lucid

to bed late (not by choice), ~1am

+ team-based conflict. Sabotage: one guy used an incendiary clicking device to attempt to ignite the underground gas lines via the electrical outlets and blow up several city blocks. "You can't escape" he called out. I ran anyway. Through a door, a guy far stronger than me was pursuing, but I had prepared a small pitch-fork just outside the door and picked it up and stabbed him putting him on the ground, and I called for reinforcements and they beat him up on the ground.

+ (f) returning to the cages, a tiny (female?) dog had been rewarded and entered the cage of my old dog "L". L came along later?

alarm @ 5.5 hrs, very tired, got family member up, back to bed. Alarms are terrible for recall. I had to reach to remember the above.

eventually summoned the will to stop following random thought chains and implement my Back To Sleep Mojo (tm) with the intent of lucid dreams. It worked again

BTS mojo: start with deep breathing. Totally relax and let go of everything: tension, thoughts, all trying and effort. There is a very special "sinking" feeling for a moment at the end of a long exhale when you successfully let go of tension and start to sink deeper. What I do then is try to hold on to that "deep sinking" feeling, including during inhales and exhales. While breathing, I sometimes imagine I'm breathing through my "3rd eye" in the middle of my forehead. Breathing in dream energy and breathing out tension and thoughts. HI may begin during this time. Try not to focus on them, but simply remain lightly aware of them.

+ I'm walking outside in an apartment complex (small, 2 story) in between buildings. It is dark (early morning I think). I hear a sound to the left and look up and see a man through a large sliding glass door [DREAM SIGN], he's doing remodeling in his apartment. He's using a scraper on the glass door, and it's really squeaky and noisy, I think it's rude to be doing that at this early hour, it could bother the neighbors.

The building on the right of me also has a glass wall on the 2nd floor apartment, I know there's a woman in there I'd like to sneak a peek at. I'm staying below the window and trying to remain unseen. (The light comes on?) I sense she's walking around in her robe. I hide under the overhang, and her legs in the reflection of the glass via a building to the left. I think that means she may be able to see me, too.

At one point my wife comes out and I try to hide but she sees me, she's in her bathing suit I guess she's going for a swim/sauna, but she doesn't suspect me.

LD#176 (2/10 goal for LDs for remainder of Feb)
I felt sure I was waking lucid in "my room" in the dark. The room seemed right. I sit up on the side of my bed, and notice vague bits of furniture about, including an alarm clock? [false]. I have a small bit of trouble maneuvering out of bed, but made it OK. Decided to head outside and fly into the night sky and explore the city at night and have fun. Pretty high awareness, and very clear. I get outside and look up at the sky. I think the stars were "beautiful" but in retrospect they were pixelated like computer graphics, and the sky was rather gray not black. The stars were swirling around the sky a bit, interesting. I went to take off flying into the sky and I hear suddenly and unexpectedly a very creepy male voice behind me that startled me and freaked me out a bit, he barked out some statement that I didn't understand. I took off and looked behind me and very very clear and vividly saw two guys on top of the roof of a building. I circled around to go fight them. summoned my lightsaber in to my hand, at first it was the size of a pen with tiny little bumps on each end like a miniature dumbbell from the gym. I reached over with my right hand and "pulled" it which extended it, at first too large, then pushed back a bit and got it to be the perfect size. landed, hit the "on" button expecting awesome sound and visuals (but they were kind of weak like usual), and started fighting. There were several opponents and more coming it seems. Tried force lightning on a 3rd guy who came on me from the right: extended my right arm straight and made a "claw" with my fingers, but managed only a few sparks at best. impaled several guys with the blade at close distance with lunges, one in the chest, one in the face. several good swipes, but just not the vivid blade and effects that I want. There was a bit of resistance to swinging the blade, like swinging a sword in water.
I'm losing the fight, they're getting their attacks in close to me. The main opponent almost got a swing (he had a lightsaber too I think) to land on me, I had to sacrifice my saber to block it and then jumped backwards off of a pier to escape. In the distance in the water some people are standing on a platform.
I climb back up on to the pier a bit away from the fight and look at who's here. It's sort of an open area, looks like a party is going on. Right in front of me, my attention is grabbed right away by a lovely blonde woman in a sexy, revealing, white evening dress. Her hair is in a medium-length braid down her back, and her right side is facing me.

Spoiler for sexy time, explicit:

I approach her and notice as I'm approaching that she's naked underneath her dress, and see that she has a nice patch of blonde public hair. This gives me a "zing" because true blonde pubes are really rare. As I approach her she is now sitting on a bench with her legs slightly open, and I'm kneeling down in front of her. She is looking at me and giving me a playful smirking smile. She is naked now from the waist down and I get a great view of her very substantial bush which is a large triangle of thick, but short-cropped blonde curlies. I tell her "Excuse me, but you have the most beautiful hairy p***y I've ever seen!" She shifts down a bit making her (ahem) fully available to me, and I dive in for oral. It is an exquisite moment: I feel the moist, warm, flesh of her cleft for a few seconds before

the dream fades.

1/10 LDs for remainder of Feb. accomplished

earlier:

+ driving around the area, hills, freeways. Stop on a very steep hill. It's so steep that if you walk on it you may sleep and slide down it. My mother gets out of the car across the street, and I'm telling her "careful!" but she walks towards me. I'm concerned a car may come down the street. She comes over and squats down to pee on the side of the road. I'm looking for people approaching and I think I see some so I stand in front of her, I feel a bit of her pee splashing up on to me.

+ water slide
I'm on the top of the steep hill near the LH museum in the B hills. They've built slides down the hill. I go on them. I think that they could make loop-de-loops because the speed would allow it. On the bottom of the hill there is a sort of club, the place that manages the slides. I'm looking for a bathroom. There is a sign of a sort of shower bench displayed outside a small building, I think this means "toilet" because old people could down on that bench and stick their butts out the other side and use the toilet that way. I walk in that direction. There is a business meeting of the developers of this slide complex there, a bunch of men standing around a table under a canopy. One man is talking authoritatively and using a lot of big fancy words and jargon, and someone says "that means he doesn't really know what he's saying." I start to climb up the slides for another ride, but I realize part-way up I wouldn't have to pay if I just started sliding down from
the middle, so I do that.

+ childhood home
I'm in my sister's room, wishing I had some good NSFW magazines, there is a black satin sheet on one of the twin beds with a suspicious dollop of liquid on it and I wipe it off. I know my dad's around so I head for my room. There are what appear to be muddy footprints on the ground I think from my climbing around the slide hills earlier, and I reach down the pick them up, then I realize they're flat dried animal turds. I want to wash my hands. I hear a radio show featuring a bunch of angry young SJW's, and among the shouting I near a voice yell, "yeah! Throw the f^&*ers in the river!"

later:

+ kitchen, sex planned, guy in the bedroom, little dog with key in its mouth opens the safe and out ride the toy firetrucks which can sound the alarm

+ with a girl in a "house of ill repute", not doing anything, I see advertisements written on the mirror that say things like "sex" and "hardcore". I notice I have fuzzy hair covering all my fingertips, I head to the bathroom to wash this off. The girl leans over and she's wearing a very loose top with no sleeves and nothing underneath and I get a good look at her right breast.
I ask her tentatively if there are "additional" services available, thinking about what was written on the mirror. She says "Yes, with two guys at once, with a banana and a tomato." I can't imagine where the tomato would go. I say "uh, ew, with another guy is not interesting."
I hear the doorbell ring. I guess it's the next customer. I'm scrambling to get my clothes on when some people come in. "I'm still getting dressed!" I say. I rush to put on my belt and I see that my belt is inside-out, oh well.

Then two young boys are snickering at me and saying "his pants are inside out!" I look down an indeed that explains my belt: I put on my jeans inside out, they look white and I can see the seams. I run to the bathroom to fix my pants while the people come in and make themselves comfortable.

I'm led to a small bathroom, the man who showed me the room says be careful the floor is slippery, I look down and there are a couple of amber-colored (vitamin-E, fish oil looking) capsules on the ground. There is also an open curtain to a tiny bedroom with a made-up double bed in there, part of the business operation I imagine.

A guy is singing near me (in a shower?). He has a good voice, and sounds like Frank Sinatra I think. Then I'm getting sprayed with water from this guy via a shower head and I say "HEY! I need to go outside in these clothes!" He says "you're doing it yourself". While not strictly true, I see I am also holding a shower head which is spraying water so I hang it up.

I'm heading up the stairs to the garage (in CH), the people including the wise-ass kids are at the table. Narrator or me or someone ways "I never expected to see someone like them in a place like this." Then the kids say to me, "Yeah, but we *did* expect to find a person like *you* in a place like *this*." Wrecked. I feel like cursing at them and giving them the finger. I turn around and head up the stairs and say "wait until you've walked a mile in my shoes."

Up on the street outside CH, there's a large (moving?) truck at the intersection, and a middle-aged woman standing in front of the L's house. She asks me in a very thick German accent, "Do you have any cash?" I think she's moving into the neighborhood but I'm confused about what she wants with the cash.

a BTS victory after about 8 hours in bed, yay.

+ LD#175
I'm walking by an indoor basketball court. A short blonde man is playing with somebody else, they're playing one-on-one full-court. The SBM makes a layup on the far basket. Then they play coming towards the basket I'm standing under, and the SBM makes a reverse layup right in front of me. "You really like layups don't you?" I say. And I say how I was pretty good at layups. I dribble the ball towards the opposite basket. I dribble the ball onto my foot and it goes shooting off to the side and I scramble after it and bring it back. "I was never very good at dribbling, however. I was pretty good at making shots, though, see: " and I try to make a basket from about 3 feet away and can't get anyway near the hoop. The ball just bounces right back off the backboard. Hmm, I'm having trouble. Maybe it would be easier without the basket? And the basket vanishes.

Then I'm sitting down near a glass wall [DREAM SIGN] to the outdoors, and I'm leaning forwards on something and falling asleep. A scary female figure comes and stands up next to the wall and I feel a tingling of fear, but I ignore it as I'm trying to fall asleep and then make the transition to the dream state. I feel a kind of shift and decide to try the advice of 'if you think you're dreaming, try to roll out of your body', so I sort of roll over and sit up in bed and I'm lucid. I have something partially obscuring my vision and I'm having a bit of trouble getting up off the bed, it's fairly dark in the room. I rub my hands together a little bit. I manage to get up from the bed and decide right away it's time to find some girls [sigh]. SG and ST come to mind immediately. I leave the living room and head down the hallway, now I'm in my previous adult home, I head for the bedrooms, the doors are closed, and I say SG, you're going to be behind this door! I open the door and look in the room: empty, with a futon on the floor, and a large sliding glass door which is open and heading to the back yard [false]. I then go into the other bedroom and call out for ST, but it is likewise empty. I then head to the master bathroom, ponder a moment, and head back to the 2nd bedroom and say "OK, come out of hiding now, here i am!" and I hear some voices say something like "here we are!" and the dream fades...

dreamviews/safari ate my ENTIRE DJ ENTRY for today. Only re-posting one-sentence summaries for now:

bedtime: midnight

~ 5 hrs:

+ train

WBTB: 45 mins to 1 hour

+ LD#171 blimp ToTM Basic II (sky)

+ LD#172 paralyzed, sucked into sky, cartoon bridge

+ LD#173 "L" science museum, girls, kiss, ask to dance, kiss

BTS

+ (f) offering pizza to friends/guests in a house

+ caveman: oral attention to girl

3 phases of dreaming
3/4 capful valerian extract before bed

2015-01-24
bedtime approx 23:00-23:30

2015-01-25

major wakes @ around 6 hrs, 08:30, dozing until 11:30

+ first phase, medley of dreams:

motorcycle/scooter unstable riding the throttle grip is thick and not perfectly cylindrical I almost fall over but recover, the road is blocked so I start riding on the sidewalk, reach a fence, a partner arrivers without the guy we captured, then what was the whole point we must go get him, I climb under the fence, wet cement ground, park w/pond/pool drinking fountain

dogbert the stock analyst, "I'm good at pooping and analyzing stocks"

making a phone call to a business with area/zip code 00001, "maybe the'll just have an answering machine"

Someone claims that the people who become cops are fundamentally racist?

Leaving some place I see holes in the streets, curb is full of thick roots

The egg board demo of organic eggs vs. regular (breaking the regular egg on the wall versus the organic egg on the wall, watching them roll down the driveway and comparing there residue of whites they leave on the concrete)

folding the shirt it is a kind gift, the song I sing is beautiful, I start out humming then move to full vocals at the conclusion they say I have a high pitched voice but then I give a demonstration of my low tones, pooped in pants desperately searching for a bathroom around the house to clean up before the smell becomes apparent a guy doesn't let me in the first one I find a second one with two stalls, I'll have to completely remove these pants and wear my swim suit as pants, keep pooping but it's a broken toilet I see the splats landing down inside the open bowl, if I flush this may just go everywhere all over the bathroom.

cop show ride-along, black cop is describing the job and uses profanity, I observe him and his partner enter some house with guns out, there is a startling noise and the cops spin around , the perp is sitting on a couch but gives up peacefully, quickly moving to lying down on the floor in the kitchen of the house

The letter from Laura

Letter notifying us that the house near my CH is for sale, my wife says we may want to buy it and refurnish it instead of rebuilding our country house, but I think my mom has already passed away. The real estate agents are former boy scout friends (I see just their names on the papers), and the house was a house containing our old troop's treasures.

2nd phase, very short dreams
+ LD#169 couch jump float teleport tried to roll out of bed

+ "68" with beautiful dream girl

+ another sex dream leading in to a book of links to girly material called "Mens Magazine"

+ narrator says that "things we encounter early in life determines what turns us on in adulthood", a guy watching "spongebob" on tv says "I don't feel very stimulated"

+ 3rd phase of dreams, another medley:

car tipping over steep slope "Stop! Stop"

girl throwing rock at me in the (sauna?)

In shower in aqua park, people arrive, the woman dives into the floor, phasing through it, I'm concerned that she may get stuck in the pipes below the park but others are not concerned

sitting around in groups of people coming and going, waiting for everybody to arrive so we can leave

Christmas tree attack: the guards are bad guys in disguise, the good guys jump out from hiding and escape through the Christmas tree portal

In an amusement park, the group of people rub up rudely I think to me but I notice the large girl/woman who did the rubbing is blind. Then a carnival ride with several girls with very short skirts and whose legs fly open wide while riding giving an excellent view, they're only wearing skimpy thongs underneath.

Orchestra conducting, first fake, then real, a brass/trombone piece, confer with the conductor about the tempo

+ new man-made bird; swimming with signalling via color flashing

+ semi-LD fly @ CH, don't want mom to see me flying

+ work meeting, those who didn't file expense reports must stand up and recite their status

+ bad-guy team assault and takeover of CH, I flee with my cat, its food bowl, and my work manager and director. bad guys with bloody mouthed beards hanging out in CH driveway, girl chases us as we reverse down F drive, CC pulls a 180 and drives forwards, down Av. there is a pool, get out of car now it's a 1950's truck someone's interested in it and I give it a sales pitch. Enter some indoor place, a man gets into a rainbow colored baby crib. I'm planning revenge, a drone strike with missiles perhaps.

In McDonald's I'm sitting on floor watching TV, immediately next to me sitting at a table is the bad guy team, I'm observing them and memorizing their looks, trying to be inconspicuous. One of the bad guys recognizes me and stands up and goes and whipsers to another bad guy with his eyes on me, I get up and leave quickly not looking at them.

+ LD #168 caveman

+ caveman #2 non-lucid, into movie theater w/wife

+ apartment windows are open, find small boy he runs away to neighboring apartment "just a pencil"

+ blocked path on the way to LHS

+ playing pool, strange rack, multiple diameter balls, examining pocket

+ stop at the shoe repair place

Another "ANA" like night. This time influenced by Jamie Alexander's ebooks: "Lucid Dreaming on Command" and "Meditation For Lucid Dreaming". The main thing about his approach is to focus your awareness in your head, forget your body, and "go deeper, let go." I choose his recommendation to focus awareness on HI.

I felt this is a lot like what dolphin does, staring at the back of his eyelids and waiting for FAs/dreams to appear.

The first half of the night seemed to take forever before dreams began. I may have been aware in NREM because at one point I moved on to my back and when I felt entirely aware, my wife told me that I was snoring which woke me up and I thought that was strange because I hadn't felt that I was snoring.

I kept trying to fall asleep to watching my HI and letting go/relaxing. Then the dreams started. Ordering not clear.

+ I'm on my way to get lunch, maybe I'll get pad thai. I encounter a (Round Table?) pizza place and go in, I'd love me some Kind Arthur Supreme! They have a buffet lunch going. I'm skeptical because I want the KAS, but I head that way. "Don't worry, " the cooks say, "we've made plenty of pizza for the buffet." I indeed see large circular clear containers full of pizzas stacked one on top of another.

+ semi-epic?
I'm watching some presentation. A woman is talking about a piece of real-estate. She's trying to conceal her location, i see location on address on street, I know where this is [false]. House is large, 3 rich families live there. Look for a long time at the column marking the left front corner of the property, it's being reconstructed/rebuild? Around right front corner to side, the buildings are huge, right now just construction skeletons with girders. They're like 100 yards long, the size of a football field, what would be in there, a gym?
Then my team is playing on the ground level under the construction, it's a soccer field. I stand back and watch for a while, we're scoring goals, they're making good kicks, too. Then I run forwards and start participating. It's not all that easy for me to run, like I'm overweight. We make a run for the goal, and I try to kick but my kick is weak, it's not a soccer ball but instead some small colorful triangle things (paper?). I kick to my teammate, and we make 3 goals like that in a row with me assisting. At one point the goalie is grad school classmate KA, then he's on my team and we're scoring a goal together.

Enter a restaurant with my team. We're seated at a table. 3 out of 4 of my teammates are overweight.

+ semi-epic
I'm walking among and looking closely at suburban houses. I recommended a painter to some friends and I'm looking at the results [false]. I observe the colors: deep, grayish blue main building, sometimes an odd variant of raspberry/mauve, very dreamy colors. These painters always do a great and careful job. I'm in the carport of one such house and notice that they've painted the foundation a different color (this one is the blue/gray house with a reddish/pink foundation). They've painted a slightly uneven line between the house and the foundation, but that is because the foundation is bumpy concrete so the uneven line blends in to the texture of the house.

I pull myself up to look over the the roof and get a quick glimpse in a neighboring yard of a large fluffy dog.

I then climb fully on to the roof and launch into the air and fly. I gain some altitude, to avoid the dog in the next yard. The dog is barking/jumping at me as I fly over. The dog jumps at me and falls off the roof into the garden. I'm hovering/circling about 30-40 feet in the air, a girl is walking below me, she has notes for me, she's upset about the dog falling off the ceiling. There are letters stuffed in between the pages of books. The girl is my daughter?

Down on the ground I enter the house. There is a woman and a boy there seated at a table. I get a close up view of her right eye. It is strange. She has parallel vertical age lines above and below her eye on her forehead and her cheek:

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I think this is unattractive. Then I notice her skin on her shoulder and chest. It is exposed (no shirt) and colored reddish-orange and of a very strange texture: the skin is pulled and cut into regular rectangular arrays of flaps about 1/8inch wide that stick up in the air about 1/4 inch. Her entire upper body is covered with these arrays of skin flaps. I notice a wrinkly nipple. The whole thing is a very odd and fairly repulsive sight.

Our team push starts a train. push hard, run to catch it, jump on. The woman train inspector may catch us. We've been riding around like this for a long time (is the track circular, how can we do that?) Uh oh here comes a end-of-track barrier, we're going fast, brace for impact, we plow through the barrier with no problems, and land in a cushion zone made for cases like this, with large slats of wood and piles of sand. There is a house for sale beyond this area?

Something odd like a guy opening his mouth around the for-sale sign (?) and indicating that the other guys should stick in their (ahem)s? It's a joke.

+ traveling through town, looking for ice cream/yogurt, some places catch my attention, I go into one. At the counter/register there is a light on the left that indicates you can place an ice cream order, and on the right that you can place a yogurt order. The ice cream light goes off and I try to communicate with the servers but they speak a different language. I go walking around the large store. I see people sitting in booths. Up ahead there are some large, fat, nudist women (lesbians?) sitting in a hallway booth. I walk by them trying to avoid looking at them. Around a corner there is a large room off to the side, with a male rock band and some female groupies.

+ (f) I follow into my jr hs best friend DD's house, his father is there, we're there with friends, we start discussing world history. Something about my dad? Sewer pipe exits? Every fifth pipe has elevated salt levels? I feel my skin peeling off of my foot from the high salt levels?

+ (f) I realize that I've lost my toilet seat shaped pillow for the night, they have reclaimed them. I need to pay for another one before they're all gone. I get one(?) and return inside to the equipment rack?

+ (f) exchange of candy. I wanted M&Ms I leave the area and check the (gas pumps?) the attendants/adult, guards are there but they don't bother me, I have a bag of candy, I turn around and re-enter the area

+ LD#167 ToTM advanced II (change gravity for a DC)
I look up into the sky and I see some puffy things like giant cotton swab puffs, and to the right a giant advertisement for a chocolate bar with many little bits of chocolate strewn around, I think "this is a dream-like sky, because only in dreams do you get particles like that in the sky". I do a nose pinch and am confused that I can breathe. That gets my attention, I try again and I can breathe. What? Oh! I run forwards and take a leap off of the road over a big drop with a small thought of "is this a bad idea?" but I fly and I'm firmly lucid now. I'm near a major university and think "I'm going to go mess with the students!" The thought of ToTM Advanced II (change gravity for a DC) enters my head. Down on the sidewalk below I see people, I choose a group of 3 walking together, 2 guys and a girl. I point my finger at the girl (who's standing on the right end of the 3 walking together), and will gravity to reverse for her so she falls into the sky. And indeed, she flies up high into the sky, 60 feet or so, when I un-reverse gravity for her and fly to catch her in my arms. Her head is to my left, feet the right. Her face is turned away from me. I turn her towards me, hoping/expecting to see a young/pretty college girl. She seems to be and I immediately kiss her. She's confused and I explain (punctuated by a few more short kisses) that I made a tiny modification of the space/time continuum around her, but that for her it probably felt like a large change. I ask her where she wants to go: New York? Europe? To the <rock band name forgotten> concert in Austrailia [false]? "Oh, the concert!" she answers. Darn, I think, I didn't really want to go to the concert. At this point there's a strange transition and we're outside a secret restaurant in Iran, and I'm now a small, dark-skinned, dark-haired local boy speaking through another local boy through a guy who works in the restaurant, explaining to the girl that I don't speak (Iranian?). The implication is that we're stuck in this situation (she accessed my dream power somehow to make this change?)... and then I wake up.

2016-01-15 23:51 pre-bedtime
2016-01-16 00:00

+ wife/monster biting nightmare

+ park/beautiful stone, really tasty wine

+ big conflict with guy who vandalized my brother-in-law's poster. Follow his gang, then reveal myself. Then they're following me. Then at work I keep encountering gang members in the hallways and we give each other nasty looks. Scene in the lab with an oscilloscope? Then emerge on to a suburban strip mall street and wonder how I should get back to my car, then a narrator hinting at how my brother-in-law's brother is/was a mobster and that's how they got all their money.

06:51
record early/mid dreams, BTS battle, I win!

+ LD#166
I'm outside some large (school?) buildings and there are two dogs there, I'm really happy about this and am petting, thumping them on their backs/sides, I realize I could transform them into anything I want. Then I'm lucid. I'm walking down a corridor and want to really experience/engage, I approach a table and am amazed at how waking-like the sensations are, I run my hands over this table and really feel it with my hands. Then caveman takes over and I go looking for girls, find one working a sale of some sort at another nearby table and get a bunch of "attention" from her both above and beneath the table

+ through door into other room, nice close sexy-time moment with girl, standing above and behind her (she's kneeling), then get down in front of her

+ hop into convertible sportscar, "shouldnt leave the top down," go faster, up hills, floor it, shift gears down and engine starts to roar and goes faster

+ at cousins house, huge party, "I like the gazebo you put out front!", access some kitchen appliance requiring me to "scan" my (ahem), planning sleeping arrangements with 2 girls downstairs near me, digging in candy cup, find tiny rectangular individually wrapped caramels, while other guys in the distance are yelling блин! блин! I think this slang term originated as a way for people yelling for the movie to start. Sitting with a girl on my lap and the other girl is telling her "I'm the pretty one!" and her relative is watching me with a close eye so I should be careful.

11:51 feel it's time to get up, it's light outside, check time, get up

I went to bed around midnight quite tired, but my awareness just would not let me fall into unconscious sleep. My wife came to bed late and woke me up. In retrospect it felt like I was WILDing from bed time. A case of dolphin's "all night awareness" I believe.

early:

+ I'm standing in a house, on a stairway, I see my father walking up from a higher landing up other stairs. He is naked, and his "stuff" is vaguely visible, so I turn away to preserve his modesty.

I'm in my parent's bedroom, my mother is talking to me, she wants me to take a look at some letter that my sister brought by. I'm upset at her for talking to me because I'm trying to fall asleep (!). I take a look at it and there are some cards and a piece of paper but it seems not to be of any importance.

+ (f) I'm viewing a scrolling list of some sort, reading it, it's important.

+ (f) I'm thinking about fitting into zero area spaces between lines and the intersections of planes.

I waken and realize these were dreams and spent some more time floating in "awake" awareness until the next bunch of dreams:

+ I awaken in bed to a sudden "bang" sound. I'm in my adult home, but sleeping in my son S1's bedroom but with my head by the window in the corner. I pull up the covers and try to feign sleep. It's son S2 who's up and making noise, coming out of the master bedroom into the hallway. He announces: "Guess who's going to Prom!?" This is odd since I know he's University age.

+ There are two young men, there is a narrator voice, it is vaguely sexual in some way, the young men are singing, something they say sounds like "fantasy." There is a track from where they are that runs along the right wall of the room, and little round things are rolling down this track. They are very small (1/4 inch) round thumbtacks with tiny x-rated scenes painted on them. There's a bunch of them stuck on to the wall by my bed. I'm pulling them out and seeing the holes left behind. Son S2 comes in and starts looking at them and I'm trying to hide them. I pull the bed away from the wall and there are more there stuck in the wall running along the floorboards.

LDs:

later:

+ LD#164 I'm the same bedroom as the previous dream (adult home son S1's bedroom), it is dimly lit. My wife is there and there are the same x-rated little thumbtacks stuck in the wall again, she is looking at them and saying "what are those?" I'm trying to pick them up and hide them, piling them on the bed, I ask her some question to distract her, then I have a feeling that this is an absurd situation and didn't I already deal with this? and get fully lucid, quick nose pinch confirms. The dream gets a bit unstable right away, dizzy/fading but quick hand rub brings it nicely back into focus. I remember TOTM basic I (read the title of a book) and go to the bookcase up against the wall and pull off a book and look at it, reading is difficult but I see "winnie". Then I'm looking through some book flipping through the pages and I see a bunch of colorful complex stick figures. No matter how fast I flip the pages there is always a clear picture there, I'm amazed that my mind can produce the images so quickly.

I walk out into the hallway, and there seated on the floor next to son S2's bedroom door are my sons, aged about 3 and 5. I call them to me and get hugs from both of them, that was really nice. I walk down the hallway and turn into the family room, I walk to the bookshelf to check out more books since I want to make sure I get TOTM and I just want to try reading books. I decide I can order some food from the kitchen. I walk back to the family room entrance looking into the kitchen and am about to formulate an order and decide I'm rather just summon it myself directly. At first I call for pepperoni pizza but decide I want a Round Table King Arthur Supreme [my favorite chain pizza…mmm]. I think about extending my arms into the "aether" and grabbing it like Merlin does with Logrus magic in Zelazny's Amber books. My hands don't come back with a pizza but I glance down on to a table and see an open pizza box with a pepperoni pizza in it. I take a slice and eat. One of my kids comes in and eats some as well. I have the thought that this is a long, stable LD and that this is due to my daytime mindfulness work.

Back to the bookshelf, I take a book from the middle section and open it and can't make any sense out of the title or the contents. I rationalize this via thinking "oh this is from my wife's German books collection" [false]. Then I go to the right section and think I see my old college Astronomy textbook. I take it out and open it, and at first I get the impression that I can understand words, but then everything seems to be abstract geometrical shapes.

I've had enough of reading so I walk towards the living room. On the way there I get the idea to summon MaSt for some "fun." I'm calling out her name "M St…., M St…, M St…" and am walking around the (totally empty) living room. I walk by the light switches and try to operate them to make the room lighter. It doesn't work and I continue walking around the room, but give a quick thought to "be lighter" and notice that there is a bit more light.

Then I notice that the wall on the side of the entry way is all glass [DS] and I can see two local neighbor kids outside, a boy and a girl. I make a gesture for them to approach. I then see them again and their faces are a bit different. I go outside and there are a few more people here. Another man/woman pair whom I think are also very young / kids at first but as I approach them they seem more like fully mature adults but are just very short, they walk away from me. I turn back towards my house and there is a woman there whom I see in passing has a very large dark birthmark on her face. I will her face to be clear and briefly notice it happening but head back in to the living room.

There is a young man there now seated on a bench and we exchange a few words. I decide to tell him what's going on. I walk past him and say "you are a dream character within my lucid dream!". He says "What!? NO!" and comes at me aggressively. I push him back and decide we'll fight and I pull out my lightsaber from my "utility belt" and turn it on. Sigh, weak translucent colors again. We both have light sabers and are vaguely swinging them around. I tell him to turn up the opacity on his as I want to do to get fully operational light sabers. Then he backs into a TV in an entertainment center cabinet and disappears into the picture tube. I stick my saber in there and swish it around, I want to see the TV set ripped apart in molten metal effects but instead I just get a bit of static popping up on the screen.

I go back to walking in a circle around the empty living room and calling for M St… to appear, holding my hand behind my back, but the dream slowly fades.

I feel myself in bed, with something on top of my eyes. But I don't want to open my eyes for fear of fully waking up. I try to slowly open my eyes. Then suddenly…

+ a new bright scene instantly appears. I'm lying on my back on a medical table against a wall in a very brightly lit medical procedure room. There is a black female middle aged nurse at the food of my bed, I'm pulling her on top of me and down for a kiss, I manage a quick kiss and want to make out with her but she pulls away, saying that I don't look good from my condition, and that "we've already done it today anyway". She walks along the side of my bed around to my head. She asks if I've decided to go ahead with the treatment, and asks me for the diagnosis. I notice I'm in a medium-large sized room with many patients on medical tables and many people attending to them. There is a person on a table nearby with someone standing next to him. I hear myself mumbling some medical terms that seem nonsense except I recognize the word "cortex."

The nurse then inserts some thick needle object slowly into the area beneath my left eyebrow and above my eyelid. It feels like the skin the needle is going through is very thick and it moves very slowly, it's quite painful. It also feels like there is some sort of hard clamp placed over the needle holding in it place. Something clicks and I roll off of the bed/cart and am lucid, a quick nose pinch confirms. I'm in caveman right away and looking for a suitable female. Everyone in this room seems old/ugly. I'm walking out of this room and the black nurse is pursuing me but I call back to her "you already had your chance."

I think what to do/where to go and I realize there must be a particular kind of doctor nearby and see an entrance to a waiting room and enter. There are a lot of people here too. I find a suitable DC sitting in a chair and kneel down in front of her. A male relative/friend of hers has his arms firmly around her shoulders.

Spoiler for sexy time:

I put a hand over each breast outside her shirt and start massaging her nipples between thumb and index finger round and round in circles,

while I'm reassuring her that the doctor knows exactly how to treat people like her so it will all be fine. After about 10-15 seconds,
the dream fades.

I wake happy at the very nice sequence of LDs and achieving TOTM.

I just want some restful sleep at this point and try to release any lingering awareness so I'll fall asleep quickly.

I sleep and dream some more. A number of scenes, mostly fragmented, some excerpts:

+(f) walking in a hallway I realize I'm walking along former colleague DeHo, who lives in SC. I say "hi" and lean over to give her arm a friendly bump but instead I brush her breast by mistake. I feel a bit embarrassed and she leans a bit away from me. We talk about the weather a little bit?

+ (f) I'm trying to get an ice cream vendor to explain something to me and they're not cooperating.

+ (f) at my kid's birthday party, there are a lot of kids, how shall we ferry them all to the next destination? We'll need several cars, I can't see how this is possible. Also something about serving them ice cream.

+(f) traveling with a girlfriend? She slides up to me on a seat and it's very cozy.

+ (f) I'm sitting down in a dim location on a bench with a girl I know is ElWa (grad school colleague). I sense her husband GrBa is watching us from the shadows. I put my arm on her bare leg and feel some stubble. I wonder what else is hairy. I know it's her but saying her name would somehow ruin the situation.

Late to bed, and early interruption = short night so far, maybe grab a late morning nap later

+ (f) some "sting?" involving a car up on a road and wrapping some odd wire with something else (weird)?

+ work: company "N" CEO J comes to me and tells me how some important celebrity has endorsed our product once it was shown to him. I say why wasn't the product shown much earlier for better effect from the endorsement? J agrees with me. Lunch is brought to me, my lunch in a plastic food container containing sliced baked potatoes, I think CEO J is going to take it. He gives it to me along with a large piece of pizza with no crust on it, held together by a solid layer of baked cheese on top.

I'm holding a conversation with the engineers. I'm asking for technical characteristics. I give a detailed scenario and ask for particular performance results. Can a particular configuration achieve perfect results? Not quite it turns out.

There is an odd digital clock thing with a lot of different LEDs on it. It was made by some guy. Then I'm looking at the guy's life flowchart. At one point his flowchart shows him going home and getting stuck in a loop with his wife talking to him. Then it shows when his wife stops this that he moves to a state where he can do "useful work" [haha].

awake from phone calls to spouse
get up and study for an hour
wife leaves for early morning appointment
back to bed
more dreams!

+ LD#163 doing stuff walking around outside with a group/team, observing things, maybe some combat going on. I'm shooting an airsoft rifle? I find myself standing and looking at a large, interesting tree. My "mindfulness" observer mode kicks in [YES!] and I realize what I'm doing and that I'm dreaming. I'm excited and I start walking without clear direction. Things are a bit unstable, so I take off one of my gloves and rub my hands a bit together (one gloved and one ungloved). I'm walking down a path/dirt road leading to an open area below. I think of TOTM but no goals come to me. So I remember a secondary goal, and

Spoiler for NSFW, sexual body parts & fluids (eww), sexual encounter:

take down my pants. I see my (ahem) is waking-sized. "Be Bigger!" I command it and it lengthens satisfactorily. I want to see if I can self-please to conclusion in a dream, so I'm doing this as I continue to walk. I feel a sensation and see some spurts shooting out but it looks more like pee and it feels like I need to pee. Up ahead in the distance I see a science museum and I figure people will be in there and I'll go interact. Then I see a bunch of young people sitting on a car nearby and I go up to them and engage sexually. The first one disappears after I start, the second one turns into a plastic doll but that doesn't stop me, and I continue on with it (A then O), add in a third (O), then

the dream fades.

+ in some happening (conflict? battle?) and a girl falls from a tall height onto a platform in the middle. She's hurt I imagine and I go to comfort her. I hold her head tenderly in my hands and start making out with her. My best technique. Lots of lip pulling and sliding. I ask her if she likes the lip pulling and she says "yes" so I do it a little bit more and then move on to the sliding. It feels really good.

+ escape from the dragon gym. I enter with a companion into a gym [it is the YMCA I went to in A when I was small] through double doors. The doors are very stiff and hard to move. The doors seem to be freshly painted, the surface feels sticky like fresh paint. I look at my hand and don't see any traces of paint on it so it must be not too fresh. Inside the large room, I feel like there is a strong evil/dangerous presence, a dragon. There is a small barrier made of cloth on a frame and we hunker down right behind it but I know the dragon is aware of us and right on the other side of it. (It gets my friend?) I decide to use my invisibility (thing? innate ability) but I realize it won't be enough because dragons have a keen sense of smell and hearing. So I step out from behind the hiding place and throw a small thing and a bolster/pillow thing across to the other side of the room to distract it. Then I make a run for the door, and I sense it is right behind me. I force my way through the first set of stiff doors and the in-between area is so tightly packed with (piles of books?) that I will have trouble opening the second set of doors. I manage to get one of the set of doors open and push my way out. The dragon is now a threatening woman. As I emerge through the low second door to freedom I exclaim, "Books!"

Woken by a phone call, so recall a bit weak. There were other dreams but they slipped away from the jolting waking.

Last night was an astonishing night. Not just that I had 4 LDs, but that the quality of the dreams were leaps and bounds ahead of almost any other LD I've had, except some on galantamine. I did a few things differently this night:

Bedtime: approx 1:30am. Final out of bed: about 1:50pm (yup you read that right), wife woke me up because we had an appointment. Some time awake before post-lucid dreams.

Lucids occurred approx 8 am.

+ Moderate exercise a few hours before bed.

+ I got off the computer about an hour before bed.

+ I read about vipassana meditation ("Mindfulness In Plain English"), doing calming breathing while reading the book, before bed, including reading through some Universal Loving Friendliness recitations.

+ At bed time, instead of setting strong intention to recall dreams, get lucid, pay attention to the night, for a long time like I sometimes do, I took a different approach: I had a "conversation with my SC":

I know that you [my SC] knows how to dream. I do not need to "spend effort" to "make myself dream." Dreaming will happen naturally. All I have to do is notice it when it happens in order to get lucid. I would really love to be lucid in my dreams tonight!

Thank you for my dreaming experiences! Tonight, I would like to have beautiful dreams. Lovely landscapes full of beauty. [and maybe a request or two about romantic encounters , but mostly focusing on beauty]. Fun, beautiful, interesting dreams.

Also, I work on falling asleep using sivason's mantra breathing. I tell myself "I am…." on every inhale, and "…dreaming…" on every exhale. I really really try to let go of all tension and totally relax along with this, because typically reciting mantras keeps me awake.

So there was a strong current of both mental and physical relaxation involved. I fell asleep initially fairly quickly.

I had 4 phases of dreaming:

Early

Pre-lucid

Lucid

Post-lucid

I had longish wakings just before and after the Lucid period, but didn't get out of bed, I remained in bed and did recall. I went to sleep again using the mantra breathing "I am….", "dreaming." And "Remember, I am…", "…dreaming…"

Early:
I thought I had forgotten these entirely, but some just came back to me now as of this writing (in the evening).

+ outside building, trying to get in, I need my math books. MaEd (husband of CamEd, friend at work in college) brought them to me. There are also lots and lots of papers to read. I look through them and see words on the paper. Kind of blurry like a bad photocopy, but definitely visible. I think if you do all this reading you'll get a lot of extra credit. [Possibly day residue from watching "Modern Educayshun" video before bed].

There were more, but forgotten for now.

Pre-lucid:

+ the road
(walked too far, sit across from field up against a stone wall on sidewalk, dirty backpack, dirty (grass clippings) hat, brush it off, think people will consider me a hobo I'm so dirty. Crazy guy who works in the fields comes out, saying "HEY THAT'S MY SPOT" farmer in filed across the way says "yeah he always sits there to eat lunch." I don't get upset, I imagine sitting with him and having a conversation, [I think a result of Loving Friendliness recitations].

+ the mural
an artist is painting a mural on the wall. I think it is a rendition of human inner connective tissues, it is red and white, and it is lovely. Artist (woman?) runs her fingers along the lines of the paint, red paint in between white boundaries (or the other way around?), smoothing out the paint, making long curving lines. Then she is drawing artistic features at lightning speed. With a few strokes of her brush in a second, she can draw a full "heart", she draw several.
Then at the end, she submerges herself in the pool of water beneath a decorated Christmas tree, I have a top-down view of her sinking down and the reflections of the lights on the tree sparkle on the water.

+ sports field, conversation
There is a sort of party outside, young people are milling around. Someone was supposed to get the beer. There was a mixup? Someone had left it up to "the Mexican."
Approaching a sports field. Some even happening there? I stand above it.
There is a procession of beefy male football players down a narrow strip of field below me. One of then is really huge and fat. I think he's over 500 pounds. Man, how'd you like to play against a 500 pound opponent?! I walk around the corner and run along the other side. I make a running leap on to the long seat/couch on the lower side of the "field"/walkway. A girl up ahead to my right calls out "Seismic event!!" when I land. I say "hey!", I think it's rude of her to commend on my weight like that.

I'm lying there and some people come up to me. Women in their 30's they seem like. Several come up and there are some conversations. Then MiSe (conductor, undergrad university orchestra) is there. He's wearing a knit cap that is pulled down just over his eyes which are slightly visible beneath the cap. His eyes seem red and kind of weird. I wonder if they're stuck to the hat. I want to boast to these women we're talking to about me playing in the university orchestra, but I don't say that.

+ DILD, LD#158 TOTM basic II (laugh in a DC's face)

I walk into kitchen of childhood home [don't realize it yet]. It is dark/night. As soon as I step on to the floor I glide slowly across the room. This grabs my attention. I think the floor must have been recently oiled. I realize this is my childhood home's kitchen, I'm looking down at the floor and it seems a bit too large, missing some items, like things were taking away to clean the floor. The linoleum has random dots/drops on it for decoration. I'm just really liking this gliding: I take one step forwards and I glide all the way to the other side, slowly. How can this be happening? I step out of the kitchen into the living room Oh, I know: I'm dreaming! (nose pinch confirms). I'm very happy to be lucid. I think about narrating the dream but don't. I think of TOTM: laugh in a DCs face. My parents are right upstairs! I'll do the laugh one. Dream only slightly unstable at first, but solidifies. Go upstairs and down hallway to my parents' bedroom, the door is closed. Hey, I'll be able to see my mom! I open the door and say "Mom? Dad?" in a sort of little boy lost voice. Two people are in bed, they both sit bolt upright and look at me in surprise. Instead of mom and dad, through, there are two of my dads there. I think briefly this is because my mom passed away and I can't therefore see here. The duplicate dad disappears. My dad is sitting on his knees upright in the bed. I go right up in bed next to him, his face close to mine. He appears 20-30 years younger than he is now. I start laughing with a sort of high-pitched voice, looking into his eyes. "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA…" for about 10-15 seconds. He looks sad and a bit confused. Maybe says something once. When I stop laughing, he flops back down into bed on his face, exasperated. Satisfied I've done the ask, I leave and go downstairs.

At some point approaching the dining room I lose visuals. It's like visuals are "stuck" at a scene in the upstairs hallway. I can still feel things in the location in the house where I know I am. I consider going back upstairs so that my location matches the stuck image in my mind as a way to unstick it. I go into the kitchen again and look at the floor and the visuals are back. I'm gliding across the room, and I notice that the pattern on the floor has changed: long lines now arranged in groups at right angles. I turn around and glide back towards the dining room and notice that there is also a new color suddenly on the linoleum [peach, pinkish?].

I go out the sliding glass door onto the deck. I notice with satisfaction that the view of the city lights below looks very accurate and stable. I see that up and to the right in the night sky [blocked by some trees], is the sun. There are black clouds covering the sky. The sun is shining a weird yellow light into the night sky. Sort of like an eclipse sun? I walk to the left on the deck to get a direct view of the sun. The trees are still sort of in the way. So I do a jump into the air and go up about 50 feet. The sun is amazing and multicolored. It is shining multicored light onto the houses in the area. Red, purple, blue bits of light, I gasp at the beauty.

Spoiler for frequent sexual content for the rest of this dream:

I land on the ground and am in a quiet suburban neighborhood of large houses at night. I remember a dream goal of sexually pleasing myself to see if I can climax in a dream without the challenge of waking from the sexual excitement from being with a female. I whip it out briefly, then I notice in the window of the house nearest me I see a man standing quickly jerking his big (ahem). His head is obscured by the top of the window. That must be the right house for me! I go and enter the house, and turn to the left. I see some females, definitely interested in them more than the guy, so I go to one and put her up on a chair and get a few quick BJ slurps from her. Then I'm positioning her for intercourse, and the problem arises that I have to use a female condom.

I'm looking at this strange device and trying to figure out how the heck to use it. It's about the size of a typical brown paper lunch sack, maybe a bit narrower. It is partly made from brown paper and partly from see-through cellophane-like plastic. I'm just looking at this thing and wondering what to do. Should I just put it inside her? Then her female friend comes in and is holding a more appropriately sized thing looking much like the "female condom" I'm inspecting.

My girl goes off to the bathroom to (put it in?). She returns and sits down a bit away from me, her face is now half-painted, like football fans do in stadiums. I look at her again and the color of the paint has changed and is harder to see. Then she is sitting right next to me again faced a bit away from me and I turn her head towards me and kiss her. She has thin lips and a small mouth and is wearing red lipstick. She tells me, "I know (your problem / your secret?)! You never went through puberty!" I deny this.

Then she is facing me and we're getting ready again for sex. I start unbuttoning her blouse, and I'm really looking forward to this. I tell her, "I can't wait to eat your p***y!" She says "Mmm Hmm!" and then at the second button,

the dream fades...

DEILD, LD#159

Spoiler for pretty much all sexual, explicit language and situations, some nasty bodily discharge, I'm warning you!:

I appear lying on my bed in my bedroom, there's a man sitting next to me. I get lucid right away. He is stroking a large erect (ahem). "I see you there, jerking it!" I tell him. I think he's some celebrity. I look at my own exposed member. There is some pus-y, cheese white stuff near the tip. WTF is that? Oh God I hope I didn't get VD from the girl I was just with in the other scene. I'm peeling back the skin and my whole thing basically is opened up kind of like a pod thing from Alien, it's really gross. The guy next to me says "ewww!" I pull out a string of disgusting discharge connected to some semen still coming out of the tip. I clearly need to go to the bathroom and wash my (ahem). I make a rude comment to the guy [censored].
I go to the hallway bathroom. I enter it, it is darkish but partially lit (by a night-light). I flip a light switch and nothing happens. ("Aha!" I think, so light switches *don't* work in my dreams!). I wash my thing. I then notice the man out in the hallway. I look again and he has a girl's body. I go out and he's a girl now. I tell the girl to "dry my (ahem) by sucking it". Which she does for a few seconds, and

the dream fades.

DEILD, LD#160:
I'm back in the hallway bathroom, sitting on the floor.

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

There is naked girl on her hands and knees across my body. Her coloring is a bit odd, maybe like a cartoon character. I position her so that her butt is facing me, still on her hands and knees. I have a close up view of her (ahem) right near my face. I get up on my knees and begin to enter her doggy style. Thinking of stabilization, I look around and put my hand on to the hallway stair railing which is right there. I begin to enter her

… and the dream fades.

[Wake, recall, BTS mantra breathing]

DILD, LD#161 Fish, task girl, restaurant
I appear about 10-15 feet up from a fairly large expanse of water. It is grey and slightly dim. I'm sitting with fogelbise. He says he's burned out of fishing. I look down to the water and am astounded. There are *so many* fish visible in the fairly shallow and clear water. Big round ones, straight ones, over to the right some large shark-sized fish. They are slowly swimming about. I exclaim "man the fishing would be *great* here!" I'm looking at these fish and something strikes me and I do a nose pinch and I'm lucid again. I go down to the water level. I think of the TOTM basic I, ask a DC for a TOTM task. I look up to where I was sitting before but fogelbise is gone. There's nobody around. I wade out into the water and see a girl with her head (eyes?) just above the water line. I go up to her and take both her hands in both of my hands and lift her up out of the water. I ask her, "tell me a task!" She doesn't answer. "Tell me a task!" I say again. She mumbles something. I take her in to a building, there is a waiter there with paper cups and I want him to pour me some champagne to drink. I take the girl against a wall and put her on a table and ask again, "tell me a task!". She answers, "invest your cash register, freeze." I repeat it slowly to make sure I have it. "Invest your cash register, freeze?" I again repeat, "Invest your cash register, freeze?" She nods yes. I lean down and

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

lick her p***y a few times but don't want to get engaged for fear of waking

.
I move on deeper into this building and encounter an older man, 50's perhaps, a bit overweight, wearing a white uniform, like a chef, and he's asking me for the remote control. We go into the next room and I"m looking around, forgetting him, and he again says he needs the remote control. We're near a chef's kitchen shelf (where they put up the finished plates) and I decide to reach around some appliance and expect to feel a small device with my fingers. I do feel such a device, but then an anonymous hand from the other side of the shelf shoves forward a small grey remote control. I pick it up and give it to the chef guy. I think of apologizing for it being missing, but I sense that I'm the boss of this place so that would look weak. I walk with this chef guy out towards the entrance, and want to have more fun, so I ask him to take me to the champagne, then...
… the dream fades.

wake, recall, BTS

Post-lucid:

+ appear in home, kitchen, a party's going on with guests over. fogelbise is sitting at the kitchen table in the dining nook, my wife is nearby in the kitchen. I want to indicate to him I had four lucid dreams just now, so I hold out my left hand with my thumb tucked in near his face slyly so no one else can see (I don't want to talk about the LDs where my wife could hear). fogelbise sort of shrugs not understanding and holds up about 8 fingers on two hands with a question on his face. I again indicate the four fingers to show I had 4 lucid dreams. There's a small boy (with an afro?) at the table also.

+ overlooking conference hall with military table different color, flags at each position , wife with me on upper level, computer, party, this is the place for action I say, she leaves angry, go get her?, go after she's still there by restaurant window, take sliced-in-half oranges from restaurant window, thers a cup there, we'll squeeze into a cup for fresh orange juice.

+ walk down street, big city, cross street, see son coming other way, want to cross to meet him, major gasoline lines being installed at this corner, overhead. Police block the crosswalk, I wait for green light and cross even through it may be blocked but nobody stops me.

Spoiler for sexual content, bodily fluids:

+ in home with sons, hear S1 talking about his (sexual?) encounter with his girlfriend, it involves a pineapple, and his girlfriend walking in on his masturbating then giving him a pineapple to indicate her desire? Son S2 is really making fun of son S1 for this. I'm in a bedroom off to the side masturbating with some device. It's making a lot of squishing sounds. I sit up and some really loud sounds result, I call out "It's from my slippers!" (it was true. There is a towel stuck in the upper part of the door. I close the door for more privacy. I lie on the bed and start in again on my (ahem), and notice that I am now ejaculating [pretty much first dream noticing this]. I'm confused because I felt no orgasm. It's really coming out of me, not just a minor early dribble. Hmm, seems I've had a premature ejaculation? My son in the other room says "oh don't worry, happens to me sometimes" and I *am* worried that this indicates he's inappropriately sexually active.

Standard procedure for my nights: I do not record at night, I do mental recall only, reviewing the accumulated dreams briefly (sometimes for a long time) on every waking, and record only after getting up.

non-lucid, notes
semi-lucid
fully lucid

early:

+ (impressions of doing lots of things with a team of young people) a house on fire?

+ (f) in the sand, stretching out a red tape, this is a very powerful

later:

+ LD#156
In and out of lucidity, semi-lucidity.
A number of scenes, order a bit unclear
I'm lying on a couch in a room, there is another guy on the couch and a guy across the room
squishy spiders, cat eats one, I'm batting the other one away, see dense spider web (built for just the night!?)
See dog L, it's been so long, he looks very thin, need to feed him, get lucid, go outside, think "yay, #156", think of TOTMs, go back in ask DC to tell me a joke, first one like "and I fell down", said "tell me another one", he tells another one also sort of gibberish. To cement the TOTM I bite him (on the arm I think), then I'm walking to a room around a corner I want to go somewhere else, he follows? I go in a bathroom close the door and think when I come out of here I'll be in a different place. Then I think of summoning a girl by making believe we're having sex and start making motions. I then "wake up" in a dark room lit as if by a fire in a fireplace lying down in a corner and self-pleasuring, and stop thinking someone else in the room can see me.

Lying on ground in garage, girl's brought her new moped (looks like a bicycle) to show her friend who's there, I'm stuck by two cars, girl keeps shoving this bike right on top of me almost, I keep shoving it away, I eventually say "Hey I don't want that gasoline sloshing on me!". girl backs out of garage and I think hey why not kiss her, and I do, and a waking up lucid moment as I make kissing motions on nothing

Then I'm back in the original scene standing over a bed in the living room of the same house and there's a man lying there with blue eyes, crew cut and bright red hair, and we're talking. I realize I'm dreaming again and go outside and try to find my way to a different neighborhood [rest forgotten].

I'm in a bathtub. I'm writing really interesting things on the side of the bathtub with dry erase markers. But every time I raise my hand up to write something else I smudge/erase what I wrote before and this eventually starts frustrating me. I'm naked in the tub, and the tub is in a small enclosure just barely bigger than the tub (room to sit up), it's in an office and there's a window into the tub. I scoot down to the bottom of the tub and estimate that if someone looks in they won't see my (ahem), just barely. But there's a door on the end and they could open it and see me there.

riding in back seat of huge truck (driven by JaEi [VP company "R"]), pat JE on shoulder saying "you're doing a great job driving this thing!" then he drives off some edge and we're in free fall for what seems like 4 seconds, I'm anticipating an unpleasant impact, we hit but we're not destroyed or hurt, I look behind us and see the cliff we just rode down. I'm feeling around my lap for my waist bag and can't find it. I keep searching front and back, and eventually feel it and am relieved.

In room with young man, I'm trying to write on the side of a pen like I was writing on the side of the bathtub earlier, I was telling him about my dream of driving in the cliff-jumping huge truck, and he said, "I was there too, " and I said "You mean that was *real*?" But then I thought back to it and didn't remember there being any girls in the truck and said so. I think he was in a different truck that didn't go off the cliff like we did

+ I'm walking on some street, come to a stop light, waiting for the go indicator, and I see two guys I worked with (AM and Ch. from [company "B"]), and say s.l. "hey the guys from 'B'!").

+ LD #157
I'm in my childhood home living room, it's dark/night, I suspect a dream, then I see an unknown short old man in flowing robes walking quickly towards the front door as if he just came downstairs and I decide (perhaps with nose pinch), yes, lucid dreaming again. I head to the sliding glass door and open it and walk out on to the deck. The night sky is filled with silvery moon-lit clouds. I see some patterns in the sky that look sort of like faces. I just stand there looking up at the sky in awe for several moments. At some point I hear a screech coming from the stairs, I decide to try TOTM advanced (i) and crumple the scene. I hold my arms up to the sky and start making gathering motions, but I feel no physical traction, don't notice anything visually changing, then I decide I really should go investigate what's going on upstairs. I run for the stairs and I take out and ignite my lightsaber, which shows a weak translucent beam that is lighting up the wall in a jumping around pattern as I run up the stairs. Decide no, switch to physical sword, so I "reach for the hilt" and "draw" it expecting it to be there. It's dark and I vaguely see a blade before me, I reach up my right hand and pinch the blade and feel it to verify its presence. I'm with some friend and we run in to my parents bedroom, and my parents are there and my mom and I trade sword blows for a while.

wake, recall, BTS:

later, vague short scenes, in and out of sleep:

+ in a house, strange small creature pets crawling into holes, brightly colored huge grasshoppers/shrimps(?) clustered under the slats on the deck

+ clearing out my room (at music camp?)

+ a guy's criticizing my chess, my moves were strong then suddenly (on move 16?) I started playing poorly, my explanation was that I was late with my wife to a party and so had to offer a draw instead of playing on for the win.

+ see two owls: first one owl (outside childhood home?), then it sees me and it flies to its nest which is in my childhood home garage? I think these owls perhaps ate the little lizard pet from the earlier scene and that's why nobody can find it

+ (f) with ex-gf SB, her face close to mine, kissing her forehead

+ some girls are coming to visit. I had to remove all the centerfolds I had put up inside the cabinets. I hope I did. We're walking through and I open the cabinets carefully and see I did remove them, and feel relief.

+ on a driving trip, pulling in to a rest stop area. There are facilities, some are public, some are private, they seem like just lines of closets, some small, some large/long. One has cafeteria, guys with mugs with logos, enter, (talk to woman/), under a tent (wife?) is holding a giant bull penis, about 2 feet long and fist-thick and erect, it wobbles as if made of rubber, I'm standing by a fence, and she throws it at me and I barely dodge out of the way. Later I see the penis thing again with a bloody "bone" spot in the middle of its cross section where it was cut off on the bottom)

+ outdoors daylight, wide open empty plain, a guy is shooting a shotgun into the sky and the pellets are refelcting/falling back down off from the sky onto a large incline full of barrels and hitting the barrels. Then it's night and the guy warns of the jackals coming. I hear growling and see two little green reflective eyes in the distance. Start running and one is near me, I have no gun, it seems to be feigning injury, may be a trick, I'm fighting it off with a stick. The jackals dig into the sand like an arrow and launch themselves at you. Then it turns into a large human baby but I know it's a jackal, it's slippery, I'm at the edge of the sea and know I must down this thing. I get a grip and hold it under the waves, it struggles, I feel very uncomfortable about this as it looks like a human, it turns red, and becomes bloated and drowns and dies, the guy is which me and says "oh man do you think it was a real baby?" I say no, turn it upside down, it is a hollow plastic shell, empty inside except for some straps rolled up and taped against the insides, on the outer rim the words "Human Con" is written in small letters ("human container?"). I say "if this was real, there would be a stomach, heart, lungs, etc. in here".

+ ice skating rink: race (did I participate? I think I could do OK), following girl going counter-clockwise, doing front-crossovers, I'm on hockey skates, girl likes the center ice because it is smooth, it's for figure skating practice.

WBTB, long BTS, much day dreaming, find determination to sleep/dream more, eventually fall back asleep.

+ FA LD#155 I find myself awake in bed feeling frisky and "ready for action", so I turn to wife and start initiating contact, she seems receptive and we start embracing. Then I notice that across the living room out the window and into the neighboring house there is a figure standing at a window behind a thin curtain I think he's watching us, and very well may see us. So I get up and walk to the wall and close the curtains (the guy turns away as I do this?), return to bed (glimpse of other people walking in other rooms of our house?). I notice that there is a short curtain that has partially closed over the front of the TV set as well and think this is funny/interesting (it's in "solidarity" with the other curtain I just closed). My wife is then up and at the sliding glass door and lets in a little dog, she says something about someone bringing it for us, little dog comes running in, it's supposed to be just like our [deceased] dog L, he lifts his leg and pees on a scooter leaning against the wall near the bed. I think to myself, "now, if that dog looked more like 'L', I'd have to do a reality check!", I do a few nose pinches anyway, determine I can breathe, and get lucid. I immediately head out the sliding glass door to the garden and look around. I immediately see large rock formations against the back of the garden fence. They're very impressive. It is bright daylight outside. I walk to the center of the rectangular back yard, noticing all the stuff lying around, and remember my desire to narrate during LDs. I slow down and pay attention, and I start hearing birds chirping, it sounds and looks and feels *just like* a typical suburban garden. I start saying out loud what I see, "my old red/white/blue basketball [lying on the ground among the wood chips], a lovely BBQ, [turn around look behind me] pink flowers [like lilies, cone shaped] growing in a bush", I see a basketball hoop above the flowers. There is so much to see in this garden, if I narrate everything it will take the whole dream?! I see my wife walking ahead of me in the garden, still feel frisky, should I have sex with her? Decide: no.

I raise my eyes beyond the garden and see a neighboring house a ways across the hill, super tall (5-6 stories) and non-level sloping roof line sloping up from left [low] to right [higher]. I want to fly up to the roof of that house. I push off against the ground and aim my intention at the top of the roof. But instead, I go straight up very high into the air, several times higher than the roof of the neighbor house. I lose speed and start falling back down, and aim myself to the roof of the house and land there. It is a rich house with lots of security. I want to enter (there are hot girls in there?). The lock on the door seems like a game: you have to request something, do a quest, and return with the answer in order to get in, I think "screw that" and make a "throw away" gesture with my right arm and the door is ripped off its hinges. Inside, video game looking vague bad guys are shooting rifles/guns at me. I run through the hallway straight ahead, making squeezing gestures with my fists and they all "pop" and disappear. Then I know I have to face the boss of the place.

(discontinuity? Loss of lucidity)

I turn round a tight corner and enter a very small (one-two person) elevator, I know there's a girl there? There is, and I'm very excited at the prospect of making out with her. She is a petite "hostess" emo girl, not super pretty, with hair hanging down in front of her eyes. She seems annoyed/not welcoming attention. I face her and brush the hair off her face, she's wearing dark red lipstick and has a small mouth. She asks "How long will you want me for/will you be here?" She says that she was with a new customer "and [she] can make a lot of money." I take her in my arms and her whole body is trembling. I understand that the manager sent her to me, but that this interrupted her visit with another customer, I say "you're trembling, are you angry that you were interrupted?", (she indicates yes?), I talk to her and soothe her, tell her it's OK I don't want to take her from her other customer. I kiss her lightly on the cheek. I realize she's stopped trembling, (I say "see it's better now?"), elevator reaches the top, and I give her a light kiss on the lips, we go our separate ways. If the manager sees we're not together, he may get angry with her and she'd have to bring him to me, if that happens, I wonder if I should say she ditched me? No, won't do that.

Turn around, pass a manager telling waiter next to the kitchen to stop giving out breakfast menus (I see the pile and think I should take one because I want an omlet, but don't), keep going, enter large area (bowling alley?), just before I turn the corner I hear my instrument playing warm-ups, uh oh is it a rehearsal? I don't want to go, I'll tell them my instrument is in for repairs ["remember" this as being true anyway], sit down with group at a table, young guy waiter taking orders, look at menu seems to be pictures of burgers, I ask if breakfast is still available (I want that omelet!), he leaves to ask goes around corner, I say "bet he won't be back for 20 minutes". Briefly see plate of burger and fries on the table (then why did they order if they already have food?)

multiple sleep interruptions: loud street cleaning car at 5:30am, family drama call to my wife at 6:30am [I just got up for a couple hours] , alarm at 9:30. I slept until 2pm.

+ LD#154 in car [current country], traffic, side gate with official side traffic coming in, get past, walking, see kids coming down sidewalk to corner, one of them says to me "Hi, <….> [some strange name starting with W: Warner?]", I look at him his face changes getting older, he's a redhead. Later on short sexy moment and a lucid moment.

+ indoor area, see woman talking to girl with very long somewhat disheveled platinum blonde dreadlocks. Then sexy time encounter with the girl bent over something, some dirty talk. Then she mentions an "uncomfortable situation," we appear in my childhood home living room which is decorated for Christmas, I'm with the same girl, we're doing it on a chair she's straddling me, I see my dad sitting across the room on a couch and I guess that's the uncomfortable part as he gets up and walks out, I "fall out" and try to get going again with her as the dream transitions, I have a brief DO view of her, her friend, and a small child in a highchair with dark hair, all just in front of the Christmas tree.

+ very vivid near-lucid moment walking up staircase, moving through spooky deserted attics (I think "this place is creepy"), to find the friendly old librarian who gives me an "ancient scroll?" which is some a rolled-up teletype printout from decades ago, I start to unroll it to read it but she says no read it later, not here.

+ In current home [rare] kitchen, looking out the window, I see a man standing there who's climbed up the wall bit, and is to the side of our kitchen window, looking in. He has pure white hair. He says "I like watching your cat." Then my cat is at the window and pushing through the screen and jumps down outside and runs away with the man. I call to my son to chase them while I keep my eye on them. Then we're all outside chasing and it's now our [deceased] dog we're chasing, and we get him back eventually.

+ Many scenes in a restaurant on multiple levels on a sloping hill
1. Sitting at a table, the waiter is pissed that we didn't tip enough
2. I'm a manager but I'm handing over the baton to somebody?
3. I have a tender moment with the black woman (former lover?) with creepy huge mouth/lips [I'm not scared in the dream] covered in lipstick. She has a daughter who looks just like her whom I see briefly, then I'm having the moment with the woman, I give her a quick light kiss (I see those freaky lips pucker up for me), I say "you have amazing lips", and I tenderly touch her left cheek with my right hand.
4. sexy time boob goosing up the shirt of several different women [unclear]?

+ I feel like I'm constantly returning to and airport and trying to go somewhere. A plane starts to take off, but then the nose points back and and we re-land for some emergency situation.

+ Nightmare dog thing (like fluffy from Harry Potter) with a weird bun nose is sleeping, and (I or some other guy) is trying to slowly and quietly open a package of pudding, but the dog wakes up and starts hanging around threateningly.

+ I'm washing my phone and my tablet computer at a drinking fountain with my wife. I just very briefly put them under the water so they don't get ruined.

Then I'm reading the packaging for a cleaning thing, reading some nonsense chemical name, and I "realize" that this is the same chemical in SOS pads, and the package turns into an SOS pad box. I need to clean an oven with it. Some guy is there saying you'll never get the whole thing clean. I say [in a foreign language], "better than nothing!", he says "yeah, better than nothing."

+ (f) longer dream poorly recalled, culminating in walking in a large open field in the country (with wife?) what was our property, at the finale: standing and observing a creek and the beginnings of a big bridge (we were building?), a huge chunk of concrete on the far bank and some temporary wooden frame

+ ski slope, no snow, met some skier, I work there? climbing up hills, streams of (chopped wood?) flowing down the hills trying to make progress against these, eventually make it to the top of the hill and file a report on my experience.

+ epic: return to former adult home

At the beginning: long sequence in the back yard of my old home, the new owners are away. I need to finish some yard work? I see my old [deceased] dog? At some point: wandering through the house itself, observing things, [inaccurate], interacting with new owners, putting up some sort of infrastructure.

I'm walking towards the house and catch a glimpse of a nail sticking up out of the ground. I return and look closely and there's an entire irregular patch of 1" - 2" nails sticking (point-side up) up out of the ground, and say "you have to be careful here!"

I notice that there are large piles of our former things that we left here. Lots of little knick-knacks and many other items. I look for a box to pile all the stuff in to. It may just be a mess at our new place but the new owners will probably just toss all this stuff out so I should just take it with me. In a shed in the back yard all of our stuff is piled high. I take something from the pile in the middle of the shed and it is my sons old camping sleeping bag. I unpack it from its stuff sack and look at it: it is a dark-colored, mummy-style down sleeping bag. I think about writing an ad for it "almost new, very clean, only used once or twice." I wonder if it is too small for him now.

I'm facing the house yard to my back in the backyard and I take a few steps towards the house and [semi]get the urge to fly. I wonder if I'll be able to fly, and I try to take off and I do fly. I get a big smile on my face as I soar up over the roof of the house and observe the neighborhood from about 30 feet up in the air. As I'm taking off into the sky I think I see the former owners inside the house, along with former colleague GT [company "3"] who catches a glimpse of me as I take off.

From up in the air I see across the street is a middle-aged woman working in her front yard on concrete. I think about swooping down to her and engaging but decide quickly against it (she's not attractive). I fly around for a bit and return to my "current home" which is right next door to our former home [false].

I return then to the former home in order to continue retrieving our personal belongings from the shed in the back yard. I enter the property on the right side yard of the property. The new owner wife and husband are there. I meet the wife first, she's not very friendly, she approaches and says s.l. "after all this time, you're finally coming to meet us?" I ignore the jab and keep greeting them. Meet the husband. I get this idea and say to him, "when it gets hot in summer, we'll sit out on the veranda and drink tall mugs of beer." The wife says s.l. "you can do that on *your* property."

Workmen are hauling our former belongings out of the hut and piling them on the concrete in the side yard. I see some green and a purple yoga mats. I pull those aside since they are expensive. They're going to take all this stuff away.

I'm walking with the husband in the back yard towards the left side yard. I ask him "do you play racquet sports? Like tennis, racquetball?" He says "racquetball." I say "I haven't played racquetball in a long time. Do you play squash?" [No reply?].

My attention is grabbed by the structure that (I?) had begun constructing in the back yard. At some point there was a workman earlier who had come to work on it, and I see that he has completely finished it. Formerly open, he had closed the entire structure with dark square panels that go all the way up to "the roof" [in the back yard!?] closing it off. I say "whoa, he really finished that thing." I was very surprised since I didn't remember it looking that way the last time I looked at it. Other portions are still open. The new owners gets up and tried to look closely at it. I'm trying to point out a particular feature which is right there in front of his face: "to the right….to the left…it's RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYE!"

I turn and look back all over the back yard in the left far corner, seeing the entire back yard and the house. The hard is filled with this rough 2-level structure. I wonder what it's for, you could store things in there but it's not a strong structure, being built of what appear to be bamboo poles and filled in with straw. I say "You could store grass clippings here from mowing the lawn?"

Wake up and get concerned about the time. Indeed it's around 5pm now and I still need to get in a full work day, argh!

quick notes for now, will expand later:

+ fight, two other guys fighting at first, then I join in to help one, but the bad guy then focused on me, we were shooting beams into each other's eyes (?)

+ outside daylight wooded park area, see a large animal about 20 meters away running through the trees to the right, I know it's a very unusual animal for this area, at first I think it's a kangaroo, I'm telling my friends "look! look! A kangaroo". Then it comes back to the left fairly close to us right across from us and it's clearly now a quadruped, almost all white, tall/large. No, I decide now it's a camel, way too big for an alpaca. It comes towards us, I think we must avoid the legs, it could kick us.

I'm then surrounded by 3 large white animals, and of them picks me up and places me on its back, I'm waiting/wondering if some friends will join me to go somewhere

+ (LD #151) wandering streets of SF, see GGB in the distance above buildings, know the ocean is beyond it, tall broken pipe blocks the path (women will try to climb),

attack on the witches take two into custody, nobody cares so they escape, get lucid, summon immobilization rings with the help of my sidekick [had a name, forgot], return to witch's "coven", high awareness moment, nose pinch again, tell sidekick I'm dreaming, remember to do ~Dreamer~ narration, stop and look around. Amazing vivid "look around" the neighborhood moment, indistinguishable from waking: tall trees swaying in the wind, buildings lining the wide streets, a few cars driving, 2 mimes leaning up against a restaurant's front wall , lightsaber magic finger, chop through two small trees, enter coven building, too many women, tell sidekick to prepare his attack and defense spells, decide to infiltrate deeply before attacking, get into the core "class" where black magic is done, see my wife there, stand confused about what to do thinking about telling her to join us to attack until dream slowly fades.