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22:52 pre-bedtime Day memory review: first let memories arise, feeling that each one is a dream, then run through the day in order in detail

23:30? bedtime

00:00 Saturday 2014-08-23

multiple wakings with recall, lost early recall, later recall fragmented, lots of long dreaming sequences most lost ARGH! Must get myself to record or at least seriously try to DEILD on the earlier wakings. I recall trying to determine during one waking if one early dream was lucid or not.

07:40 up and recall (15-20 minutes at least), quick keyword journal, try to sleep again, get close but just too awake

+(f) a guy is messing with my computer print-out, "stop wrinkling it!"

+(f) rub the completely flat head top of a really big/fat kid, the flatness is due to the haircut, the head is mostly normally shaped but the hair is grown around the side and back of the head so that it forms a flat surface.

+(f) kids are breastfeeding other kids? Medium-length sequence, forgot most of it.

+ leaving the seats the kid runs past me to his dad in another row, I stand and bow and let the people past me in the aisle (that's all, short).

+ big people have a purpose: they make great store clerks lifting heavy things, I see these big guys carrying large things around, one gathers my order with me in the back, I remember my machete and go to another shelf, I see lots of my things, I find my machete / large knife, pick it up, gesture towards the clerk showing it, I hold the handle and realize it's not very comfortable, the handle is a bit too short.

+ computer competition with MO and PMcC, we're tasked with finding a bug in the system (like in The Internship), we walk up a stairway through a door and sit down in front of some terminals (like old ADM3A terminals) , one in front of me, one on the ground near my left foot. I take off a glove (it looks like a gray/black rubber dish glove, I wonder what my friends will think of me wearing such a glove), I toss off glove towards the ground, and it lands on the right-side of the keyboard of the terminal on the ground, three fingers separating and simultaneously hitting the CTRL, ALT, and DEL keys which light up as they're pressed. I say "Hey, guys, did you see that, the glove hit CTRL-ALT-DEL!".

+ I'm watching a game of baseball, I'm standing behind a short fence along the first-base line. I see the pitcher wind-up and pitch: it's a fast-pitch softball circular style of pitch, the batter hits the ball, it's a pop fly, the fielder is right there, it should be an easy out, he lifts his glove and the ball bounces out of it so the pitcher can continue running the bases. I realize that a fielder and the pitcher are giants: at least 2-3 times the size of a human. The pitcher signals the outfield to approach closer, this is because a human has come to the plate. Next a female giant comes to the plate and really hits the ball out of the park, I see it come down out of the sky beyond the fence (by some Eucalyptus(?) trees), it's a home run. After the game, the giants eat the humans? Later on there is a casting call for another baseball game, it's a TV show. Females are not allowed, but I say I saw a female giant in the last game, the guy says that's because it was her personal show.

09:09 up out of bed, DJ on DV

22:30 pre-bedtime, 1mg melatonin @ 22:00 for resetting bedtime, memory review, set intention for lucid dreaming in the night

22:52 bedtime (yay on schedule!)

(didn't need to consult notes for anything but time of the entries, <but used the one-sentence summaries post as a reminder>)

03:25

+ childhood neighbourhood: on a bicycle at the top of the park on F blvd, old bully MB is there but we're on good terms, I say "this is what you can do a on a bicycle!" and I ride to park-left, up over the curb, and gain speed and ride towards a place where the curb forms a jump and jump WAY up in the air, performing several (3?) back-fiips together with the bike, then steady upright slowly floating down to the ground spin the bike side-ways underneath me in a circle several times, and land on my feet with holding the bicycle up in the air by the seat stem in my right hand (ta da!).

Walking up towards A. blvd above where it meets F blvd past the park a group of girls is there and they're talking about something (networking?) which I disagree with, then they talk about wine, why not grow it here? I think you won't get much, and say "What'll you get, 100 cases? Well, we could sell it at the park for $3/bottle".

At the base of the hill where A and F blvds meet I go DO up in the sky and observe the scene of an accident up on the F hill towards S ave. There are 4 what appear to be motorcycles stopped with their riders, there was some accident there. Close up zooms in to one young Asian man trapped in his "pod" his internal organs are all failing due to the heat inside the pod, he says "No, don't try to save me, save the <ones who come after me>" (who aren't there yet?).

+ I'm standing outside observing lovely golden California hills, standing on a long steep slope (right side facing down the hill), I see to the right the hills go way down to city/the bay. I think I really want to do some hang-gliding here, from here all the way down to the bay. I think that it would be good to try out the hang-glider on a short flight first to make sure it won't collapse on the long, high flight down the hills.

I'm indoors talking with some guy about an <antennae?> that will raise altitude, either he or I make a comment about the updraft winds that would be involved.
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The MOTHER of all "wake can't get back to sleep"s at this point. Some SSILD variants.

05:10 can't sleep, get up to kitchen, sit with cat on lap and drink milk, read a bit from "Nine Princes in Amber" (zillionth reread).

06:15? try back to bed. Still can't sleep. Another hour goes by?

Should I get up again? No. Argh. Counting breaths. Too aware. Fast SSILD

Letting go. Yes, there's some drowsiness there but it's really remote. I just *KNOW* there are some LDs in me waiting to happen, just waiting for me to sleep. My strong intention setting at bedtime is probably keeping me up. Also, I went to bed earlier, in a very firm strict re-setting of my sleep schedule.

Let go on exhale, let go on exhale, total physical and mental relaxation, empty the head, LET GO on exhale....and at some point I fall asleep.

08:57

There were a lot of little scenes, very jumbled, took me quite a while to make sense of them during recall, didn't totally succeed.

+ I found the cat's laser pointer pen, it was by the sink in a <glass of water?>, I try the controls, I poke around and find the button that activates the laser. A bunch of weird stuff has grown around the head of the pen, sort of a ferny-forest of white plastic tendrils, I have to move them all out of the way so that the light beam can shine. I mov e down the hall to the room where the cat is (it's dark), I shine the beam, I see the beam shining through the air and hitting a chair, and the cat <bats at it?>

+ I drive my son S2 to wine store, and I remain in the car, and wonder if anyone will say anything about that, I see a little bit of the store inside the door I see containers on the walls. I watch S2 through the glass window being shown the wine by a clerk, they walk to the left side of the store at the edge of the window, I see the clerk take out a sommelier sampling cup-thing and pour two samples from what look like thermoses, I wonder if I can try the samples but I'm driving. <S2 is too young to be drinking, should he be sampling it?>

+ girlfriend montage:

My GF invites me over to her place on the phone, she wants me to arrive at 11:15pm, I say I can't do that because it's too late and my parents won't let me, I think she may think I'm a wuss for being controlled by my parents so much.

I'm with my GF, she's really mad at me, the way I speak to her, she gives several examples of phrases I've used which make her mad, she thinks I'm being impertinent and short with her, I disagree and ask her to give me a concrete case where I did this, and I give an explanation that I was <talking to a friend in some way that made sense that I used that phrase?>

I <follow her?> enter her room feeling bold about we can have some "action", I catch a glimpse of someone else <her sister?> in the room and immediately turn to leave back out to the hallway, I get a bit bolder and think "no I'm going to do this" and re-enter the room, <don't see anybody else there?>, see my GF then make for the door again to leave, I see her mother (darkish skinned middle-aged woman wearing glasses quietly sitting in a chair not paying me any attention), I walk past her without saying anything, I think, heck, it's my GF's mother, I should at least introduce myself, I go back to her, extend my hand to her saying "Hi, my name's <my name>" and wait for her hand, she offers it and I shake it, I notice that she's REALLY small, like midget-proportions about 2-3 feet fall max and think that this explains why my GF is so petite.

I can't remember my ex-wife's (false memory) name, and that bugs me. She had blonde hair and I recall taking her to my bed in my room.
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+ I walk up to a "sleeping" girl lying down and bend down to kiss her, as I'm about to touch her lips her lips pucker up, her eyes are still closed, I get lucid at some point during the fairly long (10 seconds, yeah that's long for me when lucid, sigh) deep "snog", I'm thinking about trying to maintain focus and awareness but I wake up/transition (not sure which).

+ Walking into a party in a fairly dark room, some guys are mixing/distilling a drink flowing out of a tube into a (blue?) pot on the ground in front of them, a girl is standing against the wall and puking on the floor, something about little gummy candies (either in the puke or the drinks) and she was looking at them. I recalled after walking around a bit that I should gave goosed the busty but unattractive girl I saw when I first entered the party.

Heading up a spiral staircase don't want my friends to see me, they see me, I look into their bright blue eyes, one is a young JoDu, they say something to me but I quickly walk on past them (prelude to the party?)

+ closely contemplating a home-made electronic telephone. The handset is to the right of the phone body which is large and square (1 square foot) and is covered in some sort of plastic/cellophane. Inside underneath the cover and top of the phone body can see a glimpse of a circuit-board. The handset does not sit up right against the body of the phone, I reach in there and pull out a <sock? wool cap?> and it then fits better.

23:18 pre-bedtime 3mg melatonin
00:00 Monday 2014-08-18

04:00 alarm, 2 x 4mg Galantamind, 1x 300mg Choline Bitartrate, 1x 300mg Alpha-GPC, 1 large rye cracker, 1 banana, immediately back to bed

(no recall, just vague impressions, not even fragments)

05:00 still awake

05-06? very stimulated, familiar body buzzing feeling on G + Ch, difficult to get mind to stay at rest, "relieve tension," BTB

fall asleep somewhere around late 05? or perhaps 06?

06??

+ I'm lucid sitting on a bus, feel unstable, turn around to my right and see a guy sitting in the seat behind me smoking, I grab a strap that runs vertically along his body with my right hand and hold it firmly and say to him, "NO SMOKING ON THE BUS!!". I'd like to stabilize and get deeper into the dream but I can't take my right hand away (like if I did the dream would end) and I can't reach the right hand with my left. I lose visuals and I'm holding both hands on the bar on top of the seat in front of me. The bus starts pitching up and down violently like a ship in tall ocean waves, I feel the bus pitch down sharply and my body lifts up off the seat, still holding on to the bar in front of me, I wonder if the bus is going to start flying into space.

Transition: I'm now a DO flying above behind and to the right of a bus that's driving on a road. The world is a flat-shaded cartoon world: a lot is white, and it's very blocky. The bus turns left at an intersection and them pulls over to a building and stops. I call out "Hey are there any cartoon girls in there?" I see a little guy get off the bus and head in to the building, I follow him and call to him "are you going to show me your cartoon <ahem>?"

+ In a house, in front of a mirror, I pick up an electric toothbrush and turn it on. The sensation in my hand gives me an idea and I place the fairly strongly vibrating toothbrush in a NSFW way in several different positions looking for the best sensation.

+ (I may have been walking through my kitchen at one point). I have a shirt with a large red food stain on it, I feel generally kind of nervous/edgy. I'm outside my kitchen (on a patio?) looking down at my shirt every once in a while, when my friend MR appears in my kitchen looks at me picks something up in his hand and says "Hey <my name> why aren't you eating these pancakes?" I'm thinking those pancakes were cooked some while ago and may not be very clean. He takes a bite and says "pancakes are great for digging out cavities!"

+ colleague JT is holding a joint press statement with the police, they've found his kidnapped son after a long search, he's calling for leniency on the kidnapper -- his wife is hot and busty I see her topless with her arms over her head, get lucid, and enjoy the view and perhaps think about leaning in for some contact for a few seconds before waking up.

+ I'm standing in a hallway (feels like a house) and am immediately lucid. At the lucidity I notice the walls change from uncolored to colored in a modern color scheme: muted warm colored rectangles, smoky translucent glass arranged in patterns. I turn to my left and walk ahead slightly, my attention drawn by incredible colors and patterns. On a (bed?) in a room there I see a pile of cube-shaped pillows (about 4-6 inches on a side) that have a mixture of many different colors in various patterns (mostly straight/triangular lines). I'm astonished at the vivid colors and look at the scene for a few moment to make sure I can remember it. I remember TOTM basic (I) (foreign word) and turn back to where I started expecting to find some people. Just ahead I see the hallway open into a large open area and DCs are mulling around there. I walk up to one and try to say "tell me a foreign word and what it means," but I can barely open my mouth and can barely make any sound. I try again with another DC and the sounds are severely muted like trying to talk under water, the DC just walks away, I try once more and the DC looks at me with a quizzical "say that again?" look, and I slow down and try to speak very clearly. I think it comes out better and the DC answers something like "fribblety-splat". I repeat it back to make sure I heard it correctly. Then I ask her what it means, and she answers "the kakashka is in the F. U." Despite the success I go on to ask a few more DCs in the area and now I can speak clearly and freely. I'm eyeing some DC girls as they walk by, like one, then pick another (long curly blonde hair),

Spoiler for NSFW explicit:

and plan an encounter that calls for her to sit down. I look and see a counter with chairs that might work and I maneuver her there and sit her down and turn to face her. I pull my pants down (with some difficulty) and reach for her head, she's pulled away some, I do a jedi mind trick ("it's my dream you have to do what I want to") and she leans forwards, and right before the magical moment

I wake up.

08:15?
awake, recalling dreams, trying to get BTB, jerks are playing loud music outside somewhere

09:10 ? receive phone call, stand up answer it

Back to bed. I'm quite awake. Should I just get up for the day? NO! I feel I have at least one more LD in me and I'm probably still on the fumes from the G. Boy, I'm awake. OK, if you want it, you have to work for it. You've worked for this, you know what to do, DO IT!

So I do counting breathing up to about 50, that's not helping much, the counting is keeping me too aware. Do my classic sleep kung-fu: on every exhale, sink deeper into relaxation, let EVERYTHING go: mental, physical tension, on EVERY breath, let more and more go, let everything go! And in a short while .... I sleep!

+ I'm lucid in super crowded indoor space like a bookstore. I don't remember anything before this moment of lucidity. YES made it, 4th LD!, Start to to stabilize by rubbing my hands, hey, ... why not rub that cute girl's butt instead? I reach for her butt but she somehow knows what I'm doing and scoots off away from me really fast, I decide not to chase, I think it's pretty funny! Wow this is crowded, mostly young people, cute girls, push past them through a doorway and turn to the left. OK, NOW it's time for a girl! Wait...no, stabilize! I stop and rub my hands, and pound my chest with my fists a few times. At the pounding a DC who was sitting down next to me is startled, and gets down on the ground and scuttles/runs away like an insect. She was wearing a dark/black burka, like a muslim. I thought that was sort of funny/weird. Ah ha, I want to carry a bottle of water with me to stabilize! I think I'm holding a bottle of water and look down at my hands. WOW TRIPPY, my hands and parts of my arms to the wrist are not fully rendered yet by my brain, it looks like I'm wearing black translucent long gloves with bright lines circling all over and sparkles all over them, then I see the "paint" of my skin color creep quickly into my hands. Looks like a computer graphics effect! I'm now holding an empty bottle of water. I will for it to be filled with water. Wait a minute, no, Beer! Be filled with Beer! I see it fill with liquid. I upend the bottle to take a drink with my head back and my mouth open, and a few modest sized splashes of water (darn didn't get beer) hit my tongue and the roof of my mouth at the back of my mouth, the sensation is entirely realistic. I move the water bottle to my left hand. I remember my goal of chewing dream gum to stabilize and stay in the dream, I reach my right hand into my right pants pocket expecting to get some gum there, I feel a lot of coins and something like a wrapper, I bring my hand out and see some coins and an empty wrapper, ah well. I walk forwards (back the way I came) and people are still everywhere, I see a petite girl sitting in a chair

Spoiler for NSFW explicit:

and tell her to "show me your tits." I'm prepared to jedi mind trick her but she complies and starts taking off her top. I'm standing there watching and taking a drink from the water. I think this is taking too long. She gets her top off and I see her skin she's wearing a bra. I get quite excited, she starts taking off the bra and I

I wake up. I'm quite pleased that I got in my 4th lucid in one night, I'm really happy about this. I'm in a hallway in a large area and I look up and see a big analog clock and see that it shows 11 o'clock, wow I've slept quite late! Then I get a dream transition feeling and think "Hey maybe I can DEILD back in!", but I feel more awake, now I'm in bed, really awake, and realize I just missed a FA/transition to non-lucid, ARGH!

10:20 now really awake

read the dream yoga section (after reading the introductory parts earlier) of "The Tibetan Yogas of Dream and Sleep", very excited about the practice.

00:00 Tuesday 2014-08-12

00:17 pre-bedtime. day memory review, set strong intention to LD

00:35 bedtime

03:00 ? awake, hear sounds coming from wife and son in other rooms, a bit concerned about sounds from outside, take off mask and look out the window, BTB.

04:38

+(f) something about a farm?

05:46 LDs #48 and #49, they were awesome

+ in my room in the night, the door to my room was open, my wife and son (S1) were making noises and they came into my room and turned on the light. S1 wanted to do something with my computer which I needed for work, he wanted to install his own 3d chip into my laptop, I'm upset what are they doing here in the middle of the night, I'm tired, it was like 3am, I didn't want to let him do it, this is my work computer anything you do to it could ruin it. I feel a bit bad about rejecting him so I say "ok you can do it, but for one thing don't come in here at 3am." Then I get a *creepy* phone call, I answer it and I here a voice say "Hey, <my full name>, <something>" (I don't remember what they said but I understood "they" were watching me and weren't friendly), kind of laughing at me, I wondered how they did that. I returned to my bed and saw a low cabinet/closet open in the wall, there were pillow and sheets there, I was taking out some pillows. I'm back in bed and starting to get lucid?...

+ ... I'm suddenly in my sister's room in my chldhood home looking out into the hallway and am instantly lucid, I went out into the hallway, and started down the stairs. I started thinking about what to do and I decided to summon a DDGSHG I had seen before, and the dream ends...

+ I'm standing in a hotel lobby in just my underwear because I had locked myself out of my room. There are people in the lobby, the front desk is a circular island in the middle of the room, there are clerks there, I go to the front desk and say I locked myself out of my room. I felt a bit awkward being there in just my underwear (but not very much), they didn't respond to me so I go back to the elevator. The buttons were strange and I wasn't sure if it was actually an elevator or not, it seemed to open into a bathroom, the buttons were all located very low to the ground, they were all lit, I couldn't tell what was going on. I got out and walked through a dining room, I knew it was late at night, there were people eating, at a table, food on a buffet, I saw what I thought were sushi sandwiches, I continued walking by, I walk past a woman who whispers to her companion "that man's in his underwear!" and I angrily respond "Yeah, I know, that happens when you get locked out!"

+ ... and I'm in bed, "awake", in a dark room, but I thought I could be dreaming still, nose pinch showed that I was still dreaming. I tried to get up out of bed, I could move my arms and legs which went up into the air a bit but my body wouldn't move. OK, if I'm stuck in bed lets summon KS my highschool sweetheart. Should I teleport to the swimming pool where we were on our awesome swimming date? I feel my heartrate start to increase dramatically (either dream or actual, I don't know) at this thought, I know I have to calm down so I decide "forget that." I am able to roll out of bed and I'm standing in the room. It's a small hotel room with a wall-sized window running from floor to ceiling, covered with closed blinds. The orange lights from the city street lamps are leaking through the blinds. I know I'm in a room up high off the ground and there is a city outside. I'm sure I'm dreaming, but I don't want to fall and die so I do another nose pinch, and I step back away from the window to the wall at my back and take a few running steps and stretch my hands out superman style and fly right through the window and blinds out into the orange-tinted cityscape, I'm way up above the ground look down and see people/cars moving on the street, there are other tall buildings all around, I turn towards my right and fly in that direction.

There was another big window approaching. I was doing "superman with a go pro" style power bursts of speed by thrusting my fist forwards forcefully, I could feel the acceleration of motion when I did this. There were people around, some were flying, some were on the ground, they were *very bright and vivid*, I was amazed at the visual quality. I do a power fly through this large glass wall, it's into a crystal clear but dark night scene with shining snow falling down. The city scape starts to head up into hills in front of me. I think I should be looking for a woman and I turn around in the air and I see a big bulky woman approaching me, I reach for and squeeze her breasts and she turns into a man with man-boobs, I think "no no no be a beautiful woman" and he turns into a young beautiful woman, her right breast is exposed, it is firm and lovely, I reach to take it into my mouth and I wake up.

Takes a long while to get back to sleep but I want more lucids! I feel them in me, just gotta get back to sleep. Takes all my sleep kung fu and concentration but I eventually sleep again.

10:02

+ going into a small convenience store. I do something wrong or have stolen something, the store owner gets mad at me, I'm kicked out, I feel lucky to escape with my life.

I order lunch at the pizza place (LV) I order the lunch special, one guy goes on an on about how LV is better than the other place LV has the original flavor, I place the order with a guy who's outside. Then I return to this place and I sense it's been a long time since I placed the order but I know that my lunch must be ready, I have the guy I ordered with go and pick it up I think that's better because he has more authority, I hear him talking to the counter, apparently it's not ready yet and that they have to make a second one and give it to me free.

Scene inside a house, a small boy is a servant/slave, I see his small boy face, the young man master is preparing to murder the and place him into a box. The slave boy didn't do anything wrong, the master man says "it's just that kind of a thing." I'm observing. The master is wrapping the boy up in tape. Then a guy (from the convenience store gang?) comes up stealthily behind the evil master and sticks a long knife deeply into the bad guy's side, he does that several times. The young master freezes in shock and pain. The young man's family enters at this time into the dining room (on a level above the room we're in) it's a very wealthy family they're shocked at the scene in the living room below them.

+(f) PA vs. K (cities)? There are two houses and I see their addresses and say them out loud.

+(f) With MR parking a car on HC. Getting something out of the back of his car.

+ on a floating (in the sky?) boat there's a party prepared for one guy by his gay lover, he walks up the stairway to his lover who is the host and they're going to get down to business.

+ I see a convenience store mafia guy again in my parents house at a party our eyes meet he has a goatee I nod to him in recognition he doesn't acknowledge me back. Later there's something to do with money, if he gives me back all the money he'll kill me and he starts to give me money and I start to freak out but he only gives me a few coins and decides not to kill me.

big dreaming night again, not lucid though:

00:00 Wednesday 2014-08-13

00:30 pre-bedtime: day memory review, set intention for the night
00:57 bedtime

07:51

+ watching from high DO position a video of us moving back into our old house. My wife and I are watching this as a fond memory. The next-door neighbors are moving in too at the same time, so our moving van can't pull exactly in front of our house, it must stay out in the street double-parked in front of the neighbor's house. Neighbor's house is to the right, ours to the left. View starts out to the right of neighbor's house looking forwards/left to our house, and finishes up pointing to the right looking back at the moving van. I see our old dog come out on to the sidewalk and visit the neighbor's dog, they're sniffing each other's noses and are really happy. I see a former manager of mine bringing a load in. Then I see myself skinny in jeans bringing in a load, I've really lost some weight living in that other place for a while.

+ setting up in a new house, I'm a teen, walking through small but very ornately decorated rooms, ask my "dad" in the office where I can set up my computer, he says do it in my room, mom will tell me where to do it. The desks are like 18th century large ornate wooden desks with cusioned wooden chairs, there are little nooks throughout the cramped rooms.

+ (all DO) I see a woman lying back on a medical examination table.

Spoiler for NSFW:

She's naked and her legs are spread, her knees are up and feet are down on the table, and I see a very large penis come up from beneath the table and penetrate her fully, I sort of do a double take and see this again. My view transitions to being inside the woman I have a view of her cervix from inside the womb (a little pink sphincter extending a bit inside from the wall) it's a large industrial setting with lots of scaffolding and things moving around on assembly lines, not fleshy. I think the woman's been tricked and doesn't realize that the physician's attendant put his on penis into her and is having sex with her, instead of her getting the artificial insemination procedure she wanted. I look at her cervix and see a penis tip poke through, and then streams of artificial insemination semen shoot out into her, not from the penis, but from a tube on the side.

. This is an artificial insemination procedure. Afterwards, a female attendant leads the woman through a hallway under a series of round lights/indicators, the attendant is shining a flashlight/tool up at t he indicators, and they're lighting up in response (showing the pathway to the waiting room?) as they walk by. In the waiting room there is a buffet of wine, and there are physicians there, a group of them. The woman says she hopes for twins, and the physicians berate her for this wish. The indicator lights (are numbered?) and seem to indicate which of the insemination procedures were successful. The attendant says they do a lot of procedures so at least one will work, I imagine a tool repeatedly entering the patient making a "deposit." The attendant is the woman's advocate, and then a male advocate arrives as well, he's a young man with blonde hair, very energetic. Leaving the waiting room I see the bottle of wine up close, the label has been partially scratched off. They move to another room and sit and I think about these two advocates for the patient.

+(f) some NSFW time with a "male toy".

Spoiler for NSFW:

Is is in the shape of a female mouth with a tongue extending down, the tongue looks like a ladybug: circular with black spots on it, I rub my (ahem) on this "tongue". Later the part hanging down seems to be a woman's hand with fingers.

+ suicide bomber gas truck/driver in the garage of my childhood home, it's night outside. The driver is standing outside the driver window against the wall of the garage and I'm in the middle of the garage looking in the passenger side window of the cab of the truck, (I'm holding a shotgun pointed at the window?), the guy has left out his final meal of fast food, there are lots of styrofoam take-out containers sitting open with chicken strips, fries, and lots of bright sticky/sweet sauces. I eat some of his fries, dipping them into one of the sauces. Someone up on the street distracts him and the truck is pulled back out to the street above the house. He intends to drive the truck into the house to blow it up, I think what if there is no spark/explosion and the house just gets broken from the truck driving into it, will he be satisfied?

+ Our family is in a waiting room in an institution with a lot of other people. We're meeting/helping out our foster/adopted daughter. The authorities announce that only one member from each group may enter, so my wife goes in. After some time people are milling around and everybody goes in, I go in too. I see our "daughter" come out, she is a late teen with very pale white skin (not sickly, just no sun, like a redhead can be), she is wearing a wide-brimmed hat, she's walking from my left to my right. I lean over and under her brim to give her a fatherly kiss on the cheek, but because of the hat I get her on the lips instead, we're both a bit embarrassed.

+ Sitting in a room with Aimee Teegarden (:heart: :heart, I'm preparing to go to the dance, I'm father-aged and she's a teen (not my daughter though), she says she's sick so won't go to the dance. I'm bummed because I wanted a dance with her, I see her long, sexy legs. I ask her to take off one of my socks at least, I'm trying to get them off. She moves across the room and I see her enter a deep sexy kiss with my son, no way can we leave those two alone, I know where that's leading to. She's behaving a bit loopy and I see her pouring something from a little (buiding-shaped) piggy bank into her drink. I think it's alcohol or drugs.

+ The secretary wants to hire the applicant (who is dark skinned and has a massive bust) immediately, and jumps for joy saying "I get to play with boobies!" and shows the applicant the work salad bar on the other side of the large table from me, with another coworker

+(f) I'm taking pictures of a guy the tablet is not behaving correctly, I see the pictures of this guy in a few different places

+ In school sitting down at open desk, my desk is taken, I think if someone tells me I took their desk I'll say mine was already taken. FF comes and sits down in the column of desks next to me, and it looks like he's going to sneeze on me, I say "I can not get sick!" and hold up my elbow/arm in front of his face to block the sneeze. We need to open our books to a particular story for reading but I can't find the story in my book which turns into a pile of little books.

+ We're shooting photon torpedoes at the enemy ship, 3 groups of tree, each group hits, I see the blue shining torpedoes fly straight and pass through the hull of the enemy ship (no explosion), the enemy ship starts to sink, we're walking through hallways preparing for battle, we realize we don't know anything about the enemies, we've never encountered their race before (little green men), we must build up our weapons and resources before the enemies arrive here on this planet. I see some rifles lying around they're old-time looking made from lots of wood. I'm setting up a revolver, I'm going to construct a candle and light it on the hammer so that when it hits the pin the flame will ignite the bullet and fire it, I look for approval for this idea. I reach in to extinguish the wick which leads into the cylinder I lick my fingers and pinch the fuse to extinguish it, but I see the flame has spread and now the whole gun is on fire. The emergency services has reached the enemy ship and is towing it now by us. The enemies taunt is as they drive by in a jeep, our captain says he's been preparing for this meeting (for a week?) and is ready. They drive over some of our supplies.

Where was this recall when I needed it in the competition?

00:00 Saturday 2014-08-09

01:46 quite tired, drove to the country in traffic, took about 3 hours.
3mg melatonin, alarm set for 3.5 hours (05:15)
to sleep kind of slow but not terribly.

05:15 alarm, take 2 x Galamtamind 4mg, 300mg Alpha GPC
Not too hard getting back to sleep for once!

07:30

fascinating long nld: "Dreamviews European adventure" featuring: fogelbise, StephL, and "golden lion". Ordering is a bit unclear, but there was a number of scenes:

Trip to Europe with fogelbise, giving a presentation at a conference on the subject of brain-operated devices. We're staying at StephL's place. I was confused throughout most of the dream about what I was doing there and what was going on.

I'm in the kitchen of a large 1-story home with open floor plan. There is a group of people sitting away from me they're being a bit stand-offish, there is a woman there and I ask someone "is that StephL?" I decide it is. She has thick long dark blonde hair.

I return to bed, where fogelbise already is lying under the blankets, and move to get in (we're sharing the bed), but he blocks me and gestures across the room, I see that he's made a bed for me on the floor across the room. I'm a bit confused by this since I had woken up earlier in the same bed with him previously, after all it's not a gay thing we're just sharing the bed, that's all. I see him begin his night-time dream preparations: he's mouthing some mantra and beating his chest rhythmically with one hand.

I'm telling fogelbise how I had taken some galantamine, I was confused about the time, wondering if I have time to sleep for it to take effect.

I see my cat in the living room, but I didn't bring her kitty toilet, where is she going to go to the bathroom? There's another cat here, are they going to fight?

I can't tell what time it is, am I in a different time zone? The (analog) clock on the wall seems to indicate a different time each time I look.

The conference is about brain-activated control devices. That's why they invited lucid dreamers. I introduced myself once as "Luke", I couldn't remember my dreamviews handle, then I remembered it and said "FryingMan," and I make jokes about heroes and Hiro saying "FlyingMan" with a bad Japanese accent so it comes out "FryingMan." A middle-aged man introduced himself as "GoldenLion" from dreamviews.

Two presenters are using a fascinating electronic multi-layered easel to make a presentation, they built this easel themselves. There is a bright orange 3-d display on the front made up of thousands of little orange plastic rods that can move forwards and backwards to form a display (like the kind of monochrome 3d- graphics the Kryptonians use in "Man of Steel"). The easel is many layers thick I get a view of its operation. At the back of the easel is a place where a large drawing can be stored, one of the two presenters repeatedly pulls out the drawing from the easel so it's visible, and then pushing it back in, then pulling it out again, and putting it back.

I'm in a car driving to the conference, it's dark. I'm entering the front seat from the right hand door, I'm confused by the dashboard, where's the steering wheel? I think I find a mini steering wheel very low below the dashboard.

Back in StephL's kitchen, talking to fogelbise. There are two strange microwave-oven-like devices: a two-sided mini-refrigerator, that's very handy because you can get at the food on the shelves from either the front or the back. Next to it there is a two-sided refridgerator that turns out is a wine refrigerator with a transparent front door. I see about 6 bottles of white wine lying on their sides within on several shelves . StephL is standing in the kitchen.

A guy in the flat is playing a fascinating odd recorder with strange tubes protruding from the main playing tube.

I'm looking for a shower and there are large piles of towels and blankets all through the house.

09:10

I"m outdoors across from a large science museum (with dinosaurs and things) there's a large open square between us and the big building, which doesn't have many windows and is really tall and made from concrete and brick. My sons and I are running and jumping, racing across the square, I'm running in a straight line and that means having to jump high (20+ feet) up running over the corners of some structures that lie in my way. We borrow some wheelbarrows/carts from a guy, he's carrying cardboard in them, S2 finds a pair of headphones, S1 wins the race and finds something like a car that he'll be able to sell for a lot of money.

02:08 bedtime

08:14

+ pool/billiards stadium, tables different shapes and sizes, balls large

+ sliding into a locker room to find the tv schedule very threatening man confronts me, Kids trying to see in some room, they can't come down the stairway there's a locked gate door there

+(f) walking along a ledge

+ epic nld (previously secret ) (wrote all this without consulting my notes )

fight:
I was visualizing flying while trying to WILD/sleep, and I entered a dream flying. I sensed that an opponent was flying towards me and I summed a force field umbrella shield to occupy the space in front of me.

I'm then on the ground, and facing two opponents about 15 feet away. I raise my wrists and out of each one a thin dark purple laser beam fires to hit each one opponent. They're slightly moving and I track each one independently, maintaining the fire on them. Then I advance into their position and see a female DC, and engage in some caveman.

trees/theater:
I'm in a large indoor area opening on to a small body of water, across the water is a large stand of tall trees (like Eucalyptus) bright in the sun against a blue blue sky, it is beautiful, I want to capture the moment on my camera, I move forwards to the edge of the water because there's an overhanging ceiling and I want to get an unobscured view of the trees. I'm squatting down for the picture and I see that the light has changed and the trees are now not so bright, like they're in shade. Then I see that some trees are now animated momuments with heads on the top of historical figures like America's founding fathers. These columns are growing/shrinking and swaying like trees in the wind. I hear some guy come up behind me to take a picture I hear him say it's a great view, I think he's too late, the light has changed. I get up to leave, a troupe of young actors has entered the area, lots of people, I walk up a stairway leaving the area past a young Asian male actor who's enthusiastically reciting some lines.

I'm now indoors, heading down a stairway. Off to the side of the stairway are a few rows about 3-4 seats wide of theater seating. A young woman is seated in one seat next to the stairway, I stop to talk to her. I place my right foot (wearing a shoe) onto the seat back where she's sitting, think that's a bit rude, move it away from her towards the edge of the back of the seat, decide that's still rude and take it away entirely, she reaches up and brushes off the dust from my shoe from the edge of the back of the seat. She starts soliciting me for something, giving me a pitch (something to do with the theater? don't remember), as soon as I figure this out I get antsy and say "no thanks" and continue down the stairs.

My way on the stairs is blocked by a large crowd, I need to go down the final flight of steps to the room below, but there's no way. Down below a woman is asking the crowd what kind of drinks she should order. I move to the right of the crowd, there is no banister at the edge of the upper floor, move back to the crowd on the stairs, there's no way through, step to the right and just jump/float down (about 12 feet) to the floor below, some guy is concerned I've fallen but I wave him off, "I do that all the time" I say/think or something similar.

planetarium:
I'm in a very large round room with a tall ceiling, I'm looking at some sort of science exhibit. A show begins on a curved screen that runs the circumference/perimeter of the room's wall right below the ceiling. The screen is opening wider, wider, reaching 180 degrees wide perhaps, and the show begins. There are individual chairs in the center floor area, haphazardly arranged, I sit to watch the show a bit. I see some stuff on the screen and am entranced, some of it is patterns in 3D. I ball comes flying through the air right to me and I try to catch it with my arms against my chest but I miss and it bounces off to my left on the floor

hieroglyphs / artwork:
I'm observing a fascinating drawing that is made of letters and symbols. I start making a copy of the original because I want to save it for later (when I wake up? almost lucid). I VERY CLEARLY see the letters and symbols and copy the first few, the original is on the left and my copy is on the right.

I'm copying a work of art consisting of chains and spiked balls (like the medieval ball and chain weapon) I draw about 10 spiked balls and then start filling in the chains.

23:38 bedtime -- finally, making some progress on bedtime, shooting for 23:00 every night now.

long time falling asleep, wife walking around room loudly and jumping in to bed later, it's hot and uncomfortable.

00:00 Friday 2014-08-08

05:12 dozing, wake to remee lights, sit up, bathroom, sit some more, still feel drowsy, wondering if I've been up too long, BTB

06:50 can't sleep, get up, breakfast

No recall at this point. Very depressed about this combined with the insomnia

09:30 back to bed

long time falling asleep

11:20 wake to dark room, WTF did I sleep all the way through to evening? No it's lightning/thunder/rain storm. As I type this the lightning is so close it makes my computer monitor jump when it strikes. At least it's 10C cooler for now.

+(f) leaving a church with son, I make a sacrilegious quip as I reach for the door handle and turn the knob to leave, I think I probably shouldn't have said that

+ with my GF who's planning a party, she complains this is the first time ever there will be too many girls at the party (it's because she's met so many lesbians recently), I take her into my arms, I'm below her at first, then I roll over and I'm on top of her she's in my arms and leaning back against the corner of a couch, and we enter a long, light, sweet kiss. I see her face, she's a beautiful young dark skinned Asian Indian with deep purple lipstick, it's so nice that I repeatedly try to pull away to tell her how nice this is and how long it's been but she doesn't let me disengage and all my words come out sounding like "Mmph" even though I'm coherently thinking my dialogue in my head.

^^ Very realistic, not being able to pull away though was weird...should have triggered an RC!


+(f) standing on a high place looking down at a low place

+ sitting down by a TV, wishing the midget well on his performance, it's his test, flute music begins, I hear it perfectly and clearly, it's my favorite, Bach flute sonata in e minor (BWV 1034) first movement (without accompaniment) mistake right in the beginning, keeps playing, scene visuals change while music continues to a bizarre amalgam of strange umbrella-shaped trees like I saw recently on FB





I almost fell back into a dream, I felt a sensation like I was standing and hopping lightly on my feet and had a dream entry sensation but then I woke up

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Stayed up late watching "The Purge" movies

00:00 Tuesday 2014-08-05

02:00 bedtime

no wbtb, no middle of the night recording, but I did wake during the night for recall, the dreams came in across 2-3 wakings and I managed to remember at least some of them, there were more but they degenerated into fragments or I forgot them entirely

10:30

+ playing space video game, frag ship following close with phasers. The screen fills my vision, there are lots of ship on screen I'm firing torpedoes and trying to detonate enemy torpedoes, I'm changing course drastically and setting full speed to dodge. I'm not sure what team I'm on (orion or klingon?) but figure later I'm klingon, I see a romulan ship at one point and maybe a federation. At one point I have a fed ship close on my tail I'm moving from left to right, he's right on my tail not quite at 9 o-clock but close enough, I fire several phaser bursts straight to the left and he disappears, I guess I got him.

+ in a prison/hospital, one guy wants to move to the special room. I'm walking/talking with one patient (young male short blonde hair) he wants to go to the room. It's behind bars, the room is large-ish but I'm warning him if he goes in there he'll be spending his entire sentence in there.

+(f) wife is at checkout counter

+(f) downtown B, lots of gourmet restaurants, but they're empty and advertising for chefs

+ in old house, we only have room for the A family or someone else, walking around over sleeping guests. The A's could stay in a hotel, but could also stay with us, there's someone else who wants to stay with us.

+ picking flowers at the childhood playground. I start at the middle level where the clubhouse was, I want to pick flowers for a girl I like, I'm holding a large-ish tall crystal vase in my left hand, I pick a few flowers but they're too short and they fall down inside. I'm looking at one flower that looks like a black tulip with a green stem sticking up out of the flower. Starting to walk down to the lower/basketball level, someone with me stops to lean over the clubhouse railing to take a drink from the drinking fountain. I put down the crystal vase and it almost falls over, I catch it before it does and steady it. Down on the lower level I decide I want some white daisy flowers, I see them growing on the hillside between the levels, I walk over to the hill and jump up on two concrete benches near the hillside and jump onto the hill. I'm picking one daisy flower, I'm trying to reach down all the way to its base so that I get a long enough stem so that the flower will come out of the top of the vase and not just fall down inside. I'm a bit concerned about bugs as I reach down into the clump of green plant stuff where the stem emerges from. I pick several flowers. Some flowers come wrapped in brown paper wrapping with clear plastic windows like rolls from the bakery, one flower is a double-headed flower. I see that my wife has brought the procession of people down to this level so I don't have to climb back up.

00:00 Wednesday 2014-07-30

ugh "recall recoil" night, poor recall tonight, only 4 short dreams, no recording during night, so mucho detail lost, must have been tired, feel actually fairly well rested today.

01:00 pre-bedtime

01:15 (?) bedtime

Wife IWL keeps coming to me (3 times!), turning on the light, and insists I look at the toothbrushes and identity which toothbrush is mine, and after pointing mine out, each time I say "I'm trying to sleep I don't care about the toothbrushes, I'll go buy a new one tomorrow, let me sleep!"

No recording at night so I have no idea about dream times, but in rough order:

+ I have an old white car, it's like a Dodge Dart, some old crap car. It's parked on a moderately steep hill pointing front downwards. I open the hood and there's some sort of metal cover over the engine with the vague impression of engine parts underneath. I start it up. I return to my car and there's another car parked near it. I start driving and turn around and head uphill pressing the accelerator but it doesn't go very fast.

+ I'm walking down CB it's a very steep hill I see entranceways on both this and the other side of the street to underground pathways. My wife tells me about the hidden blueberry fields, I decide to find them, I imagine picking the blueberries off of the bushes.

+ pizza parties everywhere. I'm in a pizza restaurant, I see college housemate MH (for some reason this guy keeps popping up in my dreams even though we were not really close friends...I do see his posts on FB occasionally though) approaching our table, I see his face clearly, I'm really happy to see him, I offer a double high-5, then I turn around and stick my butt in the air for him to spank (!!?), he does and his pizza slides off his plate onto my plate, it's all gooey and mixed up, I don't want to use my hands to separate the pieces, I think mine is the pepperoni one. I then see college housemate NI, and I talk for a while about how NI managed the relationship with the pizza companies and how our house won the competition for most pizza ordered in a year and got a free pizza party as a result.

Heading out to an elevator going down, 2 girls are trying to get position to get next to a guy. Riding up an elevator getting off, the apartment we're going to is open. All the people we know are supposed to be here but there are just two families of people we barely know, they're looking at us as we enter, I see a few cute daughters/wives with beautiful brown eyes, I take the pizza we've brought to the refrigerator and try to put it inside but the shelves are all overflowing with ground meat.

+ selling a small box of my old junk to an aggressive lesbian for over $100. I'm holding a small box of my old junk, old tapes, random crap, I can't believe she will pay me $100 for this junk, she tries to hit me but I avoid it, I start looking at the stuff and decide hey there's some good stuff in here after all, there's the tape to the famous football play, I think I'll just take out and keep the stuff and give the rest of the junk to the lesbian, I'm keeping my eye on her to see if she's noticing me, she tries to hit me again this time she does.

I leave now I'm driving a horse and cart, I have the reins in each hand, I start by "whoa"ing / stopping the horse, then I pull the reins to the left and the horse goes left, then I pull to the right and it goes right, then we approach an narrow metallic stairway/escalator, I wonder if we can get down it, I just keep going and we somehow get down.

While riding I "play" the tape and hear a portion of the famous football play.

00:00 Tuesday 2014-07-29 Competition #18 night #2

00:20 pre-bedtime setting intention

00:37 bedtime

04:25

1) prayer meeting in (my?) living room, multi-level, some people leave the front door is on the upper level, they are offended, some new people arrive, they are very enthusiastic. I listen to the priest speaking, it sounds like gibberish. Then we're giving a presentation of my database coding project, the code is up on a projector. There are some people there from my job, I wonder what they'll think of me working on this side project on my own.

WBTB

07:15

2) epic long multi-scene dream

ski hill:

ski resort terror attack. I am flying DO high above the ground I see a bomb go off and little people fly far in every direction: up, down, left, right, in the air. I watch this replay several times trying to get a good view.

High DO view of people skiing fast down steep rocky slopes. I see little skiers skilfully navigating the slopes among the rocks. I then see some skiers not so skilfully navigating, they fall and their bodies scrape along the rocks. There is a hill shining in the sun the skiers try to get to the top of the hill at a precise time so that they get the special reflection from the sun as they ski down.

There is another path down the mountain to see the reflection, it is a narrow path along a steep crevice. I am there with a group, including Spock and Bones from Star Trek. The track is only one ski wide and I'm saying "oh there's no WAY I'm going to go on that." I can't imagine how when wearing long skis one can even pick up the back ski to place it in front of the front ski to make progress. There is a sharp turn coming up ahead.

lightsaber lab:

I'm observing some light-saber fight between two Darth-Vader like beings, I imagine their lightsabers clashing and the handles getting fused and stuck together. I imagine jumping in to the battle then with my own lightsaber, slicing the bottom of the two stuck lightsabers in half to destroy it, while then taking the top one and using it.

We're approaching a big door, we have to open it somehow, we're then inside but we're still trying to figure out how to open something, I go further into the huge low-lit room and find a workbench with some aspect of the code/security system. I activate it and feel my cell phone ringing/vibrating in my pocket. Of course! I set up this system to call me to ask for the code phrase! I open my phone (it's a flip phone) and try to read the code phrase which is written on a piece of paper tacked to a wall of this work area. Some sort of small cage has been dragged across the code sentence leaving a word in the middle unreadable. The letters in the other words are kind of washed out too but recognizable as words.

I walk by another tall lab bench and see several early models of lightsabers that we were working on, I "recognize" them. One of them is like a toy with a plastic blade, I turn it on and swing it around and it makes some faintly recognizable lightsaber "bzzing" sounds.

A young woman appears and is telling me that she remembers me as the guy who was always falling over slowly to the ground. I'm really embarrassed/angry about this, I tell her angrily that that was only before I was 12 years old and had yet to develop a sense of balance!

My college roomate CL appears and starts packing up some large rectangular plates. I think these were the things he was working on in the lab. Will he bring them back?

A group of people are gathered together sitting closely. One guy is sitting on a horse who is sitting on the ground. The horse has no skin and I see the fibrous muscles, dark and tough, though, like horse jerky, not bloody. "Them's are good eats!" I say, hoping the horse guy will share, I think he will.

star trek:

We're on the bridge of a Star Trek ship, there are various captains chairs. Some communication is received there is a dangerous situation. I see two people sitting on chairs, one has super long dreadlocks/tentacles for hair and is encased in a clear protective bubble. The crew must abandon ship.

I'm in an escape pod, I see a view of the ship as the escape pod detaches: it looks sort of like concentric round rings of various rocket boosters. I see this several times, I feel a jerk as the escape pod finally gets moving.

Down on the surface of an alien planet, with the group from our ship, I have a high DO view as a more experienced crew member tells about this planet, it's (something like) the "Ice Ceiling" planet. Instead of a sky there is a high ceiling and large chunks of ice can fall from it. As he says this I see a large chunk of ice fall down and cover the group.

The group is standing on top of a hill and the experienced crew member brings out the instruction manual for this planet. He reads how one should target (the aliens?"). You draw a line along each of the (triangular?) feet, then draw a line between these two and you have the sensitive spot.

In a city (on the planet?) there are large buildings. Instead of numbers for addresses they use large books of famous literature nailed to the buildings.

Back in the Star Trek ship:

Someone is speaking with Scotty, he will be leading the new Star Trek shows. I (or somebody?) asks "is that the New New shows or the Old New shows?"

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long back to sleep...yet another back to sleep success. It's hot, bed is uncomfortable, but I persevere and fall asleep.

almost WILD/start-of-dream DILD? A dream starts and I realize it's a dream and I wake up. Perhaps vivid HI. I was in some sort of building/prison, building/inspecting a fence.

09:45

3) I'm interacting with two girls from the yearbook club. Then I'm in with the entire yearbook club and there's a big song-and-dance number.

I'm observing a spy who's in disguise talking to a spy target of his. The spy has a terrible disguise: an entire set of false teeth that start falling out as he's speaking, so the row of false teeth is clearly visible in between the two rows of his real teeth.
Then there's a view of an all-white cart/truck that falls down from the sky to appear, the "fence" of the truck are like large false teeth, rectangles rounded on top.

I'm trying to stop/work a tape recorder, there is important information on the tape, I see the tape playing past the end and the tape entirely unravelling from one reel. I eventually find the stop button but it's too late. I wonder how I'm going to get the tape put back together.

I'm entering a small room and closing the door. I have my ipad with me and I'm planning a session of "personal entertainment." Then in a semi-lucid flash of inspiration I realize, "Hey, I could go get a real girl!" I leave the room start walking out ready to start the search but I wake up.

It felt like waking up from a lucid dream, but I don't think I thought I was dreaming fully so I won't count it as lucid.

Did "everything wrong" last night: ate a big meal late, had wine fairly late, went to bed late and really full, but had some excellent dreams. Thanked my SC ala gab many times during the day yesterday for my dreaming experiences and "put in my order" for the kinds of dreams I wanted. Started asking myself "what's odd about this?" during the day after reading Patricia Keelan's bio on LaBerge's Hawaii retreat web page.

Things I did right: ate dream-friendly lunch (almonds, turkey, cheese, tart cherries, milk, flax seed powder), exercised, day practice, added back in some PM targets (hit some, missed some).

02:00 bedtime (argh!)

08:42 (wake time 08:23)

+ plane hijack/crash, they're trying to knock everyone unconscious on board by the G-forces of sudden turns. I feel the turns and every time one happens people on board say "whooooooa!", I feel the blackout coming close but it never overcomes me, I think middle-aged women have taken over the plane. The plane crash lands in Southern California and I think this is a joke because it's not really an abandoned location. I walked by the plane outside now looks more like a large ocean ship I pass it by on the left, I see ahead of me there's a mirage that looks like water, there's someone else with me experiencing the mirage, but I know it's a mirage that will change as we approach closer, we step forwards and the pools of "water" resolve into the large eyes of a big moose sitting on the ground. There's a tree nearby with a well of water inside it, and the moose allows us to drink from it.

+ I see old friend DD and her mother and infant "daughter" standing at a garden fence outside a garden, I feel strong affection towards them and go to join them and say hello. DD and her old mother (a crone with a large witch nose) are walking swiftly through the aisles in the garden which has rows of tall trees laid out in a rectangular pattern. D ignores me. I hear a voice narrating a story that the nearby house (two houses joined together sharing a wall) is haunted/cursed because people used to come there for affairs. I get close to D finally and say a hearty hello but she just says "yeah, hi" sarcastically and keeps moving. I'm really hurt and angry by this rejection, I leave the garden, walking over/slamming the "gate" which is a large colourful bunch of folded paper like Christmas wrapping paper and it falls over behind me on to the ground as I stomp away, I hear D say sarcastically "good job, <my name>". I feel a bit bad because I think this was D's daughter's toy. I hear my sister's voice behind me saying "where has this happened before?", she's trying to chastise me, I'm mad and shout at her over my shoulder

Spoiler for profanity:

"I don't give a mother-fucking shit!"

I see an advertisement for quarters (the coins) being an important part of Thanksgiving dinner (!), the quarters are rolling around on dark streets, I have a close up view, some announcer talks of the important in choosing good quarters (so that the turkey will be good?)

+ My wife and I are talking in my childhood home garage (only realize location after waking), her eyes change from brown to blue and back several times and I'm frickin astonished by this and keep trying to manoeuvre her eyes into better light to see better (SC Gift #1! I missed this one! argh! LD on a silver platter!). She walks from my left to my right and back to my left, to stand by the door, where her eyes seem to settle back to brown, she says "yeah that happens sometimes."

+ (lucid) I'm seated in a very large (outdoor?) bright theatre. I have a friend seated next to me on my left. A few rows down and to the right on a landing, only about 10 feet away, I notice 2 guys have appeared (they weren't there before) and they're singing. These guys are goofy/geeky/weird looking, wearing a lot of odd jewelry/clothing, each one is holding a microphone and singing, they have good voices and harmony, I see them very vividly. I'm thinking about how goofy they look but they probably get girls because they're in a band. An aide(s) starts walking by us up the stairs in the aisle, they're holding prizes, one of them is a large drawing (1m by 2/3m about) colorful (crayon) drawing of something (ship/balloon?) with the word "Dream" or "Dreamer" clearly written (printed) on it (SC Gift #2!), some of the letters are reversed (the "d" and/or the "r"). I think "really? I've been seeing so many t-shirts recently with "dream" written on it, might as well RC," I do a nose pinch and some air leaks through but it seems mostly closed. Hmm, I'm a bit confused, I try pinching harder and breathe again, the air is mostly blocked but some still gets through. I decided to try gravity, I jump a bit into the air and float slowly down, Aha! Yes this is a dream! I run up the steps to the aides who are a few rows above us now, and tear off the poster from the easel and bring it back to my seat, I want to save it for later when I wake up . I then climb up some steps looking about the theatre (more of an amphitheatre), it's filled with people. I'm looking for a CG for a smooch. I settle on one and give her a quick kiss I do not want to engage for too long though. I keep walking, and see a CG blonde with a cream dress, maybe late 20's early 30's. I sit with her and put my hands up her shirt. There are multiple layers and I go under about 3 before I feel the skin of her back. I'm concerned my hands are cold and I don't want to shock her so I put my hands back on top of one layer of clothing. After a bit I put my hands back to the skin and move them around to the front. Her clothing is really tight on top of my hands.

Spoiler for 18+:

I double-grab her fairly substantial breasts and begin squeezing and kneading and pulling on them. This goes on for a while. The next time I pull on them a bit she objects, I think because it's too obvious to people around what I'm doing, but she says that doing so pulls her neck back and forth. She likes it when they're squeezed but not pulled. I'm then standing up and perhaps have lost lucidity a bit so I do another jump and I slowly float down, yep, solidly lucid again. Things seem stable so I decide to escalate and I say "OK, time for some <epithet for cat> f%^&ing!" She's on her hands and knees, knees on a chair and her hands on a table, I raise her cream colored skirt over her butt and I/she start to tear/remove her panty hose and

I wake up. Argh! I'm sleeping on my stomach so I think that explains the unclear/partially blocked nose pinch. Try to relax and go back in but too excited/awake.

Probably 2 hours awake at least, drifting/snoozing, doing counting breaths, SSILD, relaxation, trying to get back to sleep, get the "I WILL LD if I can fall asleep again" feeling, I think about getting up for the day but I don't give up, keep relaxing, and eventually sleep...

11:30

+ (lucid) Indoors in some random house, well-lit. I'm rubbing my left hand in circles on my son's right shoulder, he's intently watching a TV/microwave, I realize I'm dreaming but feel my awareness is at the bottom of a well, very unstable, just keep rubbing and rubbing his shoulder and eventually feel substantial enough to move, and start walking a bit into the scene. I find myself standing at a white square small ceramic sink with no faucet in a non-descript room , and I'm running my hands around the back corners of the sink (left hand on left side/corner, right hand on right/back corner) back and forth, to stabilize. I decide I will do sivason simultaneous focus and try to maintain focus on both my dream body and the dream environment and walk towards a door but immediately feel very dizzy/unstable. Stand still, more hand rubs. Things stabilize a bit. I start walking down the hallway, it is my current IWL home. I think about going out the front door, decide to jump out the kitchen window. Walk down the corridor, turn left into the kitchen, the window is there (wrong kind of window), through the lower panes I see the bright sunlit outside, I don't hesitate and immediately run towards the left window pane and dive headfirst through it, don't feel any glass, the world orientation sort of rotates and swirls a bit to simulate my dive then I'm on the ground outdoors, "COOL!" I think. The ground is made of the same floor / ceiling tiles as the kitchen, then things start fading, I think just a moment and the scene will clarify to a proper street scene, then I wake up.

This was a notable LD because it probably was just a waking moment and I was able to hold on to it and turn it into a proper multiple-scene (if short) LD with a cool dive out the window.

Another awesome multi-sleep-cycle dreaming night with good retention, woohoo just need to start converting these to lucids somehow.

Will fill in details later when I have a real keyboard

16 minutes of voice recorder notes. Remee on, first waking came just about exactly at remee signal interval (4.5 hours)

+ escape from the bad boys to the golf course (near-epic)

+ signing a contract to take care of the doctors baby for 2 weeks for free

+ my kids catch me with NSFW content on the laptop and unclothed lying on the living room floor, very embarrassing

+ KS's father allows me in the club, luxurious and crazy tennis, exchanging gifts with Arnold Schwarzenegger

+ attack on our club I am a newbie with a shotgun getting advice from a veteran I shoot an opponent starting the war

+ playing chess he's really pushing his pawns my pieces are not yet on the board put them there use queen to back up my pawn break

+ tennis test I pass with faster and faster and more and more accurate volleys I may play Ivan Lendl I go lok for my shoes and socks to get ready to play

+ elevator in the hardware store they're evacuating go outside it's cold/rainy need to get back to the other section of the store which is far away

+ I've learned how to control the super tank weapon: I can shoot it without the tank recoiling hundreds of yards, this will lead to massive advantage in battle. The secret is that you must drive the tank forwards while firing the weapon, then you will maintain your position. I see a field of tanks in the distance firing the weapon (sort of orangeish beams of energy) and all the tanks suffer huge recoil, zipping backwards far distances.

+ Cars are going off the road and through the curtain, I'm waving them back on to the road

+ I see industrial buildings in the distance: half-constructed, or abandoned

+ The bricked yard is dirty (later realize this is IWL parent's house front yard), I see dirt along the edge of the ground/house, and in the corner, I think I should at first vacuum it but who uses a vaccum cleaner in the yard? I think a leaf blower is another good option, you can gently pulse it (otherwise the dirt will just fly all over the place), making neat piles of dirt that you can then sweep up easily, the ground will be really clean.

I move to the brick porch and brush some dirt away from the bricks with my hands. I notice that there is a HOLE in the brick patio, like several layers of bricks have fallen out, there is sort of a construction skeleton showing where the bricks used to be, below the patio there is only air going far below.

I'm looking up above me now at the ceiling, thinking how to fill in the bricks that have fallen out. There is a rectangular section needing to be filled in, it looks like 1 1/2 bricks are needed in a repeating pattern, , I'll need to form 1/2 bricks somehow, then use mortar and fill them all in. I'm pushing bricks and chunks of dried mortar in to place but they're not holding, a single brick falls down, I watch it fall far into the air below me, where it strikes a massive brick castle/building, which starts then to collapse. I mean, come on, just one brick? The building slowly, entirely collapses in on itself into rubble, Uh Oh! Well, that couldn't have been a very safe building to begin with, if just hitting it with a single brick can destroy it, the same thing could happen just by walking around inside it, it was a very unsafe building! Also, the building was only recently excavated/discovered, and the sponsor of the excavation can't be mad because it was only just discovered.

+ I'm writing a message on paper, my lines are not horizontal, I see that they are sloping down and to the right. I move to the next line and try to aim to be horizontal but it's still slanting to the right. I write the letter "a" in script, look at it, think it doesn't look much like an "a" and try again. I then think I should continue writing down and to the right so that the rest of the line can be level at least, I think about drawing an arrow from the spot where I stopped to the where I'm going to start to show the flow of reading.

+ I'm sitting in a booth across from a beautiful blonde wearing blue jeans, I think we're parting, I want her contact information because she will probably become a very famous musician, I love her music and want to stay in touch with her. Is she a hooker? I don't want her to think me asking her information means I want to call her like a hooker. I think I'd better just go, I feel very poignant at this parting, she's sitting besides me now, I reach over with my right hand and gently touch her knee/leg (on her blue jeans), say "goodbye", stand up and go, I go forwards, turn around the end of a low barrier and walk back the other way, looking at her one last time, wondering if she'll be looking at me, and I see she is, but she's wearing really big Elton-John style sunglasses.

I now think I'm on an airplane, I'm walking by aisles of people sitting down. Look at some of the women, hey that's not just cleavage, that's a fully exposed boob! See several of these, move on, I need to get off the airplane, I can feel it moving, starting to taxi to takeoff. I need to get off, I'm not going to fly to the destination. How can I contact the captain? I speak to a flight attendant, can I get off? I think so and I anticipate going to my favorite Thai restaurant (I think I'm in Seattle) and getting pad thai, that will be awesome.

There is a line of people arranged in two rows standing facing each other, there is some sort of force field protecting the aisle between them (this is the way off?) children will go first. I see someone touch the field and see a big electrical flash and hear a ZZZZZZap!

+ I'm on a huge voice controlled elevator, like a massive freight elevator but in a really big fancy mansion in the contemporary/modern style. My son has directed the elevator to go to the showers. He asks me how I know it's moving, I can feel the gravity effects changing and say that's how you know. I catch a glimpse of outside (elevator has clear/glass walls?), like a canyon. I turn towards the door of the elevator and say "<Son>'s room", then exit into a large hallway with modern/tall/glass doors. I expect to see an indicator of some sort and indeed to the left down the hallway there is a large square indicator blinking. I walk there and enter the room.

The room is huge decorated in modern/contemporary style, low lighting but not too dark, I see very many things spread out through the open space, walk through, see a huge captain's chair raised up off the floor and think this must be the media/movie chair the screen must be in the wall across from it, turn around a corner into another huge area, my son points out the "spikey ball pit" which I see in the distance barely, I think we're going to see his bed, I get lucid and am still here in this same room, I wonder at the solidity, the clarity, it's completely stable, but I feel compelled to retrace my steps, I leave the room and walk past the elevator (not noticing it) into a large outdoor open area where there are people moving around doing things, kicking a soccer ball, I want the to go away so I can (summon a girl?), I wave my hand across the scene willing them to vanish, and when I put my hand down I feel satisfied, the scene is empty of DCs now. I continue walking forwards, and reach behind me and summon the musician/hooker/blue-jeans/blonde and vaguely note that she's holding my hand as I continue walking forwards. I reach a corner and sit down on a sort of bench, all decoaration is gone, walls/floors are white and featureless. I start taking a dump, things are a bit loose. A woman approaches and picks up a laptop case located right next to me and walks away, hey is that my laptop? I'm not sure. If it is, what will I do, I'm here for a job and I'll need my laptop to get work done. I notice two CGs seated right in front of me, I start to appreciate their features and think I should get down to business but then the dream ends.

+ sliding down a super steep sandy hill to an ocean beach where I walk out to catch a glimpse of the special lobsters and get attacked by gangsters. I'm standing at the top of the hill observing the beach/ocean and wondering if I can get down this hill. I run/slide down and decide it's not so hard. I see the water and the shore and wonder if I should swim diagonally from the point near me to the far side of the shore, or just walk along the shore, which is faster, I see a diagonal path through the water. Out on the rocks in the water on the far side of the beach I see two special/prized old lobsters. Some thugs get angry and jump me.

+ jumping through windows in a restaurant avoiding/fighting thugs. I'm indoors and looking for a way out, I see a window with a screen door over a sink, I hop up open the window push out the screen and do a front flip out of the window.

+ the sterling silver tea set is on the ground outside the garage door where anybody could steal it, I move it inside the garage and make space for it. What was it doing outside, anyway?

+ a girl has the remote control for the satellite launch, it takes a few circles overhead before it's pointing the right direction and heads for space. It's about 1 meter square and full of tubes and space-y looking things.

+ (movie?) a guy is talking about the alien raining-fire attack, he hid under a low platform but his friends were only two wet spots left on the ground because they didn't make it in in time

+ The movie theatre interrupts the movie before the end to announce someone lost a watch, everyone in the theater has to help, I find it, I see a patron dressed up as an alien with boobs on her neck. It's a fairly normal looking and sized movie theater, it's still fairly dark inside when they interrupt the movie it's not entirely clear if it's finished yet, we're looking for the watch, I bend down and peer between various rows of seats, against the left wall of the theater I see a watch on the ground, it's a ladies watch with diamonds in the face and a diamond studded band, I hold it in my hand and look for an usher, I find one and give it to him. I see people sitting in the theather, including a woman with an alien costume which is a strange neck attachment making her neck look very tall and impossibly thin in places, she pulls this down to reveal two magnificent breasts, one on each side of her neck, I look at her a few times.

+ Standing in an outdoor area, I walk right up to the tall, beautiful star, who is standing to the side by herself, she is one of three beautiful stars (of some program?) and boldly kiss her for a while. I take her upper lip between mine and just feel it there for a while sort of moaning in pleasure, it feels absolutely fantastic, I wake up with my pillow between my lips I want to DEILD and just relax and re-enter the dream but non-lucid:

+ re-enter dream and now she's furious with me, she walks into an outdoor restaurant and complains about me to her friend, I see her yelling and pointing/gesturing towards me, when her friend glances back at me I give her a cocky wave, maybe I can get with her friend instead, they stay inside and sit down. I float through to the front observing a strange woman served on white cushions, she demands that everything served to hear is super sterile and clean. She is sitting / lying on a white couch to the right of a round table, there is a mirror image of her or another woman to the left of the table, a round white cushion with beige circumference appears and she moves to sit on top of that, I'm hovering above her looking down she stretches out on the couch with her feet towards the top and some pills appear on the couch in a pattern, she sweeps them up and swallows them.

I'm back in the outdoor area and encounter the tall beautiful star again, she's wearing different clothes (a nice tight clingy sweater?) she's not angry with me, I kiss her again lightly a few times and decide to move on before she gets angry again, and say "I'll see you later," I'm going to look for one of the 2 other stars, I see one with another guy she seems crazy/mad so I decide to move on.

+ I'm walking in what seems like a lobby of a movie theater or a casino-carnival, I wander into a room with tables of clear plastic-topped packages of food like caviar (orange and black, on bread), I pick a package up and keep looking around, I realize this is a corporate party and it's not my company, I'm concerned someone will notice I don't belong and kick me out but nobody does, there aren't very many people, I see a woman at the front seated at the table preparing some of the dishes, some of them look like big pans of beans and I say "mmmm". I eat the caviar. I'm walking around the lobby and see an advertisement for a "bourbon bar" and think that sounds good but I can't drink because I'm driving. Farther along I see a huge open carnival area with people playing games and making lots of noise in the distance (sort of like a Circus-Circus play area with lots of game booths). I hear/imagine a booth is a girl booth where you can win some girls to take back to your room.

Walking back I pass a booth with two pale naked Japanese ladies writing around and touching themselves, there is a totally white/pale man there he's the game organizer, I see long hair on the body of the girl to the right but realize it's just hair that has come loose from her hairdo and is lying loose on top of her body, I see the girl on the left is "wide open" and apparently using her fingers.