A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry non-lucid #24 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I argued with my mother and when I woke up around 11pm and again at 2pm I couldn't remember anything.
Dream fragment 1, 4:13am-7:43am."": It was pretty realistic and gruesome. I thought I was watching news or something. This crazy lady in Africa was running around belligerent. She had a knife and was trying to cut people. Most people ran away from forming a circle around her. I turned around and turned back she grabbed a women by her neck and cut her neck straight off. I saw the eyes roll back the blood drip down from the women's decapitated neck. It sent shiver down my back. She laughed menacingly as the crowd looked in disgust. In one hand she had the head which she raised to the air, and in the other a child maybe around 7 or 8 years old. The child was terrified and was trying to escape. The women wouldn't let her go. I thought why don't they kill her already. Then a sniper shot her and it chipped her head across her eyes. She fell to the floor. The little girl was about to go to her mother, but the lady get up. She grabs the little girl. Her eyes were missing and you could see the chunk of meat was gone. The little girl screamed and the crazy women died. I thought why would she do that just to traumatize the girl.

-something about breaking bad airing again and I had to get ready to cook something.

Journal Entry non-lucid #23 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I argued with my dad before I went to sleep. I then broke one of my vows while talking to him, I made a vow to myself not to talk to them about LD or anything relating to it because they are negative and I don't like it. My dad told me that dreams are worthless. I left after he said that because I didn't want to hear it. I don't know how much importance my subconscious puts on my parents' words. When I stopped talking to them about LD, my LD went up. As I did yesterday and talked to them I don't even remember what dreams I had. The negative energy they gave me made it very hard to meditate as well. I hope tonight I can have a LD or even remember my dreams because me and mom had a conversation that made me sad.

Dream fragment 1, time is not important because I couldn't remember anything through out the night."": I remember I was driving a car and I had to steal something.

Journal Entry Lucid #5 Dream, Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 5:00am-6:53am" Obama got jokes?": I watching a YouTube video with my sister. It was Obama he showed up on a stage as if a rock star. He was doing some dance as he walked to the pulpit. He was speaking some sort of weird language. It didn't make any sense. My sister and everybody in the crowd seemed to be enjoying it. I didn't quite understand why they enjoyed it. oh yeah he also jumped on top of someone in the crowd.

Dream fragment 2 from 5:00am-6:53am"Drive to school ": As I was driving to school I saw my friend, BN. The odd thing was that he was in a car with his dad on the wrong side of the street. I said hi to them. The dad looked at me weird. While I was driving away I thought hmm they were on the opposite side. My car turned for some reason and I had to do a quick 360 to make it face the right direction.

Dream 1 from 5:00am-6:53am"Distractions": I spectated a life of an addict. The addict was doing heroin, and lots of it. The mother which was played by my mother was crying, and my sister was also present with her. My mother was crying, saying that she lost her child. I got a glimpse of this heroin they were talking about and it looked like coco powder or chocolate powder. I said that is not heroin, heroin is darker than that. I had enough of this and started to participate in the dream. I became into being in my grandmother room. I turned on the light and saw all these shopping backs. My mother and sister came back home. I walked out and started to get some water from the fridge. My mother was telling me she was disappointed. I thought do they think I am an addict.

I realized it was a dream. It was like my body was vacant, without a mind. I can use my body. I looked at my hands and did a RC, just because. I counted 1,2,3,4,5,6,7, but as I counted I realized that the dream was starting to fade. I quickly resolved the counting by saying I have 7 fingers it is a dream. I started rubbing my hands. The scene went from a dark and dimly lit area to a lively place. It looked like morning and it was at a perfect temperature. As I was about to walk outside through the back door, someone grabs me by the hand. It was my sister. She said, "You have to come with me." I told her no (I was tired of my family distracting me). She said,"I am trying to save you". I thought,"from what? but realized that I should concentrate and ignore her". As I walked outside the house. Their was a beautiful fall tree with orange leaves, along with a nice park like area. I walked pretty far while rubbing my hands. It was crystal clear.

My sister comes outside the house and calls my name. I walked so far that she was the size of my hands from my perspective. I told her to go back inside and mind her own business. She didn't listen and began to walk. I didn't want to baby sit her like I did my dad in the other LD, so I warned her. I told her she better go back inside or I will have to stop her. I got angry and I pointed my hand towards her and tried to use telekinesis to throw her on the wall. I managed to stop her in her tracks but nothing else. Then this alien space ship appeared and it cut her into pieces, it was gory, and even her head got decapitated. I knew it was a DC, so I didn't care. I said, "I warned you, but that wasn't me." I saw her body come back together just like from the game, Prototype.

She said while her voice distorted back and forth from a man to some sort of alien species, "You should have listened to me I am on a whole another level". She jumped in the sky and landed next to me. From looking like the size of my hand she was right in front of me. She transformed into Alex Mercer than into the black guy from Prototype 2. He swung his blade at me. I had a brief thought about Alex Mercer, and my hands transformed into a shield. I thought, "Another distraction". I turned around while rubbing my hands to keep lucidity. The sky was now blood red. It was dark world to live in. I didn't have fear though. As I was walking away. I told him not to bother on attacking me because their is a force field protecting me. I was bluffing, I have never used a force field in dream and didn't know if it will work. He then walks to me and hugs me out of happiness. He said to me," that is exactly why I want to kill you. you know how long I have been waiting for this moment, I wanted to kill someone like you for a long time". I thought "what a dreamer". In prototype when he kills someone he could have their power. He was sad that he had to kill me though. I didn't care because I knew it was a dream. I was just angry that he was distracting me.He picked up a dead solider and he told me that the solider ratted on me. He tossed the dead solider's body on the floor, and he started telling me a story about the virus. He said,"after the virus infected people humans were being sold off to be killed. At last now...(I don't remember what he was saying because I was trying to walk away). I responded that is good. He said "no" in a desperate voice,"they sold us for only one penny!" I woke up instantly.

Reflection: My anger really shined in this dream. The scene transforming, my sister transforming was due to my negative energy. But it is what it is, next time I would handle this type of situation with love. I don't know how though, I don't want to be distracted by DC even if they look like family members.

Journal Entry non-lucid #22 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:
Dream fragment 1 from 9:10pm-3:20am" Eventually we will die": I was with my little cousin, AL, and I did a reality check. I looked at my hands and looked back but I don't remember if I didn't follow through or it failed. After doing a reality check I got crowded by the dream and went for a ride. I walked around and these old folks were mugging me, giving me all sorts of ugly faces. My mom comes over and asks me to help out the old people. I said no they could help themselves. She looked at me in shock I responded we all get old eventually and we all will die. I thought about the consequence of karma, "this might happen to me when I get old", but my anger took the best of me. I didn't care.

- Also I was doing some math problem and this guy from my class comes over and moves my spot to sit. I didn't seem to mind in the dream though.
- I was also with these ladies and they led me to some hot looking vampire chicks.

Journal Entry Lucid #5 Dream, Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background: One thing I have changed in my routines lately is my meditation. I have been doing love and kindness meditation. I enjoyed it very much. When I woke up around 2:40 am, I studied for my exam and didn't expect to become lucid since I didn't read anything to do with LD. Before going to sleep I accepted that I can have a LD, and it doesn't matter what day it is. While going to sleep, finding a comfortable position, I said to myself," next time I am dreaming I will realize that I am dreaming" I said this a couple of times. I didn't let it stress me out though.

Dream fragment 1 from 4:40am-6:01am"": I was in a class room about to do some test. I asked people do we have a test they told me yes. I got mad and complained about not having enough time. I then got really upset towards the teacher.

Dream 1 from 4:40am-6:01am"Genie ": I found myself on the computer. I got up and realized that the time passed for me to go to school to do my quize. It still looked like night time though. I got upset and was running back and forth for some reason. I ran to my parents room and my dad was sleeping. I thought that is strange he can't be home this early if he took my mom to work. I heard a horrible piano player in my garage. Usually if anything suspicious happen in waking life, I would excuse it by some explanation but since I have started doing RC, if a weird or bizarre thing has occurred I would assume it is a dream and do a RC. I still hear that annoying piano player.I thought this is a dream.

I woke up in my room and I thought hmm, let me do a RC. My body was out of sync with my mind and was already doing an action of it's own. I ran to my room door and I saw my shadow run in front of me. That was when it clicked.

I said this is definitely a dream. This time the dream didn't try and disintegrate itself so I didn't bother rubbing my hands. I walked over to my living room and was about to go outside using the front door. I walked half way and saw to my left a dark pathway to the front door, and to my right I saw my backyard with some light on. I stopped and thought if I go to my left I might wake up, the right (backyard) does seem reasonable. I went outside and hoped over the fence to my neighbors yard. I made up the scene. I went into their "house" and came out to where they put the trash. I thought let me try and meditate. I jumped into the air and put my legs into meditative pose, hopping to fly like I did in another LD. I fell right away. It felt painful for a slight second. I started concentrating, but I didn't close my eyes because dream might change. I saw my legs start to float above me, while legs crossed in meditation posture. My legs fell when I stopped concentrating on the breath. I tried again, I told myself to feel the breath and it's lightness. This time my whole body flew up.

I saw this little genie like spirit, when I mean spirit it was blueish and it was kind of see through. It was not an actual spirit. It appeared and I thought the most natural thing to do was to follow it. I started to fly with it. We kept flying around for quite some time. I saw some houses, but the dream was starting to loss it's details. This should have been the time I did the hand rubbing thing and reminded myself that it was a dream, but I was too interested in flying more. My father appeared and he was trying to tell me advice. I didn't want to hear him so I flew with the genie, some how he followed us. He kept saying, "you should not LD all the time", and he said that in the most automated voice I could think of. He then said, " you can trust this genie because Buddhists don't believe in demons". I got fed up with his constant phrases so I said to him at first with anger," Shut up! I know what I am doing". He looked very sad and I didn't want to create a negative outcome in the dream so I said, "sorry, dad, I didn't mean to yell at you, but I know what I am doing, I love you". I hugged him, even though he was a DC.

As we were flying by I saw this plant rising from the floor next to some ladies. I wanted to test control so I landed and imagined the plants rising up like an explosion, with the concrete on the floor destroyed, you know something epic. I then lifted my hands up. "Whoop" nothing, I thought, "I need to work on control." I flew away following the genie and the genie took me to a well. My dad followed us their again. I saw these plants and they looked beautiful. They had this little opening on the top of them, like a rose. My dad was either going to get some water from the well or he was going to touch the rose. I stopped him when I notice that the rose shot a little dart and it gushed out poison. After I did that their was no genie. I woke up. I wanted to go to sleep. The position I woke up in was not bad but realized that it was 6:00 and I had an alarm set up for 6:10 to get prepared for the exam.

Journal Entry non-lucid #21 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 8:30am-2:10am" Self Preception": I was inside a store and I was shopping for cloth. I got a little bio of the guy, apparently he used to work in a store before he went with his intuition and created his own. He walked up to me and he told me not to burn my old cloth before looking at their cloth. I said you think I am crazy. Then I looked at my self, I am not sure if it was a mirror but I saw my image or the image I think of myself. My hair was unevenly cut and my beard was all over the place.

Other dream fragment(not enough details)
-Trying to find some sort of good healthy food to eat from. I went with my sister some where.
-Was doing some math problems with, my friend TO. Some endless problem.

Journal Entry Lucid #4 Dream, Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 4:30am-5:372am"": I was walking with this girl down a street. She was saying something about going to the other side faster. Then we hopped on top of a bus station. She got bored of waiting and saw a train coming she jumped and I followed. We realized that it was transporting prisoners and I jumped out knowing that polices don't play. She stayed but their was someone else with her now. The guy that was on it ended up being on a Documentary that I was watching. He was crying about his stupidity. The music started and the screen started to fade as if it was ending. It then popped back up, and they are playing basket ball. I thought to myself let me see if I can participate with them and I reached out for the ball.

As soon as I did that I became fully lucid. I started moving the basket ball back and forth creating pysical motion and thus the dream didn't end. I realized that I wanted to do something so I let go of ball. The dream started fading again so I started rubbing my hands together. The dream was constantly trying to disintegrate. I kept trying to maintain it. It went pitch black I thought to myself think about the sensation of your hands moving together. I came back into the dream. The dream was highly detailed. I can see the tiles. I tried touching the tiles and I saw this little baby face on one of the tiles. Their was four in one tile. I thought that is strange but I didn't care because I was lucid . I grabbed the basketball from the DC and they were asking me to give it back to them. I screamed at the dream, "THIS IS A DREAM AND i COULD DO WHAT EVER I WANT." I felt my voice come all around me, it felt good and refreshing. I had a thought of insecurity slip that said their is people around you. I responded I don't care this is a dream. I gave the basketball back to DC and they acted like nothing has happened. I thought what could I do. I was still dependent on my hand rubbing together and the dream has not stabilized. I wanted to fly but knew that it would wake me up. I wanted to do something big but I couldn't with out my hands. I thought what is the best way to minimize effort, without losing track of hand rubbing motion. I remember that I can conjure up things just by turning away and turning back. I also remembered when I had a training exercise for LDing in a partial LD that doors can be portals. I turned around and created a doors. These doors I envisioned would take me to places, somewhere exciting. Their was multiple doors next to each other. I went to one of them and it read, "STEWI" I laughed at it, and went in. I was inside of a library. I was amazed by something and I woke up.

Journal Entry non-lucid #20 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 9:10pm-2:40am"": I was working on a math problem with TO and other people. We discussed this math problem together and I was wrong. I kept working on the math problem trying to get it right.

Dream fragment 2 from 9:10pm-2:40am"": I was passing by a race. I saw this buff man throw a car like it was nothing, a monster truck. He did some cool moves. I asked him what muscle he exercise he told me thumbs.

Dream fragment 3 from 9:10pm-2:40am"": I was trying to do a prank, but didn't. I was spectating some girls life. The towns people or her friends wanted her to stop seeing her boyfriend, she kept refusing. This man came to her and started waving a credit card at her to ditch her boyfriend. When all else failed they threatened to kill her boyfriend. She wouldn't listen. She started running to her boyfriend. She saw him through the window and he had this thing connected to his waist. It exploded, she fell with laughter. It looked like he farted when it exploded and it didn't kill him. It just look like he took a massive dump. Every body laughed but me.

Also dark vadar was wearing an Irish skirt with the instrument playing the star wars theme song.

Journal Entry non-lucid #19 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 10:20pm-4:00am" Kid from church": B was the theme of the dream. I don't know what he was doing, but he was there.
I found out while in church that a kid has sleep paralysis and he feels his body going inside of him. I became excited and told him the possibilities that await him with L.D. He was excited but more scared than excited and he told me he is just a kid and doesn't want to do that. I was jealous because I have been trying to induce SP so I have been thinking about that.
Dream fragment 2 from 10:20pm-4:00am" My sister's driving": I was in a P.E. room. I ran across these crazy girls. My friend, EY was all the way on the other side. I reached him and we were talking about something. I turned around and I saw my sister driving like a maniac she nearly ran over this weird girl dancing in the freeway. I then called my sister to tell her to stop driving like that she won't pick up. I tried again and again she won't pick up. I then called my cousin, but she was already walking towards me. So, I told her to confront my sister about her driving. She told me to calm down. We went into the school building. I showed her my apartment. It was a luxurious apartment. Nice carpeting, huge flat screen tv, and artifact all over the walls. I tried calling sister again and the phone was calling random people. I woke up and went back to sleep

Dream fragment 3 from 4:05am-5:30am" Skyscraper football": My uncle was in my apartment and he was telling my cousin that he needs the teacher's signature. She didn't want to. I was looking out the window and boy was it a view. I lived on a skyscraper. My uncle then took us to the top of the apartment complex. A whole football field was their. Then he took out a coach. The coach was yelling at my cousin she was scared and started to cry. My uncle told her she better start respecting him.

Dream fragment 4 from 5:33am-6:09am" Stop a bully": I left the building after talking with my dad. I was walking with this fat girl. she was talking to me about school and I was walking with her to this tall building. As I was walking I looked at my hands and I was about to start counting, but I didn't. The girl then confronted this bully that was surrounded by lava. She told her to stop bullying people or else she would throw her into the lava.

Journal Entry non-lucid #18 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Circus Job": I was working at some sort of circus show. I had to work there to remain at the place. I saw some all around me from the stage smoke. Don't really remember the details.

Dream fragment 2 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Driving in freeway": I was driving in the freeway to go to church. My parents were right in front of me. Then we pulled over some place

Dream fragment 3 from 7:40pm-2:14am" Wrong Mother": I was in my house arguing with my parents. They told me to stop LD, they were both frustrated with me because of my refusal. And my mom was white, but I didn't notice. I went to my mother and she was trying to sleep, and I told her I love her and I didn't mean for the conversation to turn into an argument. She told me she loves me no matter what. I thought, "wow a mothers love is unconditional." Then I saw this creature or shadow pass by. I said what was that? she said what. I didn't see anything. I then did a cheap RC. A women from my church that got me sick was in my dream.

Dream fragment 4 from 4:30pm-6:34am" Acting like a dream": I woke up in my room and I walked to the kitchen to pick up some food. The women from my dream was in my house. I thought that is strange why is she here. Instead of asking myself I asked her what is she doing here? She responded, "I stayed the night at your place". I accepted her explanation and went on with getting some food. She was over there eating some chicken. She was talking about orange chickens. I then walked over to my sister who was washing some dishes. I looked at one of the forks and they were melded together with other metal forks. I didn't question that for some reason. These teenage boys were running around with this BB gun/ nail gun they asked me to pass them a clip. I looked at it for a minute. My father came home and I didn't want to show him what I have so I hid it and I hugged him. I looked at my dads clothing and he had this small and ridiculous jacket on. I told him about it. He said oh yeah i have another one. He takes out this huge jacket that was up to his feet. I then saw them run out my house. I went around the back to give them their gun which was black at first it turned full orange.

I put it in my pocket for later usage. As I was observing a swimming pool this old man comes and tells us to do something. I got mad out of nowhere and punched him. He got knocked out and I said, "he always disrespects us." This other old man was looking at me. He had a shady look and resembled a mobster. I clenched my nail gun. He tells me we have to talk. Then a bunch of old geezers surrounded me, they all looked like they belong in the mob. As I was talking to him I realized there was too much people in my house, so I took him to my parents house. I told him I didn't want to hurt him but he never respects us and he treats like children. He told me to forget about that and we will forget about what happen hear. His friend comes over and tells me to eat a cupcake to honor our resolution. I hesitate but I ate it. It tasted delicious by the way. Then when I was walking to dinning room they said wow that was some great acting. I was on a movie set. I thought wow, they need someone that is totally convinced that they are in the movie for them to get good acting, just like I believe I am in a movie I normally do in a dream. I then woke up and went back to sleep after using bathroom.


Dream fragment 5 from 6:40am-8:04am" Weird guy plays with feces": I was walking in my school. I came out of the food area. This guy pops out and I showed him animal feces and said isn't that disgusting. He said yes that is. It was different colors from different animals. He grabbed it and started smashing it together. He said, "does that bother you?" I said yes that bothers me a lot.

Journal Entry Lucid#3 /Semi-Lucid Dream,Lucid, Semi-Lucid, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I slept earlier again. I have been sleeping earlier for some reason. I prepared this time and meditated 30 minutes before I normally get sleepy. I still got sleepy while meditating, but the difference was I didn't lose consciousnesses of it. I realized I was falling asleep and I would immediately get back into posture.

Dream fragment 1, from 7:50pm-12:42am"": I had a dream about my neighbors for some reason. I don't remember the details that much, but I remember my fence was either torn or I was flying over it.

I got up and played some video games. I was just trying to be happy since I have been sad for a couple of days. I watched something. After a while close to 4:10am. I was getting sleepy. I closed my eyes for a while. I started seeing all these images (people, things, random things)and sounds playing in my mind. I started to remind myself that these are just the construction of my mind and that I should not be convinced by them. I was sitting next to my bed legs crossed with my eyes closed. The images started to be more detailed and consistent. I was getting too involved with the images and I started talking to my sister and I realized that I was still in my room siting down. I got up right away. My heart was pounding. I then said a phrase to remind myself that I will be dreaming soon. I then went to sleep on my side.

Dream fragment 2, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was at the parking lot of my school. I think I realized I was dreaming. The dream scene changed. I woke up. I started talking to someone about life and I said that life is a dream we can experience together, and that I believe I was in life's dream. I saw my cousin, sister and a random women. I told them that this is a dream and if we want to have lucid dream we have to hold hands and meditate on life's dream (or life's illusion). My sister and cousin left because they thought it was stupid. The random girl stayed. I don't know her, but for some reason I cared about her. I was on the floor looking at the details of my bed. She was standing right in front of me. This was when I payed attention to her. I looked at her, she was black and she was wearing just a bra and underwear. She asked me why I want to have a LD with her. I told her when you are lucid you are so much more smarter. Her and as a general statement.

Dream fragment 3 from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was spectating a life of a newbie "gangster" lol. He was being taught how to snatch people's hat on the road. We were now on the free way. I saw him drive past a parked car then he came back around and drove backwards and stole his hat. The guy was completely clueless.


Dream fragment 4, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was walking with this guy. I suspect he was the first guy I told about "life's dream". We were going past this market place. These people were informing people on what gives diarrhea. They wanted us to buy their product so they kept hassling us. We politely declined. They brought these impersonators. They acted like they were ninjas. They hit the stranger I was with. At first he didn't bother do anything but ignore them. He got mad and did some weird move and took out the guy, put him to sleep, and he kicked the girl as a warning. He was supposed to be Bruce Lee's son.


Dream fragment 5, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was now semi-lucid and I was being trained in the dream, flying skills. I was told to fly around a river or a lake, but the color of the water looked like tropical water, light baby blue. It was a beautiful scenery. The mountains rose up high, the fresh air hits the skin, the trees, and the sound of the water. It was a harmonious place. I tried going up at first it felt more like a 0-gravity. I never felt it but I was barely flying. I was spinning around while trying to go a couple of feet. I started to use my will to control myself, I think the body of water also influenced me. I can't swim for a long period of time, but it was pure willpower. I aligned my body first. After it was straight I felt like I could fly normal. I didn't fly like the superman. I had my hands backwards, unlike superman. I flew around with ease and it felt natural. Of course this is not my first time flying in a lucid dream, but this time I did it with ease.


Dream fragment 6, from 4:30am-6:07am"": The dream changed. I was less aware of myself, but I was still a little aware and I felt like I could do anything I wanted. Me and a couple of people were on a mountain around Chile. I saw this military truck passing by on the mountain. It had bio-hazard mark on it. I thought it would be cool to try and use telekinesis. I looked at the truck and lifted my hand. I aimed my right arm pointing at the truck with my hands( like iron man). I clenched my fist and the truck exploded. It was decently far away, but I saw this nuke go off. It was a small nuke but I could see the shock wave coming towards us. The mushroom cloud was rising up high and spreading through the air. Since the truck was at a lower level elevation and far away the cloud was rising up to us. The shock wave was still coming for us. Once it hit, we were on the ground. None of us died. I said sorry to the crowd. They said it was nothing. The mushroom cloud disappeared. We started smelling this rubber burning smell mixed with something else. It was horrible. It was making it harder to breath. We tried to run away but we were coughing like crazy. We glitched on the map we couldn't pass a certain boundary. I told my self just like a game I can leave, so I did.


Dream fragment 7, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was now semi-lucid again and flying. The clarity in this dream increased drastically. I was back in the training area with the body of water. I was flying when I became semi-lucid. I was enjoying the flight around the lake until I saw my family next to this little bridge on top of the lake. They were walking on the water. They told me to join them. I never consciously walked on the water I thought. I believed that I could do it. I started lower my self to the water. My feet went through it and I felt the water. I flew up again and thought about my experience with solids and how they behave. I told myself I never sank through a solid before. I then told myself to believed that the water will now act like any other solid I ever experienced. I put my foot on the water again, this time I landed without going through it. I started running around the body of water like a madman all happy. I saw these fishes underneath me. I was blown away by the spectacular moment that I am experiencing, I had a little doubt. I noticed my doubt right away and reinforced belief. But my mother said,"watch he is going to fall inside". When I heard her I fell immediately. I didn't sink though I instead started to fly away. It was hard at first because of my unbelief after sinking in. I reminded myself flying before and I started to fly. I went up very slowly and dramatically. My hands raised to my stomach like dragon ball z characters. I asked my mom why she said that. She responded, "You were going to fall anyways. I didn't do anything."

Journal Entry non-lucid #17 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I tried to meditate before going to sleep, but I accidentally fell asleep. I got up and drank some nasty water, then went back to sleep. I woke up feeling like crap later on and could barely remember the dream. I didn't go back to sleep after that.

Dream fragment 1 from 7:40pm-1:34am"": This Indian girl from my class was trying to help me with math homework.

Journal Entry Lucid #2 Dream,Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background: I woke up around 3 and I tried to make some music on my computer. I read just a little bit. I did 2 or 3 reality checks just because. I didn't read Stephan LaBarge's book like I usually do. I was very sad. I tried to go to sleep at first and failed. I read my vows then I tried to go back to sleep. I started listening to some music. As I was listening to the music I imagined myself crushing all my problems. Destroying it from the Earth. I told my self it wasn't good that I am destroying but it was for a noble reason, freedom. I kept doing this. I didn't know that their was some emotional tension because I began to cry while doing the visualization. I went to sleep wanting a lucid dream but accepted the fact that I may not get one and I just wanted to sleep.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:40am-5:22am"": It was pitch dark and I found myself in the hallway of my house. I started hearing these loud vibration sounds. I thought who could be making all those sounds. Fear came in my mind. I then saw my grandma's room light so I thought maybe she is brushing her teeth in her room. I was about to use bathroom but it was too dark to pee, so I tried to turn on the light. It didn't turn on. I thought, "that's odd it took it a while to turn on" then realized it didn't turn on. I became lucid. I then ended up on my bed I tried to stay in dream, but it was pitch black so I gave up. I then awoken but I did WBTB right away. I didn't move my body. I started feeling the vibrations along with some nice sensations. I wasn't too scared of the vibrations this time. I thought to myself I can go back into this dream. I was in my room again. I knew it wasn't my physical body so I tried to wiggle out of this paralysis that I felt in the dream. I tried furiously and failed. I tried to move, nothing. So, I thought to myself I should just try and keep my awareness. I then heard these two guys talking outside my room. I tried listening to what they were saying. I was scared and I found my body on the floor next to my closet. I could move now, so I started to move my hands. The dream started to fade. I woke up in my room and the light was on. I looked at my hands, not reality check. I thought since I could see the room it was not a dream and with that thought I woke up.

Journal Entry non-lucid #16 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 9:20pm-2:52am"": Construction workers and I wanted to go on top of this huge crane. They were building a bridge of some sort. I was also racing down a mountain. I remembered after writing down old dream.

Journal Entry non-lucid #15 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
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Dream fragment 1 from 8:40pm-1:47am" I can't hear you": I was in a class room. This women was teaching. She was Asian, had glasses on a mildly attractive. Well she asked me how to say my name. I told her. She asked again I told her. This went on for a while. She then started hunching forward to hear me. I started screaming at her. She said still nothing. I felt my throat hurting so I stopped. I woke up to record and accidentally fell asleep, if I didn't kick my dream journal while sleeping I wouldn't have remembered any of the detail.

When I woke up. I didn't read any thing about lucid dreaming, but instead prepared for an quiz for chemistry. I meditated before going to bed. I tried to relax myself and re-enforce the thought of having a lucid dream, but concentration wasn't clear and I had half sleep for a while.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:34am-6:09am" Wet dream": It was a wet dream. I haven't had this in a while, why I have them now doesn't make sense to me. I really don't want to share it, but I want to mention it to easily keep track of dreams without losing them through the pages of dream journal.


Dream fragment 3 from 4:34am-6:09am " The train that leads somewhere": I was on a train. It was going somewhere. I went on it with the thought that it will come back to the original place it came to. I checked my pockets, I had my cellphone and my wallet. I think it had $10 with me. I hopped on the back of the train. As the train stopped for a while, so I came out. I saw this man on the alley that looked like Saul Goodman from Breaking Bad. I told him about my problem with getting rid of old habits and my problem on starting new ones such as lucid dreaming. I turned around suspeciously for some reason. I saw a football player run across. When I turned back around Saul was gone. I looked around and saw him curled up on the floor pretending to hid. I said, "why did you do that?" He told me that habits can't be changed. He told me he has bad habits too.He said the study that supports habits has mostly to do with psychology, not neurology. He said," the study didn't looked at chemical of brain. You will have to fight bad habits forever". I told myself what he told me and accepted it as a good thing. It is all psychological so I can convince myself to overcome it. I walked to football field. People were making fun of a player. He could throw a football very far though. The football was odd. It was long and white. The train was about to leave so I went back to it. I sat in the back once again. As we were passing these construction wood. The wood was passing thorough the train and through me. I looked at my legs and it didn't affect any of my sensations. .