A World In My Head!!

June 18, 2012

Backyard Hideout

It's a late summer night and me and my comrades are hiding in someone's backyard. Of all the places to hide were hiding in the backyard of our enemy. We tip-toed from hiding spot to hiding spot with careful steps like a herd of deer.

The enemy found us and we use magic to hold him off while others escaped.

Eventually I became lightly lucid and get the idea I should just ditch this dream for another. The back fence had two doors. I open the first. It's a sunlit world of giant fierce elephant-gorilla creatures who were simply relaxing by the rocky cliffs. They looked too fierce to join! In the dream I knew them by name, but now I've forgotten what I called them.

I opened the next door and its a bunch of hippies sitting by a camp fire making music. Great! I tell all of my hiding comrades that I've found us a new home.

"wheres my drum?"

My friends try to find it for me but all we could find in the backyard were pots and pans and other odd things. Well, whatever works. We close the door, leaving the other dream. We bang on our pots and pans but we've got no rhythm.

May 10, 2012

Domestic Nightmare:
I was back in the old apartment in SA, home alone. After a long day all I wanted to do was wind down. So I was watching an anime and using headphones. I thought about going out for a bit, but since it was so late the idea of walking alone in the parking lot scared me. I decided it would be better to wait for sis to get home.

Then I notice a strange shadow. It looks like its coming from me, created by a really soft light judging how huge the shadow was. But the profile was all wrong, the shadow's profile was of a man. Then the shadow starts to move contrary to my own movements. And there were noises coming from the bedroom.

My heart is pounding, what's happening? I scream at the dream "stop it! stop it!" but I don't become lucid. But the shadow keeps moving. A man in all black steps out of the bedroom.

I don't think. I don't hesitate. I just do exactly as I would have done were this a real life moment. I grabbed my cell phone that was next to me and ran out the front door as fast as I could. I regretted not having my keys but its too late for that.

This is my worst nightmare! Literally speaking, a man breaking entry when I'm home alone.

This fear, this feeling of running barefoot in the dead of the night, it was too real for comfort. It didn't help that my apartment was next to no-where. I run back around the apartment hoping that by running back it would be the opposite of his expectation.

I dodge into a bristly bush, and for a moment I think how strange it is that jumping into this bush didn't hurt. But I didn't become lucid.

He sees me. Like a horror movie he walks towards me cool and calm while I struggle to get to my feet. I try to dial 911 but my fingers fumble and dial 912. I try again, except I trip and fall to my feet.

He's standing right over me now. I scream but my voice is so weak no one hears me. He swings his arm towards me, I close my eyes and wake up.

I was so shaken I couldn't fall back asleep. It scares me because, its real. Things like this really happen, every day, every hour.

When I do finally fall asleep, I had a FA. He was there again, he steps out of my closet and stands over me. Thank God the dream was fuzzy as hell. I try to imagine its just my dad come to visit me. The figure disappears but now I hear heaving breathing on the other side of the room.

I scream! "WHO'S THERE!? WHO'S THERE!?" It stops and I wake up.

My next dream was much nicer, it helps when the sun has already risen. Towards the end of the dream I was lucid and take my time tasting dream fruit.

February 22, 2012

Synopsis: First I have a nightmare I work at hobby lobby, then I have a second nightmare that the lights don't work, its flooding outside and my sister is screaming. Then I have a third nightmare of a demonic tornado, but it has a happy ending and I wake up energized!

Hobby Lobby
I'm working at hobby lobby with Al from asel art. A customer was driving me crazy. He wants to purchase this massive utility knife set and he wants it for 50% off. I keep pestering Al to help me out here because I don't know what to do, finally Al gets overwhelmed busy helping his own customers and he's like "just do whatever!"

So I went back and told the guy I could sell it to him for 30% off! But he acts like I just insulted his mom. He makes a snide remark about our slow customer service among other things. My head is screaming "asshole! asshole!" and I half hope I just shout it out loud.

My cats meowing wakes me up from customer service hell. The interesting thing about the dream was, although while the setting was abstract, my emotions and how I reacted to the situation wasn't it. I was myself, and I acted as I do when I actually help customers.

Broken Lights and a Flood
I'm on the phone with my friend Rby and were just trying to coordinate visiting each other, its hard when you live so far apart. This abstract part of the dream felt long.

Finally Rby is able to come over. I let her in the apartment, but the lights aren't working. I can't stand this dark, its so errie and creepy. I can hear other people in the apartment too, my uncle and my mom? Rby walks down the hallway to have a sneak peak of my room and say hi to my mom. But after disappearing into the dark she runs out the apartment in a panic.

I don't want to stay here either! So I run out the door and tell her to wait! "Let me stay at your place I'm scared here!"

I catch up to her and it starts to pour. We try to take cover from the rain but then a flash flood engulfs us. Its ocean like waves swept me away into the dark night.

I wake up but I can still hear the voices from my dream. I'm just glad I'm tucked under my blanket. Someone is screaming!! Its really startling! Its my cousins voice and its coming from the back of the apartment.

My sister gets annoyed and whines "Who the hell is screaming! Shut up!" I hear her stomp towards my cousin and a moment later, my sis is screaming along with my cousin. All the while I'm awake in my bed.

They start screaming for me! "J save us! Save us!" I can only imagine one scenario that would terrify them so much and also turn to me for help. I can feel its presence in my room. Oval head. Large black oval eyes. No. Go away. Its walking towards me.

I open my eyes wide and focus on the fuzzy blanket over me. Finally the scary HI stops.

Demonic Tornado
I'm in a futuristic city and I'm roleplaying with Tetsuo's powers. After exploring the city and its parks (which seemed like a long time) I meet a young girl who has powers just like me. She's like a female Akira and I'm so happy to meet her. We fly around together.

We draw a lot of attention and the on-lookers aren't sure whether to be afraid or amazed. That's when we notice a tornado. The tornado was brown orange, almost a rust color. It didn't look right.

I wanted to save everyone using my powers. I take command and order them to take refuge in this building by the park. We run inside, the tornado is nearly on us. I try to generate a force field to protect us from the tornados wrath. But its not working. Its coming closer. This building can't hold up!

"You can't stop me!"

The deep threatening voice emanated from the tornado, wtf it talks!
We need to get out of here, now! I close my eyes and teleport everyone to safety. When I open my eyes we are all safe on the other side of the city, near my apartment. I hope the tornado continues in the other direction.

Instead, it bellows, its roar echoes throughout the whole city. It twists on its axis and changes its course towards us! Shit!

"Hurry this way!"

I lead everyone to my apartment. "Theres a basement over here!" A few men enthusiastic to live help me to quickly de-clutter the basement entrance so we can all go inside. Its extremely tiny, more like a bathroom sized cellar and were at least 20 people.

Finally we get it clear and people start to jam themselves in there. I can see the tornado outside my window, it has theatre like faces swirling around it.


"What are you waiting for? Get your ass inside!" A few people were to busy looking at my things, I practically had to push them into the cellar.

Finally were all in and I close the cellar as though it had a plastic lid. The howling brown-orange tornado begins to shake the apartment.

I focus on my shield and start to chant "The shield is working, the shield is working" But I don't feel anything, I'm too scared. A DC looks at me and realizes I could use some moral support, so he joins in on my chanting.

Suddenly everyone is chanting with me! "The shield is working the shield is working!" I can feel it! Somehow I just know its working. The tornado can't shake us!

The tornado veers away. Everyone cheers and piles out of the cellar. "What are you doing? The tornado is still here!" I was scared it would attack again.

"You've avoided my attack twice. Well done. But our business isn't over.........
Debbie's Diner"

What? Debbie's Diner? Suddenly I remember I random scene from the beginning of my dream, about this diner that got into bad business. Across from my apartment was the diner, the female owner terrified of the demon runs back inside.

Wow, so its not after me?

The tornado shrinks and manifests itself as an odd looking demon. He walks into the diner to collect his due.

Phew, its over!

I really need to pee. Everyone just chills in my apartment. I go to the restroom and see my reflection. Its normal, except the hair is bigger. But my eyes. My own eyes were freaking me out. Whats wrong with my eyes?

I take a closer look. They were nearly completed dilated.

I wake up soon after.

February 16, 2012

Synopsis: dream of work, everyone left for the day - I should just go home. Second dream, me and sis go to an old abandoned apartment building, but its cult inhabitants are still there

Leave Work!
I walk into the office and realize no ones here! The CEO, my manager, everyone is gone and only half the lights were on. Well, I'm still scheduled to work so I sit at my desk. This is weird.

I head over to the back, production side, and scope it out. It's a ghost town to. One shipping guy, one painter, and the production manager. I guess that makes the production manager the highest ranking employee, so we all gather around him.

And I pop the question "No ones here, can we go home?"

He seems to be thinking about this, all work and no play.

"We can leave at 3 or 3:30?"

He seemed okay with that compromise, and then I woke up.

Cult's Hideout
A few friends gave me and my sister the idea that we should hang out at this abandoned apartment building. Some how this building felt ancient, it had history. Kids would hang out here for its eerie feeling, tell stories, and get inspiration for movies.

So I brought my sketchbook and other art stuff with me. Me and sis squat down in the fancy hallway in front of a door. I wonder whats inside, maybe antiques? I try to open the door but its locked. That's strange, no one lives here so why is the door locked?

I peek through the door's crack into the room. A chair, a table. Suddenly a flash of blue brushes past my peeping gaze. There is someone in there! They push against the door as if trying to listen to me.

I scream-whisper "holy crap there is someone in there! Weve got to gooooooo!" I shoo sis and we try to sneak away as quietly as possible. But then they stepped out of their rooms and walked towards us aggressively.

We dash into the elevator and desperately try to close the door, but were so scared were smashing the wrong buttons. "Press this one!" Finally the elevator door closes and we head down one level.

Im too scared to see who's waiting for us in the next floor. I don't know who those people are, but their demeanor was enough to make me want to scream.

The door opens but we don't want to step off. The elevator had a giant window facing outdoors. A man climbs down a fire-escape right next to the elevator. At first he startled me and I thought he was one of them.

But using the fire-escape seemed like a good idea, so me and sis follow him. There was a beautiful roof garden on this level with round plushy bushes and a hot spring. Lots of people were here, all speaking in whispers.

Like me, they had come for the buildings history. But unlike me, they actually knew what that history was. I overhear to older men talk about the cult and its tragic demise. And they continue to explain how this dangerous cult carried on in secret.

I don't remember what happened, but me and sis go back inside. I think because it was a roof garden we had no choice. Sis leads the way, but she is totally flipping out, running around in a panic.

"Slow down! Where are we! Were gonna get lost!"

Somehow magically sis leads us right back to where we started. And theres my backpack right where I left it. But our friends are no where to be seen.

We hear voices further down the hall, our friends, and trailing behind them, the cult members who like insane enough to eat your flesh. This is ridiculous. I lead sis to a large pane glass window. I shift through the window and look back at sis who doesn't know how to do that. So I grab her hand and shift her through the window. And we fly away.

February 12, 2012

Synopsis: After helping two lost kids I become lucid and meet "dreamers". I chase down dannon, dive into a mucky river, and visit a Moroccan like city

Note: I had just woken up from a night of random nonsense dreams. So at 7:30 am I refocus on dreamsharing and on the pyramids.

Lost Children
I'm walking to work and I pass by two children who looked so sad. Wait a minute, I turn around and realize these two young kids, a boy and a girl no older than eight were walking without their parents in the warehouse district.

I asked them if their mom was nearby and they told me they were running away. They looked like they had been walking for days. So I took them with me to work and hid them behind the receptionist desk. I'm starting to get this weird feeling. Like I'm dreaming.

I ignore the feeling and focus on the kids. Boss is already giving me work but instead I look for food and water to give the kids. I had a giant subway sandwich *what I hate subway* and found water under the boss' desk. Damn, I've got to be dreaming!

My vision is blurring in and out, this only happens in dreams and in dreams where Im close to waking up. I bang on the wall and scream "VISION!" My right eye clears up. I bang on the wall a couple of more times just to feel the pounding sensation and solidify the dream. "LEFT VISION!" My left eye clears up. Well no one is looking at me like I'm a freak so I've go to be dreaming. I levitate just to double check.

Yay! Lucid, I still give the kids their water and hoggie and then I run out of work - free!

Part Two: Dreamers Friends and Freaks
There's so many people downtown! And they all looked like dreamers to me. I realized I didn't know anyone in iosdp well enough to even know who I was looking for. So I remained curious and skeptical that maybe these dreamers were just DCs trying to fool me.

A large group wanted to go out to eat. But one tall slightly heavy blond says "I don't want to waste my time eating in a dream when I could be doing something more exciting!"

"Yeah you're right!" So I grow bat wings and start to fly around town, over the park and light-posts. And then I see Dannon down below. I land and talk to him. "Are you the real Dannon?" He tells me something but I don't remember it. Suddenly he transforms into a golden colored lion and makes a mad dash across the city. I was scared he was going to pounce me so I flew away again.

I fly over a river. Except you can't tell its a river because its so mucky. There's a thick film of slimy green stuff, you can't even see the water below. I float for a second or two debating it but I cant fight my dream instinct. When I see water I've got to jump in. I dive into the mucky water head first.

I first I regret it, it was scary down here. The water is black, I see something floating, is that a dead body? Then I see something swimming towards me, a dolphin! I pet its large forehead and then I fly out of the nasty water.

My vision is blurring again. So much I can't really tell where I'm going or who I just walked past. It lasted for several minutes.

I find a courtyard where a man was teaching something to a group of kids. I don't remember what but it seamed relative to dreaming. I turn into a bat creature again, scare the kids and fly away.

I find the dreamers and Dannon one more time downtown. The dreamers finally decided they would eat at Pei Wei. Dannon says "I love pei wei!" but he wasn't hungry so he turns into a lion and runs off again

After a while I enter a desert city with beautiful arabic like buildings. My vision cleared up and I wanted to remember the architectural details so I start shouting "BROWN, RED, OCHRE!" The colors of the details, the doors, the windows. But this city was empty.

I keep flying but now I don't remember what it was I was looking for. I fly through someones house and out the other end was a beautiful grassy plush field surrounded by forest. But the husband of the house, an old black man, thought I was the spawn of satan with my bat wings and hurled harpoons at me. His aim was horrible so he gets his son out and yells "Get'er!". Scared I flew into the forest, my vision blurs and blurs and blurs until the dream dissolves and I wake up.

February 15, 2012

Synopsis: After a quiet day in a vacation home, the sun explodes and this signifies alien invasion. Slightly abstract hard to remember dream.

Vacation Day Exploded
I’m driving my family to a natural reserve, the bumpy road is hard on my car and so is the steep hill. After parking I’m worried the park’s entrance is miles back the other way, but sis finds it just up this little path.

We were staying a vacation home inside an old-school village with icrecream shops. Mom disappears some where in there, Dad goes off to get pastries, and sis V moans and whines because she has to go to work. I really just wanted to go for a long walk, but no one will walk with me because sis L is too busy doing I don’t know what.

So I just chill in the vacation home with sis L.

I’m looking at the sun through the window blinds. So bright and warm, I tell sis – “we should go for a walk like right now!”. Suddenly the sun burns red-orange and lights up the whole sky with a hot glow. All the time I’m still watching through the window blinds. Suddenly, what I thought was the sun, hurls towards the earth and crashes in another window view.

I’m glued to the window watching a huge mushroom cloud rise up from beyond the park. I scream at sis “are you seeing this?” and I think about running to get my camera. What the hell am I thinking about? I can see a shock wave traveling across the landscape. Me and sis duck and lay flat on the ground, but nothing happens.

All is quiet now. I get this weird feeling, that this explosion is actually a part of an alien invasion. And we don’t want to advertise where we are, so I reach for the remote and turn off the TV. I look over to sis who looks terrified. I whisper “We need to be very quiet, no lights, this is an –“

“No don’t say it!” She starts to cry. The whole idea of aliens invading really freaks her out. Ironically her eyes kinda looked alien right now. I try to comfort her as she cries softly. Then I wake up.

February 9, 2010

Synopsis: It's an all out gang war in a huge house and I try to fight back with fire. Later, me and my dream husband escape but we leave our kitten daughter behind. Slightly abstract dream bordering lucidity with dream control.

Fire Fight
The dream started out nice with a large group of people just hanging out in a huge house. But then a pecking order started and that turned into a gang war leaving half the house torn apart. The other gang was hostile. We turned to fire to defend ourselves.

Being an old house we found these brass and iron antique items. I'm not sure what they were, a mix between a rod and a candelabra. Either way, they lit on fire nice. We got oil, paper, sticks, whatever we could to start the spark.

But the other gang was winning. They cornered us to a single room. At first the kids thought they were safe. But I knew we were just rats in a cage in here and there was a second door to the room that no one was guarding. I grabbed our iron fire stick and thought using sticks and paper to make fire was way too slow. So I tried to fire-bend instead.

It worked! But I'm not good at this fire bending stuff and I'm having trouble making it grow. The bad gang bursts through the side door. I try to create a wall of fire but its not working so well. Its like I'm only imagining there's a wall of fire but my imagination isn't manifesting in the dream. Still it held them back long enough for my gang to escape.

The dream transforms. I'm in an All-Generic-Building. It looks like a cross of a suburb smushed inside a warehouse with gardens inside of stair rails. Me and my imaginary dream husband are trying to escape from an enemy I don't even know. There's a concrete ravine in our way, on the other side is the exit door. At the time I was carrying my daughter, a black kitten. I put her down and fly my my husband across the ravine.

The bad guys were right behind us, so we hid underneath a table. My poor kitten cries from the otherside. Then I woke up.

February 2, 2012

Synopsis: I witness a strange tribal rite of passage that left a child unloved by her parents. Lucid, I jump into a golden swamp with swimming deer and trash.

Tribal Rites and Swamp Swimming Deers
Inside a hotel room, me and a reporter get a first look at an ancient tribal rite of passage from Africa. A young female teenager, naked, sits supported on top of a boys back. She slowly dances using only her upper torso while the boy crawls around with his head tucked into his chest. It was a wierd visual effect, making it look like she had six legs. The dim lights helped with the eerieness.

The dance is over and now the rest of the female teenagers line up to have their bodies inspected by an elder in the tribe. To do so, they strip off their bathing suits. I was talking to the reporter and we both agreed that technically none of the girls were afraid to be naked because this was a nudist tribe, they were only wearing bathing suits because we were in a hotel.

A mother is so proud of her daughter, its like the kids just graduated. Just when I thought the ritual was over I noticed two girls quickly squat down on command, in front of the elder. They were completed folded over, with their foreheads to their knees and their hands tucked in.

But somethings wrong, their backs are completely flat, and so is the back of their heads. Its like something squashed them. They were squished into table shaped people. What could do this? Then I realized their backs were being used as the ground for the ritual, and after so many years, their backs flattened. The elder rearranges them like boxes and yells at one of the girls to stand up.

The reporter was recording the entire event.

The box-girl wanted to perform the rite of passage herself. But before she can even try she's insulted by her own parents for being too fat and ugly. She frowns and chokes back her tears. At this point the reporter says 'Im sorry, I have to stop, her expression is too sour" and walks out the room. The parents insult the girls hideousness some more, then summons everyone to dinner.

I was horrified and pissed off! Magically at this point the family went from black to white.

The family was eating dinner in a private restuarant they rented out. I remember the father screaming at the hungry reporter "Family only!" I had something to say to that man that could make him choke.

"What are you standing there for, youre family too, come on eat J"

I didn't say anything and just left myself. I waited for what felt like hours for the family to finish their over priced meal. I snuck in, into the hotel room of the sleeping girls. I found the "ugly" girl, her hair was curly like mine but softer and lighter in color (like mom). She had a frown even while dreaming. I whispered softly to her

"Not matter what your parents say or think, you will grow up to be the most beautiful"

Then her frown changed into a smile and she continued to dream sweetly. I felt like my dream mission was done, which made me realize - hey Im dreaming.

Excited to be lucid I run around looking for something to do. A whole laundry lists of dream tasks pops into mind. Maybe I should do that, maybe this. I found a library. Maybe that can offer me intriguing information about the subconscious, nah that sounds like it'll take forever. So I continue running. Then I find an air hockey table. But playing made my dream abstract. Afraid it'll make my dream unstable, I stopped playing and looked for something more useful.

Thats when I finally find a door out of the hotel.

Outside was a swampy marshland, with golden grass growing in the water, and golden water shimmering with the morning sun.

"THAT!" I was so excited I couldn't even finish my sentance, but I found what my lucid dream was about.

I noticed deer were swimming in the swamp, with only their heads above the water. So its deeper than it looks. I dive on in! The water feels so real it makes me think for a moment that maybe ive lost my mind and im really awake. Its cold. Its slimy. It smells like a swamp smells, and theres a dead frog floating next to me.

Im grossed out but I remind myself its just a dream and im not going to get any diseases. I swim with the swamp deer for a few minutes. The waves grow and grow. The height of the waves covered my view, hiding the human boats on the other side creating them. We were almost run over. Its so hard to swim fast! Giant boxes and random items float our way atop the waves. It felt like the humans were trying to corner the deer. It was working. Scared, the deer swim away to the other end of the swamp where the water was shallow. Theres a fence and more boxes preventing them from fleeing.

I look at the humans on their boats and im pretty mad at them for ruining my swamp. Then I wake up.

February 1, 2012

Zebra Pegasus and Other Pets
My sis was feeding the stray cats by the porch. Except one of them wasn't a cat, it was a baby winged zebra the size of a cat. How cute! I wanted to take a closer look. At first I thought its wings was just an illusion made of clumps of fur. But no, they were functional feathered wings.

I couldn't believe I was staring at a winged baby zebra, sitting on my porch like any other cat. I was shocked that no one claimed this oddity for them, he looks like he's worth a million. I find a half eaten plum in the fridge and give it to my striped friend.

Later, in a box I find a forgotten pet rat. He was as friendly as a rat could be. I dunno why, but I thought that I should bathe him. He was well behaved, sitting on my palm as I shampoo him. But when it came time for a rinse he got agitated and tried to bite me.

Thats when I notice a man in my kitchen and I instnatly accepted him as an aspect of my subconscious. He tells me something but I don't remember it. I ask him about my health and the most I could understand was eat more fruit.

January 27, 2012

Synopsis: Lightly lucid, I help the dream characters learn to fly. Later, I witness birth life and death in a single horrifying moment.

Lucidity and Total Life in a Moment
I was at school, in a large open format classroom. There isnt a class in session but there's lots of students hanging around. After what felt like a long time, I get the idea that I can fly. I look down at my feet and imagine myself getting lighter, light enough to float. It takes a moment but gravity gives way and I'm airborne!

Excited I start to dance in the air and fly over the classmates. Some of the students started to fly to. "Its a dream! You can fly!"

My friend was having trouble, she told me "Its been so long since I've flown in a dream I dont remember how. I feel stuck to the floor"

So I stand next to her and show her slowly, one foot at a time off the ground. After everyone gets their taste of flight inside school, the professor walks in and starts a different class. So we head to the backroom to continue our lucid exploration.

"Lets try walking on water"

The back room was dark, dank, dirty, old and it had a huge sink. So we filled a bucket with water. "Okay, you first". The water was oily and slimy.

"Hell no" I said "I dont care if its a dream, im not touching that dirty water". So we dump it and try to clean the bucket real quick. But nothing we did worked. The water was still dirty and greasy.

"Lets try walking on water another time, at this rate I'll wake up"

I also remember talking to the other students while in that room and I remember saying "We spoke about dreams for hours" which I don't remember "And after flying, all in all it feels like ive been dreaming for five hours"

We left the back room, I felt I could wake up any time now. I went back into the main classroom which was now empty except for a small group of students.

The next moment was so vivid and horrifying, I forgot half of the dream.

A group of students sat around a creature, moaning in agony. His mother was in tears. They held his hand, caressed his head and remained in sympathetic silence.

He had white fur and blue eyes. He bellowed in pain as he swelled up and mutated and grew some more. I realized he was born just an instant ago.

"Whats going on? Rapid development?"

His mother continued to cry as he continued to grow, mutate and age. He cries out "why, why". His eyes were deep. There was anger, as life was stolen from him in an instant and he begins to die, fear as he dies, and gratitude that he lived at all.

As one creature died another was rapidly born from the mutated mass. But I didn't want to witness what I just witnessed again. I altered the dream and now these rapid development creatures were just mutants, but their life cycles were stabilized. Still they looked in the mirror and asked why.

I woke up soon after, but that single moment of birth life and death stayed with me the whole day.

January 18, 2012

Synopsis: I ride a tree, become lucid, talk to DCs and meet Tracy who told me how to get to my forest

Make the Water Still
In a giant backyard some bad guy mocks me, my sisters and my friend, some guy I don't even know. The bad guy makes my friend climb a tree, and asks me to do the same. I don't mind! Not sure how this is punishment, but I wanted to climb the highest tree.

So I fly up to the highest tree and sit on its branch and look down on every one below. My friend tries to sit next to me but he just falls off as the tree starts to sway back and forth. Some people below thought it was funny, so they pulled and tugged on my tall tree. But nothing made me move from my tree post.

I get this idea "im out of here!". And me and my tree ride away. Its covered in fur and its branches reach the ground and become fuzzy feet. Its like a giant cat tree. Through the fields, down an old england ally, and into a mansion. I noticed my cat tree at some point had no legs - I was floating. The cat tree gets smaller and smaller until finally im just holding onto kitty. I give her a kiss and put her down in the fancy bedroom. I guess Im on my own now.

I run outside and scream "im lucid dreaming!". I was just so happy to be lucid dreaming again. I'm in a courtyard and there's a lot of DCs. Im surprised because lately when Im lucid DCs disappear. I wanna know what DCs know, so I pop the question

"Hey, did you know that this is a dream?" "Hey did you know that this is a dream?"

Some of them look at me strange, some are happy with the news. An older black man with a luisiana accent says "You're right. Look at the details. Everything is so clear."

He seemed aware, the other DCs gather around him to understand what he means. So I asked him "Are you an expression of my higherself?"

"No! You are"

At the time I thought he was saying that he was the dreamer and Im the DC.

I go back inside and run around the mall, and watch a sex-ed video that was kinda gross because it featured a woman with tiny crabs, literally living inside of her. I run past a room owned by an older women, and the room was called Ayurveda. It was all the way in the back of the mall in a lonely dark corrider. The corrider looked boring so I didnt go inside - I THINK I MISSED AN AWESOME OPPORTUNITY HERE.

I leap back outside instead, skipping my way across a grassy field into a forest - yeah this is more exciting. But the forest was actually kinda creepy. Everything was eating everything else. Snakes attacking, animals growling and howling. I met a DC there. She seemed aware.

She told me that this wasn't the forest I'm trying to get to. My forest is peaceful, animals don't eat other animals in my forest and she reminded me of this. She told me its possible for me to go there now.

"How can I get to my forest?"

She takes me to the bank of the river and instructed me "Make the water still". The water was filled with rippling waves, so all I have to do is - make it still.

"Oh I see, you want me to meditate? Ive never done that in a dream before"

We sat down together by the rivers bank, and I did my first dream open eye meditation. I was nervous doing "nothing" would make my dream melt away. But it remained stable. I noticed the incredible details. But there was also a fuzzyness, like my side vision was fuzzy so I can only focus on whats in front of me. The water was like silver. And not too far from the forests edge was suburbia. I sat there trying to still the water for what felt like minutes - who knows it could have been ten seconds.

But nothing I did stilled the water.

So we left the forest and she led me back inside, I guess to see something. As we walked through the mall I tried to memorize every detail of her being. Her short bob hair with strawberry brown stripes, her petite height. We went into a bedroom and I think shes pulling a box out - cant remember.

I ask out of the blue "Is it true when people die they end up in a dream?" I guess she reminded me of a spirit I saw years ago.

She looked taken back and sad by my question. "Sort of, but not exactly."

"What's your name?"

"Its Tracy"

She starts to tell me something, but then I felt a "switch", I knew I had woken up and left the dream, and instead was only imagining I was still dreaming - if that makes any sense. Tracy was still trying to tell me something, but now it makes no sense, her appearance becomes unstable.

"I cant (hear you), I'm waking up! Im waking up!"

Her face, her hair, it keeps changing, but I dont want to forget.

"Wait tell me your name again!"

"Tracy"

I wake up. But it turned out to be a false awakening - hypnagogic imagery. Then I woke up for real.

January 2012

Synopsis: Two tornado dreams, and a vampire I kill

Note: watched too many episodes of storm chasers

Storm Chase Me
Im on a country winding road. At first Im on a bus with a group of friends, until the twister shows up behind us and now were in a pick up on the run. The twister follows us, surrounds us. The two in the back were supposed to be keeping track of its movement, but when I looked behind me they had fallen asleep.

Who falls asleep while running away from a twister?

The driver is screaming at me, he can't see where the tornado is. I'm looking at the gps on the phone, but instead of showing me the tornado, theres a spider symbol on the screen. Whats up with this spider? Its, its saying its right in front of me. I look up at the drivers head, theres on a spider on it.

"stay still theres a spider on your head!"

I try to flick it off and as I do I feel something bite my left shoulder, waking me up. I fall back asleep and continue to dream of tornados.

This time I'm outside my apartment, but the neighborhood is completely wrong. Im talking to mom on the cell about my tornado dream, but then I see something on the main road. Its whispy and transparent, but its a tornado.

I get off the phone and run to sis. I don't feel safe staying in this wimpy apartment, we've gotta move. Sis agrees so we get in the car and try to outrun the tornado growing every moment. But the tornado seems to follow us and leaves us on a mad chase all over the city. At one point we tried to hide in a closet - but it was the janitors closet in the mall and they shoo'd us away.

We made a giant circle around the city and finally decided to stay in our apartment. We dont actually make it to the apartment, we simply parked and took refuge in the car.

I waited for the tornado to come, instead it simply fades away.

Like the spider, a new enemy appeared, a female vampire. The city was dark, and she threatened to kill my sister. After some time I confront her, and told her to stop threatening my sister or I will kill her. But she continues to say shes going to kill my sister.

Upset, I grab a pair of scizzors, and I warn her again that the only whos going to die is her. She threatens my sister again. So I slash her eye hoping that if I blinded her she can't kill my sister.

She doesn't even feel any pain. She threatens to kill my sister still. So I chop off her head and her brain oozes out. She's an undead vampire, I've only weakened her. I put her head and oozy brain in a jar. What do I do with it?

Ive got to bury it far far away from her body so it cant unite. Not my closet, I dont want to think about her head being in there. Finally I find a pool of water and bury it under the mud. I woke up soon after. That was pretty gross.

January 5, 2012

Synopsis: we take refuge from a red raging tornado, lucid, escape military and imagine a new scene - a beach

Note: I woke up in the middle of the night and tried to recall the dream I just had. All I remember was that it had something to do with someone being healed. Their legs? Ayurveda? I realized now's a good time to try a lucid dream induction. I didn't, I just fell asleep instead. But its the thought that counts!

Red Tornado - Calm Beach
I'm walking with a group of friends in the industrial part of the city and were just having a good time. That was until I saw the red storm. "What is that? Do you see that?"

A massive thunderhead was sweeping down in a funnel shape just next to the lake under the highway overpass. The storm was glowing red. And as the funnel became a tornado it was like the red was a shaft of light in its center.

"We need to take cover!"

There was an abandoned warehouse like building nearby. But it was also right next to the path of the red tornado. As we ran inside I thought it was strange that the red tornado was stationary. It didn't seem to be moving and it was silent.

The inside of the building was weird. It was mostly empty, with dark concrete walls. Dark because of the lack of lightning, kind of like a parking garage.

"There's a basement level, that'll be the safest spot" said an older man who was now leading our group that grew into 20+ people.

We ran down the flight of stairs, which were really abstract. When we got down there I looked out the windows.

"Why are we on the third level? I thought we were going down?"

Its true, some how running down the stairs took us several floors up. We examined the staircase and determined it was missing a level or somehow that level was twisted the wrong way. We can see the ground level with the cars from way up here.

Back up we go, which takes us down. All is quiet now. There's only one light on in the "living room" of this vast empty basement. Without the company of friends, this place is creepy.

I don't remember why but I went down *back up* by myself - to get something or look for something. When I came back up to the basement everyone was gone. There was no way they could leave without me noticing, there's only one door and I crossed it going back up.

They vanished.

"Hello? Hello?"

I get that strange feeling I've gotten before, they vanished because they never were. I don't want to stay here anymore, the place only feels darker. I quickly run out of the closest window, lucid. The storm is gone. Excited that I'm dreaming I observe my environment. I start with the items closest to me. The brick wall. I touch it, its gritty. There's a vase on top of a post.

So shiny it looks so real! I tap on it and it makes a hollow sound. I put my palm on it and try to merge my hand into it but I can't. It feels too solid. I realized I do this a lot as a RC in waking life, and that its not a very good reliable RC for me.

The military show up on the scene. What do they want? I just try to mind my own business and go the other way, into this weird cityscape that looks like a bad video game layout. But they follow me. I try to lose them and they give chase.

They chase me into an area that looks like the isles of a walmart were tossed into a field, and lots and lots of boxes. Dream characters start to shout at me as the military men get closer. They're blaming, they're telling me how horrible this dream world is and its all my fault.

"Get her!"

I finally lose them in the field of isles and boxes. I hide underneath a table hidden by cardboard, I hope they didn't see me. I want to change this dream scene!

I close my eyes and imagine the ocean instead. At first it feels like nothing is happening, I swear I'm still just underneath this table. But I give it a few moments, waiting for a cue. There. I felt it. I dunno, it just feels different. I open my eyes to a sandy strip with Hawaiians and tourists dancing.

Cool. I saw people I recognized from waking life. Happy I shouted "were dreaming! were dreaming! hey, are you listening? this is a dream!". But they just nodded their head at me. I couldn't remember where I met them from, so my dream gave me dream-memories. I remembered them from a strange class.

The dance is over and everyone is gathered by a stone wall. My vision blurs in and out. I can't feel the ground. There's almost no sound. I figured this was sign I could wake up anytime soon. So I didn't feel like sitting by the wall listening to some old bearded man yap on.

I saw a tree with huge candy fruit of every color. I take a huge bite, but instead of something sweet, its more like a mild lemon.

I woke up. Its a FA actually. I tell my sisters about my dream. My room is totally facing the wrong wall. And then I wake up for real. (or did I?)

January 3, 2012

Dream Signs Update

Based on the past few nights and many random dreams I was too lazy to write, my dream signs deal mostly with FORM and CONTEXT involving the home.

1. The apartment is an older apartment I haven't lived in for years: context

2. My bedroom is the wrong bedroom I haven't had for years: context

3. I'm living with the whole family, when I'm not: context

4. Theres a hill where there shouldn't be a hill: context

5. Driving to dallas only took an instant, wow!: context

6. I don't remember ever parking my car, where did it go?: context

7. I'm in a class I shouldn't be in: context

8. The highway never makes any sense : setting form

9. Im upset my sisters are deciding the arrangement of my room: emotions

10. bathrooms are as weird and as scary as ever: setting form

So, lots of context dream signs! Not easy! But most of it has to do with the home. So that's what I'll focus on the most for the next week or so.

Reality Check Everytime:

1. I come into contact with family: Are they supposed to be living here? Am I supposed to be sharing a room with them?

2. Everytime I'm in my room: Is this my room? Is my bed where its supposed to be? How many beds are here?

3. Everytime I'm in the living room: Is this my living room? Is the front door where it should be, by the kitchen? Is the porch where it should be? Does the porch have a screen door or a regular door?

4. Everytime I'm in the kitchen: Is the kitchen where its supposed to be? Does it have one entrance or two? Whos in the kitchen and why?

5. Everytime I'm going somewhere: Do I even know where I'm going? Why am I going there? Does the going there make sense?

6. Everytime Im in the bathroom: Do the bathroom appliances make sense? Is the toilet scary?

and something like that

December 29, 2011

Synopsis: two mini dreams, occupy dallas and visiting family

Notes: fell asleep before finishing the 61 point relaxation technique. Had trouble writing down my dream as soon as I woke up because I needed to get ready for work

Visiting
I returned to downtown dallas to see my friends from occupy. I guy who had been flirting with me, happy to see I still exist asks to go out with me. I don't give him an answer but we continue hanging out with the rest of the occupy crew

In another dream I visit my parents back in SA. But the apartment is all wrong. Its an apartment no ones lived in for like 15 years. But it goes over my head in the dream. My mom is cooking me food, my sisters are playing games, its like the holidays all over again