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    The Kestrel's Dreams

    Welcome to my Dream Journal! I'm still getting used to the site, so bear with me!

    I'll make this all pretty eventually.

    // Recurring Characters (real people), for your and my own reference (since they're all aliases) //

    Zukin: Bestie and 3/4, went to Germany with me last year. We have almost died together multiple times by now
    Backpacking Group: Zukin, Ivan, Dan, Josh, Kebab, Penny, Cindy, and Suzy; We all drove down to Texas and spent Spring Break ('14) backpacking in the Guadalupe Mountains
    Bob: Older Brother
    Erik: Little Brother
    Germany Group: Zukin plus 7 others who were in the same program to study abroad in Germany for 6 months
    Kristin: Current roommate and close friend of four years
    Jasmine: High school Best Friend, but we don't talk much anymore

    Now that I have something Lucid in my DJ: Orange text = Lucid

    1. Competition Week One

      by , 04-17-2016 at 03:21 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      Monday Night (night 2)

      Only fragments; I was at a building site and two neighbors from junior year of college were there. At some point, my Oma let me use her bathroom. There was way more to the dream but I can't remember many more details than that.

      Tuesday Night (night 3)

      I was with Zukin at one of her classes on an exam day. I took the exam as well, for shiggles. It was 15 questions and they were either super complicated with chemical and math and other stuff I would not know, or super simple questions like "what is a baby cat called?"
      I stayed to talk to the professor a bit because I was interested in the class now, and then met Zukin outside in the hallway. But when I got to the hallways, it turned into the supermarket. We picked out some foods and then walked back to her place. She took me by the railroad tracks. When we got back to her place, I had to set up my bunk bed (apparently I had that with me haha). But parts were missing... I couldn't find the ladder or the railings.

      Wednesday Night (night 4)

      I was teaching, but it was taking place at my home. During one of the breaks I somehow ended up thinking it was a good idea to get high, and then had to teach in that state. It was very scary, actually. I almost did so many things that would NOT have been good. After class, I took a nap and when I got up again it was a beautiful spring day. Some of my students were playing a game of tag or something right outside the window. And then one of them somehow busted his lip...

      Woke up for reals, and fell back asleep to have this one:
      I was taking a shower, and this shower was so effing beautiful. It was completely made of blue, green and purple glass tiles and had multiple levels. Like you could sit or use one of the levels to prop up your leg to shave better. I got out of the shower feeling great and ended up in my Oma's house. I thought this was strange because their shower is not like that at all, and checked my hands. They were stubby, so I knew it was a dream. I know I already did the TOTM but I really wanted to do it again because of how cool it was before, and also because I knew it was a competition night. I ran at the wall to phase through it and ended up in Oma's front yard. I jumped up but was having trouble getting airborne for some reason so I started my climbing the big tree I always used to climb and jumping from the top of it (like literally it's a pine and I can usually get three or four stores up.
      I jumped out of the tree and got right into flying, then hovered for a but to collect my thoughts. I wanted to get to the clouds fast and also get my second three-step so I let myself fall from where I was hovering. Just before hitting the ground I let out my hands and shot up Iron Man style. I've always loved looking down while I shoot up like that and watched the ground getting rapidly wider as I gained altitude. Then I looked out and up again and spotted a nice fluffy cloud to land on. It was the same as before, so light and soft but also really dense and firm. That makes no sense, I know, but it's the only way I can describe it. I tried to remember what my last three-step goal was, but was drawing blanks, so I let myself fall through the cloud as a teleportation device.
      I ended up in a weird but cool club and some guy came up to me and asked if I wanted to smoke with him. I said sure, why not, and gradually began to lose lucidity
      and then woke up.

      Fell back asleep and was immediately lucid. I was waiting for a train at a big and other-worldly station. It reminded my of Myst and Riven. I got on this train with other people my age and when it started going, I directed it upwards into the sky and into a cave. There were beautiful, luminescent lichen and stalagtites and stalagmites. The other people on the train were impressed and asked me to take them somewhere new just as cool. But I was loosing lucidity. I sent us to the rim of an inactive volcano or some other kind of mountain place. By the time we got there though, I was non-lucid again and dreaming normally. I eventually saw my kindergarteners and one of them tried to get me to watch this movie but I was tired and didn't want to.

      Thursday Night (night 5)

      I was at school, and a parent of one of my most challenging kids this year was dropping him off and told me, "don't let that Miss N. Read to him. She's stupid and she is racist and do t you let her write for them either." And I was so shocked that I cried. Like honestly that staff member she was talking about is one of the kindest people at he school and has been a huge help to me and my students this year. I wS taken aback by this and tearfully told the parent off lol.

      Friday Night (night 6)

      I was with Zukin and we were trying to get into this private (and super elite) lecture. We got to the entrance to the lecture hall and the professor was there... Zukin flirted with him to get us in haha. We took Sears near the window in the back of the room, and there was one of those three-windowed jut outs (I am spacing on what they're called haha) and I sat in it. It wasn't a seat but I made it into a window seat haha. It was a pretty nice day outside so I was looking out the window for a little bit and saw a woman sitting in the grass reading a book. I looked back to the professor to watch the lecture again, and then he looked out another window. He said, "oh shit, there are police cars out there's!"
      I looked out the window I sat by again, and saw (to my horror) three police officers trying to subdue a Bigfoot who was literally tearing the woman from before into pieces. I was horrifyed and all I could think was, oh shit. It can get through this window... and I turned to Zukin and said, "Zukin, we gotta run. Now."
      So we get up and run toward the exit. When we're about 3/4 to the door, the window shatters and the Bigfoot leaps in and starts chasing us. We were on the second floor of this building btw. Zukin and I were running for a while, and the university building was turning into more of a luxurious, huge mansion. I was 150% sure by this point that the Bigfoot was after me alone, so I told Zukin to get somewhere else. The Bigfoot was breaking walls and doors to get at me and it finally cornered me in a closet-like thing.
      It was about to tear me limb from limb but then stopped, looked at me a little sadly or pityingly, and said, "wow. You must be pretty stressed to be having a dream like this. How about a sensual massage instead of getting ripped apart?"
      I could only stare at it for a moment, then checked my hands. Sure enough, I was dreaming. I decided to take up the bigfoots offer, too. It told me to find the bathroom on the second floor west side of the building and then disappeared. I was curious now, and blinked myself to the general area. I found the bathroom and really had to pee, actually. It was hard to stay in the dream, and all the toilets in the room had some weird aspect that made them unusable. One had a permanent potty-training attachment so it was too small. One of them was a "diarrhea machine" in the wall, and I didn't want to open that can of worms. The other one was a coffin-sized wooden box with intricate designs on it. (These were all in the same room, haha!)
      The Bigfoot came in and opened the lid of the large wooden box thing. Bit turned out to be a massage table (and it was weirdly sexual, because there were little dips and grooves for butts and feet and even boobs). I was laying down on the table to get a "sensual massage" from Bigfoot when I woke
    2. Sweet 16 Nights 7, 8, 9 and 10

      by , 01-20-2016 at 06:24 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      Night 7 (4 NLD)

      I was in a game or on some sort of mission (or both) with a team of highly-trained specialists. I don't know what exactly they were specialists of, but I got the feeling they were very good at something. We got to this huge room that had a lot of debris and water damage, and found out only one person could go on because there was a shrink potion needed to continue. But there was only enough to shrink one person. So I took the potion and started living in a metal box of some sort (maybe the shell of an old computer?) in this room, alone. The box already had a lot of supplies (food, toiletries, entertainment) and a video recorder. I got the feeling I was to live here and record daily what I'd noticed, what was happening, etc. I didn't know what to record first, so I just recorded a self-introduction, and then made some food with the supplies. I went out to explore the room in further detail when the dream faded.

      I was moving to a new apartment, and had just driven home from Target whee I'd gotten some things I needed. I almost didn't get let into the parking garage because I couldn't find my ID, but eventually they believed me and let me in without it. When I got to my new apartment unit, I was looking around the many rooms, trying to figure out which one would be best for the bedroom. They were all rather small, but that's fine by me. I eventually picked one room that was so small the bed touched both opposite walls.

      I was out shopping with my cousins and Zukin, and then we met my Oma. We all walked around for a while, and got some food, and then my Oma bought me a sexy bra. I was shocked but somehow it didn't surprise me, like I knew deep down she was a rebel anyways ;D

      I wanted to make a pillow pile in my room, so I went out to some home store with the intent to get as many of the cheapest pillows as I could afford. But it turned out they didn't ave any fucking pillows, so I went home PO'd. I didn't have enough energy to make it to another store to check if they had pillows, and I think I might have been high anyways, so I just went back home.

      Night 8 (1 NLD, 1 LD)

      I was babysitting for this new family; I think it was actually the family of my little brother's friend, Olivia. So they were both there, too. At first the kids didn't like me and when I asked if they'd like to play with me, they said no and hid behind the couch. So I backed off and started drawing on the floor. I got thirsty so I went to get a glass of water from the kitchen and when I got back to my picture the kids were looking at it. I asked if they liked it, and they said they really liked it. As usually happens with me a little kids, they opened up to me very rapidly after that, and soon we were outside playing this death-defying game of some sort. The older one wanted to show me a school project she was working on, so we all went back inside. My little brother and his friend were no where to be seen, so I was secretly wondering if they were making out somewhere, haha.

      I was parking my van in the street outside someone's house, and noticed a purple dog in the street. Did a reality check and confirmed I was dreaming. But it was too fuzzy and I couldn't remember any of my goals. I got out of the car and walked around, turned the dog orange with a wave of my hand, and then the dream destabilized and I woke up.

      Night 9 (1 NLD)

      I was at my neighbor's house (the neighbor happened to be one of my old high school friends) and talking to his girlfriend. We apparently had to pack things for him, and I remember thinking it was weird that I was helping pack things for him. Like, shouldn't that be his and his girlfriend's job or something? I was just an old friend, I felt like I shouldn't be doing this XD

      Night 10 (1 LD)

      I was part of another elite group protecting the world; this time, there were monsters plaguing the world and we went out at night and took care of them in a humane manner. I was out on a mission one night, and we were in a huge tube thing (this place was a bit like the trippy roller coaster Zukin and I are building in Minecraft) and jumping up and down on little platforms along its inner walls, trying to defeat these two monsters. We finally got them, but my partner and I got separated. The plan if that ever happened was to meet back up at the base, so I went back there on my own. He wasn't there yet when I got back, so I was worried, but I needed to rest, so I found a spot by a window and tried to sleep. One of my students was there (but she was all grown up!) and was watching an anime with her BOYFRIEND (whaaaat?!)
      I looked out the window again at the portion of the base that was at the bottom of this big hill (my portion of the base was at the top) and could see the people in it all scurrying around doing their works. That part of the base was open to the air for the most part, which is why I could see people so easily. I saw my ex there, and he waved at me (he must have looked up and seen me watching through my window) and soon like everyone in that base stopped what they were doing and waved at me. I realized this was strange and checked my hands; dreaming!
      This lucidity was oddly clear, and effortless. I knew my goal now was to summon Zukin. So I said her name out loud and snapped and there she appeared in front of me. We phased through the wall and started flying around. I wanted to go to space with her so we both shot out and up and didn't stop until we had exited the atmosphere and kept going a little further. After a moment of admiring Space, she said, "don't forget to do a mythical creature task," and reminded me of the fairy ring I'd failed last time. With Zukin here, I knew I wouldn't fail this time, so I teleported us to a forest by snapping (I've started using snapping for lots of dream control lately). Don't really know where the forest was or anything, but it felt like a forest would be a lot better than a fairy circle in someone's front yard.
      We walked around until we found a fairy circle, and then sat down in it and concentrated on the fairies I knew were around here. Soon they started flickering into being around us, kind of fuzzy and static-y like they were on an old television, or like they were a glitch in a game. They cleared up and sharpened up, and then I got a good look at them. Their skin was multicolored and metalic-like, and their wings shimmered, but they also had large talons on their hands and feet, and they had horns and fangs. I asked them what their secrets were, and to my dismay, they bashfully each pulled out multiple dildos. The fairies' secret was a dildo collection. Of course. I was too busy rolling my eyes at my subC and the dream faded
      and I woke up.
      lucid , task of the year
    3. Sweet 16 Night 6

      by , 01-16-2016 at 06:58 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      I was in this huge old house where a queen or a noble or something lived. There was also a school in the building and I was co-teaching a class. Something horrible happened (I don't remember what it was) and to get the kids under control I just yelled "EVERYONE, FREEZE!" And they all froze like completely (it was more like stopping time lol). The other teacher in the room told all the other teachers and they were all very impressed with how I handled the situation. I walked around and eventually found Zukin. She was dressed as an elvish prince for some reason.

      Then it was time for us both to leave, and I was in the main room waiting for her. I saw her come out of a hallway and motioned for her to come so we could leave, and turned to wait in the car. But Zukin never came out so I got out of the car and went back into the huge house. I asked if anyone knew where she was, they had no idea... So I had to go looking for her. This place was like a fucking maze; lots of narrow halls with corners and stairs all over the place, and random rooms scattered and with no apparent pattern. I eventually did find her in a room at the back (or middle) with a whole wall of windows looking out into this field (or courtyard) with a stream flowing through it. It was way peaceful. I woke Zukin up and told her it was time to leave. She was relieved to see me. Apparently she had not seen me that time in the main room, and had gone to look for me and couldn't find me anywhere, and was forced to sleep in this room for the night. I remember thinking that something was different about her hair. I think it was really short somehow. She started changing into her normal clothes and then we left and I woke up.

      I was with my brothers, Zukin, and one other person about our age. We were in this big city, driving around. We wanted to find a place to rent a golf-cart to get around easier, so we parked at this hotel and started walking around. We passed through this beautiful little cafe with a terraced courtyard with an aqueduct-like water feature running around the perimeter and through it. We rented our golf cart and drove around. My recall is a bit fuzzy for the driving, but we needed up getting lost somehow and had a really hard time getting back to the rental place. I was driving the golf cart and somehow thought I was in the van... I was confused about why there was no windshield in front of me and then even the steering wheel was gone and it turned out I was driving from outside the cart, like sitting on the front of it.

      We eventually made it back to the cafe and the golf cart had turned into a scooter I had to return; everyone else was on foot. So we were going through this cafe-store's interior to get to the courtyard where we had to return the scooter. I had to go down and up lots of ramps. And right at the opening to the courtyard, there was a little cashier's desk and a woman was selling this beautiful stuff. It was light pink, light blue, and lavender colored ("Zukin's spirit colors") and shimmery and so malleable. It was sort of like oobleck but more solid. The woman gave me a sample to play around with in my hands and it felt so strange. I had assumed it was stuff to eat and was now not so sure but was embarrassed to ask if it was edible. My people called my name and I remembered we had to return the scooter, so I left. We had to get down a long series of ramps and stairs to get down to the bottom of the courtyard where the rental place was. For some reason you were supposed to return the scooters by driving them into the water feature... I realized this was a bit strange and did a reality check; dreaming!

      I looked around the courtyard with lucid eyes and it was really very pretty and complex. The sun was low in the sky but not quite setting so I decided to fly into space to grab something out of the sky for the challenge task for the competition. I shot off like a firework and kept going straight up until I was just outside the atmosphere. I looked around at the Space around me, but it didn't look like a dream night-sky looks for me, usually. It looked pretty normal like space. I wanted to grab one of the larger-than-life things that populate my dream skies, so I let myself fall back down to earth.

      I landed, somehow, in the same courtyard cafe. I looked up again, and the sun was still in the sky. I realized I had done my second step task and that my third one was time control, so this was perfect. I wondered how I was going to speed up time; I've done it a couple times before but couldn't remember how I did it those times. I ended up reaching out and using a force-like pull to move the sun down toward the horizon. People around me started moving faster as well and it became like a time-lapse video until it was night time. I let time go back to normal and looked up. My beautiful, huge night sky was there and I just sort of watched it for a while. Then I spotted a galaxy that was the same colors as that shiny stuff, so I picked that one to grab out of the sky. I reached up, imagining that instead of it being something huge that was far away, it was something small that was within my reach. At first I only ended up waving my hand in front of me... But then I felt the little galaxy in my hand. It was ice-cold, and if "sparkly" was a texture, it was that. It sort of popped and tingled in my hands. It was malleable like the stuff tat woman was selling. I decided since this was a dream, why not eat it; it tasted like blueberries and cinnamon.

      I looked around again and wanted to summon some of my teammates (OneUp and spellbee were the only ones I could remember), and as I looked around, two men sitting at a table nearby had those named floating above them, like in a video game. OneUp had on a space helmet like his avatar and a tuxedo-T-shirt, and spellbee was wearing a green shirt with a cat on it and had glasses and short hair. I walked up to them and said, "OneUp? Spellbee?" They looked up at me and just grinned, so I sat down with them. I asked them what's new, and apparently spellbee was getting a divorce and OneUp was promoted at his job.

      "Have you guys seen any of the enemies around here?" I asked them. I started to feel the dream destabilizing and rubbed my hands on my thighs. I looked around, and saw two people walking toward us. One of them had the name dolphin above him, and the other had the name imazu, so I knew these were the enemies. They both carried pillows, so I reached behind my chair and summoned a pillow, telling spellbee and OneUp to do the same. But the dream collapsed and I felt myself
      waking up before we could have an epic pillow fight

      Updated 01-17-2016 at 06:12 AM by 69491

    4. spellbee's Competition Night 4

      by , 01-15-2016 at 02:39 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      Third night's paltry fragments are not worth DJing, sadly.

      But last night was a double-lucid night (which doesn't usually happen for me! Especially when I've been on a dry spell!)

      I was driving on the highway through the city. I noticed a blockade coming up, though. I stopped the car and got out to investigate, and it turns out there was an accident ahead and the whole freeway was closed from this point on. But for some reason, instead of cars getting off at the ramp that was literally RIGHT THERE, people were getting out of their cars and continuing on foot up the off-ramp. As I followed people up the ramp, I overheard people saying how there was a lone survivor; a child whose parents both died pretty gruesomely. There was a police officer asking the boy who they could contact instead of his parents, and he didn't know...

      I soon found my way to a mall that had wide, open corridors. As I was walking in them (they were deserted) I pretty much just remembered, "oh yeah! I'm sleeping in bed right now." And looked at the ceiling above me. I jumped and knew I for sure was dreaming when I zoomed out, completely phasing through the ceiling to the city above. I flew around, making my way back to the blockade to investigate more, but everyone was gone. I looked around and spotted a door in the walls keeping the busy city from mingling with the freeway.

      I ended up in this series of tunnels and hallways that was a police checkpoint or outpost or something. I opened a door next to me and found the boy who'd survived and some other police officers. They all looked at me and the boy looked scared somehow so I told him and the officer with which he spoke to ignore me, and became pretty much invisible to them and out of their memories even. For them, I wasn't even there. One of the other officers got mad and said that only authorized personnel could be there. I waved and informed him that the boy didn't know I was here, so it was fine. This seemed to calm the officer down so I looked around while I tried to remember something I wanted to do. I started my three-steps. I looked for something to use telekinesis on, and settled on the handcuffs at the officer's waist. I focused on them and they began to move. Once they were free of the cop's waist, I made them float around for a while and then settle on the table next to us. I've never done much with telekinesis so this was good practice for me. The police officers who could see me were fucking amazed by this and asked if I was a wizard or something. I talked with them about something or other but I could feel the dream ending and don't remember what exactly I was saying to them when I realized I was
      awake again (and people were plowing right outside my window at 2am). I eventually fell back asleep, though.

      All I remember before getting lucid again was being at someone's house and trying to make ramen. I had to leave it in my bowl for a bit to help someone do something or other, and by the time I got back to it, someone was shuffling off with most of my noodles transferred to their own bowl, and the rest of my noodles slopped all over the counter top. I was so angry! I yelled at him to stop and got in a heated cut-a-bitch argument with him. But then my assistant principal came in and said we needed to stop fighting. She also said we needed to talk about lesson plans. I somehow realized I was dreaming, because though I couldn't remember quite what day it was, it was certainly NOT Monday, when plans are due. Checking my ring confirmed that this was a dream, and I looked over at my assistant principal. I used Jedi mind tricks to wave her away with a, "my lesson plans are superb, no need to talk about them now," got up, and left.

      I found some of the people at this house and asked them where I could find a fairy ring; it was the TOTY that was first to come to mind. One of the guys jerked his finger over his shoulder, toward a window. "Right out front," he said. I thanked him and phased through the wall. Sure enough, there was a fairy circle like right in the front yard of this place. I approached it and wondered how to summon fairies, like actually. I remembered reading Zukin's journal; she sat down in it. I stepped in and felt a shiver like I was passing through some kind of invisible shield or wall of sorts. I sat down and willed for the fairies to arrive but woke
      up before they showed (I felt like I was THIS CLOSE to meeting them, too. I KNEW they were about to appear.)

      I had one other dream about eating fruits and pastries. It was nice I guess but not all that interesting or exciting XD
    5. spellbee's Sweet 16 Comp Days 1 + 2

      by , 01-13-2016 at 02:13 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      Wow, I've been so off my DJing game...
      I keep thm on my phone every day but I don't even remember the last time I actually typed them up here, and I'm too lazy to check right now...
      Either way, here's the DJ-Comeback (or not) for Spellbee's Sweet 16 Competition!

      Night One - January 11th, 2016

      Had a horrible night's sleep; plan to go to sleep super early (like 7:00pm) and wake up super early to get work done backfired immensely. I was wide awake still by midnight (yes, that's 5 hours of just laying there, trying to sleep) and I got maybe an hour and a half in short bursts through the rest of the night until 3:00 when I decided to fuck it all and get up.

      Interestingly enough, I had some very vivid dreams and managed to get lucid...

      This was actually the first dream I remembered having:

      I was in the Void. Literally just floating around in darkness. I knew I was dreaming right from the get-go. I had thought maybe I was still awake, but also knew I wasn't. I started walking in the air, trying to figure out what to do with my lucidity. I remembered something about creating a new world from the Void, and decided to recreate a minecraft world. I wasn't sure if it would count for the bonus TOTM, but it was worth a try. First, I made a body of water, in which I was standing. Then, I made sure there were large hills all around me. Somehow it turned into an area of the minecraft server Zukin and I play on, in which we've constructed this huge wall to enclose us and inside the wall are building all sorts of crazy, trippy, colorful, wonderful things. I was so happy and started flying around to explore. There were new structures around my "spawn point" and they were completely beautiful. I was a little sad because I knew I couldn't make something with of this level of beauty in Minecraft. I landed in the water of another pool nearby and there decided to try becoming a man. Upon looking down I discovered my manhood and touched it. It was an interesting feeling. I was starting to lose rational lucidity and then another man comes into my view and things got steamy. I think he was doing research on the water levels in that area of Minecraft when he saw me (apparently I was nakey) We touched each other. A lot. I lost lucidity. And then I woke up.

      Later in the morning I had another dream, non-lucid. I was in Lilo and Stitch for some reason, and Lilo and her sister were living in this little house on a FUCKING GORGEOUS grassy, forested hill. Like I was climbing up through the trees and come out on the top of the hill and I just wish I had this view in front of me ALL THE TIME. But it turned out that Lilo and her sister were like... no-class. Like they were not upper-class, middle-class OR lower-class. They were not even on the class scale and this made them absolute nobodies in society. Lilo had a big blue bird (Stitch??) but this bird was kinda a bitch to any other birds haha.

      The last one I remember was really close to the time I decided to get up. I was trying to finish up my lesson plans for the week (For me, lesson plans for the whole week are due on Monday mornings) and I was cooking baby carrots in the sink. Like, turning on the sink cooked them somehow. My little brother was calling me and telling me about his new girlfriend (he doesn't have one yet, sadly).

      Night Two - January 12th, 2016

      Just one dream from last night, but it was a pretty interesting one.
      I was at a huge party of some sort. We were in a hotel or convention center or something, and there were elevators. I got into one of the elevators (there were two.) There was only an up button so I pressed it. The elevator went up, and then BING'd and opened. I was at the end of a long, LONG hallway. I got out and started walking. Eventually the hallways started to be made of glass, and I could see that there was what seemed to be the end of the universe outside the walls. The hall took a turn and then opened out into this vast, beautiful space. All black, with dimly glowing stars nearby, though not hot and somehow very peaceful. There was absolutely no sound. Now that I was thinking about it, I started to wonder if I've come to the Void again, and wondered if I was dreaming. Looking at my hands revealed I'm indeed lucid (my ring had a white, a blue, and a green stone when it's supposed to be two white and a red stone in the middle).

      I looked down from the edge of the hallways, and see these strange... almost negative-blue, structures. Like... hmm. It wasn't the inverse-color-of-blue (orange), it was like literally anti blue. Like so black it was blue. There were rough pillars and mounds, and some spike-like jutting out things, and some bowl-like spaces. I jumped off the edge of this hallways and landed in the structures, but gravity was being a bitch. I felt out of control and was spinning slowly in a zero-gravity that STILL wanted me to go down. I bounced off one of the bowl-things and seemed to float, spinning, off a ramp and into the darkness.

      I FA'd back at the two elevators, this time with Zukin by my side. I had lost lucidity completely, and went into one of the elevators (the same one I picked before, though I didn't remember at the time) I had a vague feeling of deja vu, but didn't attain lucidity again. This time, there was also only one button, but it was a down button. I pressed it, and the elevator started plummeting at an extremely high, terrifying speed.

      I legit thought we were going to die, but the elevator stopped and we stepped out onto the bottom floor. We were with a whole group of people, but four of them were getting extremely sick. I had a very bad feeling about these sick people, like they we going to try to spread their sickness to us. So Zukin and I tried to get away from them and ended up getting separated from each other. I took the stairs (fuck if I was getting back into that elevator) to the third floor (the 2nd and 3rd floors of this building were a big, open bar or club or something) and found a table where people I knew were sitting. I was hoping to spot Zukin from the railings (they were like huge lofts so you could see the floors below you). I eventually spotted her, called her over. She came to the table with a hamster ball. She invited me to play a game of "Hamster Jamster," whatever that was. We were on our way to a basement room where we were sleeping, and met up with two Gingers. I don't know how this made sense to the dreaming me, but there were two of him; one of them was Zukin's ex who was still clinging onto her at all times, the other was the real Ginger, whom she was dating. We decided not to play Hamster Jamster, and got into our sleeping bags. The not-Ginger was all clingy and kept trying to cuddle with Zukin, but she was all "No, we're not dating anymore..." and continued to cuddle the real Ginger. Or whatever. Zukin remembered she needed to take some medicine, and we found out it was in the most ridiculous packaging EVER. There were two pills in these huge cardboard things. Like srsly wtf drug companies.

      Then I woke up.
    6. Week's baclog and epic scifi battle lucid with Zukin

      by , 10-25-2015 at 01:06 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      October 19, 2015

      I was a bit late in writing this one down so some of the details have escaped me; but I do know that I was walking around my home town, suuuupppeerrr tall. I was like the mountain spirit in Mononokehime, or a Titan. I felt more like the Spirit though. I was walking down the big hilly streets and enjoying the view from up high; I almost got lucid but didn't quite get there.

      October 20, 2015

      I was rafting down a river with Zukin. We were having the bestest of times, just sitting there and enjoying the sunset. to get back, though, we had to get upriver, and it was a struggle but still the bestest. After that, she had a date with Ginger, and I was talking with my high school friend, K. At some point, a middle school friend, N, texted me, and came to join us. It turned out he was in a band now and doing pretty well for himself. K was also doing well for himself, having beaten a lot of the depression he's been dealing with for years. Then, A (a guy I casually saw for a month or two) texted and wanted to hang out. So I was there with these three guys, and Zukin found out and posted on my Facebook wall, "Way to go Kestrel! Stringing these boys along perfectly." And I was embarrassed. Zukin and Ginger got back, and we had a dance party; I was eating some cucumbers, but since Zukin and Ginger were making out their feet got in my cucumbers

      October 21, 2015

      I was in a new school building; one of my coworkers was there, and she was put in this new classroom on the second floor. It was such a fucking beautiful classroom; all hardwood floors and beautiful dark wooden, tall walls. And like three rooms coming off the main room. In one of the rooms, there was this petting zoo / carnival ride. You could ride a llama, or a dog or a pig. But there was a rule; you can't wear a bra on the animals. So I had to take off my bra. And for some reason I ended up taking off my shirt as well. So I was sitting on this pig, shirtless. I got self conscious, especially since people were coming to pick me up any second now... but when I looked down, it turned out my shirt was still on, so I was all good. There was also this ride where you got on this big ball and rolled down a wire loop thing.

      I was going to this new aquarium with my brother; they had a merman on exhibit and we really wanted to go see him. We were about to enter with a large group, but something went terribly wrong, and since I was at the back of the group with my brother, all we could hear was some bangs and then someone shouting, "Run the FUUUUCK away!!!" This guy had been talking to us before, and he knew a lot about meraids, so we trusted his intuition and ran the fuck away. As we were leaving the building, going down this huge stairway at the entrance, there were lots of flashes and booms and shit. It was as if the merman had gone crazy and summoned a huge storm to destroy this whole fucking place.
      We got to the car and by the time we got home, we realized what had been so terrible. It wasn't the merman, but the climate; the sun was suddenly like 10x brighter, and the merman had sensed the change coming on and had been trying to warn people by attacking them to make them go back home lol. The sun was so bright it would burn you the moment your skin was exposed.
      Eventually, someone found a cure for the climate; an apple cider you had to drink to be fine in the new sun.

      October 22, 2015

      I was in a castle with Zukin, and we were guests at some kind of wedding; but there was a dragon who was trying to stop the wedding from happening. And then it turned out the groom had been cheating on the bride with this voluptuous woman in purple. The dragon then went berserk, and Zukin, the ex-bride, and I all ran down to this river to escape. This scene happened like three times, but the third time, it ended differently; we ran down to the river and suddenly the ex-bride had these super powers and blew up the dragon, who turned out to have been the woman in purple all along. It was weird.

      October 23, 2015

      I was sitting with Zukin in this huge tree, and pretty much just knew it was a dream from the get-go. We were reminiscing and pretty much just chilling. We met this guy who needed a lot of information, so we took him to this huge dream-database. We flew through stacks of conjoined truck-beds, which housed all the information. All I had to do was think about the information we needed, and a piece of paper just drew me to it. I pulled it out of its file and found that a woman had died, and found out she was pregnant with the child of the man who had been seeking our help. The man was so upset but so grateful for the information, and put the paper in his breast pocket. Some shit happened and it turned into an epic scifi battle with all my favorite characters from all my favorite shows. Zukin was by my side and the whole time, we wrecked shit up. After the battle, we all had a dance party. We were having a blast and then Zukin and I sorta sunk down through the floor and laid down to watch the feet swirling from below; the floor was completely clear, almost invisible so it was really surreal. I turned to Zukin and said, "This is pretty cool." And she agreed, telling me she had brought me to her dream now. I asked her what the rest of her dream had been like, but she couldn't really remember.
    7. Doctor Who Themed Night?

      by , 10-19-2015 at 01:45 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      Okay, trying to get back into the swing of daily DJing... I've been slacking so much lately, but I'm determined to get back into a good rhythm.

      October 18, 2015

      Rose Tyler

      I had just found Rose Tyler, and we were trying desperately to find the Doctor. We had the TARDIS, and were taking it around my neighborhood at night, trying to locate him; he was with some sort of group, passing out freebies for an event of some sort. I think he didn't remember who we were, but the people with him were enemies and hated us; they had brainwashed him somehow. So we had to pretend not to be us for a whike; we put on disguises and joined the group once we found them. But as soon as the Doctor saw Rose, he snapped out of it and just picked her up, and carried her away Princess-style. He was seriously the happiest man in the Universe in that moment, I could tell.

      What the Eff

      It was my birthday, and my family had gotten me this weird family Massage Feast. Like, they laid out all this food, and you got a Massage in the middle of the room while you and your family feasted. It was in this old, slightly sketch-looking building. They made me take off all the bracelets I had on, explaining that it would mess with the chi of the massage. They were so condescending about my bracelets though; one was apparently from another massage I'd gotten and was some sort of ice-charm to keep my joints from freezing up? Anyways, they looked at it and were all, "Oh, that explains so much," like it was a bad thing and I was a dumb-ass for having the bracelet.

      Anyways, they took us back into this huge dip in the floor that was lined with pillows and cushions and we sort of just sat there while we waited. Then they lead another girl and her family to the same place, and I was worried they were going to do the massages at the same time and place with hers, which kinda freaked me out. The other girl and her family left and went to a private room and they just left me and my family waiting there for a long time. Then I found out my cousin had said she didn't want to do this anymore, so they had canceled our reservation. I was so mad; this was MY birthday present, she had no right to say no. If she didn't want to, she should have just left and I was even more upset with my family for letting her have her way on my special day.

      Dalek Invasion!

      I was with my students and some people I know (Zukin was one of them, but I don't remember who else was there). We were in a multi-story house and in the middle of a Dalek invasion. We had devised a strategy to defeat them; use pillows to deflect their death-rays back at them. It wrked for a while as we made our way from the top floor to the ground floor, but the pillows stopped working; they would melt in our hands. So we switched to using baking sheets to deflect. But then the Daleks started evolving and their rays wouldn't hurt them as much so we would have to deflect for a lot longer time to defeat them. I think we were about to lose when I woke up...
    8. Sensei's Competition Last Night

      by , 08-31-2015 at 04:02 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      August 31, 2015

      Band Camp?

      I was at a camp for some group I was in; we went there every day to do outdoor activities and whatnot. We were always in this part of the park-space that had a little water fountain and was on the edge of these woods. Every day, I saw my high school's band camp also using a space nearby. I knew my friend K was training the baritones this year, so I wanted to go say Hi, but never got a chance to get away from the group.
      One day, as we left to eat lunch in the big mess-hall, a group of worker filed into the space we had been using after us. When we got back, we found they had torn out the water fountain and some of the trees to put in a path and fence. We were pissed and wanted our money back.


      I was watching Orange is the New Black season one (funny story, I watched most of season 3 but haven't seen any of S1 or S2) and all the characters looked so much younger. Then I got pulled into the show and was an inmate with them all. We had these assigned seats for movies, and special little mini fridges at each of our spots. I noticed that there was nothing in my little fridge, so I went down to the basement looking for some cans of coke. I saw a lot of different kinds of staff and workers; some were janitors, some were medics, some looked like businessmen.... I ended up bribing some of them for cans of coke for my little fridge. When I got back up and found it full of coke cans, I was so happy and took one out and had a nice, big drink.


      This dream legit has so many elements of a dream Zukin had last night. We're like convinced we shared this dream or at least parts of it.

      I was in an old house, living with a bunch of other people. It was being renovated, and I was looking through the bottom storage rooms to see if there was anything I could take up to my room on the very top floor. It was like a GUFF pile (General Unrestricted Free (Food), I believe it stands for; it's a word we use at the coop I lived at with Zukin that means it's free for the taking/using), and I wondered what kinds of things people had put down there. There were lots of colorful sheets, and I would have taken one of them if I didn't already have nice sheets. I left, and when I came back again there were boxes of lots of different kinds of cookies, and three people in the room. There was an older gentleman who looked like a janitor, and a couple, the woman crying and eating cookies. I overheard the conversation; the man had cheated on her, and was breaking it off with her. I felt for her and wanted to treat her to something nice but something told me not to meddle. They both left, leaving me with the older gentleman. He seemed really friendly, a bit odd, but really well-meaning. He asked if I wanted any of the sheets; I said no, because I had a star trek patterned set upstairs.

      "Oh, you like Star Trek? I have just the thing for you!" He opened a drawer in a nearby desk and ruffled through some papers. He handed me a visibly old piece of card-stock with an image printed on one side of it and writing on the back. I don't remember exactly what the image was at first, but the older man said it was a picture of Spock. I looked again, and it still wasn't Spock but the image changed! Every time I looked at it, the image on the paper was different. It eventually did show Spock; it was a black-and-white image, pretty old looking. I was super thrilled with this piece of paper and wanted badly to find Zukin to show her this supernatural thing.

      I ran up flights of stairs to try to find her, looking down at the sheet to make sure it was still working every now and then. I noticed the images were always black-and-white, and always had that old high-contrast-y quality to them even if they were modern things. About half-way through the house I felt this evil, dark presence. I turned away from where it was, but I kept running into it and I felt like it was chasing me and I kept getting glimpses of this black, shadowy figure. When I got to the ground floor of the house (there were apparently lots of basement floors), the image stopped changing. It was also in color, now. It was an image of an old wooden door, very intricate and really quite beautiful. It was at the end of a hallway or something, like a door to a closet or stairs to the basement. I kept looking back at the paper, trying to get it to change, but it wouldn't. And then, there was a banging at the front door. I had to cross right in front of the door to reach the stairs up to the top floors, so I ran. When I got to the top of the first flight of stairs I turned and saw the black figure (I could now tell it was a woman, and she was pure evil) phasing through the door and floating up towards me. I ran the rest of the way to my room without looking back.

      When I got to my room, I shut the door and locked it, and somehow I felt safer. Like I knew she couldn't get up here. So I put the now-permanent photo in my desk drawer for now. I stood in the center of my room, which was really beautifully lit, and something made me realize this was all very odd... I looked down at my hands. They looked normal, but the ruby ring I have was not how it should be. The stones on the sides of the ring were the wrong color. (through out the dream, I kept looking down at my hands to see what different ways they would look and also to keep the dream stable) I looked up again, knowing I was dreaming, and jumped up to phase through the ceiling and fly around town. The city was huge. I flew up, very fast, and then did super-fast circles and figures in the sky, pretty much just having a good time while I collected my thoughts. I remembered my most recent, most wanted goal, to summon the Face and have him tell me who he was. So I stopped where I was, about a mile above the city, and shouted, "FACE!"

      I blinked and realized I was now back in my room in that house. I felt the Face's presence behind and to my left, so I turned. He looked completely different (he was wearing the sexyest of all outfits and a pig head for some reason...)

      We greeted each other with a nod, and then I said, "So tell me, who are you exactly?"

      He took off the pig-head mask thing, and there was his normal face. "I'm your lovely dream-love-guide, love." He still used that signsongy voice and it somehow made me super horny. I sat down on the floor next to him. He sat down too, and reached over to move the hair away from my face. I pushed him down and got on top of him and it was amazing; our clothes just poofed away. I've never been fully lucid during sexy-times before. It was awesome. When we finished, I was laying on the ground next to him and he pulled himself over me, smirked and said, "Now go do those other things you wanted to do," and he phased through me and then the floor. It was a weird feeling, not a bad one though.

      I laid there on the floor thinking of my other goals and things to do. I vaguely remembered the week-two task being to make an inanimate object move and talk or something. I looked around the room and decided to go with the wardrobe in the corner; there wasn't very much furniture to pick from. I watched it and kinda wiggled my hands at it to give it life.

      It took a breath (like literally, I could see it inflate and deflate) and seemed to look at me. "Well, go on then," it said.


      "Open the window," it said, and moved toward the window. I did what it said, and when I opened the window, it got really happy. It shrunk enough to fit out the window and jumped out. I expected it to break when it hit the ground, but it just bounced a little and then walked off.

      Huh. I looked out the window and remembered the TOTM to turn yourself into a planet. I've been waiting for this one to be a task of the month to try it...! I stepped back from the window, and jumped up to shoot off through the roof of the old house. I just kept going up, getting faster and faster it seemed. Getting to space was harder this time because it was full-daylight out. The sun was abnormally bright and even when I got into space, the sun was like a super-bright point radiating out. I tried to keep my back to it while in space. I flew for a while, trying to get far enough from Earth to make my own planet out of myself.

      When I felt like I was far enough away, I stopped, closed my eyes and just sort of let myself grow. I grew taller, wider, rounder. It was such an awesome experience; I was just a simple round hunk of rock, so I sped up time (lol I forgot this was my third task, too, WOOT!) to let myself grow fully and get some lifeforms on me. I could literally feel mountains, oceans and forest growing on various parts of my body. I could feel living things start to evolve, and then people building huts and villages, migrating, and building their societies. It was like I WAS physics, geology, history... I could feel all the forces of gravity pulling things to my center, I could feel the pull of the sun and I could see the path of my orbit.

      I wanted to know what kind of life existed on myself, so I focused my consciousness on a point at my edge, extended out just a touch more and detached myself from myself. I was in a hilly place, with lots of grass. But where I detached was a crunchy gravel path. I realized I was in a sort of graveyard, and suddenly I felt Zukin's presence somewhere behind me. Like, not just Zukin's DC. This was HER presence. I looked around for her; I saw a few other people but I didn't see her, and yet I could still feel her and she was moving around. I kept searching for her but woke

      I texted her right away and she told me she had had a dream where she was in an old house that her family was renovating. But she knew it was haunted AF, and wrote them a letter trying to convince them. She described a black figure haunting and harassing a girl through the house! They felt she had wronged them, and honor-killed her and buried her in the back. And then she was wandering around a hilly, grassy graveyard following people and other spirits. Which would explain why I could sense her there but could never see her.

      Updated 08-31-2015 at 04:18 PM by 69491

    9. Sensei's Cometition Nights 9-12

      by , 08-29-2015 at 11:02 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      August 26, 2015

      Night 9

      All of my dreams this night involved something about college life; 3 of them were about parties (in one of them, there were these weird vendors lining a wide stairway, and something that looked like Alf gave me some really weird drugs...), and the other was about being with my college friends and I somehow feinted and ended up i the hot TA's room.

      August 27, 2015

      Night 10

      My two full dreams were about living with Zukin's boyfriend after they broke up, then going to Target to get Pokemon cards... I felt so guilty for having that dream D:
      In the other one, I had to drive to an old school building to pick things up with a back-o or something, but it broke down like a block away from home. The repair cost was too much for me to afford so I had to sell my soul to the mechanic D:

      August 28, 2015

      Night 11

      I was a super hero in one of the dreams My super power though...... Well, I was called The Great Dildo, so you might guess what my powers were. Everyone loved me, at least. The other three dreams weren't really worth mentioning :/

      August 29, 2015

      Night 12

      Three non-lucids about school again, one of which was really bad; I was at an interview for a teaching job and suddenly lost all power to speak comprehensibly. I was completely aphasic and didn't get the job DX

      I woke up way earlier than I'd planned (do once I didn't set an alarm for WBTB; still woke up around when I would have set it lol) and went back to sleep to have this dream:

      I was on a beach, just sitting for a while. There were other people there but I wasn't concerning myself with them. The sun was setting and I was watching the sky change colors; it was so pretty. Then The super-huge night sky starts moving in, and I realize this is strange, so I look at my hands. For one thing, I didn't see my class ring or the ruby ring my mom gave me a while ago, but the real clue was the fact that my fingers were all abnormally long. Like, really creepy looking.

      I looked back up at the sky for a moment first, seeing what I could see while I tried to remember my goals. It wasn't a very high lucidity, but I knew one of the things I wanted to do was explore underwater or in a cave, so I walked out to the ocean (or lake, it could have been Lake Michigan or something) until I was up to my waist in the water, then just sort of sat down in it. It was a little hard to get myself to keep breathing, but eventually I was able to breathe normally under water. I opened looked around, having opened my eyes at first. It was murky at first but started to get clearer after a little while. About four feet ahead of me, the sea-floor dropped suddenly. I scooted toward the underwater cliff and looked down. It, surprisingly, wasn't too dark. I let myself slowly sink down, watching the cliff as I went. I wanted to find a cave, and lo-and-behold, there was one after not too long. It was about twice my height in diameter. There wasn't much exciting at first. Some sea creatures here and there but mostly just murky water haha.

      Then I turned a corner and entered this huge cavern with glowing spots in the walls. A merman came up to me and asked what I was doing here. I told him I was exploring, and asked if he could show me around. He was skeptical at first, but eventually gave in. He showed me the merpeople village and the best part was the bathrooms. Instead of water in the toilet bowl they had figured out how to use air in their pipes lol.

      I got a little bored of this place for some reason, and decided I wanted to watch the sky again. I pulled a black circle cloth out of my pockets and slapped it onto the wall near me. I stepped through it, expecting that I would end up on the beach again... I came out on the other side, not on the beach, but in the halls of the Enterprise. It was then that I remembered one of my goals was to take a trip on the Enterprise... I got giddy.

      I walked through the halls until I spotted someone in a yellow shirt. I asked them what deck I was on. Apparently this was deck 4. Good, close to the bridge. I tried random doors until I came to the turbolift, and told the computer to take me to the bridge. When the door opened, I was on this weird version of the bridge. It was a little darker, and a little more steam-punk. I looked around and then said, "What, no one's going to announce Captain on the Bridge??" Expectantly.

      The nearest crewman, another yellow-shirt, looked up and then became flustered and confused. "S'sorry sir! Didn't see you come in... Captain on the Bridge!"

      I nodded satisfactorily. Captain of the Enterprise. I went to the Captain's chair and relieved who I assumed was my Number 1. He asked for my orders. "To Galifrey!" I commanded. Everyone stopped like stone and stared at me. "But... it's in a time lock, sir. It's lost."

      "Well, let's find it!" I entered in some random coordinates and hit the big, red, ENGAGE button on the control panel in front of me. The engines started up and we entered warp. I felt the dream destabilizing here, and tried rubbing my hands together to stabilize, but something was off and I woke
    10. Sensei's Competition Night 8

      by , 08-26-2015 at 04:54 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      August 25, 2015

      Brilliant Idea

      I was with the Doctor, and we were trying to contact the other people in our Alliance, because we had some vital information for them. We were on some other planet that was pretty similar to ours, and I had an idea to get the Alliance's attention by using the on-ramp on the wrong side of the highway to get their attention. I think it worked but I don't really remember.

      Twisted Little Kids

      I was a butler in a rich family's home; apparently the daughter of the family had been screwing her little brother for some time. And they had also killed their baby brother when they were kids... It was a messed up family in general. I don't know if the parents knew about all this or not, but I wasn't sure they would even care... The daughter had a friend over, and the friend noticed a huge cut in her stomach. They didn't know where the cut had come from but I suspect it was the little brother or some weird BDSM thing she liked to do to herself (like she wanted to be both the dom and the submissive...)

      I then turned into a guy, on some sort of sport's team. I was in a secret relationship with one of my teammates. The team was practicing in some sort of cool bounce-house obstacle course, and at the end it was just us two and one other teammate, who was the only person who knew about our relationship... he left us alone for a little bit with a wink. We were like, on top of some huge foam mat (like 10-feet tall, maybe 20x5 feet in size), near the back of the room, by the wall. And there was a gap between the foam mat and the wall. We started kissing and I presented him my rear... You can guess where things went from there. At the very end, though, a janitor came in and we, struggling to become unseen, fell behind the structure we were on. We stayed really still and quiet, hoping not to be found, but we ended up fooling around back there, too, and got found because we were too noisy.

      Mountain Resorts

      I was with my family, touring three different mountain resorts my grandpa was staying at. One of them, my favorite, had an outdoor hot-spring with a sort of ropes course above it. The hot water was nice because while we were there, it was winter or fall or something; it was cold. We were all doing the course, even my grandpa. It was really intricate, and I don't want to try to describe it all because it would take too long. There were lots of rope bridges though, and bits of wood hanging from ropes you had to land on and whatnot. I almost fell into the warm water below at some point.

      Sparkly Floor!

      I had spent a week at a sort of summer camp, at the end of which I received a bucket of really sparkly purple paint. It was like pure, purple glitter. I was in my room that night, painting parts of my floor sparkly purple when a butler or something comes in and starts hitting on me and suggesting new ways to use the paint... It was super weird and I was creeped out by this guy. I looked out the window and saw a whole arch of moons in different phases, with the full moon at the top of the arch. When I turned or moved my head slightly, some of the moons would disappear.

      I thought this was odd and looked at my hands; there was a second pinky-finger on my right hand, so I knew I was dreaming! I looked out the window again at the moon-arch. It was really beautiful, and the sky behind it was the kind of super-huge night sky I have come to absolutely love in my dreams. I couldn't quite remember what I had chosen as my three-step tasks, but I knew teleportation and element manipulation were the first two... Though I didn't remember which I had picked for the first task. I decided to do manipulation, then teleportation, then manipulation again just to be safe.

      I jumped through the window, onto the ground outside. Element manipulation would be like making the wind pick up, right? I channeled my inner air-bender (or at least what I imagined was pretty close-ish to that) with the intent of creating a Aang-Ball-Of-Air to ride on. It took a couple of tries but I finally got it, and it was so trippy when I sat on it and looked down... It looked like a whirling little partial-black-hole or something, with distortions and bubbles all over the place. I rode it around a little bit and stumbled getting off it.

      Okay, teleportation next. I was determined to fly into a black hole too, though (the little ball of air had reminded me of that TOTM). Maybe I could do that with the intent that it would be a wormhole and teleport me somewhere? I jumped off into the super-huge night sky, and it was so much easier to get into space than it usually is for me. I just had to sort of fly toward one of the huge celestial objects in the sky. One of them was a galaxy, at the center of which I expected to find a black hole. It was so weird, the galaxy just sort of got closer. It didn't feel like I had moved, as if I was in a planetarium and it was just zooming in. But it was a 3-D planetarium and stardust was flying around me.

      I came to the center of the galaxy, and there was a black hole. I just sort of knew it was one. I jumped in and managed to remember to say "Geronimo!"

      At first it didn't feel like anything was happening, It was dark, and then I looked down at my legs and was amused to see them all stretched out and wiggly. Spaghettification!! I felt myself being sucked to the center and there was a little teensy ball of light which I assumed was the singularity, even though physics as we know it wouldn't allow it to be light. It got closer and then I sort of just passed through it.

      I had closed my eyes (tried to keep them open but it was too weird for me...), and when I opened them again I was in my bed. I looked at my hands again to make sure I was still dreaming, and let myself rise up from the bed slowly. I phased through the ceiling (something I've never done in-dream but imagined doing in waking life lots of times) and looked around. It was still night time. Some fire would be perfect at night time, so I held out my hand, snapped and produced a flame. Roy Mustang style, ftw. I toyed with it a few minutes, trying to remember the things my character could do with fire to practice them. I couldn't for the life of me remember what I'd chosen for the third task, nor any other of the TOTMs and didn't feel like attempting a TOTY, so I just sat in the air and played with fire until the dream destabilized.

      Zukin <3

      I FA'd in a hotel- or bedroom in a queen sized bed with Zukin (hahaha, get it? Queen Zukin? lulz SubC). She was still asleep so I just sat there for a bit (didn't RC this time, sadface) until she woke up. I told her about the messed up brother/sister dream and the male sports team dream I'd just had. She commented that they both sounded interesting. The lights flickered and I heard wind howling outside. There was a huge storm brewing, and the power went out. Backup generators kicked in immediately, and Zukin and I waited out the storm... When it was all over, the sun was rising and I went out the balcony and (though I didn't realize at the time) was in one of the three hotel resorts from that other dream. It was spring time, or summer, and the sun was at that angle where everything glows golden, only it was even brighter and vivid because it was a dream and since it had just rained everything was sparkly; the contrast was high and the colors were ALL extremely vivid; the green in the grass, the golden lights, purple shadows, deep blue sky and the mountains had a pink glow. There was a huge waterfall falling from one of the cliffs, close enough that I could hear the crashing water. I took out my phone to take some pictures. I was having a hard time avoiding the intricate patters of the wooden railing on the balcony for some reason.

      Race Car Dressing Room

      In this dream, my big brother was hiring me to race a car for him. He was paying me like $12k for it. I was happy to do this for him, for the money, and for driving fast |D

      when we arrived at the location, I had to pick out a dressing room... We walked through the labyrinthine hallways behind-the-scenes to find a suitable one. Each one had a price-tag on the door; some were more expensive rooms. There were plenty of $10 rooms that were pretty sparse; some had no chairs, some had chairs but no mirrors. One of them was like a weird maze-like bathroom stall without chairs, mirrors, or anything. Some didn't have locks on the doors, some had no doors at all, just curtains. Then there were rooms that cost over $1000; they were luxurious and fancy and huge. But I decided to go with a cheaper-ish one; about $30, which had what I needed and nothing more.
      lucid , task of the month
    11. Sensei's Competition (Day) 5

      by , 08-23-2015 at 10:50 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      I took a nap on Friday after moving a bunch of my things from my old apartment. I had a couple of non-important dreams and then this one:

      I was at my parents' house, watching a movie. I can't remember much of what the movie was about, but it was something SciFi. My old dog, Emma, was sitting on the floor by my feet; she's been dead for 5 years now, and at first I didn't think anything of it but then I was thinking, "wait a minute..." I checked my hands; they were multi-colored and psychedelic.

      I pet my dog and was so happy to see her. She looked young again, like she was when I was a child. I would have sat there until I woke up if I didn't remember that I had tasks to try to complete. I didn't want to make her go, but my Step-3 task was advanced unsummoning. Since Emma isn't larger than human size, I would either have to banish something else or do it in my direct line of sight. I was going to do this, but then I thought maybe I could make her bigger. I put my thumb and pointer out and then expanded them, as if I was zooming in on a touch-screen. Emma got bigger... I made her about the size of a large coffee table in the room. I patted her again and said "Goodbye, Emma." I didn't know what exactly to try as far as unsummoning her, so I just sort of blinked and expected her to "blink" out. When I opened my eyes again, she was gone. It was a little sad, but I left my house and thought this was a perfect chance to do the intermediate league weekly challenge. I walked two doors down to the neighbor's neighbor's house. I wondered whether to knock or not, but ended up just strutting through the front door. My dream, my rules.

      I looked around the front entry-space. It was pretty normal and innocuous-looking. I saw two doors and a flight of stairs. I spent some time dinking around the bottom floor (All of the rooms on the bottom floor were all one color. There was a completely orange room, as well as green, purple, and this weird poo-brown) and then went upstairs, where I found a room full of chocolate bunnies and one full of dildos (of course.)

      I flew out one of the top-floor windows and was going to attempt the black hole task again but didn't make it very far in space before
      waking up again.
    12. Sensei's Competition Day 3

      by , 08-20-2015 at 08:20 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      August 20, 2015

      They have SOLD THEIR SOULS to Corporate America!

      I was in a three-week intensive final training for my Elementary-Ed master's degree. We were completing an internship at a summer camp, and in the last week of the program we were to do a collaborative piece with McDonald's. Because of this collaboration, we had a half day at the camp and the kids all roamed free for this half-day.

      One of my classmates was pissed about this, though. She boycotted the McDonald's collaboration and got a whole bunch of big bags of chips and lines them up to read "*insert my university* has SOLD THEIR SOULS to Corporate America!" I was a little confused but admired her activism and stood with her.

      That night, we all stayed in a hotel and it was so confusing and extremely haunted.

      Minecraft Woes

      I was in the Evil version of Yubaba's Bathhouse, and I had a sword and armor. My hunger bar was at zero, and I only had the half-heart left, which can't be taken away because of hunger. Apparently, in this reality, in that state monsters wouldn't be aggressive toward you. Which was good, because I was in the basement and surrounded by skeletons, creepers, spiders and zombies. I made it all the way to the door of the building but there was a creeper blocking the way and for some reason this one monster wasn't ignoring me. It blew me up and I awoke

      Wow, SubC. Smooth.

      I was in Colorado for some reason and was going to go to a Japanese summer festival with Adam (a guy I've lately been seeing casually)... The festival was held at the old dude-ranch I went to as a kid there, and I was going to be meeting him there. I parked in a parking lot wayyyyy up high in the sky with a rope ladder type obstacle to get up and down. Getting down it was fine! I got to the festival location and realized I'd forgotten something in my car, though. I started climbing and was so proud of myself for not getting tired or out of breath! but as I got within like 20-ish feet of the parking lot where I left my car, the rope ladder thing got a lot narrower and harder to navigate. I had to like squeeze myself through a solid part and pull myself up. There was a family of 4 at the top who were cheering me on as I finally made it up.

      I looked back at the thing I'd just climbed and suddenly decided I needed to move my car because I was NOT doing that again. It was then that I spotted a brown creature hopping/flying below us. I wasn't sure exactly what it was but then I suddenly realized; it was a unicorn! Except this unicorn wasn't at all what you think of when you think Unicorn. It was a shaggy, brown miniature horse with a horn that looked like it could have just been a pointy tuft of hair sticking out of its forehead. It was the derpiest little thing ever and was making squeaking/grunting noises as it plodded along giving zero fucks about how shabby it looked.

      I pointed it out to the family, and they were all fascinated and I was like "You go little Unicorn!"

      I got in my car and started to back out of the parking spot. I spotted Adam nearby and pulled up next to him, telling him to get in so I could find a new place to park. He got into my car freezing cold and with a raging boner... so I offered him my sleeping bag to warm up.

      (WTF SubC... I thought I was way dirtier than that!)

      We drove for a little bit and I saw the derpy unicorn again. And then I realized it had gone the complete other direction so how could it be here... and did a quick RC. I became lucid and stopped the car. I was in the mountains of Colorado again and looked around for more detail and ideas. I looked to the ground for something I might be able to eat for my first 3-steo task for the competition... I saw a mushroom, and figured, why not? I stuck it in my mouth and it tasted like a whole mountain. If that makes sense. I liked it somehow!

      I looked around again and spotted Adam still sitting in my car. I was disappointed to see his boner was gone (lol) but remembered I wanted to ask DCs what they do to RC. So I asked him: "What do you do to reality check?"

      He looked at me for a while and then smiled. "I always close my eyes. If I'm dreaming I see things when my eyes are closed." Interesting :O

      I decided to try for the black hole task of the month while getting my second 3-step task checked off; I jumped off, imagining myself shooting off at the speed of a rocket. It was dusk (a lot of my dreams have been dusk-time lately. It's really pretty but on the edge of bad news, as getting dark is usually a bad thing in my dreams) and I looked down to see the ground quickly moving away from me. Soon I was in space, and searched for a black hole to jump into, but I couldn't find one before I woke up
    13. Sensei's Competition Day 2

      by , 08-20-2015 at 07:51 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      August 19, 2014

      What a Fucking Gorgeous Sight

      I spent almost an entire full-length dream souring and shooting through stars and galaxies and asteroids. It was so effing gorgeous. Nothing much happened but it was such a nice dream!

      Down South

      I was shopping for food with my family; we were visiting the south for some reason (we have no reason to be in the south really; no family there or anything lol)

      I remember trying to find what I wanted but not being able to because the isles were all labeled horridly. I was in a very bad mood and was snapping at my family and I may have started crying in the middle of the soup isle because they didn't have the cheesy potato, bean, beef, pickle (yes pickle) and tomato soup I just really, really wanted.

      Slightly Illegal

      I was doing something slightly illegal and waiting for planes to land/dock in this mid-air station about 200 ft off the ground. I was with a group of people and we had to chase the planes down and then board them while no one was looking, fiddle with some wires, and then leave unnoticed. I think we were doing something to the navigations, like setting in a new route for pre-programmed flights to get supplies to some group in need.

      Lost in My Own Neighborhood

      I was walking around my own neighborhood, trying to find my home. I was with two guys, though I don't remember who exactly they were. I was getting frustrated because I couldn't find my home and I was getting horny; I couldn't just jump my two male companions in the middle of the street so I had to wait until we got to my house. We finally found my house, and I took them to the basement. A dog greeted us at the front door, and I woke up before anything fun happened : /
    14. Finally Back in the DJ Swing (I Hope)

      by , 08-19-2015 at 04:48 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      Well, I have to restart somewhere right?

      August 18, 2015


      I had a short fragment in which I was building a bridge in Minecraft; I had nothing to build with in my inventory, though. Only flowers and fish and some bowls and buckets. It was rather frustrating, and I remember looking down at my hands because I thought something was up, but they were the normal minecraft block-hands, so I didn't quite get to the realization that I was dreaming.

      I literally woke up and fell back asleep to have this exact same dream three more times.

      Ineffective Sword-Master

      I was exploring a castle and had a sword to use, but had no idea how to use it! Every time I tried to swing it, nothing happened or something really bad happened...

      Stress Dream

      I was in a competition wit the rest of my housemates; at first everything was fine and my team was even winning. One of the competitions involved cars... we were for some reason at my parents' house, and we had to drive up and down the driveway in a certain way in order to win. Another of the challenge games was a sort of soccer hybrid with a huuuuuge ball. I was taking a nap in my van after one of the challenges when my aunt came into the car to get something she'd left there... she woke me up and accidentally dislodged the brake somehow; the car started to roll forward, down the driveway. We managed to stop it, though.

      The next challenge was to build a lucky cat figure, which I knew I would win. But then things went south. The challenge after that involved picking a sentence from a list and going to a piece of paper to see what you had to do... I don't quite remember the sentence I picked but it was something French-ish and about castles and intrigue or something. I couldn't find my sentence anywhere when we had to match it to a paper, and had to get assistance from one of the counselors. She pointed me to a piece of paper at the very top left on the bulletin board, and I watched as the paper turned into a play and sucked me in; I became the lead female role in the play. But I had no idea what the lines were or the stage movements. I panicked and left the stage shortly after entering it; I had to sit there and watch as the stand-in for me went on and delivered my lines. There was even singing. Ginger (a housemate) was the lead male role, and he seemed to remember his limes at first but then left the stage as well either to comfort me or because he didn't know his lines. Zukin was in the audience, I think. I was trying to memorize my lines from the side and remembered having to sing a song about a gift of condoms.
    15. Harry Potter, Starry Nights, Gay Strip Clubs and Drinking Battles

      by , 06-30-2015 at 02:46 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      June 29, 2015

      I took the Dream Leaf supplement tonight as well.

      My classmate was working at the library at the school we both did our internship at, but it was like my old high school, with more ramps and stairs and shit. She was walking around the school, and I saw her. I decided to walk with her, and she was commenting on how her job let her use these ramps on all the stairs. She was pushing around a huge barrel of books and whatnot. The kids all loved her and I got to see some of them. They were second graders now, so some of them were in another class.

      The Paint
      I was taking a class with mom. It was a huge hippie experience: we paired up and greeted an (inanimate) object in the room, then wrote a Socratic poem for the room we were in (I can't remember the name of the room... But it had a name). Then we sat in a circle and the leader was all dramatic and we got huge paintbrushes and canvases with different colored base paintings. I had orange of course. We all just shared pots and squirt bottles of different colors and had a huge hippie paint fest. I finished early and asked if I could leave, and walked home. I accidentally left my backback on the trail though, on a castle-wall thing. I had to go back and mom saw my painting; she was very impressed.

      I was with my brothers, in the driveway, turning animals into different animals. We turned a robin into a bald eagle and for some reason it targeted me so I tried to get inside the house without looking like I was running, in case that would make it hunt me faster... It almost got me as I ran the last stretch to the door. I waited inside and was so paranoid because it was still trying to get me for a few minutes. It flew at the windows and tried to get in through the door when anyone went in or out.

      (Took Red Pill)

      Harry Potter's Paintbrush
      I was at an apartment with Anna, Michele, Michelle, Michelle, Mindi, and some other classmates. We were heading out to class, stopping to get food first. But I almost forgot my keys and had to go back. When I caught up to them, a kid was asking for money. I said I wouldn't give her money but I would buy her some food. So we stopped in a store and I let her pick out some food, but she swiped my card. I had a scuffle with her and eventually got it back from her, then she turned into golem... During our scuffle I saw in the back room Harry Potter tied to a chair... I was too busy to do anything about it. I bought at twizzler on my way out of the store and the cashier said she was on my side and thought it was really nice that I was going to buy food for that girl. As I left, Lucious Malfoy was also leaving, and I accused him of raping HP.

      As soon as I left the shop, I turned into Harry. All the lights on the street turned off now and death eaters were all over the place. People were falling left and right so I fell to the ground to make it look like I was one of them and three women were near me. One tried to take a necklace in my hand (it was good, with either a crown or a chicken pendant), I shook my head, clenched the necklace tighter, and offered a paintbrush instead. She seemed very pleased with this and one of the others gave me a different paintbrush in exchange.

      I spent days on the streets. At some point I was sitting with a young death eater who was saying that he knew their side would lose. I was like "you always have to have faith in your side. That's what makes it strong," but I was having so much trouble speaking, like my throat was all crackly or I was out of breath all the time. But then I found out that I was near the border of deatheater-land all I had to do was cross this street I was on, and they wouldn't be able to get me back. So I pretty much just ran for it and I was fine. On the other side everyone was dressed in flowers and veils and flowing light dresses... It was almost as weird as the other side. Very hippie, very full of life, almost a little cultish. I walked to a secret school I was a part of and some vines opened up to let me in. They were magical and would close around anyone who didn't belong at the school. There was a girl behind me and she climbed up a vine to get in, but the vines closed around me, trapping me, and I saw the girl fall... I shouted and the vines recognized me and let me in. Next thing I knew, I was in a large room with 6 bunks. Hermione and Ron were there. Two of the bunks had colorful alphabet letters and one was a half-bunk that was blue and white. Three other people came in, but I didn't know them. Hermione and Ron told them the story, then the dream faded.

      Drinking Battle!
      I was walking through an art museum, and saw Van Gogh's Starry Night. I'd been planning on jumping into this painting, so I'm glad I saw it and got lucid after a quick RC. I pretty much ran at the wall, expecting to get sucked into the painting, and jumped in. Everything was in the texture of the painting, with lines and multi-colored. I looked up and there were swirls moving around through the stars and moon. It was beautiful. There was also a giant dildo in the sky, though. Remembering the second task on my planned sequence, I rustled around in my pockets, expecting that what I pulled out would be an odd seed. I found one shaped like those candies the soot sprites were eating in Spirited Away. It was larger though, and had spots that started pink but were changing to blues and greens, all neon-ish. I dug a small hole and planted it, and willed it to grow. The result was petty interesting. It grew a gay strip club.

      Woot woot!!

      I knew the next thing I wanted to do was clone myself, so I looked into the window of the club at my reflection, and imagined there were two of me. I remembered how this had worked in Zukin's dream. My reflection kept morphing and did eventually show two of me... I looked next to me and there I was.

      I went with myself into the strip club, expecting to find the main men for my next task: Hercules and Dionysus. It was very distracting in there but I had recited the order of things to do so many times before I fell asleep (STD but with C in it for clone lol) that I only stopped to watch the strippers for a little while, clone by my side. I tried seeing through both of our eyes, but we were seeing the same things so I don't think that worked... I tried to get her to come with me to find the God of Wine and his competitor, but she wanted to stay with the strippers. I left her there, and shortly after, in the back of the club, I saw two shirtless men (maybe they were workers there on their break). I asked if they were Dionysus and Hercules, and they said they were. I challenged them to a drinking battle, and Dionysus was like "Sweetie, I'm the God of Wine. Bring it on." He scooted over for me to sit in the booth with them.

      The first drink had no effect on any of us. The second had none on me but a teeny bit of effect on them. After the third I felt a little silly (placebo?) but they were looking wasted all of the sudden. We all stayed that way for another ten drinks until after the 14th they were both so drunk they started making out and forgot about our battle. I assumed I needed to drink one more to win, so I did. Then I watched them make out, and may or may not have joined them soon after when things got a little heavier. I lost any sort of lucidity
      I had left, though.
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