FryingMan

experimenting with night-time blind keyword recording on paper, since voice recording is out of the question now (wife). Seems to help recall earlier dreams that have faded over subsequent wakings. Helps to keeps the idea of reaching for dream memories at the front of the mind during wakings

beach map show where 's good to swim, Elina shows where they were, I show where I was, where it's good to swim, and that I happened to go along that route searching for the place that she said was good

halloween party balloons in the room in CH my room, lots in dad's put some in Patti's which is Andrei's, the orange bottle through the window

lion room the large male squeezes through to next room where our dog is, Lena goes there to save him, leaving me in the lion rom, I'm standing against the wall and hope they won't eat me

meat party, I smell the meat, I say "smells delicious", the womean like this their men usually don't giv ecomplements, slicing the eat, see the fat and lean, they show how to separate it, "if you eat this you'll never get hungry"

"get the (bike?) from the car" means from the way back under the floor board, some man smiles and shakes my hand?

Ken from F&G eats my little green habanero from my plant, I sday "uh, that's a habanero" then I see the plant see the peppers up close they're starting to shievl I don't know if that means if they're dying or getting ripe, notice that most of thesoil is out of the pot, need to add it back

Then I see the ripe peppers and try them , brown chilinders, taste like chocolate, there are orange parts too, I run to other part of room to tell peopel that my peppers are raedy and taste like chocolate!

In a room with some late teen boys, one is playing with lego, he is reluctant to go to school (universyity) because it means leaving home, I tell him "it's ok, it's only like 2 blocks away, and yo'll have fund there, learn neat things, and meet girls, and can always come back to see your lego

final: group of kids loading up, the "cool" group wants to stay togethem

you can't serve fresh halloween candy to kids these days, I tsk tsk and quietly think to myself, as the (mom?) shows a tray of fresh hallooween candy that she plans to serve to the kids

2022-09-19

+ on an airplane, it's coming in for a "landing" via vertical nose dive straight to the runway with lots of banking; in ground transport with my group, I'm trying to count my luggage, my green backpack is missing

+ driving on a road, crazy drivers are always cutting me off , they're driving at odd angles, at some point I sort of chuckle "there goes another one!" [almost on the edge of the idea that this could be a dream?]

+ at a (youth?) hostel, the door is locked, and people both inside and outside are waiting for the manager to unlock it; inside, I go through reception, (I ask about my green backpack?)

+ See deceased dog, young, bright copper color, on a driveway outside in twilight, some patches of snow on the ground, wife mentions that I am on retreat; see my old car (toyota or ford) parked across the street

+ At home, there is a massive flood on my floor, the water runs out and down to lower levels, all the way to the neighbor's, they complain; I get furious [DS] at a young (renter?) and demand they leave; two other young guests perform a "poopy head" joke with poop in a box, I yell at them to leave

+ observe/playing a pool/billiards game

2022-09-20

earlier:

+ With deceased 1st wife, outside, I'm "skating" in my shoes on patches of ice on the pavement, back and forth; she gets out her skis and hops down onto the frozen river, it's doesn't look good to me, too wavy, and exposed water; some guys are tumbling around in a room

+ I'm high on a cliff/wall overlooking a large body of clear water (lake/ocean), I'm planning to jump down, I'm scanning for rocks/obstacles, and plan my jump to land in a sufficiently deep area; get out of the water, and (eating chips?)

later:

+ Arrive in a cafe with lots of people, we're meeting a (realtor? finance advisor) there, a woman sitting on a couch, one of two, looks up to us, we greet; she advises that a particular piece of paper is all we need to establish ownership of our property, and "you can use it for escrow or future needs", I'm a bit surprised by this

+ Walking in the aisle between cubes at work [DREAMSIGN big time], in one cube a guy is working with multiple screens/computers, and I think that's because he's testing a lot of different graphics cards all at once

+ [f] twilight, something about a football game [DS]

+[f] something about women and documents at work?

Final waking:

+ I'm on a high place outside in daytime, looking down upon a street that is lined with tall trees. There is a man there standing by the open trunk of his car and I know he is up to no good. I fly down parallel to the sidewalk away from him in order to circle around clockwise over the street and film him and catch his license plate. My [deceased] 1st wife is sitting in a car that I fly over, she either tells me not to interfere or I tell her. I'm hovering over the street about 20 feet in the air trying to get a clear shot of the man's license plate on my cell phone, which I'm using to video the scene. Trees are interfering with getting a clear shot as I fly past.

Then (later?) I'm telling my sons to get into and start the engines on our several cars that are parked on the street in front of the "bad man." As we move from car to car, about the 3rd car, a man driving a beat-up white van backs from a driveway or side street onto the street just in front of our car, and I'm a bit annoyed about this.

+ [vague] something about me and my sons being in trouble?

+ [vague] something about my stocks going up?

My book-directed ("End The Insomnia Struggle", excellent book, highly recommended) insomnia therapy is bearing fruit. I am more and more aware and familiar with my sleep/wake rhythms. My sleep drive is regularly very high in the evening now. In fact, if I'm doing something quiet, like sitting watching a video, it gets to the point where I start nodding off and can't keep my eyes open. I'm learning more about how much sleep I can reliably generate under what circumstances. The good news is that I typically have a very vivid, long period of dreaming within the sleep window of what I can typically generate (6.5 hours). The not-so-good news is that it's less than I'd like, for dreaming. But we work with what we have. I did sleep for a bit over 7 hours today (hard to tell light sleep from awake without a fitness tracker device), while being in bed for around 8.5.

Decent quality of non-lucid recall.
+ overflow of water in the bathroom (went back to sleep late morning with a mild urge to pee)
+ sitting on a sidewalk on a city street with my back against a pole as people walk by, 3 girls come up to me and proposition me to spend the night with them.
+ in a buffet restaurant, where one self-cooks chunks of meat (ground and whole) in vats of boiling oil
+ walking around with a girl through city streets, with some friends as body guards in dicey-er parts of town, I get directions from them to where we're going and I don't understand them, we stop in an outdoor restaurant
+ situation with a chamber pot that I haven't emptied yet, smelly with the remains of the contents
+ walking around with a girl (romantic interest?) who's playing in a band; for band forms for rehearsal, I'm not sure if I should play or not, then I see that <my instrument> players do show up so I think I don't need to participate. Later, we're hanging out in a room and I take out her electronic bass and improvise my way through the bass solo in the opening to the intro music to the Barney Miller 1970's TV sitcom: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=roHYXrLhmHc. At one point this girl is walking through a room and she's naked from the waist down, her <ahem> at one point is clearly visible from behind, I notice other guys looking.

+ driving on a street, a large wagon blocks our path and drives up along the driver's side of ours, slowly, but forcing us off the road into a parking garage, where there is an entrance blocking arm, (I can't figure out how to operate it?), a (black?) guy comes up and shows a control area with cards, you have to buy like a monthly subscription to the garage in order to park there.

+[f] something about paying back a loan, thinking about how it'd get done, some currency conversion had to be done between dollars and (foreign currency).

+ I see Suzanne, she is with a guy, I thought she would come up to me and we'd be together, she comes up and give me a brief hug, I tell her that I'm glad that she found a friend,. We're walking with them and a group of others, it's an urban setting, concrete ground, we walk past a carport (to a restaurant?) and Suzanne says that her laundry is in a dryer here, I think it's odd that she has her laundry spread around the city in various washer/dryers and I say "man you guys do laundry in the strangest of places!" We walk past along the side of a restaurant building, it's a McDonalds, I see a sign on the corner that has the word "milkshakes" in it, I think, "I'm in America, so I see all of the American restaurants, it was a salad bar McDonald's, full of the lowest level / sleaziest people. We're inside and I hear the employees of the McD's talk about the mechanics of how the customers will take food on to their plates. I turn a couple 90-degree corners to the left and arrive at the entrance area, people are waiting in front of a hostess (or cashier) in an entry area, I sit down on a bench past the hostess, there are people on my right approaching me, I want (Suzanne?) to come with next to me but there are people in front of her that may take that spot.

+ sitting in a small room with some windows, I'm trying to avoid having anybody look through the windows and see what's on my screen [DS], I look out of one small window (it's up pretty high) and see a pile of debris that reaches up to the window and an opening beyond it, I think that's pretty good, nobody will come and look through that window. A young Indian man comes up to the central/longer window and enters the room, apparently he was actual Mexican so I started fake-speaking Spanish in nonsense words.

last dream before alarm @ 0700

+ I was standing before a tall cabinet/dresser with a woman / boss to my left and a man to my right, and some prisoners/captives around on the other side of the wall where the cabinet is standing. On top of the cabinet is a box with stuff, there's a smaller container with lots of small bits of jewelry in it, I pour out the contents (I think it belongs to my 1st [deceased] wife?), and I'm looking through it and pick out bullets. Once I gather a handful of bullets, I pick up an unloaded semi-automatic pistol from the dresser top and hand everything to the boss woman who says "what are these?" , I answer "bullets," she says "it's good to give the impression that we're having a conversation, so I hand the things to the woman and we start to have a pretend conversation, just saying words without much meaning

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+ MEO 2022-08-30 #1

from several days ago:

+ outdoors daytime city, a large / tall bus/truck is making a right turn and a smaller (SUV?) vehicle tries to zip past the truck also turning right, but the bus turns too sharply and knocks into the car, causing it to roll over to the right several times. When it comes to rest I wonder if anyone left alive inside.

+ after McDonald's scene, we pass a member of our group of people who were walking around, he's up on a platform, he's there with his wife and kid, and he's completely dsassembled his car (the engine especially) into many different pieces which are all laying about. He says as we pass, "I love physics!" His wife is frustrated because he's completely disassembled the car.

+ [f] at some point earlier I had a clsoe-up view o car cylinder, and how you had to push and pull the cylinder parts to get it to operate.

+ catching a line drive (hit by superman?) in a game of (superhero?) softball, I'm standing in a city street, (the ball flies over a fence to me?), I don't have a glove, the ball flies right at me and I put up my right hand to try to catch it but it's coming too fast and it smacks my palm and falls to the ground. Then the other players are tossing a lot of balls my way and I'm not able to catch any of them, I tell them this is because I don't have my glove

+ in a store running along a very large / wide ice cream aisle, I look down and see the various flavors, I arrive to the end of the aisle where people I know (my BIL?) are sitting

+ in a public bathroom, there are open (door-less) stalls to my left, I walk to the end of the room up to the wall (urinal?) and I see to the left a small child (baby/infant?) is floating in the toilet (the floor is covered in sand?), some other smaller kid comes up and lies on top of the one in the toilet (it's pretty large like 2-3x the size of a typical toilet) and lies on top of him and poops, I see the brown cloud in the water beginning to spread, I think "man if anybody knows that first kid he'll come here and kick the 2nd one's ass" and indeed a large guy comes up and picks up the pooping 2nd kid and holds him up in the air

+ I'm stacking apples in a supermarket. There are some very funny shaped / large red ones. There is a very small one and a supermarket clerk comes up to me and takes the smal one, I think nobody wants it, but then starts to take the large/funny shaped ones too and I indicate I want to keep them.

+ arrive to another (same?) supermarket, a greeter handed me a little whiteboard (to write my shopping list on?) and I think "oh this is the place where they give you the white board", the greeter asked if I wanted something like a root beer, I declined, but then reconsidered and figured since they're offering me a free drink why not ask for something better, so I asked "get me a rootbeer float!" Later on there's a deli section, there are lots of young people there, they're looking at me (and snickering?), I think "I guess they've never seen someone (cool) like me with a beard before

+ in a class/brainstorming session, young people, they're rewriting some document, there's a paper with words (list of ice cream flavors?), afterwards they were sleeping/camping out in sleeping bags on little platforms in a river, it was all surrounded by concrete like under an overpass or elevated highway.

+ I was outdoors singing, I thought the people nearby who hear me should be impressed.

After another bad night two nights ago where I was up after about 6 hours of sleep and couldn't get back to sleep, I decided to begin the SCT (Stimulus Control Therapy) option in my "End the Insomnia Struggle" book. It's all about retraining the mind to strongly associate being in bed only with sleeping. It's pretty simple in theory:

1) go to bed only when sleepy (not only fatigued, but actually sleepy, like you can't keep your eyes open or your head is nodding forwards) (an established bedtime is preferred)
2) if at any time your are awake for more than 20 minutes, get out of bed and go to another room and do something boring/relaxing
3) return to bed when you feel sleepy
repeat 2-3 as many times as needed
4) get up at a fixed time every day
5) no naps

Also, do not use the bed and bedroom except for sleep and sex.

This one is tougher since our big screen TV is set up across from the bed. I'm taking a break from in-bed video watching to see if this can fix my middle of the night wakings.

I REALLY REALLY want to train myself to fall asleep much much faster. Like, 5-10 minutes tops. This will help dream practice in the long run. So I'm taking the pain now of this therapy to end the insomnia struggle forever, hopefully!

I had the impression of some dreaming at the beginning of the long awake period at about 4.5 hours of sleep last night. Last night (with the insomnia) there was no recall at all.

earlier:
+ special street lights that illuminate the bike, I've moved the bulb from Mitch's place?

+ changing the bulb, strange rechargable batteries with bad ones that blink, close up

+ in the house of the consulate, it's Putin, but doesn't look like him, he talks about the bike

+ sit to the cafeteria table at Nvidia, John W is saying that we've been here so long that the things we've worked on in the beginning have (already passed on into history)

+

BTS (long, Heruka visualization, some throat lotus visualization)

later:

+ eating octopus (which is "squid?"), tearing off a piece, guys some, bring more food, taste some, move to other side table

+ ordering chocolates / confectionary, someone slipped in a poop? I need to pick the pieces I want myself because of this, I pick several, put back one which has a missing bottom, and pick another one. The filling is like peanuts in a dark molasses sauce

+ flexing leg muscles in a fitness group, I have very pronounced muscles in my right leg and want to show it off to the younger people there, especially the girls, black guy too?

not much recall, a few scenes that were decent in length but faded after waking.
Need to really catch the moment of waking, remain still, and focus on recall

+[vague] something in a theater?

+ walking behind a black guy on a path, he really wants some fried chicken. I think he's talking about KFC, but I say no, I know a MUCH better place. I'm telling how juicy this place makes their chicken, I have a visual of a breaded piece of chicken on a plate is being cut. We come to some sort of a city center, where my relatives (including parents) are up high on a walkway between buildings and electronic advertising screens, (the screens are showing the place that I'm recommending?)

+ outside, near a river? Standing at a fence? Beyond the fence is a buxom heavy-set famous actress, she is talking to somebody about how awesome my younger son S2 is, how they should really follow him, I'm not sure what to think about his, I'm then talking to S2 later. [details faded]

+ using a vacuum cleaner on a deep shag white carpet. Moving it around I see how it it picking up pieces of dirt and debris from the carpet. The head of the vacuum is like an industrial carpet cleaner: triangular in shape and (transparent?)

+ playing a game of chess with Hikaru Nakamura, thinking about the position, strange pawn to queen promotion, I'm white, planning some combinations, I think I can queen and really start checking his king, on the left side of the board, and maybe pick up at least a full rook. But he'd have two connected passed pawns on the right side of the board that could be very dangerous. He makes some moves that involve moving his passed rook pawn several squares on one move? I had pushed my pawn to the queening square but didn't promote it to a queen, I wondered if I could now turn it into a queen. Hikaru kept picking up the cross from the top of the bishop that had fallen off and kept placing it back, it keeps falling, I think I need to fix that some time.

+ advising a group of 3 gay guys on their selection of hot tub design. I'm walking by them and I see they are examining a number of different design samples: mostly dark with some warm colors, and one of them is like my blue and gold tea cup. I walk around or return and see another sample, which is a sort of eggplant shaped large sample, dark with a lot of designs inlaid into it like cosmic scenes and swirling galaxies. I recommend something about hitting it and cracking it.

+ With Rob Wheel. there is a small little machine which is going to accept my oath. RW is holding and operating it. There is a single raised button on the top of the device, in the shape of a letter W, and you have to push it and make some other sorts of movements. I do it correctly and my oath is accepted.

+ standing in an office area (partially outside?) with people (advisers?), something about getting an insurance policy? (Sort of vague)

+ Looking at and operating a toy parking garage. There's a grandma there and a child, I'm demonstrating how the toy works. There are small toy cars on the bottom and you crank a handle and the car rises up to the top and rolls down around corners

BT 22:40, took a while to fall asleep since L was reading and moving about
OOB 06:55
awake 05:45 (fell asleep for a short while, one more dream)
22mg L-theanine, 1g GABA before bed
3g glycine, 1g L-tryptophan about 21:30 or 21:00

2 prior wakings with zero recall. A bit unusual, usually I'll have some memories in the 2nd waking. But I'm not delving for recall now before the 5 hrs waking.

very hot night, had to take off the blankets.

earlier (~ 0545)

+ hanging out with a male (movie?) star of some sort, he's talking about his girlfriends, he says "You think (they, referring to some other girls) are mine? Psh. They're like 41B [breast size] at most" that gets me thinking about bra sizes, what would be big? 44DD? Then I see the two who *are* his GFs, they are sitting on each branch of an L-shaped branch. They are indeed heftily endowed in the chest department. They're bouncing on their seats which causes their breasts to bounce around, too, and I see that their tops are slightly see-through to the point where I can fairly clearly make out their areolas/nipples.

Move on down the street, I'm with friends, we're approaching a sort of cliff in front of a very large canyon with rolling hills/mountains below that extends far into the distance. It is night time. This is a flying-dinosaur-riding area, I say "I hear that it's really cool to do this at night!". I go up to a promontory area sticking out into the canyon and want to show off for my friends that I can fly/glide, I'm intending just to step off over the canyon and glide right back to them standing nearly at the edge. But a group of people get in the way and block my access to the edge. They're young men, they're jostling around, and just won't get out of the way.

Then we're inside a room, and the guys sort of shuffle away, but one of them hits a light switch (but not the right one?). I also punch a light switch right next to it on the wall

+ in a group of young people sitting around a long (picnic-style) table [DREAM SIGN], we're joking, one of the girls has offered me to eat a crayfish/lobster, which I jokingly protest, saying "I'm not going to eat this! Too many legs! And there are people who eat the heads, I understand it tastes like sh*t!" the girl is laughing with me.

I've been introduced to some girl (April? August? [Some "A" name apparently a month!]) in this group, and I want to ask her our (propose to her?). Then I remember L, I think she'll be pretty upset that I propose to some other girl, she was probably expecting that I would propose to her instead.

last:

+ walking F dog, he runs off into the distance, something has attracted him, I pull him along not wanting to find out, but a group of small dogs appear and all run to us, so F must meet them. We're at the base of a slide, we're walking up the slide, I'm pushing a cart, and people are in my way, I ask the person in front of me to step aside (?) so I can go by. Push through some door into some building(?)

+ in the CS department, walking through an office area, on a desk to my right I see an old classic mac setup, I go and (get some papers?) and return by the mac where two guys are fiddling with it, I punch the eject button on the (CD? disk?) it pops up, I push it back in. I move on. I look at the papers, (it's a grad school application?) I'm looking at the fields that need to be filled out, most are empty, one of them is titled "Admin" (?) which I interpret to mean it is the professor who is recommending me. I head back in to the office to get my professor to sign it, but I think that perhaps this needs to be signed by someone other than my advisor, and I imagine my advisor would just ask one of his colleagues to sign it.

Took a combo of L-theanine (200mg) and GABA (1g) at bedtime. 3g of glycine a bit earlier in the evening.

BT 22:30
final waking ~ 05:30
OOB 07:00

I slept and rested well, with fewer wakings than normal.

+ browsing through an erotic magazine, open up the centerfold for a quick look (dark/nothing really clear unfortunately!)
+ People are in a room full of inflatable furniture floating on top of water, there is a rumor that sharks are nearby
+ I'm regaling a group of people (youngsters?) with a tale of mine, I know one of them has heard it before so I excuse him from listening.

So Mr. Genius decided it was time to try a big B6 boost at bedtime for a boost to recall, took 100mg, and basically felt like I didn't sleep all night long. Had just a few dreams. Terrible night. Eeeek.

earlier:
+ at some sort of outdoor event like a concert, tons of people. There was a large odd device that was set up to the (right?) of the stage, it had a bunch of noisy moving solid flaps on it that would change position with a loud "click!", it was someone reading the (minds? evaluating?) the audience members, and I thought that was an invasion of privacy.
I'm lying with a friend on our backs looking up at the sky [DS]. It had a strange sort of pattern to it, like a large stencil was spread across the sky.
Thinking about ST near a potted plant(?)

+ I want to jump across some rail tracks to the far sidewalk. I go up to the gap and decide it looks like it's too far to jump. But I back up to get a running start (I'm in bare feet or in socks?), and run up to the gap and notice there are some central lines of asphalt running parallel to the tracks and I can use these to land on and continue jumping across. I make it to the other side OK. Then I turn and look at the rails. Sort of a train arrives, it's actually like a small cart. It has some small things (lights?) poking out of the front, and a conductor/staff guy comes up and adjusts the sticking out thing.

+ [f, vague] need to move through a dense crowd of people through to the other side?

An actually fairly high recall night, most dreams short, but it seems every waking had recall. A big step up from the last couple weeks...

BT ~23:15
final waking 06:55 (a bit earlier probably)
OOB 07:15 after more recall and voice recording

Adopted a mindset of acceptance about whatever experience the night brings. Strategy from the book "End the Insomnia Struggle", I applied not only to sleep but to dreaming and recall. Seemed to work out!

Also, bedtime supplements: full set of vitamins in the evening, including glycine and l-tryptophan right before bed. 1 of our banana cups before bed.
Didn't walk in the evening. Was outdoors in the sun a lot in the daytime.

+ outdoors daytime in a field (with bottle of pills?) with a girl we're hurrying to finish our business to get out of here before the (monsters/zombies/etc) come out

+ outside CH, on old bus stop, hiding from someone who's coming for us, need to get to destination without being seen, car arrives woman and girl inside, I urgently say we need to go quickly

+ playing blackjack in a casino run by ScoSel (founder company 3). I'm thinking about the 3-2 payout they pay for blackjack. I see/imagine the dealer paying out these blackjack payoffs, first duplicating the player's bet stack, then adding a 50% additional half-stack right next to it. I imagine seeing a player with an Ace, and then the dealer deals a 10 for a blackjack. I wonder if a table is "hot" for the players, if they will change the dealer frequently. The management comes up, it's SS from company 3, he demands for all the players to hand over our watches to him for inspection, I get outraged about this and say "I'd think because of our common employment history you'd be treating us a lot better," and he answers "Because of that, we're taking it easy on you."

+ playing basketball [DS], I'm on the court, make a short, it balances on the rim but doesn't go in, then I'm guarding a girl who has the ball and put my hand up (I see it, missed DILD trigger), and say "it's hard to get a clear shot when there's a hand in your face", there's another guy now with the ball beyond her and I imagine that I could step up and slap the ball away if he tries to take a shot. I'm standing around freakishly tall players (like 3 meters), there are several of them, I think how could anyone my size possibly guard guys this tall in a game, it's impossible. I look at their tall and slightly distorted bodies, their stomachs are poking out a bit. I'm with a coach or trainer of mine, he's setting up a step ladder and climbing up it, he comments about something "that it doesn't usually help."

+ vacuuming up crumbs in a living room around a couch, the carpet is white, I hear the clicking sound of the crumbs getting sucked up the vacuum's hose, I keep finding more, then I find a huge pile of fallen crackers/cookies I get embarrassed that I dropped these, my wife (?) comments about my having dropped them (tsk-tsking me?) and I say "I know I know" and I'm picking them up.

+ observing a fancy dinner party, waiters are bringing the last of the bottles of wine out to the guests, (there's a white wine, chilled and dripping condensation? and a red wine?), one guest gives me an odd salute with his wine glass by putting his whole face in the glass, the glass on top of his head, and slowly dragging the glass down his face before removing it, I think he's perhaps making fun of wine snobs?

+ In a (bathroom?) with a large/unwieldy set of scales the size and form of a printer, trying to stand on it (ceiling too low?), some guy makes wise-ass comments about it

bedtime 22:45 (?) - 23:00 (?) (not later)
final OOB 08:00

waking during the night, from the light level in the room, somewhere around 05:00-05:30 body feels very hot and I feel a bit out of breath
Maintain drowsiness remains but not progressing towards sleep and mind starts kicking in.
"Do not think", let go, a bit of Yoga Nidra cycle, adopt "I'm falling asleep at initial bedtime" and totally turn off, a bit of this works and fall asleep.

New Attitude towards recall: observe, recall, but don't try to "force" dreaming. Welcome the dreams that come without particular expectation.

Going to try out "I trust you" approach: I do the day work, I know my dreaming mind knows how to (lucid) dream, hand the ball over to my dreaming mind at night and be open and welcome to the experiences, but don't try to manage or control them.

Lie without covers and body cools off and begin to feel drowsy again. Fall asleep eventually and a few dreams right before waking.

early:

+ Climbing up a steep, rocky mountain with a group, turns into an out-of-control slide down long, slippery rocky slide/chutes, going off jumps and flying through the air thinking "Oh, f%^&!", I have no control of my trajectory and think I'll probably get smashed against the rocks
The rock is colored in tones of red, orange, brown.

+ Waiting for the crowd around my boss (a famous politician?) to disperse so I can tell her I'm not going to be her cocaine mule any more. Indoors, Dark/twilight lighting [DREAM SIGN]

+ Trying to do squats with a very heavy iron frame/yoke on my back that my mentor gave me to try that had been hanging on a wall. I see it hanging on the wall in front of me, it is several parallel bars (rusty?) of metal with some space (seems too narrow?) to get your head in between. I put it on and turn away from the wall, and try to stand up. I feel the weight of it, and despite it being light enough for me to squat reasonably well in waking like (around 100 lbs) [I think this actually in the dream], I always teeter to one side and lose my balance when I stand up with it.

late:

+ Sitting on and riding down a diagonally-vertically inclined store check-out belt heading towards the cashier at the bottom, the woman in front of me reaches out to the left and slams the "bypass" button. This enrages the (woman) cashier who screams "No f%^&in way am I scanning all of those items manually!" I advise the woman to call for the manager right when she demands to see the manager. Those two get into a fight and the customer woman becomes a man who starts beating up the cashier and calling her the "B" word, my sympathies shift to the cashier as I see how brutal the customer has become.

+ Observing scenes where (actor Chris Pine?) is tied up in various bondage scenarios (inside a car with lots of items, in a wheelbarrow being wheeled around?), there's a woman who is his captor, and a group of people, the group are talking about when they're going to release him, the captor indicates she has no intention of doing so soon.
+ climbing mountain, sliding down slide-like chutes out of control

+ walking behind mentor (female boss?), she's a drug dealer but I'm waiting for the crowd around her to disperse before confronting her and saying I will no longer work for her (?)