A World In My Head!!

September 11, 2013

review: dreamed I had to escape the Russian army (gee I wonder why), long and fairly stable dream. remember the third tower

Escape Russia
The rest of my team had already tried to escape. They leaped off the roof top hoping it would be enough to escape the Russian Army below. Instead, they just leaped to their deaths instead. The army catches them in mid air.

Just behind the army was a wall dividing them from a river. I knew if I could make it there I would be safe. I jump off the roof top and before the Russian army can do anything about it I safely fly over their heads, cursing at the general as I go. I climb over the wall and jump into the river.

I felt I only had moments to get a head start before the Russian army catches up. Apparently I have sensitive information that they don't want to leave the country.

Suddenly I can't fly and running along the river was hard. So many twigs. I magically find the airport.

It's a total mess in here! They are cancelling flights left and right and vacating the place. Its as if they're afraid of some sort of aerial attack. I tell the lady at the register that I need a flight out. But she gives me some weak excuse why she can't do that.

I lose control and scream "I'm a fugitive and the russian army is gonna kill me unless you give me a flight out, right now!"

The whole place went dead silent. The lady agrees to help. She ushers me to a back room and tells me about the last flight out of Russia. But its going to cost a lot. I pull out my credit card and remember how damn broke I am. I can't believe money is deciding my fate!

Suddenly mom and sis shows up. I beg them to help! But they don't have the funds for this last flight out either. Mom comes up with one of her crazy schemes - drive us out of Russia and act like everything is okay?

Mom is driving us through an old city. Wait, I remember this place. This is where my team escaped from earlier. For what ever reason it was a middle eastern city. Or maybe thats not ironic. I gripe at mom "What are you doing! You're taking me right to my enemies!"

We couldn't drive any further because of road blocks so we walk through the square, still acting like everything is fine. But a soldier recognizes my face. I make mom and sis drop their bags, and we run like hell.

We've made it past the border of Russia. The countryside is gorgeous, with giant green mountains. Were standing by the mountain highway trying to hitch a ride to the airport. In my mind its a european country. But when a car pulls over clearly its a chinese family.

Language barriers. They don't understand what we want. So they shrug and drive off.

Another car with english speaking europeans pulls over. Apparently they know us. The blonde chick, who was high, tells us she knows another way out.

She takes us to her rundown apartment and shows us a device that creates portals. It seems simple enough. You first place a picture of your destination. Then you pour a mixture of different liquids, press random buttons, and voila, a magical portal.

The portal she activated was the wilderness of Texas. Gorgeous! So close to home! But mom and sis just frown. The blonde chick says she has to go on a date now and leaves us with this machine.

Since my folk don't like any of the preset pictures, I quickly try to doodle my destination. It feels like its taking forever. At one point I realize its a dream and ask myself "is my family really still behind me?". Usually in long drawn out moments like this dream characters who are standing behind me - disappear.

I look behind me and mom and sis are still waiting for me to finish with my drawing. I doodled an alien for my imaginary planet. I pop in the picture, hope for the best and wake up.

August 29, 2013

Notes: the only thing I tried to do last night was fall asleep happy. Several dreams, but I only remember bits and pieces of each. Two lucids, only remember one.

Drawing Time
I brought all my drawing supplies with me, all I need now is the perfect spot. This building was big, open and also really lonely and kinda creepy. But I'm here so whatever. To make it less creepy I look for a sunny spot, which was right dab in the middle of two staircases.

I sit down, unload my backpack and I was just about to doodle when - the bell rings and all the classrooms let out all their students. Little elementary kids running around everywhere. Some teachers find me and yell at me. They accuse me of being a teenage vandal.

Cats
We're running down a long grassy hallway, flanked by apartment buildings. The stray cats were everywhere and they all had their own little turfs and gangs. Some of them harass but, they're still just fluffy household cats.

Seminar
The seminar was being given by some older blonde lady. Her talk was really fascinating but of course I don't remember squat. Afterwords she was having a book signing and taking comments. The comment I wrote for her went something like this "thanks for selling cupcakes so that you can raise money so that you can raise awareness of lucid dreaming!"

So I guess it was a dream seminar

Militant Leader-Lucid
Maybe its not ironic that after the dream seminar we all ran into this guy. Some crazy nazi war general. He had us oppressed with all of his militant rules. I finally rebel against him by showing him something that I can do that he can't - fly.

I fly around his head and out the building - lucid. I remembered my dream goal, to bring the objects closest to me in full clarity. I land by a bush by a brick wall. I start with the leaves, bringing them into clarity. At first they were just dream leaves. But then they became life like. The leaves had fuzzy hairs that I could see and feel. Some were realistically torn, or dried up, or eaten by bugs.

I was about to move onto the next object when I woke up suddenly.

Giants
I dreamed of giant robots attacking the school ground. But as long as you remained out of their sight, their laser beam can't blast you. The school itself was safe. So we just hanged out casually in one of the classrooms.

August 27, 2013

Dust Storm
I'm sitting by the window ledge and see a storm coming. It's a massive opaque brown cloud covering the entire sky with it. It's quickly sweeping towards us. I warn mom and quickly shut the windows. (this house looks like the one in NY)

The brown dust still seeps in through the cracks. "Don't breathe it!" As quickly as it came it was gone. I'm walking outside, it looks like I'm near the coast. The brown dust storm left brown poisonous sludge everywhere. Everyone who didn't close their windows was sick, which was most of the neighborhood.

Weird Lucid
At some point I became lucid. Maybe it was because I flying over a weird abstracted landscape and oddly placed crowds of people. I remembered my dream goal, 'to bring the objects closest towards me into full clarity'. Still in the air, I decide to land over there by that brick building.

I started with the bricks and like magic they looked more like a mosaic. Next I found a tray of tiny toys. I remember trying to say colors and I kept getting them wrong, I'd say "green" when pointing to a yellow object and so on. And then there were these tropical banana leaf plants, made from purple and blue plastic.

After that I wondered around in this strange open aired building. No doors, just entryways. The building had smooth curves, like adobe or cob, but made from something more modern.

I ran into a lanky tall black man and told him "Hey did you know this is a dream!" and he goes "Yes!......No, wait, what?" He told me his name but even in the dream it didn't make sense to me, and its hard to remember what doesn't make sense. It was something like Agnosio.

Peering out a window I could see the deep blue ocean below me. Hallelujah! I jumped straight into it. I sink to the ocean floor and for the first time in a dream I could actually see the floor. Its usually just murky and dark in dreams but this time I could see colorful pebbles beneath my feet.

There were tiny sting rays and other fish. Then I saw a table, underwater, with random objects. I tried telekinesis on them but that totally didn't work. That's when I see a kitchen to my right with little old ladies. I thought I was underwater? My dream fades into nonsense after.

August 25, 2013

Frozen
Every group had their own area in this apartment building. I was with the artsy group. We were all getting ready for something when suddenly snow covers everything. And its not just snow outside, its everywhere, inside the apartments. The freak weather has everyone flipping out! We had no choice but to leave.

I quickly pack what I can and head outside to dump my bags in the car. But I'm only wearing socks and the snow is so cold. Where are my shoes, and what about my furniture? Isn't the snow ruining it?

I see my dad outside laughing with some random dude. I get frustrated and yell "my things are inside!". Dad gets the message and heads inside to help with the heavy furniture.

I was still dumping stuff in my car when suddenly this giant ice slab just falls right on top of the apartment building, large enough to cover the entire apartment roof. I held my breath. How can the roof support something so massive?

Moments later the roof collapses, the ice slab crushes everything and breaks apart. They're all dead, my friends, dad! I'm gripped with absolute horror. All I could do was fall down to the snow and scream frantically.

My dream re-winds.

The ice slab part happened. Instead I'm frantically trying to pack my things, find my shoes, and make sure I'm not missing anything. This time it was mom who was helping me. I woke up shortly after.

August 24

Notes: I had wrote down notes for a dream around 3am, but by the morning I didn't remember the dream. The only thing I remembered was that I was trying to order queso flamenco.

Cavern Lake
I dont remember how my family got here. But we were swimming in a lake deep in a cavern. There were penguins living in the cavern and I used one of them to help me propel through the water. After our adventure mom says "That was so refreshing! I don't even need to shower!"

And I remark "If only that were true. Since were dreaming we'll still need to shower when we wake". But the lucidity went over my head.

This entire cavern is full of challenges for me and my family to overcome. A lady opens a door within the cavern and shows us the next challenge, a kitchen. She tells us its a cooking challenge. I tell her "i dont cook!" and I'm convinced she's the devil.

I storm out of the room and tell my family they can do that challenge without me! My dream fades out. I fall back asleep and re-enter the dream. My family tells me the challenge is over and we can proceed to the next step. Or we can just skip everything and go outside! I opt to go outside.

Again I wake up and fall asleep

Werewolf and Gang Anime
I'm watching an anime with a guy I don't even know. I am glued to the television! The first scene was action packed. These different beings were each taking their turn invading an ancient temple and making their way to the bottom level.

There was a family of werewolves, goblins, zombies and robotic people? The werewolves easily fought their way through to the bottom level. The goblins were hilariously clumsy and simply fell through a hole. When the goblins got up their fur had accidentally fallen off, and they didn't know whose fur-suit belonged to whom.

The next challenge was to be done alone. The first one to step up was a brave little werewolf girl of about 10 years of age. She enters the room by herself.

A totem on the wall explains the scenario "I am darkness. I will swallow you whole if you are unable to defeat me. This light" a light appeared in a closet "is all you have left". The light begins to flicker.

The little furry girl gets all pumped up "I'm not scared of you! My claws will slice right through you! You just wait! I'm ready! Lets get this started!" She didn't realize the challenge already started. As she was talking big the flickering light suddenly goes dark.

"Times up!" The totem becomes a shadow and swallows the girl.

Her brothers howl furiously! "Its not her fault she didn't understand the rules!" But next up for the challenge was the old goblin.

He walks and talks like an old black man from the heart of Louisiana. He takes his sweet time walking up to the challenge door, jabbering away with the other goblins, and swinging a large fish in his hand.

When he gets into the challenge room the totem again explains the rules, but his fish is suddenly gone. The old goblin protests! "Now wait a minute! I had a fish in ma hand!"

"A fish is not a weapon"

"Ohhh yes it is! You give me back ma fish!" The fish appears back in the old goblin's hand. "And take that! And take that!" He slaps that totem hard with a smelly fish! The light gets so bright it explodes and the totem is destroyed!

The fish slapping goblin was too damn funny, I woke up laughing. Good anime.

August 19, 2013

notes: i didn't do any incubations because I went to sleep so late! I dreamed of witches who chased me down

Witches on Broomsticks
The giant ogre has me and mom running back into my bedroom. I lock the door, knowing that can't hold an ogre out but maybe it'll buy us some time. I open the window and tell mom "jump out!". But she insists she can't. Instead she hops on the bed and hides under the sheets.

I keep yelling at her "jump out the window now!". But she keeps insisting that I go on without her. The door opens, I'm out of time. I jump out the window (its night time) and fly away. A gang of witches on broomsticks chase after me.

I don't remember much of this chase scene anymore. But at some point I hid behind a gas station and befriended a talking monkey. I let the monkey sit on my shoulders - his hands were free to help me. The witches find us again and we fly away again.

Its day time now and I see a school up ahead. I fly into the elementary, past the hallway with kids and quickly hide from the windows view. From my point of view I can see that the witches were hoovering outside the windows, looking for me.

I open the janitorial closet door which leads to another door, to another door which leads to the emergency exit. That led to a staircase. My monkey friend promptly reminds me "don't go down, go up!". Going down in an industrial staircase like this always leads to something nightmarish.

I go up the steps but there's no door for the next level! So I go back the way I came and try to find some other place to hide.

Eventually I walked into a room that was completely empty, except for one large oval table. It looked futuristic, like it was a giant oval computer. I walk up to the table, in the very center was a face. I couldn't tell if the face was robotic or wearing an ancient mask. Who ever he is, he's asleep in this table. I wanted to know more about this sleeping face.

Leaving the room, I run into a little black girl with braided pig-tails. She tells me this man had to be put to sleep, but one day soon he's going to wake up. Anyways, I look out the window and I don't see the witches. I fly right out, but it's a trap. The gang of witches were still there. I try to fight them but nothing I do works. So I just fly right back in the building.

This time the witches followed inside. They were thoroughly checking all the rooms so I kept switching my hiding places. For a while I hung out with the little girl and her classroom. Eventually I ran back into the room with the face - around this time I also noticed my monkey friend was non-existent.

The face was waking up, and he sounds real pissed! I shouldn't be here! Instead, I get the idea to hide under another table. I waited for the witches to follow me into the 'faces' room. I don't remember what happened next, but I finally got away, because the witches were busy battling the face.

I travel through weird landscape after weird landscape. Most of them were desert, rocky and epic feeling like from some sci-fi movie. That's when I get blasted with this nostalgic feeling "I remember this dream! I remember what happens next! I become lucid!". I was sure of it, in the next scene of the dream I'm supposed to become lucid....lol.....sigh.....

I pull out my dream journal and look for an entry that resembles this dream. I get frustrated because the events that lead to the next scene haven't happened yet. I feel as though I'm waking up.

Video Games with Funky
Instead my dream just morphs into something else. I'm playing fantasy role-playing video games with my friend Funky and others online. The video game starts out in those same epic landscapes I just flew through. There were dinosaurs, mindlessly eating and eating each other. Dragons and other fantastical creatures.

Our characters were leveling fast. I guess the boys got jealous and didn't like how fast me and funky's characters were leveling. They tell each other "don't let them play the next game!" and boot us out. My screen goes black! How rude! I turn to funky, she's fallen fast asleep still holding the remote control. I remember how strange it was to look at her asleep. I realize its because her breathing matched mine, it was more like staring at my body that was asleep on the bed.

I woke up after

August 17, 2013

short hand: midnight, lady informs me the gallery is ready, we leave together. parking lot. A fat lady can't fit through the door because my car is too close to her car. They struggle and struggle to get her in. I say, 'let me go first and then you can fit in your car'

3rd person point of view, racing down the mountainside at night to be the first in the gallery. gallery makes no sense. bookshelves all along the wall. Where do I hang my painting? We can only hang two. Suddenly my paintings are transformed into print books. I try to pin it, it rips. But another artist has hung multiple paintings and I'm jealous.

why am I stuck hanging two and he can hang multiple? wake up

August 14, 2014

Notes: night 3 of my 30 day lucid challenge. set the intention to remember all of my dreams, asked my dream dragon to help me realize the dream state, recalled three dreams

UFO-Thought it was real
Me and my family were on a hi-line train zipping through a big city, like new york. I think were on vacation. I looked out the train's window and noticed a large flying object next to me. Metallic and weird. It's the most bizarre UFO I've ever seen.

I take a closer look and notice there's no pilot. Instead it has a robot like RTD2 piloting it. Wait! I'm staring at a real UFO! I grab my camera and take pictures like crazy.

When we get to our destination I show off my photographs to everyone "I saw a UFO!". I was so happy to have photographic evidence.

Then I wake up pissed off it never happened. As I'm falling back asleep I focus on recognizing that I'm dreaming.

Just Ring Me Out!
Me and sis were in some underground shopping area, as if it's one of the quicky markets in the subway stations of new york. No windows no air. Its early morning, we just woke, were starving so we grab some breakfast food and take it to the counter to be rung out. The counter was outside the actual shop.

Two ladies start to ring me out. I hand them my debit card, they swipe and swipe but they're taking forever. Finally they tell me they can't process my order unless I give them my social security number. What a load of crap!

I tell them they're lying, "I work in retail, you don't need that information. Just use my debit already". We argue forever over the matter. They call up their manager on the phone to confirm how to ring me up. I'm getting really frustrated and I just want to eat my breakfast!!

Finally, after what feels like forever, they get off the phone with their manager and explain to me......"we can't ring you out unless you give us your social security number." Bloody hell were back to square one!

I think sis finally gets annoyed and hands over cash. They take forever processing my order with cash. They hand me the receipt - but failed to hand me my change. I FLIP OUT! "WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM! Don't you know how to count, you owe us change!"

They look at me with disgust, but are still failing to give me my change. I argue with them some more, clearly they owe us change.

They open the register as slowly as possible and count as slowly as possible. And finally, finally, I have my breakfast and my change. I look at the time, holy hell its 3:30pm! Not only did those idiots make me miss my breakfast but now I've missed out on lunch.

As me and sis were walking away the two ladies approach us and curse us out, as if it was our fault they don't know how to do the simplest of retail skills. It made no sense! No sense! I was so stressed out I could pull my hair out, WHAT is going on!!!

I woke up still feeling stressed out. What was that dream all about? Then I remembered that if I ask my subconscious to help me realize I'm dreaming, my subconscious will create a dream so stressful I could scream! And sometimes, it works, I'll scream "oh my God, someone tell me I'm dreaming!!". Unfortunately that didn't happen here.

I didn't want to end my night with that dream. I look at the clock and figure I could still sleep for another hour or so.

Senseless Shopping
I look at the time, the store I work at is just about to close. Still, I felt the need to harass my poor employees so that I could buy a single sheet of paper. In real life, I wouldn't do that to them. I know I hate it when last minute customers run in just as I'm about to lock the door.

I run in just before the doors were locked!! Its completely quiet in here. The girl managing the store (who is my belly dance teacher and not an actual employee) was babysitting her kids in the back room while on the clock.

I find the large sheet of paper I need "this is perfect to paint on". But then I start to have second doubts. "why am I painting on a sheet of paper? isn't it too thin to hold my paint?". I'm just about to walk out when mom stops me, and asks me to babysit the kids while my friend finishes closing up the store. "sure"

Locking a door apparently takes two hours. By the time I leave it's way past midnight. Apparently I'm not done shopping.

I find myself in a large shopping area. The place is crowded, with insane customers screaming gleefully up and down the isles. I browse through all the items looking for that special something to buy. It finally occurs to me that everything here is halloween related. It really makes no sense to me, I don't remember wanting to buy anything halloween related.

So I leave the store. By the time I walk out the sun has risen and I think "well great, theres goes my sleep." I start to fly home but I'm completely lost. I look behind me and see the downtown skyline of SA. "well thats east, so I need to fly in this direction". I'm sure I was flying in the right direction, but I don't recognize any of these buildings. It's so industrial looking. Where's 410 west?

I fly towards the edge of a forest. Now I know I must be going in the wrong direction. I get a feeling that I came from this direction. Flying that-way I run into an old man tending a field. "how do I get to 410-west?" He draws me a map on the ground. It's confusing as hell. I'll have to connect to two different highways. I felt so lost.

I woke up shortly after

August 13, 2013

Notes: set intention to be lucid and to have a vivid meaningful dream, dreamed I was searching for a lost hill that reviews another hill on the other side of a ravine

Lost Hill on the Other Side
Me and my friend followed our trusty map to four ancient magical locations. The shape of the map was like a four leaf clover. In each of the four corners of this kingdom is an ancient hill with a rune stone. The rune stone actually looks like a giant button on the ground, about a 2ft in radius.

We didn't have any trouble searching all four locations. But the magical rune stones didn't work. Nothing happened. Still we didn't give up and continued to search around in the grassy knolls. There must be something important about these four sites, we just didn't know what.

We bump into an old man who tells us a story, of why the hills are so important. He tells us, when he was younger he stood on a hill with a rune stone facing east. From that hill he could see across the ravine to the other side. Now the kingdom is like an isolated island. Its completely surrounded by a deep bottomless ravine. And whole kingdom assumes that there is nothing past this ravine, that we are the only people on this earth.

But from his magical hill he could see a sister hill on the other side of the ravine, with people waving back. Only when you activate the rune stones of those hills can you see, that there is life on the other side of the ravine.

But the old man explains that he can't find the hill anymore. And that the people of the kingdom have completely forgotten this truth.

We believed the old man and continued our search for this east facing hill. Thats when I realized that the map we were using was completely incorrect. It's missing an entire portion of the kingdom, namely the castle. On the castle map there is a huge east facing garden. That must be where the magical hill is, only problem is commoners aren't allowed!

No problem, the queen is actually our friend. We meet the queen by the heavily guarded castle gate. The queen is like a zelda character, fighting the forces of evil without the rest of the castle knowing. Her secret codename was something like Blue Moon.

Me and my friend were in disguise, I was wearing a showl over my head. I tell the Queen 'were here to help blue moon'. She smiles, understanding completely that we are on a secret mission. With the help of the queen we pass the guarded gates as dignitaries.

We quickly race past the royal court filled with snobby rich people. Heading east, we enter a restricted area with glass walls. I'm sure we must be near because guards were chasing us now. We find the magic hill. There's a large regal statue facing towards the endless ravine. The guards attack us, we try to explain to them were on a mission for the queen but they weren't listening.

Suddenly a warrior jumps into the scene and defeats the guards for us, he must be the Queen's personal protector. We move the statue counter-clockwise and out pops the rune stone we need. Activating it, like magic, another hill appears on the other side of the ravine. Just like the old man said...But there was no one waiting on that hill. Maybe its been so long the people of the other side gave up. Still I wanted to let the whole kingdom know this truth. I woke up shortly after.

August 12, 2013

Notes: 30 day lucid challenge - set intention for the night - dream goal is to apply the lessons of my dream dragon. Actually, I asked my dream dragon to help me realize that I am dreaming. Usually when I ask this I dream of one of two things - work or a nasty toilet.

Its Not Time for Work!
Dragon's Lessons Applied
I get to work, unlock the door and my boss was already waiting inside. We haven't even turned on the lights yet when a herd of customers barge in. That's when I realize the timing is all wrong - its like 6am! I'm not supposed to be at work and were not even supposed to be open.

I start to explain to the customers that 'were not open' and 'please come back when we are' as nicely as possible. But then, boss is like 'well I guess we can make an exception!'

Oh hell no! Its hours before I have to go to work, I'm not gonna be here all day..! I run out before my boss orders me around.

Its still very dark outside. As I walk back to my car I notice a group of guys behind me. Some of them were the customers who were just in our store. But I noticed they had a weird device in their hands and they were looking at the parked cars suspiciously.

'No, not that one' one of them says

Just as I pull out the keys to my car and beep the alarm - the boys had surrounded my car. Oh no. They are car thieves. But worse yet, I'm catching them in the act. The bigger guy looks at me, as Im holding my keys, like I'm fresh meat for him to pound.

One of the guys leaps out in front of me protectively as if to say 'dont bother her!'

The big guy gripes back "Why are you protecting her? Get the job done!"

I didn't know what to do. There's five of them and one of me. Or worse, what are they going to do to me? I started to think that maybe it was better if I just offered them sex if they promised to leave my car alone so I can at least provide an income. But they were probably going to gang rape me anyways and not care to keep any promise. It was too much for me to handle so I just closed my eyes....and wished this scene away.

I wake up back on my bed, and look at the time, its time to get ready for work. I'm walking to work (lol what car?) when I notice walking besides me - was a herd of teachers.

Each teacher had a shopping cart filled with random supplies. I first I don't mind them, until we all stop at the same place - my work. Damn, they're customers!

I look at the time again, wait a minute its not time for work! I explain to the ladies 'we wont be open for another hour or so'. They ask me if they can at least leave their shopping carts inside, 'you see' they explain 'these are the school kits and we need to go over some items with your boss'

'Alright' I was just about to unlock the door and let their shopping carts in, when I can hear my boss' loud voice all the way from the back of the store. And I could already hear it in the back of my mind 'Ring them up!'

Forget that! I ditch the teachers and their shopping carts and just run in the opposite direction! Some where along the way I passed by my sister, who is also a teacher.

I hid inside a private office building thats only open to us employees. Its still so early so theres no one here, but thank God customers don't bother us in this building. I walk around the office building for a while, wondering what's behind every door, privy only to managers and ceo's. I climb the staircase and look down.

I get this funny dreamy feeling. I jump and start to float! I am dreaming! And then I slowly rationalized "well...if im dreaming..then...I dont have to go back to work!" Freedom! I dump my purse, I take off my jacket and kick off my shoes and fly out the building.

I proceed with my dream goal, following the lessons of my dream dragon. I start with the objects closest to me. Bricks, rocks, flowers, a rose bud. At first it was hard to see because I have glasses on. When I tried to take them off it made my vision even worse. But then I rationalized "I dont even own a pair of glasses so why do I need them in the dream?". I take off the glasses again and now I can see clearly.

I was bored with my dream goal so I start to fly around instead. The place was beautiful, it looks like the riverwalk without all the annoying tourism. I fly into a diner but then my dream becomes unstable and I wake up.

August 11, 2013

Review: non lucid morning dream, wrote down notes as soon as I woke up and drifted off to sleep again

Apartment Sunken like a Ship
I was talking to Hans. If I'm talking to him its gotta be something political and social economical, world falling apart sort of deal. After that, I head back home and hang out with my family for a bit.

But my dream keeps shifting on me. My family disappears and the apartment is under water, as if it was a sunken ship. I'm with a 'dream' friend and some cute little mouse like creature. Together we explored our sunken apartment and found some interesting items. Stuffed in a desk were these clay-like objects. I realized if you put them together they become explosive bombs.

So my logic was to lump the explosive clay parts together and watch them blow up from a safe distance. My new friend and the mouse creature seemed upset that I did that. I remember picking up the poor little frightened thing and hiding her in my friends pocket. I guess its time we find a way out of this sunken apartment. Maybe if we can create some sort of breathing apparitus while we float back up the top.

I looked around for whatever I could use. The place had of old plastic water bottles lying around. In real life I hate touching other peoples water bottles, it grosses me out. In the dream I imagined these bottles belonged to my sister and her husband, which also grossed me out. But I reasoned 'its not like im going to drink it'. I'm just going to hold the bottles upside down, let them bubble up the air inside and then use a straw as my scuba gear. It really sounded like it could work!

But then we hear someone outside the sunken apartment. It sounds like a really nasty gang. They're trying to break in! 'Quick, hide!'. My friend and the little creature in her pocket quickly run to other bedroom. The gang busts in, and seeing only me, they chase me out the sunken apartment. As I float up the water I can see the apartment really does look like a sunken liner in the bottom of the sea.

I fly out of the water to the pier but the gang is still chasing me. The pier was crowded and public and there were police about, I guess that mellowed out the gang. Instead they stood on the other side of the boardwalk and just name-called me.

Behind me I realize the crowded public wasn't any ordinary crowd. It was the largest protest I've ever seen. Consisting of thousands of angry occupiers. I started to read their signs. This must have been what Hans was telling me about earlier in the dream. I wanted to join them! It looks like they need help with all the police pressuring them to leave.

But my friend is still stuck on that sunken ship! I dive back down into the sea. The fire department was all over the place. I guess they were here because of those clay bombs I exploded earlier. They were trying to quarantine the place, either way they wouldn't let me through to the other side of the apartment. Behind me I hear a small squeaking noise. My friend and the small creature were hiding behind a box. Reunited, we dive back out and wake up.

After that I had a strange serious of false awakenings because I was so sleepy I couldn't really wake up.

August 3, 2013

recap: dreaming i cant sleep, v interrupts me, lock her out, lz sleeping over, weird apartment, allison has a cat tail

note: i woke up at about 4:30 to do a wbtb, stayed up for half an hour but then I couldn't fall asleep for over an hour, will not be doing wbtb when I work early in the morning

I just want to sleep!
Im tossing and turning in my bed just trying to get some sleep. My big sis L is sleeping over and I don't mind her in my room because she's quiet enough. But my other sis V, was being loud and annoying and wanted to join us. I kicked her out my room and locked both doors. My room has two doors? At some point I wake up and I realized it was all a dream. Which gave me some relief that I finally fell asleep. I look at my clock and see I have less than an hour to sleep.

I easily fall back asleep into the same 'dream'. I'm walking around the apartment now trying to make sense of why its different. The kitchen was in a separate room, that room was flanked on both sides with a living room and a hallway in the front of it. Making a U shape around the kitchen. I've never seen that layout before so it confuses me.

My niece is running around and she's as fluffy as kitty and her tail is just as long. As L combs her I try to remember when we first realized allison was different. When did she get that cat tail? She must have been born that way and everyone is okay with it. But then I start to have clear memories of my niece without fur and without a tail. Now Im confused and cant make heads or tails of it.

My 'dream' alarm rings and now its time to get ready for work. The time doesn't make any sense either. Based off my clock, I have to be at work in 5 minutes. Why would I give myself so little time to get ready and drive over there? Whatever. I start digging through my closet for something nice to wear. I find a baby-doll style t-shirt that I really liked, naturally its a shirt ive never seen before in my life. I think about how late I am for work and then I wake up.

I could have slept for two more hours.....

August 2, 2013

recap: ny, train ride, waiting for mom, phone call, night time, baggage, arrive in morning, austin, art show in industrial area, amazing paintings, paint door, no where to sleep, freaking out, call D, no help, call mom, no help, hyperventilate

notes: night before my cycle, didnt sleep well

Artist Without a Roof
Its a late night some where in NY, I'm talking to mom on the cell phone. She promises she'll take a flight and meet me soon, but she can't stay. She'll be flying back the same day. As we talk about the travel arrangements I'm trying to make sense of it. The time frames, the location, doesnt make any sense.

As mom instructed, I get ready to take the train for the next city - Austin, TX. In the dream NY and Austin were sister cities, sitting next to each other. At first I decided to leave my bags behind and that I'll pick them up after mom gets here. Wait, that literally makes no sense. Then I'll have to do two trips, waste time, waste money and who would watch over my bags?

Nevermind, I grab my bags and hop on the train. Its filled with other excited artists. We arrive at our destination, its magically day time.

A lady shows me around the austin gallery. It's a bunch of portables and other industrial type spaces turned into on-the-spot galleries. She showed me which one was mine. Just this ugly white metal building. But when she opens the door my heart skips a beat. It's filled with my paintings and 'new' paintings I've yet to make.

My own gallery space...My own gallery space..It was perfect! Just perfect! I literally broke into tears!

She quickly reminds me that the opening is tomorrow and that I'm running out of time to paint my door..Paint my door? I look around and see that all the other artists have graffiti'd their doors. !! I need to paint my door too!

But wait, I have no paint supplies? I gotta go to the store. But wait, I don't have a car? No wait, I don't even have money?

Then it dawns on me, I don't even have a hotel room yet!! Think think think. I call up D. At first the conversation was nice. 'D, were near each other! Come see my gallery tomorrow!'. D is further north than NY - but I'm in austin. The location weirdness starts to confuse me. Either way D sounds happy and agrees to see my gallery.

I change the subject 'I need a place to stay tonight. I'm near your parents right? Can I stay there tonight?' The phone goes silent. I start to beg 'I don't have a hotel room or any money, its just one night!'. The phone is still silent. I take a look. Either D hung up on me or the phone cut off.

What do I do? What do I do?

I call up mom, but she's not answering. I keep trying, the phone isn't going through. Now it feels like my whole world is falling apart. My door isn't painted. I'm running out of time. I dont know any of these artists! I don't have a place to stay tonight! What will happen? What will happen? If I go to a motel, my God I could be raped!

I start to hyperventilate - and then I wake up. I felt miserable for hours.

After thoughts: a lot of meaning in this dream considering the artsy events going on in my life now. The joy of the gallery space, the lack of a painted door (advertising) and all that lack of security and poor artist syndrome - yeah im feeling it

August 1, 2013

Goal: to remember every dream of the night, multiple dreamlets

Ranma 1/2
Ranma was about to face a tough opponent. He chickened out and didn't want to get hurt. Then Ukyo comes up with a great idea - go out as a girl. Ukyo splashes cold water on Ranma and pretties 'her' up. Ranma giggles and practices being seductive. Akane scolds him the whole time for being a pervert.

It's time for the fight. Ranma wears a seductive outfit and flirts with the opponent. The opponent collapses on the floor with a nose bleed. I thought the episode was fun but mostly I was dissapointed at how kiddy grade Ranma 1/2 is. So I put on a more adult version of Ranma 1/2. Two guys, best friends, one can turn into a girl, out in the woods. Its broke back mountain with a twist.

When my Boss stayed Over?
I had a false dream memory. The memory was a time when my old boss W stayed over at our apartment. This memory didn't make any sense to me and I questioned it the whole time. Why would someone like her stay at a craptacular apartment like ours? She seemed too high class to do that.

Then I started having more false memories trying to make sense of it. Like remembering that I cleaned up the place first - yeah right. Or remembering that she brought her own bed, naturally she wouldn't sleep on our couch.

Or maybe I got the memory completely wrong and it was only her son that stayed over. But that wasn't making any sense either. The only false memory that made any sense was that she came late at night - around 2am. This way none of the neighbors would see her shamefully stay at our place.

Either way, I was preparing the apartment because I had a feeling tonight would be the same.

A Pack of Kids
Later, I'm resting in my bedroom but there's a pack of kids harassing me. I guess mom is babysitting them and I want nothing to do with them! They keep running in and out of my room. (in real life my niece is staying over). I imagined them as a pack of annoying dogs, like labrador puppies.

Again, here they come running to my room. So I get on all fours and growl at them. Finally they got the message and stayed away.

Akira-Colonel-Meshed City
I had a short Akira dream, mostly it was about the Colonel being a fool who couldnt understand a teenager. The memory is too fuzzy now.

At some point I woke up and was going to jot down the dream, but I fell back asleep. As I was recalling the dream new dream scenes would appear in front of me. I vaguely remember Tetsuo running away in teenage angst, the city was already in ruins.

I retraced Tetsuo's steps "he must have run down this way!". I was pressed up against a chain link fence with the 'ruins' near inches away from my back. The 'ruins' was a jumbled up metallic mess, with sharp jabbing edges. The 'ruins' looked like the entire city went through a junk yard facility, compressed into an incomprehensible box. Either way I was trapped. I couldn't move an inch without the 'ruins' stabbing me.

Walking with a Stranger
I'm in the grocery store trying to recall my dreams. Some how I end up having a conversation with an older black man. I leave the grocery store and start walking with him down the street, just listening to his story. Something about his sister and mom. At that point I remember that I left my family blocks back in the grocery store. Maybe I should turn back? It seemed kinda awkward now, maybe I should just finish walking with him.

Note: Its around 7:30 now and the morning noise of my niece wakes me up. I remembered at some point in the night I tried to jot down my dreams but just fell asleep. This time I muster the effort to scribble, I fall back asleep after.

Team Evil-Naruto Mix
So, there was this evil bad guy, a guy like orochimaru mixed with sasuke. At one point in his life he was the most feared of all the bad guys, a master of all dark ninjutsu. Except now he's had some change of heart and totally sucks at anything dark.

And, the newly formed evil team has no idea that their sensei is a farse! What would they do if they found out he's a compelte softie? Kill him-worse? Fortunately his sister was also on the team and determined to save his reputation as the master of all dark ninjutsu.

The evil team members kept showing off their dark skills, powerful blasts that would incinerate or decapitate or disfigure or mutate. At one point the leader collapses from the dark attacks. The mutated team members stare curiously at their fallen leader, surely the leader of dark ninjutsu wouldn't be hurt from such a simple attack?

'of course not!' the sister quickly butts in and uses her own ninjutsu to make it appear as though her brother, the leader, is completely fine 'he didn't collapse, see he countered your skill by transforming!'

The group was satisfied and the leader's reputation was saved. The whole time I kept watching comical moments like this, with the sister coming up with all sorts of kooky excuses to save her brother, the orochimaru-sasuke mix.

Office Behind the Garden Gate
I decided to visit my former co-workers. Except the building I'm in doesn't resemble any previous job and I don't even recognize the employees. But I still tell myself I used to work here.

The retail area of the store looked like a supermarket. There was a large gate separating the retail side from the actual workspace, office side. It was a fancy iron gate, about 40ft long.

One of the guys flirts and chats with me, i tell him about my ranma dream, and he tours me around the retail side. Then one of the customer service ladies gripes that she's working all by herself! I go back to the office side, I can see why she's frustrated. Suddenly there's a horde of customers in front of her gate, but none of the employees are anywhere to be seen. And the phones won't stop ringing.

I remembered thinking that the factory crew out in the back used to make fun of the office side as being nothing but a bunch of whiners. But here I could understand her frustration. She tries to send me out there instead! No way! I don't work here anymore and I have no idea what to do anyways.

Mom Strips for the Science Lab
(she was belly dancing last night)
Mom is half naked, actually I don't remember why. I think she was getting ready but was running late and ran outside half dressed. I follow her trying to help finish getting ready. In a rush, she runs into some science laboratory, a huge museum like place. 'excuse me! coming through!'. She tried to conceal herself as she run past crowds.

We just need to find a door! Finally we run into a closet. Mom continues getting ready. I decide to get ready too. That's when I notice the closet has a camera. Someone is watching us and they're totally getting the wrong idea!

The security bust in and accuse us of doing all sorts of obscene things, perverts! My dream is fading out now - so I start to imagine how I would like it to end. I imagine that me and my mom sneak out using a food cart as a disguise. As I imagine that I walk around the museum trying to figure out which way our food cart would go.

'We'd go down this hallway, right out there to the front door!' When I looked out the window I easily floated towards it and right through it.

The museum was perched high on a cliff with an ocean waving below, it was a deep serene color. I was still drifting away without any control, simply gazing at those gentle deep waves below. I imagined that if my dream had more time I'd plunge in. I try to dive in but my dream is so floaty now I can't do much. I wondered if I would breathe under the water of I would experience my lungs taking in all that water, effectively drowning- then I wake up.

July 3rd, 2013

notes: more morning dreams

A Familiar Game
I'm playing a familiar game, except a life-size version of it. In the dream I feel I've played this game lots before. Something to do with collecting items before the monsters do, or before other players do.

Defeating the monsters was easy, they were already low hp because of other players. But why didn't those players grab the key?

I grab the key and head into the dungeon where I know I have to craft something before moving to the next level. But the dungeon is freaking me out - its - empty. No monsters. No players. Spooky quiet.

It was a while before I found the other players, who seem to be huddled up for the same reasons. Something about the game was off and freaking everyone out.

Katie
A strange sound right outside the living room catches my attention. The layout of the house harks back to my childhood home in long island. I peek out the window, woah! It was a massive pink parrot like bird, just huge!

"Look at that bird!!!"

But no one in the living room seemed interested. "Sis, are you seeing this!"

Sis calls out from her bedroom "yes, yes! its so pretty!". And she was. I looked at that pink bird and thought 'wow, you are so beautiful!'. Suddenly it noticed me and transforms into a winged girl. Her skin was still pink. Her eyes were like an owls, and her face plump and round and so was her whole body. She had angel curls.

"Woah"

I crack open the window, just a little bit and she flies down in front of me. Her smile was so soft. At first I was worried she bites or something, but that sweet smile. I open the window wider and stroke her face. "are you hungry?"

Sis races to the living room to see the bird girl. I try to feed the girl some candy but shes not interested. "Katie"

"Is that your name? Let me find you some snacks katie!"

I tried all sorts of things, but she wasnt interested in anything my pantry has. I figured maybe she eats fish or rodents like a bird. Me and sis go outside to play with katie. What a fascinating sight.

Katie is naked, appears to be about 4 years old, but talks as though she's older. Soft plushy wings, and taloned toes. She doesn't have any genitals, but does have a scar on her abdomen. A doctor trying to figure her out? Poor katie, she must have run away.

Sis kept making noise "ITS A BIRD GIRL! EVERYONE COME LOOK!" I dont think katie wants that kind of attention, I was so afraid she'd run away again. Katie shows me her dolly, a rabbit that's shaved to look like it has a pony tail.

"What a darling!" One of the neighbors asks if shes our daughter, but both me and sis deny it. I try to hide her wings when prying neighbors come by. Eventually Katie gets annoyed and puts on clothes to hide her gorgeous wings.

But she couldn't fool this strange man. "Katie, is that you?" He tugs on her jacket to reveal her wings "It is you!"

At this point my friend R steps out of the house. She doesn't seem surprised at all by katies sight. "Look R, its Katie!! i guess you'll have to dye your hair again because you know" he makes a gun gesture.

I realize he and R are former supernatural detective agents, and that R has had to change her appearance for what ever reason. My dream begins to fizzle out, but all I could think about when I woke up, was how much I loved katie.