Note: When I fell asleep this night I was feeling rather crappy, even though I haven't been depressed much recently, I found myself feeling quite depressed last night. I had two main goals, to meet up with MoSh and view a past dream of his and to try to find Blake in a dream. With these things in mind I fell asleep and slipped into a WILD… I was in the front yard of MoSh's inner world home, which is where I am completely used to being. I still didn't feel very good, I felt like I was all alone even though I logically knew that wasn't true. But logic doesn't often do a lot of good when emotions are involved… I was feeling hesitant to even go into MoSh's place, my feelings of isolation threatening to make me put up a wall to keep everyone away. I knew that would be a bad idea, so I forced myself to go right up to MoSh's front door and knock. The door was answered right away, MoSh was there and he looked happy to see me, which alleviated any remaining feelings that I might not be welcome there. I went inside quickly, MoSh closed the door behind me. MoSh was saying something to me, but I wasn't really hearing what he was saying because even though I felt assured that I was welcome here, I still felt depressed. "MoSh…" I said, interrupting him, he stopped talking and looked over at me, seeming to notice for the first time that I was upset. He asked what was wrong, I simply replied that I wasn't feeling very well right now, in fact I was feeling quite depressed, and I needed a hug. A small part of me in the back of my mind told me I was a fool to say that, it said MoSh wasn't interested in whether or not I needed a hug, but that part of my mind had no choice but to shut up when MoSh put his arms around me and gave me the hug I had been needing. I hugged MoSh back, and just that made me feel considerably better… MoSh asked what was wrong, he asked if I knew what was causing my depression since he thought I had been doing a lot better lately. I told him I had been doing a lot better, but there will still be occasions where I feel depressed, and it had chosen an unfortunate night to happen. I explained that I had been feeling somewhat depressed yesterday evening, and then it turned out there was no one to talk to… Nomad was too busy with homework to spare even a few minutes, Tigress had chosen to watch movies all day, and there was no one else online... so I had ended up feeling lonely, on top of being depressed… MoSh gave me another hug, and I was feeling a lot better now… MoSh asked if I felt well enough to go view his past dreams, I said sure I did. I thanked MoSh for listening and for being a good friend, and I was ready to go whenever he was ready. MoSh said he was glad he could help. We went into his living room and sat down on the couch, Data was right there, too. He said he had the first dream pulled up and ready to display. He announced that the dream about to be viewed was dreamt by MoSh on the night of December 2nd, 2009. Apparently I didn't need my laptop to generate a holographic view of past dreams, as the hologram formed around MoSh and me right as Data finished announcing the date of the dream. I looked around our new surroundings in time to see a portal open, MoSh and Asuka came through it, and then the portal closed behind them. It was night time outside now, and the two of them walked into a cathedral of some kind. The hologram followed MoSh and Asuka into the cathedral, where they walked down a familiar looking hallway and into a music room, where there was some piano music coming from that room, there was a man sitting at the piano playing wonderfully, then he hit a sour note, hit the keyboard, and let out a stream of what I figured must be expletives in a foreign language. He fiddled around with the music in front of him for a bit, then returned to playing beautifully. MoSh took Asuka over to the man, introduced them to each other, introducing the man to Asuka as Johann Sebastian Bach. Bach got up from the piano and greeted Asuka in a polite manner, he greeted MoSh as he would greet an old friend coming to visit, asking him about some sheet music he had apparently given MoSh on a previous visit. Bach played the piano a bit more, hit another sour note, cursed a bit more, then looked back over at MoSh. He said he was having problems with the end of one of his pieces, no matter what he tried it didn't sound quite right. MoSh looked at the sheet music and played a few notes on his guitar, hit a sour note in the same place Bach had been hitting his sour notes… Bach said that was the same problem he had been having. MoSh played with it a bit longer, and four sour notes later it came out sounding wonderful. Bach was thrilled. He said that was it! The song was complete. Asuka had wandered off a bit, she was looking at the various architecture of the cathedral and seeming to like what she saw even though a lot of it was quite old and dusty… When she heard MoSh and Bach sounding happy she returned to them and asked if they had figured out the problem. They said they had, and MoSh said he wanted to play for Asuka, he wanted to jam with Bach. Bach agreed to that, and they started playing a song I didn't recognize, although there are very few songs by Bach that I would recognize… But recognize it or not, I could not deny the fact it sounded totally awesome. It occurred to me that it would be awesome if I could reproduce this on my electronic keyboard, and then since I know I am not very skilled, maybe MoSh could listen to the song and play it on his electric guitar, which would certainly sound much better than anything I can do. Since I had that idea, I focused on listening to the music, on hearing each and every note they were playing, and while I found the music immensely enjoyable, I had doubts in my ability to even vaguely reproduce it IWL. After that song was done, Asuka had clearly enjoyed the music, she was clapping and threw a couple of flowers towards MoSh and Bach, then she looked like she got an idea. She went over to Bach, motioned to the piano, and asked if he minded if she tried something. He told her to go ahead. She played a few notes that sounded ethereal, and a flower bloomed to the right of the piano's front right leg… right out of the floor! Bach stared at that in amazement, MoSh didn't seem to find it that odd, but as Asuka kept playing, more of the flowers grew. Bach wanted to know how she did that, she spoke with Bach for a time about the energy of music and getting specific energy frequencies with the right combination of notes, which Bach clearly understood if only by instinct because his compositions had a powerful energy to them… So after a bit more of that, Bach and MoSh played another song, and more flowers sprouted from the floor, making the dingy room seem a lot brighter. Bach thought that was really something, and set to writing more of this music down to paper. MoSh looked at one of the pieces Bach had lying on a table, Bach said he could borrow it if it interested him, one musician to another… MoSh thanked him and picked up the papers, then disappeared. Bach looked surprised, but then realized MoSh must have woken up, he commented that dreamers can come and go so quickly. Asuka said she hoped he remembered… I heard Data's voice say he had the next dream prepared, but I was feeling like I might lose the dream. I told Data to let me do a time dilation before we went to the next dream, so the hologram shut down and left MoSh and me in his living room in front of Data. I was focusing on Allura's method of time dilation, I barely noticed when there was a knock… or more like a scratching… at the door and Asuka opened it. I was focusing on compressing more time into less space when I was startled out of my focus by a fox! It was a cute fox! The fox jumped into my arms and seemed to want to be petted, which I did, but I still had to dilate time. I tried to start my time dilation over, but I didn't get it done in time and everything around me faded and I woke.
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