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    1. Loneliness

      by , 05-16-2017 at 04:17 PM
      I drew myself up from my body and I felt myself trembling a little... Everything was shining in grayish light in the darkness, even the air itself contained small particles shining in soft gray light... When I looked around myself, I saw no body, not myself, not my wife, nor children. I looked to other rooms but nobody was there. I didn't go downstairs...
      Instead, I flew like on autopilot right through southern window into the night. With no target on my mind, I flew some 5 - 10 meters above ground, in general direction to the city about 8km away. It was dark... it was nighttime in real life after all (when I traveled). The houses of my village bellow me, silent... I left them behind. I left my village, I flew over meadows and small woods. I saw all the plants, trees, rocks, river... everything sharply lit in that grayish light. I felt to be tired, my consciousness wanted to shut down and sleep, but my will was keeping me conscious. It was tedious task. I crossed first stream of the river, and then I got to second part which has about 7 - 10 meters high walls- it is used to feed water dam to make electricity... I got problems with concentration there (it made the flying problematic), but I managed to overcome it and I shot high to the sky while crossing second stream of river. I sat on the few meter big rock and stopped looking around. I felt loneliness... there were no people, nor animal life there. Only plants, water, rocks... Weak emotions ran through me... Where are you? I called... There was no answer...
      I flew again and into silent empty city... no light from windows... all cars still on the road. I held myself conscious by iron will through tens of minutes... It felt like hour long experience when I felt, that I was losing the strength to remain awake, so I willed myself awake.
      I controlled the time- yes it was half past 1, about one hour passed since I lay down to the bed.

      Remarks
      I felt quite tired, wanting to go sleep, but once managing it out of my body, it would be pity not to explore surroundings a little.
      There is no rock in real life close to that second river stream.
      I hoped, that I didn't call that in real life- the connection between real body and astral one may be quite useful but on other side it may cause some minor problems... like waking people around myself
      Strange how I'm able to feel emotions lately... without loosing balance of my consciousness and therefore stability of OBE.
      Tags: obe
      Categories
      lucid
    2. Dream Wandering

      by , 05-12-2017 at 09:06 AM
      I emerged into lucid dream with my wife, hand in hand... the place was unknown city, it was dark night, the sky was without stars or moon, but there were many shops opened and shining, lighting the darkness in front of them. I walked with my wife hand in hand down the street, looking around. My wife was more like sleep zombie then lucid. She spotted some beauty shop and insisted that she looked old and that she needs to look better and younger for me. I disagreed but couldn't do anything before she entered that shop. Firstly, I wanted to follow her, so I wouldn't lose her in dream, but then spotted something strange.

      There was a tunnel a few tens of meters away, lit in darkness and some kind of a monster was at the end of it. I decided to investigate that. There is no fear in the high lucidity of experience I had. So I entered the tunnel. While tunnel looked a few tens of meters long when I was at its beginning, it was only optical illusion. It was only about 3 meters long and everything in it was painted... I got quickly to the monster, but it was only pixelated painting. I turned back to be quickly by my wife. I was back in the beauty shop under one minute, but my wife disappeared. I went away from the shop, into the city. I walked for long time without thoughts, without aim, without emotions... I was only observing my surrounding taking the information from it.

      After many tens of minutes I decided that I should take more active approach and I decided to examine some buildings. So I turned to closest one, with very big double sided doors. I opened them easily... and behind those doors there was only about 1 meter space... but as I turned, I saw that in 90 degrees angle from doors direction there are broad stars up... everything was lighted in bright white light, but without visible light source. The stairs ended in great hall... there were sitting benches and a few dream zombies moving around without aim. Otherwise, the space was feature less. Wanting to go back, I turned, but those stairs disappeared- there was only featureless white wall at its place. I wasn't interested in those mindless people there. In retrospective, I could try to interact with them... maybe even try to have sex. But as nearly always I don't have such intentions when my lucidity is so strong. Not knowing what to do and not wanting to end the dream at that time, I decided that I will sit down and relax for some time. I was there tens of minutes of subjective time.

      The surrounding changed and I found myself sitting in the bus driving to my village. The surrounding was familiar. It was night there. When the bus drove into my village I asked old woman which was sitting close by, where is the bus driving next. She told me that it is going to village where my friend lives. So I decided that I will not get off of it but I will try to visit her. Well the bus drove into unfamiliar surroundings, the place looked like one where I got often when I get lost in my LD and OBE experiences. I asked again whether this bus goes to her village, and the answer was yes. So I waited. And really, I saw the familiar scene- but there was marked difference- the right side of the road had about 80 degrees downwash, 100 meters or more deep, and at the bottom of that valley the shining yellow hot lava flowed. The left side looked like it should, but right side, where also my friend house stands wasn't there. Not even sidewalk was there. Parts of tarmac road was looking like it was running off to the valley. I resettled the dream not wanting to go there, trying to go to the right place.

      Now, I was flying to friend's village. Everything looked OK. Till I got to her village- again, the right side of the road was deep valley. The difference was, that that valley didn't contain lava stream, but now it was full of trees. Even the steep sides. So I decided that I need to wake up to reset the dream properly. And I woke up.


      Remarks:

      * My wife wasn't too lucid there, more like typical dream zombie, but at least she reacted to me. Dream zombie is my term for people in lucid dreams and OBEs- those people look normal but are like automatons, or robots in their activities.
      * My wife lamented about her age and looks night before, and I tried to persuade her that it doesn't matter to me and to our children and that we love her... this probably translated into dream.
      *I went to sleep after long relaxation, so I wasn't tired... I was left with 4 hours of sleep left... and I was so focused that I decided to try the lucid dreaming or OBE if I would be able to. WILD came first here.
      * Real time of this WILD was about 1 hour. I found that I wasn't tired being lucid for so long... but of those less than 3 hours of sleep I was left, I don't remember of any other dream. And I'm not feeling sleepy.

      Updated 05-12-2017 at 02:13 PM by 66278

      Tags: wild
      Categories
      lucid
    3. OBE- Was it shared?

      by , 04-04-2017 at 10:33 AM
      I found myself in my bedroom. It took only short time to identify what course of action to follow. The strongest pull was to my friend. I flew then through the wall outside. Finding that I have problem to fly faster without OBE destabilization, I choose the fast run.

      I ran on the road and i heard a sounds like overtaking the cars from time to time, yet there were no cars visible. I turned in road corner and ran into strange surrounding- I got lost... Unable to stop fast at that speed, I ran into a fence at nearly full speed. There were big machines there... digging the road through the rock of small hill. I looked up and I saw that the dig was about 20 meters deep. There was familiar hill on the side... I should go there I felt... but when I tried to fly over the high border of the dig, I felt that OBE is not stable enough to guarantee success. I invested too much of my will to do that... and while trying to stabilize OBE I found myself in the house of my parents.

      I was looking around... And my friend walked in, looked at me and walked out again. Either not acknowledging me, or not being aware, which would be quite normal in my experiences. I waited in the room some more... and she came back again. When she turned to go away again I caught her by her shoulders from behind and stopped her going away. She was like automaton , so I tried again what I tried some time ago- I pushed energy into her astral body(or what it was). A few centimeters long blue violet bolts danced around my fingers and into my friend... into chakras??? I did this for a few minutes, not knowing whether it works or not. Interesting thing- I saw her skin on neck to such high clarity as if I was using a magnifier. After some time she woke up... and looked to me... and I saw that she is conscious.
      "Super" I smiled, "you are awake now! Tell me, why did you betray our friendship four years ago? What did happen?"
      "I was told, you are delusional. All that stuff about astral travel and healing by autosuggestion..." she answered.
      "Ah, look I was always telling that I don't believe in things, that I do my own research to find where reality lies. I know what functions for sure... And by the way- this is astral dimension we are in, I managed to wake you." then I smiled again and asked: "Who is more delusional- the man who doesn't believe in things, but tries different approaches to find proofs; or the woman which believes in existence of telepathy, or homeopathics, but tries nothing? I managed to find that homeopatics are functioning as placebo, or autosuggestion if you will. And if you will be able to tell me in real life, after you wake up, about this meeting, at least that we met... since I don't expect you will remember much- but then I will have a proof for dream telepathy at very least. And proof for OBE to be more real possibility too.
      She looked around and asked: "Where are we?"
      "We are in my parents house... In my astral level... would you like to look to your place?" I asked and tried to give the control to her.

      And the surrounding changed. We were in a house albeit different one... The sun was shining through windows, and there was river outside. It looked quite nice, but there were three zombies... One was walking around dripping something like pus... and other two looked like dried corpses laying on the floor. And my friend hide behind me and told me fearfully: "That looks like my boyfriend!" And that zombie heard her and started to walk to us.
      "I wonder why he looks like this," i told her, "I don't like it." And as the zombie closed to us I decapitated it with fast cut by bare hand. The head rolled away, but the body tried to get to us... or maybe to my friend. I pushed it strongly and it sprawled on the floor. The hands of the zombies body tried to catch anything close...
      I looked on two other dry corpses, and pushed them with my shoe- they also moved a little. "Those were my boyfriends too"
      Not wanting to give it a chance I incinerated all the zombies. "I help you when I'm able to as I promised long ago. You may have forgot our friendship, but in my heart you are my dear friend even today."
      Then I was holding her in my arms till everything faded into sleep.

      Remarks:
      It took longer time to separate myself from my body... and I needed to do it by force since I was held quite fast.
      That dialog is only loosely based, I don't remember it exactly.
      First time I managed to wake someone in astral (It is unknown how real it was, I will wait for confirmation)

      Updated 04-04-2017 at 04:58 PM by 66278

      Tags: obe
      Categories
      lucid
    4. Flying following connection I felt, I got lost.

      by , 03-31-2017 at 03:18 PM
      After relaxation and concentration exercise I emerged in the garden next to my house. It was cloudy day. Immediately I started to fly up, above the roof and then away seeking something interesting. But everything looked ordinary and there were no people, no animals... no activity. As nearly always.
      After a few minutes of flight at moderate pace(I flew connection I felt pulling me) I crossed grove at western part of my village and after coming out of it I found that I got lost and the connection pull was lost too- The surrounding was completely different than in reality. There was something like dilapidated village. I felt very lost after losing the Pull... so not knowing what to do else, I steered to closest house and landed. I saw someone inside through window, so I knocked on the door. A massive red haired man came out of the house.
      "Hello, are you alone here? " I asked.
      The man answered "No, there is celebration in the Hall, all people are there. Visit it." And he showed me direction to the Hall.
      I flew the direction I was showed and soon I was landing in front of something looking like giant barn. I opened giant wooden doors and I saw maybe 50 people inside in local costumes, some dancing, some speaking with each other. I was observing the celebration for some time, not wanting to dance(and nobody has asked for a dance). Then I went outside and walked around looking for people, for any connection I could feel... finding none. The dream dissolved afterwards into dreamless sleep.

      Remarks:
      I managed only about half an hour (subjective) experience... it was 1 hour after midnight when I went to sleep and I was quite tired. And knowing I have to wake up at six, after 5 hours of sleep... that is near the limit time of sleep I need when I use exercises before sleep.
      Although the village was dilapidated, it looked scenic somehow... I would make great set of photographs if I find something similar. The nature also looked great.
      People were uninterested toward myself, but they were decent. There was no hostility. In between the people there was very close relationship. They looked happy... very happy together. There was no division. They danced together without any visible preference... even men danced together... and women too. Exchanging partners...
      I don't remember whether there was music... maybe they danced on something only they heard.
      Tags: wild
      Categories
      lucid
    5. The travel of consciousness.

      by , 03-29-2017 at 08:09 AM
      I was lying down in my bed, descending deeper and deeper into concentration, then meditation. I observed various snippets of dreams and dismissing them - I was not planning to try shared dream tonight. No, my target was OBE. I felt that my other body is restless, pushing away from boundaries of physical body... Yet I descended deeper, allowing myself to find how deep in meditation I can go down without loosing myself in it. I saw white and black flashes... I heard mumbling and growling from time to time... I lost feeling of my physical body... then I heard sound as if very high note was played and it ended with something like BZUIIING! and what was left was roaring silence. Everything stopped, no flashes, no sound... nothing left. After some time I allowed myself to float my other body out of physical one smoothly, without feeling of any restraint.
      I was above my physical body in my bedroom. It was dark night. I saw things shining in red light. I floated slowly around without the feeling of any gravity, there was no up or down for me. Nothing was out of ordinary... but nothing was touchable. I floated slowly through the wall of my house into night... the surrounding faded away into darkness. I felt very relaxed and in peace. I experimented how far can I go without loosing consciousness. From darkness some angelic looking beings glowing in bluish light became visible... and I only observed. There was temptation to come after them... and I didn't care the temptation. Those angelic looking beings slowly morphed into demonic ones, glowing in red light. Yet I didn't care. I only observed them. I felt a malicious intent from them. I felt that I should fear. I wondered what is a fear, how to feel it. I wondered whether I should try to preach. Yet, I was able to do none of that. I floated and observed them to attack and dissipate as they touched my nonphysical body. I was alone, again. The body became nonexistent and slowly coalesced into bluish ball of light. I shined in the darkness softly and observed my surroundings. Surrounding of nothingness. My consciousness dissolved after some time afterwards.

      Updated 03-29-2017 at 10:11 AM by 66278

      Tags: darkness, light, obe
      Categories
      lucid
    6. Shared dream attempt

      by , 03-17-2017 at 11:26 AM
      I levitated up from my body, above my bed... I was slowly rotating, naked, in weightless state, for a short time which I needed to stabilize the perception of my surrounding. My vision seemed to be composed from green dots, slowly flying around me and more concentrated in surrounding solid things. It surprised me little that my physical body was black, while dream body was composed of high concentration of those green dots. I felt physical body clearly, and intended to let it so. I thought of it as an anchor to physical reality. I flew slowly to my wife sleeping with youngest daughter(she was there also physical world). I saw the bodies of my wife and daughter, both black, surrounded by dots which were composing the bed. There was no reaction from them on my tries to wake them.

      So I decided to fly to next village to my friend. I flew through wall outside. The music started to sound in my ears, motive of it was similar to Star Trek. It looked like the speed of music, the beat, the noise level was setting the pace of my flight. I concentrated firmly on there and now, feeling of the body in my bed, feeling of the time-stream... Making One Singular Thing from those things. I managed to fly to her village in about 2 minutes of subjective time. There, by her house, I flew up and through the window inside of her bedroom. The music stopped... There was body of my friend, black. I flew slowly to her and unable to break my slow flight I crossed her body through the chest.

      Blackness of her body was filled with green dots at once and she screamed startled... trying to distance from place where I was. Then she calmed down. She didn't see me. It was strange, but somehow I could speak to her with my mind(telepathy)- she was quiet but reacted on my thoughts to her. I told her to lie down to her bed. I looked around, partially expecting to see dark, black cloud (which I saw last time I was visiting her), but there was nothing dangerous, nothing malicious. I comforted my friend sending her assurance that she is safe, that I'm friend, and who I'm. I told her repeatedly to remember the experience and to contact me. When I looked on her reclined body, I felt something in her back, so I told her to roll onto stomach. Then I made her clothes disappear (but at the same time her night gown was there- it only disappeared for my direct perception). I placed my hands onto her neck and with slow circular movements I went from neck down to tailbone and back to her neck. My hands were submerged maybe centimeter into her body during the massage. I felt muscles, the bones... I remember to submerge my fingers in between the ribs of ribcage... I did this for long minutes. But I lost my anchor to my body while concentrating on healing her back. And I also lost myself in the experience... And my surrounding changed.

      I was with two attractive looking young women; one black haired, other blonde, both naked. And solid looking. Both of them looking on me with anticipation... I looked around- everything looked solid. I lost connection (I thought) how do I find my way back? So I left those two women. I was walking corridors and stairs... in near darkness till I came to big hall, full of people and light. I heard: "The Death is observing yourself" I was thinking disinterestedly: "Well, what about it?" I asked first of men there to show me a way back to my friend. He told me that I have to follow him. At first it was easy, but it was as if the air is thicker and thicker till I couldn't move forward anymore. I stood there for a few seconds and then I decided to wake up. Which was instantaneous.

      After waking up I tried to make the way to my friend again, but i fell asleep.

      Remarks
      Sleeping body was black when there was no consciousness in it- maybe when that human was dreaming?
      I was not contacted by my friend...
      The state of mind I used was close to what is needed for Astral Projection
      I felt no sexual attraction to those two women. But massage/healing was strangely pleasant... electrifying...

      Updated 03-17-2017 at 08:14 PM by 66278

      Tags: wild
      Categories
      lucid
    7. Sun explosion

      by , 03-15-2017 at 11:07 AM
      I was flying out of solar system, on trajectory similar to Hohmann ellipse. Target was probably Kuiper belt. I was just point of consciousness, nothing more than that. My consciousness was sensing all the bodies around, from small, to big ones.
      Then I registered eerie sky blue light from behind which increased intensity fast. I turned my attention to solar system and I saw the Sun exploding in size and devouring all the planets... I turned my attention forward and I saw bodies of Kuiper belt now sharply illuminated and with comet tails reaching to great distances. Some of those now comet like bodies were large as planets...
      Then I folded space into new star system. There were two planets able to shelter remnants of humanity, to flourish again. I landed them an planet closer to that sun. There was quite warm there. I was thinking whether I should change location to planet further away, which was colder...

      Remarks
      I was just point of consciousness, an explorer. But somehow I managed to save many people from solar system and plant them on that planet.
      I was in unusual consciousness state. It was like unattached observer, but there were differences... I can't describe them. It felt cold. Logical.

      Updated 03-15-2017 at 11:31 AM by 66278

      Categories
      non-lucid
    8. It started like regular OBE

      by , 10-28-2016 at 09:11 AM
      After routine relaxation and concentration exercise before sleeping I felt my spiritual body to free itself off of physical body a little therefore I allowed myself to stand up from it. It was very easy. My surrounding was greyish but not dark as usually when I travel at night. I saw the inner light of things unusually bright. I walked through my house finding it empty. Then I left out right through the wall to the empty street. And I walked for some time observing my surrounding, feeling it. I felt deep sadness but at the same time I was well balanced, therefore the OBE felt stable.

      I came to the city and it too was empty. The lighting was stronger, the sun was up on the sky, yet everything, every colour was greyish. I saw gravel down to sand size very sharply, each piece of grain, each rock... and I came to the big bridge over the river.

      I saw there an angel, who I instinctively knew as angel of death. He brought an unknown young woman with dark bushy hair there and pushed her under the bridge into darkness. I felt pang of great sadness and love toward that woman. And I came closer wanting to come after her. The angel of death looked like he wanted to stop me, telling me that that woman deserves to suffer for eternity because she took her life. That nothing would help her. And I went toward him nevertheless... And angel ran away. I turned and went under the bridge.

      There was darkness under the bridge. It was as if I stepped through a border between day and night. Light was not penetrating under the bridge as it normally would. But it was possible to see on the other side to the light. There were people there, maybe 15-20 of them. Many of them looked like homeless people. And there was sitting that girl between them, tears were dropping constantly from her eyes. I stepped toward her, and my inner light repulsed those people away from me. That girl too tried to go away, but I lifted her onto my arms like child, and I started to cradle her while I was walking slowly to the light. It was like she weighed nothing. She wept constantly, and she was trying to free herself from my embrace, but I was holding her fast. After short while she stopped to struggle with my embrace. I crossed the border between dark and light and she started to cry as if it was hurting her. So I went back to darkness with her. I tried to ease her, I was filled with unconditional love which I tried to infuse into the woman. And I was cradling her while I was walking through the mud and filthy water under the bridge. For some reason I called her with the name of my first love even if she didn't look like her. I persuaded her that she is loved, that she doesn't have to suffer... And I was carrying her closer to light for short time and then back to darkness so she would be able to accustom to it slowly. At last, I managed to bring her out to the light for good, but she was holding me and looked scared of light. She was heavier and heavier for some reason. Nevertheless, even if she was growing more heavy I held her fast in my embrace and I walked away from darkness to stronger and stronger light till I lost connection with astral world.

      Remarks
      This OBE felt great... but sad. I needed to write it out of my system. Even now that sadness is lingering around me... I don't know in this state of consciousness how can one feel so deep sadness and love at once and yet to be unattached to those feelings, but it was how I was feeling there.

      Updated 10-28-2016 at 09:18 AM by 66278

      Categories
      lucid
    9. Accident

      by , 06-23-2016 at 12:56 PM
      I had accident, a car bumped into me and it threw me out of body. I looked on my physical body and it was pretty messed up. Then I looked on my "astral" body and it was shining white and naked. I walked away without any worries or sorrows about it. After some time walking around I went to city hospital. I found my body, after major operation, healing up. I went to find physician to speak with him. I asked him: when I may take my body again?
      He looked on me and told me: You are naked, you must not show yourself in naked state, it is not proper.
      I countered: I feel hot and I don't need clothes.
      Physician then tried to cover me with white doctor coat, but it went right through me and to ground. I'm not physically here... see? I told him.
      Then physician stood up and showed his fist into wall a few cm deep into it and it started to ring. Like old telephone ring. And I saw that under the mortar there was small push button with bell pictured on. I touched it with my finger and the ring stopped.
      Categories
      non-lucid
    10. The futility is irrelevant

      by , 06-12-2016 at 05:29 PM
      I was part of USS Voyager crew- I don't know who, but I was bridge officer. We discussed how to go faster back to Earth. Seven of Nine had an idea. She showed us map where she added trans-warp corridor Borg were using. All that was needed was to adjust our deflector while flying at warp to "hack" into that corridor.
      We tried to do so... And indeed the warp changed and we were flying super-fast as indicated on map of galaxy.
      But then the Borg hailed us: You are using our corridor. You will be assimilated. Resistance is futile.
      I teleported out of ship letting it to fly back home and I stood in front of Borg cube: The futility is irrelevant! and with blinding flash I banished them.
      After light faded I found that I also changed the position... And I was only point of consciousness, I had no physical body. And I saw galaxies all around. Some of them spiral and elliptical, but I saw irregular galaxies further away. I was floating for short time, considering possibilities.
      I thought... I need to find my way back to my body, otherwise it will die and I will never come back to my family... I looked around trying to identify galaxies, trying to determine which one is my home galaxy. It was strange, I started to see names and numbers on lower right side in red digital alfabet. Abell xxxx where xxxx was number. I couldn't find where the Milky Way galaxy is. I thought: Lets the body die, I don't need it if I can exist this way.
      I took course and I flew, faster and faster, further and further. objects I was seeing were going to redder and redder and more and more irregular. They also dimmed the further I flew... The universe started to glow as I accelerated further... and I found myself back in my body, woken in my bed.

      Remarks:
      I looked on internet for names of galaxies and there are many galactic clusters named Abell. If that what I was seeing was galaxy cluster it would explain irregularities... and also why I didn't see my home galaxy. I probably read about it sometime in past but I don't remember when.
      Galaxies going redder... hmmm those old galaxies emerged long time ago... maybe only red dwarf stars remained in them.

      Updated 06-12-2016 at 05:38 PM by 66278

      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid
    11. The Circus

      by , 05-08-2016 at 12:03 PM
      I was special- there was emptiness in me and I needed to fill that emptiness. I had material/ethereal sky-blue glowing cluster of crystal where spirits of my victims(women) were absorbed when my emptiness called for filling, leaving only short time living empty husks behind...I had forces over light and dark. I could use instant transportation from place to place. Healing and telepathy. Matter manipulation, creation and destruction... I was able to see energy flow in things, i was able to see souls...

      I worked in circus. The Director of circus was collector of special people. He made as to make performances... He wasn't good man. He was dark with greed. He knew what I'm able to do, what I do to women from time to time, yet he was OK with it. As far as I was staying in circus. Yet I didn't care about that. I didn't care for anything. It was like everything is far below me. I wasn't bad... I was simply unable to care. Everything seemed to be so insignificant... Like we don't care about atoms or molecules... I didn't care about anything... I felt to be above that. The time flew around myself. Things changed, yet my attitude remained the same. Only from time to time I felt the need to fill the emptiness inside of me... the process was simple... I got close to woman when I felt the need and she released her soul, painlessly... then that soul flew to me, but never was able to fill the emptiness, instead it crystallized as another crystal on that cluster of crystals I had.
      There were other special people, with some talents... nothing like me. One older woman bleed from eyes every time someone lied nearby... An older man able to levitate himself, was making crazy shows on the rope...

      I was in my room changing my clothes- clothes materialized and dematerialized directly on me. I didn't care whether I was naked or not but I knew that it was required for performance. I felt something significant will happen. I saw flashes of visions of radiant soul... glowing... its filaments reaching to me... There was black haired mute woman with me in my room. She was guarding me and especially the glowing cluster of crystals, even if that cluster couldn't be touched or moved by anyone but me. The Director feared to lose me. His circus would be devastated financially without me. How many women was absorbed to crystal to fill my emptiness? It didn't help, I was empty.

      I took cluster of crystals and teleported to circus directly onto podium. And I felt her. My emptiness was calling to be filled. My soul reached with its glowing filaments across the void between us. She was young regal woman in white dress visiting circus- she was the right person to fill my emptiness. My emptiness was calling to be filled with her soul light... The director saw the change in me... My glow... My disregard to the performance I had to do. And I knew that he saw, I knew it instantly... director wanted to kill her, fearing I will be lost for him.

      I wasn't about to confront the director when he called me, I lied to him to protect that woman special for me. And that older woman working in circus bled from her eyes through the whole time... and she held her hands trying to hide it... ineffectually. The director saw that. I read his thoughts. I needed to save that woman in white. I vanished, and reappeared by her. We were forced to kiss, like two magnets pulled together. Our souls intertwined in glorious harmony... our bodies were connected and controlled by our souls only by thin filaments, but our souls weren't located in our bodies anymore. We became one and yet remained two distinct souls... there was constant interaction making it look like constant movement of light filaments. The cluster of crystals vanished in blinding light show, making trapped spirits free. Director was crazy with hate. I see into your soul director... No more circus for me... no more matter bonds... I vanished together with my soulmate away from material world, to higher plane of existence.

      Remarks
      Very strange dream... I had to write it, it was pushing my consciousness to do that

      Updated 05-09-2016 at 08:08 AM by 66278

      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable
    12. The thief

      by , 04-27-2016 at 09:46 PM
      I was a thief... I lived in city that looked like ancient Bratislava... there were rails for wagons pulled by horses... Streets were made of coble stones... I had stolen things for living... small things. It wasn't comfortable life.
      I seemed to like to provoke policemen to try to catch me. I liked those runs... feelings of danger... policemen didn't like me and they shout at me that they will catch me very soon. Yet, I was very fast. I was running and all but one young policeman were left far behind. I was running, my long hair was flowing behind me, fluttering because I ran so fast... then I started to wonder... how it is possible that I dont feel tired?
      This is a dream! I enjoyed the run even more after that realization. That young raven haired policeman was very sympatic to me, I felt to be attracted to him (not sexually, I'm not bend that way, yet there was something on him...) I told him that there is a slope downwards, that we should accelerate our run... We laughed as we ran. But there was no slope downward. It was something like very deep water well... circular, with walls made from coble stones like the street. And we fell into it. A few tens of meters. As I was falling my legs were runing in the air, till I submerged into dirty water on the bottom of well. I surfaced right beside policeman. There was ladder close to me. I helped him to that ladder and we climb up. I waked up after that.

      Remarks
      It was very nice run. I felt so light...
      I obtained lucidity in the middle of dream, yet I decided to run, since I liked it so much.
      Dream looked like it was set into at least 100 years into past, maybe 150... but policemen had present time uniforms... but no weapons.
      Tags: dild
      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid
    13. Astral plane

      by , 04-01-2016 at 08:50 AM
      I emerged from my body on a large plane together with my wife... It was quite work to bring her there. It was featureless black glass like smooth surface And there was abyss on right side in about 25-30 meters distance. The sky was also featureless and black. Our bodies were the only light sources there, shining quite bright to lighten maybe 100m circle around us. It was soft light, it didn't dazzle our eyes.
      We communicated directly by thoughts.
      At last, I managed to bring you out of body. I told her.
      She asked me: where are we?
      I feel, that we are in astral dimension. I wasn't in this kind of place yet though. Please try to balance yourself I have problems to stabilize yourself.
      My wife was all giddy, running around, looking for something... and she got close to abyss. Then she got scared from depth of it and ran back to me.
      I doubt about this. I have only strange dream, she told me.
      Don't doubt things here, it is destabilizing yourself, I'm already losing you! I communicated to her as she was less and less substantial. Try to remember this please!I managed to tell as she vanished.
      I remained there for minutes... standing still, doing nothing but concentrating and observing my featureless surroundings. Then I was forced back to my body.


      Remarks
      My wife has no memory of this experience
      The only time I managed to have my wife act consciously in astral projection. Even if it is possible that she was projection of my subconscious mind

      Updated 04-01-2016 at 07:49 PM by 66278

      Categories
      lucid
    14. After death

      by , 03-29-2016 at 06:57 PM
      I died. I don't know how, I don't know why. I just knew that.
      I found myself hovering in void. A few hundred of metres away there was other man hovering. It was absolute darkness there. I felt that I'm stuck there. It didn't matter to me. I observed my surrounding... unattached observer. No will, no want, no need of anything...
      Then I saw that that man started to glow stronger and stronger until he dissolved in blinding white light. I remained there alone, not that it mattered anything to myself. But I started to be curious- what happened? And I got answer. That man started to show humility. He was taken away. The place where we were was purgatory. And I felt that I have to do the same to be taken too.
      So I tried. And I failed. And I failed again. And I asked- how can I feel humility, when I feel nothing at all? When I feel total peace? No answer. But I started to feel inadequate. With that I started to feel many different emotions... the peace I was in was taking cracks. But I observed it and concentrated on countermeasures till I was again in total peace and timelessness. I felt that I do right thing. I can't be dependant of outside forces, it is way of slavery... I concentrated... on transfer... Actinic flash and I vanished.

      Remarks
      The consciousness was really strong in this dream, much, much stronger than in waking life. Although I didn't know that it was only a dream. Therefore I marked this as nonlucid dream even if level of lucidity was so strong.
      This dream got me thinking about my life philosophy. I deviated from what I learned from my parents... we are roman catholics... But I took quite different philosophy as time went... my experiences are stronger than any books or speeches of priests... It got me thinking whether my way is right. Whether I'm not lead by other, darker forces. Away from "god". I was unable to feel regret... I felt regret that I can't feel regret for a short time until I found what I do. But that doesn't feel right in light of what I learned from my parents. On other side... what is right and what is wrong... I need to research this in fullness, in changed state of consciousness.
      I had this dream probably because of discussion I had at previous dream.
      Tags: ascension, death
      Categories
      non-lucid
    15. Calling your name- Shared dream attempt

      by , 03-27-2016 at 07:53 PM
      I entered dream and everything was diffuse. I didn't hear any sounds at start. But slowly everything concentrated and my senses came along.
      I was in quite desolate big village. Houses were in various stage of disrepair, rubbish laid on the street. I walked and observed...the day went into night. And I walked. I observed dark places surrounding the light ones. In dark patches of village there was nobody, people were moving into light ones. All the people sleep zombies. Even my wife was in zombie state there... And it looked as if I was walking to more and more narrow places and rooms... I didn't like that. It looked like typical dream where one is walking till he can't move anymore. I'm not scared by that, but it usually leads out of dream(into wake state). And I didn't want that So I concentrated and I walked into open...
      After some time of walking the night went into day. I was walking on street where one side was hill and other side had houses. That road went up and up... And it started to be a little boring... so I decided to go and visit closest house.It was in bad shape... small parts of it were falling down constantly. After I went out of it I navigated to better looking house. There was a dog guarding it... Quite big one. Yet I was walking there. I looked on the dog. The dog looked on me. I stopped. I was thinking looking on the dog and an interesting "game" began:
      The dog is quite big... what if it is ferocious? The dog started to snarl.
      The dog is snarling... what if the rope is not strong enough to keep it on place? The rope snapped
      Now... the dog is not bound what if he is going to attack me? The dog started to growl louder and started to creep to me...
      The dog is quite close and he looks on me... he will jump... The dog jumped.
      I didn't wait and I shoved my right hand into mouth of jumping dog deep, up to my elbow. The dog was like sleeve on my hand- he tried to bite, but his attempts were pitiful. I looked into his eyes... he was choking... And disappeared.
      I was looking on my arm... it was slobbered a little. I contemplated a minute about what happened and then I went into house. It was really in better shape. Yet it was again empty. I was thinking: this dream is not very interesting. Then I remembered that I tried a few times to meet someone in a dream, by calling the name... to make this dream shared. So I called. Nothing happened. Did I call someone? I didn't hear anything. I concentrated more... And I CALLED my friend full name. It was roar. The air was waving by compression waves... the ground went into wave around me... like when someone drops a rock into water. Houses around me trembled. And someone appeared!!! I looked on that woman back (she appeared about 5 meters from me with her back turned to me) and was thinking... is she my friend? The body sizes was about right, the soul connection screamed that it was her... yet the hair... colour was right, but the length... she had hair maybe 1-1.2 meter long! I never saw something like that by her. I decided to ask. Her face was that of my friend... yet the answer was negative. She didn't know me. I was confused. She walked away and slowly disappeared on the move.
      Hmmm... should I try call her again? I called second time... I concentrated... the volume of my roaring of her name was at least as strong as first time. Devastating for some of more desolate houses. And again a woman appeared. THE SAME ONE!!! I walked to her and again asked... And again the answer was negative. I asked:Then why did you appeared again? I received no answer on my question. And that woman again slowly disappeared.
      Third time is a charm??? So I concentrated longer and more. The roar of her full name was much more powerful. LOL. The same woman appeared :
      She looked on me and asked: Why are you calling me again and again?
      How am I calling you, when you are not who I'm calling??? You told me that you are not who I'm calling.I answered.
      She looked on me confused. And disappeared again.
      I was again walking through desolate village. Why it looks so bad? Why am I walking in such devastated country? Why not some woodland... or meadow? I looked up and I saw hill maybe 500 meters further behind houses... with lush green trees. Yet I wasn't tempted to walk there. I only looked on them... I saw how leaves are moving in wind. The day slowly went into night again and I lost consciousness in darkness of night.

      Remarks.
      Who was that woman? She came when I called... yet I was calling my friend. Was it dream interpretation?
      The dream wasn't shared one, probably. My friend didn't remember anything. Could she be from other time, dimension? She was strangely conscious... Not the dream zombie
      Not a short LD
      Devastated village... Why? Why didn't I walk to those trees? There was no need, no want...no will to walk there in me. I walked where I felt I have to walk.

      Updated 03-28-2016 at 08:23 AM by 66278

      Categories
      lucid
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