to bed late (1am), with some valerian extract before-hand + (f) on the road driving by LHS with people in a car + (f) in a (motel?) swimming pool, there are some girls there but I don't have my goggles + (f) conversations with some weird guy + scenes in an apartment: walking down a hallway, spot a brown stain on the (white shag?) carpet. Poop? Coffee? I'd better try to clean it, I get a wet paper towel and dab at it. I should probably use club soda. trying to close and lock a door. Strange deadbolt. Up-close careful inspection. It's very long. I need to screw on a wingnut to try to hold the door shut, but the bolt is getting in the way. Party. Cleaning out the freezer. Emptying the automatic ice maker, there is tons of commercial ice in containers, that sort of rounded type with a depression in the middle like from hotel ice makers. Each piece of ice has a logo stamped/painted on it. I'm emptying out all the left-over soda into the sink. Except the root beer, I'll keep that. Hey, why not just keep all that soda? The sink and the drain in the floor are overflowing and the floor is flooded about a foot of water. Manipulating both the sink and the floor drain. Eventually the water starts swirling and draining. There are a bunch of can lids in the sink I see after the water has drained a bit. I still feel oil on my body from the massage, I'd better take a shower to clean that off. I walk into a hallway and 3 naked pale-skinned guys are standing there drinking protein shakes. One is my gay roommate. I wish he'd keep this activities limited to his room. I look to the left and there are about 10 more naked pale-skinned guys doing aerobics in the living room. + strange bicycle. There are a bunch of them, how can you ride this thing its mass/weight is so high? A friend starts riding one of them around us in circles. The toddler is scooting around in a little riding toy in front of his parents on a hill. He falls backwards and hits his head on the ground (not too hard). I say "oops! bonk!"
+ new man-made bird; swimming with signalling via color flashing + semi-LD fly @ CH, don't want mom to see me flying + work meeting, those who didn't file expense reports must stand up and recite their status + bad-guy team assault and takeover of CH, I flee with my cat, its food bowl, and my work manager and director. bad guys with bloody mouthed beards hanging out in CH driveway, girl chases us as we reverse down F drive, CC pulls a 180 and drives forwards, down Av. there is a pool, get out of car now it's a 1950's truck someone's interested in it and I give it a sales pitch. Enter some indoor place, a man gets into a rainbow colored baby crib. I'm planning revenge, a drone strike with missiles perhaps. In McDonald's I'm sitting on floor watching TV, immediately next to me sitting at a table is the bad guy team, I'm observing them and memorizing their looks, trying to be inconspicuous. One of the bad guys recognizes me and stands up and goes and whipsers to another bad guy with his eyes on me, I get up and leave quickly not looking at them. + LD #168 caveman + caveman #2 non-lucid, into movie theater w/wife + apartment windows are open, find small boy he runs away to neighboring apartment "just a pencil" + blocked path on the way to LHS + playing pool, strange rack, multiple diameter balls, examining pocket + stop at the shoe repair place
Another "ANA" like night. This time influenced by Jamie Alexander's ebooks: "Lucid Dreaming on Command" and "Meditation For Lucid Dreaming". The main thing about his approach is to focus your awareness in your head, forget your body, and "go deeper, let go." I choose his recommendation to focus awareness on HI. I felt this is a lot like what dolphin does, staring at the back of his eyelids and waiting for FAs/dreams to appear. The first half of the night seemed to take forever before dreams began. I may have been aware in NREM because at one point I moved on to my back and when I felt entirely aware, my wife told me that I was snoring which woke me up and I thought that was strange because I hadn't felt that I was snoring. I kept trying to fall asleep to watching my HI and letting go/relaxing. Then the dreams started. Ordering not clear. + I'm on my way to get lunch, maybe I'll get pad thai. I encounter a (Round Table?) pizza place and go in, I'd love me some Kind Arthur Supreme! They have a buffet lunch going. I'm skeptical because I want the KAS, but I head that way. "Don't worry, " the cooks say, "we've made plenty of pizza for the buffet." I indeed see large circular clear containers full of pizzas stacked one on top of another. + semi-epic? I'm watching some presentation. A woman is talking about a piece of real-estate. She's trying to conceal her location, i see location on address on street, I know where this is [false]. House is large, 3 rich families live there. Look for a long time at the column marking the left front corner of the property, it's being reconstructed/rebuild? Around right front corner to side, the buildings are huge, right now just construction skeletons with girders. They're like 100 yards long, the size of a football field, what would be in there, a gym? Then my team is playing on the ground level under the construction, it's a soccer field. I stand back and watch for a while, we're scoring goals, they're making good kicks, too. Then I run forwards and start participating. It's not all that easy for me to run, like I'm overweight. We make a run for the goal, and I try to kick but my kick is weak, it's not a soccer ball but instead some small colorful triangle things (paper?). I kick to my teammate, and we make 3 goals like that in a row with me assisting. At one point the goalie is grad school classmate KA, then he's on my team and we're scoring a goal together. Enter a restaurant with my team. We're seated at a table. 3 out of 4 of my teammates are overweight. + semi-epic I'm walking among and looking closely at suburban houses. I recommended a painter to some friends and I'm looking at the results [false]. I observe the colors: deep, grayish blue main building, sometimes an odd variant of raspberry/mauve, very dreamy colors. These painters always do a great and careful job. I'm in the carport of one such house and notice that they've painted the foundation a different color (this one is the blue/gray house with a reddish/pink foundation). They've painted a slightly uneven line between the house and the foundation, but that is because the foundation is bumpy concrete so the uneven line blends in to the texture of the house. I pull myself up to look over the the roof and get a quick glimpse in a neighboring yard of a large fluffy dog. I then climb fully on to the roof and launch into the air and fly. I gain some altitude, to avoid the dog in the next yard. The dog is barking/jumping at me as I fly over. The dog jumps at me and falls off the roof into the garden. I'm hovering/circling about 30-40 feet in the air, a girl is walking below me, she has notes for me, she's upset about the dog falling off the ceiling. There are letters stuffed in between the pages of books. The girl is my daughter? Down on the ground I enter the house. There is a woman and a boy there seated at a table. I get a close up view of her right eye. It is strange. She has parallel vertical age lines above and below her eye on her forehead and her cheek: |||||| <o> |||||| I think this is unattractive. Then I notice her skin on her shoulder and chest. It is exposed (no shirt) and colored reddish-orange and of a very strange texture: the skin is pulled and cut into regular rectangular arrays of flaps about 1/8inch wide that stick up in the air about 1/4 inch. Her entire upper body is covered with these arrays of skin flaps. I notice a wrinkly nipple. The whole thing is a very odd and fairly repulsive sight. Our team push starts a train. push hard, run to catch it, jump on. The woman train inspector may catch us. We've been riding around like this for a long time (is the track circular, how can we do that?) Uh oh here comes a end-of-track barrier, we're going fast, brace for impact, we plow through the barrier with no problems, and land in a cushion zone made for cases like this, with large slats of wood and piles of sand. There is a house for sale beyond this area? Something odd like a guy opening his mouth around the for-sale sign (?) and indicating that the other guys should stick in their (ahem)s? It's a joke. + traveling through town, looking for ice cream/yogurt, some places catch my attention, I go into one. At the counter/register there is a light on the left that indicates you can place an ice cream order, and on the right that you can place a yogurt order. The ice cream light goes off and I try to communicate with the servers but they speak a different language. I go walking around the large store. I see people sitting in booths. Up ahead there are some large, fat, nudist women (lesbians?) sitting in a hallway booth. I walk by them trying to avoid looking at them. Around a corner there is a large room off to the side, with a male rock band and some female groupies. + (f) I follow into my jr hs best friend DD's house, his father is there, we're there with friends, we start discussing world history. Something about my dad? Sewer pipe exits? Every fifth pipe has elevated salt levels? I feel my skin peeling off of my foot from the high salt levels? + (f) I realize that I've lost my toilet seat shaped pillow for the night, they have reclaimed them. I need to pay for another one before they're all gone. I get one(?) and return inside to the equipment rack? + (f) exchange of candy. I wanted M&Ms I leave the area and check the (gas pumps?) the attendants/adult, guards are there but they don't bother me, I have a bag of candy, I turn around and re-enter the area + LD#167 ToTM advanced II (change gravity for a DC) I look up into the sky and I see some puffy things like giant cotton swab puffs, and to the right a giant advertisement for a chocolate bar with many little bits of chocolate strewn around, I think "this is a dream-like sky, because only in dreams do you get particles like that in the sky". I do a nose pinch and am confused that I can breathe. That gets my attention, I try again and I can breathe. What? Oh! I run forwards and take a leap off of the road over a big drop with a small thought of "is this a bad idea?" but I fly and I'm firmly lucid now. I'm near a major university and think "I'm going to go mess with the students!" The thought of ToTM Advanced II (change gravity for a DC) enters my head. Down on the sidewalk below I see people, I choose a group of 3 walking together, 2 guys and a girl. I point my finger at the girl (who's standing on the right end of the 3 walking together), and will gravity to reverse for her so she falls into the sky. And indeed, she flies up high into the sky, 60 feet or so, when I un-reverse gravity for her and fly to catch her in my arms. Her head is to my left, feet the right. Her face is turned away from me. I turn her towards me, hoping/expecting to see a young/pretty college girl. She seems to be and I immediately kiss her. She's confused and I explain (punctuated by a few more short kisses) that I made a tiny modification of the space/time continuum around her, but that for her it probably felt like a large change. I ask her where she wants to go: New York? Europe? To the <rock band name forgotten> concert in Austrailia [false]? "Oh, the concert!" she answers. Darn, I think, I didn't really want to go to the concert. At this point there's a strange transition and we're outside a secret restaurant in Iran, and I'm now a small, dark-skinned, dark-haired local boy speaking through another local boy through a guy who works in the restaurant, explaining to the girl that I don't speak (Iranian?). The implication is that we're stuck in this situation (she accessed my dream power somehow to make this change?)... and then I wake up.
big night last night, long sleep, tons of dreams + I'm standing near a tall, wide, jutting granite cliff extending up from me, I stand back and take several landscape shots of the cliff with my phone's camera while thinking about it + sexy time with genital-free "girl", she turns into my wife, we go to play tennis + following my mom up stairs to a doctor's office where they're drinking and having snacks, I meet another my mom coming down the stairs. + I need to test a gun out to see if it will fire, I try to hide it by leaning it up against the curb, then I put my backpack in front of it + I'm working in a newsroom, I'm the junior "filler" journalist, the editors lay out a page and tell me how many inches my article must fill + in my ex-GF's apartment, her two male friends then arrive, she tells me "you can leave if you want to," one of the guys is talking about his marketing plan + in a strange stairwell, I encounter a young girl, then her brother and mother, they're talking in a language I do not understand, then I find the apartment I was looking for + a prisoner is sentenced but tries to escape, he jumps in the river and tries to swim to freedom, but he's swarmed with guards and captured.
family drama at bedtime (why always at bedtime?!?!! ) leading to broken night, not trying for anything, mostly didn't sleep, yet some recall in the morning: + (f) flying up to a fence, people on the other side floating? over fence and down to ground, something about bees? + (f) lying with wife on wobbly bed in the narrow kitchen of former adult home, I'm wondering about the balance, the bed is jammed in between the two rows of cabinets. + goodbye party. I'm sitting in some upper level by myself, a young man comes to lead me back to the group, I think this is my goodbye celebration. There is a table in the distance, turns out only like 4 people are there, so they won't miss me much, huh? On the way there I pick up my gift, a sponge on some sort of golden platter? Arriving at the table there are other gifts. I'm wondering how I should greet the people there. There are two women (older) there, and two young men. I get a hug from the woman on the right? and the woman on the left gets down on to her knees and bows to me and is crying. I'm not sure if I should shake the hand of the guys, I shake one of their hands. + (f) in the (shower?) I have a really big fat stomach, I think the people on the other side of the glass walls [DS] will see me. I'm looking down at my fat stomach, the fat is somewhat reduced but the skin is really nasty and loose. + (f) I'm making a comment to people, and I see a graph with writing and numbers on the wall. I'm trying to make a quick joke about it but people keep coming and asking serious questions, so I'm explaining the graph, pointing out the axes, some numbers have period "." decimal points and some have comma "," decimal points.
+ (f) I'm studying/doing work, (on couch in CH LR), when my mom calls. + (f) I'm on the phone with my dad, and I'm saying that I can bring the keys by because I'm still in town + My dad is away and has rented his home out to chicken farmers. Chickens all over the place, chicken poop, when they're gone won't the smell remain? I guess they cover the place in plastic. Walking past a house I think I catch a glimpse of a mouse. I go back to check and another house is renting out to rat farmers. There are rats all over the place. How do they gather the rats up when it's time to go? They place firecrackers up the butts of the rats and if they do not come when called the firecrackers are set off. + (f) returning from a trip, I'm trying to decide whether to take the high/long or the low/short (route) home.
2016-01-15 23:51 pre-bedtime 2016-01-16 00:00 + wife/monster biting nightmare + park/beautiful stone, really tasty wine + big conflict with guy who vandalized my brother-in-law's poster. Follow his gang, then reveal myself. Then they're following me. Then at work I keep encountering gang members in the hallways and we give each other nasty looks. Scene in the lab with an oscilloscope? Then emerge on to a suburban strip mall street and wonder how I should get back to my car, then a narrator hinting at how my brother-in-law's brother is/was a mobster and that's how they got all their money. 06:51 record early/mid dreams, BTS battle, I win! + LD#166 I'm outside some large (school?) buildings and there are two dogs there, I'm really happy about this and am petting, thumping them on their backs/sides, I realize I could transform them into anything I want. Then I'm lucid. I'm walking down a corridor and want to really experience/engage, I approach a table and am amazed at how waking-like the sensations are, I run my hands over this table and really feel it with my hands. Then caveman takes over and I go looking for girls, find one working a sale of some sort at another nearby table and get a bunch of "attention" from her both above and beneath the table + through door into other room, nice close sexy-time moment with girl, standing above and behind her (she's kneeling), then get down in front of her + hop into convertible sportscar, "shouldnt leave the top down," go faster, up hills, floor it, shift gears down and engine starts to roar and goes faster + at cousins house, huge party, "I like the gazebo you put out front!", access some kitchen appliance requiring me to "scan" my (ahem), planning sleeping arrangements with 2 girls downstairs near me, digging in candy cup, find tiny rectangular individually wrapped caramels, while other guys in the distance are yelling блин! блин! I think this slang term originated as a way for people yelling for the movie to start. Sitting with a girl on my lap and the other girl is telling her "I'm the pretty one!" and her relative is watching me with a close eye so I should be careful. 11:51 feel it's time to get up, it's light outside, check time, get up
this was a night with awareness of a lot of dreaming going on across multiple cycles. Early recall fairly sparse, though, with one exception (graded papers). + (f) with ex-gf SB [DS]. We're quite friendly. I pull her in for a nice kiss once while we're standing (in a kitchen?). We may be getting back together [DS] + grades have been posted, I see my name and take my graded assignments and look through them. Each graded paper that was returned only consists of the top about 2 inches, the rest was cut away and not returned. I read the comments, I was graded down for IMO stupid reasons. In one case it was because the teacher didn't like the loop indeces I chose for one program. The teacher's name is down on the bottom of one page [I guess at least one wasn't cut] with a colorful smiley face. I want to contact the teacher and get some points back on these assignments. I'm chatting with a girl classmate about TCP/IP. I ask her if she's read the big book [couldn't remember 'Stevens' author] and she says yes, of course. We agree that's the ultimate book on TCP/IP. + bell, F. John, bikini I'm climbing up a stairway, up ahead hung from the railing at the top of the stairs is a "bell". Someone is striking it to ring it. I closely inspect [DS] this object, it's not really a bell more like a small sculpture. I'm sitting and FJ is reading something. I realize that FJ is sitting on my leg, and having my leg up under FJ's butt is probably not appropriate so I pull it away. I notice in front of me and just below me is a girl with a colorful (rainbow) fuzzy bikini on, and I appreciate her for a few seconds. + driving trip 1: going to Tahoe. Through the mountains, the landscape suddenly changes from fairly sparse open rolling hills to beautiful pine-filled mountains [semi-DS]. The change is surprising, and I'm struck with the beauty of this area, no wonder so many people come here. + the book of many books: I'm holding a book with a slightly faded red cover. I'm reading the titles. There are many books in this book. If I open the book I find myself at a new cover with a new title. At one point I find a cover like "The Two Tolkiens" which also includes commentary. A brief abstract scene about how my mother is attentively taking care of a class of young (kindergarten, pre-school) children, and she's doing a great job. + driving trip 2: I'm driving and I enter a freeway with deep drifts of snow, it is dim lighting/night. I'm driving through the drifts and barely manage to avoid hitting some. My wife is saying not to become distracted, keep looking out for <something>. Up ahead the road ends and we're walking, we're passing another group of middle-eastern looking men who are walking slightly slower than us. I pass them on the left, two men move out of the way. Just past them I get the feeling that this may be a musical group, there are whispers that they are performers. now we're inside something like a bookstore. The group starts to perform?
+ at the PTL (former adult) house: there is somebody visible inside the 2nd floor window [false, 1 story home], an intruder! I climb up and he's a sort of crazy looking guy and bring him out and scream at him on the front lawn, which brings a middle-aged man [false] out from the left neighboring house to complain about the noise. around the back of the house there is another house on a street with numbers and a sign. The sign says that even those the address is XYZ (has a 9 in it?), that mail to PDQ should be delivered here. The house is actually in a different zip code than what is listed officially. Around the front of the house our group is getting in to cars. Somone's handling a large elaborate cake. The cake starts to fall apart, people call out not to try and hold it, but the guy holding it keeps trying to get it under control and the more he does the more the cake disintegrates until there's nothing left, except a large glass of strawberry milkshake. I'm licking up remnants of the cake and the strawberry milkshake which are lying around the outside of the car. + standing in a portal/doorway with someone else, looking out on to (sand dunes?), a jaguar walks across from right to left, then it comes running to our door which doesn't close properly, I block the doorway with my body, the jaguar has its paws up on my shoulder, I push it back in and try to close the door but the door doesn't seem to fit + in/around/outside some house. In the garden in daylight, there are fruit trees/plants, a horse is eating some cherries from a tree. I'm picking/holding a bunch of blackberries, they're mushy and covered with some webbing which I'm trying to clean off. I get some good big berries but there are bees crawling around on them so I can't eat them, I'm trying to clean off the bees, but this squishes the berries. Inside, conversation with some women. I ask "someone should go get more whipped cream," a woman answers "no, there is some around still, I look on the counters and see a couple of bottles. The bartenders are standing at the kitchen sinks and preparing drink orders, I think. Some girls walk by, one of which is wearing a sheer see-through top, I get a look at one of her breasts, she has a dark, large areola. I follow her as she walks through the house, to get another view. Then she and another are bathing in the sink, I walk by and take a peek.
It's that time in the recall cycle again: despite knowing that I had a bunch of dreams, the recall is vague. + (f) driveway/garage, childhood home ? + (f) outdoors, long, trees, fireworks? + (f) I think I left my instrument at home, I'll have to go and get it and return (to the rehersal?) but that will take a long time, thankfully I see it under a chair nearby, I'm relieved. + (f) climbing down some descending cave-ish/hallway, people all around, teams? good/bad?, food involved?
mostly just interested in rest still quite a number of dreams + rummaging around through childhood home fridge, I find a leftover chinese dish that I think I can warm up in the microwave. I also find some (celery?) sticks with some dark sauce poured over them, I start eating these. My dad has moved the utensil drawer to the living room buffet, I see him placing a fork/knife into its slot in the drawer. +(f) in the house with college roommates, climb narrow twisting stairs to NI's room + playing my instrument, playing other makes/models with teacher, suck spit in, realize teacher played this instrument too, spit it out on ground. Try mixing and matching parts from other instruments together, creates odd sound in certain ranges. Try new instrument and it sounds really good except when you play really quiet, then there is an annoying rattle, I determine it is around the C# key/hole. +(f) electronics projects: blinking lights, circuit boards + playing in orchestra, big solo coming up, I'm walking around, some violin players offer to help me count my measures, I want to grab my music and sit with them but I don't have time, I hurry to get back to my instrument but I miss the entrance + in former adult home, big renovation projects going on around the garage, the walls are opened, and they're installing new locks. I see long wooden beams that the locks bore through. Problem is, they've installed the deadbolt handle on the *outside* and the key hold on the *inside*, that's no good, it'll have to be changed, I look close and see they're already screwed in to the wood. Go talk to some guys in the garage corner, up high there is a large toaster oven mounted on the wall near the ceiling, they're saying they use this to heat gloves/mitts. There is some dried stringy stuff like old chicken stuck to the walls of the oven on the inside. + in (parents bedroom childhood home?) with friends (NI?), there are piles of office equipments (staplers, paper clips, etc.) on the floor around our chairs + I'm rubbing up against a clothed girl, gymnast? I step back, some scenes of naked girls showing it all (x-rated?) to the "camera" briefly, I wake up.
I went to bed around midnight quite tired, but my awareness just would not let me fall into unconscious sleep. My wife came to bed late and woke me up. In retrospect it felt like I was WILDing from bed time. A case of dolphin's "all night awareness" I believe. early: + I'm standing in a house, on a stairway, I see my father walking up from a higher landing up other stairs. He is naked, and his "stuff" is vaguely visible, so I turn away to preserve his modesty. I'm in my parent's bedroom, my mother is talking to me, she wants me to take a look at some letter that my sister brought by. I'm upset at her for talking to me because I'm trying to fall asleep (!). I take a look at it and there are some cards and a piece of paper but it seems not to be of any importance. + (f) I'm viewing a scrolling list of some sort, reading it, it's important. + (f) I'm thinking about fitting into zero area spaces between lines and the intersections of planes. I waken and realize these were dreams and spent some more time floating in "awake" awareness until the next bunch of dreams: + I awaken in bed to a sudden "bang" sound. I'm in my adult home, but sleeping in my son S1's bedroom but with my head by the window in the corner. I pull up the covers and try to feign sleep. It's son S2 who's up and making noise, coming out of the master bedroom into the hallway. He announces: "Guess who's going to Prom!?" This is odd since I know he's University age. + There are two young men, there is a narrator voice, it is vaguely sexual in some way, the young men are singing, something they say sounds like "fantasy." There is a track from where they are that runs along the right wall of the room, and little round things are rolling down this track. They are very small (1/4 inch) round thumbtacks with tiny x-rated scenes painted on them. There's a bunch of them stuck on to the wall by my bed. I'm pulling them out and seeing the holes left behind. Son S2 comes in and starts looking at them and I'm trying to hide them. I pull the bed away from the wall and there are more there stuck in the wall running along the floorboards. LDs: later: + LD#164 I'm the same bedroom as the previous dream (adult home son S1's bedroom), it is dimly lit. My wife is there and there are the same x-rated little thumbtacks stuck in the wall again, she is looking at them and saying "what are those?" I'm trying to pick them up and hide them, piling them on the bed, I ask her some question to distract her, then I have a feeling that this is an absurd situation and didn't I already deal with this? and get fully lucid, quick nose pinch confirms. The dream gets a bit unstable right away, dizzy/fading but quick hand rub brings it nicely back into focus. I remember TOTM basic I (read the title of a book) and go to the bookcase up against the wall and pull off a book and look at it, reading is difficult but I see "winnie". Then I'm looking through some book flipping through the pages and I see a bunch of colorful complex stick figures. No matter how fast I flip the pages there is always a clear picture there, I'm amazed that my mind can produce the images so quickly. I walk out into the hallway, and there seated on the floor next to son S2's bedroom door are my sons, aged about 3 and 5. I call them to me and get hugs from both of them, that was really nice. I walk down the hallway and turn into the family room, I walk to the bookshelf to check out more books since I want to make sure I get TOTM and I just want to try reading books. I decide I can order some food from the kitchen. I walk back to the family room entrance looking into the kitchen and am about to formulate an order and decide I'm rather just summon it myself directly. At first I call for pepperoni pizza but decide I want a Round Table King Arthur Supreme [my favorite chain pizza…mmm]. I think about extending my arms into the "aether" and grabbing it like Merlin does with Logrus magic in Zelazny's Amber books. My hands don't come back with a pizza but I glance down on to a table and see an open pizza box with a pepperoni pizza in it. I take a slice and eat. One of my kids comes in and eats some as well. I have the thought that this is a long, stable LD and that this is due to my daytime mindfulness work. Back to the bookshelf, I take a book from the middle section and open it and can't make any sense out of the title or the contents. I rationalize this via thinking "oh this is from my wife's German books collection" [false]. Then I go to the right section and think I see my old college Astronomy textbook. I take it out and open it, and at first I get the impression that I can understand words, but then everything seems to be abstract geometrical shapes. I've had enough of reading so I walk towards the living room. On the way there I get the idea to summon MaSt for some "fun." I'm calling out her name "M St…., M St…, M St…" and am walking around the (totally empty) living room. I walk by the light switches and try to operate them to make the room lighter. It doesn't work and I continue walking around the room, but give a quick thought to "be lighter" and notice that there is a bit more light. Then I notice that the wall on the side of the entry way is all glass [DS] and I can see two local neighbor kids outside, a boy and a girl. I make a gesture for them to approach. I then see them again and their faces are a bit different. I go outside and there are a few more people here. Another man/woman pair whom I think are also very young / kids at first but as I approach them they seem more like fully mature adults but are just very short, they walk away from me. I turn back towards my house and there is a woman there whom I see in passing has a very large dark birthmark on her face. I will her face to be clear and briefly notice it happening but head back in to the living room. There is a young man there now seated on a bench and we exchange a few words. I decide to tell him what's going on. I walk past him and say "you are a dream character within my lucid dream!". He says "What!? NO!" and comes at me aggressively. I push him back and decide we'll fight and I pull out my lightsaber from my "utility belt" and turn it on. Sigh, weak translucent colors again. We both have light sabers and are vaguely swinging them around. I tell him to turn up the opacity on his as I want to do to get fully operational light sabers. Then he backs into a TV in an entertainment center cabinet and disappears into the picture tube. I stick my saber in there and swish it around, I want to see the TV set ripped apart in molten metal effects but instead I just get a bit of static popping up on the screen. I go back to walking in a circle around the empty living room and calling for M St… to appear, holding my hand behind my back, but the dream slowly fades. I feel myself in bed, with something on top of my eyes. But I don't want to open my eyes for fear of fully waking up. I try to slowly open my eyes. Then suddenly… + a new bright scene instantly appears. I'm lying on my back on a medical table against a wall in a very brightly lit medical procedure room. There is a black female middle aged nurse at the food of my bed, I'm pulling her on top of me and down for a kiss, I manage a quick kiss and want to make out with her but she pulls away, saying that I don't look good from my condition, and that "we've already done it today anyway". She walks along the side of my bed around to my head. She asks if I've decided to go ahead with the treatment, and asks me for the diagnosis. I notice I'm in a medium-large sized room with many patients on medical tables and many people attending to them. There is a person on a table nearby with someone standing next to him. I hear myself mumbling some medical terms that seem nonsense except I recognize the word "cortex." The nurse then inserts some thick needle object slowly into the area beneath my left eyebrow and above my eyelid. It feels like the skin the needle is going through is very thick and it moves very slowly, it's quite painful. It also feels like there is some sort of hard clamp placed over the needle holding in it place. Something clicks and I roll off of the bed/cart and am lucid, a quick nose pinch confirms. I'm in caveman right away and looking for a suitable female. Everyone in this room seems old/ugly. I'm walking out of this room and the black nurse is pursuing me but I call back to her "you already had your chance." I think what to do/where to go and I realize there must be a particular kind of doctor nearby and see an entrance to a waiting room and enter. There are a lot of people here too. I find a suitable DC sitting in a chair and kneel down in front of her. A male relative/friend of hers has his arms firmly around her shoulders. Spoiler for sexy time: I put a hand over each breast outside her shirt and start massaging her nipples between thumb and index finger round and round in circles, while I'm reassuring her that the doctor knows exactly how to treat people like her so it will all be fine. After about 10-15 seconds, the dream fades. I wake happy at the very nice sequence of LDs and achieving TOTM. I just want some restful sleep at this point and try to release any lingering awareness so I'll fall asleep quickly. I sleep and dream some more. A number of scenes, mostly fragmented, some excerpts: +(f) walking in a hallway I realize I'm walking along former colleague DeHo, who lives in SC. I say "hi" and lean over to give her arm a friendly bump but instead I brush her breast by mistake. I feel a bit embarrassed and she leans a bit away from me. We talk about the weather a little bit? + (f) I'm trying to get an ice cream vendor to explain something to me and they're not cooperating. + (f) at my kid's birthday party, there are a lot of kids, how shall we ferry them all to the next destination? We'll need several cars, I can't see how this is possible. Also something about serving them ice cream. +(f) traveling with a girlfriend? She slides up to me on a seat and it's very cozy. + (f) I'm sitting down in a dim location on a bench with a girl I know is ElWa (grad school colleague). I sense her husband GrBa is watching us from the shadows. I put my arm on her bare leg and feel some stubble. I wonder what else is hairy. I know it's her but saying her name would somehow ruin the situation.
+ on the ocean: walking/driving along a (pier?), I notice to the left the ocean water is crystal clear, completely transparent, I can see fish swimming [DS] and I call out "slow down, I want to see better". To the right, there is someone swimming in the water near rocks and a boat is near to them and might hit him [DS, personal phobia]. Continuing walking through area with people indoors, there are small pools of odd animals. One is a basketball-sized frog-thing called something (forgot), and another is a baby stingray. I play with the baby stingray for a while and scratch it's "chin" and around its mouth, being careful to avoid the stinger. I continue walking and reach the end of a corridor at a glass wall [DS]. A few feet beyond the wall the ocean begins, at a depth of about 4 feet, the water is clear but is full of plants like seaweed. I think this is a research station where divers leave the building and can enter the water to observe the life there. Spoiler for girl stuff: Returning back, I encounter a girl with short shorts and try to get a peek of her panties I've left my group behind me and am returning on my own. But I hear the voice of one guy in my group coming up fast behind me. I see him now and notice that he's walking and talking with one other guy who is very tall (giant?) [DS]. + playing guitar, I'm thinking about the fingering, starting to play a piece with vibrato on the left hand, but the high E string doesn't respond correctly, I determine it's too loose, I tighten it up and find that it is now perfectly in tune with the low E string. + I'm holding a baby, I love this baby, its soft warm skin, I think it's my grandchild (?), someone says the baby's family name is <something>, I say "it is also <my family name!". Look down at its face, there is a large red growth in one of its eyes, a woman (my wife?) pushes this thing down into its eye, what are these things in its eyes? My sister appears and says that they are "vacuum channels" in the eyes, used to help the baby eat. The baby opens its mouth and there are strange anatomical things in there. + bowling, my small ball is stuck in the return system I go to get it myself and examine the mechanism, can't get the ball out from it, worried about getting my hand caught + space ship vs. ground, explosions in both places, I'm floating in between observing the battle + work 1: people are complaining that during a personnel review meeting (for promotions?) the meetings always end up degrading into personality bashing sessions, I'm talking about it with them and trying to understand the issue + work 2: my director reveals that he's been secretly working for a different company for some time now, that he's very unhappy with the current company, and that the new company is working on a great product, talks about it for a bit and I mention that it is like "company 3"''s product that will go "click click, click click" when it turns on.
+ sneaking up to enemy base, must retreat, firing grenades from launchers while the enemy fired mortars, turning into full Tribes 1 battle with inventory stations my wife is confronting children hiding guns behind their backs, I yell at her from cover to grab their guns and ammo, by now she has built up a large collection of confiscated weapons + force bubble trapping of bad guy planning a plot against the jedi (he could control the standard on/off switch on their lightsabers) Then we're at a pool table and wracking up the balls. But there are only solid plus the nine-ball which means we can only play nine-ball, but then only two people can play + stuffing a letter into an exposed mail bag of a moving mail truck, it keeps slipping out + epic at the beach - address encryption, leading to an outdoor location - the path there (curved, under trees), some people (older folks) stray off the path and go forwards - 2-layer false memory, didn't recognize place, which I realized was false, I in fact did recognize the location (but this was a false memory). - arrive expecting beautiful blue water but the water is 100's of yards receded from what I "remember" and very dangerous waves - meet JM who does gymnastic bend and sticks his head in to the water and bites the spine of a sea urchin (it's a dare thing that "everybody" is doing these days), I ask him what it tasted like, he answers "like fire." I say "not surprising, it was probably poisoned," "Yes it probably was " he agrees. Then I say I'd never mess with sea anemones, and see progressively larger and larger ones on rocks, which I say are freaky like spiders, with scary long tentacles each one striped with different colors. Then I'm saying to no one in particular how you can't trust sea creatures that apparently are holding on to the rocks, they could at any point jump off to engulf their prey. And I'm telling (my son?) to avoid the huge, room-sized anemone that could eat a man. - lying in the warm, soft, fine, clean, tan sand with dream bride. "luxurious liver" vs. "luxurious sand" in foreign language - beautiful new dream bride who speaks a foreign language and I"m learning hers while she's learning English, think of the amusing and perhaps troublesome situations that can arise from language misunderstandings - the disappointing catalog (burned pages, and the key pages describing how to make money are all missing) and the shrimp lobster (guy says too small, but an old man appears and says he couldn't eat it all in one sitting - the girls get together and sing a song about living in hard conditions without access to modern conveniences, and explain that this is the reason they completely spend the husbands' paychecks every month - my dream bride is making her favorite dish at a makeshift kitchen on the beach, using a sort of grinder handle, and out pops porridge with little colorful chunks of dried fruit. Nobody of the group likes it and ignores her. late: + indoor space, I'm thinking of engaging a girl and then walking away, but then I think I might get in trouble, and some people are setting up cameras to watch me + in a crowd my bag is missing, was it stolen or did I leave it at home? I feel one guy right up against me from behind and I turn and quickly grab him in my arms and frisk him searching for my bag, he's wearing long robes. I frisk another one in robes, I can't find it. I put my stuff on a shelf, tell friends to watch it, tell them again, return home, climbing stairs I see 3 women moving a heavy carpet (up/down?), I think I should help them but I'm in a hurry to find my bag to I step around them and continue up the stairs. home is in my childhood home basement, I can't see my bag, I sense an intruder, I see a guy up behind the piano in the shelves near the exposed dirt, and I scream "get out of here mother%^%$er!" comes at me can't dial 911 keeps coming out wrong number 918, 938, finally get it right and start talking but he comes up to me I fall/sit back on stairs he says "did you report the red & blue pills?", then I realize he's blackmailing me, my favorite childhood things, I say "no," then I say "yes, over a year ago, I haven't heard anything else back," then I realize I'm rich as I can then sell the drugs.
+ tons of students outside, they're carrying instruments, they're music students on their way to class orchestra concert, large group on stage, short piece 4 of my instruments and four bass versions, 2 it turns out are saxophones. One player is standing in some harness and doing flips and jumping around + pets: dog, pet it, friendly but when put my head close it growls, this happens twice. Bird hits the window I cry out hope it's not Hirt I open the window it's the pet owl "owly" I hope up my hand and it flies in the window right on to my hand, it's a miniature owl but with large eyes and large talons it sits there a few seconds then flies somewhere else + English speaking women in water and on power yacht, I'm surprised to hear English speakers, I think the boat is coming too close to the women in the water they'll get ripped up by the blades of the propeller. + "dream info" paper I wrote for a friend got a bad grade "3+" I'm trying to read teacher comments to see if it was because of the plaigarism or the content +f in a room/house throw something into a far corner it was a weak row I do it again and manage more strength this time + with bf MR again, his mother I thank her for the food earlier She asks what and I say "the goat stew". Doing stuff with MR +f an ant/flea nest on the ground
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