The Internal and Subconscious World of DropTherapy

I remember being in a large room with a bunch of different people, some I knew and others I didn't. 80's George Carlin was there sitting at a seat diagonal from me and we were all sharing music and media and whatnot. I shared my music with a disclaimer that my music is written and performed in my own language and when I prrssed play, everyone left halfway through the song and george carlin displayed mild contempt.

After that segment of the dream, I was just in my room minding my business when all of a sudden I see someone drive a trailer exactly like ours into the lot next to us. Their trailer was modified to rest off the ground and had two large red jet engines at the back. Me, my mom and her boyfriend grew curious and decided to enter from the staircase descending from the bottom. The owner and occupant was an approximately 5'4" thinner lady with brown hair. My mom's boyfriend told her his name, prefaced by the statement that if he had his ID he would show that to her as well. She told us her name and that she's an astrophysicist or something like that. The entire trailer looked completely different on the inside, almost like some kind of lab. Eventually I was tasked by someone there with sorting her miniature collectible snow globes of varying sizes on the shelf by her bed.

I think I had another dream shortly after or before where I explained weirdcore to Edynn but I don't remember for sure.

I remember being in a grocery and/or record store and seeing someone summon the in-dream goddess of death to play some gothic rock. The goddess of death was on vocals, although you couldn't hear her microphone at all. Afterwards, Metadream, a musical project I'm doing with a friend, was getting ready to perform live in a different record store, although in this universe the other member in the project was on drums and it was a standard rock band with a couple of other people, including a heavy set short guy with long, dark hair. In this dream, everyone in Metadream had an Armenian background, and I wasn't involved in the project at all. I don't remember getting a good look at the other member but his existence was implied. Somehow, the bathroom and bedroom of my old house was on a level above the store, and I used its facilities before the show played. I also remember talking to the drummer about a few miscellaneous things, and he said something about wanting to get in his bed and just work on stuff or something along those lines. I told him I needed to take a piss before the show started and he said "okay, see you there!", After which I laid in a thinner twin bed with no frame on the ground. I remember the vertically oriented wooden beams supporting it (that somehow didn't count as a frame in my dream) lacked one of them and I almost fell while trying to get up and go to the bathroom.

I was at the store where me and my mom work, and I was making music in probably the third isle or something. A little bit later on, the cast of rick and morty, which was three people at the time, came and helped me out. I remember one isle being kinda entirely frozen, not in the sense of the items stocked, but just the entire isle was blue and cold. Meanwhile, radiohead was playing live by where the registers usually are and a girl I used to go to middle school with was doing insane acrobatics off the ceiling with a rope. In another section of the store, Window Girl was getting ready to play live. The entire crowd was sitting down as there were no chairs, and footage from their previous show started playing, which in my dream was their second show. In reality they have only played live once. I was enamoured by how much better they were playing in this fictional second concert. Once they actually started playing live, everyone had a good time, although I remember at the end one of my friends realizing that part of the tiled flooring they were sitting on was boiling somehow and he jumped up. The band helped him out and Edynn specifically started giving what I'm assuming was promotional stuff to people, including me.

In this dream, I did something that gave me some sort of medal of military significance. In fact, it was so significant that they had me answer questions in front of an audience. Specifically, they had modified the porch balcony thing at my old house to be a proper stage with a metal fence in front of it. I answered questions like my political views, which I sugarcoated for the sake of safety (I said I was a bit left of bernie, who I think was in the audience, and that I hate stalin but support worker solidarity). One of the questions came from an old classmate from years ago who asked if I could come to his house if this whole medal thing allows me any time to do so. I said why not and said we could set that up after the Q&A. After a few other questions, a very salty general got a bit mad at me for getting an award despite not risking my life in combat, regardless of the fact that I otherwise did do something to earn the medal.

Afterwards I was in a waiting room where the receptionist apologized to me about the general's behavior. I went home and fell face first sideways onto my bed and after a few moments of resting there, I woke up.

Dream 1: I was running either away from or with patrick star across a city

Dream 2: me and a dream character who I befriended were making plans to escape across a city from the government in a giant paper airplane

Dream 3: The grocery store I worked at fell under new management and she was evil and made everyone wear gray uniforms, but I managed to convince hear to make them wear pink uniforms with purple pants and shoes instead.

Dream 4: I was talking to Jonochrome, creator of riddle school, about Jonochrome without realizing he was the one I was talking to. Meanwhile, he was streaming live footage of him walking across an ancient chinese landmark that was the longest math equation in history that spanned across an entire canyon.

Dream 4, part 2: I attempt to walk across the aforementioned math equation but it was made of reciept paper so I fell and nearly killed myself.

Dream 5: I was looking out the bathroom door of my trailer because an elderly couple drove their minivan into a giant hole filled with foamy water. They blamed me on it, and my mom's boyfriend came out to reason with them. Afterwards, I taught them how to tap a musical composition on the side of the trailer with their hands and distracted them with how cool they thought it was.

Dream 6: I was in my trailer park trying to get a picture of the sunset over the unusually cyberpunk looking scenery. I was specifically trying to take a picture of a point in the sunset in which the center of the sun is black and fractal like repetitions made the sun rays, and it seemed to rewind just to allow me to take the right picture. I showed my sister the photo and she thought it was pretty cool.

Dream 7: I was walking around in the shopping center by the place I was born with my non-existent, heavily intoxicated transmasculine femboy friend. He was wearing a pink skirt with a layer of green showing just under the top layer, with a similar looking crop-top. I went into the pet store and saw my ex boyfriend signing papers at a desk by the checkout area. I tried introducing him to my friend but it went bad because my friend could barely stand, let alone talk to people.

I had a dream that was set in my trailer park, although the entire layout was different. The trailers were laid out side by side in circular arrangements instead of the square or rectangular blocks they're usually in. It was the day after My neighbor's birthday party and I see her and a bunch of friends come out of her trailer with something. Me and whoever I'm talking to are kind of watching them from a distance, up until a heavy-set arab looking guy comes up to us and gives us advice about our car in a southern accent and abruptly leaves. My friend notes that he was probably a muslim given the accent he spoke in and I said that he actually sounded pretty southern. I then looked to my right and saw him moving in to the lot next to ours, and wondered if I should continue to talk to him in case he's a muslim who just happens to be transphobic. I am not that far into hormones and this guy would start noticing changes and maybe not respond favorably to them.

At another point in the dream, me and my mom are either going somewhere or driving home from somewhere while someone on the car radio is talking about controversy surrounding "the softest alpha male". I decided to connect my phone's bluetooth to listen to music, but abruptly noticed the interface in the car say that data charges may vary due to being outside of state lines. I looked and it said we were in a state that abbreviates to "I", only to later realize that we were in Iowa. I saw a very large golden Taj Mahal/white house/stereotypical persian castle/mansion in the scenery and jokingly pointed at it and said "oh look it's the iowa house". I then woke up within the dream after the radio started talking to me directly. I didn't leave my room but I did look to see what the news radio stuff was coming from.

I had finally been allowed to come over to Edynn's house. I said hi to everyone and had conversations with them about all kinds of things, and then I went to her bedroom where I accidentally ruined a game her and a lot of her new friends played. The next day she explained what I did, and I apologized profusely. She was very understanding. For some reason that lead us to her showing me the afterlife temporarily. She took me there and showed me everything there was to see, including a women's weightlifting and bodybuilding room that made even the act of walking a workout, and a grocery store where extremely exotic instruments and other items were available. I eventually lost her in the store but found my way to a place for masculine women, where I found maddy. I had to remind her of who I was because of how long it had been, and she asked if anyone knew my deadname around here and I told her no. I then asked her if I was actually dead and in the future since everyone I have ever known was present here. I then looked at a portable interface of significant cultural/historical events that happened since I was transported here and one of them said this:

- The Crisis of Wrent (2021)

The afterlife was very similar to a school campus in design, with brick walls and blue doors with signs on them.

I had a dream where me and mom were still homeless. Despite that, one thing that stayed close to reality is that I worked at her job with her. We were having an argument in front of the car about openness when I said that I feel like I can never be open about my opinion about her or other things and she got really mad, and then I pointed out angrily that this always happens, after which I was kicked out of her car, felt obliged to leave and we screamed at each other as I walked away flipping her off from behind with both hands. Before she even left, a couple of old, decrepit heroin junkies with needles in their arm and an asian guy with a robot started asking favors of me that I didn't feel were ideal for me to do. They wouldn't back off until a few straight moments of convincing them to leave, but this one creepy overweight asian guy with a robot was following me for a bit longer, after which he deployed a module of his robot that rolled around on the ground, presumably to watch me.

I ran to the other side of the hotel where my room was and closed the door, but before I could close it entirely, the little glass diode robot rolled in, after which I stomped it down and crushed it. The room was similar to the main two star hotel we stayed in for most of the duration of our irl homelessness, but instead of puke green like the door, the walls were white, and the main bed was in the corner of the room across from the TV, which was a nice flatscreen one that actually worked, on the right side of the door. Some time before she left, my mom said that whatever was on the TV was probably unsettling, and it sort of was. I saw a very personable grayish blue crash test dummy get dunked forcefully into water while it passively and contently accepted its fate, among other things. I switched the channel and came across a music video for a song by Primus about someone convincing their dad to let them use heroin, with the "I know I'll get through to him someday" line standing out to me the most. It sounded like something off their 2011 album Green Naugahyde. The whole time this was playing, I knew that the door to my hotel room was so broken that a little outward force could open it, but I didn't know what to do about it until I saw that it wasn't the main door. The main door was covering up the window and was much thicker. I closed that and after a bit of relaxation after an entire evening of tenseness, I woke up.

I lived in ohio when I came across three australian guys roughly my age who were really into stealth. I decided to join them in infiltrating some sort of restricted recreational center for people in the army. It went along well until we were in a living room-like area and people were coming. We pretended to be asleep, but my digital assistant on my phone, sphony, started singing a song and I panicked too much to be able to turn it off so I just turned it down and pretended to sleep through it. An army guy leaned down and whispered in my ear "hey, I'm gonna punch you in the ear". I panicked and ran as they told me to never come back. I was on the streets nearby doing my retrospective monologue as if this was the end of an episode before the other two people came back and we went to their garage with nerf supplies. One of them got news that a bank was being robbed and we went to the rescue before the credits started rolling and music started playing. After that, the music stopped and I got an ad for a sega CD learning game.


It should be worth mentioning that I changed a few times throughout the dream. Initially, I was just me, but then I turned into some random black guy, and then lochlan from fairbairn films. Jackson was one of the other characters by that point.

I had a dream where my school was having some sort of dance/meetup thing and we all had to chip in with music we liked or thought would fit. the playlist was almost done when I had the amazing idea to get we are the romans by botch in the playlist, although the album took the form of a circular, messy roll of paper for some reason.

The second part was an adventure time episode. Finn and jake were in their house, which was much larger and looked a lot different. Finn was telling Jake about how they were best friends and that they needed to look for something. As the searching continued, the thing that finn was looking for got more suspicious and his behavior became more selfish and greedy until it was revealed through a shape shifting malfunction that it wasn't finn, but a small, anthropomorphic bat/elflike creature. For whatever reason, he had to stay with them until later that night.

Jake was cooking something outside and playing music while wearing some kind of mask while the body of finn they recovered laid on the ground wrapped in a pink cloth. The elf creature tells finn that he's fully recovered. Finn is ecstatic and gets up, revealing that he was made entirely of candy, although his green peppermint legs couldn't support him at all, so he fell over. Jake scolded the elf.

Usually my dreams about Edynn involve either us becoming friends again or her forcefully and angrily rejecting me. This one wasn't quite as black and white and definitely took on a different character.

I was in my old neighborhood where she lives. It started out pretty negative considering she was ridiculing me and doing the same negative stuff she always does in those types of dreams and holiday was there too doing the same, as she was in the previous dream where something similar happened. The difference here is that unlike in the previous dream I didn't react by furiously and uncontrollably attempting to slash Edynn's face off with my fingernails. I had a mental breakdown of a much more depressive nature in this one. A little bit after they both left and I was barely out of the most intense part of the breakdown, I noticed that the scenery surrounding my neighborhood and the end of the street became something completely different than what it actually is in real life. I saw a huge expanse of sprawling hills in a very majestic, fantasy-esque landscape. Upon me noticing this, Edynn came back and her tone went from that of a furious, neglectful former friend to almost maternal. She then proceeded to teach me how to ride a bike, which I don't fully understand as a literal interpretation but my brain immediately connected the dots to the possible meaning of this dream version of her assisting me in letting go or leaving the nest, for lack of a better term.

I remember the dream started with me in a house and neighborhood that I've never seen before. My aunt had found a temporary place to live off of a website and suggested it to me. I had invited either the cast of fairbairn films or the dream equivalent of them over and I wanted to do an interview although they didn't know if it would be good for their earnings. They made 73,000 dollars a year. After they left, I found some extra weed in some cabinets but decided against smoking it. I then remember overhearing that all of the toys of the kids in the neighborhood were gone, and I tried assisting a couple people in escaping the town with bags of supplies. After that, I left the city and found myself lost on someone's farm on the mountains, where I was chased into the lake by one of his severely inbred tigers. Apparently the dream went from a normal first person perspective to a vlog/minecraft let's play series or something because after that happened there was a psychedelic montage of the scenery that got progressively more abstract until it resulted in the end product of a baby swordfish. I turned off the video and either I was instantly in a car or there was a transitional bit I don't remember that led to me being in a car with my sister and my mom, who was driving. My sister was talking about life and I was explaining where I was now that I had just turned 18 (I am still 17 irl). We drove past an off-road fence through a natural location/farm (maybe even the same one considering that it looked like we were at a high-ish altitude) until we somehow found ourselves in a parking lot, and then I found myself at my childhood house by myself. People were moving stuff around and I was talking to a couple of Jamaican people. They had a couple exciting things I wanted to try out but couldn't because I was apparently not 18 yet in this part of the dream. This part somehow led to me ranting to an unknown individual about yugioh cards in some kind of unknown semi-futuristic space/sky city at night, which led to me talking about demon work. I was saying how I worked with furcas, (maybe) purson, amon, ipos, and one that I couldn't figure out the name of, although something tells me I was referring to Dantalion. I think I got it eventually because I was explaining to someone with me how he lives under one of the decorative white pillars in the city, specifically the slightly transparent rectangular ones with a spherical shape on top of them. I then said he lived in some other hidden location in the city, right before the guy asked which place he lived that I mentioned, and then I admitted that I hadn't done demon work in a long time. I don't remember if something happens after that, but I assume not because I woke up pretty fast. I haven't had a dream this vivid before and chances are it could be a sign that furcas and/or dantalion wants to work with me so I had to write it down.

I had a dream where I was at an apartment with my mom and I had to go outside to do something. There was also a celebration of some kind going on. I left when for some reason I decided to find a car to sit in for some reason. I sat on theo (ex boyfriend who I am on good terms with irl) on accident and noticed that Edynn was in the front seat and vicky from the fairly odd parents was there too. they told me to get out and that they didn't want anything to do with me anymore. Theo cited the fact that we were in a relationship and I didn't care as a reason. I couldn't articulate more than just screaming, specifically at edynn. I actually got so mad I tried scratching up her face, resulting in theo being harmed the most. I got out, told my mom about it, and she seemed more adamant about advertising that there was a two bedroom apartment we were gonna move into. I left and wandered around aimlessly for a while.

I remember being in a hotel room and saw the notorious B.I.G there with me. I said something along the lines of "wow you really do come across as big". he took offense to it, thinking I was referring to his weight, I clarified that I meant in regards go his presence and energy and then he got really hyped and started knocking stuff over and then left. Cut to a school. I was there with all the friends and students I had talked to in school throughout the years. I had a diary and nicknames. I remember seriously upsetting Jasmine and then apologizing. We stayed in dorms that resembled one star hotel rooms with the same sickening green color as the two star hotel I am in as of writing this. Shawn, a friend I used to know from elementary through middle school, had run into a warehouse after breaking down and being insecure about his musical skills. I eventually went back home and talked to my mom and decided we had to do something over at a different part of the building. We drove there, at one point talking about conspiracy theories and how I personally didn't get them, especially how they apparently gave people the urge to defect to remote locations. We made it to the building and then immidiately noticed the structure of the school location was flipped. There was a lightswitch that my mom got fixated on at the end of a hallway at an upper floor of the building. I was trying to get her attention when I saw someone walking towards the stairs next to us on a lower level. I noticed that there was a shoe replacing this person's head, freaked out, said "mom, these people are made of feet, we gotta go" and noticed that her head had turned into a shoe as well. The shoe person below me noticed my presence and ran full speed towards me as my mom stood mindlessly facing the lightswitch. I was attacked and then I woke up.

It was late at night and my aunt left. That is unfortunately when I realized my mom was also gone and I had no one to take me to school. I then complained about this in a way that caused me to gain lucidity. I saw my aunt's van (very consistent, I know) and saw my rottweiler in there. I asked her to say something a few times and she made deep, guttural vocalizations that vaguely sounded like "Bree". I got in the car with her to watch videos when I heard a knocking at the door next to mine. It was my sister and she was getting my attention about a book, which appeared to be from the goosebumps series. I interpreted this as a threat and got out of the car with a lighter and backed away into the front yard where I attempted to set her on fire, although all it did was momentarily cause her pain with no visible signs of damage. The way I was doing this led us into the street where she managed to grab me by the neck and slowly morphed into a poorly passing trans woman with a sinister smile on her face, which is when I woke up