FryingMan

A dip in recall is impacting my goals, bleah!

1/20 LDs in May

Need to really catch up!

early:

+(f) eating chunks of cooked turkey, it's a bit pink/under-cooked.

+(f) playing basketball, go up for a layup, unimaginably I miss, then I do a almost dunk by hanging on the rim and pushing the ball through the hoop

+(f) fly into a room (with a Christmas tree?)

+(f) train on an elevated track?

+ in former adult home in CA (PTL), I'm standing with my wife in our dining room and I'm examining the ceiling. I see a rectangular large wet stain on the ceiling which I think indicates that the roof is leaking. I look around the ceiling and find other dry areas that are discolored and look like former leaks.

We go into the garage and I'm looking through the roof and through a translucent plastic tarp and I see gaps in the roof through which I see the green leaves of trees outside. I point these areas out to my wife. We go outside and I see the holes in the roof and I point them out to her, "there, do you see it?" Yes, she finally seems them. I wonder about the cost of repairs: $5,000 for a new roof, how much will this cost?

OK I'm officially in the recall waning portion of my dreaming cycle.

+(f) with ToZi, sharpens the "pencil" which becomes a small exacto knife blade on the paper, shreds of paper fly into the air, the knife is super sharp, cut/bleeding stubble on cheek.

+(f) with wife, we're approaching the trouble-making women ahead, I tell her (wife) not to go looking to start trouble [DAY RESIDUE]

May goal: 1/20 LDs

bedtime 11pm ish. Family drama in the evening, hooray, that always kills dreaming for the night.

+ (impression) something about mailing a package

+ I enter into a room, it's a party in a house (mine?) where people are eating pizza everywhere. In the kitchen? The pizza is plain cheese but with a nice crunchy crust that looks really good (I eat some?). I'm fiddling with plates of different foods on a counter and a guy comes up and while I'm cutting an apple tart thing he says s.l. "will there be any entrees left for me?" I cut the tart into 4 pieces instead of just two and say "see, here's something for you."

+ We're going on a tennis vacation. My former lesbian manager and her girlfriend [TRUE] are going and they're good at tennis [FALSE] and are taking their rackets. Should I take mine? This is really bugging me I don't know if I should take my racket and play them. Would I play them Australian doubles or just 2-on-1 or one at a time? I suppose I could just go there and rent a racket on-site, right?

+ some kids (dirty, from poverty-stricken homes perhaps) are scrambling by me. One of them climbs into a mobile plastic medium-sized dumpster. I close the lid on him as a joke. Then I feel bad and open it.

+ I'm sitting at a table with friends [FALSE] when a jumpy little black guy (seems like Chris Rock) comes up and tries to get me to participate in his money game on his tablet. I remember [FALSE] that he tried this before so I decline. Another friend of mine declines. The third accepts, and taps a picture on the tablet, and wins like $50. Then he taps the middle picture and wins several hundred dollars. Then he taps the bottom button and wins like $23,000,000 dollars. CRAP, that could have been ME I think. The game guy will split the money with the guy who played. That's still quite a lot of money.

Well, with all that money, might as well enjoy some drinks. I try to think of and order the most expensive drink of all time [FALSE]. And I get frustrated that I can't think of it or remember its name. It is some mixed drink with a lot of ingredients. "It has the most expensive vodka, and the most expensive..." and I can't remember the kind of alcohol I'm trying to think of at first..."oh yeah, most expensive Scotch." The waitress goes off to consult with management about this drink I'm talking about. After a while she comes back and I've moved position at the table, and she places down about 3-4 "drinks" in front of me that are in containers like diner salt and pepper shakers.

+ (f) I'm sitting with a male midget on my lap, and I rest my hand on his leg which is on top of mine. I think he actually may not like that.

May LDs achieved / goal: 1 / 20

Most of my recall is from the time after WBTB. There was some vague stuff earlier but I did not focus on it.
edit: recalled earlier dream:
+(f) I'm in LL park (down the hill from CH, not my main park, went there rarely), and there are people there (hippies), and a sign up about how hippies created this park (and how it's for hippies?), they're talking about this

I woke around 5 hours (it was already pretty light) and had trouble returning to sleep: active mind, fantasizing, thinking about things. Started to feel a bit sorry for myself, but decided more wakefulness is good, that it leads to lucidity. All I had to do was return to sleep, and I'd get lucid. After a couple of stalled attempts at relaxation I finally dedicated myself to it and got back to sleep and dreamed.

+ I'm sitting in my CH living room on the floor in front of a chair. Long-time colleague MWP is here, and I feel a bit uncomfortable that I didn't invite him to my birthday party last time even though I usually invited him in the past [FALSE]. I turn to my left where an open camping backpack is and I deal out some cards for a game of solitaire. I have about a 4x4 grid of cards laid and and begin to "play" when all the cards lose their grip against the backpack material and all fall out of position down to the bottom of the pocket. "I hate solitaire" I say. I thumb through the cards and look at one in more detail, it is not right, I can't make out either the card's face or it's back. It becomes larger and more colorful, like a multi-colored stained glass "joker" card.

Then the scenario changes to a board game, with this large joker marker and a large ("Oscar" award-sized) statue and a narrator is describing the rules of the game "you have to guess who the (thief?) is"... (don't remember more, or transitions at this point).

+ A series of short scenes:

I'm outdoors and thinking about the experience of the athletes in the recent Russian winter Olympics and how they were saying they really enjoyed the snow, and I see some snowy hills. There are booths nearby, like for outdoor restaurant seating, and at one of them a woman has a scarf/coat draped over the back of her booth and it falls down and gets in my way, I pick it up and put it back on the booth back, she doesn't notice it, and a man (I think her husband?) also rearranges it.

Turkish car rental trick: a narrator is describing that the authorities will be notified: the trick is, if you rent a car in Turkey, you can enter other countries for just a few days for free without any visas. The tour operator is saying "it's the best deal, cheapest way to travel". I see a brochure that clearly has "Turkish" written on the cover along with some other stuff. But what people do instead is they overstay the allowed period, using the rental car policy as a way to illegally remain in a country.

Outdoors daylight at my childhood home (CH) bus stop a bunch of other people get off, including a girl in a short/tight dress and her younger brother, she has to maneuver one leg up and over a barrel and when she does I think I get a flash of her hairy pubic region. This gets my attention and my eyes follow her as she walks away down F towards the LH, I realize she's a bit chubbier than I like.

I'm walking back towards some people seated by the sliding glass door in my CH dining room. I'm specifically going to the dead woman who is seated there to thank her for her earlier assistance (!?!?). She is seated with crossed legs and her hands are folded on her legs in front of her. I lean down and put my hand on top of hers and say sincerely, "Thank you!". I'm a bit surprised when she stands up facing me very close. She's dead but I don't seem to mind, she has no eyes, basically empty brownish slits (or just very small eyes). I realize she's tall. She's as tall as I am or maybe a tad even taller. I say this. I reach up my hand and try to compare the tops of our heads to see who's taller. She's standing really close to me and is obviously interested, I'm feeling very turned on by this. I maneuver her towards the living room so I can grab her butt and pull her against me, it feels really good. I ask her in a sexy voice, "do you want to come outside with me?" She indicates yes. I then whisper some dirty talk into her ear about what I'm going to do to her.

I'm arriving at some registration place with my wife and kids. There are two places, and I remember [FALSE] that the 2nd place line is shorter and/or moves faster, so we go there. I end up needing to register by myself, and I realize I don't have all my documents with me. I need to write (or I see) a driver's license number that I think I recognize as my new driver's license number, a string of letters and digits starting with "C" (at least one 4 in there). I'm moving back to my (wife?) who's at the counters and as I do I realize my shorts have severely bunched up in my butt crack and I'm trying to to the "shaking side step" and reaching back there to pull them out but nothing I do helps they stay wedged in there. I end up leaving the place riding away looking backwards behind me in a speed boat with some hot girls around me.

+ LD #183
I arrive outside CH at night on the street, I'm standing by the stairs to the front door, I see down to my left that there is a car in the garage. In the sky I see bright stars and constellations [completely "normal", nothing spinning or moving like sometimes happens], and I get a sinking feeling when I realize that I came home without my car, that I left it at the registration place. (If my wife learns that I came home without the car I think will realize I left with the girls?).
I'll just have to go back and get it I decide. I can fly there. I wonder if I can fly and I take off flying and
realize I'm dreaming. I see my dream arms stretching out in front of me and notice the perspective is a bit odd. I'm flying up the hill and want more speed and will myself to fly faster but do not go faster. I'm flying over the driveway to some house heading for trees and the owners turn in to their driveway behind me (see the headlights on the trees?) and I resolve to fly faster. I do a "flap" with my arms as against water doing the breaststroke and this propels me faster through the air. OK, if that 's what it takes. I flap a few more times and this gets me going at medium speed which is much more to my liking. I'm expecting to see the former registration area (in the park?) up ahead and indeed there it is. There is a guy sitting at a picnic table slumped over my backpack and I pull it away from him anticipating a fight but he doesn't start one.

Spoiler for sexy time, explicit:

I sit on the picnic table and direct a nearby DC to come and give me a BJ. I spend a bit of time trying to balance attention between the action and the dream, and things stay stable but it's not all that great, so I move on. At another table I find a female toy/doll about the size of a pez dispenser and start getting a BJ from that. It's way too small (and alive? I think it said something) so I reach down and stretch it in order to make it larger and it works and now its mouth can fit over my (ahem). I notice there are some "real" girls sitting at the table leaning over and watching, there hands are stretched out reaching to me and I think woohoo here we go and I move to them and reach to them to bring them to me and

my wife wakes me up IWL so we can get ready. Argh!

Bedtime: nice and early, approximately 11pm for finally settling down to sleep
tons and tons of wakings throughout the night. 6-10 it felt like, each time with very

VPAL: vivid, present, alternate-life dreams.

First waking: just impressions, no recall. No recording during the night, maintaining a mental list as I go on each waking, reviewing the list.

early wakings:
+(f) twilight, observing (seeing through walls, or glass walls) into 3 side-by-side 2nd floor apartments, I'm going to rob them?
+(f) fighting (tank?) force, outside
+ (impression, not sure) in CH, flying, animals?

later:
+ (super VPAL) in the home of friends [FALSE]
Setting the table, where are the knives? Get them from the pantry, their style does not match the style of those already on the table

Lighting the fire in the living room: "devil matches", leading the initial flames towards the fuel by stringing along paper, etc. towards the wood.

"Play" wrestling with the huge/strong man of the house in the kitchen, he's tossing me around easily, I say "watch out, I have hernia! [referring to back]", then I start
fighting back and manage to get a hold on him, I think using Jiu Jitsu [FALSE].

Walking in the living room, observe the fire box (sealed metal large lockbox on a pedestal in a bowl, perforated sides can see through to see the fire inside). I see my dad chilling in the corner in a recliner talking with someone

In a room away from living room, some ugly lesbians come and I'm looking between groups of girls showing some boobs, but it's not attractive they're misfigured

Back in the living room sitting on the couch someone whom I think at first is a small girl but turns out later to be a midget college girl

+ walking through enchanted forest, glowing colors visible the (wolf guy?) will answer all

+ live tribes game: no weapons work, each one does not fire: chaingun, etc. I'm struggling with opponent to occupy the inventory station location, he manages to get a hold there and put a turret. I hurry in to the station I know he's close behind me, hurry hurry hurry! I'm frantically trying to switch to heavy armor so that I can withstand his attacks, I get an impression that the boomstick in light armor is a weapon that will work.

+ riding the glass-walled elevators: it used to be much more convenient when you could call out the name of the person you want to see and the elevator would go there. We ride to a (picnic?) place with food, people

late:
+ eggs raining down on me from TZ, one lands right in front of my left eye, I'm in a car, I fly up to them

+ fight: me and son [FALSE] as a team against another team, we must touch a key to two pads on a platform against opponents, I toss my son up to the platform with the key he touches the pads, we return and throw the key to the referee. Then fight opponents: applying bone-breaking force to legs, ankles, I'm teaching son to do this, I find the correct angle of force against his leg and the opponent yields. Then my son tries with the toe of an opponent, he bends the little toe a full 90 degrees it looks gross, he stops because he does not want to continue.

Looking for something (keys?) in a shelf full of equipment, keys, and tools, these are my sons's things.

+ old friends #1
In a group talking, I notice one of the guys there is CL [college friend WFP], and I say, "C!". He doesn't answer or acknowledge me. He looks quite old, but his face is somewhat recognizable. He is mostly bald with a sparse ring of hair running around his head. I try to get his attention but he is not responding to me, I realize this is because of the rift I had with his (now) wife before they were married. I start telling this story. I have some trouble with remembering events. After I left city-S, I returned to B in order to....go to graduate school [FALSE, finished it in S]. This goes on for a while

+ old friends #2
(in CH living room), I turn around and see MR [boy scout PL], he also looks old and not quite how I remember him but I know it is him. I also see his young son with him. I call out "M!" and go to him and give him a single strong pound on the back (makes a thumping sound) with a big hug. I'm talking about some things, and towards the end I hear my sister say "I heard you say that there are no prostitutes or whores in Amsterdam"

+ Job interview #1
I'm at SGI interviewing for a job. The people (young guys and girls) are quite pleasant, this would be a good place to work.

+ Job interview #2
I've been brought to a competitor's company for an interview. I feel a bit funny about being here. I see the guy who I used to work with, he's the one who invited me here, he's sitting at a computer working. If I came to work here I could earn a lot of money, they're going to be very successful (lots of talk about their product), but I realize I'd have to work really hard here. While I'm looking around I see one guy's large computer screen and I'm fascinated with what I see there. I can't quite figure out what is going on on this guy's screen and I keep watching. Images and text move across the screen quickly in different directions. I eventually decide that it is some sort of animated map application. Later on there is a 3-D construction made of computer PCBs with little tickets of some sort that fall off and I'm trying to pick up the tickets, I can take them with me but I won't be taking the construction.

+ Job interview #3
I'm interviewing for a job at Google. I have a female interviewer contact. There are other interview candidates and it is sort of a contest. We have to figure out a lot of things about Google products, all of which seem to be food items on refrigerator shelves. One guy is upset (he's Muslim?) at having to find out about non-Halal food items. I'm getting quite chummy with my interview contact girl. I'm sitting at a table with a row of computers and she is sitting on my left. I think she wants me to come on to her. I get bold and start rubbing her back. She blushes furiously and slouches down in her chair so I can't reach her back any more. I decide that this means that she does not like the contact. I notice her dress (red and white? Floral?) and her bare legs in this slouched position. OK, since she doesn't want my advances, I turn my attention to the job interview. I get a bit nervous that I've blown the interview by making a pass at her, and that this will ruin all my chances forever for a Google job since she'll tell everybody about what I did. I get up and say, "OK, tell me what I need to know and learn about these products." But there is now a guy next to the girl [RW the g v player sister friend] and he is looking at me severely, they've traded places so he is sitting next to me and the girl is standing at the end of the table so I can't reach her now. He (she?) says "you had your chance to go around earlier and talk to people, but instead you were focusing on Gina's (the girl) wardrobe."

+ [long] fencing fight, fencing instructor, what kind of epee handle type should I use, straight or pistol grip? I see the grip clearly in my hand, I'm holding the straight grip (which is slightly twisted). The instructor points out that the pistol grip has a way for you to really wrap your hand around the handle, this I know. He points out that there is however a metal piece on the front of the straight grip that guards the hand/fingers, I do see this now as well. Then I fight/spar with an opponent who is also a student I think of the instructor. He is belligerent towards me. We trade fist blows. I hold back a little bit, not putting my full strength into the blows. He becomes disgusted with the fight, I'm confused. I ask him, "Do you want me to hit you as hard as I can?"

+ the girls are running away. I (or am I DO?) am chasing them and I can see right where they go because I am The Flash and can move at infinite speed. It is along a concrete sidewalk with sidewall, with little opportunity to hide. I go look where I think they should be, despite this, they disappear.

+ I have a piece of paper in front of me that I'm taking notes on. At one point I play a few notes on a keyboard and it sounds magical. It's an amazing, beautiful, simple phrase. A guy I'm with says "hey that sounded really good!" I immediately want to capture it on the paper: I hastily scribble down on the right margin of the paper, about half-way down the page the word "Interlude". Then I try to recreate the notes again on the keyboard in order to write them down. The rhythm I can recreate exactly but I can't find the exact notes. I try several times and the general tonal pattern is correct but it still isn't quite right.

A woman (wife? mother?) expels a bit of gas and comments on the bad smell.

+ plane landing
I'm flying an airplane, and I have a top-down view of an overhead map. There are several landing strips for airplanes, marked as such including the direction of landing approach. I choose a smaller one because it is more challenging to land there. I have quite a lot of altitude which I must lose quickly, so I begin circling the landing area. I pitch and roll the plane with keyboard controls to put the plane into a spiral, sometimes the roll is too much and I almost go upside down but I recover. Circling, I lose altitude to get ready to land. Then the controls stop working my plane is entirely locked up and won't respond, it'll crash, oh well I can just start another game.

+ cat attack
Outside among high rocky cliffs, a house cat attacks me and latches on to my face, I'm jumping around trying to pull it off

+ sexy birthday party
It's my birthday party. Lots of people around me are having sex. I'm scared to engage with a girl because I think I won't be able to perform, the girl would be frustrated with a guy who can't function. I get very frustrated and yell out "I hate f^&*ing birthdays!"

+ bright colors, leaking pens, bathroom observers
In (parents bedroom of CH?), there are pens/brushes full of super vivid, bright colors. Yellows, blues, university colors. I walk by the bed and see that there is ink running out of a pen/brush making a mess. In the bathroom I'm peeing, the window is open, I have flashes of super intense bright vivid colors, like golden yellow. Young people are coming up to the window and looking and I yell at them "Do you HAVE to all come and look?" I'm peeing for what seems like a really long time.

+ huge influx of young people outside CH. I'm standing in the 2nd floor hallway and look out to street level through the walls, I see tons of young people moving in crowds on the street, some are making their way to my house.

+(f) meeting TZ, no sure of reception, we shake hands, not sure I want to or what rest of family will think, he gives (instructions?) for the things that follow

+(f) moving with group down hill, I step out from hill and begin flying, I wonder what they'll think of that, I think I can control my destination by focusing on it

+(f) in area with people I see little beads/peppercorns I'm inspecting them, a guy comes by who has them interspersed in between his fingers and is rolling them around I think this will take a long time to learn

+(f) in open area an announcement comes on about how job applicants are being assigned to do something (take out the garbage?) I don't hear it well I'm confused I ask people what it said

3 days of dreaming still waiting to be DJ'd including my beyond-epic nld on 4/27. Straining my memory to continue to hold it all but I just don't have 3 hours to get it all down.

Lucid again FINALLY late morning on a sleep-in Saturday morning. Late to bed so that's good. Strong/long intentiion setting and slow getting to sleep initially at bedtime, maybe that helped?

4/27:
super long night of super vivid dreams
+ swimming in frozen waters, radar, wife, cold, hypo
+ [alternate life level] walking AH hear traffic see "remembered" [FALSE] ocean wreck, wave-battered prison complex on coast , waterfall vertical tunnel, sightless people in cells, ice cream stand buxom girl, [becoming vague now] dirty black shorts on the bed, sex with some girl
+ long: company battle, two sides giving speeches against each other, walk out and back, the ground cover has changed

4/28:
main dream:
+ at grandparents house walking around rooms, look out curtains see black/red/star government agents or thieves mulling around, gang of thieves steal nephew's motorcycle at my grandparent's house I run screaming after them and call 911 and thieves mock me. Walk in and back out and "recognize" the front yard and note changes and think briefly about them, I'm examining the "parking pad" I'm standing on and see a ramp, it's dark/twilight outside

4/29: most forgotten, recall weak
+(f) my old dog L running in a field
+(f) football, interception, running fast


4/30
+ flaming sword: touch it with my hands and I will it to glow. The guy (my mythical father?) I'm supposed to kill also touches it and it flames brighter. It is an awesome looking sword, straight but with many ornamental narrower portions
+ football, playing on the field
+ knife fight, his longer/bigger than mine, stabbed in the back? Girl and roller skates, people are gathering money so she can buy them?
+ preparing for camping with DD in CH bedroom, how many shoes to take? One. Now, two: 1 good, 1 crappy. Then outside with DD. I see a vista of landmarks extending in an odd / interesting way before me., I "recognize" them. I'm telling him and visualizing about the "hike around the lake" I've taken before. [everything FALSE memories]. He's looking to pee, he pees in a phone booth? I say to use bathroom?
+ on the road (to the zoo?), radio interview with a state roadsign director, the world is flat black except for the pure white highway leading up on to an overpass, the guy is talking about how they'll be putting more signs
+ LD#182 I'm "awake" reviewing dreams listening to a girl sitting across the aisle from me describe my dream, I'm following along saying yes yes then I "enter" the dream and step up to her and I'm lucid, I think the review of dreams helps you get lucid [but I was clearly already dreaming from the start of this scene, perhaps a start-of-dream DILD?]I look at my hands briefly. The girl sitting in front of me at eye level is clear all else in background is fuzzy. Feel a bit unstable. Engage with sexy actions with her, take her sweater off and the scene transitions to a FA where I'm sitting on the bus and covering my eyes with a shirt to block out the light and trying to get back to sleep.
+ at the zoo bus arrives on steep hill I think about the bus's incline relative to the steepness of the hill and wonder how this could be. Everyone wants to go to the baby animal exhibits but my mom and I don't, but I'm concerned that she's so old and can't walk the distance required. The layout of the zoo is according to a map in "Gideon's Bible," so you can either get a zoo map or that bible and find that map in there. The baby animals in the normal exhibits have been moved/put away so the best opportunity is to go to the baby animal exhibits.
Sitting on a bench with mom a girl sits in between us I notice her and think she may be uncomfortable between us as we talk.
A man starts playing at a billiards table outside there are red and white balls just a few like billiards but the table has pockets like pool.

While the guy is playing a singer begins singing: "Puff, the maaaagic draaaaagggooon, lived by the Seaaaaaa, and frollicke in the Autumn winds in the land called Honileeeeee"
I think this is a sad song and wait for the sad part, but the refrain repeats again:"Puff, the maaaagic draaaaagggooon, lived by the Seaaaaaa, and frollicked in the Autumn winds in the land called Honileeeeee" (cadence notes this time).

Turns into the end of a billiards competition where one guy hits the white cue ball towards the other side of the table because he doesn't like leaving the ball hanging around then his competitor makes an awesome shot from another cue ball on to the still-moving cue-ball and pockets it in the far left corner pocket, and then the ball he hits is heading towards the pocket as well but just misses it. The scoreboard is shown, each player has a few points on their line.

Then at half-time some juggler/entertainer guys get up on the table (is it strong enough to hold them? will it bounce around?) and are wearing metal bicycle baskets on their waists and they pull these down and release them shooting something into the air. One juggler lies down on the table with a basket on his stomach and a baseball mitt falls open in the to basket and then a baseball falls into the pocket of the glove.

+(f) at the ski slopes

+(f) some big important/rich family is having a party or important family event. I'm participating. One of the family members does not want me there and asks the others why I'm there at all.

+(f) flying/floating/gliding between the massive branches of very very tall, (dead?) trees, (chopping off the branches as I go?)

+(f) a bad guy has a bomb and is going to blow things/people up

+ I'm in my college rental house (tons of roommates). I'm trying to go to the bathroom. I go info NI's room and the door to the 2nd room (which I think is a bathroom [FALSE]) is locked. I wonder why I'm going there because it's not my usual bathroom. I go back to the hallway bathroom and enter and start to pee (in a bowl on a pedestal in the middle of the room?). Girls/roommates walk through the room while I'm still peeing. I turn my body so they won't see me. They giggle a bit at my modesty.

+ on the prowl to steal energy from another city, see lights in the distance this means they have energy. Climbing hill with partner, hiding in tall grass, another guy comes buy, his name is "Flinn," too, "He's a better 'Flinn' than you are!" I tell my partner (named Flinn).

+ climbing hills of grass. Sneak into a house. Pour out bits of jam from a jar to distract the cats to keep them from sounding the alarm. Come upon the owner, an old/short woman, she attacks me with scissors and/or a knife, I grab and hold her arms.

+ getting off a (train?), did I leave my documents there? The people we're with, they took and ruined the binoculars, which are broken into two pieces on the ground, I decide not to pick them up and try to fix them.

+ riding a public mini-bus, people get off at the stop, I don't get off because I think the bus is going closer to my destination (the mall), but instead the bus drives a different way, I ask if I can get off now, the driver mumbles about this ruining the schedule. I end up walking into a stage area for a concert but my instrument is not there, I think I could perhaps call and have a family member bring it to me. My (sister?) says it's OK that I do not play for (part of?) the concert

+ golf course: in order to prevent bad shots, the course is instituting a rule that all players my practice on the driving range periodically. I wonder about when it's OK to go pick up the balls by the net. I go do this, and find a bunch of crude "fake" golf balls made from clay.

+ goober fish: there is a bathtub (2 bathtubs at right angles?) of two "goober fish": basically square sponges with large holes in the middle with teeth on the middle part. I think you can pick one up by sticking a stick in the middle hole and they'll bite on it. Indeed one fish bites and in trying to shake it off the stick back into the tub. It falls in to the 2nd tub and gets stuck in a side drain? I get in the tub in order to get the fish unstuck and put it back. I think it's sad that it's not with its friend fish, it'll get lonely.

+ girl in the room. There's a girl on a bed in her room.

Spoiler for racy/sexy content:

On the wall is a picture of a boy wearing flowing white robes/shirt, naked from the waist down and erect. I think she likes this poster. Someone has their hand in her mouth, she's getting taught fellatio?

Now that's what I'm talking about. Night full of dreams, lots of girl stuff

+ (D1) sexy time, talk dirty to her, she starts giving me directions like it's a class, tells me to turn her on via talk, I say "I love every part of your body", think that was a mistake, she indeed asks, "Even the poopy parts?"

+ (F1) Cleaning up outside around the pool after a big party. Lots of bottles I'm picking them up one by one, then I decide I should get a box or a large plastic bag, that will make picking them up much faster

+ (D2) Driving the car through the large gate. Other cars and I are inside a huge courtyard, some cars look like they may be driving up over the bridge to get out but there are about 10 steps leading up and I don't want to drive up the steps. A guy comes and looks like he's going to open the gate for us to drive out, then my view switches to the outside and I'm watching him still open the gate

+ (D3) washing machine [DREAM SIGN], looking at the laundry with my sister, she recognizes a piece of cloth from our childhood [FALSE], I say yeah I use it as a tablecloth now. Water splashes into the room from the open window, I go and see the neighbor next door (we're on the 2nd floor) in her driveway spraying/watering with a hose, I close the window. The floor is flooded with about 3-4 inches of water, I'm trying to decide what to do this will probably start leaking to the apartment below us, then I notice a drainage hose on the wall by the floor, I go down and look at it, (narrator says?) it's for draining the floor so that it doesn't leak through the floor, the thing is electronic and has a weird operation like a siphon, I watch it work for a while. Then I get up and the watering woman next door has an upside down toad that shoots out its long, sticky tongue and catches and eats a dangerous wasp. She loves toads and has a number of ceramic toads on the fence.

+ (D4) Observing hot girls (short hot shorts on one, whew!) (in childhood home's parent's bedroom?), go into closet for privacy and start "some stuff," leave the door open a crack, some kids see me and slam the door shut, it's still open enough, they come and stick their heads through the cracks and I try to push them back, scene changes to my backyard [FALSE], my kids come by and accuse me of something and I adamantly deny that I did anything wrong.

+ (D5) yellow cadillac, riding with wife in new car, congratulate her on the good purchase, where are the keys to the yellow caddy, drive by our house [FALSE] with (my wife's mother sitting at the window?), pick up free grapefruit slices from a neighbor's front yard, wife throws away the white grapefruit saying it's bad for you, wife drives away on a motorcycle I'm running after her, she turns a corner to the left and rides directly into a large parked van, she bounces off of it like it was rubber and flips through the air back to me about 30 feet, I laugh at this funny scene but am concerned she might be hurt, she gets up and looks at me and says "I fell asleep!"

+ (D6) life-n-death fight, guy stabs me to start (it hurts!), I grapple with him, calling (to Sensei?) for help, immobilize his arms so he can't stab me any more, then I slice him to ribbons with using the edge of a DVD. I throw him over a railing and he falls about 100 feet to the ground, I see him hit, and I think "Oh, great, his body will probably fade away, and appear here on this level again to keep fighting." Indeed his body fades, he materializes alive on this level, I go over to him and say threateningly "You want to keep going?" He holds up his hands to indicate no, he doesn't.

My attention moves to a woman standing nearby at the railing. She's not that attractive but I know that doesn't matter.

Spoiler for sexy time a bit of scat:

I go over to her and say "I want to see your (ahem)!" She rolls her eyes and has a bit of an exasperated [here he goes again! haha!] expression on her face but does not resist as I pull down her pants. She's well-coiffed and I say "you're well-formed." I want to see under the bush to the v-jay itself and start digging through.

Spoiler for sexy time a bit of scat:

I feel something happening at the backdoor and think she's doing something there, I reach behind me and feel a big, long, sticky poop making its way out, ew! She doesn't know yet. I'm sort of petrified, don't know what to do, I ask her what she's doing and she says something about my nipples.

WBTB: wake, review dreams so far, set intention, do relaxing breathing and visualizations, "let go," long time falling asleep again, but fall asleep and have a series of short dreams:

+ (D7) little farm, 2 workers, strong smell of manure, animals put to bed under blue blankets, I have a blue blanket over me, it's from the piglet stall in front of me, I put the blanket back on them, and look at one and can't figure out which side has the eyes/face.

+ (D8) an amazingly beautiful girl is reciting something outside with people sitting around her. I realize that there are situations that I can control. I raise my hand and will her to come to me to see if this is one of those times, and amazingly enough, she walks right over to me.

Spoiler for sexy time (intent):

Her face is painfully beautiful, her lips are glossy and slightly parted, (I kiss her briefly?). I bring her up on to my lap and spread her (clothed) legs, and think about taking down my pants. I feel her butt.

+ (D9) In some sort of industrial/business setting, there is a talk about driver's insurance going on. The speaker is saying it will even allow/cover people over 50. The talk ends, and a man standing to his left sees me, I realize we know each other tangentially [FALSE], he's about late 50's with a wispy moustache, I don't particularly want to talk to him, but he comes up to me and offers a hand shake, I take it but he uses a strange grip and grasps my right forearm [DREAM SIGN] instead of my hand. He asks me "how'd your day been." I think about all of the interesting [dream!?] experiences I've had this morning, and say, "It's been really interesting!"

+ (D10) I'm (a teenager?) in a family with a bunch of other kids/teens. I'm trying to figure out if I belong. The kids are walking around. I want to get one of the girl teens into my room but the door won't close. I go into another room where there's an (infant?) in a crib, and decide to make acquaintence with the family, and go up to her and say "what's your name?", she answers "Ella." I look to the left and there's an older teen girl sitting on the chair, she says her name is "Ella," too! I say "NOOO! Too many Ellas!" I think they always get confused about whom they're talking about. She's cute though, and I think if I could try some sexy stuff with her. I think though it may not work with her.

Nice & early bed time. Set strong intention to have interesting and meaningful dreams, and to remember my dreams.

+ (D1) I'm flying / floating high in the air above a bridge, and I'm falling down towards it. I can somewhat control my direction and I'm aiming to land on the walkway of the bridge. I hope I don't miss it! I end up scooting down a long hill and at the bottom I see my ex-GF SB [DREAM SIGN] and her former BF, S(K?). Being all magnanimous, even though I want to go hug SB, I first go up to SK and hold out my hand for a handshake. At this time I hear SB say something like, "Oh, hi, <my name>". Hm, I was expecting a more enthusiastic greeting after not having seen each other all these years. (I get a long hug from her?) She's way shorter than I remember [she was short to begin with]. [Day residue: I saw a very short girl in the evening and thought of SB, trying to remember who was shorter].

+ (D2) ... some stuff going on, then... I find myself in a beautiful isolated spot on the open road. I think I'm on a bicycle: something open to the air. A straight black-top, two-lane highway with a dotted yellow line down the middle extends in front of me, hidden by the rising curve of a hill just up ahead of me. What gets my attention is the beauty of the situation: I feel the wind on my face, and smell the scent of the earth. It is bright daylight with a blue sky and I sense greenery around me, rising hills of grass perhaps, in my peripheral vision. This is what it's all about, right here -- the freedom of the open road. And I don't even have to experience it on a motorcycle, here I am on a bicycle! But, to return to this place from where I live [FALSE], it's a very long ride on a bike. What if I were on a motorcycle? I'd have a helmet on. I could reach up and flip down the visor. I do so and a transparent visor comes down in front of my vision. I can see through it fairly well, but I also see the visor material. I can still feel the wind and the scent of the earth coming to me up inside the helmet I'm now wearing.

I'm now on a motorcycle [DREAM SIGN], a new one . It doesn't seem to be running, but I'm approaching a long, steep hill leading down in front of me [DREAM SIGN]. I remember my training, and first apply the rear brake with my right foot. It doesn't do too much. So I squeeze the right hand brake, making sure not to apply too much too fast to prevent the front wheel from locking up. I then apply some more rear brake pressure, and the motorcycle eventually comes to a stop.

Up ahead of me are some buildings. I'm now holding a newspaper, there are articles in here from old-timers, something to do about the (dangers? benefits?) of alcohol. Someone wants to suppress their opinions. As I go, [for some reason!?], I start tearing out chunks of the newspaper and eating it[!!]. I do this several times.

I'm now in some sort of office, young women are bustling about, it's a newspaper office? There is a story about a black man who died (was killed?), who had a white wife and kid, he was a well-known chocolatier.

+ (F1) Walking along a road, suburban neighborhood, one old man walking his dog meets another old man standing with his dog at the end of his driveway. They greet, they know each other, the dogs get tangled, then they kiss each other on the cheek and then give a quick peck right on the lips. The walking man moves on.

+ (D3) I'm at a gas station, getting gas for my motorcycle. It has a detachable large gas tank, like a large long oxygen tank or the tanks used to hold helium at balloon stores. I'm pumping the gas into the tank and it stops and I want to start it again but I can't figure out how, I wasn't paying attention before. There are levers to push and dials to twist. I eventually figure out that the gas dispensing works from the knob with a kitchen-timer-like control: you twist the knob, choosing an amount of gas that you want, the numbers of the amounts are set on the dial with little marks, like the marks showing the numbers on the dial of a combination lock. I keep twisting it, it starts running and dispensing gas, it reaches zero, and I twist it again to get more. I shake the tank a few times to see how full it is, it's heavy but definitely only about half full.

There is now a line of people behind me and they're getting annoyed that I'm taking so long. I pull the tank back to my motorcycle and (put it back? think about how to put it back?). There's a control interface on the tank, a small black circle with a doohickey that falls off and down inside?

+ (LD #181) ... some stuff, then I'm in a small office with glass walls [DREAM SIGN] to the outside, like in a stip-mall. It's a police office. A young short blonde woman comes in, she's completely drenched soaking wet like she's been out in a downpour for a long time without an umbrella. She wants to tell the police woman something but the police woman is busy on the phone. So she turns to me and tells me to pass on the message that she found her wallet after all and so to cancel the missing wallet report. I have a vague recollection that I remember her from earlier in the dream and that I remember that she had lost her wallet [false?]. She says she is from Alabama, and writes down the message with her address (I see "Alabama"?), I listen to her speech but don't detect a southern accent. She leaves. The police woman eventually gets off the phone and I give her the message about the wallet and she says "good."

Then I'm riding in a car with the police woman. She's driving, and I'm for some reason down sitting almost under the steering wheel (a little bit to the passenger side of it. I have my knees on the floor and I'm leaning up against the woman with my head against her chest. (Her shirt is open? No breasts visible though). I look up into her face and see her eyes and eye brows, she has a bit of a Latina look to her.

Then I start telling her about my motorcycle dream. About how vivid and clear it was, about the beauty of the open road. I ask her, "Have you ever had a dream where you knew you were dreaming while in the dream?" She nods indicating yes. All the while that we've been talking, I've worked my hand up her skirt, and hold it up against her privates there for a long time, feeling the shape of her body. I wonder if she'll object but she doesn't, but I don't make many movements. "Awesome!" I say. "I think that I heard that they call this 'lucid dreaming'". I of course know what it is, but for some reason am trying to hide my intimate knowledge of the subject from her. "I also have lucid dreams. When you are lucid in a dream, what do you do?" .

She stops the car studdenly and gets out, with a horrified expression on her face like I've done something glastly. "Does your family know you lucid dream?" she asks? "No," I answer..."Uh, yeah, my kids do..."

We've stopped in front of a (school? some building with people inside). The woman goes off to another building across the street and I hear her making a verbal report on me, like she's putting on a APB on me she says my last name (I don't remember telling her my name?), and that I'm on a red motorcycle. Hah, good luck finding me, I think, I haven't had that motorcycle in years.

I'm riding down the road, it dips down and there's some stuff on the right. Then it crests in a hill and there's a sudden very steep down hill stretch of road right in front of me [DREAM SIGN] I drive down it and I pick up a lot of speed. At the bottom there are intersections crossing the road, there's no way I can stop, I don't even reach for the brakes, but there's no cross traffic, thankfully.

Up ahead I hear the sound of children playing. The road becomes an intersection which becomes a play room, a common play room for like an apartment building. There are lots of small children playing there, with mothers and older sisters watching them. All the kids are playing with wooden toy trains on little wooden train tracks [like I had]. They're moving the trains about in figure 8's and I think they're learning about traffic safety when the trains reach the intersections on the tracks. I move back and forth between two rooms, watching the children. I wonder that the mothers haven't complained or noticed me, an unknown person, being here. A little girl comes up and sort of falls into me, and I give her a hug. As I let her go she sort of adorably plops down falling on her butt then moves away.

There are some hot moms here...I tell myself "If I were lucid and dreaming right now....HEY! I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming, and I take a big breath preparing to do a nose pinch. Yup, I can breathe. I stand up, forgetting my surroundings, and walk forwards into the next
room. I immediately think "OK, time for ToTM." But nothing comes to mind. Well, if there are no ToTMs to do right now...

Spoiler for sexy time:

I pull down my pants, feeling a bit strange about doing so, but recalling that I'm dreaming so It's OK. I head back to the rooms looking for those hot women, but nobody's here now. I hear the sound of people from the other room, but again when I go there, nobody's there. I think "OK, in the next room, there will be a hot woman," and I go there and there is one. So I get her to give me some oral attention, and I give her some directions. She's wearing a blindfold. I reach down to take it off and right after I do,

I wake up.

+ walking outside on street on hill look up the hill see [FALSE] JT and DT's house. There are 3 very tall wall-height glass walls/windows [DREAM SIGN], side by side. Each window opens into the bedroom of one of their 3 children [FALSE], 2 boys and a girl [FALSE]. I look and see that these rooms are open to the rest of the house and think that they do not provide much in the way of privacy.

+ outside dirty leg I should go wash it in the lake, get up walk with soldier friends awesome let's do fencing, what's that thing in my arm (does it mean I'm pregnant?), wall of toaster ovens, which one should I select?

+ the demon building situation, jumping from column to column, will they get trapped in these huge, deep rooms?