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I started out the night doing a new meditation. I was opening my core chakra's & tried to add a new one from the extended version which heightened my vibrations. I didn't close them because I wanted an OOB but what I got was a new bad experience.


First, I had a False Awakening in which I got up to go pee. I was exhausted when I started & kept thinking I had drank too much tea & this would interrupt my chakra meditation by me needing to pee. Like I said, I was just too tired & had just went anyway so I risked it. Which would explain the FA while doing my chakra exercise. Next was me climbing back into my bed & the following began.

I was experiences all the high vibrations of an OOB which excited me but alarmed me at the same time because I could feel vibrations that weren't created by me this time. I began also to experience the most intense pain on my body. I looked later for bruising but I haven't seen any but I have extremely sore spots on my chest, upper thighs, upper arm, wrists, ect. I also couldn't see which was a new thing for me. My other OOB experiences or attempts left me able to see but this time I couldn't. I was yelling for Mike to no avail. I could here my screams in my head but he couldn't here me. I could tell I was reaching for him in attempt to wake him up but it was my astral arm & hand. Eventually I was able to use my real arm & hit him. He woke up & of course he understood what had happened. I went to smoke 1/2 a cig in the bathroom to try & shake off the terror I was feeling & tried to come back to bed. I started back w/ doing my chakra's again feeling still scared but more in control. No dice on that front.

Then I entered in D1: I was at a retreat for lucid dreamers, people who could astral project & also had other abilities. I had brought w/ my tools of the trade which included books, notebooks w/ notes & diagrams, etc. The retreat was really familiar to me as did the ppl. (I'm not good w/ DC names unless they are from this waking life. The retreat came complete w/ sleeping quarters, practicing rooms, schedules, a communal eating area which we spent a lot of time catching up w/ each other & showing each other our newest knowledge that we had accumulated. I was doing really well w/ this. And it all felt totally natural. The familiarity was uncanny!Then I rolled into dream 2.

D2: I was back at the retreat for the next year & I hadn't been as prepared. (I've never ever experienced a dream in which time was played out like this, it was really new for me.) This time I had left vital information at home & had slacked off a bit. I had noticed that now others were doing much better w/ their new research. And then things got odd. An old boyfriend of mine was there from my childhood. Anyway he was ignoring me in the dream & I tried to be patient in hopes that things would okay. Unfortunately it didn't happen even in the dream.


He was my last boyfriend I had when I had been ripped from my home in my 8th grade yr due to things beyond my control. There is a lot of history w/ him & when I was just 18 we had a falling out because I was smoking pot & got details screwed about the details that led up to my departure in 8th grade up while on the phone. These circumstances are way too long for me to journal today. I've written of things pertaining to this subject in old journal entries on DV. Any way, This was an extremely hard thing for me to except throughout the yrs. Not to mention his best friend & my childhood friend was also on the phone. Till this day I can't find them anywhere to make amends . Anyway he was ignoring me in the dream & I tried to be patient in hopes that things would okay. Unfortunately it didn't happen even in the dream.

I feel as though I could very well have been a part of something like these retreats in a past life. Your soul lives on when you die. Also there are also core ppl that are present in these lives. I think somehow the previous dream bled into my existing dream sequence some how & it changed the dynamics of it.


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Astral Projection/AP-Brown/OOB

I didn't get much sleep. Had to get up & go move my mother n law into an Assisted Living Home cuz her dementia is so bad. So I had a vague non-lucid but l had to get around quickly & didn't have time to write it down.

On a brighter strange note. Yesterday I forgot to mention something due to time. I woke up to go pee in the middle of the night & was standing in the doorway of my bathroom & I felt vibrations & heard the whirl & saw my arms. My astral arms & my regular arms. I was just stopped in the doorway kind of taken a back by it. This has never happened before while just walking through my house & i was just kind of in awe of it. I knew I needed sleep cuz of so much going on so I just went back to bed when the experience ended after about 2 minutes.....

Strangely enough it may have to do w/ a weird visual thing I've been doing lately. See, I've been building this dream house in my head for years just to fall asleep until a couple of weeks ago when I started doing it again but now I find myself subconsciously doing it at other times. I'll be reading & comprehending my book but my mind is building my house & I go a couple of paragraphs & think, man this is weird. Then I realized I was doing it while just walking through my house just out of the blue. Kind of like daydreaming or something but I'm still doing whatever task. It's like I've trained my brain to multitask this one thing because I'm always tweaking details to my house.

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Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

Im asleep in my bed focusing on my breathing, when all of a sudden my body went numb and everything went completely silent. i then heard buzzing sounds and continued to focus on my energy aura increasing, i lifted my astral left arm and tried to peel of my sleep mask (i normally wear) on my face. but i kept pulling and pulling away until im just touching my eyes??? hmmmm.....last time i checked...i was wearing my sleep mask. or am i really awake and my sleep mask came off??? after all this trying to put my understanding into whether or not im dreaming i finally get up off the bed turn on the light and notice my sleep mask is gone? real funny brain. but im too aware, and refuse to become lost into fucking oblivion! so i walk over to my mirror and focus my energy into becoming a crow. i felt my arms become wings, my head become small, and my nose and mouth became long and curvy into a dark charcoal beak.my body shrink and it became filled with glossy black feathers. im now fully formed as this intelligent mischievious little bird, and decided its time to spread my wings and fly off into the night! i cawed 4 times and flew out my window into the night skies, i landed on a telephone pole and begin cawing away, it was very foggy and my city (here in Detroit Mi) looked a bit different? am i even at home anymore??? not feeling afraid nor having any thought at all..i cawed a few more times. i then noticed a beautiful raven flew a few feet away from where i was, and landed on top another telephone pole. she gave off a energy that felt familar, she flew closer to me and cawed back (i somehow understood what her cawing meant). she seduced me to follow her.. we flew thru the skies cawing and cawing away..no longer worried about tomorrow, only worried about today. we flew thru this abandoned building and landed atop a old dresser. a white homeless man begin screaming and yelling at us to leave his building. he swatted at us with his cane, but we flew around higher cawing at the man warning him to stop or else he will meet his impending doom! so me and the female raven flew thru the building with this homeless man chasing us and screaming at us at the top of his lungs to leave his shack..when all of a sudden he tripped and landed in a pile of rubble from the house and laid there catching his breath, we were in some old beat up bathroom. there was a shower rod i landed on and begin pecking at it, the man now laying in the rubble near this tub did not know what would await him.. the female raven landed on the bathroom sink and cawed at him he begin to get up from the rubble when all of a sudden i pecked one last time at the shower rod and it fell directly on his head. me and the female raven cawed at the man and flew out of the buiding into the foggy now early morning skies, we both landed at a nearby home and i projected back into my normal self and to my amazement..this beautiful raven projected herself into her normal self. (and boy was she attractive) fair complexion, long black wavy hair, beautiful bedroom eyes, a pocahontas nose, and juicy doll shaped lips. mmm this lovely lady was my type to the fullest! please do not take this the wrong way boo.. but uh.. can i seranade you??? she nodded and we entered (what i believe to be her home) a huge house very nicely decorated with antique statues of birds, such as..hawks, crows, ravens, owls, robins, bluejays, sparrows, ect ect. she then set down on a couch and asked me what my beliefs were, i told her i am very spiritual and believe no matter what religion you believe in, we are all worshipping the same God. she got up from the couch and gave me a hug filled with so much love and peace that it become so intense that i started to feel myself being jolted back into my original body! awwww....why did it have to end there!

Sat. 12/31/2011 Bed 1:30am

I set my goal to OOB or LD. For OOB - look at my sleeping body, my astral hands and cord. Go to the orbit and from there go see my mom in Europe. I’m in US.

GM+Choline 5:47am

I had 2 OBEs before 8 am and LD between 8:30-11am.

OBE#1.
Starts as a dream. I’m in a big, bright room with friend of mine and her two kids. It’s a living room and a bedroom. It’s not my place and it’s not my friends place. We are playing.

Then I go to sleep and I try to have an OBE. I feel the telltale tingling in the back of my head. I come to the point, when I decide to try and roll out from my body. I kinda expect to hit the floor. I’m amazed, when what feels like 3 inches from the floor I ‘bounce off’ the ‘antigravity energy field’.

I immediately start walking away from the bed, not wanting to get pulled back. It's not very hard to walk, feel only a slight pull. I don’t stop, until I come to the end of the hallway with some windows on left and door at the end. I want to stop while inside, don’t want to go out yet and split second later I remember I wanted to see my sleeping body.

I struggle to see better/open my eyes. Although I see quite well, I feel like my eyes are closed, but not the feeling as I’m looking through my eyelids. I manage to open one eye just a little bit and I see much better, but I’m not sure, if that’s not my sleeping eye so I don’t continue opening it.

I turn around and look for a cord. I don’t see it, but I know it’s there. I follow it back to the bed. First thing I see is the end of the bed, rest of it is hiding behind the wall. I’m curious to see if the bed is empty and I’m in LD, or if there is a sleeping body.

As I come closer, I’m amazed to see the sheet pushed up by what clearly looks like two feet and legs of a person sleeping on his back. I come closer and again with amazement, I see a sleeping person. She is wearing an orange t-shirt, with sheets reaching half way up the torso. I know it’s me, puffy cheeks and all. The person was not sleeping in the same position, as I was when going to sleep and when waking up (right side).

I exit the place and find myself floating between two 10 story apartment buildings, like you find in central/eastern Europe. I remember my goal to go to the orbit and I want to fly straight up. It’s not working as I wanted, so I approach the building and propel myself with my hands grabbing on to balconies to go higher.

I find myself on the ground behind a corner. I think it’s over, but then I realize I could look at my hands and know for sure. I look at my hands. They look very gentle, light yellow/see-through energy and they quickly fade away. I did look at my hands one more time during this experience, but not sure when.

OBE#2
I wake up briefly, just long enough to say “lets try this again”. I feel the tingling in back of my head again and will myself to levitate, but it’s not really working. I think I decide to just go to sleep when I realize, I have my ceiling about 6’’ from my face. I immediately say “to the window” and I feel myself in the top left corner of my window, the exact location, where I was practicing to end up. I’m in my apartment.

I again remember I wanted to go to the orbit. I try, but it’s difficult to fly. I try superman style. Then, I’m next to a building, still up in the air. I know I don’t want to go through the wall as this could be a portal. But I fly in anyway. I feel the change. Inside is a bigger space than I would expect from size of the building. It’s warm, filled with semi-liquid, very soft dark grey matter that separates, as I float through it. I feel like I shouldn’t be here and exit through the wall on the left side.

I never felt presence of my helpers. Did I surprise them and got out when they were not expecting it, or this wasn’t an OBE? The more I think about it, I feel that this was a low awareness OOB. But I’m opened to suggestions. I have read about APs for many hours before bed last night.

LD#11
I wish I got up to write it down, but I didn’t. I kept repeating to myself what it was about, but by the time I got up, it was too late. Actually I feel like I may have written it down, but there is nothing in my DJ.