lucid

+ pool/girls

+ room & candles

+ work: meeting, food table, take pasta home even through supposed to pay

+ talk to old guy former colleague asking why I'm here visiting a competitor, I say "you have to keep your contacts current! Meet people, go to lunch. I've been working 20-25 years, and you've been working for like 50 (oops, that may hurt hi feelings

+ cosmetic counter, 2 beautiful clerk girls wearing amazing colorful outfits, I'm standing at the counter admiring them, and admiring their outfits. They are modeling the outfits which are for sale. One is a two-piece top and shorts combo in a green silk-like material, showing off her body nicely. The other one is a shimmering rainbow dress. I want the green two-piece girl to come over to me so I can see her closely. She does not come. I walk to the left around another customer to stand in front of her. She takes out a hand cream and is going to give me a sample. She pours a HUGE pile of it onto her hand, a giant pancake of it, and takes my two hands and smears the cream all over the palms of my hands, then the back of my hands.

As I walk away I'm wiping my hands and think if I need hold something like an axe or something with a handle like a weapon, it will slip out of my grasp

+ LD#193 I'm walking and I look down and feel/see that my pants are loose. I put my hands on to the top of my pants and flap them around a little bit, seeing how loose they are. Then it hits me: MY BAG IS GONE. Could it take been taken off of me by somewhen when I was sleeping?. I run back where I was before. I see my bag sitting on the top of a buffet/desk. I put it on. I look down and see that IT IS EMPTY. I freak out. I start running. I say/think "IT HAS FINALLY HAPPENED, I'VE LOST MY WALLET and PASSPORT, I'M SCREWED!" I'm running towards the main entrance but think that there's no hope, the thieves are probably long gone. I have only one hope, and that is if I'm dreaming. I reach up for a nose pinch.

I CAN BREATHE. YES, I'm dreaming. OMG what a relief. I stop running, and do 2-3 more nose pinches. I become aware of my surroundings, indoors in a mostly dark huge open space, the walls are very far away. I look at my right hand and it is translucent and I have fractal fingers growing out of the main fingers. I think about doing some meditation in the dream. I hear voices from far away, there is a wall 100 feet away or so, I head in that direction. I think it's taking too much time to travel by "walking." I continue to hear the voices and I see then a door/opening in the wall and catch a glimpse of people moving inside.

Then I'm past the wall and standing in another huge open area, no ceiling visible, but this is brightly lit, and there is a dance/exercise class going on. I'm standing at the front with all the class members (about 30 people in rows) in front of me. I look at them while I walk into the crowd. Vision is slanted at first, and distorted, like I'm looking through a strange lens. I walk up to a girl, and see more girls in the crowd but I choose this one. They're dancing, doing aerobics, moving in place. I get an idea to stop time and I snap my right fingers and will time to stop for them. They all stop, but they're not frozen like time is actually stopped, but that they're rather pretending to be stopped.

Spoiler for sexual situation:

I'm standing in front of the girl and she has attractive, open cleavage from a loose top, and I reach both hands in under her top to massage her breasts. She sort of stumbles to her left (my right) like she's losing her balance. I see her breasts and feel them. I say "You're time frozen, don't move". I look at her for a few seconds then

I wake up.

details later

early:
+(f) in darkened room, computers up high on top of cabinets

+ [vivid, long] crazy kitchen: clean pot won't get clean black spots, scratched frying pan, dining room, re-arrange kitchen, multiple dining rooms, toasters, book-ends(?), pencil sharpener not working right

+ movie theater labyrinth, crooked movable hallways that the staff spend time re-arranging to change the shape of the theaters, pressing buttons to see the preview outside the theaters, have to pee, come to lobby to avoid the gorilla guy (overheard), in another strange kitchen with large combination gas cooktops/urinals

Awake, check email, BTS tough, use Holecek visualizations to step down into sleep successfully, more dreams:

+ people in parking lot, go inside, sit at table in restaurant, I'm feeding plates to a girl on the couch on the right, she takes a bite and passes the plate back to me and I pass them back to the left, she eats a piece of shrimp from one of the plates and I see the little tail/meat stub remaining as I pass the plate back.

+ playing and singing the chorus to "Wild world" by Cat Stevens on the guitar and playing the riffs well

+(f) get on a bus that is flooded and I"m worried a bit about avoiding the sharks in the water.

+ take off on a pirate ship after convincing the captain to go with our people as crew, hit by 100 foot tsunami breaking right on top of us, wake up thinking I should have laid down on the deck to avoid the tsunami's slamming us down and damaging our heads, applying/peeling bandages, captain angry

+ LD#191 starts with picture of "me reading in my room" after other rooms are all busy (with the needs of a new baby in the family?)
wife snoring in pink bed in pink room, leave, go to snacks room which is parent's bedroom in CH, eat an egg-shaped cookie and worry about recording the calories for it in MFP, step out on deck, there's a chaise lounge laid out for sleep there, which is a bit surprising, then I look out and see very colorful festive buildings just off of the deck and say/realize "in dreams, the buildings can be very close". There's a birthday party going on in the colorful home, I grab a girl and bring her back into my room for a short session of fun and I wake up/transition while counting to 10.

Lucidity weak but I'm counting it .

0:45 bedtime
2:00 still awake, take 2mg melatonin

+ (f, vague, impression) football?

+ read address outside home (3615), happy that now I finally have the address of my old school BF, I try to read address again and it is fuzzy I cannot see any digits. Closeup of some meat dish cooking in a brown sauce. I'm looking at it for some while. Some part of this is from McDonald's and I'm surprised because my friend is a gourmet.

+(f) with a guy in a garage looking at toys/games/objects?

+ baby, laugh/tickle, dogs nuzzle faces unknown pug and old dog L (CH kitchen?), rash on baby, I get rash on hands, to go mirror, friend in the way, "I'm waiting for the sink!" he has cross/chains in hand?, look in mirror, face wrong/puffy, upset that nobody told me I had a puffy face, my eyes are too squinted/closed, I try to pry them open back to regular shape [DAY RESIDUE, mirror dream yoga exercise]

wake, can't believe I missed the mirror scenario, BTS

+ LD#190 mirror [first LD from mirror check!]. I'm walking quickly through a garage heading for the door to the kitchen, I do a sudden double-take (I walked by a mirror?), stop and look at my face in a mirror with my left hand grasping the door frame into the kitchen, see my face is like the previous dream (wrong face/puffy), and get lucid. I walk into the kitchen, there's a girl there. I do a short pat-down lucid ritual, then I immediately hold out my hand to blast her with lightning (yay!). At first nothing comes out but then some tendrils/tube of energy forms from my hand running towards her. She sends a blast back at me (?) and they meet in the middle (?). Another girl and an older woman enter the kitchen, I try to ignore them. I then approach the woman/girl, getting a quick kiss from the first girl as I walk by her. Then I'm trying to rip the clothes off one of the girls with TK with my "be naked" gesture. It doesn't work, I try it repeatedly. The original girl is naked then and I approach
and the dream fades

+ couch, blankets, construction, folding and unfolding couch, talking about it

+ I'm walking through the lobby of some hotel heading for an upper floor. There are various female clerks behind counters. I'm heading for the stairs, then "remember" [FALSE] that there are elevators around a corner through a hallway. I head to there but the walls of the corridor narrow to about 1/2 a person's width [DREAM SIGN], I can't get through so return. I'm looking for another elevator when a female staff member says I do not have access?

+ hot MILF doubletake (boobs), cloth/rope ladder (will it take my weight?) to 2nd floor of shop, stuck on ladder, stuck getting out finally claw my way out with help of (hot MILF?)

to bed late (1am), sleep in late (10:30am)

early/middle:

+ at work, my workspace is too exposed, "LinkedIn" [DAY RESISDUE], desk confusion (girl's accessories), hot admin asks me for coffee, turns out we're just getting it from the kitchen

+ (longer scenes leading up to this) sister asking for paper towels, all they have is the roll kind I say, some man comments

+ LD#188 get off small bus with family, carrying lots of baggage slung over my shoulder which gets caught in the door a bit, look back in to find rest of bags and pull them out, standout outside on coast, it's HOT, I think it's going to be sweltering work to carry all these bags around in this heat. Some hot girl up ahead catches my attention, I follow her I notice she's topless, I hold back from engaging right up close to her as I remember the DoubleHelix approach of asking/declaring I want to take a picture of her (ahem), she playfully demurs and keeps moving away, I say how about a picture of you breasts? I realize I'm dreaming and say out loud "I'm dreaming" but I'm in such a hurry to follow her that I quickly lose lucidity.

+ playing backgammon-like game: I have one second left on my timer, I must move FAST if I want to not lose on time, but my opponent does not start my timer when he makes his move, but I still jump for my dice [DAY RESIDUE from "inception"?] and roll and move very quickly. At some point I realize that I've moved twice in a row against the rules and let my opponent move.

late/last:
+ starts out at U lake (boy scouts), low water, climbing over rocks, think what would be a good place to fish. then in house, girl has collection of different high quality recorders, I pick one out to play, and play "over the rainbow" [DAY RESIDUE], long confusing recorder, too many wholes for all the fingers, girl has a stack of them, I think I play beautifully but realize the sound I'm imagining is partly in my head the "physical" sound I'm producing is not quite as lovely. I ask what key is this record in, she answers "C", I look at a fistful of recorders in my hand and read tags, I think mine says "F", I go to a piano and play the C key and hold the recorder in my left hand and finger a middle "C" note with my thumb and middle finger, it sounds very different from the piano C so I look at her and shake my head "no", then I try again and the notes sound the same, putting the recorder back I knock over the container of recorders and freeze in position asking the owning girl for help to pick them up without spilling them to the ground.

Then I'm heading for bed and go through a kitchen area (up a few steps from the sunken living room [DREAM SIGN]), I see a picnic-style table with places set and several glasses full of a red berry drink, and on a counter to the right several pitchers of the same drink prepared for anybody who gets up in the middle of the night and wants a drink. I look at the table and there's a cat on it who knocks over a glass, I pick up the glass and put it back, thankfully it was one of the empty ones.

(possibly from another night, these came to me just now as I'm reviewing dreams/memories in preparation for bed)
+(f) skiing down a tight chute on the mountain

+(f) clearest encounter with dream mom since last year: she's sitting with my dad, I see her, she looks at me and smiles widely, some funny discoloration about her eyes.

+ hunt, chasing two animals, one a (rabbit?) with severed ears pumping blood; the member of the tribe who (harvested?) glass on the prairies, I see some glass crystals and point them out

+ [long!] follow car down hill, read its license plate, young tall blonde woman gets out near a gate, we must speak carefully because "they" are listening, I ask what's going on, she was driving to a conference and was captured and put to work. We're at a gate and there is some automated robotics that manipulate the controls to open the gate.

Inside down in a bunker a guy who's been there for a while is taking me to my workstation, he's bringing a big box and he's putting it under my desk next to my tower PC. I don't want it there because it will interfere with my feet when sitting under the desk. He's telling me how I need to physically turn off this box when I leave or else it will begin gathering information about me and feed it to "them".

I'm standing in a room with glass windows out to the outside, a rolling hillside. We're drinking beer? There is a distinct thin layer of fog at a particular elevation on the hill just outside the window and I point this out to the people there and watch it for a while.

In an outdoor garden with people, one guy we're with starts behaving really weird and foaming at the mouth and out of his hands. I say "what's going on with him?" Another guy says "he's (summoning? transforming into?) the (cucumber beast?)" The beast materializes on top of the fence running around this yard. This thing just needs to touch somebody, and that person immediately starts to disintegrate. I'm freaked out by that thing and I jump up in the air and levitate around watching the ground and calling out "is it gone yet?"

In CH walking in between dining room and living room, I know I'm still in captivity. I'm talking with my (cousin?) I'm back in the dining room and someone mentions the captivity and that it will be long and I freak out and start hopping back and forth from foot to foot and practically scream out, "I'LL BE OUT..." (OF HERE IN A MONTH I want to say) but I"m interrupted by someone loudly shouting "SHHHHHH!!!!!!" so that I don't speak so that the captives hear my plans.

wake
BTS

+ casino: I'm in a casino trying to get set up to play blackjack. It's pretty dark. I have a vague friend with me. There's a counter we're standing at at the end of a long room where they're setting up tables. My friend wants to watch the game on TV and is complaining that there's no TV in this room. He's being stupid I think because we've managed great conditions: only us two will be playing at this table. I tell him, "This is IDEAL for us!" hoping he gets the point but he is still unhappy and I repeat "This is IDEAL for us!". I see them setting up a table in front of us, small and straight/rectangular, and a bit below our level, not the usual kidney shaped BJ table.

Now I have a close up of the table in front of me pratically with my face in it and the dealer is standing to my right and haded me a dual pack of cards and I'm shuffling them, they don't perfectly shuffle together and I need to push them together with my hands. Then I'm handling my money. I'm handed two wrapped stacks of bills. I plan to play $5-$20 so I try to pull out about $100 in $20 bills but the bills sort of spread over the table. I ask for $5 chips. I get chips and I look at them and they are marked oddly, some of them are "$35" chips, and some of them are hand-written with wording and $35 written on them. I'm suspicious of them and ask about them.

Outside the casino there is a sign from the head of the casino about which games can be played by (card counters?), and which games they'll be killed if they try to play, I can't make much sense out of the sign.

+ intersection: I'm driving in traffic approaching an traffic signal. There is a building on the left that in an "L" shape. The traffic is think and I hope to make the light. As I get to the intersection the light turns red again and I see police waiting by the building to the left so I stop and wait. When I can go again I drive forwards and now I'm on a scooter and bank to the left and up against the short edge of the "L" part of the building around the corner so the police can't see me, I think this is probably not a legal parking place but I fit in here so easily that it should not be a problem. I see my wife out in the road and she walks a loop and comes to me.

+ LD#187. ...I'm out on the deck of my childhood home [major DREAM SIGN], it's dark/twilight, I come back in to the dining room through the sliding glass door and get the feeling/idea that I could enter the dream state by force of will, which I don't completely believe. I get a smile on my face and turn and run back out to the deck for in order to take of flying, now lucid. I stop at the railing and things are unstable. I'm flailing a bit for solidity and decide to put my face up close to the top of the railing and stare at it. I do this and it instantly comes into very bright, vivid, stable focus. "Whhoaaaa" I say as I look at the grain of the wood, and the "specks" of colored (sand) that are sprinkled around it. I remember my LD goal of looking down from the deck into the back yard, and I look over the railing. The yard is there at proper distance below me, but the ground looks "pixelated" with a frequent repeated computer-looking pattern/texture. I walk to the left towards the corner with my head still looking down to the garden. I think about standing up straight but I decide to keep my eyes on the garden below as I continue to the left. I see the wide brick stairs come into view. On each side of the steps are ceramic pots with plants growing in them. I notice how the perspective changes properly as I walk. The yard is super vivid. Then I reach the corner and look to see the lemon tree, and there it is right in front of me, bright green leafs and yellow lemons all over it. It is too close to the railing, I could almost touch it I think. Then suddenly, without looking away, it's seemingly gone, but I realize it has returned to its closer to waking position.

Content that I've done this goal I start walking without a plan back to the sliding glass door, and the idea strikes me to summon my college GF. I'm at the corner facing the house and I reach my right hand around the corner and don't look to my left and try to feel for DB taking my hand. I pull my hand back to me and look, at first I don't see anything but keep imagining that I see her and a girl appears in front of me. She's cute but doesn't look anything like DB. I will her to look like DB and try to bring up DB's face in my memory to install on the DC, but it doesn't work. I give up and decide this is DB. I step up to her and give her a nice solid kiss on the lips. As I pull back I notice that my father is to my right on the deck, a 40yo-50yo version of him. He's sort of dancing around in a silly way and leaning back and looking at us and he says "Heeewww! Heeeeewww!", I ignore him and turn my attention back to DB.

Spoiler for slightly sexy time:

I have DB up against the railing and I ask her "why didn't we have sex?" [when we were going out]? She responds something like "I made sure that we didn't." I say "well, why don't we have sex now, this is a dream!" and I unzip her top. I'm trying to get her legs open and bring out my (ahem) but she keeps crossing them

... and I wake up.

bedtime: about 1am
long time to sleep at bed time

+ (impression) Something Lord of the Rings related, no concrete memories

+(mostly non-visual) in a gas station fueling a car, there is a guy there saying how this car can take either unleaded or leaded. Leaded, as long as (some other condition). I get him to repeat this because I'm pretty amazed at this flexibility

+ we leave a (church?) and the woman church official leaves the door ajar. My wife and I go back in. I try to place the door and the latch at the least suspicious angle. I'm trying to walk without being seen, so I'm keeping some perceived followers on the other side of obstacles as I move through the interiors. Then in the large open area, there are lots and lots of people sitting at desks/tables. People are there to get church approval for their plans. At one table nearby, a guy is introducing himself and telling the officials "this is a great book, you really should look into it." My wife is at a table, trying to get approval for our plans.

I'm in a room with a rope hanging from the ceiling. My task (to get final approval?) is to hang from the rope with my hands with my feet not touching the floor for 30 seconds. There is an analog clock on the wall and I try to do this and watch the second hand on the clock but I feel my feet are touching the floor and figure this will disqualify me. There is an athletic guy on my left with his rope and he successfully keeps his feet off of the floor the the full 30 seconds.

Then I realize: I do not have to use the strength of my arms, I could fashion a seat by tying knots in the rope and just sit in the loop for the 30 seconds. The rest of the time is me trying to tie knots in the rope but the rope has become huge cable and chains that are long and hopelessly tangled.

Outside with a (vehicle?) and some women workers, they are hooking up my (car?) to the supply lines. The supply lines seem to be electronic ribbon tables wound up into really huge spools, I see the computer-connector-looking ends as the women unroll them and attach them to my vehicle.

Wake, fairly long BTS
around 8am.
slow BTS, WILD attempt
final waking around 10:30?

+ LD#186 park maintenance room.
... I'm at the middle level of TV park (CH neighborhood), it is nighttime and I imagine that I could lash a small flying shield to my feet and fly around on it. I zoom down to the lowest level (BB courts) and I think that I can imagine things like laser guns and shoot things with them, which I do, up against the tennis practice wall, as I continue flying. There are obstacles outlined in bright red laser light on the edges, and I swoop around them avoiding them, having a great time flying. I think I could shoot some baskets like this but basketball doesn't really appeal to me. I fly up to around a tall streetlight up at the top of the back fence by the steep exit road down to the street below from the back corner, I think there are some people coming to this level and I want to avoid them [DREAM SIGN] (?). I look down at the gate and notice that it is made from two large solid metal doors. People wouldn't want to go down there because they could be ambushed.

I go down past the doors on the steep short curving road to the street below and notice a depression in the ground to the right, sort of a place you could climb down inside and be not seen, I think this could be a place also to be attacked without warning. I climb down inside this area and I notice that there is a very dark "cave" extending a bit to the back. There is a house immediately next to me with a murky window and I think I detect some movement inside which at first I'm concerned about then I ignore it. I look back again at the "cave" which intrigues me and use my smart phone as a weak flashlight and it reveals that there is a door to a small utility room there. I think this is the utility area for the park. I decide to go in and see that it goes back farther than I'd realized. About 20 feet from me in the low light I see a box sitting on something and it grabs my attention when I think I detect it moving a little.

I reach up my right hand and will the box to fly to me using TK. I feel a bit silly doing this because it won't work, but then I get an impression that the box flies towards me.
At this point I'm lucid and I walk further into the utility area. As I do so I see that the area opens up to a very large open light area like a gymnastics floor. I do a quick nose pinch with a quick short inhale and am not surprised that I can breathe. There are some girls sitting around there and this gets my attention. I'm wondering what to do but caveman takes over.

Spoiler for brief sexy time:

I'm feeling pretty horny so I take out my (ahem) from my pants and look down briefly at it. I look up again and see the girls are still sitting around. I pick the one closest to me and go up and position myself for some "attention"

and then I wake up.

May goals: 2/20 LDs

Got a bit sick of the low recall phase so decided to jolt the system with some bedtime supplements: 1 capsule of a Huperzine-A and ginko biloba combo, 1mg melatonin, and 1 Opti-Men multivitamin (my semi-regular bed-time and morning supplement).

Somewhere around 5-6 hours, this amazing sequence started:

+ on phone with (home buyer?) talking about "my neighborhood" how we love to walk there and its still centrally located, really loud jack-hammer sounds it's from the elevated train tracks they're building, that will take years so the noise will last a long time, walking through "management entrance" to home, wife is drying our old dog "L" from after a bath

The helmet guy: his racquetball locker with rqb racquest and his helmets. He wears helmets for everything because he's so extreme he'll launch himself head-first into walls in order to make the point. Outside on a driveway he dives head-first onto the ground? He gives a public service announcement about the proper use of helmets: if it gets cracked, don't use it, because it's not good any more.

On that driveway I notice a bar about waist-high on the left side, and I go there to do some "low" pull-ups. While I'm there I hear family friend PZ whom I've apparently married (?) talking with a friend at the front door of the house, even through they're about 20 feet away I hear the conversation clearly. PZ is talking about me and our (apparently unsuccessful) sex life together, "I even let him use (porn?), and still he doesn't (want to have sex?)". I think this is an embarassing conversation.

Then I'm walking through PZ's house. It's a mess. Piles of dishes are everywhere. I think while I'm (living here?) I should help out, so I think I'll do some dishes. I see PZ briefly walk by, carrying her daughter TZ who's toddler-age in the dream. I notice and think that PZ has amazingly beautiful brown eyes. TZ I just get a quick glimpse of, she has a short bowl-haircut. I'm stepping around all sorts of home-craft stuffed (sock?) cat-toys, they're everywhere on the ground. Each one of them as a sort of hat pulled down over its face, I lift some up to see the face?. PZ made them all as a craft project for TZ.

I'm outside, there is a concert (in an amphitheater?), there are some (commercial?) sponsors on the steps trying to modify the tempo that the orchestra is playing by waving his arms. The music is amazingly beautiful [don't recall the tune]. It is night and I'm lying there with 2 male friends listening to the concert, and I notice the beautiful night sky. I'm really excited about this and keep pointing up to the stars, "Look! Look!" I yell at my friends, they're not so into it.

Then down in front of us a kid starts crying, and one of the friends throws some small object like a stone to quiet him down. I'm holding a camera in my hand with a small microphone boom, and I say "that could be your darling child," thinking throwing stuff isn't going to help. Then I have a visualization of a piece of 8x11 paper with about 10-20 boxes drawn onto it and the name of some prescription ADHD medication like "Yanax" filled in to the box. My friends are prescribing a schedule of treatment for the crying kid on this paper.

I curse the stupid organizers of the concert for having such bright lights [this may have been the morning sun hitting my face IWL, timing is about right] that prevent us from seeing a clear view of the beautiful night sky. I wish they'd turn off those lights. And in a few seconds the lights go off! "Thank God!" I exclaim and I take the camera and point it at the starts and take a few pictures.

I notice something else: with the lights off, I can now see clearly into a hot girl's (bedroom?) across the street. Her room is a little-bit lit and now that it's dark where we are it's easy to see her inside. She seems mostly naked and I'm trying to make out the "good bits" but don't see any. She's frolicking around her room. Then she has a girl friend with her who looks like her also almost naked and they're wrestling around. Then I see a 3rd girl friend who's kind of chunky who's just lying on the floor with her butt facing the window.

Then the 3 girls are lying on the grass to my left about 15 feet away next to each other.

Spoiler for sexy time with some fairly bizarre gender-bending going on:

It seems the middle girl is actually "P", the clarinet player from HS band who was sort of nerdy but had a smoking hot body and great boobs. She's topless with panties on, and is reaching down and rubbing and flexing her vulva through the panties, I catch a glimpse of that marvelous wrack on her. Then her panties are gone and lo and behold it seems she's a she-male with a very thick fairly large (ahem). The cute girl friend on the right then leans over the middle he/she matter-of-factly like it was nothing odd, and she starts fellating the he-she. She's really good at it and is making slurping sounds and taking all that really thick member and bobbing up and down juicily on it.

I make my way over to them and am really excited. I come up to the one on the right and grab one of the boobs of the he-she and one of the cute girl on the right. I ask the girl on the right, "Can I worship you?". She sort of says "no" but I ignore this. I say to them "Suck each other's (ahem)s like you were just doing!" My bubble sort of bursts at this point as I get a closer look at them: they have patches of short thick black whiskers all over their bodies like men. They're faces are looking more manly by the second including the same patches of short black thick whiskers. The one on the left doesn't even have girl boobs and in fact looks entirely male. In fact they all look male except with "man boobs", and now are sort of he-females [what's the opposite of she-males?]: male upper body but with vaginas. It seems I'm goosing man-boobs now, and

I wake up.

WBTB
kind of hard to get back to sleep, very active mind. I find the discipline to do relaxation techniques and fall asleep again.

+ there is a girl who's boyfriend is abusing her. I come up to her and kiss her face, eyebrows, cheeck, lips (some pulling), I tell her "I want to help you." She says "you should get out of here because if the cops come and see you with a beat-up girl they'll arrest you."

Spoiler for slightly sexy time:

I get up and move in between her legs (she's wearing full-length stockings) and wonder if she'll mind me doing this as I move closer to her

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+ LD #184 I'm in an outdoor courtyard. There are groups of of people moving around. A petite blonde cute girl in a black top catches my attention as she walks across my vision from left to right to talk to a group there.

Spoiler for sexy time:

It gets confusing as I think that I'm imagining walking up to her and grabbing her boobs. But I can't tell if I'm imagining it or actually doing it, and if I'm doing it then I may get in trouble, I think her friends might tell me to leave her alone? But then I think, if I'm imagining it, I might as well imagine getting a BJ. So now she's leaning over in front of my zipper and I look down and see that I've neglected to whip it out, so I decide I should materialize my (ahem), and it appears and suddenfly the entire scene comes into super sharp focus and I'm lucid. It is a more-real-than-real visual situation [which I haven't seen in quite a while, amazing!]. I see the girl's face shining in the sun, super high resolution, I can even see the pores in her skin. Also, my (ahem) is super high resolution! [haha]. She is still leaning over in front of me and through momentum of my actions I just keep going with the BJ plan. She has a sort of wry smile on her face. I tell her "Well, get down to business!" and she does. She makes a single down/up stroke with her mouth which feels amazing, 30 more seconds of this and it's a lucid-gasm for sure. I'm thinking a bit about stabilization, and

the dream fades.

+ I'm walking my little baby boy, each of his hands in mine. We walk by a mother with her girl and my boy puts his hand in the girl's mouth. The mother asks me "are his hands clean?" I look at her like "it's a baby, what do you think?" and she says "Oh, his hands are probably yours" meaning she understands they're dirty. I tell my baby "you can't go sticking your hands in girls mouths!" I lay the baby down on its back and it is now sort of a super weird small cyclops baby thing with a single eye but I don't really notice this or care. I start tickling it and it starts almost convulsing from the sensation, the skin around its one eye crinkles up and the eye bulges out of its face, I keep on doing this because I want to make it smile.

May LDs achieved / goal: 1 / 20

Most of my recall is from the time after WBTB. There was some vague stuff earlier but I did not focus on it.
edit: recalled earlier dream:
+(f) I'm in LL park (down the hill from CH, not my main park, went there rarely), and there are people there (hippies), and a sign up about how hippies created this park (and how it's for hippies?), they're talking about this

I woke around 5 hours (it was already pretty light) and had trouble returning to sleep: active mind, fantasizing, thinking about things. Started to feel a bit sorry for myself, but decided more wakefulness is good, that it leads to lucidity. All I had to do was return to sleep, and I'd get lucid. After a couple of stalled attempts at relaxation I finally dedicated myself to it and got back to sleep and dreamed.

+ I'm sitting in my CH living room on the floor in front of a chair. Long-time colleague MWP is here, and I feel a bit uncomfortable that I didn't invite him to my birthday party last time even though I usually invited him in the past [FALSE]. I turn to my left where an open camping backpack is and I deal out some cards for a game of solitaire. I have about a 4x4 grid of cards laid and and begin to "play" when all the cards lose their grip against the backpack material and all fall out of position down to the bottom of the pocket. "I hate solitaire" I say. I thumb through the cards and look at one in more detail, it is not right, I can't make out either the card's face or it's back. It becomes larger and more colorful, like a multi-colored stained glass "joker" card.

Then the scenario changes to a board game, with this large joker marker and a large ("Oscar" award-sized) statue and a narrator is describing the rules of the game "you have to guess who the (thief?) is"... (don't remember more, or transitions at this point).

+ A series of short scenes:

I'm outdoors and thinking about the experience of the athletes in the recent Russian winter Olympics and how they were saying they really enjoyed the snow, and I see some snowy hills. There are booths nearby, like for outdoor restaurant seating, and at one of them a woman has a scarf/coat draped over the back of her booth and it falls down and gets in my way, I pick it up and put it back on the booth back, she doesn't notice it, and a man (I think her husband?) also rearranges it.

Turkish car rental trick: a narrator is describing that the authorities will be notified: the trick is, if you rent a car in Turkey, you can enter other countries for just a few days for free without any visas. The tour operator is saying "it's the best deal, cheapest way to travel". I see a brochure that clearly has "Turkish" written on the cover along with some other stuff. But what people do instead is they overstay the allowed period, using the rental car policy as a way to illegally remain in a country.

Outdoors daylight at my childhood home (CH) bus stop a bunch of other people get off, including a girl in a short/tight dress and her younger brother, she has to maneuver one leg up and over a barrel and when she does I think I get a flash of her hairy pubic region. This gets my attention and my eyes follow her as she walks away down F towards the LH, I realize she's a bit chubbier than I like.

I'm walking back towards some people seated by the sliding glass door in my CH dining room. I'm specifically going to the dead woman who is seated there to thank her for her earlier assistance (!?!?). She is seated with crossed legs and her hands are folded on her legs in front of her. I lean down and put my hand on top of hers and say sincerely, "Thank you!". I'm a bit surprised when she stands up facing me very close. She's dead but I don't seem to mind, she has no eyes, basically empty brownish slits (or just very small eyes). I realize she's tall. She's as tall as I am or maybe a tad even taller. I say this. I reach up my hand and try to compare the tops of our heads to see who's taller. She's standing really close to me and is obviously interested, I'm feeling very turned on by this. I maneuver her towards the living room so I can grab her butt and pull her against me, it feels really good. I ask her in a sexy voice, "do you want to come outside with me?" She indicates yes. I then whisper some dirty talk into her ear about what I'm going to do to her.

I'm arriving at some registration place with my wife and kids. There are two places, and I remember [FALSE] that the 2nd place line is shorter and/or moves faster, so we go there. I end up needing to register by myself, and I realize I don't have all my documents with me. I need to write (or I see) a driver's license number that I think I recognize as my new driver's license number, a string of letters and digits starting with "C" (at least one 4 in there). I'm moving back to my (wife?) who's at the counters and as I do I realize my shorts have severely bunched up in my butt crack and I'm trying to to the "shaking side step" and reaching back there to pull them out but nothing I do helps they stay wedged in there. I end up leaving the place riding away looking backwards behind me in a speed boat with some hot girls around me.

+ LD #183
I arrive outside CH at night on the street, I'm standing by the stairs to the front door, I see down to my left that there is a car in the garage. In the sky I see bright stars and constellations [completely "normal", nothing spinning or moving like sometimes happens], and I get a sinking feeling when I realize that I came home without my car, that I left it at the registration place. (If my wife learns that I came home without the car I think will realize I left with the girls?).
I'll just have to go back and get it I decide. I can fly there. I wonder if I can fly and I take off flying and
realize I'm dreaming. I see my dream arms stretching out in front of me and notice the perspective is a bit odd. I'm flying up the hill and want more speed and will myself to fly faster but do not go faster. I'm flying over the driveway to some house heading for trees and the owners turn in to their driveway behind me (see the headlights on the trees?) and I resolve to fly faster. I do a "flap" with my arms as against water doing the breaststroke and this propels me faster through the air. OK, if that 's what it takes. I flap a few more times and this gets me going at medium speed which is much more to my liking. I'm expecting to see the former registration area (in the park?) up ahead and indeed there it is. There is a guy sitting at a picnic table slumped over my backpack and I pull it away from him anticipating a fight but he doesn't start one.

Spoiler for sexy time, explicit:

I sit on the picnic table and direct a nearby DC to come and give me a BJ. I spend a bit of time trying to balance attention between the action and the dream, and things stay stable but it's not all that great, so I move on. At another table I find a female toy/doll about the size of a pez dispenser and start getting a BJ from that. It's way too small (and alive? I think it said something) so I reach down and stretch it in order to make it larger and it works and now its mouth can fit over my (ahem). I notice there are some "real" girls sitting at the table leaning over and watching, there hands are stretched out reaching to me and I think woohoo here we go and I move to them and reach to them to bring them to me and

my wife wakes me up IWL so we can get ready. Argh!

3 days of dreaming still waiting to be DJ'd including my beyond-epic nld on 4/27. Straining my memory to continue to hold it all but I just don't have 3 hours to get it all down.

Lucid again FINALLY late morning on a sleep-in Saturday morning. Late to bed so that's good. Strong/long intentiion setting and slow getting to sleep initially at bedtime, maybe that helped?

4/27:
super long night of super vivid dreams
+ swimming in frozen waters, radar, wife, cold, hypo
+ [alternate life level] walking AH hear traffic see "remembered" [FALSE] ocean wreck, wave-battered prison complex on coast , waterfall vertical tunnel, sightless people in cells, ice cream stand buxom girl, [becoming vague now] dirty black shorts on the bed, sex with some girl
+ long: company battle, two sides giving speeches against each other, walk out and back, the ground cover has changed

4/28:
main dream:
+ at grandparents house walking around rooms, look out curtains see black/red/star government agents or thieves mulling around, gang of thieves steal nephew's motorcycle at my grandparent's house I run screaming after them and call 911 and thieves mock me. Walk in and back out and "recognize" the front yard and note changes and think briefly about them, I'm examining the "parking pad" I'm standing on and see a ramp, it's dark/twilight outside

4/29: most forgotten, recall weak
+(f) my old dog L running in a field
+(f) football, interception, running fast


4/30
+ flaming sword: touch it with my hands and I will it to glow. The guy (my mythical father?) I'm supposed to kill also touches it and it flames brighter. It is an awesome looking sword, straight but with many ornamental narrower portions
+ football, playing on the field
+ knife fight, his longer/bigger than mine, stabbed in the back? Girl and roller skates, people are gathering money so she can buy them?
+ preparing for camping with DD in CH bedroom, how many shoes to take? One. Now, two: 1 good, 1 crappy. Then outside with DD. I see a vista of landmarks extending in an odd / interesting way before me., I "recognize" them. I'm telling him and visualizing about the "hike around the lake" I've taken before. [everything FALSE memories]. He's looking to pee, he pees in a phone booth? I say to use bathroom?
+ on the road (to the zoo?), radio interview with a state roadsign director, the world is flat black except for the pure white highway leading up on to an overpass, the guy is talking about how they'll be putting more signs
+ LD#182 I'm "awake" reviewing dreams listening to a girl sitting across the aisle from me describe my dream, I'm following along saying yes yes then I "enter" the dream and step up to her and I'm lucid, I think the review of dreams helps you get lucid [but I was clearly already dreaming from the start of this scene, perhaps a start-of-dream DILD?]I look at my hands briefly. The girl sitting in front of me at eye level is clear all else in background is fuzzy. Feel a bit unstable. Engage with sexy actions with her, take her sweater off and the scene transitions to a FA where I'm sitting on the bus and covering my eyes with a shirt to block out the light and trying to get back to sleep.
+ at the zoo bus arrives on steep hill I think about the bus's incline relative to the steepness of the hill and wonder how this could be. Everyone wants to go to the baby animal exhibits but my mom and I don't, but I'm concerned that she's so old and can't walk the distance required. The layout of the zoo is according to a map in "Gideon's Bible," so you can either get a zoo map or that bible and find that map in there. The baby animals in the normal exhibits have been moved/put away so the best opportunity is to go to the baby animal exhibits.
Sitting on a bench with mom a girl sits in between us I notice her and think she may be uncomfortable between us as we talk.
A man starts playing at a billiards table outside there are red and white balls just a few like billiards but the table has pockets like pool.

While the guy is playing a singer begins singing: "Puff, the maaaagic draaaaagggooon, lived by the Seaaaaaa, and frollicke in the Autumn winds in the land called Honileeeeee"
I think this is a sad song and wait for the sad part, but the refrain repeats again:"Puff, the maaaagic draaaaagggooon, lived by the Seaaaaaa, and frollicked in the Autumn winds in the land called Honileeeeee" (cadence notes this time).

Turns into the end of a billiards competition where one guy hits the white cue ball towards the other side of the table because he doesn't like leaving the ball hanging around then his competitor makes an awesome shot from another cue ball on to the still-moving cue-ball and pockets it in the far left corner pocket, and then the ball he hits is heading towards the pocket as well but just misses it. The scoreboard is shown, each player has a few points on their line.

Then at half-time some juggler/entertainer guys get up on the table (is it strong enough to hold them? will it bounce around?) and are wearing metal bicycle baskets on their waists and they pull these down and release them shooting something into the air. One juggler lies down on the table with a basket on his stomach and a baseball mitt falls open in the to basket and then a baseball falls into the pocket of the glove.

+ son and "gf" friend: I'm rooting for him to take her hand and hold it as they walk and he does!

The power goes off and we rush to make sure that the kids haven't been stolen.

Son is off with GF's parents and they're talking to him and he's younger, I go to him and he's eating a big bowl of cereal at the table with them, and I ask him it's he's OK eating here or he could come back to us (parents). The wife of GF parent couple is spouting random comments about computer languages. "The problem with (???) [language] was that the compiler was written in RATFOR". I say "I've always found I gravitated towards USEFUL languages....just kidding"

Son is lagging behind with GF inside while we walk away. I hope he works up the nerve to have his first kiss with her. He comes out and looks really happy, I say "well SOMEBODY has a spring in his step....?!" and he explains that she said she likes him and wants to be with him, but MZ keeps saying that HE is her boyfriend even though she doesn't like him

+ awesome flying/gliding with hand control down CD by LH museum, fly into the arms of my wife standing on the side of the road with our kids. I wanted to take the kids back up the hill in the car and show them how to do it. What a great idea, with a car you could effortless just drive up and keep flying down again!

Then colleague is showing me some doors I can't see them people are in the way. We're standing outside the offices of a small tech company and waiting for tech support, each office has a door to the outside and the pattern of lights visible through the windows indicates which office will be the next to help the customers. But the windows are all dark. Someone says that means they're all out, I say "(it's friday?), maybe the lights are off for a LAN deathmatch party?". I open a door and see a dark office inside with a game running on a monitor and say "See!?"

It's dark now outside and we're still waking for tech support. We've set up 3 ping-pong tables, and people are playing and drinking beer and eating, the food and drinks are on the tables. I see one guy try a couple of serves, he doesn't know how to play and the awkwardly hits the ball off the end of the table every time.

It's light now and in the distance I see huge pizzas covering tables/the whole area with people seated at the tables. Hundreds of square feet of pizza! I declared, "And the land was flowing with PIZZA and honey!" They were bringing more on open bed carts (like the big ones at Home Depot), they were all just plain crusts actually except for some were stuffed with cheese like quesadillas.

BTS mojo
bunch of quick dreams while dozing

+ (semi) with GL outside door decide to kiss her, feel her lips, basically lucid but no affirmation, try for quick BJ but stop, we go inside and talk with people there

+ my wife points out the broken glass in our kitchen which I'm leaning up against, I say that's what you get when you hold a gorilla party in your house (which we had done earlier)

I'm sneaking in to a large auditorium where they're keeping the gorillas. It's dark. I stick my head in and I see off to the right, the shadows of some guards sparring. I decide to get out of there and get kind of stuck and can't see and hope the gorillas don't get me.

+ wife is catering a huge event for hundreds of people (how can she do that, she's never done anything like that before?), a guy is setting up the audio equipment and I look at it noticing channels that I think are the audio signal, an assistant hands the blocks to him and he puts it together and music plays out. Then woodwind musicians are setting up around me, I look around and I'm surrounded by woodwind players in a circle. They're playing. There are two guys of my instrument. They're good. I have my instrument and want to play along but there's nowhere to sit, "Yeah, play!" they say. So I decide to play standing up. They're already playing a rhythmic tune kind of like a fanfare (like the 20th century fox movie opening music, sort of similar) so I start out a low G, "dut duhh duhh, dut dut dut duhhhhh, " move to a B, and the others come in on the G, now we're in harmony, "dut duhh duhh, dut dut dut duhhhhh, " I move to D and another comes in on G and the other moves to B so now we have 3-way harmony, "dut duhh duhh, dut dut dut duhhhhh, " then I go crazy playing fast scales up and down.

+ garage old dog "L" growling (he's hungry) neighbors in garage we have tea, where's the teapot there it is, watch it in operation it's really strange and has lots of moving parts like a pumping bellows. I'm stuck there's no way through the stuff in the garage, I'm falling over the things trying to move through and pull myself hard on things to stop from falling over.

+ LD#180 I'm up on the street outside our garage, I want to go flying to the park. I notice PG and CG are there, that's odd, they're never together, haven't seen them in a long time together, but I don't want to "stop and chat" since I want to go flying. I decide to be polite to the elderly mother and say hello. She is just a disembodied head at this point sitting on the ground at the end of their driveway. She's wearing a (red?) scarf wrapped around blocking out her whole face. The head sprouts leg/wing fleshy things and waddles/runs away back towards her house, she got scared of me.

I go back down my driveway and I'm holding a really large version of one of those decorative wine bottles that has a long, skinny top and a large, bulbous bottom. This one has been in the family for a long time. It's about two-meters long. I'm holding the tall skinny end trying to set it down gently but the bulb hits the concrete garage floor too hard and breaks. The handle breaks in my hands as well, I'm pretty upset by this, after all this time and it just breaks. I'm pissed because I don't want to clean this up, my dad says "that's OK I have time I'll clean it up." I go back up to the street, and I sense my sister behind me, I feel slightly inhibited to fly by this but will go ahead anyway.

I point at where the head thing was, and say out loud, "THAT was a dream thing!" I'm now lucid. Quick nose pinch confirms. So I decide to go flying. I remember a new goal of going to the Playboy mansion for some fun. I see a house a few blocks away where a party is going on. I decide that is the Playboy party and head towards it. I'm flying really slowly, though, I imagine I have jets blasting out of my feet to propel me forwards but it doesn't do anything. I fly over a guy sitting at a table below me. I air swim and make slow progress towards the party but get there, and I imagine there will be all sorts of hawt girls there. I land and I start talking with (the parents of one of the "bunnies"?) and
I wake up.

LD 5/10 remainder of Feb. goals. 5 to go, and one night left! Need a marathon tonight!

+ I'm in some living room with friends. There are all kinds of electronic devices plugged in to a socket in the wall. The socket catches fire, Oh Crap! What if the fire spreads in the wall, we'd be screwed! We pull out all all the plugs in a hurry. Should I blow on the fire to try to put it out or will that just intensify it? I realize the wall has no back, I can walk around the edge of the wall and there is an empty area there and I could get at the fire there.

+ walking through home under repair, my way is blocked by construction materials. The walls are being spackled, and I move to the left and touch the table (or wall?) and get some of the wet white spackle on my hand and try to wipe it off. Suddenly the world seems to be moving! EARTHQUAKE! I yell out "EVERYBODY OUT OF THE HOUSE!". I make a run for a door but I find just a small half-width door I can't get out through that. I run back to the front of the house and there are people standing in the doorways, I stand in the doorway with a work colleague (MWP).

+ JT and DT are having a domestic conflict because JT struck one of their sons, she hits him over the head with something and knocks him out, DT goes and hugs a son

+ FA in parent's bed in childhood home, dark, view of the opposite wall, I realize I'm in their bed, I think I'm sleeping in the spot where my mom used to sleep [false, it was dad's side].

+ LD#179 ToTM bonus: fire and ice
I realize that I'm lucid suddenly (no prior dream memories, maybe a start of dream DILD). (Nosepinch confirms?). I'm standing in some townhouse complex with 2-3 story buildings of some dark tan color, there are windows on the buildings. Across the way from me is a store with a sign that reads "Lflierwir". I stare at it a while to see if it changes, and while it seems static I get the impression that I can look at a letter and read it clearly, but when I look at the word as a whole it's somewhat fluid. I think of March TOTM and start to review the tasks, and the fire/ice bonus jumps out at me [as it did in the voting]. I hold up my hands so I can see them and cup them before me and will fire to appear. An approx. 6" globe of fire flickers in and out a few times then solidifies. I feel heat, but it doesn't burn me. I walk a bit more around the complex, looking up at the buidings at one point and noting the color and the windows, like a modern generic townhouse complex, the buildings look like this:



I decide to do ice as well. I raise my hands up again and start feeling for a block of ice. At first there is nothing, then I feel a lump of something in my hands and an running my hands over it, feeling for temperature sensation. I get a few bursts of an impression of cold. Satisfied, I let it go and continue on.

I'm now in my childhood home. This dream is *extremely* vivid and clear. I'm in the living room looking at the fireplace mantle, and it looks very accurate. I see my and my sister's Christmas stockings hung at either corner. The stocking on the left is a very pale lime color, almost white. Above it on the mantle is the word "choce", I know this is the word "choice" just missing an "i".

With no other goals in mind, I decide to look for some girls .
I head up the stairs to my sisters room and expect some to be there. I expect TZ will be on the bed, and she is.

Spoiler for sexy time, explicit:

Stating out with some BJ action, I decide I want to switch to intercourse. I have trouble getting it in from the front, then try from the back. Things are getting abstract. There are people around me suddenly making comments. I say "does there have to be an audience?" they say something amounting to "yes,"

and I wake up

goal LD 3/10 for remainder of Feb. 7 to go!

+ bowling: lots of shots making 1-pin-left spares. I have oil on my fingers and the ball drops down several times when I lift it behind me, I try to wipe it off. A girl is bowling on the same lane at the same time. I run down to the end of the lane and there is a giant ball there with some object that I take as a prize and run off.

+ monsters, bar
Big Evil Bos is chastising a minion, the minion manages to talk his way out of it, placing blame on some other schmuck, convincing the evil boss that he's the right minion to help the boss do things. BEB agrees, and tells the minion to assign the other minion to "our most difficult rescue job."

In a large open area with a bar, we're captive, I go to the bar and eat some of the little pickled martini white onions [always loved those!]. There are some vouchers with cash there that I use to buy our way out of the captivity, the captor is amazed I'm willing to spend all that cash, but I say our mission is critical and we must leave immediately.

+ hunt, bikers

Looking top-down at a map, the lead guy changes the course, it's a zig-zagging pattern. I start running with another guy along the course. I'm holding (or conjuring) a diagram/map and using gestures to stretch it and rotate it as we move along.

Some (enemies?) rough bikers were captured by another gang and being interrogated, they captives are standing at attention outside, one captive is sassy and answers a question something like "pull it outta yer ASS!" The captor leader is impressed by his courage and praises him.

We're on the hunt and reach a barrier. Some (fairies?) guards are blocking the way, they demand two severed fingertips from our group. Two guys slice off their fingertips and give them to the guard, who then heals them (re-attaching the fingertips) and lets us go on our way.

+ LD #177 room w/friends, historical origins of horror literature, phone call, sexy time(s), gollum attacks

The LD part was very notably extremely vivid with clear and bright visuals, and very stable with lots of successful control. Too bad I didn't remember loftier goals :/.

... early part forgotten. Some friends and I enter a large (hotel?) free-standing room. My ex-gf SB is there, some (guy?), and me. We're talking about how we're going to arrange to lie on the large bed. Bed-left is nearest the window and that's where I want to be, there is a row of high windows along the right side of the room as facing the room with back to the door. At the bed, SB is saying she wants to be next to me so she can touch me (woohoo I think!). But the guy doesn't want to be on the left side, and I don't want to be in the middle.

SB and the guy are talking about ordering a few hundred hamburgers to have them delivered. The thing is though that it's late, and they don't want to take large orders this late because the delivery guy has to deliver and return to the store before he can go home and they don't like doing that. Then SB and the guy are tossing giant greasy hamburgers around the room and they land on the bed, I say that's gross as they're leaving grease marks on the bed and I'm tossing them off of the bed.

There is some interlude in a different place where the history of horror literature is discussed. It is a "scary" portrait of a hand against some odd background. Then it's revealed that what happens is that a light comes on behind you, and a shadowy outline of the devil appears on the portrait, you can see the horns on his head. Then there's a brief thing about how the devil is just really some typical dumpy looking guy, and you could even call him "Bob" or "Ralph" and say "hey, how's it going, Bob?".

Back in the room I'm noticing the colors of sunrise already in the sky through the windows. Oh man it's late, the sun is already coming up! I get a phone call, it seems like my waking life ringtone. I answer the call and go outdoors outside the room to talk. A girl's voice answers, and she immediately goes off on a diatribe like "OMG! I can't believe you made me listen to that [my ringtone which she somehow heard?]! That's the most terrible thing that's happened to me in a long time! [Blah blah blah for a while]." Then I ask who is calling and whom are you trying to reach, a man's voice comes on briefly, and it's clear that it's a wrong number and I hang up. That sure was a weird phone call, I think. Wait! Weird!? <nose pinch> .

I'm dreaming! As always, I'm astounded at the convincing feeling of being awake. The dream is bright, clear, and stable. I immediately decide that since I've always wanted to have sex with SB in a lucid and "she's right there back in the room" that I'll walk back. It takes about 5-10 seconds to get back to the room/building, but there's no door there. I do not let that stop me, and I just phase through knowing I'll end up at the entrance to the room. I do. SB is there on the left side of the large room, and I go to here.

Spoiler for sexy time:

I move her to a small cushioned seat, (she's a bit uncooperative at first), and I start with giving her a kiss. Her face is very clear, it's a reasonable approximation of her looks when we were going out. She's fully dressed and so am I, and I try out something I've wanted to do for years and make a "ripping apart" two-handed gesture with my hands and command, "BE NAKED!" and instantly she is naked! I do the same to me, looking down at my fully clothed body, my pants/underwear vanish but my long-sleeved shirt remains! Oh well, that's good enough, I start in on getting a BJ from SB. In order to prevent my typical fast wake, I look to the left, and I look to the right in the room, while still feeling the BJ action. I then get the idea of doing a walking BJ, we'll go for a walk outside and SB will continue the BJ.

We get up and go outside and there's some confusion about the number of which "door" we must go through. I think oh let's just get on the pavement and do it right here, but SB's gone now. I think OK, I'll go back into the room.
I walk at the brick wall again at the place where the door should have been and pass through with no issues like it's an illusion. But instead of being in the room, I'm now in a hallway with girls standing around outside the ladie's room. There are some really nice looking girls there and I move to bring a bunch of them into the ladie's room with me.

Inside the ladies' room, it's like a big fancy restaurant, sumtuous wood and cushioned seating, very posh, I think briefly yeah those ladies know how to do it. There is a girl standing at a podium and I know she is the maitre d' (!). I go over to her, she's not attractive, but va-va-VOOM her assistant is HOT. Yes, you'll do nicely I think.

Spoiler for sexy time #2:

I maneuver her to a couch and just like #1, she's fully clothed and so am I, so again I do "BE NAKED!" and she's fully naked, and again I command myself "BE NAKED" and again my shirt remains, haha! I pull the shirt out of the way and scootch her hips forwards to the edge of the couch and I lean down and take a whiff of her lightly-pubed (ahem), and catch a very nice distinct female scent. Just about to dive in when ...

BOOM! Pain! Something bony and sharp has jumped onto my back in between my shoulder blades! It's like a 1/2-sized gollum very bony, I think he's the security system of the bathroom and has been sicc'ed on me. At first I pry one of his hands off of me, take out my "lightsaber dagger" and motion to cut off his hand. He's off of my back then but still targetting me. The unattractive maitre d' is standing nearby and I command her "you have to f^&* him." She responds saying "What!? NO!" I then tell gollum "you can f^&* her!" and that distracts him away from me (he says "Yeah!" and seems excited at the prospect) and I turn back to my girl #2.

Spoiler for sexy time #2, contd, mild dominance:

I tell her to put her arms up over her head and she lifts her forearms up to her shoulders. No, not good enough, I tell her again to put her arms up over her head, she slightly lifts her elbows but it's not what I wanted. I grab her arms then and push them fully up over her head. She then gets it and exclaims, "You mean THIS shit!?" And I answer "Yes, THAT shit."

and I wake up...

I was really excited by the quality of the last dream and LD so I never made it back to sleep for 2 hours until my alarm went off.

to bed late (not by choice), ~1am

+ team-based conflict. Sabotage: one guy used an incendiary clicking device to attempt to ignite the underground gas lines via the electrical outlets and blow up several city blocks. "You can't escape" he called out. I ran anyway. Through a door, a guy far stronger than me was pursuing, but I had prepared a small pitch-fork just outside the door and picked it up and stabbed him putting him on the ground, and I called for reinforcements and they beat him up on the ground.

+ (f) returning to the cages, a tiny (female?) dog had been rewarded and entered the cage of my old dog "L". L came along later?

alarm @ 5.5 hrs, very tired, got family member up, back to bed. Alarms are terrible for recall. I had to reach to remember the above.

eventually summoned the will to stop following random thought chains and implement my Back To Sleep Mojo (tm) with the intent of lucid dreams. It worked again

BTS mojo: start with deep breathing. Totally relax and let go of everything: tension, thoughts, all trying and effort. There is a very special "sinking" feeling for a moment at the end of a long exhale when you successfully let go of tension and start to sink deeper. What I do then is try to hold on to that "deep sinking" feeling, including during inhales and exhales. While breathing, I sometimes imagine I'm breathing through my "3rd eye" in the middle of my forehead. Breathing in dream energy and breathing out tension and thoughts. HI may begin during this time. Try not to focus on them, but simply remain lightly aware of them.

+ I'm walking outside in an apartment complex (small, 2 story) in between buildings. It is dark (early morning I think). I hear a sound to the left and look up and see a man through a large sliding glass door [DREAM SIGN], he's doing remodeling in his apartment. He's using a scraper on the glass door, and it's really squeaky and noisy, I think it's rude to be doing that at this early hour, it could bother the neighbors.

The building on the right of me also has a glass wall on the 2nd floor apartment, I know there's a woman in there I'd like to sneak a peek at. I'm staying below the window and trying to remain unseen. (The light comes on?) I sense she's walking around in her robe. I hide under the overhang, and her legs in the reflection of the glass via a building to the left. I think that means she may be able to see me, too.

At one point my wife comes out and I try to hide but she sees me, she's in her bathing suit I guess she's going for a swim/sauna, but she doesn't suspect me.

LD#176 (2/10 goal for LDs for remainder of Feb)
I felt sure I was waking lucid in "my room" in the dark. The room seemed right. I sit up on the side of my bed, and notice vague bits of furniture about, including an alarm clock? [false]. I have a small bit of trouble maneuvering out of bed, but made it OK. Decided to head outside and fly into the night sky and explore the city at night and have fun. Pretty high awareness, and very clear. I get outside and look up at the sky. I think the stars were "beautiful" but in retrospect they were pixelated like computer graphics, and the sky was rather gray not black. The stars were swirling around the sky a bit, interesting. I went to take off flying into the sky and I hear suddenly and unexpectedly a very creepy male voice behind me that startled me and freaked me out a bit, he barked out some statement that I didn't understand. I took off and looked behind me and very very clear and vividly saw two guys on top of the roof of a building. I circled around to go fight them. summoned my lightsaber in to my hand, at first it was the size of a pen with tiny little bumps on each end like a miniature dumbbell from the gym. I reached over with my right hand and "pulled" it which extended it, at first too large, then pushed back a bit and got it to be the perfect size. landed, hit the "on" button expecting awesome sound and visuals (but they were kind of weak like usual), and started fighting. There were several opponents and more coming it seems. Tried force lightning on a 3rd guy who came on me from the right: extended my right arm straight and made a "claw" with my fingers, but managed only a few sparks at best. impaled several guys with the blade at close distance with lunges, one in the chest, one in the face. several good swipes, but just not the vivid blade and effects that I want. There was a bit of resistance to swinging the blade, like swinging a sword in water.
I'm losing the fight, they're getting their attacks in close to me. The main opponent almost got a swing (he had a lightsaber too I think) to land on me, I had to sacrifice my saber to block it and then jumped backwards off of a pier to escape. In the distance in the water some people are standing on a platform.
I climb back up on to the pier a bit away from the fight and look at who's here. It's sort of an open area, looks like a party is going on. Right in front of me, my attention is grabbed right away by a lovely blonde woman in a sexy, revealing, white evening dress. Her hair is in a medium-length braid down her back, and her right side is facing me.

Spoiler for sexy time, explicit:

I approach her and notice as I'm approaching that she's naked underneath her dress, and see that she has a nice patch of blonde public hair. This gives me a "zing" because true blonde pubes are really rare. As I approach her she is now sitting on a bench with her legs slightly open, and I'm kneeling down in front of her. She is looking at me and giving me a playful smirking smile. She is naked now from the waist down and I get a great view of her very substantial bush which is a large triangle of thick, but short-cropped blonde curlies. I tell her "Excuse me, but you have the most beautiful hairy p***y I've ever seen!" She shifts down a bit making her (ahem) fully available to me, and I dive in for oral. It is an exquisite moment: I feel the moist, warm, flesh of her cleft for a few seconds before

the dream fades.

1/10 LDs for remainder of Feb. accomplished

earlier:

+ driving around the area, hills, freeways. Stop on a very steep hill. It's so steep that if you walk on it you may sleep and slide down it. My mother gets out of the car across the street, and I'm telling her "careful!" but she walks towards me. I'm concerned a car may come down the street. She comes over and squats down to pee on the side of the road. I'm looking for people approaching and I think I see some so I stand in front of her, I feel a bit of her pee splashing up on to me.

+ water slide
I'm on the top of the steep hill near the LH museum in the B hills. They've built slides down the hill. I go on them. I think that they could make loop-de-loops because the speed would allow it. On the bottom of the hill there is a sort of club, the place that manages the slides. I'm looking for a bathroom. There is a sign of a sort of shower bench displayed outside a small building, I think this means "toilet" because old people could down on that bench and stick their butts out the other side and use the toilet that way. I walk in that direction. There is a business meeting of the developers of this slide complex there, a bunch of men standing around a table under a canopy. One man is talking authoritatively and using a lot of big fancy words and jargon, and someone says "that means he doesn't really know what he's saying." I start to climb up the slides for another ride, but I realize part-way up I wouldn't have to pay if I just started sliding down from
the middle, so I do that.

+ childhood home
I'm in my sister's room, wishing I had some good NSFW magazines, there is a black satin sheet on one of the twin beds with a suspicious dollop of liquid on it and I wipe it off. I know my dad's around so I head for my room. There are what appear to be muddy footprints on the ground I think from my climbing around the slide hills earlier, and I reach down the pick them up, then I realize they're flat dried animal turds. I want to wash my hands. I hear a radio show featuring a bunch of angry young SJW's, and among the shouting I near a voice yell, "yeah! Throw the f^&*ers in the river!"

later:

+ kitchen, sex planned, guy in the bedroom, little dog with key in its mouth opens the safe and out ride the toy firetrucks which can sound the alarm

+ with a girl in a "house of ill repute", not doing anything, I see advertisements written on the mirror that say things like "sex" and "hardcore". I notice I have fuzzy hair covering all my fingertips, I head to the bathroom to wash this off. The girl leans over and she's wearing a very loose top with no sleeves and nothing underneath and I get a good look at her right breast.
I ask her tentatively if there are "additional" services available, thinking about what was written on the mirror. She says "Yes, with two guys at once, with a banana and a tomato." I can't imagine where the tomato would go. I say "uh, ew, with another guy is not interesting."
I hear the doorbell ring. I guess it's the next customer. I'm scrambling to get my clothes on when some people come in. "I'm still getting dressed!" I say. I rush to put on my belt and I see that my belt is inside-out, oh well.

Then two young boys are snickering at me and saying "his pants are inside out!" I look down an indeed that explains my belt: I put on my jeans inside out, they look white and I can see the seams. I run to the bathroom to fix my pants while the people come in and make themselves comfortable.

I'm led to a small bathroom, the man who showed me the room says be careful the floor is slippery, I look down and there are a couple of amber-colored (vitamin-E, fish oil looking) capsules on the ground. There is also an open curtain to a tiny bedroom with a made-up double bed in there, part of the business operation I imagine.

A guy is singing near me (in a shower?). He has a good voice, and sounds like Frank Sinatra I think. Then I'm getting sprayed with water from this guy via a shower head and I say "HEY! I need to go outside in these clothes!" He says "you're doing it yourself". While not strictly true, I see I am also holding a shower head which is spraying water so I hang it up.

I'm heading up the stairs to the garage (in CH), the people including the wise-ass kids are at the table. Narrator or me or someone ways "I never expected to see someone like them in a place like this." Then the kids say to me, "Yeah, but we *did* expect to find a person like *you* in a place like *this*." Wrecked. I feel like cursing at them and giving them the finger. I turn around and head up the stairs and say "wait until you've walked a mile in my shoes."

Up on the street outside CH, there's a large (moving?) truck at the intersection, and a middle-aged woman standing in front of the L's house. She asks me in a very thick German accent, "Do you have any cash?" I think she's moving into the neighborhood but I'm confused about what she wants with the cash.

a BTS victory after about 8 hours in bed, yay.

+ LD#175
I'm walking by an indoor basketball court. A short blonde man is playing with somebody else, they're playing one-on-one full-court. The SBM makes a layup on the far basket. Then they play coming towards the basket I'm standing under, and the SBM makes a reverse layup right in front of me. "You really like layups don't you?" I say. And I say how I was pretty good at layups. I dribble the ball towards the opposite basket. I dribble the ball onto my foot and it goes shooting off to the side and I scramble after it and bring it back. "I was never very good at dribbling, however. I was pretty good at making shots, though, see: " and I try to make a basket from about 3 feet away and can't get anyway near the hoop. The ball just bounces right back off the backboard. Hmm, I'm having trouble. Maybe it would be easier without the basket? And the basket vanishes.

Then I'm sitting down near a glass wall [DREAM SIGN] to the outdoors, and I'm leaning forwards on something and falling asleep. A scary female figure comes and stands up next to the wall and I feel a tingling of fear, but I ignore it as I'm trying to fall asleep and then make the transition to the dream state. I feel a kind of shift and decide to try the advice of 'if you think you're dreaming, try to roll out of your body', so I sort of roll over and sit up in bed and I'm lucid. I have something partially obscuring my vision and I'm having a bit of trouble getting up off the bed, it's fairly dark in the room. I rub my hands together a little bit. I manage to get up from the bed and decide right away it's time to find some girls [sigh]. SG and ST come to mind immediately. I leave the living room and head down the hallway, now I'm in my previous adult home, I head for the bedrooms, the doors are closed, and I say SG, you're going to be behind this door! I open the door and look in the room: empty, with a futon on the floor, and a large sliding glass door which is open and heading to the back yard [false]. I then go into the other bedroom and call out for ST, but it is likewise empty. I then head to the master bathroom, ponder a moment, and head back to the 2nd bedroom and say "OK, come out of hiding now, here i am!" and I hear some voices say something like "here we are!" and the dream fades...