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Lately, I've been having dreams involving embracing, kissing, and affection, mainly with women whom i cannot put a name to. I'm mainly thankful that these dreams do not seem to involve me ex, as my feelings for her remain strong and difficult to deal with. However, a dream that took place the other night stood out to me. I find myself in a strange building with many windows, accompanied by this girl I've been seeing lately. There are things that happen in this dream, but I cannot remember most of them. But I do vividly remember a particular instance, similar to how I remember things from my childhood. A girl who attended my high school makes an appearance. I always sensed that she liked me in high school, but I never made a move. In the dream, there seems to be a mutual level of attraction between us. We kiss in a room that has windows and is visible from another part of the house. Afterwards, I immediately am with the other girl I've been seeing in real life, and she confronts me about kissing the girl from my high school. I can't remember what I said, but whatever it was convinced her that my kissing this other girl was not a big deal, and she quickly forgives me. We embrace, and all between us seems okay. That is all I can remember. It seems as though I've been having dreams like this every night. Last night I was in an absurd situation with a blonde girl at a dinner table. I know there was a lot more to this one, but as usual, I cannot remember. I can't say that I do not enjoy these dreams, but I fear that soon my ex lover will enter them. If that occurs, I imagine I'd wake up with such pain and find myself in tears.

Was very excited! therefore i had some problems falling asleep for the first time and woke up very VERY often during the night with lots of dreams and fragments. one time i again had problems falling asleep because i refreshed strongly my intention and incubated my goals.

Summed up i had 4 fragments & 5 dreams plus 1 uneventful lucid (because pure stupidity...)

over 2 DIN A4 pages of notes... i will just write the lucid down:

i ride with "my" girlfriend [false memory...] with the train. we get out and move thru a street. a guy approaches us with a bike. he wears a sleeping mask and is therefore blindfolded. my so called girlfriend kicks him down from the bike. we continue our walk and a friend F joins.
we go into a side street to a back entrance of a house. F starts working on the door to open it and moves in. a big Persian metalpot in the size of a human [we have something similar at home for what ever reason...] stands infront of the entrance. i push it away and try to bypass it but it slide into a small hole in the ground and tilt on the side and breaks. there is stuff inside. i move around it and enter the building. here in the hallway i see some kitchenstuff like a stove and stuff. we approach a wardrobe and puf away our shoes and jackets.
i put of my shoes and wait. my "girlfriend" looks pissed and asked if i am already done. i answer yes and look down on me. i have my shoes on..... wait this has to be a dream. i do a nosepinch and i can breath without much problems but with a little snot in my nose. i look to my "girlfriend" and tell her this is a dream i can do my tasks now. she looks even more pissed. i try to kiss her but she denys it. i ask her what the problem is. is it because i got lucid/this is a dream or did i something wrong. she wont answer so i think it might be better to stay with the plot for some more time [omFg enormous ] i repeat i am dreaming every now and then to stay lucid [after like 3-5 repetitions i forget doing it and slowly my lucidty is fading...]. we enter a room i feel hungry and eat a little something. a guy is making premium pizzabuns with a special tomato witch is a tomato sweet pepper hyprid with a special name [he told me but i cant recall] and feta cheese. i ask him when they are ready because i am hungry and he answers they are done when they are done. i smile and turn around, talk to some other guy while carry a table over to another one. on the table are some whineglasses with whitewine. i talk with him about how we got here with a train blabla... and wake up

after waking i cant belief how i thought to follow this stupid plot because " so or so it is important so i can finish first and then do my tasks..."
this "girlfriend" is an EX girlfriend of mine. i cant belief how she could influence me with just a snooty pissy way...