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I am at a family gathering outside somewhere. Someone tells me some of the food is human flesh. I wonder if I ate any. Are we cannibals, I wonder? Why? Well, it is in my culture to eat other humans... I choose not to, not to eat humans or any other animals. I feel disgusted with myself and my ancestors for eating flesh.

(Deep Dream State) Raven and I are astride two great armored war-horses on a mountain overlooking an ocean and a small town. The dwellings are mud domes with vines growing over them. We are Dark Elf Paladins. Her armor is black and gold. My armor is crimson and gunmetal green. The scene reminds me of a place in another lifetime, a past life perhaps? I get a vague image in my head of a shore on another planet…
“Nomad?” Raven asks. “Are you paying attention?”
“Apologies, my sister.”
“I was saying how lovely it is to return home to the land of our mothers. Shit! Look yonder!”
I shapeshift my eyes into the eyes of a hawk, and spy in the distance a band of orcs riding winged wargs. A rush of wind, and we are skyborn. Our horses’ wings beat like spirit drums as we gain altitude above the orcs.
One of them is shouting… Shit, they have a hostage, a small elf girl. I cast my chaosring’s energy behind the orc, and my astral pet, Jo appears behind the orc, in the form of a zombie crocodile bull terrier with eight legs. He bites the orc on the back of its neck. The orc screams in pain, and drops the hostage. We nose dive to gain speed, then swoop up and grab the girl. We soar over the town, and then alight in the square. I set the girl down on the ground. I look up to see Raven casting a shield spell over the town.
Raven and I fly through the blue transparent magical field and into the fray. Giant Eagles have joined us in the fight against the Winged Warg Riders. They pull the orcs off the Wargs and drop them. Our horses breathe fire and acid on the orcs. The orcs that are left retreat. We return to the town to find the townspeople killing an orc that made it into the town before the shield went up. We land in the square and dismount. I feel dizzy. Raven looks at me concerned. “Nomad?”
“Huh?” Why does Raven have violet skin and yellow eyes? Why is her hair white? I look at my hands. I have lavender skin. I touch my ears. Pointed. I pinch my nose. I can’t breathe through it.
“Raven. This is real. This is not a dream. We are incarnate in another dimension.”
She smiles at me, and a tear runs down her face as she steps softly to me, and whispers, “I know.” I feel myself going out of body, and I faint, falling into her arms. I hear Xaphor laughing somewhere, and all goes black.

I awake, but I am nowhere… I recognize this place, this nowhere place. Nothing to see, or feel, or touch, just blackness, but I hear a voice… in my head? Xaphor?
Yes, brother.
Where am I, Dream Guide?
You know where you are, brother.
The Great Black Void.
Yes. You are in the Eye of the White Fish of Babalon. All Empires crumble, brother. So will your Empire on the Moon, and All will and Is and Was One, Here and Now in the Great White and Black Voids which encompass the All-ness of All and the One Ness of Nothing, the Interconnectedness of All the Things, and the Beauty of Sentient Individuality. You can’t breathe, you don’t exist. You are so tiny, tinier than an electron, now brother. Your significance on earth is a reflection of the significance of all life. All life is sacred. All life is dying. We are circling back to the center of the lemniscate, so don’t jump off the crazy train yet. The interdimensional War of the Ages is just getting started, and I see balloons in the future lots and lots of balloons.
“What?”
Xaphor’s draconic laughter echoes in my head as I awake. I am lying in a bed somewhere… I see Raven sitting on a stool, looking at me. “I thought you were about to wake up. You’ve been asleep for three days.” Raven is wearing a dress of a woven plant fiber… and she has violet skin and pointed ears. I look at my hands. Elf.
“Raven, how are we here? Did we leave Otherworld permanently?” I panic.
“Relax brother, here drink some water.” I drink, and take a deep breath. “I don’t think it works that way. I don’t really know that much about Otherworld, but I know it’s a nice place, something like this, but the magic is… twisted?”
“We had a Mission… I think? I am supposed to go back there through a dream, and do something… I can’t remember.”
“Hmm… that’s interesting. I like this world, I think, so much better.”
A portal opens in front of us. Mosh is talking to us through it. He says the Green Moon is under attack. Raven and I morph into Queen of Night and Timelyst Knight, then jump in the portal. We tumble out into the sky above the Green Moon. Moon Orcs attacking us?
A fireball narrowly misses us. “Jus fer fun, laddy! Ye need ter sharpen yer skills, boy! An axe spins through the air at me, and I repel it with a wind spell. Raven and I laugh and leap into the fray. Mosh morphs into a great Naga and breathes green flame on the orcs. After a few minutes of battling, the orcs say they’re hungry, so we create a feast in the jungle.
The Moon Orcs (or Russian Dreamhackers) tell us the Underground is even stronger and they have been finding more Dreamwalkers. They tell me the KGB is always watching them, but they don’t care anymore. If they die, they are going to live on the Moon.

I awake with a jolt, and leap out of bed. Wait? Glycon? I must be dreaming. The great hand puppet snake god of anarchy laughs into mist. I create a portal with my ChaoStaff, and fly to the moon. I battle with some kind of gross astral parasite mother creature in the wormhole with a wormhole Wyrm. I spin out of the wormhole, burning with violet flame to kill those lil buggers. I land on the Green moon with a Boom, slamming my staff into the ground. Raven appears flying in the sky wearing as Queen of Night, wearing a long black dress, with onyx horns spiraling out of her head, riding Shadow, a winged black panther.
Oh, you silly Nomad! Let’s go on a Mission. Vegeta appears out of a wormhole. “You two! You have not trained for some time. Want some training?” He says angrily challenging me. He slams his fist into his palm, and his hands burst into flame. He growls like distant thunder. I charge at him. I am so angry, and I don’t even know why. He sidesteps me, and laughs mockingly. “Look at you. You’ve grown weak. You’re so pathetic. You have no excuse for your weakness, the once-great Nomad! Ptah!”
I see Raven fighting a double of Vegeta in the distance. Hmph. I multiply myself and surround him. He morphs into a million tiny versions of himself and swarms over me like army ants, striking me as he runs over my body. I scream in rage, and he laughs again. He claps his hands and shouts, ‘SCENARIO!”

Raven and I are in a forest, on a hill overlooking a bowl-shaped valley. We have lost lucidity. “There, she says. The Beast lies within. From it, we will have our treasure that was stolen from my people so many ages ago.” I look at Raven. She’s an elf with black hair and violet eyes. She’s wearing some kind of dark metallic armor that makes no sound when she moves in it. “Underground, the labyrinth. Nomad, don’t you remember the mission?”
A geometric shape comes out of her third eyes, and into my mind. Download. Mission: Recover Artifact in center of Labyrinthe. The Artifact is guarded by a great Minotaur.
Raven and I levitate, and fly over the ground in a vertical position about three feet off the ground. Around the labyrinthe there are puddles of water collecting. I am wearing the markings of… A Templar? No! Wait… I see on my chest are many sacred symbols… I am wearing the armor of an elven knight, and have sprigs of vines in my hair, and the hilt of my sword has a strange red jewel… The Bloodstone. I am a Drow. I look at my Dark Elf face in the water. I have a long face, pale lavender skin, white hair, pointed ears, nose, chin. My eyes are slanted and black as night. My sword drinks the blood of my enemies… yes. My sword, with the sould of an ancient vampire infused into it, forever cursed, bound to me. In my right hand I wield a staff with a Chaos Star emblazoned. I am a Chaos Paladin. Fuck. Yes.
The labyrinth entrance is a rectangular hole in the ground with a ramp leading down. Raven and I float down. I slam my staff on the ground and a magical fire burns. Raven casts a Glow spell, and light moves down to the end of the hall.
We walk for a few minutes uneventfully until we are deep inside. I see a map in my mind. The ground shakes. A stone is pushed into the hall from a wall, a rotted hand reaches out. Fuck. Zombies. They come at us from all angles. We race down the hall, burning our way through the zombie hordes, blades aflame. My sword complains that there is no nice blood in the zombies.
We come to a great abyss with just a small ledge. We see the hole on the other side, our destination. We take to the air. Suddenly a flapping of a great many large leathery wings is heard, and the din of a hundred harpies screeching in rage. Raven laughs at them, casting wind spells at them, flinging them to walls. I sonically counterattack, and the harpies get vertigo and fall.
Raven and I make it to the other side. Right here, it’s on the other side of this wall, I can feel it, Raven says. We rub the wall with our hands and vibrate it until the molecules resonate, then walk through. We are in a large room with the sun shining on a golden orb floating above an obelisk. Raven smiles at it, and walks to it, in a trance. “Raven!” The Minotaur leaps from the shadows and tackles Raven. She grabs him by his great neck, and then he laughs and morphs into a Dark Elf. “My love?” Raven says. She grabs the man and kisses him. I feel confused. Hail Eris. Eris whispers in my ear. “Turn around.”
A great snake with long hair, about 20 feet tall, the size of 5 busses rises and whips me with its tail. “HERETICS!” it screams at me. Raven and the elf fling knives into the snake’s throat. My sword flies at the fresh wound, drinking in the blood through the air before the red liquid can hit the floor. The Bloodsword pulls me into the snake, and we slice it up from the inside out.
“SCENARIO. END.”
We are standing on the Moon. Vegeta is floating in front of the three of us. “Good job. Til Next time.”
Who is the man we were with? I look at him. Oh, Spike. The Vampire returns.

I am on the Moon chatting with some people in the Biodome. Where's Raven? someone asks.

Hmm... I open a mirror portal. I see her sleeping in her bed, an astral demon sitting on her chest. I feel a dark rage overpower me from deep within my soul. I morph into my Demon Self, Deathgawn. I roar in anger, and rocket down the wormhole. I come flying out of the portal and slam into the astral demon full force as we crash into the dirt outside her house. He tries to strangle me by picking me up by the neck. I laugh as fiery spikes shoot out of my neck into his hand. The astral demon tries to speak, but is too busy getting sucked into the black hole in my chest.
A host of demons descends from the skies, and apparently are starting a ritual where Raven is the sacrifice. There is a green fog around Raven's face which I blow away by summoning a wind.
"Come to enjoy the sacrifice, brother?" One of the demons asks. I respond by leaping to Raven, and spinning my staff and creating an energy sphere around us. I summon my giant hellhound, Jo, with his eight legs and crocodile teeth to protect Raven while I go into her Inner World to wake her up.
I create a portal on Raven's third eye chakra, and hit the Micro button on my belt, then leap in.

***

I am in a forest. I see Raven's childhood self, and my childhood self. My boy self is telling Raven he can't play with her in dreams anymore because she is an imaginary friend. Raven is very hurt and frustrated. No! I'm real! she is saying. A tear rolls down my demon cheek, and lands on the ground. A tree grows there, and two snakes wind up the tree. My kundalini rises, and I morph into my Archangel Self. I ask Michael to possess me.

"Raven, this is a dream. We need to wake up in the astral!" She looks at me, smiles, then morphs into her adult self. She hugs me, then hugs my boy self, and he fades away.

She opens a portal, and I tell her what is going on telepathically as we fly through the wormhole. We leap out of her third eye chakra. Raven's dream body merges with her astral body, and she flips off the bed, transforming into Queen of Night, but she looks more like Catwoman. haha.
We fly into the sky, and the demons rush me, thinking Raven an ally, and me the enemy. I allow them very close before I go supernova and blast them into thousands of portals Raven has opened for them to fall into.
The battle is quickly over. Raven and I nod at each other, then she suddenly collapses. I catch her and open a portal to The Healing Glen in The North. I lay her down on the grass, and parasites run off her as MoSh, Tigress, Pablo, and Basara play healing music. The Frost Giant comes and blows healing herbs on Raven. He picks he up and takes her to his cave.
As she sleeps, he talks to me by the fire.
"You, all of you. All the lucid dreamers in your Urth are under attack on all Planes. You are being poisoned, subjugated, busied, distracted, confused, and assassinated. See with Nine Eyes, brother. The Time is nigh."

I am in the year 2215. yep. earth is still beautiful. humanity is still making cancerous growths we call "cities." I live in one of the tumors, called the Pacific-Plex formerly known as the Hawaiian Islands. fucking shithole. just want to make a few creds...

I wake up and stretch. My robot is telling me to wake up. "I know shut the hell up."

"I'd prefer if you didn't-" I grab the robot, and rip its head off. "FUCK YOU ROBOT."

Why am I in the movie, "Heavy Metal"... or am I?

missing time

I am driving a fare through the hilly streets of an old dump paved over. This fare's a GMO-cyborg chimera like most people nowadays.

***
missing time

***

I am going insane, destroying the whole fucking world. I have a machine gun. I run across the world, detonating a line of nuclear bombs behind me. I fly away from the earth, and shoot a billion nuclear bombs at it. The earth explodes. I laugh maniacally.

I wake up in bed, sweating. I am still in a dream. WTF?

I float up out of bed. I feel amazingly powerful. I face the center of the galaxy, and pray through the Black Hole to Eris, goddess of Chaos. “Imbue me with the Void.” A tiny piece of a black hole goes into the center of my Being. I smile with dark delight.
My silvery spaceship, “Future’s Hope” appears above me, and I float into it. I fly to the Moon. I find MoSh on the Mountain, staring into a fire. I sit across from him. We silently practice pyromancy.

Raven and I are sitting on the park bench by the Koi pond, and tossing food to the fish. They swim up and seem to smile at us. Raven, I really want to share dreams again, on a routine basis, I smile at her.

Yeah, she says, me too.

I've been so sick, Raven.

I know. She hugs me.

Let's go somewhere, anywhere, just open a portal, Raven.

Okay, she smiles, opening a portal. We walk through. A portal opens in the sky above a great battle. There are an army of goblin-Templars chasing a small group of humans and elves across a plain into a forest. We fly down upon the Templars. I transform into a black dragon, and land in the middle of them, crushing some. I laugh and breathe violet flame on them. Raven transforms into Queen of Night and blasts the Templars with lightning savagely. The Templars flee like crazed ants.

I transform into my Demon Self, Deathgawn. I summon my astral pet, the mad wolf-boar-beast, Jo and we go hunting down the stragglers. Raven tends to the wounded.

We meet the humans and elves in the forest. They open a secret door in a tree which leads to an underground lair. They tell us they've been hiding here for eons, but rarely come out during the day, for the Templars hunt them like animals.

(to be cont'd)

I am sitting meditating... but where am I? So many places at once... focus on one dream, one place, one timeline.

I am in my mediation room, sitting in BanYanLand in the Biodome on the Green Moon. An image appears in the mirror. Raven is battling orcs by herself in a forest. The scene looks strangely familiar... I leap into the mirror, and land in the forest. I am in the first dream I had with Raven in a battle together. I see my past self, Selene and Raven.
My past self looks at me curiously and smiles. I help the three in the battle. We slay all the orcs. Raven asks me why I showed up, and who I am. I tell her I am from the future. She laughs. I tell her I came into this dream by accident... or not...?

I tell her she is dreaming. She says she knows. I tell the same to my past self and Selene. They smile and laugh. Maybe I am here for me, and not for you, I comment.

"I love this dream. I love all our shared dreams, Raven. So amazing and beautiful."

I hug the three of them good-bye, and return to my timeline, as I know it.

I am riding in a truck with Winter in the back seat, but the interior looks like a stage coach. I remark how it's annoying to push aside curtains to look out the window. Oh, is the driver offended? oops.

***abridged due to pain***

Raven and I return to the Biodome. We go to the Balancing Pools, and sit in them to balance our dark and light energies. Selene and Pixy, Koomo and Michael, Angelina and Gabrielle, Hydro and Skyfire, my Witchblade and DJ Hope, and Francois and Aphrodite emanate out of me somehow.

We become balanced. Raven's eyes are black and white. She smiles at me benignly.

**abridged due to pain***

I leap out of bed. I am a savage white werelion with a necklace of tiny skulls around my neck. I roar and create a portal with a bone-dagger.

I leap through, spinning, and land on the moon.

I am near the koi pond. Raven is watching the fish.

She looks at me. I morph into a quicksilver dragon, then a giant three headed canine with the head of a pit bull, a wolf, and a chihuahua. I growl softly.

"FLUFFY!" Raven laughs and hugs me.

"Someone is going to have nightmares tonight." Raven slams her fist into her palm, and she becomes enwreathed in violet and black flame. Her dress becomes black, and she grows two horns. Her eyes become green and lavender. She laughs maniacally and creates a portal.

A zombie-basset hound head comes out of my chest, and sniffs the ground. We leap into the portal, and end up in the bedroom of a fat want to be badass. He has posters of Sylvester Stallone on his walls and some dumbells on the floor.

"So, this is the sadistic "bad ass" that tortures dogs for pleasure?" Raven asks.

I leap on to his chest and smell him with my zombie-hound head. "Yep. This is our target."

Raven chuckles, and I quietly growl with all four heads. The room vibrates with the rumbles. The man's astral body wakes up. I bark with my pit bull head, howl with my wolf head, bay with my hound head, and yip maniacally with my chihuahua head. The din is maddening.

The man screams in sheer terror, trying to push me off of him. I jump off and he runs out the door into the street. Raven and I teleport outside, and Raven summons a wall in front of him which he slams into.

I roar, and alter the landscape to be a giant puppy mill completely on fire. I turn the man's clothes into a dog costume. He runs around freaking out. Raven creates a small cage, which he runs into.

We slowly walk into it. The man is backed up against a wall. The man's face is frozen in a silent scream. Raven creates a portal on the back wall. It looks sinister with black thorns swirling around it.

"only one way out," Raven states flatly.

The man looks at us. I am frothing at all four mouths. He leaps into a portal to Hell. We follow.

The man falls down for hours, and lands on a boulder in a great cavern full of fiery pits. Demon dogs fly about in pain and anger. I leap upon him, and devour his innards. He writhes and screams in pain. Raven shoots a bolt of lightning into his mouth placidly. His body reforms.

Raven and I merge into a great fiery angel-demon. We grab the man, and fling him into outer space, and follow. "here you will die, o 'brave warrior'," I whisper.

"Who are you?" He screams.

"WE ARE VENGEANCE!"

The man wakes up. We are in his room, a dark witch and monster. He sits up and sees us. "We are Nightmares." he screams and wets the bed. We laugh and fade away.

I am at my friends' place, Bobby and Lauren. We are sitting on the carpet talking.

My friend Tamara enters in in a Catwoman costume. She says she is going to kidnap me and do things to me.

She ties me up, and I begin to sweat in fear and excitement. I am in the trunk of her car, and I bounce out, right through the trunk lid like a ghost.

Now, we are in her place. She ties me to the bed, and tickle tortures me with a feather, laughing at me.

Do I like this?

She pulls my pants off and smiles.

I am at Kulkulkan, weeping, sitting at the top of the pyramid.

Raven flies down and asks me what's wrong.

FUCK 2012. Everything's falling apart. I hate my waking life. I just want to live here forever.

Raven says nothing, but sends healing energy to me. I stop crying, and stand up and give her a hug.

I miss you, I miss MoSh... I am so frustrated with my broken body in Wakeworld.

But, we're here now, Nomad. Come.

Raven opens a portal to the Healing Glen, and we step through. We are in a lovely glen in a deciduous/pine forest in late winter. The Frost Giant steps through, parting trees like cane stalks.

"The winter is almost past, brother. Spring is coming soon."

I collapse on the grass in exhaustion. MoSh, Tigress, and Pablo appear, and I feel them healing me as tears silently pour out of my closed eyes. I hear music... Bakara... everyone is playing music. I get up, and we take turns healing each other.

We walk back to the Frost Giant's Cave. Joseph is there. He is now a young teenage boy, about 15. He smiles at me, and turns into a giant eagle. I applaud and laugh. He turns back into a boy, and suddenly bursts into tears. "Thank you for rescuing me from the nightstalker demon." He grabs Raven and I and hugs us tightly.

"Everyone, come by the fire, I made some stew," says the Frost Giant. "We will reforge ancient bonds as we share food, drink, and stories."

(to be continued when my hands don't hurt.)

I had some cool adventure dreams last night.

***

Exploring a South American rainforest with an explorer-mentor. We fly next to a very steep misty mountain, then land on the forest floor.

I look for something to carry water in. I find a jug and a bucket.

***

I am in a big outdoor mall or temple in a modern setting in France. I admire the beauty of two Indian women walking by... or are they Mexican?

a boy shows me a crawlspace.

I follow it to a small cell. the hole disappears.

a man in a suit comes by and shoves some boxes in a window.

I am in a tiny cell for hours.

I have to find a way out. A door appears. I go through. I am in a hall like a hotel with a camera in the corner. They are watching. I run down the hall and open doors, ending up on a stage where they have their sex slaves perform.

The audience has a bunch of lawyers, politicians, cops, and gangsters.

I scream at them, 'I KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THIS PLACE IS, AND WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE, YOU SICK BASTARDS!"

I flip them the double bird, and exit stage right, sprinting through seven double doors, I make it outside into fresh air.

I fly up into the night sky.