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Just woke up from an afternoon nap that was a lucid dream + an almost astral projection event.

It was weird because during the time I was dreaming, I felt like I was having an OBE. I was in my bed still on my left side. I was shifting around and attempting to pull myself out of my body with an imaginary rope above me. I FELT MYSELF RISE but I could not see a damn thing.

After fluctuating between sleep and wakefulness or perhaps false-wakefulness, I finally managed to find myself in what was a clearly a lucid dream - in my bedroom. The irony was that the lucid dream was not clear and 'clarity now' didn't really work out too well. The dream kept fading in and out because I wanted to explore but the DREAM-SCENE WOULD NOT LOAD FULLY. If that makes sense. It was like a poor visualization.

I did however get to accomplish my dream goal of seeing the moon in the night sky; just a small goal to confirm that I can control the dream scene somewhat. I went inside a house next to me just to see what the dreamworld would load up for me.

It was blurry and hard to move to say the least.

Now for the big part, the induction technique:

All I did was just lay in bed relaxed as possible with a clear mind.

Yup, that's it. WILD with breath as an anchor.

In other words, I lie there and make sure that MY FOCUS IS ON MY BREATH. Any weird thoughts from the day? Back to the breath. Textbook meditation I believe. Hynagogic Imagery/Thoughts/Sounds and other foolishness that was distracting? BACK TO THE BREATH.

Until I felt 'The Transition' which was the weirdest shift of consciousness I have ever felt. I have no words for it other than it felt like mind was getting twisted and squished. When I was in the dream world, I tried my best to keep a clear mind by focusing on the dream world via my senses.

The focus on something external has - for me at least - keep my mind quiet and aware. I reckon this is most likely why SSILD worked so well for me because the focus on external stimuli quiets the mind down from chatter and other non-sense. I am no master of meditation, but this is just my guess. I am still in pursuit of the goal to have a lucid dream at least 5 nights a week of better length and quality.

On a side note, during the process of having random gibberish thrown at me to let me know I was falling asleep. I gently asserted that none of the information was real so I wouldn't get sucked into a non-lucid dream. Then I returned back to the breath as best as I could.

This is going to be my technique going forth.

First dream

It was a dark and unusually grim day. I was in my house, wondering if we're still friends with my best friend. I decided to leave my house. Suddenly I got teleported to an endless corridoor with doors on one side - I had a feeling that I'm in hell. Each door teleported me to different places, until I finally got to heart of darkness and destroyed evil. I grabbed everything that I could to good use except for one, most important thing.

Second dream

I was in some strange abandoned factory with some people. There were enormous reservoirs with some liquid fuel. We were closed down there and had to find a way out. Suddenly huge flames burst out of reservoirs. I had to find a way out before the whole place would explode. I decided to find a controll room that was buried under debris. I dug my way to the controll room, but there was nothing that I could use. I found a huge, humanoidal monster with gray skin and blue eyes instead. To defend myself I grabbed a chainsaw and tried to cut the monster, but it wasn't even scratched by it. With other people we escaped to an enormous ladder and tried to climb up one of reservoirs. Two people got up, I was almost there but monster smashed the ladder with great force. I grabbed edge of reservoir, but I haven't had enough strength to climb up. I asked for help, but no one wanted to help me.

Key:
Notes
Non-Lucid
Half-Lucid
Lucid
Nightmare

Mission

Me and the other survivors were on a roof of a building, talking to some guys in CIA clothing about a mission. A guy asks "how many of you are there?"
This girl replies "12."
The CIA guy says "But there is only 12 of you."
Some guy replies "She graduated early."
Then we run into the building, it looks like a giant maze. The Mission you cannot get caught, this is my first attempt.
A Guard saw me, so I ran at him at broke his neck. Then I grab another guard as a body shield for some reason he isn't yelling for help. A Third Guard saw me so GAME OVER.
I respawn and get caught by the first guard this time without attacking him.
My Third Attempt: I get past the First Bodyguard and use Second Bodyguard as a bodyshield. That dream ended there.

Easter Egg

Me and 3 friends were doing some easteregg at this waterpark like map. We would have to go down water/normal slides, which each had some animal in the water slide. One had birds, one had Spiders and one had maggots.
After that we respawn at the beginning of the map, and we got one hour for meltdown. The map starts to break apart, green ooze which is probably deadly coming out of the ground, weird things come out of the ground that look like Valkyrie Drones from Gorod Krovi.
This one girl says "I'm out." she leaves so it's up for me and my 2 other friends to finish it which I'm assuming we fail because this next dream scene.
We go up the stairs, you can see things on the door which are silhouettes of animals which I remember two of them: Cat and Bird.
Once we reached upstairs we were in a music classroom, it looked like the one I had from my Elementary School and Middle School, combined. I talk to two of the three friends that we attempted the easter egg, I tell them "we should try it another time." I think the Easter Egg of that Waterpark map is a Four-man one.

Crazy Lady

I was in a Crazy Lady's house, she wouldn't let me leave.

AND HIS NAME WAS-

Homer and Marge Simpson was driving, they were listening to a song which was a Young Woman singing "John Cena~" over and over. That was the whole song, and dream that dream was 20 minutes long.

Weird dreams last night, I guess my streak of remembering dreams broke. See you tomorrow (maybe)

+ I'm turning off and on some electronic security attached to a desktop computer system outside at a "fair". I'm inserting a USB flash drive into the USB slot of the computer. Later I'm inserting the entire drive into a door into the front side of the computer and I think this is really convenient because you can store the USB drive inside without risk of breaking off the attachment. You can retrieve it from the other side.

+ standing outside in a backyard garden. There is a pineapple plant on the ground mostly gone, just the bottom portion remains, I slice off a portion to eat and a massive cloud of hundred/thousands of fruit flies buzz up around my face, so thick I can feel them as I swat them away. The owner of this yard comes up and is really angry that I'm eating his plant, he picks a second plant which was still growing, and hands it to me sarcastically, saying "here, why don't you eat this one, too!?". I tell him he shouldn't have done that. I see now that I'm several yards away from my own yard and feel a bit bad about eating this guy's pineapple, I say I'm sorry several times.

+ I'm walking outdoors at the foot of a steep tall hill right next to me. There's a large square-shaped mansion nearby and I start scaling the front wall which is made from bricks. The facade of the house quickly becomes an impassable overhang, and I'm hanging off of the wall with one hand holding and looking up and trying to see a way forwards, but I can't. Then I'm floating/flying up along the side of the house, this is (Ronnie Lott's? Some famous 49er or football player)'s house, someone is criticizing him for quitting but I think it's fine to retire. I'm concerned about flying too high over the roof line because there may be automated gun turrets up there, I see tons of security cameras on the walls. There is a neighboring mansion that also has a lot of security cameras. I'm flying and I'm gaining altitude, and I head towards the flat roof top of a house nearby. I land and get a good running start and take off again.

I land in my CH bedroom, I'm crouched down next to the wall along the hallway, and there's a small cabinet with containers there. I pour myself a glass of white wine. There are several opened bottles of white wine, with just a little bit of wine left in them, with the corks sticking out of the top. I see my glass of wine sitting on the floor, the wine is a light amber color. My (dad?) comes and wants some of the tomato sauce (for his cracker?). The bottles are sitting in the little cabinet/shelf thing on the floor. I notice that many of the bottles have loose tops. One looks like an unopened bottle. Bottle after bottle which I open is spoiled, there's lots of mold in the sauce. I toss several of the bottles in the trash. My dad says he really wants some of that sauce. I get the bottle which I think was unopened but it's also spoiled and moldy. He starts to dip his cracker in a particularly moldy bottle where the sauce is solid green colored from the mold.

+ I'm standing in a medium-sized square room with GS friend NM. I'm staring at the walls: they are all painted with brick-shaped patterns in many differnt colors but mostly various shades of blue. There are multiple different patterns along a single wall, one pattern area fading into another, 3-4 patterns along the wall, and I'm trying to figure out which one was the real/original pattern, N says something about this.
N says "remember that huge table?" and I do [FALSE], it's a really large rectangular wooden plain-featured dining table. I "remember" how we fit 10 (20?) huge pizzas on that table during some party.

+ Outside daylight in some suburban driveway, [DO], observing a (mother and daughter?) how they leave the driveway and drive away on the road on some large inflatable water mattress. The mother gets on top, and the daughter crouches down on the side of it in the water (which fills the street). The girl then presses a button on a small wheel set into the side of the mattress, which then starts rotating, which drives the mattress forwards down the street, with the girl holding on and getting pulled along with it. I [DO] follow. The mattress soon enters the main street downtown, which has been shut down for the summer, closed to car traffic, and covered with inflatable jump house (inflatable raft) material, inflated, and covering all the street from curb to curb and extending forwards all the way down the street. The woman's raft "jumps" up on top of the street/raft base, and continues going forwards, the wheel moving it fairly slowly. I drift along [DO] behind it, observing the downtown. It is deserted for the summer, nobody is around. I look into little burger stands/restaurants which we pass wondering if they're open, don't see people inside.

At the end of the street we reach a water park and enter. The road is a driveway that curves upwards and to the left. There is wording embedded on the ground that "<some place> sucks". Some guy says something about "marketing" which should be ignored because it's not sponsored by the water park. I approach the swimming pool (which is on a slope?) and enter the water. There are various groups of women/girls around and I approach near some of the girls checking them out but moving on. I get out and go to some (dressing?) area where one of the girls (naked?) is eating a snack and looking at something, and I think about getting a snack from my locker. Then there's a guy there who I "remember" I owe some money to, might as well pay him now, I get out my wallet and pick through it, find a $100 bill and hand it out to him. I keep looking through the wallet but there are not many bills left in there now.

WBTB, read for 1.5 hours, some drowsiness returning
BTS

Took a long time getting back to sleep, sinking slowly into relaxation, doing DY (lotus, Ah) visualizations, relaxing breathing, relaxing SSILD. Start several times to get images appearing, noise in room distracts, but I tenaciously hold on to drowsiness and eventually return to sleep and dreaming.

there were quite a lot of dreams but as per usual for > 8 hours after bedtime, recall is vague, except for a few moments which really stand out vividly.

+ guys & sex demonstration:

Spoiler for yucky sexual content. ew.:

I'm next to some guys who are talking in great detail about male anal sex. There is one guy leaning over a bench sticking his naked butt out. There is a knowledgeable guy there who's mentioning the various sensitive spots inside. He's giving advice. Then he takes his erection and tries to stick it in the other guys' butt. I'm amazed that he's really going to do that.

+ I'm lying face-down & naked on a raised boardwalk with gaps between the boards where I place my (ahem). People are gathering in an adjacent field and there are some people in a building across the field, I wonder if they'll see me.

+ I'm coming down a ladder, speaking in a convincing fake southern accent several times (belated day residue from Orange is the New Black?)

+ lying on mats outside with several people, I look up and see 3-4 small birds like sparrows hovering right above us, I sit up, one bird lands on my mat and gets huge like a vulture, has a humanish/dolphinish round head, I'm concerned about catching some disease from it and shoo it off my mat

19.08.2016

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Nonna is my late grandma, she passed away from cancer April 2015.

I was in my Nonna's apartment. We were in her bedroom sorting through her stuff, organizing her room. I missed her a lot, but she seemed happy. We found a golden bracelet and she gave it to me. She said she had been keeping it for me and that it would help me find my way.
I remembered someone had died, but couldn't remember who. I thought it was my Nonna's sister. I hugged her tight.

The details are a bit vague. I'm travelling, though I'm mostly just seeing a map top-down. It's vaguely like the view of the old Pokemon games. I'm travelling in my city in Indonesia at first. The map is incomplete. It's cut off at the left and right. Eventually the map does change and I travel some more I guess. At one point I'm able to see Manila on the map. On the map, it is below my city and it's quite small. In the dream, people have told me that it is not really a special city and it's quite small. Still, I wanna see it, just so I can say that I've been to the Philippines. When I look at the map again, the location has changed. It is now somewhere way further down and it's a tiny island. It's just north of an area called the Spanish Antilles. There's an area called the Spanish Antilles? I guess that makes sense, the ABC islands do have a Spanish ring to them. But no.. those are the Dutch Antilles.