she could reach. The workers didn't like that and told her to be more careful.

(That woman was the main protagonist from the graphic novel "White Out" I'm reading right now and I actually read a few sites of before sleeping.)