non-lucid

I have to explain what happened before this dream. Mike & I took were really stressed out. We got unexpected news that his boss was demoted. They told her she could either be fired or moved to another plant. It was a big blow on so many levels. No one is safe at Mike's job now. They lied & said the firings were over but restructuring will continue, which really means more firing. When the 5th biggest company in the world by yours company there is no rhyme or reason anymore. It's a long story but in the end we were both really exhausted from it all.... Anyway I decided to do a meditation before bed about needing a spirit guide or some sign in my dreams of ways for me to contribute to our household by looking online for a side job that I could do online. I can't work a regular job due to medical reasons & I have looked before but I just couldn't find one.... So while I was meditating a woman w/ short hair appeared in my head. I've seen her pop in there before one other time. Hence the dream that follows... About the meditation. I merged the whole "See, Hear, Feel" method w/ a new meditation that involves self discovery & betterment of my soul.



D1: I was looking for information in my dream & a boy brought me a book. I then encountered the same woman I have seen twice now during my meditations & finally in my dream. I showed her the book & she smiled like we had found just what we were looking for. I believe she may be one of my spirit guides.... There were men coming so we hid crouched under a staircase.

D2: I had a dream of Nebulus. Sorry Neb but I don't remember the specifics, except that it was the real you, not the Nebulus you. I woke up quickly & ran to the bathroom to blow my nose. I still am not feeling much better but I got some meds for it which is helping.


Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown/OOB

Not a whole lot recalled this morning, but certainly a bizarre one either way. But first...a not so bizarre one!
I was being made fun of by yet another guy I knew from high school. Accurately to real life, this was a guy who used to make fun of me back in the day. However, it appears my dream self is feeling awful pissed off and courageous lately! In the middle of making fun of me, I turn from my locker, walk up to him, and punch him square in the jaw. He fell on the floor, unconscious. All around me were hushed gasps. I turned to the head adult in the room and began ranting like crazy. "You have to understand, this has been going on for ages now, and none of you do ANYTHING about it. What am I supposed to do? Just sit here?? No! I won't! I refuse! I'm not going to stand for this crap anymore! ... I'm starting to notice a recurring trend in my latest dreams: A lot of random people I knew in my high school keep showing up, and often times it ends up being people who I really disliked back in the day, often due to them making fun of me. What's the significance? Not sure. But it definitely keeps happening! And as you can see...my dream self is SICK of it.
Now for the strange one! Guess what? It involves another high schooler I knew, only this one thankfully wasn't one I hated. AND YET. He was the cause of conflict in this dream.
I was in a pretty big town, standing outside. The sun was setting, but it was very cloudy, giving the sky a dull look. The guy I mentioned, call him N, comes up to me and says he has to stop me. "Stop me? What did I do?"
His response? Well, just what you'd expect. He shouted and grew 50ft in size. Must have woken up on the wrong side of the bed that morning. Despite the oddness of the situation, I was quite reasonably freaked out! I screamed and ran as fast as my legs could carry me, N stomping his way behind me, each footstep an earthquake. That's all I can recall on that one. It's like all my high school memories are coming back to get me...

I dreamt about my liking of the color grey in a grey room

Was real annoyed that I remembered my dreams in the night but didn't think to write them down, grrr, oh well live and learn.
Had a couple of dreams early morning.

D? - Some embarrassing sex dream on a train.

D?+1 - At school some annoying manager is interfering with my class and lets them leave before I get a chance to say something. Leaving me with feeling of powerlessness.
I feel i don't want the day to end that way and proceed outside and down a series of stone steps going down a steepish slope of short summer chard grass. Arrive at what look like basketball courts with a very tall outer fence. Ruby is there and welcomes me smiling and asks if I want to join her game. She is throwing something around, a type of frisbee, she is very random about it sending the two projectiles off at different angles. I notice others there and trudge over my spirits not yet lifted completely. A blonde haired (dream sign) woman seems to be the ringleader, smiles and says something silly. I wait for the punchline and smile back. They have tennis rackets and she is all dressed in whites with a white cap, but they are hitting balls from the ground upwards.
It starts to rain and in no time at all, the pitch is flooded to ankle height with coldish water. I am playing with Ruby now and neither of us seem to mind. I see my white sneakers before me floating away and am unconcerned. I realise I cannot fritter away my time there indefinitely and go to leave, saying something to those there.
There is no exit so I go to climb the fence, as I do it bends inwards and I feel my body get heavier as I try to pull myself up by my arms alone. I then decide to use my powers when I see there is a small gap in the fence high up. I somersault high into the air and fly through the hole spinning.

: I I fell asleep and had a non lucid. Than when I woke up around 3am I felt like dream raging. Which is another term for releasing your anger or frustration out in the dream world and the characters. I think I could have made a better choice but I'm not perfect. -.-

Dream # 2

I appeared in my room and as I was looking at my dresser I asked myself in my head if it was possible I could have been dreaming.I remembered at that time that I was asleep and wanted to have a lucid dream in my room. It's usually the easiest way for me to get lucid. However, a invisible dream character appeared and started pushing me around. Flipping me and threatened it was going to hang me with a rope. I saw the neck rope appear around my neck but ignored it and called for Dawn. He wasn't coming so I gave up and made the dc disappear on my own. I slowly fell onto the bed when I did and noticed a blue parakeet that reminded me of Verano. I picked him up and kissed him. I let him go when I thought of the door and heard a voice that sounded like my cousin though. I grew impatient at that time and wanted Dawn to appear on command like before so I shouted "help me!" Until I noticed my voice sounded like a different voice. I even tried shouting Nebulus just for the heck of it but no one I wanted came. I than jumped on the wall and tried to go through the roof but I couldn't because I had a feeling I was going about things the wrong way. I woke up after that.

Dream #3

I was trying to log onto my account for school but kept getting the password wrong.What I recall next was watching a show in another room of my house. There was a tall guy who looked like Willy Wonka from the movie. He was tossing himself around in the air and laughing. Something else happened after that but I don't remember. What I do recall is being at a bright orange textured room where there was a guy that caught my attention. He had bought mc donalds food from what was supposed to be the breakfast menu. "Wait a minute. This is a dream."I told him. He looked at me not expecting my reaction but said I was right. I than asked to look in his bag and he said okay. I opened the bag thinking of how MadMonkey wanted to eat with his dream guide and felt like doing the same. However, I felt distant from them now. I saw fries in the bag, hamburgers but what really caught my attention was a big hashbrown."Oo~ Do you mind if I eat this?"I asked. He said no so I took a big bite and it was hot, crunchy and changed to a sort of watery feeling. This made me think of the point Dolphin brought up in a thread about feeling. I swallowed it than looked at the dc and said it was hot and crunchy and sort of watery. He looked content watching me taste stuff in the dream but than saw another dc roaming around who was his red haired friend.I followed them but than lost lucidity after ending up in the city somehow. As I was walking I turned and saw a guy dc that had familiar features."I know I'm dreaming! Are you my dream guide in disguise!?"I asked him.He laughed a bit, looked both ways than back at me and replied with a yes."What are you trying to teach me!?" I asked him.He started walking towards me and said there were 3 things I still had to learn. I said something rude to him after that just to dream rage and he ended up laughing at my behavior than faded. I than watched as the red haired guy appeared again and was trying to get something out of a corner with his tools. Woke up after I became non lucid and was painting dots on someone's photograph of their penguin.

I think that's enough dream raging for now.^.^"

I was in a city, in some lair of evil scientist. There was a woman in late twenties with me. The evil scientist was a bald man in mid thirties, he was wearing a labcoat. There was a huge square table with some chairs in the middle of the room. The scientist chased me with a chainsaw around the table. He killed the woman first. I grabbed everything from the table and thrown it at him, then I thrown some chairs at him. Without any other objects to throw, I decided to fly away. Bursting through the rooftop I flied to some fortifications that were swarming with soldiers. I flied around fortifications, avoiding everyone.

Then I was back at the lair, escaping from that scientist. Again I thrown all the objects, then when there was only one chair left I grabbed it and started smashing the man. He was completely surprised, I was so mad that first I killed the evil scientist then that woman that was there. I thought that it's not the best ending. I appeared in the lair again, this time the man wasn't aggressive. He just stood there with his chainsaw.

I'm in the middle of joining a hash event. I think we're outside and it's definitely already dark. There's quite a number of people. At some point someone starts leading the event and becomes the centre of attention. He decides that tonight (or just for now), we're gonna figuratively piss on one of the guys. I don't remember his exact phrasing, but he did mention that the guy was gay. This makes me uncomfortable. We always make fun of each other, but to really put attention on this guy's sexual orientation makes it feel to me as if we're picking on him cause of that.

Not sure anymore what happened in the mean time, but the gay guy isn't wearing a shirt anymore. He either asked me where I'm from, or he already could tell I was Dutch. We continue talking in Dutch. He's got a blue marker and he's asked me to draw something on his back. Are you kidding me? Why don't I have anything to draw right now?! And why don't I have any drawing skills?! Another guy takes over and on pretty much the entire left part of his back, he draws a massive dick. He puts attention to getting some details in, veins and what not.

I am playing the newly released version of Planet Coaster, and discussing the changes with my brother as I navigate a park I had created in a previous version (though this save file doesn't actually exist in real life).

I am standing in the car park of a local supermarket, and someone points out a plane overhead that releases an object attached to a parachute. It lands in a near-empty area of the car park, and I get closer I can see it is a small, flats, silver disc of some sort (about as big as a CD but a few centimetres thick). A closer look reveals markings that identify it as a landmine - I shout for everyone to get back even though no-one else is near. (I wake up briefly, and the dream shifts) I am back home, searching Google to try and find out who would air-drop a single landmine into a populated area. I get a phone call from a company that I was expecting a job interview from (interestingly, the voice was similar to the interviewer's actual voice despite not having heard them at that point), and I explain to them I can't talk right now as I need to phone the bomb defusal squad. My dad gets home, and I ask if he can drive me back to the car park so I can phone the bomb squad. He agrees that this would be a good idea. (I wake up again, and the dream moves forward) I am reading a news article about how someone died when they accidentally triggered the landmine; apparently going home before phoning the bomb squad wasn't a great idea (my dreams aren't usually this morbid, I swear ).

D1 - In a book store, I am signing copies of a book called "Clipper" which is about a hairdresser but apparently has significance on a spiritual level as some kind of galleon spirit ship, My name was Saracen Lost in the dream Oo

D2 - Some non-lucid sex

D3 - At a social gathering of some kind, I go into the part of a house where the food is (as usual) and find Louise, she is trying to feed a slug!! salad from her burger @@ I try to help and take the slug away in a cup and secretly use my powers to make it larger then return it to her?
I go into a room with tables and open backed white chairs and chinzy table cloths at the back. There are three woman who are very happy to see me and ask me what I think of their costumes (hmm same dream people again).

D4 - At a technical college I use my powers to open large garage sized doors to a workshop. Then is some guy there who doesn't seem to mind and we converse about something.

D5 - In a classroom there are five very tall unruly kids at a podium thing at the front of class. They are messing with the lights up in the ceiling or something. I use my powers to turn the lights back then slam them into the ground.
I then teleport them into a game or different dimension where they become like small potato sized blobs. I then have to do something to make them join together idk.

So, it's been awhile since I posted a dream, and it's been even longer since I posted a dream that didn't involve death or something disturbing. So I thought I'd post what I remember from last night.

Me and some guy got washed up on a deserted island in the middle of nowhere. For some reason, we had a tent and some supplies with us. I knew we were going to be stuck there for awhile so I started setting things up. It seemed like somewhat of a small island so I didn't think there was anyone else on it. We started exploring and came across some weird things, like a clothing shop(with no one in it). I just thought, "oh that's awesome, now I'll have a bunch of clothes to wear." I still wasn't thinking there were other people here. We came across a lake that was down this hill. I sort of stumbled into the water and that's when I saw other people. A man, a woman, and a little girl. I knew immediately that these weren't good people, and that we needed to hide from them. I was in the water with the guy who was with me, and the strangers were in a boat coming our way. The only thing we could do was hide underwater. So I held my breath and went under. I ran out of breath so I breathed, and realized I could breathe underwater. I heard the little girl talking about wanting to jump off a platform into the water for fun. She did that, and that's when she found us and then we were in trouble. We tried to get away but I think they captured us.

The only thing I remember from this dream was arriving at an airport in New York City. We got off the plane outside(instead of inside in airport) and immediately I looked into the distance and saw the remnants of a world trade center. It was still there(well, half of it), all these years later, and it was still smoking. It was like people left it there as a reminder and never cleaned it up(and it never fully collapsed). I just remember looking at it and saying, "oh my god. oh my god. look at that. look at what has happened here."

Had a two day period of no recall, but I didn't let that deter me, and this morning I was able to recall two non-lucids. What was frustrating about the second one, however, is that I was almost lucid! Well, frustrating isn't quite right. It's more both heartening AND frustrating, nice and bittersweet. Here's the first non-lucid:
I was being chased by these government agent types; they were an army of about 10 men and women dressed up in black suits and equally black sunglasses. They were after me for reasons I didn't know, but what I did know was that I needed to hide. I ran all over the place trying to find a good enough hiding spot. Seemed like we were in a sort of hotel-like place. I ducked through a stairwell, noticing a guy as I passed by who I knew from real life, somebody from my high school, and for some reason, he was wearing a sombrero. He shook his head and looked away. Eventually I found a tucked away corner behind a column and waited. They passed me by, and the leading lady was barking orders left and right, having the group split up. Did I get caught? Well, let's hope not. Dun dun dunnnn.
The second dream:
I was in a classroom that looked like my old psychology class's classroom from high school. I was minding my own business, but the guy I recognized from high school in the previous dream was also in this classroom (no sombrero this time, a shame...) and he was ranting like crazy, to the point where it was bothering others. I couldn't take it anymore, so I slammed my hands on my desk, stood up, turned around, and shouted at him to just shut up. He gave a snappy retort back at me, and the entire class fell silent. I gave him a glare and sat back down in my seat. Suddenly, I got the strangest urge to do a reality check. All I could think was, I should probably reality check right now. ......And yet, nah...I'll do it later. Dismissing that thought, I noticed a fictional character from a game I play walk into the classroom. In this game, she's a little sister to the main character, so she happened to be my imaginary little sister here. She was bringing me cookies, which cheered up my grumpy mood a little. All I can say is...CURSE YOU, DREAM-SELF!!! On the one hand, I'm delighted my non-lucid self is thinking those thoughts. That's a good sign of progress. BUT SO CLOSE. Yet so far. In a dream that wasn't all that weird, funny enough, at least compared to the antics of the dream before it.

Bed 9pm - 3:30am

Finally a cool dream.

I'm in spy agency's HQ. I'm a spy being trained or prepped for a mission. Bunch of paperwork. Then trainer takes me with him to a prep room, sits me down and gives me a syringe. It's full of light yellow liquid. He tells me to inject myself. I know it's to prepare me for pain if enemy takes me and tries to hurt me. But I hesitate, so he gets fake mad and jabs me in left shoulder, then few times in the right shoulder.

Still at the agency, looking through a manual/magazine at the desk. Last page has a add for a movie. It starts to play. The redhead from X-Files and a blond take off their shirts, one stands behind the other and they start having fun. I'm surprised and I worry a child could be in the room and I don't want them to see it. So I close the magazine. (saw the commercial for new X-Files movie just before bed).

Wooo cool dream. Thank you, come again!

I have met up with a friend, and we are about to head home by car - at first we are in some form of rural area, but the dream then switches to a local car park that occasionally appears in my dreams.

(I'm pretty sure there were other dreams last night but I can't currently remember them)

I'm gathered with a tribe at a beach and standing near the edge of the water. There is an elder that stands in the water to his waist. Behind me there is a row of people coming out of a line of trees, holding giant bundles of bananas. They carry them to the water and toss them in. The elder then inspects each one of them and decides whether or not they are safe to eat. But then he disappears and really big waves start coming in. Everyone on the beach backs up, but I stay fairly close, fascinated by the big waves. There's still bananas to inspect so I find my little sister and tell her that she's the best when it comes to knowing when to eat bananas. She agrees and goes into the water. The big waves stop and everything is calm again. I gather a large bundle of bananas and toss them into the water for her.

Fragment 1: A baby duck is being attacked by a turtle in a small pond. I freak out and hurry to save the duck. I grab it in my hands and hold it to my chest. The turtle disappears and then random people tell me that it's probably ok to put the baby duck back in the water. I'm too afraid that the turtle will come back though, so I try to think of something to do, like calling a shelter or something.

Fragment 2: I'm outside on a beach. There's tons of people and family members. Someone comes up to me and says that I should meet my other Grandmother. I stare at the person, confused because I don't have another one. But they insist that I do and say that she'll speak to me and like me because of what I did. I walk up to the woman. She's very old and sitting in a rocking chair. I get down on my knees in front of her and she smiles at me, asking me if I'm Melissa. I smile back and say yes. She talks and questions me about what I did.