lucid

Decent night despite late bedtime, LD #126 (short, low lucidity)

Earlier:
+(f) trying to meet people, I call out my location, "Sol. and Sa. Pa." I think we're meeting on Al. hill

+ in a class with bad/strict teacher, studying words, a student stumps the teacher by calling out a word the teacher does not know, I think if you're going to teach a lesson like this you'd better study the words. There is a phrase I must work with and I have a book like a dictionary where I see some terms defined and I start reading from it, it's like a fairy tale entry on some mythological being? The text is black and red, it's not making much sense and people aren't listening so I stop reading.

+(f) thinking over my class schedule, why did I sign up for two English classes in different schools, when will I have time to do all the reading, how many pages were assigned?

+ playing with my kids as babies, "it's very hot in Cu.", It's very cold in Cu." and they echo back, we're rolling around on the floor wrestling and I look up and see an adult sticking her head in the door looking at us, I think it's my dad at first but it resolves into an unknown woman looks in, I say we're preparing for shower, smaller one crawls to closet with a passageway between the bedrooms, I follow to get him back, see girl in closet heading for me and I get interested, i realize its my sister and lose my interest, she's wearing a brownish turtleneck. She's blocking the way, and in her room is a leather suitcase being repaired with some dangerous glue so I have to go around to get my kid.

+ fire mall: outside city intersection at night, there was a fire and the fire department is here, the fire was to the right and the fire dept is blocking that side while ensuring that up the fire is really out, enter left side, a fireman extends the crosswalk timer to give people a chance to make it across. I enter the mall, go up to a woman's beauty salon up on a platform, I pee in an exposed toilet, a woman complains. And I say I'd do it again, step down and walk to the left of the platform and see a sign for the men's room and feel a bit stupid for using the women's salon bathroom.

I enter through the door and see a small shoe store there with racks of shoes all along the walls and think they really make use of all available space. Sitting down is an older middle-aged lesbian buying running shoes, "the advantage of running shoes is <something>" (I think that it's that they're good for walking, too.) The lesbian has a deformed foot, the front half is twisted a quarter-turn she says "I don't have AIDS!"

I'm walking to the elevators, miss one, get in another bit leave since my coat flies out of my arms and down a stairway, I go get it and it's now a glove.

Walking through the mall I see signs hanging from the ceiling advertising super fancy restaurants with long presumptuous names. I think they're really expensive but I'm on a business trip so could expense it.
There's a (gay?) maitre d', I'm trying to figure out the layout of the upper floors where the restaurants are: is it one continuous level, or are there separate towers on each corner that require using a different elevator (I say this out loud)? He answer and his voice changes from initially stereotypically gay lilt high-pitche'd to a deep man's voice, saying you have to leave enough time (because the elevators could be crowded/slow I think) and should try to arrive 10 minutes before your reservation. I see a huge (1 square meter at least) raw red steak on the shelf of an industrial press that starts to close on it.

Later:

+ LD #126: I'm walking on beach, I'm naked, almost walk into people, apologize in foreign language, where's my swim suit I'm a bit confused maybe I left it at home? Theres a girl at a big rock, people wont like me being near her while I'm naked. I go around the boulder to the right, look at the water, enter water put head under the surface, see clearly opening my eyes under water, think this water is particularly clear with good visibility, the water is knee-deep, I'm now standing, I look down into the water and see zillions of tiny fishes, then bigger odd fishes with weird mouths, I think they like to nibble on people's legs. One of these fishes comes near to me I think to nibble on me, its mouth gets larger and I see odd teeth, like large human molars, I kick the fish away from me and it slowly drifts and rotates, It now looks like the green glutton ghost from Ghostbusters.

This is weird enough to prompt me to do a nose pinch RC. The air leaks out around my fingers, it's not a free flow of air, I try a few times and the air keeps leaking out, I decide this means I'm dreaming and immediately start striding confidently out of the water, feeling like I'm in command of all around me. There are people walking around and a building ahead. everything is so clear and detailed, I get a bit skeptical about the dream and think I could get in trouble messing with the DCs if they're actually waking people, but I decided to go ahead anyway

There are mostly guys around, I look ahead and see a girl coming up to a glass door to a shop to leave it, and give her a "come here" gesture. She comes up to me and I tell her to take off her shirt. I'm running my hands along the skin of her back, she's hesitant and I tell her to keep on going. I bring in her head for a kiss and I see her mouth cave in a little and get a bit wrinkly. I pull back a bit and tell her "be young!" the dream transitions.

I lose lucidity, big deli guy makes me a turkey and mayo sandwich, he's complaining that "Szechuan Palace is stealing all my business".

+ invited unattractive, under appreciated girl out for dinner, walk through mall, she bothers a class

+ star trek, must climb up wall to save the day, up above us is a pharmacy

+ poking around in aquarium, lion fish, leeches on floating coaster, drop them on ground, feel bad, scoop them back up, imagine they're all remote controlled over the Internet and compose a letter of apology for being such an aquarium noob, walk down hallway for food, see donut, see girl with face frozen in scream with eyes wide open

+ caterers set up the table, pick up and carry it away by lifting the tablecloth, they ask me to at least get the hors d'oeuvres

BTS

Motorcycles galore:

+ riding motorcycle out of my childhood home (gixxer 1000?) up S ave, it has a very odd (backwards, squeeze-to-activate) clutch control

+ at the honda dealer's, they have a motorcycle servicing area, the motorcycle tech leaves and the boss says something to him, I wonder when the Nighthawk CB250 will get modern features like disc brakes.

+ see popular LD forum girl [false memory], see she's online on her computer on DV, a young man is asking her advice, he's "dancing" with her, she's in a bikini top which is lifted up to expose her fabulous breasts but they dance away and I can't get another look because there's a shopping bag in the way

+ best friend MR is giving me poster-sized, framed photograph samples to choose from, they are of moving people like Harry Potter pictures video loops, one of my cousin KRD, one of her daughter CD, one of an unknown young black man, white frame, against large multi-story white house, I say "I really like the composition of this one" (all the white)

+ (LD #124) young people at table including very cute girl wants to know if she can give 6 people a ride on her motorcycle, I talk to her, think about a motorcycle trip arond where I live, in traffic, encounter old woman checking out from hospital, dark roads, roadblock because of hijacking, right tunnel opened,duck under low cement roof, push past slow moving guy on narrow slope, emerge into bright sunny lobby/atrium with group of young blonde girls at elevator, look at watch, it's wrong, get lucid, full stabilization ritual, start giving DC girl a massage as further stabilization, wife makes noise in waking world and I wake instantly (grrr!)

+(f) dark subway, attendant guides me to door #14, you must step on train and off again to get there

+(f) beer garden at the cashier window, what kind should we buy (starts with 'k'?)

(f) (vague) in a store with people?

+(f) take a naked girl into my arms

Take new galantamine 4mg (relentless improvement)

BTS (long, several hours)

+ (LD #125) girls, wife comment, go off with one searching for private room, pool complex, diving section, lifeguard chair up ladder, driving in traffic in super tall vehicle (several stories), 3 referees in striped black and white shirts, pull onto street outside childhood home, girls in way, garage full, hit another car when parking, strange large embossed letters on driveway, nose pinch get lucid, grab girl, some fun

+ I drew NSFW drawing, hurry home so no one finds it, bathroom no door only curtains, buying beer, second real bathroom, red toilet seat walls, super foot massage system in shower, go out again for beer, "where's the American beer?" can't read the labels on any of the large almost keg sized containers, "recognize" neighborhood

+ girl with skin condition/rash, narrator talking about condition, see close up of female parts

+ talking about what we hate about TV, I try to say I hate how people on shows are so stupid, can't talk at first, get the words out, people agree including the ones on the TV.

+(f) going into a shack to find my (small, lightweight) handgun and load it up

+(f) in a large building with dark corridors, flying around outside, team-based conflict

+(f) I see my current-day cat climbing up the driveway of my childhood home, I'm standing just past it on the street

+ (LD #123) I'm on an upper level in a large indoor structure like a mall, and climb up to the railing to jump down, get lucid, and say "woohoo #123!", walking through large crowd of people, look for a female, brief sexy time

+ I'm sitting at a table with friends, my "girlfriend?" is there and I encourage her to come sit with us at the table

+ Observing a variety of sex toys in a store, comparing what is available in one country to what is available in another (on different shelves)

+ My older son S1 is in bed I think he's fake sleeping, I creep closer and peer over an obstruction and see his (creepy) open eyes staring back at me, he's playing a sort of on-line game with younger son S2, S2 is using S1's name for the game, and S1 is trying to "hide" his pieces from view so S2 doesn't cheat.

+ (LD #111) guy with a retractable head (sinks down into his body): I notice this and get lucid, say hey I know you can do that thing with your head, we jump into the air in the stairwell we're descending and have a bit of a fight, I throw him down the stairwell.

(Definitely lucid, and fairly early in the night I think, got lucid from the weirdness of the retracting head, but awareness fairly low and didn't last long).

+ A bunch of us get off of the bus, we're all wearing our pajamas and we're approaching a stripmall, I mention the pajamas thing. We look into a deli but it's way too crowded, so we keep walking. We come to a place where workmen are, there is no food available. We head back to the deli and now the crowd is much smaller we can enter. There are all sorts of sandwich meats laid out.

At band practice the director is quite demanding, we rehearse for a while then will break until later, I see a sign that practice continues at 1:00pm, that doesn't leave much time for lunch.

Bowling: I observe a woman bowling, give advice, and I bowl myself. A woman bowls and I say "woo hoo, see, a strike!" but she says no, one pin (the 5?) is still standing, I look and see it wobbling, I think it will fall but it doesn't, another pin eventually slowly comes rolling by and knocks it down, "See!" I say," a strike! I'm bowling and get a nasty 4-7-10 split. I think the only hope is to aim for the left side and hope I can get the 4 or 7 to scoot across to hit the 10. I have to stand to the right in order to bowl properly for the 4-7. Then a little girl is there and some pins are on the alley right past the foul line. She's picking them up, "Careful!" I say, "don't set off the foul detector," I'm really nervous and concerned that she'll set it off and I won't get a chance to finish the frame myself. Of course she eventually sets off the foul detector and I get really mad and fume and complain about this for a while. I can't find my ball, I pick up what I think is my ball but the fingers don't fit right. Leaving the alley, we're late to get back to the band practice, I'm shouting for my friends to make sure they take my bowling ball, "where's my bowling ball?!".

(This multi-scene dream went on for quite a while and was fairly vivid & detailed)

17:00 very tired, head in for "quick nap" but don't set alarm
21:00 final wake up, oops! Must have been underslept

2015-05-05

Only mental journaling all night. Almost forgot one dream at final waking, late dream details vague, LD quite clear & vivid. I'm pretty happy with my developing ability to accumulate and remember dreams across multiple sleep cycles.

01:00 (?) bedtime. Not very tired, take 200mg valerian tab, 1mg melatonin tab
02:00 fall asleep?

07:00 (?)

+ I'm with my wife in a very dark outdoors open area. It's so dark that at times I completely lose the sense of all vision entirely and I vaguely think this is dreamlike but don't get lucid. We approach a school building which we're supposed to go through, our usual route, but I say no, it's too dark and scary, so we go by it. We're now at a street which goes down, so we hop on a bicycle and start coasting down. We're then in daylight and cars are coming the other way on the road we need to avoid them. Then I realize my wife is in front of me on the bicycle and she is naked, I have my arms around her and am holding a breast in each hand, covering her up, I think about her nakedness a bit and that this could distract oncoming cars.

+ I'm in a room, talking with somebody, I see that on the walls (projected?) are animated screens displaying a computer graphics program, it looks like a view of a floor from the game "DOOM" or "quake." I look at these screens and inspect the colors. I'm then starting to play the game: first I select the difficulty (choice is from 1-3, I chose 3: max difficulty), which I know will mean less armor and ammunition available, and then there is a choice (1-3) of starting location which I think is a bit strange, I don't remember this from the game.

I start playing and "know" immediately that I must pick up a backpack of ammo/weapons and see one, I'm spinning around a bit out of control. I encounter monsters and select the shotgun weapon and shoot several. I hear monster sounds and see in front of me a DOOM-lizard thing (that breaths fireballs) and I shoot it. I'm a bit out of control and say something about that. At some point I encounter some wise giant slug thing with an imp handler, kill them both, don't remember them as part of the game later, think killing may have been a mistake, that part seemed more "lifelike" than part of the video game.

+ (lucid LD #110) I'm having sex with ex-GF SB on the ground in a room, I'm on top of her, feel it a bit, she says "but this means we're not NOT dating", I reply s.l. "who cares about not NOT dating," I see to the left and beyond us 3 guys enter the room, I quickly reach up behind me with my left arm and "pull over" a sheet covering us. I watch through the sheet their feet and I hope they will just move past us but they've seen us so they stop to watch. SB and I are not moving and are quiet. The man says "come on, keep going". I reply s.l. "hit the road, get out", this makes man gets angry, he thinks I want to steal another guy's skateboard, they push the skateboard to me in an offering, I think they've misunderstood, and push it back to them slowly along with other stuff and make a motion for them to leave the area. They don't leave so I stand up and take SB with me out of the room.

We're on a ledge of a house outdoors at night, it's fairly dark, I without hesitation tell SB to "jump on!" and take off flying, I'm now lucid. I'm swooping and enjoying the scenery of flying over suburban houses among hills. I right away talk to SB who I still feel holding on to my back, things like "Hey, do you know this is a dream? This is a dream! How do you like it?" But I get no answer from her. I get impatient & annoyed because I really want to hold a conversation with her DC. I say "HELLO! S! Do know this is a dream!?" And I anticipate her answer and recall her real voice and think what it would sound like. SB-DC answers a weak sounding "yes" once or twice. I'm disappointed in her voice, it's totally not accurate, in fact it sounds like a guy faking a girl's voice using falsetto. I reach up behind me and pull her face in front of mine for a quick kiss, this destabilizes the dream a bit and makes my flight wobbly, I think I should avoid that and just concentrate on flying to keep the dream but it soon transitions.

Spoiler for caveman, 18+, NSFW, explicit:

(semi-lucid now) I'm in a store (night outside?) well lit inside. I'm in caveman mode immediately. It seems to be a bookstore with many books on shelves. Towards the back I see the walls are higher and there are works of art there. I see there are three female beings (I think they're actually part of the store? Like living statues?) Of the three of them the one in the middle has a plunging neckline top showing off ample boobs and I goose her a bit. I head back to the front of the store and there are more girls coming in, I'm quite pleased that the dream is presenting females and I don't have to go searching. I walk right up to one and rip her top with both hands exposing her breasts, and feel them briefly but she seems bit artificial, and her boobs are hard/solid like a mannequin. My attention moves to petite slim girl walking by me, I put her up on a counter and start to undress her, thinking this is a waste of time, she seems gone and all that is left is a doll-sized dress in my hands but I decide to "hit that" a little. At some point I've got another girl up on the counter with "spread legs" (visuals vague, don't really see much), and I'm trying to enter her, but her v-jay is somehow a detachable tube that I keep trying to put "back in" her. I give up trying to put it back in her and just enter it, the tube is sort of purple and semi-transparent and see my (ahem) entering inside.

Someone says we need to do something in the back part of the store. Lucidity pretty much gone at this point. Go back towards the back of the store and now there's a whole new section beyond where the back wall used to be. I see two guys with their faces pressed up against a book shelve, I think they're trying to hide while they kiss each other.

Moving back to the front of the store a young man starts talking about economics, about how to determine when to buy and when to sell, I think we've just made a huge purchase (a new house?) and that this guy is implying we made a big mistake. My wife is sitting by him and misunderstanding what he's saying and she's confused and is asking me a question about only somewhat-related things.

awake a while reviewing dreams, BTS

10:00

+ party, multi-group, large area, (water balloon fights?), entrance area (toll booth?), others say no, we don't clean up

+(f) arrive to building, up stairs, suitcase, open door, person there upset to see us, go down stairs, should I go back up?

+(f) with groups of big guys outside

+(f) guys getting into car in garage, I push shut driver's door with foot, old guy getting in right side passenger

+(f) in library w/wife and group, yes, go downstairs, there is slide reading area, trying to choose a table with enough chairs, there is another group already using a table, but several are free.

Tired, late to bed, recall mostly fragmented despite a fair bit of dreaming

+ going down the hill on LL blvd.: the road is a metallic jungle gym "tunnel" filled with sentient green shaped-hedges covered with red berries, they're very friendly, they like me, and help me along

+(f) thinking about my college rented house, looking for it among skyscrapers we're driving by, see it eventually as a carved out area between tall buildings, it is dilapidated with large overgrown plants all over it

+(f) in an arcade, looking for change in the coin slots, starting a game?

+ childhood home, there's a ragged rat/rabbit/guinea pig thing that I'm trying to shoo out the front door: I eventually get it out and keep looking at it trying to figure out what kind of animal it is, I decide it's a rabbit and see its nose twitching, it comes back in and sits at my feet it is really dirty.

+ (lucid LD #109) in childhood home, waiting for my wife and kids to leave so that I can lucid dream: I realize I don't need to wait, I go out the sliding glass door to the deck (because I think I'll be able to fly), see a standing figure in my "peripheral vision," turn to look it's gone, I fly out over the trees which have been cut, wife is on deck, a bit concerned about her seeing me, I don't care, she's talking to me while I'm flying about how I've been sleeping, lose visuals but keep stretching my hands out in front of me, eventually transition to non-lucid where I'm holding something in my hands and I'm talking with wife about the special lightbulbs we'll need to buy for JW.

LD was fairly unstable, had that "dizzy" feeling through most of it, especially at the beginning on the deck where I saw the figure out of the corner of my eye briefly. Awareness quite low.

poor early recall, just two snippets, fairly great very late with a lucid and TOTM fail

+ driving in traffic, avoiding following the crowd, long short-cut but empty roads, gas station at end of road, technician there gets extremely pissed at me for standing on his work, another guy gives me super strong solvent that eats through the bottle and gets on my face and hands and burns me

+ sweeping straw of the floor, use a vacuum(!) "Hey who thought to use a vacuum bag!?", enter room, people at a table stop talking, I vacuum stuff on the table, think I've vacuumed up a gem, empty the vacuum and a small pile of shiny lovely colorful cut gems pours out and I try to figure out which one belongs to whom

+ standing on roof closely studying shingles/structure: rainwater channels, shingles are dirty & should clean then, concerned about that giant tree limb overhead, could smash our house, is that our tree? yes

+ playing in orchestra: conductor indicates "free play solo", I read a low-A and a middle-C whole note on the sheet, a wind instrument also plays

+ In childhood home with DaBe (univ. gf.), she's thinking of transferring, I'm sad, another guy comes and sits, I make a fart joke and sound about him, DB kisses me on cheek, sits down, calls me to her, I sit & get close and touch her, see the guy standing in the room making obscene movements.

+ preparations for the mayor's investment ceremony in large outdoor/indoor area, stick around for the free food, sleep/nap/meditation time but the women won't stop talking, woman comes out of toilet pulling up her pants & people laugh, boy jumps on parents, son S2 tells me of the 3 twin guys who got a girl pregnant but turned out gay.

+ in a bathroom/outhouse at the end of a long wooden deck on a hill, closely inspecting the magnetic lock at the top of the door that needs to be re-attached, maybe nails will work

+ (LD #108) in apartment with wife, urge to fly, test it, yes can fly!, fly out, review TOTM goals, swimming pool manifests up ahead, land there, "stick to the plan!", distracted by girls, then distracted by fight (which I start), bus zips in & wife gives message and bus zips back out again

Melatonin night, late to bed, so dreaming a bit scattered, but lots of scenes, and a short lucid finally

+ in car sister's driving down "her driveway" into her home, it takes a really right-angle right turn, she has to perform a 3-point turn to continue, there's under an inch of clearance on both sides of the car

+(f) avoiding some chasing baddie, maneuvering on the other side of a concrete hole in a wall to stay out of his line of sight/fire

+(f) ocean?

+(f) sexy time: finger into (ahem), feels a bit crusty on the outside.

+ trying to ski/slide down a hill from the top people always get in my way

+ TZ has fallen down, I pick her up to comfort her, holding her in my arms I walk around the garden getting her to show me the places she likes

+ (lucid #107) passenger in car on freeway, driver misses our turnoff, then misses a last-chance exit again, another passenger upset, I say it's OK we'll just have to go a ways before we can double back, stop atop the path with a view of the full complicated interchange, "It's quite the pretzel!" I say, other drivers stop behind us, I'm observing the roads and paths in great detail, sitting in car with other passengers I get the feeling "this is a dream-like scenario", nose pinch, bit vague, do it again, decide I'm dreaming, get out of car, think what to do?, hop into the air and transition & lose lucidity

+ (commercial?) girl arrives home, man dresses in her clothing as a joke, photograph moment, some advertising jingle about "moments in life to remember"?

+(f) the guy was tricked by the bad girl, he had to get a new (French) passport, but even on the passport it shows him as the "ringleader" of the girl's gang

A welcome return of more wild & wacky dreams, night of the flashlight: flashlights everywhere. Nice detailed recall of a number of different scenes. Super vivid/bright/stable but only seconds-long LD to finish off the night.

2015-03-08

00:06 pre-bedtime. family drama, take 2mg melatonin to aid in getting to sleep

07:46 (maybe earlier wakings? Some recall from them? don't remember)

+ With members of religious group, the artifacts we want are down in the caverns. Going down into the caverns, we're actually on an expedition to the desert ruins. Two people step on an elevator pad about 2 meters long and barely 1 person thick wide, it starts descending into its well, I decide to hop on and hope I won't get stuck, I have to turn fully sideways in order to make it down (I think we'll come back up this way later?). Step off the pad and head down a hallway, encounter a sticky jello trap where some people are drowning in the jello, some are getting out, and I reach my hands forward and help pull people out. I say "I think this is here to trap the animals coming in from the outside."

In a crowded hardware store aisle that turns a 90-degree corner to the right, at first I think we'll need water bottles for the desert and look at a few, they're quite small. Then I'm looking at flashlights and trying to choose one. I'm concerned about the batteries they take because those pesky "C-cell' batteries are so hard to find. The flashlight I'm interested in looks to be a C-cell size. I'm hoping to find a D-cell flashlight. The one I'm looking at has a place for an odd rectangular-shaped battery, someone tells me "that's a D-minor battery".

+ I'm standing at the edge of a swiftly running large/deep river. I can see into the water clearly. At first some very large clumps of vegetation float by, I see many blades of grass waving about from the clumps as they quickly float past me (the river flows from my right to my left). Then I see some *really* big scary-looking fish swim past, and I scream at the top of my voice to my friends who are already in the river "THERE ARE GIANT FISH COMING! GIANT FISH!". I'm waiting for a moment when nothings swimming past so I can enter the river and float down. I see from the waterfall to my right (which is flowing in reverse: from below up to the top) that a group of white seals are coming past. I see one in front of me then I jump in the river and hope to hang on to the (friendly?) seal as a raft, but it avoids me.

I'm flowing down the river and I'm surrounded by these skittish/nervous really large white blobby "seals". As soon as I get right behind one or close to it it scoots away. We're heading towards a city? I see a very large gray hippo is now on my left, I pat it's "nose" and it nuzzles me with its huge head. I'm concerned that this thing could be TOO friendly and squash me. I scratch its face some more as we continue to float down the river.

+ I'm lying down in a some small long area like a camper at the top of a pile of (mattresses?) There are some small kids down below me (friendly or not, unsure). I have (or they hand me?) a large long, heavy, sniper rifle with two scopes: one near the handle (normal place), and one about 75% of the way down the barrel towards the tip. (There's someone outside the building I need to shoot?). The trigger/finger guard has lots of sharp little swoops on it. I'm trying to line up and use the sights. At first nothing, then I get the second line flipped up and I have a very close up view of someone on the other side of this room. I shoot him? Someone says "careful that thing can kill someone!"

+ Outside, some people are talking (man/woman?) that they need to turn on the ground water system. I'm in a 3-meter-on-a-side square earthen pit, and the pit starts filling quickly with water. Someone sinks under the surface and I grab his hands and pull him/her out. Then I pull out a flashlight and toss it out of the pit. I'm then looking for the flashlight I saved, and I find it's been opened and the batteries are missing. I'm trying to find out who did this and eventually someone admits (two different people?) that they each took one of the batteries.

I'm heading out to the remote post with salad, I'm carrying a tall pile of deep mixing bowls [WL I like to eat salad from huge mixing bowls], people are laughing at me for taking all these bowls but I say it's really convenient, great for mixing salads.

I'm outdoors it's dark/night scooting fast over ground on a powered office chair that moving me towards my remote outpost, the chair stops and I think it would be great if the chair could give me a ride all the way to where I'm going. I'm surveying the land in front of me, it's a large grassy valley dipping down in front of me then climbing up on the other side, there are (moonlight?) light patches and dark patches. I resolve to move in the dark patches to avoid discovery. Up ahead around a boulder I sense movement and think it's a threatening panther [day residue from DV thread on confronting scary DCs/animals] it moves really fast and I try to face it but it manages to flank me and get behind me, I keep turning and then notice that it's a man. I'm waving things between us to keep him at bay. I have a flashlight that's turned on and wave it at him like a lightsaber, he sort of smirks at me and pulls out a flashlight, I say s.l. "Oh so you have one, too." Then I'm with the guy in some store, he's a clerk selling some sort of women's make-up, the guys say I'll need it to get past the women further along the path, I realize the entire system is a scam to get you to buy things so you can travel without problems.

+ I'm sitting on a couch in a home, and TiZi as a small girl (face is quite accurate) comes up to me, I say "Hi, T!" and she says "Hi, <my name>!" and she comes and sits on my lap straddling me and we hold each other in a long, tight hug. I'm amazed she's this friendly. She says to me, "I love you!". I wonder what people will think if they come in with us in this position.

I stand up and see PZ (something about the objects in their home?). Then I see ToZ, I'm a bit surprised to see him his hair is now entirely white, we shake hands and say something.

later:
+ I'm in a utility room, my with face in front of the door of a front-loading clothes washing machine. There's a woman's blue blouse in there, and other clothing, I'm looking at the other items to make sure they won't color bleed in the wash, I say to the woman "it's OK, they're all pretty much blue".

In a crowded back room there are a bunch of people, including a guy who's in my way. Back to the other room, someone is calling out, "who lost their laptop?", there are small netbook/laptops placed here and there on a high narrow shelf that runs around the border of the room, none of them are mine and I know I didn't lose/leave it anywhere, so I say they're not mind. A guy shows me a pair of glasses that were lost: the left frame and lens are about half the size of the right side: o_O, very odd looking glasses, they're not mine.

+ In my grandparent's house [recognized after waking up], look down and see I'm naked,

Spoiler for 18+:

stuff my (ahem) in a girl's mouth for a BJ, after a few seconds I then lie her on the floor on her back and continue thrusting in to her face. It's vague without much sensation (not to mention sort of rude)

my sister enters the room and I stop.

+ getting a stroller put together for a trip, "where's the surprise snack?", "pick anything you like"

+ (LD #105) I walk out on to my childhood home deck, the geometry is not quite right. The railing has been removed (they're repairing it?). It is bright daytime. The ground/backyard is far below. I strongly feel like flying[DS], I recognize this as a dream sign, but everything is so detailed and vivid and bright and colorful, I'm a bit concerned about falling, so I do a few hops into the air to check gravity, and on the 2nd or 3rd one I notice I fall back down a bit too slowly to be awake, so I stand still and prepare a solid nose pinch, concentrate [I don't want any ambiguous results], hold my nose firmly shut, and I can breath, now I'm fully lucid, I eagerly step to the edge of the deck to my right, I see below on the ground all sorts of bright detailed plants, large white flowers, trees, and step out and start gliding with my arms spread wide. I'm really happy I got lucid: it's vivid, bright, beautiful, and completely stable, "I'M LUCID DREAMING!" I shout in joy, and instantly wake up… O_o

2015-03-12

Turns out it was a pretty epic night of dreaming. LD #104 is definitely the best of 2015
and perhaps rivals my September 2014 TOTM LD in awesomeness.

01:30 bedtime (WTF!? come on, 2.5 hours late)

visualization of lotus flower w/flame in throat chakra for a while wall falling asleep

Unknown dream times, mental only recall (no recordings until 09:13 after LD) multiple wakings up to WBTB time

+ I almost mess up a stakeout with repeated offers to give the bad guys more cash after the initial contact

In an outdoors area with parked cars, I'm one of the good-guys in a stakeout against bad guys: I hand cash in entrapment scenario to bad guys, they take it. Comes a question should I give more: I walk forwards offering more money to the bad guys, but my colleague quickly motions/says "no" and I realize that, having already taken the initial money, if I offer more and they accept then by law the bust would be nullified.

+ (f) people in an outside park-like area with a tall tower?

+ wife drives off the edge of the highway, I go DO, the car rolls, she's OK, inside a mechanic's shop?

Driving in car with wife (wife is at the wheel) on highways, I see that we're approaching a large turn to the left and there is no barrier off the right edge of the road, there's an abrupt drop to a long sloping hill doing down to the right. I say to wife "Careful! Look out for the edge!" Instantly the car veers and the right wheels go over the edge. I'm now DO flying behind and above the car following it as it leaves the road, heads down the hill, rolling over several times. I'm in a panic about my wife, screaming and zooming to the car to see if she's OK.

i'm in some internal location (mechanic shop?) we're talking about (our?) car(s).

+ picking up (wife?) at airport on crowded holiday in foreign country, taxi guy gives me advice, walk with him, path turns dark and woodsy, he pees in the dark off to the side, Americans are camping up on hillside starting a campfire & I hear them practicing <foreign language> words.

I'm heading to the airport to pick up (my wife?) It's incredibly crowded with tons of people coming and going, because this is the beginning of <this foreign country's> vacation period. I meet a taxi driver who is telling me about how to use a taxi to (fool the traffic?) to be able to approach the airport.

We're walking down a road, it's night time, there are dark woods with leafless trees/tall shrubs off to the right, the guy goes off into the dark trees to pee, I keep walking, I wonder if he'll rejoin me or not. The road ahead is dark and uninviting going off in to the forest. I notice up the high, fairly steep hill to the left about 15 feet off someone's starting a small campfire, and I hear children's voices, they're American tourists practicing some local <foreign language> words.

06:45 WBTB
1x 4mg galantamine (Galantamind)
Back to sleep
Takes about 5x "20 down to 1" counting of relaxing breaths to fall back asleep
Major success: focused only on relaxation, rejected thoughts of waking/work/life concerns, made it back to sleep fairly quickly! Could it be I'm finally mastering BTS?

09:13

+ (LD #104) I'm lying in bed on my stomach [same WL position I think] with ex-GF SB. I'm looking at, modifying with my finger a picture of people we were in grad school together with, "Oh, I've erased T.A." I notice/say at one point. We're lying close to each other she's on my left, we're falling asleep, I lift my head up and kiss her right cheek near her right eye, this annoys her a bit because it wakes her up. I lift my right hand up and place it under her left cheek, this also annoys her a little. Just continuing to lie there, she drapes her right leg across my butt, it's a lightly erotic sensation, I like it a lot.

Her foot approaches my face from the right side, bottom first. I think about "having sex with her toes" and insert my finger between her very tightly packed toes. I then notice that the entire bottom of her foot is covered in a white fungus. "Oh! You have athlete's foot just like I do! You need to scrape that stuff off with a scraping stick, and get a pedicure." I'm standing up now next to the bed and she's looking at me blankly like she doesn't want to acknowledge this. I head to the bathroom, then walk back to the bed, SB has pulled the covers up over her head. "Dang" I think, I was hoping for some sexy time, but she's going to sleep.

I notice in her mouth is some sort of tooth tray/mouthpiece. I think this holds the teeth in the proper position for sleep. Looking again at her I notice she now has a transparent horseshoe-shaped brace supporter running down both sides of her face. I mention that this reminds me of a childhood toy, the magnetic yoyo that so fascinated me as a kid:



All of a sudden her braces structure appears on the bed: clear plastic trays on each side, and in the middle a number of metal wire pinball-chutes with metal pinballs moving along on them. Some other object also appears suddenly on the bed (forgot).

This jolts my awareness, and I say s.l. "OK thats odd/dreamlike" and I do a nose pinch. It's inconclusive [I'm lying on my stomach in WL perhaps, nose pinches are less clear then] I say, "OK, if I'm dreaming, I'll levitate now" and lie down on the floor of the room on my stomach. I look down and see that my upper body is hovering over the ground by about 1/2 inch. I'm now fully lucid. I stand up and whip out my (ahem), which is pleasantly dream super-sized, in order to present it to SB for attention, but she is gone, the bed is empty. I think about looking for her/summoning her, but abandon this idea quickly. I look and see the door to the room [it's like a small motel room], see the doorknob, and decide to head outside.

I open the door and head outside, it's night outside and I'm in just my underwear. I move my attention to feel for the temperature and detect nothing, so I'm completely comfortable. I think of goals and notice that the building here is like a two-story motel in a "U" shape. Some of the rooms have open doors, I decide to enter one for TOTM basic (II).

On my way in to the room I remember my rehearsed LD acronym: BE STRONG [Breathe, Enjoy/Engage, Stabilize, T[private, the name of my LD "mascot"], Remember, O[private], Narrate, Goals]. I start with B[reathe] and I take several breaths, perhaps the first time I've ever consciously breathed in a LD other than for nose pinch, it felt completely natural.

I enter and open room, and it's half-lit and entirely empty: not a single piece of furniture and the walls are entirely bare, no decoration. It's sort of run-down looking. It's a small two-roomed area, a front room with a short narrow corridor leading to the back room. I enter the room and head to the back room. As I'm walking I remember "S[tabilize] and I start rubbing my hands. I really feel the warmth and rub them for a little while. In the back room, I remember "T" and briefly visualize my mascot appearing but nothing happens.

I leave this room and outside it is now daylight, the area has opened up and there are small buildings in the distance and a gently sloping hill before me heading down and to the right. I remember TOTM basic (I) and reach into my right pocket with my right hand and feel for a capsule, I feel one and bring it out, it looks like a small white tic tac. I swallow it and call out "REVEAL TO ME THE TRUTHS OF THE UNIVERSE!" with arms upraised to the skies. I wait for a few seconds, nothing comes to me and I move on.

As I head down the hill to the right a guy drives up in a 70's muscle car and gets out, he's sort of threatening looking. I decide to take charge of the dream narrative and call out to him in a firm, demanding voice, "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH MY GIRL, 'GILDA'!?". He's a bit shocked and looks at me with a puzzled expression.

There's a TV screen/painting on the ground to our left, in it are depicted 3 bad guys. (Two males, one female?). They have deteriorated/painted faces. "Man," I say, "they look terrible." I decide we must fight them, this guy and I. We dive into the TV and emerge in their place [too bad it wasn't a mirror….hmm….no, don't think it was, dangit!]. I immediately reach for my lightsabre with my left hand, and ignite it. The beam is weak/highly transparent, but I wave it around and get very accurate sound, I'm pleased with the sound. Not much of a fight, I just wave the lightsaber around a bit, things are getting vague, I decide to leave, and turn off the lightsaber.

Leaving the building I immediately remember my long-term goal of facing Sensei in a lightsaber duel. I ignite my saber again. I start calling out "Sensei! <Sensei's name!>, come on!" I'm walking towards a garden, I hold my hand behind my back and expect to feel Sensei taking my hand, but he doesn't. I call him several times but he never appears.

I'm marveling at the quality of the dream environment. I'm trying to detect dream-like artifacts and cannot detect any. It is an entirely convincing rendering of waking existence. The green grass on the lawn, the textures of the dirt and the ground.

At some point in this sequence I see an open field and think of TOTM bonus, but I don't want to mess with zombies so quickly move on.

I see beyond the grass some people on horses. The dream slowly fades to grey, I try to hold it but it ends.

Back in a dream, similar woodsy environment, I see two girls sitting down on a bench, one is "Lucy" and has short dark black hair, looks boyish, but I know it's a girl. Two boys approach from the woods and say they've found <some guy's name>.

I bit in the distance I see a (picture?) of a doll-sized girl. I'm interested and go to her. I command her to become real and to grow to real size. She becomes 3D and a bit larger, I give her a quick kiss. . Around this time I'm fully lucid & realize whas going on and I say "be larger, more real!" and she gets a bit larger and more realistic, I give her a longer kiss, but her lips are still cartoony & not waking realistic. I say again "larger! More real!" and I think she gets a bit more life-sized and realistic, I decide to stop and just make out with it/her because her lips feel good, and do so for a few seconds before waking up.

+ parking meters, ethnic banquet, cruising food table, not much food left, "my friend" recommends his ham rolls which are excellent

Outside on a street, we're trying to figure out where to park. Parking meters line this area of the street. I look at them and you can only use them for 2 24-minute periods, this is not long enough for us.

Inside a building there is a <ethnic> banquet. I walk along the long table, there is not a lot of food left and what is left looks not all that appetizing. Down towards the far end there are some little triangular cabbage pies that look not half bad but a middle-aged guy comes up (I "recognize"/"remember" [false memory] him), and he directs my hands to his meat rolls which I try and they are indeed quite good.

+ spying into neighbor houses with telescope, enter and see the two ladies there in the kitchen

I'm sitting outside on the left side back steps of my childhood home. I have a small spyglass and I'm looking down the hill with it. I'm also looking left into the neighbor's house. I see a woman come to the window and don't want her to see me looking so I put down the glass. Suddenly I'm inside their kitchen and see two young blonde women sitting at a table, some adult is milling around them.

+ throw something down on to my friend MR who's sleeping down in the garden in the dark [he signals me?], woman asks me to teach her son soccer, I decline and want to go back to sleep

I'm on some high balcony, several levels down below me on the back lawn my friend MR is sleeping in a sleeping bag. I can't see him well, it's too dark/foggy. I think at one point he's moved to the left. I throw something down as a prank to land on top of him (a small pebble). I'm looking and looking to try to see him but don't. At one point I think I see two small lights (like animal eyes reflecting in the dark) but I'm not sure.

A mother comes to me with a small blonde curly-haired young boy and wants me to train him in soccer. I don't want to. I say come back later and roll over in bed.

+(f) more people, places, situations….forgot

early:

04:50

+ CS got fired because he broke the build with a one-character change (an exclamation point) during a critical demo; I'm making myself breakfast in the open kitchen (ice cream/Cheerios, tall guys)

I'm walking through an open area/office, I encounter CS. He asks me if I've heard that he got fired (by the CEO) after he made a one-character change (adding an exclamation point to the code) (I'm thinking about this a long time after waking up, about how CS should have done proper testing before submitting his change!).



I'm in a kitchen, looking for breakfast. I open the freezer and see a number of open ("freezer burn, yuck") very colorful ice cream containers. Across the room a very tall [DS] guy drops a box of Cheerios on the ground. I pick it up(?), pour myself a bowl.

later:
(Awake until around 08:00?, just can't sleep, take 1mg melatonin around 6am)

09:10

+ (LD #102) dazzlingly vivid/bright huge (5-6 stories, 100 meters long) memorial structure: trying to read the huge inscription so I can remember it when I wake up; fly up to top of structure, cement french fries; sex with giggling/slightly objecting girl "there are not nice people here"

I'm outside, daylight, the visual quality is astounding and my memory begins already lucid. There are lots of people milling around. To the left is an enormous open area, and I see there a Huuuuuuge memorial structure, about 5-6 stories high, 100 meters long, with Huuuuge lettering on it. I try to read it and pronounce it and really really study the lettering so I can remember it after waking: it is stable, but it doesn't seem to be recognizable words. There is a larger first line and a smaller-font second line below it. I'm astounded at the clarity of the structure, it is perhaps slightly orange and made of stone.

I fly up to the edge of the roof of this structure. I want to summon a girl(?), I get in my hands instead a cup of what seem to be cement french fries. I start sucking them a little bit. I see a girl to my right a bit, I go to her/bring her to me, and

Spoiler for explicit:

initiate intercourse. At first it's abstract and some other people appear to be helping to spread her butt/legs, but it gets clear and she's dressed on top but bottomless, we're in a doggy/reverse-cowgirl position, I get a clear view and can feel it. She's sort of giggling and half-objecting, and says s.l. "there are some not good people here!"

+ (LD #103) (long, lucid at end) See "people I know" in family room [false memory], trying to decide whether to take a shower with a girl upstairs, go downstairs and leave (think about threatening to kill the guys who will tell on me) to garden, at end of garden start flying & get lucid, magical blue sky, green grass, apple tree, return through neighbor's garden to original garden, it's raining hard now, wake up.

I'm walking through (my?) family room, a downstairs room, and see leaning against the wall a man whom I recognize [false memory] as a friend of mine, I walk a bit farther and see a woman I know to be his wife also sitting down against the wall, "Relax, guys, rest!" I say. I walk back the other way to the start of the room and see a third man whom I recognize as a colleague (of the first man?) and also greet him.

I walk up a (spiral?) staircase and I'm on an upper floor. There is a glass shower stall there and there's a girl taking a shower who wants me to join her. I see a young man lying in a bed near the shower and sort of recognize his fall (its distorted). All of a sudden there are about 20 guys milling around and I want to get them all the heck out of here so I can join the girl in the shower. I manage to shoo them all down the stairs. I then take off my shirt and slacks (I'm in dress clothing), and am about to enter the shower (the girl in there is clothed?) and realize that at any second my wife could walk in, this is way too risky, so I get dressed again. I go up to the shower and say "well I can wash your back I guess," (I'm concerned I may get wet), and she says "buuuut I waaaaant to *seeeee* yoouuuuu!" (so I think about getting undressed again?) at some point she's out of the shower and we kiss briefly and there's some sudden transition/shock.

I'm walking down the spiral staircase, at the bottom I hear the guy I saw on the bed by the shower gossiping to another guy that he saw me with the shower girl, and I think about going up and telling them I'll kill them if they talk. I say "Let's go!" (I want to get out of there fast).

I'm walking through the garden, there are lots of objects there, I must walk over them. At the far end of the garden is a lovely place, green grass, a small barn/large shed, trees, blue sky, and I decide I want to try flying just a bit, and I put out my arms and to my amazement I glide/hover above the ground and realize I'm dreaming. I do a nose pinch and I can breathe. The garden area is *beautiful* the colors are vibrant. I see a stunning apple tree with green green leaves and red red apples, amazing against a blue sky.

I start returning to the original garden. There is now a large neighbor's yard in the way. I'm thinking of girls. I see that there is a celebration in the garden, there is a line of "hoops" on my side and a guy is making a running/sommersaulting dunk (basketball) move. I see that the women are middle-aged/portly/unattractive (in the distance). I decide I should just go back to the original garden because there are a lot of people there. I walk through this neighbor garden and apologize for the disturbance, and say it's too far to go around, they say that's fine. There's a guy swinging a bat at a ball and he says careful or he may hit my head.

I move through a fence into the original garden and someone from the neighbor group comes with me on my right. There are tents here in a covered area, and he puts his foot through a canvas tent, ripping a small hole in it. I say "be careful of their tents!". I see that it is raining very hard now, and say in a foreign language "this started suddenly", and I am lifting up tents to get through and the dream ends.

10:30

I think I slept again, but no recall

bedtime 00:00
2mg melatonin
remee on

+ a young arrogant manager is haranguing my father that he needs to update his skills, I'm listening, I feel sorry for my dad I'm trying to stand so they can't see me, I offer my dad to play some pick-up basketball to make him feel better [we've never played basketball together that I can remember], someone throws a basketball hard at another guy and hits him smack in the head

+ observing as a "playa" picks up a girl, he says "baby you so fine, what I gotta do to get in yo pants!?" he takes her to room in a building, where there are animatronic people, young men and women, they sit down at a table, and he needs to decide which ones to keep in the room and which to kick out

+ building and operating some game cabinet with (simulated?) guns, it's incredibly fun like playing an amazing video game, I'm swiveling all over the place shooting things like crazy, I notice from through a door Elijah Wood is observing me. Outdoors, I fly by a giant being of some sort. Standing on the ground in bright daylight in the street , talking animatedly and excitedly about Star Wars with people, and can't remember Harrison Ford's name, I try to remember it for a while

+ crazy tennis: I'm observing a tennis game in some club on a mini-court, I pick up a tennis ball with a quarter embedded in it (under the fuzz), I pull it out and the ball goes completely flat. I pick up another ball that has a hole in it and is flat. I see a container of balls from the group that was just playing but there gone now, I step on to the court, I'm playing against and older woman. I try to bounce-serve the ball but there is a really low net (6 feet) over the whole court that gets in the way, I try a few more times. Then I"m sort of wrestling (standing up) with the woman over position: the point of our game is to shepherd some large blobby jello-y transparent thing on the ground into a goal, the advantage goes back and forth between us for a while.

broken WBTB
eventually BTS

+ walk past woman, whisper "I'm Dreaming!" into her ear and walk on (ARGH!), I feel entirely and totally awake, she calls after me something like "Good for you!" (not sure of wording); riding on train, see kitschy old fast food store fronts passing us on the left, I think they're in amazingly good shape for being so old, sort of dark faded colors. The train stops at a restaurant, I'm there with my kids to order food, there is a bunch of food including a chocolate cake on display on tables in front of the store. I'm trying to enter the store together with my kids but a man gets in my way, we eventually enter and I see that the restaurant is not operating, they're just accepting orders at this time, I sit down with my kids to place an order

+ I'm standing on a street corner in a foreign country with 3 native guys, they're making disparaging remarks about tourists/foreigners, I plan to give foreign-language retorts to each of them. I think they could become threatening to me at any moment. A woman comes to stand in the group. I look behind me and notice the pedestrian walk signal on the crossing is green for me, so I take the opportunity to get away from the guys and hurry across the street.

On the other side up the street a bit (this seems to be the N area of B at E and H streets), I enter a restaurant. I'm looking at the dishes of food displayed on steam trays, it looks really good. I hear someone calling my name, and look back into the restaurant, unsure, they call again and I see a table of 3 guys I don't know gesturing to me, I go and sit with them. One of them claims to be a guy I know, he mentions his face being different? I don't recognize them still but I do get a good look at his face, he's about my age.

+ I return to this restaurant later, and manager at cash register says I can choose an already-prepared dish at a discount, or order a new one at full price, there are a few plates of food on the counter at the register, and I see really good looking dishes (cheese lasagna?, super juicy and cheesy and saucy) at the steam tables.

+ I'm at a table in a restaurant with friends our order hasn't arrived, I leave to get some things; in a different place I watch a young man prepare batches of skewers of meat in a special device, I put a few skewers on the grill to cook(?) a bit farther in, I'm picking up bottles of mayonnaise and drinks, return to the friends with the shopping cart, pick up some drinks and juggle them in my arms as I rejoin my friends at the table, I see that the food has already come and they finished eating already, they ate my order leaving me the wrong one. I see one of my friends hasn't finished a really good looking ground-beef burrito in red sauce so I pick the whole thing up and stuff it in my mouth. Friends are saying that they should leave me 2 orders worth of food since I had ordered two things.

24-min focus on breathing meditation during the evening
bedtime: 20 breaths, followed probably by at least 30 minute intention setting, visualization, dream sign review, and pep-talk before bed. Hard to sleep, I'm so worked up. Take 2mg melatonin

I'm pretty sure I had earlier dreams before the epic, but the epic clobbered them

+ epic futuristic adventure: tram ride, guy takes my seat; real virtual reality system with 2 friends; "the meadows": floating castle in the sky is closing down for security alarm; poison attack, can I drink from this glass?; blasting bed with bazooka; DeForest Kelley acting presentation, he's doing a great job for such an old guy; dinner with the president: 2-foot long juicy BBQ beef sandwiches, large pitcher of fresh fig juice [how long did that take to squeeze!?]; heading towards "The Meadows", travel agency "cream colored cubic building in a fancy mall", attacked by thugs; conflict outside of building: the elders have "saved" aside us young people from the battle in order to rebuild the empire later

(The order of the scenes may be somewhat jumbled, there were so many)

tram: I'm riding a tram/train (to "the Meadows?"), it stops and the doors open, and voice says we must disembark and get back on. I do this, and when I return there's a guy/guys sitting in my seat. I'm confused, I'm looking at the seats relative to the door to see which one was mine. A bit frustrated I plop down in a free seat with an audible, annoyed "Humph!". A guy offers me the seat back, I say it doesn't matter.

real virtual reality: I sit down into a large "captains chair" (like Star trek), in a large room I'm with 2 friends, they're also sitting in identical chairs, both to my right, one a few feet away one about 15 feet away. I see that the system is engaging: VR masks/goggles are closing on my friend's faces. I sit in my chair and wait for my awareness to be sucked in to the system, because this is a "real" system where your mind is projected into a system. I feel my arms on the chair and try to make them comfortable, I think when my awareness is returned to my body I'll feel this chair again. Then I feel that my awareness is launched forwards plunging through a void, I keep waiting to emerge in the VR world but never arrive.

"The Meadows": I'm outdoors, I glance up into the sky, there is a huge floating technological looking castle/mansion there. There are security doors sliding shut all over the castle closing over openings, the building seems to be in a state of high alert/emergency.

I'm in a group of people outdoors. Someone arrives with a spray bottle/thing and begins spraying poison on people who immediately die. I'm far enough away from it (I'm on the poisoning side?) that I'm not affected. I'm standing in a room later, and grab a glass which is upside down from a counter and fill it with water and wonder if this is far enough away form the poison spray to be safe. I see that there is some sort of film/dirt floating on top of the water. Someone in the room says it's better not to drink so I don't.

bazooka bed: There is some (destroyed) small room with no walls outside. There is a bed in that heap of debris that must be destroyed. I'm holding a bazooka/rocket launcher on my shoulder and trying to find a vantage point to get a good shot. I'm moving around a while trying to get a clear shot (never shoot).

DeForest Kelley: in a half-lit room, people are sitting in a semi-circle on chairs. In the middle of them is DeForest Kelley, and old man with white hair. He's a famous old actor. he's laughing and giving a monologue. I think he's doing a great job.

dinner w/president: A group of people are sitting down on two long rows of chairs that face each other (like seating in an airport boarding gate). I'm sitting next to the president. I then get on a chair in-between the long rows and scoot away from and back to near the president. I make room next to the president because the #2 in command has arrived. Besides the rows of chairs is a small table with food and drink. On the table are several really juicy & delicious-looking 2-foot-long subway sandwiches bursting with circular slices of BBQ beef. Several people return their uneaten sandwiches to the tray and take one of the awesome new sandwiches. I'm standing by the table and pick up a large glass pitcher of a drink: I look at it and pour myself a glass, I see "bits" of fruit inside, it's dark, and think it's fig juice, and think wow it probably took a long time for the cooks to squeeze that much juice out of a ton of figs.

I'm on my way to the presidential palace called "The Meadows" (the floating one?), I'm describing the local of the (travel agency?) which will plan the rest of the trip for me. I'm "remembering" the location, and I say "it's in a cubic-shaped, cream colored building, in a fancy mall". I arrive and I'm not well received until they realize I'm a friend of the president then they treat me with great respect. I'm outdoors beyond this building and a truckload of thugs jump out and we fight: I'm blasting them with energy and awesome fight moves, we engage in some banter (which I forgot).

There is a large conflict outside a large building: us young folks were "tricked" by the elders and not allowed to participate, they're saving us in case the battle is lost, so we can rebuild the empire -- (this shouldn't be too hard because we have a floating castle?)

+ searching for my room in a weird club/hotel: hot tub, jump down a level, follow signs, my room is a public porta-potty in a noisy crowded area outside, I'm outraged

I'm in an indoor/outdoor location, like a resort, I hear a young woman laughing and see there's a hot tub nearby, I move to it, I see only a guy there, there's a girl hidden by the wall of the hot tub but I don't go closer to see.

I need to find my room, the number is something like "8901". I'm on an upper level of the club, and I go to the lower level by jumping off of a ledge, holding on to a bar over my head and slowly stretching my feet down and then drop, it's only about a foot left to go so it's not hard to land. I can't find my room, I go back to the upper level and a guide points the way, I go back to the lower level and follow signs "to the garden" outside, outside there's another sign that leads through an employee and guest only entrance (a sign says so), I see some staff there doing stuff, I move on and am back outside, it's in a busy public area and quite noisy. I find my room finally and am outraged, it is a public ports-potty. I have my key in my hand and think "should I open the door?" I'm embarrassed to have such a sucky room. I do open it (the structure is a cylinder) but there's nothing there inside. Someone says "you have to go through the glass door" I don't see it, some guy "activates" it by pulling on a large lever.

+ I want to wash/rinse/brush my hair but my friends ( MK, AK, others) are lying in a tight row blocking the faucet, kid passing in a car grabs my hand holding my brush

Outdoor/daylight scene, I want to wash/rinse/brush my hair, I have a brush in my hand. I see that our friends MK and AK and others are sitting down on the ground with their backs against a fence, the faucet I need to wash my hair is blocked by my friends, I walk up and down the line to try to find a way to the faucet. A car drives by and a kid in the back seat grabs my hand with the brush in it (my left hand) through the open car window. I'm trying to claw his face/shake him by grabbing his hood but I have no strength, all I can do is just stand there. [I wake up and my wife is pulling the covers, my arm is on top of the covers and it's getting pulled along with the covers]

+ I see cousins sitting down indoors (red interiors?), move to hug KR, turns out it's my sister and mom

Indoor, half-lit, red upholstery? I pass some of my cousins who are sitting down on chairs, I don't want to talk to them. I see cousin KR standing and I know we haven't been on the best of relations but go to her, she seems very warm and we move to hug, I realize then that she's my sister and my mother is standing right there with us. Some notion of people arriving in a minivan(?).

+ wife driving, I'm observing weird building after weird building, false memory deceives me, one looks like a giant flat screen TV, one is straddling a depression and is cracking in half, I'll return to inspect it later, one at the top of the hill has a great view, sit on bench with 2 small kids climbing all over me, I explain why I'm going back to school

I'm sitting in the front passenger side of a car/minivan, my wife is driving, we're heading up in to the B hills. I see a large building to the right that I don't recognize, I think that a large area of trees has been removed and that's why it looks different, I turn my head to the right to look at the building as we drive past, it's a company building.

We then pass a strange building which is built over a little gulley, the entire building is sagging in the middle like it's collapsing into the gulley. I ask my wife to slow down as we pass so I can get a better look. I look to the right and see a large flat driveway/parking area, I resolve to return to this place and look at it more closely.

Continuing to wind up into the hills, I see a HUGE building which is REALLY strange, it is very tall (5-6 stories) but extremely thin, I say (to my kid in the back seat?) that "that place looks like a giant flat-screen TV!), I turn my head around and look behind the van at the building as we pass.

We reach an area at the top of the hills and I see a house built into the hill, they have a patio build on an upper level were they can stand and enjoy the view. I look forwards out over the vista to the water but it's hazy/foggy and can't see any details in the distance.

I'm out of the car and sitting on a bench outside. A small boy and girl are sitting with me and climbing on me and playing all around, I'm hugging them, they're related to me and I feel great affection towards them. Someone comes and sits down and I discuss why I'm going back to school, the point is "to get an education, an education helps with….getting a job, and being, … a useful person."

+ my private room is also a utility closet, another guy comes in his room plays loud music, I grab a DC and move to a corner to make out (semi?); a repeating story is told about me, a famous opera singer walking through the crowd

I have my own room in some larger structure (community center). I'm entering the room and I see that the split door (bottom part / top part) top is open, I go out to close it, and back inside my room, I realize that I share this space with the center's utility closet so maids may enter(?). In the room I see a DC (indeterminate sex), take it into my arms, and walk towards a back corner, kissing it several times, and when I arrive in the corner kiss it more deeply for a longer while.

I'm outside the room (with wife?) and a man who works there, he's going outside in just a towel, his privates are visible, he doesn't care. Another man comes in (a Russian?) sort of short and hairy, he heads into his room which is next to mine, and starts blasting some really loud music, I move to see the source it seems to be almost from within my room.

I hear some narration that repeats several times about "the huge guy who's the famous opera singer who was moving through the crowd leaving the theater, and all the people turned to look at him[me], ignoring the scene playing on the stage". The voice also makes (a snarky?) comment about me kissing that DC.

+ (FA, LD #101) lying in bed listening to loud water rush through pipes in the walls, bed ejects me, get lucid, climb out window, look for girl, find one, undress her, count to 5 to calm down, wake up on "..3…"

I wake up in bed looking up at the ceiling in a white walled room and hear a strong flow of water like moving through pipes, I look up and "follow" the progress of the water through the pipes with my eyes, along the corner of the room and then the corner of the wall with the ceiling. I expect the water to burst through the ceiling at any moment. Right then, my bed heaves itself up from the head end and I'm ejected out on to the floor. As the bed lifts up I realize this is a dream, and I'm thankful for having such an easy-to-spot FA. I realize this is a dream again because my "body" has no pains in it whatsoever. I hear something outside, and jump out the window. Outside is very bright daylight and there are lots of colorful things all over the place, I'm on the side of a house. I continue around the corner and pick up a male DC with a sort of moon face and will him to become a hot girl, or for a girl to appear. I then see a bunch of girls seated on a bench a bit farther on in the garden and move towards them, pick one, undress her (take off her top?) and then count to 5 to calm my self before engaging, and I start "1….2….3... … then I wake up! Ah crap!

early recall disappointing: great dreams I sense but poor recall. Later recall good with a short lucid and some amusing scenarios.

Dreamsigns in bold. Lucid in red.

+ awesome flying with a friend from my childhood home's backyard all the way down to the city far below -- swooping all over the place (wish I had better memory of this)

+ encounter junior HS girlfriend in room sitting on floor, baggie of blue and green sprinkles "pot"

I enter a room and sit down on the floor with my back against the wall. To my left also sitting in the same position is MB, my junior high school girlfriend. I lean over and give her a peck-kiss on the cheek and she scoots quickly away from me on the floor towards the door ("don't do that" she says?), I tell her she smells like pot [she did used to toke]. She returns to me and I put my left arm around her and we're sitting cheek to cheek and I'm concerned somebody may see us and get the wrong idea. She brings out a baggie from a backpack on the other wall of the room: it is a quart-sized ziploc absolutely stuffed full with what looks like blue and green colored sugar crystals. It is pot. I take a big whiff of it but don't smell anything, MB does the same, I say "get this stuff away from me!" and put it back into the backpack.



+ I'm saying good night and waving good-bye to a friend (MB?) at childhood neighborhood park. I look up the stairs to the street and see a group of my friends are all lined up standing on the edge of the curb. I run up the stairs, and decide to do a "play tackle" of the group. I run forward with my shoulder lowered and run into the pack of them lightly from the left with my right hand around the body of the one in back. My right hand accidentally rests on the butt of the girl in the back, who it turns out is KH [always had a crush on her], she says annoyed, "<my name>! Hey!>". I walk down the line of them towards the front, high-fiving them all, then continue walking home with some girl, I'm complaining about having to get up early for an elementary linguistics class I don't need.

WBTB -- anchor: visualizing walking while dribbling a basketball.

room way too hot & stuffy, turn on fan, go get water (ate way too big too late sushi dinner with too much soy sauce, feel sodium hangover)

+ (lucid #100 [woohoo triple digits, baby!]) I'm in my childhood home, my bedroom, with son and wife, I see a bird quickly swoop by the window outside, I continue looking on the trajectory it took and see our cat sitting on a cabinet. The window (left pane) is a crack open and an animal is standing there. I can't decide at first if it is a cat (with a face like our cat) or a bird. I decide it is an owl and it starts to look like one, about 1.5 feet tall. I'm calling out to my wife to see the owl, and she doesn't see it. I'm practically screaming at her, "IT'S RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF YOU! LOOK, RIGHT THERE, STRAIGHT AHEAD!"). The owl walks to the room, it transforms into a tall (4 feet) brown furry/blurry/feathery thing and starts pacing back and forth in the room. I think, "Ah, OK, this is a dream,…" (nose pinch?). I clearly recall a thought like "time for some sex!" (and don't remember very much more.)

+ (f) sitting at desk in childhood bedroom, I see "they" have arranged my stuff: my digital watch (missing its band) has been pinned to my bulletin board, neatly arranged at the bottom among other things pinned there.

+ the pool: I'm sitting behind a glass wall [dream sign], a group of girls emerge from the door leading to the pool About 3 of them sit on chairs a bit behind my view and are stretching/moving, I look at them, then I turn around and crane my neck to get a view of them. I return my gaze forwards and see 2 of them are sitting immediately next to me now on my side of the glass: one to my right and a bit forwards and one directly in front of me. The one directly in front of me is bottomless and I see her v-jay and she's rubbing it a bit with both hands. My beach towel is bunched up under my right arm. At a later point I'm looking for my towel and I find it near my left arm. I want to take a pic of these lovelies and take out my phone. My phone is stuck on an app, and I hit the home button to then switch to the camera app. The phone does not respond. It keep hitting the home button, the phone acts like it's hung. I sense a guy is standing next to me looking down at my phone screen, and don't want him to see. A physical button appears and I'm tweaking it to try to select a function on the phone. I give up and a put down the phone but the girls are gone and their chairs are empty. Dang!

I stand up and prepare to talk away, I see on the ground a discarded funny small thing which turns out to be a company N special phone (like a small watch face) on ground, JT my N colleague shows/tells me that the owner can be found by entering a code. 9198? I ask for the code a few times, repeat it to myself, and try repeatedly to enter the code on the device. The device is now a large circuit board with a very small keypad that my fingers can barely touch properly, my fingernails get in the way. I can't enter the access code on the circuit board, every time I try the board (beeps and all the buttons/lights turns red temporarily).

+ I'm playing crazy basketball on a team playing against another team. We're playing with wadded-up towels instead of balls, shooting them into the baskets. I'm making a lot of plays (lay-ups) and shots banking the "balls" off of the backboard to score. My opponents ask me "why do you use the backboard so much?" (they think doing so is beneath them). I steal the ball from a missed shot of theirs and make another basket for our team, again banking against the backboard. I tell them "see!?", the backboard helps focus the ball into the basket I think. I make a run towards the basket and stop suddenly at the top of the key and pass the ball behind my back to a teammate (it was an awesome pass) who then passes it back to me but I fumble it and say "sorry!"

(I throw?) the "ball" up behind the backboard and it gets wedged in the corner of the ceiling and the wall. I see it there, it looks inaccessible. I take a broom handle and climb up there, there is not room to get my head/body up there, but as it turns out it's not that far away and the broom handle is more than long enough to reach it. Someone is standing next to me as I pull out the rag/ball.

+ the picnic: I'm walking and notice 'the garden house" which I think is normally empty. There is a short path leading to it, it is underneath trees. I see there is a light inside. I wonder if it is T (our house helper), someone is inside. I feel annoyed that people are in there, it should be a private retreat for me I think. I enter and see in the room there a table set and on the other side a really attractive girl, colored all in white/black/silver, completely monochrome, something is weird about her but I feel attracted at the same time. I sit down and there is a more colorful girl to my left, she recites a poem (which I mostly forgot), the final words are "…and we have our first kiss." I'm a bit embarrassed by this, I'm not really into her but I sense she likes me.

I take a drink of something and spill a few drops on my crouch, I look down and see I'm wearing gray dress slacks, I brush away the pinkish drops and I see a pinkish faint stain is left on the fabric, I don't worry about it.

+ the secret: I'm walking on some road/path with my mother to my left, and a (the colorful girl from previous dream?) girl. I tell lucid #100 details to girl (whispering so that mother won't hear, I don't want her to know I'm a lucid dreamer), especially the heart where my wife didn't see the owl. The girl notices strange bumps on mother's head (shaved area), girl says she has the same. I look to my left and see a strange shaved area around my other's right ear. The girl says something about a little piece of the bumps providing some sensation if it is rubbed (haha).

+(f) the circuit board: the entire daughter card is held/contacts the motherboard only via two jumpers, concerned about contacts, should solder them probably. I'm holding this thing in my hands and looking at it from different angles.