memorable

bedtime, ~10:15pm, yay! finally!
g/f (reading in bed on her phone) woke me mistakenly with sound on phone, boo, this put me off for the whole night. boooo!!!!
around midnight, fell asleep again?
2am woke
awake until 7am!!!!! Up out of bed sitting in other room from 5-6am or so
Felt like my ability to fall asleep was completely broken. I felt the "jerk" of approaching sleep many times but each time I jerked awake. I think this is hyper-alertness from a lot of day work and strong intent. It felt like the time I tried to WILD for 5 nights in a row and eventually lost the ability to fall asleep, with that same sensation of approaching sleep causing an "AHA! DREAM approaching!" reaction, preventing sleep.

+ girl at party, young for me, but I'm close with her, look at her face closely, odd-ish face, not exactly attractive, but I think I'd kiss her. Then she goes around to my back and hugs me from the back, and whispers into my left ear, "I like you....". I answer, "I like you too!" Her father (?) is in the room so I'm inhibited. She's in front of me again and I place my hands on her torso, feel her ribs, she seems a bit scrawny & overly thin.

+ LD #256 In a large, high-ceilinged, dimly lit, white room (more like an empty building with white walls), I'm lookin over my shoulder to the wall to the left of me, I quickly sense dreaming/dream location, not entirely sure yet, but I get up on top of the low solid white wall (it's like stucco) in front of me (like I'm in a loft or higher area above a lower area in front of me) I feel light and "feel like I can fly" so I lean forwards and glide ahead and to the right, and knew I was dreaming. fly through series of crystal-cave like narrow tunnels (little more than body width in diameter) that keep extending into the distance. Fly through areas that keep extending 3-4 times. The visuals are dark gray-scale coloring. lucidity fairly high. play with colors, I declare the "next area will be green" and colors appear in the distance (blue/green). Visuals fade, I expect them to return, and they quickly do, see something in the distance, and approach an area like in a Star Wars game, a section of dark corridor in front of me opening into a small round-ish brightly lit room with equipment, an automated turret or other machinery on the ceiling, that becomes a droid or a stormtrooper as I approach. I pull my lightsaber from my belt (always works! It's always there) and ignite it, get a good solid lightsaber sound, but no visuals [as always]. I will it to be solid and bright, I say or think "be BRIGHTER!" "be BRIGHTER" several times and I get a weak transparent green cylinder to appear. The robot/ trooper approaches, and I wave the lightsaber about to attack, as if I'm slicing it, but it's like a flashlight, no inertia or weight, and I think it's not doing anything. I'm past the trooper and I'm inspecting the surroundings, very detailed and bright, numerous objects are lying about, I move on through this room into an adjoining room, where 3-4 people are sitting / reclining on low chairs or chaise lounges. Some are female and I get the idea for "a bit of fun" (but I want to keep it short and quickly move on, to avoid waking). Visuals are very clear and crisp.

Spoiler for light sexy-time:

I give the one on the right (brunette, mid 30's) a (clothed) quick two-handed goose. left hand on her right breast, feels pliant yet firm. I step back and decide what the heck, and I tell them to show me their breasts,

and I wake up.

+ [vivid, mostly forgotten due to abrupt awakening] another gathering, fairly long, party book, photos & sheets printed, cousin?

meta:
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bedtime: 23:00-30?
waking: 01?
waking: 03?
shocked awake 03:30 neighbor cutting firewood
Not making progress falling asleep , get up & sit in other room.
final waking 08?
Long time recalling dreams
get up: 09?
Fairly tipsy at dinner time, several glasses of wine. Steak & salad for dinner, plus remainder of our desserts (cheesecake and a chocolate cake thing), then our apple pie while watching a video
Watched video before bed

dreams:
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early:
+ motorcycle ride on highway, turn right onto highway, a guy riding a fast (black) motorcycle streaks by me, weaving in and of traffic. I'm riding along and I come up on a guy riding a standard, I like the standard style and think about this. I think it's a Honda, and I'm weaving left and right of him to get a look at the model name on the gas tank but can't quite see it, but I think it's a Honda. The highway veers off to the left and I take the off-ramp to the right, I think I'm heading to city "A" (next to home city of B), the landscape is empty low hills. As I come to a stop sign I try to remember where the breaks are, on the left or the right handle. I remember the right handle, and squeeze the right handle bar break lever and push the right food lever. As I come to a stop I remember at the last minute that I need to downshift to first and quickly push down my left foot on the shift lever and click it a bunch of times to get to first gear. I start again and go slowly, this is not a powerful bike, but I feel like I'm holding up traffic and pull back on the throttle and speed up. The road goes up and to the right, then heads down, these are tight turns, very twisty, and I get the impression this road is not heading to a city but out into the wilderness. I have a feeling that I won't be able to make it back if I continue (I forget I'm on a motorcycle? I'm worried about the uphill portions on the return trip). I stop on a landing and look around, and a guy on a bike zooms approaching from the other direction up the hill, not visible because of the sharp elevation change, and jumps into my vision in the air and continues off, from my right to my left. I look around and see vague collections of orange-ish blurry dots in the distance. All around, spread out among the hills all around me, I think these are camp fires.

+ I'm playing basketball. I can't make a shot, and even layups won't go in. I'm playing with a cabbage instead of a basketball? I can't even make a simple layup. My opponents are goaltending and just blocking all my shots, really dominating me. The cabbate is in a large bucket of water/brine and a big leaf separates from the head and floats in the water.

later:
+ [epic, long, vivid, fairly present, two lucid moments]: I arrive to a new job at company N, I'm really happy and proud to be here. I'm walking in the corridor between cubicles in a large indoor office space. I show off my new badge on my right hip one of those id badge roller things. It is a sort of brownish mottled looking design without a picture, I think it's just a temporary badge. I soon come to a cubicle where a young guy is, blonde hair, (name of "Claus?"), I have a long technical conversation with him about the C model he's been working on (for 3 years?), he's finishing up this work.

I walk about some more, I see boyhood best friend MR and my mom approaching me down a corridor between offices (the wall) on the left and cubes on the right, there are people in front of them and I try to catch their eyes from a distance. I feel like MR meets my eyes and that we will have a mutual recognition, but it will be a surprise for him. My mom comforts a woman in front of her, a widower who lost her husband recently, my mom hugs her from the back but the woman doesn't want the comfort and shakes her off, the woman has a very pinched, bird-like face, it's an old, wrinkled face, 80+ years old. Her husband, someones [narrator?] says [or I remember?], was the man who saved Ev.McW.'s father [boy scout friend] [false].

Walking among the cubes, I see a tray of cookies, and I pick one up and take it with me and eat it. It is a medium size, circular, with a moist chocolate filling center, and surrounded by a ring (about 1/4 inch) of sprinkled seeds like sesame seeds.
I come across a guy and see his face clearly. At first I think it is RoWh, but Rob was fairly fat and this guy is thin. He's standing facing me, and I'm looking close at his face trying to place him. I say "I'm sure I've worked with you before." He and some other woman comment on the "tatoo" on my lip and this confuses me. They're talking about the cookie crumbles on my face and I'm a bit ashamed of this. Standing among the cubes, these people are now in their cubes and are wearing masks. I say that "I've been away from the workplace so long that I forgot that people wear masks now," and I'm concerned about the fact that I forgot to bring a mask and wonder where I'll get one.

I'm wondering now about the day's schedule, and if there will be an orientation. I find (or she finds me) my HR person managing my first day and she hands me a schedule. I look at it and see a number of hand written notes, and think the first entry is about 2pm, and I feel relief that I haven't missed anything because it must be far from 2pm still.

The HR lady brings me to a demonstration that a team is putting on on an open floor area. There are tons of little lego pieces spread evenly out over about a 1-square meter area. I step over this and try to avoid stepping on any of the pieces. The word "minefield" is spoken by somebody behind me. The demonstration begins, and little active "AI" pieces that look like flies, with ltitle moving legs, are gathering all the loose pieces together into a single flat area/pile so that there is no space left. This is using AI technology. That's the whole point: to gather up the pieces and bring them all together into an area with no space between them. The HR lady is also watching, she's wearing a white tank top and shorts, and she squats with with her knees out widely to watch the AI presentation.

+ [different scene?] I'm in mall walking among stores. I'm nose pinching to determine if I'm dreaming. The air seems blocked, but not completely. I can't tell if I'm dreaming or not. I keep repeating the nose pinch 3, 4, 5 times. Each time it seems like some air gets out but it's not flowing easily like it should. I concentrate on the feeling of my fingers on my nose, and it feels completely solid like a waking nose. I know that the nose pinch in a dream should feel like my airway is not connected to my dream body nose, but it seems in this case that it is. Unclear results of the RC [but I'm counting this!]

+ [back to the work dream] It's time for lunch now for the new hires, mingling with the employees. Standing in some corridor among the cubes, leaning up against a wall on a corner between hallways. The cost of lunch is $1.75. I'm not sure if the new hires are supposed to pay or not. I bring out my wallet and prepare three $1 bills. I'm trying to be coy about this and get somebody to say "no no new hires don't need to pay." A very large (tall and wide) screen across the open area on a far wall is displaying the two major lunch groups, with the names of long-time employees [so we can decide which group we want to be in?]. I go in. I see meet a guy I think I may know. He shakes my hand. He makes a gesture like "woah, your hand used to be all the way out here when you shaked before, you've lost a lot of weight." And then Ne.McK. (grad school friend) is there, I recognize him, he pulls up his shirt to show his abdomen, that he's lost weight, too.

I'm now thinking about someone else I knew, Jo.Sa. from high school. I can imagine his face, but have forgotten his last name. I think he's a colleague here, too. I'm wracking my brains trying to remember his first name, even though I know he worked at company A [true], he works at this company N now I think? I finally "remember" his last name, "PUSHKIN!" I exclaim. I ask the guys "hey, does he have Russian roots?" They say yes, "his family were landholders." I am excited to learn this information, and pump my first in the air and exclaim "Yes!"

+ I'm standing [still at work] at a printer(?) station. There is a young woman there, and a colorful scene/patch of sky across from me even though there's no window, and I'm looking at the quality of the colors and the clarity of her face, because I know it's a dream, and I want to examine how things look and feel in a dream.

[wake]

+ I'm in a vague indoor area with slanted floors on different levels. I'm carrying something and I put in in a shopping cart to bring it along with me. My old boss from comany P (in NY) is there, riffing on a guitar. He's quite good and the music is interesting. I think he's going to come with me on my walk through these rooms and he'll keep playing his guitar.

2020-01-21
+ [long, vivid, near epic level] at home with the Gl gaggle in their huge new house, exploring inside, outside, breakfast, meeting with them in different rooms, life in the outdoor pond (fish, crabs, crayfish)

Outside a home among the pines, I'm with AmGlsn talking to her, (I'm congratulating her on the home purchase?) It's located along a main road (heading to lake Tahoe?). I see the house -- it is very large, maybe two-story building with blue tinted glass windows. I think I recognize the building as being built on the site of a gas station I remembered my family would stop at on the way to Tahoe [false]. I walk up to the building and see what used to be a central gas pumping island (dark army green?). Then I'm inside the home looking around. One of the rooms is a tiny-closet sized barely large enough to walk into and turn around. I think this is strange room. Outside, people are sitting down on a terrace and eating breakfast, there are several groups of people. I look out beyond to the lush vegetation beyond the terrace. [I see an alligator?]

I go walking through the plants and come to a large pond area surrounded by a tall concrete fence. JsGlsn [father] is there doing some work inside a small door opening into the concrete fence, and I imagine he's going to be crawling through this tunnel. Then JsGlsn and I are standing on a board floating in the pond. I look down through the completely clear/transparent water and see creatures/fish there [DREAM SIGN]. I think I see a crayfish. Then the board moves and reveals a very large collection of crayfish, fish, and other creatures crawling around.

I'm back in the house sitting at a table with AmGlsn and some of the kids. I see her face, it is quite odd with strange teeth. The kids are playing some games or doing some crafts. Later, I'm sitting at a piano and playing some pieces I know.

2020-01-24
+ our car is pranked on Ced st. in B by the large groups of Halloween pranksters. We're driving towards Shtk away from the hills. They are throwing water balloons, and a water balloon ends up going through the sunroof and into our car. I'm FURIOUS and yell at the pranksters; friend MkRb sniffs the privates of the knitted animal; cousins on the way back up Ced; our car is driving on high sidewalks on Spr st., heading towards GrzPk, I'm concerned about the car being on the sidewalk. We reach a dead end which is a tiny cul-de-sac with very high (15 feet) concrete walls all around -- we can ago no further. I climb the fence and look over it to see how we can continue. A guard dog races towards me and morphs into an attack woman. I'm walking on the other side of the block moving on and the woman morphs to small girl and we walk in to a Chinese restaurant. We are seated at the table, and the girl across from me finds a fly in her milkshake, the waiter comes by, and she shows it to him, it's fairly larage. The waiter then gives us a demonstration of a freezer at the table, he is messing around with stuff inside it showing it to us.

2020-01-27
+ The Tale of "Mair Baku" -- a Welsh aristocracy party: inside a super swanky castle environment, I decide to go to the billiards room. There is a large pitcher of a beverage on a table insdie. I watch the game on the odd billiard table: when a ball is struck, it doesn't roll, but instead the entire felt of the table scrolls and pulls the ball along with it, I think this is an interesting way for a pool table to work. The balls themselves are misshapen ceramic lumps (kind of like raw unwashed beets).

There is a hall where a young woman is dressed in a wedding gown and a photographer is taking her picture. The whole scene is very fancy and I imagine that this is all taking place in a story called "The Tale of Mair Baku" where "Mair" means some Welsh land-holding and "Baku" is its name. I see this text (on the wall? floating in the air?) written in very swoopy ornate cursive.

Outside there is a large courtyard with farm-like stalls (with animals?) there are various rooms in the building across the courtyard with various diversions but I decide not to get involved in any of them.

I'm outside the castle moving around and looking at the castle from outside -- it is very large with a high wall with a walkway on top. I imagine that a burglar could move along that walkway and perhaps kidnap a child from within the castle.

I have a sort of overhead map now of the area and I'm heading for a break in the building and moving towards what looks like a coast/beach with a river. It seems to be a very steep slope up to (down from?) the sand to the water. Walking along the water's edge among tall palm trees, I look back to see a man with a dog is walking behind me, they walk past me without taking notice.

I decide to take off flying. I want to gain altitude, but I'm hovering and not going very far up. The sky above me is a clear, pure blue. I think of flying iron-man-style (with rocket propulsion coming out of my feet and hands), and eventually this takes root and I gain a lot of altitude quickly. I think "there, it finally worked."

From the sky, in the distance, I see a public swimming facility. I imagine there may be some nice bikini-watching opportunities so I fly down there. I land in the water and engage briefly with a young woman there, then wake up.

2020-02-02
+ swamp escape: [Disembodied Observer] following flight of young man through a swampy river. He runs away into the river to get away from somebody/thing, the water is a bright green. He makes some comment [Forgotten] about there being vegetation in the water and I look and see that he's talking about a very large, dense collection of seaweed-like plants there that he must get through. Moving down the waterway, there are living spaces placed on top of huge (several meters in diameter) old ancient tree stumps that are about 15 feet high: I look at one as I drift by and see an informal hut-style home build there. Some people are pounding on large dead logs of fallen trees in the middle of the river, I think they use these for their building materials.

WBTB
[super vivid/present, alternate life level immersion]

Spoiler for some light sexy-time:

+in room on bed, there are several YW there, I'm in front of one who is naked and I see her <ahem> up close. She is talking about it with the other YW on the bed, is joking about it, and saying that it's a kind of funny shape and she can flex it to be non-symmetric. I'm looking at it and think it's cute and not weird at all. I give her some oral attention. I want to go somewhere private with her, I see that there is a bathroom with a shower off to the side of the room and suggest we go there. She objects: "You'll finish fast in there, but I'll take a long time!" I answer that I will give her all the proper attention and reach down with a hand and see her butt covered with panties and grab and give her <ahem> a good rub through the panties to emphasize my point.

I look around the room and see that there are a lot of people here and think/say this. There are too many and I want privacy. I get up from the bed and walk into the center of the room where most of the people are standing around a tall round-ish table with food on top of it (a buffet). I'm thinking I want to go to a hotel with the girl and will invite her to do so.

Standing at the table looking at the food I feel something under my right elbow and look down an see a little girl with medium long hair has put her head under my elbow, she is funny/cute and I (muss her hair?) and move my attention back to the table. I see and pick up a small Indian pakora of some kind and eat it, it has a bitter taste.

I walk around the table clockwise to the left and notice the room has tall windows and bright sunlight is streaming in and lighting up the (women?) who are sitting on chairs right in front of the window and between the table and the window. I'm thinking about a class and a reading assignment, I think I should be doing the reading.

My attention is squarely on the table now and I'm trying to find the tasty stuff. There are various hot dishes (rice, other unknown things) in covered dishes/trays. I move back to the right and have to walk around a rather fat woman and her large butt, she is leaned over the table also looking for tasty things. I spontaneously start singing Arthur's Theme (Christopher Cross) and hear the piece playing. The woman (and some of the others?) starts to sing along and I find this amusing, then wake up...

@~4 hours?
+ B Burglary: I'm walking down my driveway at CH and see the garage door is ajar, I go in and through the door from the garage into the house. Did I leave the doors open? We may have been robbed! On the top of the stairs I look in and my fears are realized: where the washer and dryer used to be in the back porch (before they were moved in WL to the garage), there are only two large vacant squares on the ground. I move through the first floor of the house and all the large items (chests of drawers) are all gone -- some burglar has cleaned us out! I call the police from the hallway intersection between the back porch/dining room/front entry, something about it's pointless? I see a large pitcher of orange juice?

Then I'm (sitting on the floor) in the dining room (on the deck side of the dining table) facing the kitchen, a portly cop is standing by the entrance to the kitchen, and my BF MkRbk is sitting at the table. I see one of the burglars hiding behind some curtains immediately next to the cop, and a second burglar is behind a chest of drawers on my left. I start frantically miming to the cop and pointing without wanting to say anything to give away the fact that I see the burglars, trying to get him to see them. The burglar to my left is now standing by MR right by the cop, M slowly (too slowly for my taste) grabs him, I yell at him "grab him around the neck!". Both burglars have very large knives (switch-blades?), the left burglar in his hand, and the right one on his belt at his hip. I reach for the knife of the left burglar hoping to grab it before he can use it on the cop. I take it (it's large, about a foot long) and hand it to the cop.

The burglars have been apprehended and I'm standing looking closely at the face of the right one, he's quite young. I say SL "It's easy to go around looking for houses that have been left open, eh?" He doesn't really answer but makes some sort of grunt in response.

@~6 hrs
+ (f) Animal man: [part of story forgotten?) There is a guy who raises sheep, chickens, etc. I see the animals, it's an outdoor scene, (the animals are walking around between abandoned cars?)

@~8 hrs, final waking:
+ Hired&Fired: I'm doing (something?), I'm called in to my manager's office (sort of a tiny little separate house), he's my friend CrgLe from college, and there's some other guy there (his assistant?). C tells me I've been summoned to HR/management.
I'm then sitting in a chair with HR and management. They're already firing me, after just having recently hired me. They hand me a folder with the severance package in it. I open it and see a dark/black hard-to-read document with some numbers written on it, compensation for the firing. Executive says (something)? [Dialogue forgotten]. This meeting lasts a while.
I'm wondering if I'll be able to sell all the stock I was promised, or if I'm going to lose it. I think I might be able to still sell it. I'm go back to my manager's little house office. He is alone there. I ask him about the stock. He says "you should get out of here, before [the executive] sees you!" He fired all these people and doesn't want to see any of them.

+ Peaches: outdoor picnic-type table scene with people. I see a group in front of me. RbWhlr has brought a platter piled high (1 foot at least) with thick slices of peaches. These look good and even though I'm not really part of the group, I lean forwards and take a thick slice off of the plate. RW says ST. I look at the slice -- it's not just a peach, it's more an amalgam of dried fruit and chopped nuts.

+ Skiing/Pteradactyl Tree: I'm at the top of a ski run on a snowy mountain, I'm skiing with (EW?). A ski resort employee off to the left says something. We start skiing down the hill. We are carving left and right on a relatively wide, flat slope. EW demonstrates how, if you're not careful, you might accidentally spin 180 and start skiing backwards, out of control, she does this. We're progressing down the slope. It's important (she says, or I think?) not to let your skiis go straight, or you will pick up dangerous speed very rapidly. This happens to me, but I get it under control. There are steep cliffs on either side of us. The slope levels out to a flatter area and I say "Hey it's good that it's more level here". We ski up to drop-offs but avoid them. There is another really big cliff coming up, it is marked with a sign, and there is a resort employee sitting there, too. There is some strange object, like a bunch of iron-man-style ski boots stacked up on the ground with sharp, angular protrusions. I notice a stone stairway leading down the hill, and I imagine that skiiers use this to climb up to the cliff area. The stairway has no snow on it.

I look around and take notice that the ski resort stone structures on the ground look artificial -- it's like the entirely mountain we're skiing on (which now seems to be mostly lacking in snow) has been modified by man to make it a better skiing mountain. I raise my gaze up and look at the surrounding (natural) mountains in the distance, which have patches of snow on them. I'm looking up at a nearby neighboring really tall peak and am searching for signs of the "Pteradactyl Tree," I see some very large trees, but at the top of that peak I finally see the Pteradactyl tree itself with a large man-made stone foundation at its base.

My view of the PT is closer, and I see two circling pteradactyls flying in the air -- they are artificial (like stuffed animals) and I think very furry. I'm pointing these out to my mother, (dialogue forgotten). I'm in an elevator with my sister, and she makes a comment about wanting chips and I think about melted nacho cheese. There is a PT staff member man there in the elevator.

Then there's a scene of a musical performance put on by the staff: that man, and a woman are the star perfomers. The woman is singing (not all that well) a song and doing a dance, moving towards me then away from me, and she is trying to hit a high note in the song that is normally sung by the man, she's trying to give a demonstration of how well she can sing, but I think the has done a pretty bad job of it.

Then I'm in an after-show-party area, with a variety of long tables set with large cocktail glasses (white tablecloth?). They are starting to serve the cocktails, something fruity with ice in the classes. I surreptitiously drink one cocktail down completely and am thinking how I'm going to get even more from the serving, as if I had not drunk at all. At that point an old work colleague Matt (last name?) comes in and they head to a side table and they've managed to acquire a bunch of the pizza and drinks the staff were going to serve. He comes over to me and he starts to roll up and stuff this very large pizza into my very large cocktail glass. But then he (or a person next to me) says "people who like pizza like it flat, not all rolled up."

early:
+ guy standing under a tree with a car up in the branches which falls and hits the ground near him, and I laugh saying "you have to learn how to pay attention!" and I show him how to pay attention to what's around me and I see lots of little baby owls up on a ledge on a wall nearby

+ standing in home looking outside at the street through a window and I see a brigade of foreign-looking workers arrive and set up what I think is a fake construction project. I think it's a front for burglary. I panic and knew I should have kept the phone number of the security team nearby for exactly such a circumstance, I'm so nervous I can't figure out where it is or how to call them. Later walking outside along a road in between fenced properties.

later:
+ at the river (with wife), is that a stone sticking up out the water? no, it's a fish fin, large round ball-shaped fish, jumps out, swallows my hand, it deflates like an empty plastic bag. There's another one in the water swimming near the shore. See more fish swimming in the river, like trout. I'm holding a fishing rod and I realize I've caught a beaver! I try to reel it in. Then it's on the bank with me and I call to (my wife?) to say how we could study the beaver's habits like how it builds dams.

+ at dinner (restaurant) table sitting next to Mr. R--d (scoutmaster), who concludes "...and so that's why prison is the best environment for me." The food he orders comes... it's chicken wings and onion rings and I'm disappointed. I want to order something. I'm trying to describe a food I want to order like a chicken pot pie.

+ flying DO (with wife?) over houses, looking down on them, see that the residents are not there and that there are open doors I think we could enter that property. Flying on the way back there's an open refrigerator with food particles strewn all about, "what a mess" I think.

+ a bunch of guys in superman costumes standing on a sort of ledge suffering through an unpleasant outdoor group exercise program led by a hot young woman. They all misunderstood because the title of the exercise class had the word "sex" in it. I save the day and encourage everyone to continue and the instructor's mood picks up and continues the class.

+ There are large/funny groundhogs popping up out of holes. Something about an old car? I see a bow-hunting warrior princess and I try to run away from her down a side road but she comes after and chases me. I pull out a knife on her and she laughs because it's so small. I join in and laugh with her about the knife being really puny. Then I pull out a nice long blade and whack it against her bicycle tires.

+ standing in my home looking out a window at the road, and I realize with surprise that I'm seeing a large school yard across the road full of young students playing. I think that I'm only seeing this for the first time because we just recently cut down all the trees lining my property and now the schoolyard is exposed. There is a particularly well-developed young woman in the group walking from right to left and I'm trying to check her out but something is getting in the way.

+ at a home, with kids and wife, the kids are going somewhere with wife, and wife chastises me saying "you have to help cleaning up". "Of course," I answer, and look forlornly around at the tremendous mess in the house, mostly large piles of Lego pieces strewn all over the place.

+ pondering fruit (apples in particular), on trees, pear,pick it, need to wash it, outside CH, pull the water hose to me with TK, wash stuff, the big pile of money on the neighbor's fence gets wet and knocked down, I goto mom asking hey can you keep this who's is it?

+ in old CA home, S1's room, S1 small is there, room is rearranged, I take him on my lap and I ask him if he likes his new room and he says yes. There are pencil drawings on the floor near the wall. In hallway bathroom I look around a long time. It is filthy. Dirt and grime everywhere. I say I need to clean it. Head down on the floor, there are piles of dirt everywhere. I see two hamsters who have come to live there, then 4 hamsters, then a couple of hedgehogs. [visually vivid, present]

+ in bed with [deceased] wife, she was just away for the summer. How will I explain this to my g/f? This means I won't ever see g/f again, or it will be very rare, I certainly won't be able to stay overnight. Wife starts yelling at me about something and I get up and leave the room. I try to remember how I met g/f then finally remember [emotionally vivid, present]

+ in some back yard playing with model planes with g/f, she flies it expertly and I take a turn at the controls and it barely moves for me, I'm ecstatic when I get it to the elevation of a table top . The engine sounds like a gas lawnmower. [present](edited)
+ at a flea market, I'm at a table and a man instructs me to purchase the cover to Ronald Reagan's diary. In another moment of deja vu I think this is the 2nd time I'm seeing the cover but the first time was black and white and this time it's in color. I'm searching for his signature on the front of the cover, and finally find it. There are many other signatures on the cover, I think these are from his relatives and teachers, couselors, etc. I note it is indeed an empty hardback cover: there is no diary inside, and that it was taken out because it was much more valuable than the cover. I'm thinking the objects that I've purchased I intend to resell, but I'm not sure how much I can get for them.

+ [DO - disembodied observer] it is a deathmatch race, a huge red truck is coming down the hill and making a turn, and does something so that the surrounding cars all to flips and explode, but a small red race car makes it through the pack and slams into the big truck, I see metal fenders on both vehicles are getting crumpled, then a guy in an "iron man" suit jumps out of the big truck and directly challenges the little car, grabbing it by the front and s
+ at some competition. I'm raiding an enemy team, I forcibly take the (vinly record?) from them, but it turns out to have been a redirection and they have made a move for the record player. I get there in time before they can turn it on to play the record. I keep it in my hand and encounter the referee of the match and he tells me to (throw it down to the ground?) I then float over my team's table where we're assembling intricate electronic components.

+ sitting down at the table of a group dinner party. This is a room separate from the others, everyone at the table is a stranger except my g/f is sitting next to me (to my left). I have a moment of deja vu as I see the woman to her left sitting down and think "that's the time when she sat there," and I think that the people here at the table do want to sit close, so as to be able to join in the conversation . I say to the table about how we have our own private room. Then it comes time to go outside (in our swim suits?), and my g/f appears standing next to me in skimpy underwear, the guys's eyes at the table bug out looking at her. Someone comments "she's naked, she doesn't have a swim suit!" Outside peope are also sitting at tables and a young boy complains to me that he got put at the old folks' table, and he's going to be bored.
pretty good night, woke a lot

bedtime finally not atrocious: head hit the pillow at 00:40. Some intention setting and affirmations before bed.

Lots of dreams. Probably more that noted here, no recording until final waking, and epics tend to obliterate earlier dreams. 18 minutes of voice notes!

early:

Quick notes:

+ rental car, mustang, white doors closing, keys (could steal), dealer, "not too overpowered", (shakes his head), I think I could gun it later.

+ [semi-epic] at guy's house, dog holding ear, nanny & girl (?), in house alone, semis entering his garage, police come, "he was going to murder you in one hour"

+ police on streets on hill: look down, swanky party busted by cops; indoors, leading regent gives speech, appoints new chancellor of University: JH (boy scouts, frizzy hair): grizzled, old, red eyes, he can barely talk, he makes no sense, I feel sorry for him

+ DO: watching video of ME at (high school graduation?): who filmed me? View fully zoomed and centered on my face: tears are streaming down my eyes. I'm singing along with the other students: (national anthem?) no sound: my eyes are doing weird things, like rolling back in my head, I'm really embarrassed, I didn't know that I was being filmed.

+ football scrimmage, "C vs. C" overhead view: lots of laterals, tackling.

later:

+ [semi-epic] in my "kitchen": burger meal on plate, big crowd of guests appear, can't eat now, make tea for everyone, boil water, girl talks about helping her learn how to catch balls, back in kitchen burger is still on plate, but fries/side dishes are gone burger is alone, I sneak a quick, big bite of it stuffing it into my mouth, guy friend walks up just then, great I think, just as I bite, I look for tea in the cabinets, open cabinet and many colorful packages, take out two fancy tea packs: one on right has white flakes in it, lots of dried fruit?, pack on left is dark red/brown pieces of tea like roiboos.

+ [semi-epic] at the theater: I'm in balcony, leaning over railing to the right and talking to a girl and a guy on ground floor, discussion of school, I start to say "enjoy your final years of school" but realize I don't know how many years she has left or is graduating, girl says something like "(help me?) and I'll give her to you (girl sitting behind me?) the play begins I decline I lift my left arm and put it around my (date? wife?) on my left she leans in puts her head against mine, attention moves to the stage:

Guy from former work [N] has thinning hair is acting on stage, he's with another guy, there's a fight, one guy really slugs the other one on the back/shoulder and the hit guy's body tremors. One guy produces bills ($50 / $100 / $200) the $200 one (close up) I know is fake, it has some random guy's picture on it, it's pretty funny though. Then the guy and girl I was talking to earlier are on center stage and the guy produces some blue windex-looking stuff

+ On U lake in boat, wind, calm behind Rt island, I think I haven't been here a long time and want to next time take the boats to the island, study Rt island closely, it is not quite right, too many trees and there are other little rocks in the water

Horrendous bed-time but I could sleep in. WBTB when son called from school in the morning and needed me to help him with something. That was about 6 hrs into the night. At 7 hrs I was really drowsy and decided to try for BTS and a WILD attempt. Early vivid dreams, too, around 4-5 hours probably.

+ playing concert, girls who are mocking me and following me, I take off my shirt and know that people have come to see me. I'm looking at my sheet music and I see the notes but it's not the piece I wanted to play. Back in "our house" with family I get a paper that my contributions have raised $12,000 for the organization, people really love to come and see me play.

+ I'm walking up to "my house" (PTL), there is a small trickle of water running down the street that is a "T" meeting the one I'm walking along. Two guys in boats, one in a canoe, and another in a boat, are some how travelling in their boats in this small trickle. I "know" them. I tell them "oh man, if I knew that I could ride a canoe here, I would have".
Inside the garage in the home we're preparing for some work by a contractor/construction guy. The guy is middle-aged and is not wearing a shirt. He's talking about how hard his job is and he's carrying a heavy (door?) on his back. I'm on the landing/steps down from the kitchen into the garage and I move something out of the way (a rug?) and lift up one of the top steps, it's made of wood and seems worn away (rotted?) I'm looking at it and thinking it needs to be replaced, I'm wondering if the contractor can do it.

WBTB - about 1 hour

WILD attempt on my back. For a while I play with visualizing the letters of the alphabet: I find that I can see them when I focus on them!

+(f) I get a short dreamlet/dream that I'm in deep ocean water near a whale (no visuals really), and I'm wondering if I should touch the whale's tail fin, or if that would shock it and would cause it to turn to me and attack/grown me.

+(f) short scene: young Squidward (?) meets old Squidward. Old Squidward is lying in a bed under blankets. He takes off the blankets and it's seen he's wrapped in a bandage in his whole body and he has age-related sores all over the place.

Wake briefly and turn to my right side and fall asleep.

+ (vivid, long) I am visiting HF (local friend) in his house (which is G's house next door neighbors to CH). I'm sitting on the ground, talking with H and a girl is there, I reach out to her playfully but H says that she had an "accident" (day residue) and needs to clean her. I move on to the living room. I look back and notice that H (father) is bottomless and I see his (ahem) briefly, I do a double take on this but think no more about it. An older girl is there in the living room and I'm thinking about (how I can get her to her room?). I say something and we move down the hallway. In this hallway I recognize the architectural layout of the house and realize it is the "G"'s house next to my CH. There is a room there and we go in, now it's a group of young people. I see many objects inside, there are food dishes stored on lit shelves. I remember a glass/dish of small bell peppers (red/yellow/orange). I comment that "this display looks like the dairy section of a grocery store!" and it does.

+ LUCIDD 229 LD#229. I'm (riding in a bus?) with young people, I'm quite happy to find myself surrounded by beautiful girls. (A brief thought of dreaming?). We arrive at our destination. I'm trying to get the attention of/ go with one girl in particular? We're walking up steps cut into the side of a steep hill (earthen). Approaching a right-angle turn in the path leading to the right I notice what appear to be large spider webs on the side (and straight ahead) of the path. I feel that I've walked into a strong strand of spider web I feel it on my forehead, I reach up to break through it but it's pretty strong, this happens a few times. Then I remember that spiders are a dream sign and I reach up for a nose pinch. Result ambiguous, I'm not giving it my full attention. I do it again and there is some leakage of air but I'm not yet convinced. I turn around and face the steep hill going down and decide to test my state by launching myself forwards down the hill and trying to fly. I do this and I'm a bit afraid that I may just be falling. But then I'm sure I'm flying and I'm lucid. I fly down the hill and there's the road at the bottom and I turn to the right and follow the road, flying about 15 feet above it. I'm looking for a girl. I see an unattractive woman below and ignore her. Then I see a young hot jogger heading in the same direction as I'm flying. I try to speed up to reach her, but she's pretty fast. I will myself to fly faster and thrust my fist forwards for speed and I reach her. I land [but don't remember our interaction].

Then I'm in conflict (fight?) with some guy. I don't want to deal with him. I make a gesture to force throw/TK him away. He is unaffected. I turn to him and do it again, again it fails. I think "Oh, great, what is this guy, is he going to hijack my dream?" I turn my back on him and ignore him and move forwards.

On my right side is a tall stone/brick wall. I'm approaching a corner and I form expectation that I'll find a hot girl around the corner. I turn the corner holding this expectation and see one. I see a tall, short-haired, blonde woman (taller than my preference) who is talking on a phone. I move to her immediately and she looks a bit taken aback and I take her in my arms. I notice that her body feels completely solid. She is wearing some white suit. I start kissing her. She has really excellent soft ample lips. I pull back and say "I love you." Some more kissing. I ask her "I want to hear you say it !". She doesn't say anything. I notice her fair is very high def and clear. Move on to sexy time.

Spoiler for sexy time:

I lift her up and put her on a counter and enter her. I want to take a look at the action, my shirt is in the way so I lift it up and get a good view for a second or two, then weird things start happening like her body fades in and out and disappears all the while I'm continuing. I will her to return and she flickers in for a second then disappears, and I look down and I'm going at it with a disembodied vag.

I wake after that and fall back asleep.

+ (fairly long, vivid) I'm in a dorm room of some sort very very wide with a lot of beds in it but not very deep. I'm on my bed which is against one of the side walls of the room. Agirl comes in with a boy and I know she's there to buy drug from him. I wonder at this and think "they're hooking them earlier and earlier." The girl is quite pretty with dark hair. The drug is a sort of lip gloss. I look at her lips and there is a bright, colorful pattern there perhaps like a checkerboard. I want to kiss her to taste the gloss but think I may get in trouble. There is another boy/girl pair like them nearby? Another guy comes in and his hands are covered with the gloss/drug material.

I realize I'm sitting on my bed with lots of young friends, guys and gals, leaning against me and we're all lying in a pile. It's very comfy . I see through the open door some people in the hallway are looking in and I think disapproving. I call out "Hey, this is *my* room and I'm on *my* bed, so I will do a I like!"

A stern matronly woman enters the room. She's not happy that I'm there I believe. The furniture starts getting rearranged (by itself), a bed is removed and a large grey/black couch shift into position next to me. Another piece of furniture arrives. I think she's trying to get rid of me. Then she declared "WHO'S IN CHARGE OF THIS GROUP!?" I know she's talking about me because I'm the oldest here but I do not answer. "GROUP #6 [another group] <is so great, they're doing wonderful..., etc.>".

+ a scene materializes before me, I realize I'm looking at a night time cityscape looking off into the distance. There is a lit, beautiful church in the distance and I see some other shape on the hills in the distance. These are places we're going. I call out to my two male companions that I see the first structure in the shape of a church cross.

Lots of dreams all night long.

+ fighting on a river with a bad guy lobbing "magic?" balls at me

+ yoda overpowers bad thing and traps it in a rock structure and starts crushing the rocks, he stops because he feels bad. I see the (alligator?) evil thing emerge from the rocks

+ little odd beasts rolling on the floor, kicking a tiny "ball" around, for them this invents soccer, I think

+ ping pong [DREAM SIGN] tournament: the net is too high/tall, it's specialized, they are playing with strong spin. I think if I practice this I could play with strong spin, too, and surprise the people who used to beat me

+ in a cage/cell, there are evil black dogs there pulling people out. The dogs or the people when pulled out start to come uravelled like they're made from stacked frames of metal. If you refuse to go out with the dogs, the alternative is that you will have your feet impaled with long iron hot spikes and it will hurt a lot.

+ in the back of a car with girls travelling up the hills to CH, I'm having semi-lucid thoughts, thoughts about dreaming [faceplant!]. Arrive home, there's lots of pizza [DREAM SIGN] around to eat, my wife takes a bite with my fork, I pull my fork back a bit too forcefully/impatiently from her and I think she'll get mad but doesn't.

+ driving on snowy roads, pulling into a forest clearing where a party is happening, rough/tough guys are gathered around and are toasting someone with lots of shots.

+ [fully vivid (awareness, visuals, tactile), long, stable] Walking through corridors with oddly slanted floors, around corners. End up in a room with a girl in bed and ST ensues. She's naked & lying on the bed, I'm kneeling at her head, and I start a long, slow, stable, erotic oral trip from her head and slowly work my way down to her (ahem) and spend some time there. Then I notice that the door to the room is open and there's a girl in the next bedroom (white/blonde hair) just staring at us. I say "I'm sorry, I need to get up and close the door". The peeping Jane doesn't want the door to close, she opens it and now she's sitting at a desk just outside the door to the room. I get angry and go speak to her firmly saying "I'll come talk to you when we're done, but for now LEAVE US ALONE!" and return to the ST girl. She's now fully dressed and wants me to continue, I want to protest and say "but the view is part of the fun!". I say it's time for me to get some attention. The ST girl goes to take a shower. I realize I can't recall taking a shower, I may have a stinky butt & (ahem) so I'd better go take a shower, too. On my way out of the room I spy my things strewn about on the floor and I realize I can't remember where my instrument case is, do I need to go find it? I walk through the oddly slanting and narrow corridors, but all the bathrooms are busy. I come to one room and there's an odd woman there I open the door look in it's not a traditional shower more of a sauna and I go in with quick views of that woman again and I'm trying to wash my butt and I'm digging around in there and I pull out chunks of the typical stuff there and it's really sticky and I'm trying to wash it off of my hands and I'm having a hard time doing that. In the meanwhile there are two girls outside the door which has a window in it not providing for any privacy and I'm now trying to wash my (ahem) but it feels really odd like it's swollen in a strange/bad way and I look down and it does not look or feel familiar: some parts are too large and some parts are too small.

I'm trying to get back to the room and the ST girl so we can continue. I can't find the way back. I'm back outside again in a snowy environment and now I'm walking on top of a snowy hill and I see dad's with kids and the dad's are working with shovels to shape the really hard-packed icy snow into a nice trail for their kids to sled down. I walk around the lip of this hill and find myself drifting backwards through the air, I expect at any moment to hit a tree. Some kids are talking with their dad asking "Will the snow still be here when we get back from Paris?". I'm then standing/climbing up a mountain of toys (hockey games?) which are slipping out from under me as I climb, I catch a glimpse and I realize I'm at a particular intersection of streets a few miles from my CH, I catch a brief glipmse of a park [FALSE] below me down the street. There are some girls here lying down and I goose them a bit and lie on them but I'm focusing on getting back to my beloved original ST girl.

Back in the ST girl hallway again there are people walking past me. One of them I think is her, I can't tell for sure, I look at her face and it's partially familiar, she notices me but walks past me, I take hold of her right arm and turn her towards me and ask, "is it you?" She indicates yes, but says (as means of explanation of why we can't be together), something like "(there is?) a husband". I say "Oh," disappointed, and let her go. I look at her hands as she leaves and I don't see a ring. I realize she probably is referring to the fact that I'm married and I feel a bit guilty.

+ semi-lucid or low-level lucid: on deck of CH with (younger) kids: I'm doing nose pinch after nose pinch and don't understand why I can breathe. I want to fly [DREAM SIGN]. I'm trying to line up enough "runway" on the deck to do a running superman flying take-off. I get arranged but my kids keep getting in my way. I run and take off flying and turn around behind me to look back and see what they think of this, don't remember the rest.

+ Young love: she's lying on top of me with her back to me, our heads are nuzzling, my arms are around her, I remember and say "Oh! I forgot to invite you to Thanksgiving! I don't want to go without you!" She agrees. I'm looking into a closet at an oddly-shaped (pretzel?) hanger.

+ [super vivid] in CH living doom with GF I see through the blinds a rare and beautiful view of Mt. T. covered in snow. I go outside to the deck for a better view but it's blocked by trees, so I put my arms around my GF and prepare to take off flying to get us a better view, but she stops me because she doesn't want me to reveal my ability to fly [DREAM SIGN]. We're saying goodbye inside, and there's a guy friend there too who likes her, and he moves to hug & kiss her, this is not appropriate. I then hug and kiss her for real, it's a very tender moment.

+ I'm naked superman showering (dry with soap) in neighbor's house (garage area of CH) trying to avoid detection, put the soap up on the wooden frame up high and find other bars there, I've apparently done this before. Looking for garden hose to rinse off, I see hoses and faucets but can't find the way to get the water going, see neighbor's hoses go there, up to the street beautiful bright sunny view through the trees, I want to see it better so I take off flying, clear view, (wolf?) shaped green hills/flying mass/cloud(?) in the distance, a bit of air swimming, then willing to fly fast, then try vision-zoom-teleport, doesn't work, but fast flying starts working. Rolling green hills, beautiful views. Land and there are people nearby talking. There are little strange objects like living origami metal Christmas ornaments on the ground, they sort of hop around when I get near them and flip over. I'm concerned my feet in the sand are kicking things?

+ on street outside CH the GF and the male friend are there, there seems to be a beautiful view and I want to take off flying to see it and I take both of them by the hand one in each hand and take off flying into the air. There is a stunning view soon: a church in the distance across some water with golden domes glistening in the sunlight, I practically gasp and say "look at that!". Right below us there is a building: also a church but the domes seem to all be sideways. I land and look down and see a sort of porthole/sunroof circular port that leads into the building and we slide down inside and I know inside is a sort of chamber of horrors with things like freaky skeletons in glass cases and I point these out to the friends. I am holding a "Reepicheep" gauge that measures something (life?). The little Reepicheep on the dial sometimes comes to life and tries to bite the hands of people nearby, it's very vicious. Two guys arrive from the security team of this building, shooting something like but nerf rifles but they recognize me. My friends are running all around the place and the GF comes to me and lies down and asks me something and I give a kind of sexy-nuanced answer while touching her tenderly and she smiles at this.

+ fencing: I'm keeping my sword outstretched with a staight arm and am practicing parrying and riposting but I feel like my ripostes don't have enough reach.

+ meet wife's father as a young man, he's an Imam with an odd mohawk-like hairstyle. He's a very important person here and is directing parking. He grills me: "who gave you the intvitation? Have you finished university? Do you have work?" I answer acceptably and he approves of me. I shake his hand vigorously and say "very nice to meet you!" [in FL]. Lying with people near some stairs I'm in a mummy-bag and stretch my feet and am concerned I knocked something over.

+ on the bus, then flying fast into home I can see from a distance to bed with GF sleeping. I arrive on to bed which is neatly made (with mom?) and wonder if my GF is still here. She wakes up and has bleary slightly bloodshot eyes but is smiling at me. We're in love. I'm so happy to see her, I apologize for being away for so long, she's lying slightly on her side still face down, stretching, I put my arms around her and notice also her well-shaped butt and feel turned on. I ask her "did you have a chance to finish your homework?" She says yes, I'm happy. I ask her "are you going to stay here tonight?" she smiles and says yes and I answer "yay!". My mom has given us some touring materials, and I think about people who like to read these materials, and those who just like to go out and see the places.

Took a big swig of Valerian at bed time. Super tired over a week of little sleep. Didn't recall much throughout the night, until the final dreams of the morning before the (fairly early) alarm hit: a loooooooong epic that just kept going. Fewer points but I like the continuity!

+ dancing competition in class, I do ice skating

+ epic [long, vivid] "The Titanic Crashes in Point, Nevada"
I'm driving a car on the freeway in Nevada with my wife. I point out to here, "see, the hills start here, it looks totally like the moon!" Like I always say with this view:


I come upon a light turning red as I pass through, my wife says "careful!" (we don't want to get a ticket). While driving I switch to an overhead map view, and I get a call from my parents. They say that they have reserved a place for us in Point. I google for it on the map and all I see is a small place marked "Pt." on the map, I think this is a common search term. My mom tells me that it is about the same distance from us that Santa Barbara is from San Diego. I think, wait, that's really far, I don't want to go that far. Then I see an overheat of Point, with a large resort called "Point". It's like I'm now looking at a scale model, and something slips out of place and an old guy puts it back.

Then I'm inside the resort in the dining room. There are people about and we're trying to find the best food. There are pastries on tables. Moving about from room to room, something about a crash?

In airplane-style seating. I have my seat at the right edge of the row against the wall. It's very important to have a seat (or you won't be saved?). I'm thinking a lot about my seat and the # and my ticket. G28? I have a nametag on my shirt with my seat number. A small black boy comes by, he says he's the ticket guy, I'm dubious, I won't want to hand him my ticket because I don't want to lose my seat. I want to just show him a piece of paper from the seat. But then it turns out that I'm in the wrong seat, that I need to switch with some guy a few aisles down, I see that his seat is worse than mine, in the middle of a row. He's happy to improve his seat. In the end he sits back down and there is a liquid chugging sound and it turns out he's on drugs which are hooked up to tube delivery system on the back of his chair, now facing its back to me.

Some people had rushed me earlier, and I think they may have switched my seat number tag. I look down at it and it now says "D30".

Now two pretty girls approach us and want to sit with us even though they don't have tickets for our row. They sit very close, basically on my lap

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

One of them has her hand on my erection through the outside of my pants, she keeps it there for a while. The two girls start making out passionately right in front of me, just inches away, I see them "chewing face" quite clearly, it's very erotic. Then I start moving my hand along one girl's stomach up under her shirt towards her boobs, but I stop myself and think "No, I don't want to be 'that guy', that takes advantage of a girl in need"

Then I'm moving through the ship, we're trying to get out (it has crashed?) the rooms are all at a funny angle, I move past the bridge and the captain's chair out a door to the outside. A senior crew member says something.

Then I'm standing on a hilltop in a desolate area outside, in the distance to the right there is a very high hill, I ask an old guy who's standing there, if it gets snow in the winter, he indicates yes, several feet, and it's good for skiing. Then I see a mountain in front of me to the left of the hill, it's close, huge, craggy, with a tall overhang near the top, and the entire left side is like a vertical jagged razor-sharp edge. I say/think "hah I bet it's impossible to climb that thing!" and then I look and see a trail of climbers on the mountain. They're connected using a buckle to a wire-line placed on the mountain. I/the guy says something about not trusting your life to a buckle.

Standing out in the desolate area, the guy is giving advice about how to survive the cold: you have to just go and find somebody to hook up with and huddle together for warmth. I think I'd much rather find a girl to huddle with but I may need to find a guy.

Then there's an alien sort of bounty/prize hunter there with a Krull-like-glaive "starfish" blade living familiar-thing that he throws at some victim guy.

The victim guy catches it and throws it back at the hunter. The living glaive stops in mid-air, reverses direction back towards the initial victim, and is exposing its teeth how and hits the victim.

Up for about 3 hours.

Nap, "Empty mind" meditation, fall asleep

+ [semi-lucid feeling] strange house. I'm observing a house with strange things in it. I'm simultaneously outside and inside the house, I see that bags/(sheep?) have been piled up against the windows. I'm trying to identify all the weird stuff inside. I eventually go inside an distinctly notice an "animal" smell like this is a room where a pet has stayed for many years. There are DCs here and I'm feeling frisky so I whip it out and wonder which one to approach for some attention, dream fades.

+ son S2 burns the burgers and slops soy sauce all over the floor in a large puddle. I do a double take on the large puddle in the middle of the room. Then I notice the lower oven storage shelf is pulled out and there are 3-4 burnt-looking burgers sizzling there in a sauce that is overflowing the aluminum foil and that's what's causing the puddle on the floor. I say something to son S2 about this mess and he quips a response.

+ [semi-lucid feeling] flying around my CH trying to avoid being seen by a visitor who's just behind me I wonder if I should take off flying, if I can get up over the roof of the house and the tall bushes before he comes around the corner, I decide to do it and I notice that on the street a large truck has parked on our property, completely parked on top of the juniper bushes off of the road, that's quite rude I think, I settle down on my back in the bushes as the guy following me heads for his truck then I think it's not his truck, then he's shining a light down on to me and I think he's found me. Then we're at the neighbor's house right there inspecting some new construction, it's a little work shed, I see inside there is a table with some tools on it, and I see the door which is slightly ajar has a fancy motion detector on it. I'm working with a big glass window to the little work room, there is an odd ball-and-socket connector that I just can't get to snap, the socket keeps pushing away when I press the ball connector into it, and I think that despite having a lot of experience [FALSE] with this connector, it's funny that I can't get it to snap in place. I look to my left and I see the neighbor friend of mine and some unknown girl in between us, dark hair, I look away from her. I hear the voices of the neighbor family talking, I'm thinking that the now-grown children may have moved back home to take care of their mother.

~ 5 hrs

1st half:

+ personal library cabinet, with (girl?), she makes her books appear, than I make my journals appear, I show them off to her, then I see a picture of ex-GF having sex with a black guy the picture is fuzzy, I see this guy sitting on a couch live action, I'm upset about that situation

+ coming up on a raid from behind, it's a raid on us so my move is daring, pretending to become one of the raiders, under a table, then push through, I see that the raiders are zapping our field, and burning all the people in them, totally ruining them. I run through the blockade up the steep hill, see flowers on the ground and signs of mowing, there is movement in the trees I go under trees, a guy says there is a collander hidden in a tree stump and you can use it and it means "termites for dinner!" I imagine catching termites in that thing. I find my old boy scout sierra cup, then another on a well, and I clean off the rust and see my old name tag on the bottom and see an engraving indicating something about brass players and french horns? I drink from the water anticipating a clean, cold fresh water but it has a distinctly unpleasant mineral/salty taste. There is a boy and girl, brother and sister, I want to see them the girl comes to me and says "buenos noches!" and I say it back assuming with an accent, I wonder if I"ll understand her if she keeps speaking Spanish, but she says s.l. "oh your're an american", then I see her mother who looks like her, and something about the mother's boyfriend.

+ coming up on an apartment with a sliding glass door on a street, there is a bustling university to my right with students moving around, in the apartment I'm trying to decide to keep my little stack of 5 grey books on the table there or take it with me, I talk to the guys inside and I'm telling them my plans to return after class, they're upset that it's later than I said before (7? 8?) but I say it will take time for me to get there and return in my car. There is a loud bang and they all freak out and I tease them for being afraid of just a sound.

~ 10 hours

2nd half:

+ club/girl/sidewalk/grieving hot woman, addict stairs halfway house with shivering addicts and socks messy, guy doing better his stack gets knocked over by leader ,guy swears, "ocean 11" presentatation, up on stairwell over pool, watch plane take off then crash on purpose, 2nd guy saw it too, girl's fist hurt dive into pool ot help, say I saw it, CC asks about how to draw a normal curve, we all try to draw one

+ get into SUV, shall I fill tank, yes, so out have to siphon it in, back in see tank is more full, take off road up hill full of bikers pedestrians, going slow, falling over on purpose, get to top start going down, pass two hot girls speaking [foreign language], see another buxom one grab her go down start sex get to bottom she says "time to play nurse" and takes control, puts me on stomach and I look arond to watch she says "no peeking!" and puts something in my butt, I'm upset at the loss of control and conerned that she may break off a thermometer and give me mercury poisoning, her intentions may not be good (upset at me grabbing her?)

+(f) wake in hospital bed to nurse asking about my side, I say it's fine I don't feel anything any more I could turn

+(f) dance competition outside, dancers on left, judges on right, a small girl is trying but dancing poorly

+ sting at the car dealer, criminal boss is caught, undercover agent upset that is cover was blown

+ guy's tv is broken he's furious and starts breaking another guy's flat screen, the stripper girl is preparing "to go upside down and embarass her self in front of (us guys). I'm one of the few guys who will be watching and feel uncomfortable that there are a bunch of other women around who will be watching

+ sick girl, sit her on my lap, he mom near, she has painful varicose veins in leg, feet, "can you walk?", riding in car, her cheeks turn blue/purple, but she says she wants more cold, her nose starts bleeding, we arrive at "stripper park?" it's outside cold, snowy, one dancer goes off to see about getting a ride, girls walking around, one mother playing with her kids, mother is attending to sick girl, kids in doctor cabinets, the mother is the doctor to the sick girl, a boy in another room, a girl in another across teh way, I see a doctor present the findings on a screen, walk down the prominade to a showe area, turn on shower, find soap, start taking shower, noice naked girl on other side of wall, get bold and take a good look at her, get bolder and walk around squeezing through a narrow place get to her,

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

grab her boobs, get concerned about losing the dream and it does fade but I hold on and keep going, begin intercourse (guide with hand, miss at first she flinches then get it right), goes in deep, feel it all the way along, but can only move with hand, try with hips and nothing moves, squeeze her but with right hand, reach it back for breast and now the hand movement is me moving a pipe cleaner through her shoulder blade and coming out her armpit, blood? no the pipecleaner is red, I get really apologetic and say I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to do that, does it hurt? She says no but she wants to get up and take a shower, I say sure, as soon as you (BJ to completion)

, wake.

+ bad lips:
FA? waken? Lying on a sleeping bag/mat on the ground outside at the end of a long road-way? Young boys are running around being loud and I "shush!" them so they don't bother everybody. A girl is brought to us who tells us her story of the lip enhancement surgery that went bad. I can see at first on her face that her lips are large and misshapen, they form a sort of lazy "S" shape on both upper and lower. She wrote a book about her ordeals, the title had the words "boo" and "poo" in it. The more I look at her lips the stranger they become. Now they're more normal shaped but really oversized, and there are regular bumps spread around them, and there are words written on them, (s.l. "life"?) she wrote these words during the operation with the expectation that they would fade in time, but they become permanent.

Later in the dream, there is an explosion (from the use of some hand-held heavy munitions? Like a bazooka?), and the "bad lips" girl's lips explode, as does her stomach. Now her over-large lips are empty hanging bloody meat flaps, as it her stomach.

+(f) I'm lying on a bed in my sister's bedroom in my CH, my young S1 is there as an older toddler, I'm holding him but some force is preventing me from bringing me close to him, I wonder if he will remember this moment later in his life.

+ epic: rotating room [vivid, present, long, recall just medium though, all these scenes are from this dream, I feel]
I walk in off the street to some establishment, a company run by two nerdy guys. (I know them, sort of?) I catch a glimpse of what's going on but I head back out to the street, but I feel a pull to return so I go back inside. I see the guys who run it, and I move towards the back and start to find the rooms. These rooms have groups of people in them, who are sitting and talking, studying, doing things. But the "stage" inside each of these rooms rotates so that the entire room's contents and all the people rotate slowly around in a circle, and colorful lights flash while this happens. I see a guy in one of the larger rooms who I think is CL (college housemate, grad school), I think I haven't seen him in a long time. I'm trying to figure out if it's him.

Lunch line at the cafeteria, is it late? There are dishes on display, they are made from dark-colored rice shaped into mounds. There are 3 variants on the dish all made from the same rice, one is just shape into a log-shape, one is covered with leaves like a tamale, there's another one.

Inside a club, there's a sign, a bunch of people are planning to meet and drink beer, they're gathering and I'm waiting for the people to buy the beer. Seated at the bar, the choices are discussed. There's (chocolate?) beer, and a variant with garlic, but it's root beer not alcoholic beer, and someone mentions that the garlic addition is from the Garlic Festival in Gilroy (CA). There's a really big, fat guy with a bulging naked stomach and I see his arm reaching for things in front of me, I think it takes a lot of overeating to get that fat. His skin is mottled reddish like a red-head.

several sexy scenes:

Spoiler for sexy encounter #1:

I walk up to a girl who's sitting on a stool, and I spread her legs and she's naked and I reach for her (ahem) and spread it open and begin intercourse? sort of vague

Spoiler for sexy encounter #2, explicit:

I'm sitting with my (girlfriend?) on a couch, I begin oral sex on her. She's sitting up on the couch and I'm kneeling in front of her. I focus on her cl!t with my tongue and lips and give her a good tongue-lashing. I see she is getting more excited. As she approaches orgasm she directs me to lick it from the top. I'm going all around it and I see she's approaching orgasm and then she climaxes, and enters the period of over-sensitivity and I stop. I move up to her face and kiss her and she sort of turns away, like she doesn't want to experience her taste on my lips. [This was one of the longest, most stable, and "realistic" sex scenes in recent dream memory, nothing really odd happened and no strange interruptions]

I'm walking through the rooms of this club and looking for a sexual encounter. There are heads of (female sex robots?) lining some shelves and I think about those briefly, there are groups of people around, I find one girl and

Spoiler for sexy encounter #3, explicit:

have her lie down on her back on the ground and get on top of her. I reach down and guide myself into her, insertion is difficult but I manage to begin. After a short while I adjust the position, where I bring my knees up and am half-kneeling still in missionary, this allows me fully deep penetration and the best sensation, it's going well. The girl then says "are you going to pop soon, or are we going to be going at it for a while?" I immediately answer "I'm going to pop soon." Then some woman comes by whom I feel I know and I tell her "I'M BUSY!" She starts talking to me and I repeat again, "I'M BUUUSSYYYY!". Then I realize I've slipped out of the girl I was having sex with, and see I've lost the erection. My (ahem) has become very small, and there is a large bump on the side of it under the foreskin. I pull back the foreskin and see a blister right on the top just a back from the head, I think I got this from all the sex I was just having.

, the dream transitions.

I am "awake", realizing I just woke from a dream, [but I'm still dreaming, but don't realize it fully]. I'm seeing a night-time cityscape in front of me, viewed from a distance as through a window, the buildings are covered with tiny lights that are the lit windows. The shapes of the buildings where they meet the ground is very curvy and organic and alien looking, like the buildings grow from the ground as living things. I think to myself, "where am I? Is this a real city?" I have no idea where I am, so I
open my eyes to see where I am and I see my waking bed-side. ["Oh...", it was a dream vision, I realize.]

I check the clock and see it is about @6 hours. I become very awake. It is hard to get back to sleep, wife is also wakeful and noisy and moving around. I try different relaxation techniques, including all-body scan with relaxation. That helps, I start to lose focus while doing that. Then I work on projecting myself out of my head and body, imagining myself flying around and being not locked into my body. The "locked into the body" and the "grasping mind" are the things I find that keep me awake. Relaxation helps, but turning off that "mind locked into my head" phenomenon is also required in order to fall asleep. I eventually do sleep and have series of more dreams over the next 4-ish hours.

+ I'm in my adult CA PTL home. There are groups of kids with women teachers outside in our back yard. My wife is around. The kids come in and the scene seems to now be in my CH dining room [waking location recognition, not in dream]. There is a cloth work of art on the wall to the left, taking up the whole wall to the ceiling. A (girl?) starts climbing it and I think this will ruin it but it doesn't, she reaches the top and enters some sort of pocket there and falls face-first down to the floor inside the layer of fabric. Some more kids do this after her.

+(f) [from a longer sequence] I'm walking through some doorways, looking for a particular girl, she is some hostess of a company and I need her attention for something? I give her a gift in a box, she opens it and takes it out, it is a lacy/sexy top and bottom, sort of lingerie, but it is made from a bronze metallic rings material and is mostly transparent. She really likes the gift but is sort of surprised by it. Some other people around me comment on it.

During some brief waking I decide my recall is weak for the recent dreams and resolve to pay more attention to the dreams to recall them better. Indeed the experiences following were more vivid.

+ I wake in a room, like a hotel room. I'm naked and the window curtains are open. I stand up and pull the (white, down comforter it seems to be) around my waist to go to the window to pull the drapes. As I pull them I'm outside on a walkway that goes past businesses, there's a woman with her daughter there who slumps down sitting against the wall of a building, the girl is also naked (?) and wrapped in a blanket like me. I go back into my room, and now I notice it is much darker that the drapes are all pulled. I decide I want to peek outside the curtains at the people, viewing them unseen. I hold the curtains tightly and try to open them just a crack so no one will see me [DS], and I do this but realize all I can see is the window screen which mostly blocks my vision. I adjust and find a little opening where I can clearly see people outside. Then the (woman?) comes to my door and I let her in, and she starts talking, someone else comes in (another woman?) and they argue, and the 2nd woman says to the 1st, "I can't work with you, we're done." I remember [FALSE] that we were all in a (music band?) together and this means the end of that. I tell the 2nd woman s.l. "thanks for breaking up the band and forcing me out as well."

Then I'm lying on my back on the ground looking up at a pure blue sky [DS DS DS!!!!]. I'm still thinking about the band breaking up and am really sad about this, and say/think "you can get bad news while looking at the beautiful, blue Californian sky." I stand up and I'm on the lawn of my CH backyard [I'm aware of the location in the dream] There is an odd pattern cut into the grass [DS]: like part of the grass where I'm standing hasn't been mowed in quite a while and is getting quite and looks unkempt, but there is a line like a rectangle extending most of the width across the grass a few feet in front of me that shows that an area had recently been mown. I know this indicates that (something that I can't remember) was just down to the lawn. I head up the steps towards the house.

I'm still thinking about the band breakup, and I think I should call my best friend MR, that I have an appointment with him at 2pm, and that I need to gather together my clothing in preparation for my return-trip to [foreign country]. Inside the house [not accurate] there is my dad and my mother. I see my mother sitting at a small table (eating?). I ask her what I'm going to do right now and she says "eat some pizza!" (which she just made, apparently). I walk over to a counter/cabinet where there is a microwave and see two small red circles on a a cutting board and think these must be sausage/pepperoni from the pizza and pick one up and take a bite, only to find it is crunch and bland and is actually a radish. I put a (drink?) into the microwave and warm it up.

+ club / clothes / 3 birds in water / water-cube

+ little living soldiers game

+ scary storm cloud

+ ping pong

+ women playing video games: my name on screen

+ LUCIDD 209 LD#209 in building, get lucid, do TOTM basic pocket summon get handful of tiny coins, 5's and 2's, ask guy what they are, he says "5 drachma", keep looking at them, shake his hand, go outside, kiss girl interrupt her she's talking to some guy, "mm, well, ok" she says, I stop and squat down and look around, then she leans in an initiates a kiss with me, we stand up entangled, things get hot, then the dream fades.

+(f) in a house with people playing with furry pets (cat?)

+ "RTL" guy in restaurant, lots of food laid out on on the tables, it's a private party

+ return to room, meet family I saw earlier, kids misbehaved so they're going home, enter office, clsoe dor, walk along long narrow table to far end, move to end, make sure there's room for my feet at the end, set up to work there on my laptop

+ middle-aged asian guy sitting at table eating plain-looking dim sum. "Ssssshhhh!" he tells me and motions to a cart of food and drink behind him. I go there and notice cans of beer, and other drinks, I take one thinking it's beer but it's dark, sweet, and I think it's coke. I sit on the other end of the table from him and suddenly a commercial break starts up, an animation of a peanut butter jar appears in the air spinning around with music and a bunch of young Japanese advertising girls appear and I think this is hilarious and pretend to be the announcer caling out "Jiff peanut butter! <etc.>". Then there's a small saucer of peanut butter in front of me and I'm trying to eat a piece but the chunk I'm trying to take is stuck via a strand to the chunk still on the saucer, I'm laughing and hurrying it's all hilarious and there's a guy sitting across from me and I'm shoving the peanut butter to him to eat and it spills and there's a huge stain on the table all the while the nice Japanese advertising girls are trying to help us eat it.

Huge night: solid (but short) DILD, several near WILDs late morning including start of REM atonia, several vivid semi-lucids, one epic in vividness/experience

Late morning doing relaxing SSILD, trying to "relax" into visuals. Dreams/imagery/REM atonia don't come while mind is too alertly focused on visual field, mind must be occupied on something like SSILD cycles or Ah visualization or very light thoughts. Ear rushing and eye twitching happened while on back (like yesterday's WILD-ish experience). Did a RC but awake. Got strong body twitches while lying on side a little later.

+ bubble fly CH with PR and KR flying up from back garden (L tree?) I'm waving bubbles this propels us along we drive back to street by G's driveway and I do a power slide and whip around in a fast circle at the end which drags K lying flat on the ground really quickly across the very rough pavement and scratches her arms very badly and she says s.l. "Augh, I didn't need that" I later apologize to her, go down back steps and both my mother [deceased] and father are happily there working on the garden, the steps are soft dirt shaped like bricks, my feet and other's feet sink deeply into the steps, I notice this but others say they're soon to be lined with (concrete?). I think to myself how wonderful it is with my mother here and how sad it would be (is?) when she is no longer with us.

+ renting a helicopter with son S2, afterwards I say (about flying it) "that was f^&*^%$ AWESOME!" swimming to turn-off, go in, the mechanics are there to immediately check the helicopter upon my return of it, one walks towards me holding a wrench, "Ah, crap," I think, "something is missing from the tool chest and they're going to ding me for it", but instead, this is an extra tool? Then the team of mechanics hold a conversation [in a foreign language] in an Abbott & Costello comedy format:

"Shall we add it?" [to our tool collection]
"Let's add it?"
"Add it?"
"Add it?"
"Let's add it"
etc.

+ mango, homeschoolers prank boy suffering from "short leg" syndrome, I free him from a big meat/freezer locker behind 2 doors where he could have suffocated, then I'm taking bites from a large, cut "street-food" mango, see homeschoolers (skin? fruit?) is mottled with mold, I go back inside to the open fruit market continuing to bite from the mango, wondering if it was cleaned properly. There are other fruit vendors inside: one is advertising long, translucent, juicy strips made from the entirety of some tree.

+ epic: airplane, at gate with attendant, show ID, woman with 2x 45kg of modeling clay paying customs on automated system me:"hope it doesn't dry out", she:"expands like an a$$hole" [at altitude], driving over gently undulating land, I make joke about how [try hard to remember name of airline company associated with England] "British Airways announces new corporate policy limiting modeling clay to 5kg per customer after mid-flight incident", , turn fast sudden corner to right, on very wide driving fast on deep dry dusty dirt roads, I instantly think, "Oh, I'm in Africa! Boy, Africa sure looks different from America/Europe!"
Odd, fantastic cars come the other way. I procede straight on this road which narrows then I'm walking. I notice the houses are covered not in paint or shingle, but flowers. One house is covered in small red and white flowers. The road is now more a wide foot path absolutely bursting with tall bushes of flowers on every side and in front of me. "Wow!" I say, "who know Africa was so colorful and DREAM-LIKE!!!. I'm amazed at everything I see and keep saying this several times. I encounter a flock of about 8 very large (meter tall) purple geese walking up the street the other way. I look into the distance and see a city in the distance and think about getting back to the airport, I think there's plenty of time.

Then I start encountering nude and topless women sunbathing right there on the pathway. The path is now like a narrow footpath leading through gardens and back yards. I come upon two beautiful young women lying on the ground and as I approach they both turn over and I get a quick glimpse of their marvelous breasts. They ignore my presence. I keep walking and encounter more topless women, middle aged and a bit fat, they are all cooling themselves from the heat outside in narrow streams of very cold water. I feel how very cold this water is and think it's colder than it needs to be.

I reach one point and a narrator (?) says this is the end of the "two-people" path and now the "solo/alone" path is beginning, and I get excited about this thinking I can find a beautiful topless/nude woman, think for a second about continuing to the airport, but see a group including some apparently mostly nude women in a pool area up ahead and head towards them.

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

I go to a young woman who seems to be wearing a skimpy bikini but she seems nude at the same time. She has a well-manicured landing strip and I come up to her and talk to her asking about "which sport she is going out for?" while I bring my mouth to her right breast and take it in, and

I wake up.

+ LD#206 LUCIDD 206 bowling alley, standing on left side, ask for lane #2 to be turned on for me, I don't want to be against the left wall lane #1. Sign in on electronic score card, real name, go looking for ball, try 15 lb but fingers too tight, see a "36 pound" blank ball, one with three holes clumped together, then balls vanish, area blocked off by corrugated metal sheets [construction area?], go back through huge sports hall where ping-pong matches are under way. I jump/glide/fly down stairs, not sure if I'm flying because I crash into pile of cushions at bottom of stairs, I jump/leap again towards the exit and think I may be flying again, I hold my self very still and notice that I continue to glide toward the wall in the air and get lucid. I start rubbing my hands and repeating "I'm dreaming! I'm dreaming!" I notice through a square lattice door a series of colorful flowers growing from the ground with foot-long stalks and flat flower petals, 3-4 different flat colors. I turn back into the gym room and think, "OK, TOTM!" But the basic TOTM tasks don't come to me instantly, and the dream fades.

+ I'm in a car (portion of longer dream?) driving on steep hills in neighborhood I have to wait for some passing cars at an intersection. I need to turn around I enter a cul-de-sac and start to pull a U turn fist I head close to a house's driveway and am forced through two signs by their drive way I'm turning to the left and head a bit too close to a wall/fence of theirs in the road and hit it lightly and it shakes. I think "oh crap", but it doesn't appear too damaged, I glance over my shoulder behind me to if anyone is coming out of the house, I back up and drive on

+(f) I'm riding the bus with my kids. We're driving through some suburban downtown business district. I notice it is raining outside. I say "Oh No way I'm going to go running in that rain" (back to the house?)

+(f) coins? Small devices outside with people?

+ molly on the slide, sexual encounter at the top and at the bottom, people come, but I work them into the narrative and they don't bother my activities with Molly. Then a woman sends some kids to another section and tells them to stop what they're doing, something relating to the glare on the monitor, then she is digging into a desk of mine looking for incriminating material, inside are some books, a book laid open to a page with a quote on it and some sand dollars marking the spot, she says something about this. Then things get vague and I get frisky with two very buxom girls, I take their tops off (asking one of them to help me take the other one's top off) but they disappear and I wake up.