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I dream I am at work sourcing many assemblies. C is there asking me to work all night and all weekend and says they will pay me for two weekends. I say no way. I am tired. I get really sleepy and fall asleep at the desk.
I wake in the source room. There is a bed. S and L are there. I am somehow using S bed but I also associate it as her desk. I feel awkward about it. S and L are talking to me like no big deal. I feel so sleepy still but make myself sit up. I tell them I need to just go home.

*Partially awake*

Watching some version of Star Wars. It looks extra high defection. I think this is odd. Then it goes to a scene with an obvious green-screen background.

*partially awake* Thinking about how odd is was that portion of a dream could be so HI-DEF. Reminds me of some conversations on DV about that. Lucid dreaming....

I am walking into some sort of public restroom with some guy and woman. I see a full body mirror. I am still thinking of lucid dreaming. I practice some visual awareness and remind myself how wierd mirrors and get in dreams. At that moment everything is the mirror get all wavy and out of focus. I become fully lucid.

I become very happy and excited. I turn and see the woman. She is not all attractive. I don't know who she is. I ask her what we are doing. I say LUCID DREAMING!. She doesn't talk. I knew I had a goal but cant remember. For some reason I slap one of her boobs. Then that starts something but I quickly push her away. I say I don't want to waste dream time with this. She says something about how she wants me so bad but I tune her out and walk away saying, NOOOOOPPE!

I am walking down a hallway. I see a boy with harry potter looking glasses. I rub my hands together to increase vividness. The dream is pretty solid but I want to maintain. I pat the boy on the cheeks and say "hey buddy" he doesn't respond so I move on. I take in the detail of the dream. Very vivid still. The hallway has such bright red carpet with gold trim running down the hallway. I continue walking.

The hallway morphs into an outdoor courtyard. I see a girl walking toward me. I'm not particularly interested but then I notice a flutter. When I focus on her she has morphed into at bright red bird. She flies to a ledge on the adjacent building. I call out to the about about the girl that became a bird but he's not around. It's dark now but I ignore that. I call out to the girl/bird and ask her to come back. She ignores me. I try to fly up to her but I quickly fall down and land on my face. I laugh at that. No pain. I can't see the bird now and the dream is becoming very unstable. There is a sign on the building like a black twitter symbol. I call out again. I see a brown sparrow fly away with some grass in its beak. I think this is her but the dream is crashing and going black. I decide to let it go and wake up so that I will remember the dream.

Here's my first post in this dream journal. I don't know how consistent I'll be posting on here as I'm always so busy or low on energy. I do keep my own notes of dreams. But I'll try and write something for the most interesting ones.

At the end of a long dream that involved my mother driving around with me and at one point my grandmother ISTR, I ended up apparently waking up in a bedroom which actually looked like the room of one of my school friends from my childhood. I was looking at my watch as I knew I needed to get up early for an appointment today (as I did in my waking life) but it turned out to be a false awakening. When I looked at the analogue watch it was hard to make out the time, as I couldn't make out what numbers the hands were pointing to, and when I looked harder I noticed a second smaller clock face in the middle of the watch but it didn't have its own hands so the little hand was pointing to numbers on that smaller face. A bit like a chronograph watch but making much less sense.

I probably missed another chance to get lucid here as looking at your watch a couple of times and looking for changes or oddities is a classic reality check!

The stuff about my mother I think is to do with my brain processing a desire to help her, to see her again (it's been a bit too long), and I get the sense that all this driving around might be stressful or tiring for her and I wanted to drive the car for her but wasn't insured to do it and wished I was. She never let me drive her car so I guess my subconscious wanted me to feel more respected and empowered, even a control thing. Wow. Freud would have a field day.

Didn't take any L-theanine, only took 500mg L-tryptophan, and BOY what a difference! Poor sleep (LOOONG wakeful period about 4:30-7 or longer), no dreaming, until miraculously I was able to fall asleep between around 7 and 7:30, and had some dreams, which I remembered fairly well, especially the ones closer to waking. But fairly weak, low awareness, presence generally low

+ observing two girls (in a park?) by a fence, a young girl and her older late teen sister. I have some eye contact with the older sister, briefly. Then another woman lies near them. I have a vague view of the older girl's and the woman's privates. My [deceased 1st] wife goes to take a closer look at them. I think they're gypsies. MEO

+ back inside my home, I'm doing something (reading?) when earlier wife comes in and asks me to do something, to which I feel irritation, but then our sons (as young boys) both enter the room and this alleviates the need to do anything / get up and I feel relief.

+ I'm walking outside on a path (snowy?) pass by two young women walking. I glance to the right and see a rectangular (black) sleeping bag laid out on the ground on a spot I think where people sleep. I arrive to a place where I'm looking for son S1, he's supposed to be doing something productive (studying?) but instead I see him peek out from around a wall where I know he's playing on the computer instead.

Later I'm walking and hear S1 screech and think he's cut his arm very badly, and is bleeding. I come up to him, he's seated with his back to me, and he is cradling his (right?) arm like it's hurt. I do not see any wound.

+ I'm inspecting a low garden fence [DS, inspecting an object closely] and thinking about its construction. The front is a bit weather-beaten and rotting, while on the back side, where it's open and you can see the construction, the wood seems in good shape. It is constructed by a bunch of vertical rectangular wooden boards all bound together. A section farther on is a combination of brick, mortar and wood, and the seam between the brick and wood is badly done and the brick part wobbles loose if you touch it. I wonder about the good wooden part, how it's not rotten if it's been exposed to the rain for a long time.

Then son S2 is digging around in a box around the brick area and a very large insect emerges, I think at first it's a pill bug, that sort of big and scary bug, but it gets bigger and crawls out, and I end up bashing it with a stick or something and it deflates and is stunned, the texture like a partially deflated mylar balloon. Son S1 and I get close to look at it and I see a head of a rabbit, and I think & say that this was a zombie bug that infected the rabbit. We have now to put the rabbit out of its misery, I'm squeamish and get son S1 to do it, I think he'll have to cover it with a blanket and stomp on its head to kill it, but I think that this will spray its guts all over the place and be very messy.