side notes

21:30 put on my new blue-blocking UVEX safety glasses, wear all the way to bed time. People with chronic bed-time insomnia report these help better than sleeping pills. I don't have bed-time insomnia but figure every minute of getting to sleep faster is more dreaming during the night and better rest. I also wear them for WBTB where I need to turn on some lights.

23:00 100mg 5-HTP hoping for REM rebound and deep restful sleep for first half of night + bedtime

Prepared 2x4mg Galantamind, 1x300 choline bitartrate, 2x300mg Alpha-GPC
No REMee tonight, in anticipation of long BTB after taking the G.

00:00 Monday 2014-05-05 LD #36 Galantamine, TOTM

03:47 alarm, took G mixture and banana (to ensure pills actually hit stomach, and get some additional energy to brain for epic long dreaming)

04:45 wide awake, take 0.3mg melatonin to help with getting back to sleep

05:44 not sleeping yet, feeling a bit hungry, eat 3 small corn tortillas with about 1/3 of an avacado and small glass of milk, to prevent staying awake from empty stomach rumblings and to provide fuel for anticipated epic long LDs.

Lots of HH: mostly faint dark blobs flashing in front of my eyes. A few HI: 1) a box of breakfast cereal on a shelf, 2) a newspaper with a headline, and 3) beautiful blonde shepherdesses with some goats in a pasture.

07:45 somewhere around here finally fall asleep. Indulging in stimulating daydreaming too much. Finally stop that and put full sleep relaxation kung-fu into place. Try hard to enjoy where I am, "not trying" to sleep but just float in relaxation. Somewhere in there my thoughts finally subside and I sleep.

+ watching TV and I knew the time on the TV was wrong, it showed 03:00 but I knew I had been up for hours so it should be more like 07:00

+ TV show: (scene from the Sopranos?) Two guys in some sort of tropical hut open to the outside, one guy is saying "we're done for, they're going to find us", the second guy (in Hawaiian shrit?) is important (Tony Soprano?) I'm pretty sure they won't wack hiim, another guy walks in from the left, I focus on him, a somewhat hazy gun is in his left hand he's holding it up pointing it into the room, then somebody off-screen to the left shoots him (the one with the gun), he has no shirt on, I see the bullet shoot through his body, entering around his right side mid-ribcage and exiting from the middle of his chest, bright red blood starts gushing in a stream from the entrance wound, his face goes slack, his hand starts moving slowly to cover the entrance wound, I think that won't help at all because if he covers it up it will just start gushing from the exit wound.

+ wife tells me something and I respond like it doesn't matter (because I'm dreaming?)

+ I'm in a cluttered room in a random house. I'm reaching for a large round cookie tin at the top of a tall cabinet (raided my folk's extra freezer for a tin of frozen brownies yesterday IWL...mmmmm, frozen brownies!), I grab it and am bringing it down to me, and my mantra hits for no apparent reason, "I'm dreaming..."...HEY! I AM dreaming!". Quick nose pinch confirms it, I can breathe! I try to put the cookie tin down on the ironing board to my left but I miss and it falls to the floor, for a brief instant I consider picking it up but I laugh at myself and realize I shouldn't give a sh*t cuz this is an LD and just turn away from it heading to the right. Feel unstable, vision is fading to white, I instantly rub hands. I rub them and feel for them and look for them, this always works wonders for me but not today, I feel them but can't see them. I try my full-body pat-down but only get a few pats in before stopping, I see my dream body a bit but I'm still in vague whiteness. I "bring out the nukes" and spin around counter clockwise for a while [I haven't done this since LD #1!] still in whiteness, I wonder if I'll end up somewhere different, I stop and I'm back in the room. I continue forwards out of the room, there's a small hallway there with a darkened room to the left. What should I do? TOTM! AH! Shots with Angelina Jolie! What is the other task??.....ah ok, the force, I think I'll start there it's easier, just TK something as there's nobody around, I look around and see some notebooks lying on the ground at my feet. I take a few steps backwards into the room I started in with my eyes on the notebooks, hold out my left hand and will one of the notebooks to come to my hand, AND IT DOES! Woohoo, first mindful TK. "That's awesome" I say and toss the notebook back down where it started. OK, SHOTS TIME! I start thinking about Angelina and begin working up a summon for her, but I wake up.

22:10 bedtime, 3mg melatonin hoping for REM rebound in morning, looks like it worked!

03:14

+ in frozen yougurt/ice cream shop I'm at counter a man (and woman) clerk are on the other side of the counter the man is to the right, a woman with a child arrives to my left into line. I'm fumbling with my wallet and money, I'm choosing what to get. I'm trying to see what flavors are available. I ask "what's in that one?" and the man offers me a cookie, I say "no, what's the flavor of that one." It's a mixture: cookies, bizet, caramel, chocolate, he says "the flavor is whatever you put in there", it's not really an ice cream more a dessert mixture, you're supposed to add ice cream to it. I notice that while I've been choosing a long line of people has built up.

05:32

very long series of dreams including a lucid

+ in a car with wife, I'm driving, driving on a road, which is a narrow shelf between a hill sloping up and to the left and a river off to the right. I see 3 animals on the hillside to the left we're approaching them, one is a small orange fox poking out of a hole, and there are two other animals above (1 below) the fox. Immediately after that I see a mother rabbit holding back its baby rabbit with its teeth so that the baby does not jump into the road. Just after that I see a hedgehog walking slowly across the road I don't want to hit it I maneuver the car so that the hedgehog passes between the wheels, I turn around and look behind me out the rear window to see if I hit it, I see the sandy road but nothing else.

Going farther forwards I miss a turn-off to the left, now I'm concerned because this road is narrow and there likely will be nowhere to turn around. I eventually do encounter enough room and turn around. I'm thinking the next time I'm lucid in a car I shouldn't bother with just simple flying, I should summon a Star Wars hyperdrive control and use it to launch myself into a random place deep in space in the galaxy and just turn it off randomly and see where I end up. I think several times about pushing the hyperdrive control to do that.

Approaching the turn off I missed earlier I look up the hill to the right and see city buildings, I think this is the right road and keep heading towards it.

+ With wife fixing something at an outdoor maintenance place, my wife is pumping out water, I'm just standing there watching, 3 guys come up and do something. I see two blue backpacks on the ground against a wall, I think they're mine, I start touching them, the 3 guys get upset I'm touching them, they're their backpacks it turns out, I say "excuse me" in a foreign language. They're still looking at me I say "well I said excuse me." I'm concerned they think I'm not a native because I speak their foreign language with an accent probably. I tell my wife we should get out of here because I'm nervous about these guys.

Then I think hey I'm a man I should do the work, I get down and take over the pumping. It's a bicycle hand pump, and we're pumping the water out from another (stand-up pump), so I screw the stand-up pump together with the hand-pump. We have a sleeping bag/roll spread out on the ground under the pump. These guys are pumping out water over on top of our stuff through a tube of water, over our bags, etc., I'm moving their water hose to the side away from our things it keeps coming back. I keep adjusting their hose and finally make it stick in a better position.

While pumping I look down closely on the ground and see a big frog/toad. I say "Hey, froggy!" I see it close up. I hold out my left hand and it jumps onto my hand. It's gooey/squishy, think I may catch something from it so I turn my hand over and plop it back to the ground.

+ leaving a museum with my mother can't find her, I realize I don't have her cell phone, I think "I want my mother!" I'm carrying a lot of packages, a woman clerk is helping me get out, there are people in my way, I'm pushing through them. Outside there are a lot of people standing around, and there's a guy with glasses who looks a lot like TZ, I think it's TZ at first but I look closely and decide it's not him. There are several guys who look like him. He's teaching a science lesson to a group he's leading.

+ Standing inside my childhood home sister's old bedroom (where I'm sleeping IWL this night) and TZ (really him) is standing also, he's there to collect his things. I look around the room and I see pure white walls, I say "hey did they paint the walls of this room recently?" Then I get a fake memory of them painting this room. I don't know if I should speak to TZ because we've (IWL) had a falling out. Now we'rd both just heading down the stairs I'm in front, I"m still trying to decide if I should speak to TZ. I decide we've been family friends for so long I should say something. I turn around the look up at him and say in a friendly voice, "Hey, how's it going?" He gets upset we're walking down the stairs, he sticks his elbow out at me and says "what you're really doing is this" (his gesture, meaning I'm keeping him at a distance), he's insulted that I"m even trying to speak to him. He's really rude. He keeps waving/poking his elbow at me to brush me off. I'm tremendously offended and upset by this. He goes out on to the deck via the back porch, I go into the kitchen and look at him standing on the deck through the kitchen window. He's with his new girlfriend and I want to set things straight with him, so I go to the back porch door and look out but he's kissing her so I come back inside and say "oh never mind". I'm looking for something in the refridgerator and there's some kind of a book club meeting going on in the house.

+ standing in a sporting good store, talking to several young guys (brothers) and their father, I say if you're working out (with weights) and build up some muscle you'll feel good about yourself and you'll have better luck with the ladies. But the most important thing is confidence...confidence, and .... (can't think of anything else), just be really confident. One of the guys says "but what if they don't choose me?" And I say "Well, you know, then YOU go and choose THEM, be confident and assertive." These guys all look the same and I'm kind of creeped out by this and leave.

Then I'm walking down climbing under ground through very short narrow openings. I have this idea, "Oh, no, not the Jared's again" (they're the guys I was just talking to in the store), "I'm tired of dreaming, I just want to have some restful sleep (and I'm lucid). I'm continuing through the area. I look into one room with huge fat old naked swollen women (like monster ticks or cows), I say "Hello, ladies!" and keep moving on. I continue on walking and come to an open area in a mall, a cosmetic/perfume area. A girl is sitting at a desk to my right. I look at her, she's young & attractive, I say "ok," and walk up to her, while I'm walking she suddenly appears old. Then her face becomes fluid and unclear like her face is switching between many different faces very quickly. I will her to be young again and she is young. I stand her up from her chair with a hand on each of her shoulders and say "OK, come stand over here" and I put her a bit to the left of the desk, on the first step leading up to another part of the cosmetics department. I put her there so I'll be able to embrace her easier. I start getting the waking up feeling and I instantly take several steps backwards away form her saying "Oh, no" (with inflection like "I'm not going to allow this to happen, no way" ). I recite my sivason dream yoga immunity to shock mantra, "My mind controls my reaction, my mind controls my reaction." I step up to her again and I wake up.

08:06

another grand adventure

+ I was with some people and I wanted to show that I was Captain America. My costume was down in a back room, with other giant hockey jerseys lying on the ground. I summoned the Captain America bouncy ball, a child's small bouncy ball (1/2 inch diameter) painted with the emblem on Captain America's shield. I felt things in my pockets and I wondered which pocket I should check. I decided that I expected to find it in my left pocket and reached in and pulled out the ball! The ball I knew has the poweris that if you hold it up against a dream character's head, they do exactly what you want them to do. It takes all the work out of DC mind control. I showed this ball to a guy and I joked that I would throw it and it would fly around the corner into another room and that it would give me control over one of the cute girls in the room.

I was returning to the jersey room to return my costume and the ball and I come across a strange table circular saw with many wavy saw blades built into a cube frame. In a closet there were about a dozen replacement blades (3D) for the saw. Kind of looks like a room fan. I think this is a safety hazard since someone could walk into it and cut off their leg accidentally.

So much going on hard to remember it all.

With a group of people, in a room, we're travelling somewhere, we're on a quest. I'm sitting behind one of the girls in the next booth, behind her, and I move my face up to her right ear and nuzzle against her right cheek through her hair trying to put a move on her, I say "are you concerned for your parents? It's OK because Captain America is on our side and he will help us."

Our group is in a car, we approach a large open expanse of water, it is night, I'm sitting in the back seat of the car. We need to get over to the other side of this lake/ocean. There are dozens of highly bizarre ferry boats and water vehicles in every direction ahead of us. Someone (my sister?) in the car says: "isn't it funny that in dreams your car can always driver over water?" (we're already heading out on to the water in the car. I'm looking around, the view is fascinating and bizarre. To the left I see a 3-foot tall Tyrannosaurus Rex about 10 feet away wading through the water. I exclaim "Hey guys there's a 3-foot tall dinosaur to the left! It's a Tyrannosaurus Rex!" Nobody responds. This huge slug-shark thing with a long body and shark-ish face is approaching us I yell "Step on the gas, the shark-thing is heading right for us!".

We're across the water and it's day time. I'm racing up the stairs heading into the city with one of the group. He's on the stairs I'm on the hill to the right of the stairs. I think this dream is long, I can't wait until I wake up and can compare notes with [my stair racing friend], since we're shared dreaming (fake memory), I want to see if his memory of this dream matches mine. We reach the top of the stairs and we need to find the alligator statue to prove this is the right city. I think where it will be, to the left or the right, where should I expect to find it. I choose the right, I turn there and see strange painted emblems on the ground, I think I say "I've found it!" but my friend says no that's not it. I look into the city and it is covered with billboards and banners, all written in (what I think is) Itailian. I say 'Look the writing's in Italian this must be the right place".

00:00 Tuesday 2014-04-22

00:20

Took bodybuilding amino acid blend at bedtime as reported here: http://www.dreamviews.com/lucid-aids...ml#post2097555

It delivered wild and wacky and vivid late morning dreams and lucidity. Epic recall (yay, it's been a while). Long dream(s).

00:45 bedtime

06:00 woke with no recall, unusual, disappointed, thought the AA blend resulted in the first zero recall night in months.... Fall back asleep.

07:40 alarm

+ In parent's house (primary dream sign, missed it), I'm in my old room, I see TZ as a small girl carrying one of my sons's trophies about to throw it, I say "don't throw that!" she throws it anyway, I enter hallway and parent's bedroom following her, I kneel down and set her on my knee and take the trophy into my hand and explain to her that this is very valuable, I try to look at the bottom of the trophy to see which son it belongs to but there's no writing there, the trophy is like a strange piece of coral with many many spikey turrets on it and is white. I walk back through hallway and see MD standing there, I say "hi, how's it going" and walk on. Downstairs I hear my wife singing in my parent's living room with a crowd of people, I'm wearing just a bathrobe and it doesn't fit I'm trying to pull the opening together at my chest level, I walk through the back porch to avoid being seen by the new people there, I'm also wearing funny slippers, I encounter PZ at the door to the kitchen and say "hi" to her.

09:30

+ Observing some sort of auction, they're buying all of our stuff ("look, there goes the dresser!" "There goes our fancy display case!"). After it's over the managers of the auction are playing our piano, they've transformed it into a grand piano and I hear it is slightly out of tune, they're adjusting it. I'm in a room with my wife who says we should have sold all of our stuff directly instead of using a go-between, I tell her no the advertising and the shipping costs would have eaten away all the profits. We got 18% of the proceeds and I think this is a good deal considering all the expenses.

+ driving on a road trying to find a place to pull over it's in traffic not easy to do. Driving in to a public park there's a rec center there, go inside see what I think are handball courts, I imagine the game and go to watch it, the courts are full of swarthy little men they say no it's not handball it's <something>. Very strange/bizarre/frenzied action they're moving super fast manipulating little strange objects very quickly like a living pinball game sort of, I climb over the middle of a large game wheel that is outside of the handball courts in between their uses of it.

+ In a large room I'm trying to pick up some things that keep falling away from me, I think it's really frustrating and funny how they keep falling, eventually they fall into a small pile of sand and I see the things skink in to the sand out of my control/reach, I say "you've got to be kidding me!" I see the things sink slowly into the sand I can't stop them, I'm frustrated. I'm concerned about large plastic garbage bags filled with egg yolks suffocating me. I leave this area and meet with with some girl friends they're chastising me I say what can I do there was quicksand and suffocating bags of eggs!

Re-enter the large room and there's a maniac in there who has harnessed the power of the eggs and is terrorizing large groups of people. He's standing in the middle of the room on some sort of large contraption spewing out egg yolks and he's wielding its power. He summons and shoots a basketball-sized orange at me at high speed I manage to dodge it. He telepathically pins a group of people to the wall on the right with their arms up over their heads. He summons dozens of kitchen knives pointed at them and shoots them quickly aimed at their hands. I can't tell if the knives hit their hands or he just teases them by just barely missing their hands.

I go out the front door with 2 guys we plan to take him down, we're going to sneak up on him from the rear and hit him on the head. We're in the back area and sneak up on him and we see Harry Potter's wand on the ground, we grab it and regroup in the back room, we think after all that planning it was easy to grab the wand. It's a slightly bend small colorful tube (green?) wrapped in colorful electrical tape.

+ On a bus with people, we enter a mall. There's a large white building (parking garage?) overflowing with blackened tormented scary beings many of them holding swords at each level of the structure. Many of them are on the ground along the road as well (apparently in Hell?). I say out lould "Oh man I always hate coming here!" People on the bus agree.

Further along we approach a building and a couple of attractive but strange looking large birds (turkey sized) are jumping at the windows of the bus on the left side, we're amused by this, I say to the guy in the seat behind me "it's trying to kiss you!" the bus drives by.

We arrive at the rear exit to the museum a small glass-walled room with an automatic sliding glass door, I sneak quickly inside when someone exits. I'm thinking we can all enter this way. I try to prop the door open but a museum worker helps by jamming a stick into the mechanism, people from the bus enter the little room.

Water is falling down on us a woman says we should leave this area because it's raining, I say no, I see up above there is water falling through a grate I know this is a groundskeeper watering the plants on the level above us there is a stairway to go up to that level.

+ I see myself falling asleep (dream within dream) and seeing dream-dream imagery through my dream eyelids, I try to open my dream-dream eyes into the dream-dream but the images vanish and I'm "awake" back in the dream.

+ I'm walking through rooms, dropping coins, wife says not to do that, I tell her it doesn't matter because I'm dreaming, I open a door but first thing, "What's behind this door? A PARTY!" and open the door, look around, it's an almost empty white walled room I see behind the door (my wife?) is sitting on the ground against the wall (with a laptop?), the light is low but not really very dark, it's like a pleasant light from a single warm bulb on the ground. I'm laughing / happy, this is a GREAT game! I'm running I go to the other side of the room and ask her "What do you think is behind this door? A PARTY!" I open the door and there is indeed a party in there. Middle-aged women are around the room, well-dressed, in makeup, I'm looking for an attractive woman, I see some sitting on a couch, one has nice cleavage, I approach them and have two of them stand up next to me like I'm arranging some party activity, and bring the two together and I go to kiss the one on the left and wake up.

Lucidity low and basically no memory, not TOTM-worthy, but still quite fun. I think I was into and out of lucidity throughout much of the scenes above but don't really remember exactly when except right at the end there. There were earlier scenes, too, before the beignning of the recalled dreams.

00:00 Monday 2014-04-21

in my lucid hideout. Glorious black of no city lights, utter silence around. Heaven. Just a bit chilly though.

00:43 bedtime

got lazy. Had a number of fun & wacky dreams and just kept building up their memories in my head from waking to waking instead of recording. I successfully kept them all until the last waking of the day when they almost all promptly vanished except the last one. Grrr!

09:59

+ interrupted a couple making out/doing it. Stuck my body into the action, directed the girl down to my (ahem) and she performed some brief oral.

(barely remembered the above...just had a strange nagging feeling: "Wait a minute, didn't I get a blowjob last night?")

+ sliding down the hills to the city below

+ swimming?

+ food / pizza?

+ I'm an assistant teacher to a class of kids. I'm goofing off all the time with other assistants. There's a girl with a ton of tattoos, and some other guys with me, we're singing and joking and ignoring the class. The principal (short man) and asst. principal (short woman) enter the class and chastise us. "Have you been teaching classical mechanics?" he asks? I avoid the question because the answer is obviously, "no." We get in trouble. I'm anguished about this because I think I've wasted a great opportunity, now how will I ever get another recommendation? I'm so concerned, I'm fiddling nervously with a telescoping antennae like from a walkie-talkie, extending it and collapsing it over and over again.

Then one of the assistants comes in saying "the <something> guy [a DC from earlier in the dream] is starting a band!" We whoop in excitement, I run giddily down a hallway, including sliding down a steep ramp, into the audition area where that guy is. I say I play the <my instrument> and can play chords and do some fingerpicking on guitar." I want to say I can play trumpet too (I can't ), just not very well. We're on a small stage getting ready for the audition. I can't find a music stand that works, I'm trying to pull one up but the stands are all on the floor. I look over the shoulder of the band-starting-guy at some sheet music propped up on a piano. I sing an ascending scale saying something funny "la-la-la-la-la-LA-LA COCOA PUFFS!" everyone cracks up. I'm cracking up too, except I find suddenly my mouth is full of food, I'm trying to tell people not to make me laugh so much because I may choke.

We're sudden in custody in a large building in some company, we're still in trouble from the school. There are a lot of people there. I say "friends don't turn friends over to custody at Cocoa-Puffs" [meaning the company that makes Cocoa-Puffs].

00:00 Sunday 2014-04-20

04:45 bedtime

I'm amazed I remembered anything, to bed about 6 hours late and slept for only for about 5 hours, had a few shots of scotch near bedtime.

+ Disc Jockey contest, the new guy vs. me, he has a new-DJ handicap where he can score points much more easily.

+ Throwing thermal detonators in a "jedi knight, dark forces II" themed battle in hallways & around corners, and detonating mines in a dream-incubated battle scene, wow that didn't take long [just started playing it 2 days ago to add some imagination, mix things up a bit, incubate light saber use in dreams].

+ battle swimming through water with another team, I pass them but they attack

+ at the milk products counter I hand in my yogurt and they pull a lid for it that fits out from under something in the display case, I was concerned they wouldn't accept it at first (wtf?)

+ a guy/kid jumps off a rock from a high place landing below and people run to see if he's hurt (dirt bike canyon diving incubation probably).

+ entering a grocery store turnstile

23:00 bedtime

00:00 Saturday 2014-04-19

05:07

+ LD #31 I find myself suddenly standing within a huge empty stone rectangular empty quarry like a huge pool, I knew this location was not possible to be in, and that just before I was somewhere else, and I could not be here now so I must be dreaming. No memory after that point, probably woke up. Didn't record at first, probably from earlier waking, remembered this at this (05:07) waking.

+ with wife in a rich neighbourhood talking about all the rich ladies, and how they played tennis so I told her she'd have to play tennis now, too. I make a comment with some numerical statistics (rate of higher education degrees of the lades in the neighborhood?) and a group of neighborhood rich women are walking by, my wife immediately goes up to one and says "my husband says <some numerical statistic> about you" I feel really embarrassed, but the woman thoughtfully stops and says something like "yes that's about right."

+ on a grassy hillside in the sunshine with rich people they're parting and drinking. There are picnic blankets spread out here and there. Suddenly it's like a movie fade/transition to the same scene some time later, my vision is all blurry and I think this is because I'm seeing the scene being drunk after having drunk for a while. Someone makes a comment about people's dirty butt cheeks wiping on the picnic blankets that explains why the blankets have become all crusty.

+ Introduction of a sidekick for a famous TV talk show host. He shows up and he's auditioning. He's standing right in front of me (inside a room in front of a window?), I see his face clearly and his hair he's kind of funny looking. He starts talking immediately and makes an improvised funny statement about some (rock band?) and some guy, I'm impressed by his cleverness. This is what he does on the show, me makes clever off-hand improvised remarks before the cut to commercial.

Then I see the "show" live. It's outside on a city street. A film crew is on my side of the street the "show" is on the other side, the sidekick guy is in his "place," which is standing out the ledge outside a first story window (his feet are about 5-6 feet above street level) with his back against the two-pane (upper/lower) window. I think that's a pretty uncomfortable spot to have to stand for the whole show and think it's pretty funny. He's been the good friend and partner of the talk show host ever since, for a long time.

The sidekick's name is something like "Ralph Michaels."

Looking through another window where the "show" sidekick is standing, I see people inside working like at a software company, a woman is standing and (facing the window and thus me) writing something on a transparent "white board," I see the marks she's making and I hear the sqeauk squeak squeak of the marker on the board. The a big fat guy come forward and starts talking and it's like a commercial for the company,

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Was very awake at this point. Was awake in bed for a while, decided might as well WBTB properly. Got up for water/bathroom, sat on the edge of the bed for a while, thinking about the dreams, deciding I should go back to bed and resolve to recognize my dreams. Ended up thinking for a while about some of the correspondence chess games I'm playing. Bad idea, kept me awake. Decided to completely let go and aim for sleep, as I only had about 1.5 hours left in the night before the alarms would be going off.

08:37

+ at work, I had a huge desk (2 meters wide by 1 meter deep at least), I had two desk phones on the left side of the desk otherwise it was mostly empty on top. I could see beneath the top covering of the desk some pattern like computer printed circuit cards. I receive a call on my phone I see the name on the caller ID I don't answer it but realize it was a guy I wanted to talk to. I make a call? I receive another call which I answer and there is a deep male voice there asking who it was just called him, I'm a bit confused I say it might have been me but it must have been a wrong number, sorry. I stand up and recognize a (real memory) former colleague walking by me, he does a slow big walking circle (counter clockwise) around my desk without stopping. I say "wow this company must be really big because I haven't run in to you for a long time. What are you working on these days?" His answer, something like "the graph system is close to working."

I enter the area behind my desk (to my back when I'm facing my desk) it is unlit and dark but it's not too hard to see. The area is filled with many rows of desks with computers and lots and lots of people, mostly kids and families, at the computers, they're all full, I'm frustrated because I need to use one of those computer systems the laptop on my desk isn't powerful enough for what I need to do, I say to my manager who's standing right there "with all the kids around I can't use any system."

There's a group standing there, I notice one older woman looks topless, she's stretching her arms up over her head and I notice an odd large nipple, it's not a pretty sight. I keep looking and she seems to be dressed the more I look.

There are girls around I notice, I grab one from behind with both my arms around her I think she's slightly trying to pull away at first. I turn her around hoping to see a pretty face and when she's facing me and I see her eyes I kiss her, I feel the familiar "zing" (adrenaline?) and fade quickly to awake.

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Lying in bed dozing after the alarms have gone off (I went back to sleep I realized while my wife went in to the shower), I felt very relaxed and saw jumbles of dark color blobs flashing before my eyes, which usually only happens when extremely fatigued and at bed time not waking time. I saw lots of HI / forming dreams. And one of them fully formed:

+ (lucid #32) I realize I'm in a formed dream. It looks like a hospital/medical room. I say "If this is a hospital then a cute nurse will come through that door right now". Right on cue, the door opens and a female nurse comes throutgh the door, and turns to the right and moves on. I get excited from my "wish" coming true and I wake up.

23:30 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-04-16

I tried RILD (rhythmic WILD) with swimming motion a few times through the night but either I'm not tired enough or don't do it long enough, or too many distractions so it doesn't seem to work. Set alarms for every hour starting from 04:00, I notice two of them, turn them off entirely at 06:00 since I'm feeling really tired and not well rested. Alarm includes a buzz which with the phone under my pillow is quite jarring. I don't like alarms! Have to get intention to wake up working again.

Very low awareness with the exception of the mask/mirror/kitchen scene where I feel like "me" but with no memory at all.

06:01

(dreamtime around 01:30)

+ in hotel/motel with wife, she says let's go home for two days, I wonder about keeping our reservation while we're away. Pulling out onto the road in the car (I'm driving), there's a sign across the street about it being disallowed to pick the flowers.

(dreamtime not sure? 03:00 - 04:00?)

+ break up a fight between kids, outdoors suburban environment lots of trees around. One kid is sitting down with his back against (a tree/wall). It is the young face of a boy scout from my old troop. I study his face, I see it entirely very very clearly. He is wrinkling his face up a bit then stops. Thinking about (someone says?) how faces change during adolescence, he has that funny "adolescent" nose, somewhat out of scale with his face. I focus closely on his face skin, it becomes textured and crusty like tree bark, I see the crust fairly closely, including the edge of the crust, like it's a layer on top of his normal face.

Inside the house there are groups of kids we're detaining for some reason.

I get into a shower with one athletic shoe on (right foot) to wash it. I have clothes on, I notice my t-shirt The shoe is very uncomfortable once it's wet, I'm looking at that wet shoe on my foot and flexing my foot/toes within the wet shoe.

Outside in the garden we're talking about the car -- should it go for maintenance service to the shop or should we try to fix it ourselves?

+ playing basketball with black kids on a professional / college court in a stadium

+ Outdoors/daytime/tree-lined city streets. I have my dog (as a puppy) in my hands and I put him in a basket in my "car" (which is like a child's wagon or toy pedal car) to take him home. Across the street to the left I see a small young girl alone/crying walking on the sidewalk like she's lost. I get out of the car and go to her, I pick her up and walk back along the sidewalk, find her mother, give the child to her, the child is like a doll, and seems to be made from two slices of steak.

I return to my car, and my dog is gone. I look through the basket I put him in several times and confirm he's gone. I walk through the neighborhood looking for him I see lots of other dogs. Look for dog in apartment complex on hill, find girl in apartment with her dog, girl and I connect? I get the idea she will not commit.

+ I'm holding a large complex tall rubber mask. There are fitted eye slits in the mask, I pull off the covers of the eye slits they're covered by a thin filmy squishy sort of wet gel, I put down the wrinkled gel covers on the counter and look at them for a while. I put the mask on my face and look in the mirror. I adjust the mask so my eyes show out through the eye slits, it looks fairly creepy with my "staring" eyes looking out of the mask. There is a tall green rubber part of the mask that must be put on over your head. My dad didn't want to put on the mask.

I'm standing behind parent's stove (not possible as in WL it's against the wall), my mom wants me to cook the french fries I'm very confused about what she wants me to do, I see little bins of spices and ingredients right under my face next to me on the back of the stove, I see strange shaped and sized cooking pans and a container of about 20 french fries, doesn't seem like there's much to cook.

+ in car with folks in downtown B near U I drive off the curve onto the street but the car does not bounce too strongly, I miss the last right turn and the remaining streets are all left one way only so I'm going to have to go way around the blocks to the left to get where we need to go

+ fight against transformers (low quality cartoon visual of opponent robots), my team wants to run when they see them, I am confident and run into battle, I jab a power staff into the ground strongly and this blasts all the enemies. I enter a room right there through a glass wall, I know the pillow cat we're looking for is there, I ignore it, the people are abstract and made out of inflatable pillow/cushions on a bed, I grab a "girl" being, turn her over, and run my tongue in a circle around where it's "mouth" should be, and around its "girl parts."

00:00 Thursday 2014-04-10

00:27 bedtime

09:20 out of bed

+ swimming in the foggy ocean with John Kerry and friends JT and DT -- John Kerry makes a daring head-first dive into the water missing a (barely) submerged boulder by inches. I'm changing into my swimsuit but don't want DT to see me, I tell her to look away for 5 seconds, I'm pulling up my suit counting to 5 but it gets caught on my feet and I tell DT not to look. I was trying to find a place to change but the shallow water (amongst boulders) was full of crayfish/lobsters.

+ in Church with JT and DT. There is a counter in the middle of the room with tall stools around it as I approach people fill the stools I'm looking for a place to sit. There is singing that is like but unlike what I know, I hear it and sing along with the familiar parts. I talk to the pastor and explain my different behavior because I'm part of another church. Lots of people/families are there

+ walking outside in nature with DT, looking at leaves on the trees.

+ playing video game asteroids-like, I see my ship and the controls I don't have perfect control but do a decent job. The screen fills my vision. The upper half of the screen are a couple of giant unmoving asteroids, the bottom half has my ship maneuvering around to avoid the moving smaller asteroids I think I should shoot some of them.

+ playing 3-d pacman style game, I fly in 3d as DO following game ship, it becomes lifelike 3d scene, I'm doing pretty well

+ wife & kids come home, report car accident nearby, I see car accident in the distance, flying colored sparks, I also see hills in the distance which seem to be lit a bit by the light of the accident area, it's dark/night outside.

+ pull large leafed herbs from inside car and will prepare a soothing tea using a french press after washing them. I wasn't sure at first how to get the leaves to my kitchen. I'm standing outside the front passenger window of the car.

+ observe daylight results of deadly car accident, bodies lying on the street, standing on the crowded sidewalk a tobacco chewer talks to my kids, I get in his face and chase him away by threatening to call the nearby police who will find his illegal chewing tobacco and get him for offering it to children, I think I'm quite a good man for standing up to this guy.

+ parking a car in a self-serve parking garage where you push your car manually on to a lift/elevator and then push it into its assigned stall, can't find my stall, lots of people there in cafes. People are thinking that "aw man that guy put his car in front of mine". I think my stall is number 21 (?), and I keep walking back and forth looking for it but can't find it, there are a lot of cars and motorcycles behind the glass walled little cubbies/stalls for the cars.

+ going out with family from room to swimming pool area with lifeguard there (black female?) we're looking our door with a stange key / lock with shaped hollow regions, we lock the door then I want to check that the key will open it again, there were lots of people around, my vision zooms to the key and the lock.

Slept fairly deeply, don't recall any significant wakings. Also had 2 hour nap from 14:30 until 16:44, not recall

@ My (country) lucid hideout

01:30 Bedtime. Was (re)watching Firefly, cand ouldn't help "just one more episode...just one more...". Room temp: +21C

08:00

(definitely some from earlier wakings)

+ helping police catch crazy redneck drivers who are speeding

+ at work I finally figure out the strange little device in the kitchen is a refrigerator for personalized water cups and that the group assistant had prepared my personal water cup with my name on it loooong ago, I feel foolish that I'm only now figuring this out. The device holds the cups, about 4-5 in a row, on a slightly inclined shelf.

+ go into a meeting room with a bunch of coworkers where a guy is the keeper of the cupcakes, they're everywhere, some are tall and irregular looking like dripped sand castles, a guy says he's working on the last generation of product that we'll have to support for 3 years but will make the company a lot of money, I agree with him on this. Walking by my cube on the way to the meeting I think I see a large strange sign over my cube.

+ some indoor space there's an irregular hole in the foundation, I see another one further on, some guy asks me what kind of animals(s) make that whole (he knows), I don't know he tells me it's two animals (I forgot them) then I see a 1/2 meter diameter tortoise it's on my leg I kick at it I'm so sorry I didn't want to hurt it then it lunges at another guy's leg and he kicks it away, too.

+ I'm walking outside in bright daylight, walk by a van, I'm on some empty street , blue sky, green grass, bright daylight, I'm thinking this would be a good place to live with this much sunlight but it might not be good for my skin.

+ I see my face as if looking in a mirror (but I don't have the sense of looking in a mirror), I'm about half my age and clean-shaved, I say to my wife "oh I must have shaved without knowing it" (I had no memory of shaving), I'm amazed at how young and bright I look after shaving, I see myself very very clearly, I think I don't see any jowls like my wife says I would have if I shaved.

+ At MR's restaurant he's preparing me a margarita, I'm going to have chips with guacamole I realize later I never ate it, at the time Im not sure if I can pay for it

+ sitting at a table with other people I look at one woman and realize she's former colleague Pa Wo and her husband, I say to her "I didn't realize it was you!"

+ on a phone call with the orchestra conductor, he wants to go over the music with me, I'm singing my instrument's part. I see the notes, read the rhythms, and hear myself singing and making harmony. Later on I realize I'm not on the phone with the conductor any more but I don't recall hanging up, I think he's probably pretty angry about that. When singing I'm thinking about B-flats.

+ Before rehersal I see my instrument disassembled into many parts I'm gathering them up to get ready

+ Pull a huuuuuge book: tall, wide, think, from a bookshelf, the title is "Dogs of War: Dachshunds" written by the Nazi party. I'm looking through the book which my sons, it looks like a giant Yellow Pages directory with nothing but advertisements in it, I wonder where all the articles were and if Nazis read all of these ads.

Room temp morning: +17C

00:00 Thursday 2014-04-03

00:30 bedtime, bad, let family skype call go late and interefere with bedtime

Felt very alert, wife to bed at same time, started snoring a bit, felt alert, took 1mg melatonin, fell asleep

04:59

+ climb in the pipe where the monsters are. Lions were not hungry? Night time, dark outside, there is a large long rusty pipe (big enough for people to crouch down in) I'm thinking about finding the entrance to it, it's farther on, I know there are monsters in the pipe. Encounter several lions farther on, they don't attack, they're walking around regally emerging from their stalls.

+ I'm outside and see a large branch/log I think of breaking it off and using it. On a path outdoors in daylight

+ Kind of lucid moment last night, not really worth counting perhaps, at some strange moment where I was looking at some device that had broken open and a voice/being was telling me that our entire purpose of being was now ruined. Then my older son leans his head into the room and asks me what I'm doing. I think this is just like a FA I had the other day where my son leans his head into the room after I know he'd left for an overnight trip, think I may be dreaming and do a nose pinch and it indicates dream but the feeling is weird, like I'm already half awake, I'm hovering between sleep and dream and trying to do another nose pinch with dream hands and think if I get back to sleep I'll lucid dream.

+ grocery store. Starting at the check out, something's not right at the check out stand, I'm wondering where my dental bridge is. Further into the store I see a men's shirt department, the shirts are striped boldly, mostly blue white and purple, there are other men in there also looking at the shirts, I notice an open shirt I think I see the size is "48". I'm not sure that will fit me.

+ (lucid maybe?) I'm contemplating a broken strange glowing device, a voice says this ruins our reason for existence. My older son leans his face into the room and asks me what I'm doing. I think this is strange and seems familiar to the FA I had last week with him doing the same thing, I think I may be dreaming, do a noise pinch it seems to indicate dream, I'm fading between dream and waking, thinking if I get back to sleep I'll be in a lucid dream.

07:46 alarm

+ returning to grocery store (where I was in earlier dream I think) with wife. I've recently discovered this store in a mall. I say "it's like Whole Food Store," we're approaching the store from outside, there are displays outside the front door under a roof. Through the glass wall (dreamsign) I see the inside of the store with lots of large flower displays. We enter the store, I'm carrying a tray with the remains of some lunch on it, there are glass plates and a crystal bud vase, I don't want to just toss the tray down and break things, I'm asking store workers where I should put it, one guy is standing next to a bowl full of a tasty looking salad I realize I still have some of this salad on my plate I should finish it, can't find where to put my tray down. Lot of people in the store.

+ At the top of a tall waterslide, I'm standing up there a long time, I start going down and they turn off the water when I'm part way down so I don't slide very easily. I think they didn't know I was up there and they must turn off the water if nobody uses the slide for a while to save energy. I make a connection with another slide that involves sort of jumping from one slide to another slide tube that runs just below it at a right angle, I hold on and make the transition successfully and reach the bottom. Emerging from the slide some DC makes a comment on something I did wrong on the slide, I say "what? " he walks away, I'm angry at him. Walking back across the slide exit and farther along there is a billboard? And an access panel where one must enter an access code, I see English letters and am surprised a bit by this, I see them clearly, the letters "r", "e", and "n", they're serifs are highly stylised/fancy. I think you have to type "render."

+ I'm looking at a form, either electronic or paper bill where Mastercard is offering your credit, I'm trying to clearly see that part, the words are written all on top of each other and hard to read, I know there's an offer for a Mastercard in there and I want to find it I think of doing a search on the page to find the link.

+ I'm trying to use a paper (electronic?) catalog and I'm pressing on parts of the page expecting it to react like a web page. I'm interesting in how the electronics know where you're pressing on the page.

+ Outside the store there's a large truck that pulls up, I'm sitting down my wife approaches and starts talking about our family finances, I say "shhhhh! People could be on the other side of that truck listening to us" i keep motioning for her to come closer and closer so she doesn't need to shout there may be somebody we know on the other side of the truck. She tells me I must go myself to the judge to explain our situation with the credit cards, I ask what time, she says 7:30pm. She's telling me I must plea guilty before I can offer explanation. I have to say "I didn't know I was going over the limit," make myself sound like an idiot I don't want to, I'm trying to think about what exactly happened with the credit cards, how I was using one card to pay off another and that's not allowed, I wonder how we got so deeply in debt, we had to pay the rent, I talk about this with my wife we discuss how we were kicked out of our rental on M lane by the owners right when our second child was born, my wife said that happened on "March 6th". I'm not looking forward to see the judge to make myself sound like an idiot I have no idea how I'll get away with this.

+ Sitting at a table in a cafeteria area in the grocery store (large, open, widely spaced tables), some men sitting at the table in front of me are talking about tea. Mostly about how there is no good tea in America. I want to tell them about the little gourmet tea shops you can find in some small cities. I maybe tell them. Again I wonder where my dental bridge is I feel the gap in my teeth where it should be.

+ sitting at a table in a kitchen, wife sets the table with food, it looks like large white curds of cottage cheese, there's a funny little baby laughing on my wife's plate, I was playing with it a bit, there are some pink juices in the food and I think it's actually lamb, and I think how the food you're fed as a baby is the food you'll like later in life. I'm wondering if the food is completely cooked, I'm eating it, close up view of the food in the plate.

10:00 trying a BTB

tried breathing synchronized with heartbeat, sort of worked to get relaxed but not WILD
turned to my back eventualy side was very sore

woke on my back, first time I've slept on my back in a while.

+ testing the hearing of a little baby. I'm in a dark room lying on a bed with a small creepy faced baby. I'm lying close and have a close up of its face. It turns to face me when I make a sound, I think that it's good that it responds to sound at least it can her. I straddle it on top it's lying on its back on the bed and I zoom my face from left to right to left and its head turns to follow me and the sound and it laughs at this fast movement. I think of trying something else with the baby but my wife comes in and says that you shouldn't do that with a baby.

+ close up of a guitar fret, I'm playing an awesome tune with hammer-ons, pull-offs, bends, glissandos, I hear the music it sounds really good I see my fingers on the strings.

+ leaving a restaurant with a group of people including a very large woman.

23:00 peppermint + some weird new herbal tea. Supposed to be good for the heart. Hah wired me awake with heart-pounding-strain instead I think. Or all the dark chocolate before bed perhaps.

23:52 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-04-02

Takes a while to get to sleep, 45 minutes at least.

01:15 wife shocks me awake coming late to bed. She gets mad that I'm mad that she woke me up. Her getting mad makes me mad and I don't sleep for 2-3 more hours while she snores away.

02:55 still awake up to kitchen for milk, shaking my head at the night's scenario

03? on the computer. Wife wakes for bathroom and asks me to get up at 07:30 for breakfast duty. I'm pissed. Go to bed and manage to sleep somehow using my relaxation technique.

07:30 alarm. I was tightly asleep.

+ vague memory of long dreams with lots of activity of lots of people in/around a house. Definitely the sense of long continuous memory of the action. High school friends? Food?

08:07 BTB
08:30? sleep

several wakings, only record at final waking

12:16

+ in ocean with wife lose sight of her I look around back to the beach and into the water again then see her big waves are coming I see her in the water we're close to the wall I go over to get her so she won't be smacked into the wall from the waves, I notice the wave has pulled back and stopped leaving the dry ground around us, I think oh that's nice that the wave has paused, we exit the surf.

+ dictators running camps for kids. Walking high on a hill overlooking the beach I notice holes in the ground with corpses of people buried vertically alive. In some cases the bloody bodies are there, in some cases not, I'm kicking the dirt in to fill up the holes. I see one hole with a torture chamber iron-maiden wire cage I see the place for the head at first I think there are spikes in there but look closer and don't see them but you can't move your head in that thing.

There's a procession walk, going up a hill, they say "follow the red point path" that's the path of our walk. In the distance I see a guy do something that the path up the hill is cleared of dirt it shoots to the left and the right of the path leaving it clean, and a red spot appears at the top. I see him do this twice.

A voice says "if anybody has kept a log of camp we'll want to review them" I think I've kept a log but I don't want them to see it. I see what I think is a large memorial stone. I take a picture of it as proof. KS walks by she was selected to be married to a camper who did a good job, I think she's a virgin as she walks by but as she returns she will already have been married.

+ in a big rich house. A bunch of workmen come into the house through a hole in the ground of a back room. They're workmen for the mob. I'm annoyed by them. A bunch of mafia leaders are there and I'm complaining about the workmen they indicate that only mob members matter, they look up in the rulebooks to see if I can join it takes a large donation and I have to be sure I want to live that sort of lifestyle I'm pretty sure I do not want to so I'll just have to put up with the workmen. Later on I see a grate with screws has been placed over the hole.

There's a fight down below in the hole. I'm present with others, me and my (evil mafia monster partner?) are the only ones who make it out alive. I'm walking down a row of people the evil guys are looking for someone who made a sound to kill them, people are standing close to one another in pairs, bodies and faces pressed up agianst one another, I think I see myself 3rd person at one point. I see everybody close up.

+ in an ice cream shop. The main counter is busy I go around to the left to place my order. I place my order with the clerk for two different flavors, they don't have one of them I see "Oh this isn't Baskin Robbins?" There were super fruity flavors. I walk back around to the right main long counter. I see a pumpkin pie flavored one and indicate that for my second flavor, some DC says he knew I would chose that one and sort of snorts, I'm annoyed by his condescension. I see the clerk serving it up, there is a meter long high chocolate cake bottom to the ice cream that gets served out of a long tube and the whole thing becomes compacted down to fit into your cup. I think they bake the cakes especially this way so that they can be compacted. The clerk spills a part of my cake on the counter and scoops it up and back in to my serving I think that's gross because people's fingers are all over the edge of the counter, it's going to be full of germs, but I don't say anything.

(IWL I got lunch at a place where they put the trays of orders being prepared right out on the sales counter right directly where people stand and can breath/sneeze into the food. I saw a very colorful donut/coffee place after lunch).

00:00 Monday 2014-03-31

00:30 bedtime a bit late

06:30

only vague impressions of dreaming about dreaming, not even a fragment, disappointed in this.

07:30

Well, I got back to sleep pretty quickly, yay

+ running down a hill (Cn. Blvd.) it is a dirt road. Wife as narrator says "the people here are only here for exercise" (I think as opposed to a spiritual purpose), I'm running fast, I pass a group of several men, I'm going high speed, I think they're chasing me, I skid around the big corner and almost fly off but keep to the road. I want to look behind me but don't because I'm going so fast I can't risk a look. Later I sneak up on the group with their leader, think about taking him out with super powers, maybe flying away

+ in a rest stop, trying to get a bottle of water from a little closet area lots of other people, I say "I'm just trying to get my bottle of water" so is everybody else. There are lots of people reaching, I see lots of bottles, I look for the one with my initials on it, I think I find it but I'm not sure. I see the letters but they're not 100% clear. Then there are two ice machines. I'm getting ice and water in my cup, they're up above my head.

I'm returning to sit at a table with some teen boys, I hear a comment they make as I'm approaching the table and they comment on it, saying I have super hearing, I say that's every parent's job.

+ Standing in line with family, next to some woman. My fingers keep getting entangled in her hair, over and over again. I'm apologetic. We're bumping up against each other. I don't engage since my wife is right there. The woman gives up and lies down next to her friends and says something about "missed opportunities."

+ FAs in room. First FA there's a woman there and lots and lots of garbage that needs to be cleaned up. Sleep again, FA and the room is clean, I'm glad I slept again as I didn't have to do the cleaning. Black guy is there I feel warmth and friendship with him, I reach to shake hands it turns into a hand-clasp, and we hold it for a long time, should I bring him in for a hug? I think we do.

Try to get back to sleep, distracted by noise, light, movements, daydreaming. Gathered my will and relaxed, got some images, alllllllllmost made it back to sleep, dozed lightly perhaps, but no dreams, checked time, 09:30, time to get up.

9 days dry now. Need to somehow change attitude.

23:48 bedtime. A bit behind schedule but still within reason

00:00 Saturday 2014-03-22 competition #17 night #15, LD #29

05:44

1) I'm at a counter in a mall talking with a clerk. We're discussing directions to store locations, I see a map (in the air?) and I'm naming street names. Then I have trouble hearing the guy and I realize it's because there's a street with cars running on it in between me and the counter. The clerk guy comes out and is discussing when my item will be ready, he's saying they could make it themselves or not. I imagine a black shake/smoothie.

We're then walking down a very wide gently spiraling ramp (turns to the left while going down) with store clerk guy. I see college roommate MH is naked at a table eating McDonald's with his young child sitting opposite him. I see his hairy back and butt and think "ew." Clerk and I walk farther down the ramp, and MH walks by us, I see his junk, it looks like things are a bit cut and bloody. "Ew" again.

2) On a very large steep ampitheater-like staircase outside a castle packed with people I'm trying to break in. I have a large sack of gunpowder that I'm trying to throw up into a rain spout so that I can cause an explosion inside the castle. I do so but it causes a lot of clanking noise. The evil king comes out and demands that the perp identify himself. I waffle for a bit but then proudly stand forward, he seems a bit surprised that it is me.

I'm then inside the castle and I see close up the sick princess's face is reflected off a multi-section horizontal mirror/wall. I'm moving these sections forwards and backwards to adjust the view of her face. I see one eye is badly sick/damaged, she looks generally in bad shape. The mirror is supposed to hide the bad eye by optical illusion. I'm naming off the problems I see with her.

F1) playing pool

F2) my friend MR has started a new business and wants me to participate

long time getting back to sleep, very excited, sure that the next time I sleep I will get lucid.

07:52

3) in some random supermarket, I'm trying to get in but the line at the checkout-stand is full of people and they're also blocking the very narrow entrance to the store. I'm trying to slowly push my empty shopping cart through, I think I touch some kid lightly with it, the mother angrily pushes my cart (and thus me) backwards. I'm frustrated but I'm just sort of standing there stupidly wanting for an opening. People behind me are starting to say "let me through" and there's a guy standing close by me on my right wondering aloud "what's that guy [me] doing?" I answer him directly "I'm trying to get in to the store but the people in line are blocking me!". I eventually get through and some annoying little boy does something on my back with his hand, and I quickly push my back hard against the wall trapping his hand and I hope I've hurt some of his fingers to teach him a lesson. I'm then walking into the store and it's become a outdoor area. There are two CGs dancing together turning in a circle around each other. "I'm dreaming!" I think by reflex, and then "..yes, I AM dreaming and I'm lucid. I grab the face of one of the girls and turn her head up and to the left between by hands to look into my face. Her eyes are looking up into mine (deep brown eyes) and she looks a bit surprised. "What's your name?" I ask. I don't wait for an answer (there is none). Then I give her a few quick kisses. I think I should engage with the dream scene but then I wake up"

23:18 bedtime. Yay!

00:00 Friday 2014-03-21 competition #17 night #14 LDs #27, #28, FA fight with an orc

04:37

5) scene over the ocean high on a cliff/hill by a house. I'm just standing there observing. There is a little house to the left in front of me. There is a planter there on the ground near me to the front and left. I look at this planter and think about it. There is a table at the end of a ramp also in front of me, I think this is for the house owner since I "know" he's in a wheelchair. You can't see the ocean (out to the front and right) because of the fog. I know my brother-in-law has told me about this spot and recommends climbing down the path to the ocean that is to the front and right of me.. There is also a road off to the left through the trees.

6) I'm outside old college house, I see NI friend there, there's a row of computers, 80's style PCs, I'm looking for mine but can't see it. NI is using a computer. I think I have returned to the house after a long absence but my room should still be available.

7) Keeper of the amber. I'm in a room with big huge slugs of amber. I know that we can forge these slugs of amber into powerful swords. I imagine that we can also imprints the names of people allowed to use these swords on to a stone. People knock at the door trying to come in, only the people on our team are let in, I'm guarding the door.

8) bizarre star paths in the sky. There were lines of stars in the skies following paths, and you could follow them walking underneath. The stars were moving along these paths, it was very beautiful.

Takes a little while to get back to sleep, perhaps the dark chocolate bar in the afternoon was kicking in to nudge me alert. It may have helped with the lucid: (!)

05:18 LD #27

9) I'm in my parent's bedroom of my childhood home, it's dark night, vision is grainy/faint in the room. I'm sitting in a recliner chair next to the bed, my younger son at a younger age is lying in the bed. I'm looking at him in the bed, his eyes are creepy/wrong and watching me, it's hard to tell in the dark for sure, then I think he's not looking at me. He's holding something in his hand, I take it out of his hands, it's a little box, I open it, I see on the left side under the lid his passport and the rest is a bunch of his favorite small toys, I give the box back to him. I say "that's OK." His eyes are looking at me and they're really creepy, I'm kind of freaked out, I do a nose pinch and I'm lucid. I'm a bit surprised but not very much, I forget my "son" and feel no fear. I'm downstairs now walking from the dining room to the living room. My vision feels clouded. I recalled a technique of imaging veils in front your eyes and pulling them away, I do this and I see the veils and I easily pull them aside resulting in super HD clarity. I'm in the well-lit living room, I'm amazed at the clarity. I see books on a bookshelf and I can clearly see the writing on their spines: different colors of text. I wonder how realistic things will feel: I reach and look down and inspect "the equipment" and yep, things look and feel realistic. I don't read them (and not sure if they're letters or not) but I could have they were so clear. I go out on the deck, it's night still outside, and take off flying over the trees. I sense my wife has come out on the deck behind me and I don't want her to see me, so I urge myself to fly faster to get into the cover of the trees, "come on! faster!". I keep flying and remember my goal of really wanting to see myself flying, and look down and see trees and houses with lights on passing underneath me. Then I "wake up"

...and my alarm is going off. It's not my alarm ringtone but I don't catch that. I get up from bed in a white room (dream sign, common in FAs), my wife and I are captives, I'm thinking about how to save us, I ask her for some advice and she makes a snide remark about solving problems myself, I then see an Orc in the room with us he's holding a long but kind of dull-looking sword. I engage with him, I have no weapons, I avoid the blade and close in and manage to twist the blade out of its hands and I stab the orc, my wife is impressed. I then go to the next room, there is an orange large evil orc/caterpillar/snake thing there with a little head on top of a long neck, I run at it and make a two-handed overhead strong blow with the sword with intention to decapitate / smash its head but my sword bounces right off.

This raises an alarm, the beasts are gathering, I head outside and I pass by an area where there are lots of human captives, I see them and they are very cartoony-looking, like hasty/rough drawings of cavemen with scraggly beards. Then I'm at some sort of bus station with the beginnings of a resistance, about 8 young strong men are gathered, and more come to our group, I name them as they arrive. I think we've avoided discovery because of all the activity at the bus station with lots of prisoners. They're all lifelike at this point.

Takes a while to get back to sleep

07:08 LD #28

10) I get lucid walking down the steps from my childhood home's garage down to the back porch. I stop on the stairs, feel like I have to "hold" the dream, I rub my hands, and recite my name and state that I'm dreaming competitively (nod to StephL for this idea). But I "can't hold it" and the dream fades.

07:40 alarm for breakfast duty. No one's actually getting up today, eat breakfast myself and head back to bed for some more dreaming and to make up for the extra awake time.

08:30 (?) back to sleep

Daydreaming, looks like I got an incubation effect given the next dream. Finally got a handle on myself and forced myself to head for relaxation, and eventually slept.

10:49

1)

Spoiler for sexy time, somewhat explicit:

lots of sex going on, giving and receiving oral. Hot girl comes up to car, I'm in the driver seat, she speaks to me from passenger side window, she was looking for me, I couldn't understand/hear what she was saying so I keep asking her to repeat it, it's like "I wanted...<something something> but you left". I said come here and I'll <epithet involving consumption and felines> for 15 seconds." She was a little hesitant (she was in a hurry?). Then she's in the car and naked and I grab her lower parts and dive in and get to work she is moaning. Earlier I was in a room and a hot girl was on her knees in front of me, I was giving directions but she wasn't always following.

2) buying a gift at a gift store, the guy asks all kinds of questions, I"m not sure why he's asking them so I answer. It turns out the questions were so he could engrave the answers on the pressent, but because of this misunderstanding of the questions and their purpose the present was engraved with the wrong name of the recipient and the wrong information, I'm quite puzzled as to how this could have happened.

3) I'm lying outside in a sort of tall tent outdoors, daytime. My dad is talking to some guy he called a "communist hippy freak." We're in some sort of park, but the hippy dude is part of a project to plant vegetables/food in public places, we're trying to figure out what his plan is, when they get enough food growing in public they will send some sort of signal and the people will arise and be free.

F1) And older woman is walking looking for an older man for romantic actions and finds him.

F2) Weird face masks, one young boy has a mask and a wasp is walking across his upper lip giving his mask some sort of power. Another boy is highlighting his eyebrow and sewing some thread into his skin on the eyebrow as a decoration. Then I'm swimming up the sidewalk outside my adult home and come upon a big wasp floating in the water and think it's 'dream residue' from the boy's face mask, and splash it off to the bushes.

F3) some friends and their kids are playing video games in a house, they have to earn their time in the video game room.

4) I'm entering a store looking for a hardware store that has been taken over by some oppressive company. I go in and someone tells me this has happened. I turn to the right and enter that area, a store within a store. I look around and think this is not want I want. I leave then go back and say the heck with it if they're evil I need to buy <something>

In the far corner of the store my mom and dad are doing something. My dad is installing some new room there and carrying walls/windows.

1 hour swim, 2150 m., moderate sprint lap every 250m

23:06 bedtime

took a while to get to sleep -- deep drowsiness but some room distraction, sleep time maybe 23:30-23:45

00:00 Tuesday 2014-03-18 competition #17 night #11

04:17

1) I'm in a large open luxurious apartment with (fake?) wife, another adult woman, and a child. There are floor-to-ceiling walls and I'm positioned so that I see the full panorama outside. I see that a huge wind is starting I can see the wave of massive wind blowing trees over on their sides horizontally, I say "Get away from the windows! The trees are going to fall!" and I see huge massive trees falling towards our place. The people won't move away from the glass, I'm yelling but my voice doesn't come out well. Some other trees fall on the other side of the house behind my back and this breaks some other glass walls we have. "See!?" I say.

2) In my parent's house, my mother is showing my wife and me some cabinet. She gives us the choice to see the old one or the new one, let's see the new one. It has doors that close down to the bottom. She has two pictures of short-haired 30ish women on the bottom of the cabinets, their name's start with "K". I think my wife might be jealous that my mother has those pictures there. My mother opens a giant trunk to display a huge set of files, 2 meters by 1 meters packed with files and papers. I'm impressed at the amount of correspondence she has. My wife is talking about how she confirmed our wedding date in November (false, it was another month).

3) I am configuring a can of Coke. It has lots of electronic controls. It takes quite a while to get the can correctly configured. When I finish, I look up and see an Asian man, he's expecting me to continue. I think this is going to take a really long time if we have to configure every single can by hand.

F1) G and the cousins spending money for something

F2) the celebrity singer did not want to come

06:27

4) I'm in a small room with a window looking out over a city street. I look outside the window and there is a procession in the street. A car like a limousine is driving very very slowly from left to right. The passenger's side door is open and I see inside. There are some adults and some children there. As the car passes I see that there are bicyclists on the far side of the car to the back and riding behind the car. They are harnassed in some way to the car so that they are pushing it. I think that's a hard job probably and explains why the car is going so slowly. I look farther to the left behind the vehicle and see a topless attractive young woman on a bicycle. I look away in embarrassment at first, then I think what am I doing, take a picture at least! I think I need to find my iphone or my iPad, and run ahead of the procession and take a shot of her. As I go inside to find them I feel like get lucid or start to get lucid but the dream fades and I feel like I'm waking up...

...discontinuity...

...into bed in a very large open white room with very tall ceilings everywhere except for right over my bed which is on a raised platform. I have forgotten the previous dream scene. There is a normal height ceiling over my bed. I sense that my bed area is is on a raised platform. There are no furnishings at all. I sense that the main room is all around and below me to the right, straight ahead, and left, situated on a corner. I look up above across this opening to the wall near the far ceiling and see "windows" (flaps of wall on hinges) that can open and I think people could probably see me through those (dreamsign). I'm looking through one of them which is propped open and I see an industrial looking unfinished space with a long bright white flourescent light tubes on the ceiling of that room on the other side of the wall. I hear what sounds like a circular saw and I suppose they're doing construction to build that space, maybe they're building a restaurant there, but if they do then there will be a lot of people there and they could see me. The vision into the other room with the flourescent lights is extremely clear and bright.