ZenLD

To china

I was supposed to go to China in this dream. I was to take a flight in a day or two. I'd first be taking the subways to the airport, then take the plane. But for some reason I'd stopped somewhere near downtown at a relative or an acquaintance's home to stop by overnight. I slept over at their house on the second floor bedroom but I was worried because I'd forgotten my cellphone. My mom was apparently going there on an earlier flight but how was I suppose to contact her now? I thought oh well, it'd work out somehow and went to bed. I hanged out with my friend Jack while at the house after.

-I feel like this was a couple of different memory events fused together into an abomination.

Supermarket Sashimi

I was at a supermarket. Shopping for groceries. While my family were looking at vegetables, I found the seafood section at the back. I grabbed ahold of a lobster and wanted to eat it as sashimi. I sliced off it's head and had a taste. It was salty and sweet - tasted like how I remembered. I looked away for a moment and the staff had taken away my lobster. I was slightly mad since I'd already paid for it and I only got one bite out of it.

-White floors, pretty clean supermarket. Maybe it was a chinese supermarket.*

-again it was a couple of old memories pieced together


WBTB

2 spiders, bikini, a little lucid

I found myself atop my bed laying down. It was my familiar bedroom and everything appeared normal. I got out of the bed and something got my attention. There was a spider on the ground to the right so I tried to abolish it. I think it got away. I headed to the bathroom and everything still appeared like my bedroom. But once when I was inside my bathroom I wasn't sure - I just felt like this was a dream. I stepped outside the bathroom door and tried to poke right finger through my left hand. It didn't work. I thought maybe I was wrong but I was 70% sure that I was dreaming. I found the drawer and it was at the same spot. There was a baby blue swim-wear there and I decided to try it on.

FA

I am in the bedroom again and I find the spider again. I try to get it and it got away again. I did another reality check here since I felt like it was a dream. Finger through hand again and it didn't work, but I didn't trust the RC- I was pretty sure it was a dream. Before I could scrutinize the environment any further I'd heard my dad's voice. I found him in one of the living halls and we spoke a little. He appeared so real so I think I lost lucidity around there.


not a Ukulele, fun diner music, castout

I was in a diner of a small town. It had nice wooden floors and tables to go along with them.I was seated towards the end of the diner where apparently a bunch of regulars were. A couple of them apepared to be musicians of a band and my attention was drawn to the string instrument that one of them had. It was small, like an ukulele but not really a ukulele. Google search showed me that it appeared to be similar to a instrument called a jiple. One of them saw me eyeing the instrument and told me to give it a try so I did.

It was a skinny ukulele shaped instrument. lie this < >==< (=( ) )> , but it wasn't an ukuele.

At first I tried playing it like a ukulele but it didn't sound right. But I let go of trying to play it like an uke and it began to sound better. I sang, not perfect but it was alright, getting better. I noticed a tiny crowd around me for some reason by the time I stopped singing and playing. They gave me the ok to keep playing so I did. This time I tried playing a song by Ricky Martin. I couldn't get the chords or make it sound how I wanted it to but I just let it be, and let the sounds and my fingers play what they wanted to play. And gradually I began to find my rhythm and I sang.

I sang, feeling the music until I found my sound. And before you know it the crowd got larger and they surrounded my nearby area. I saw and looked at the girl in front of me she had a dirty blonde hair with brown eyes, then I turned a little to the right and saw a a brown haired guy, he had long wavy hair and I think he was one of the musicians from earlier. I was just casually noticing the crowd around me as I sang and enjoyed my time, feeling alive. I had finished another song.

To the right side of the diner, or maybe it was a pub rather, people were talking about some Japanese tourists that were visiting this city. This city appeared to be the country side of North America, wouldn't be surprised to find cowboys here. Anyways I did not notice them since they were way to the right of the place, and my back was behind them while I sang. One of them had come and requested me to sing again. I was delighted and of course agreed. But I wanted to find another instrument though, and what do you know, his companions had brought along an instrument. I went over to their table to the right and took the string instrument. It looked like a ukulele so I tried playing it, but alas it was a different instrument yet again. This one was peculiar in that it had a partition between the middle of the four strings. But it sounded ok. And I told them I'd sing a song of my own for them. And so I did. Time flew by.

...

I was back in the diner, from where I sat earlier. There were a group of oldsters there. They were mostly the old men that were regulars of this pub/diner, there were a few younger people too. The dream plot tells me some time had passed. According to one of the young man with black spiky hair there, someone had secretly uploaded a video of me from earlier and I was exploding on youtube. There were some random people trying to find where I lived and how their quiet little town was now full of annoying foreigners. They all looked at me with stern eyes.

A gramps in front of me, slightly to the left with short, white hair and tan, wanted me to go away. He eyes said,

"you're famous now so go away."

All of their eyes said the same thing... Meanwhile the guy from earlier had mockingly said,

"everything you touch is turning into liquid gold."

I was crushed. I was sad because I knew what he meant by that. A meaning akin to king Midas, only begetting loneliness by his touch of gold. But I I wanted to speak up. So I turned my sadness into irritation and replied

"and what's wrong with that?"

But I didn't want to hide my true feelings and decided to open up my heart to speak how I really felt.

"I just came here to hang out with you guys... I missed you all and I... Love you. I love you all."

I started tearing up and slowly began to sob. A quiet rainstorm was I. They began to change their expressions and their eyes had now expressed a kinder tone. It was all a facade; they were pretending to hate me to get me to move on from the small town... So that I could see the world.

I awake, the mailman rang the doorbell a soon after


Notes:
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Shape of diner

l l\
l m l
l J l
l l \ \ \ \ Entrance
l O l
L ]
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m- where the musicians sat
J - where the Japanese tourists sat
O - where the oldsters sat
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I feel like the 2 dreams before the WBTB might have been NREM dreams. Not sure why but it had that feeling. It was just less clear and events appeared to skip more often.

I know the RC failed because I had a seed of a doubt in my heart that it wasn't going to work. The finger through the hand is just a bad RC for me since I have previous negative experiences with it. However it was the one I could think of at that moment so that was what I did. Probably another RC would have worked during that period or would've worked also if I had repeated the RC a couple of times.

I just tried to relax more during wbtb than before. I think relaxation is pretty important.

I think I'm getting better.

*I believe that maybe if I were to close my eyes right as I try to push my finger through it might make it easier that that RC. Part of me may be queasy about the exact moment of pushing it through. Next time I will do that if I do that RC again.

Initially I forgot what I had dreamt at but I did recall a little.

VR village
I remember dreaming about VR stuff. A very-very old fashioned village and their villagers were experimenting with Virtual reality. Their roads were brown wet dirt and they wore brown colored clothes too, likely leather and plant materials. They were progressing technologically at rocket speed. Dream influenced by my interest in VR lately.

Thin Cavity
I found myself in the kitchen. Looked like the home kitchen with the familiar white flooring but the counter top was white too. Perhaps could have gotten lucid had I been more aware. But I was distracted - one of my teeth was cavity ridden and was falling off. The teeth had become so worn out it was thin like the scoop of a spoon and it was falling out. I found my mom there so I began to talk to her. Could be my interest in diy tooth powder or falling out of teeth could indicate changes in life.


Cliff, Old Giant

I was high up above. Not flying but I was on a cliff or mountain. The cliff was white not from the snow - it was not cold. Instead the cliff rocks were very jagged and bleached satin white by the intense sunlight. The cliff reminded me of Icarus, or perhaps the bright sunlight did so. It also reminded me of Prometheus, perhaps it was where he was punished. I felt like I was trapped in this area and proceeded to escape. Maybe I was Prometheus here.

( I may have escaped once during this part of the dream, and came back atop of the cliff again. I may have been just going around causing trouble during this period here)

I looked down the small cliff. There was an old man there. He carried white hair in somewhere between short-medium length along with a medium length beard to go along with it. He stood tall in a strong posture and he was built - massive muscles like an Olympian. He reminded me of Greek Olympian, since he covered himself in a white toga. There was something else about him. He was HUGE. He stood below the cliff and his head had reached nearly where I stood. He was the giant spoken of in myths and fairy tales. It was apparent that he was also the guardian of this place. I was under captive or was in a sort of "time out" because I've been behaving badly. And I'd escaped once already.

I grabbed a small boulder nearby, and threw it at him. It hit him squarely on the top of his head, slightly to the right and he was unphased and still looking at me. His stupidly unwavering smiling face got me irritated though so I grabbed ahold of a much larger boulder, the larges I could find and threw it at him again.

*gonk* it hit him right in the head again. Hoping that I could knock him unconscious and escape while he'd be out. Yet he stood still, looking right at me. The old giant kept looking at me and told me to "stop going around causing troubles."

I was semi-lucid again earlier, almost! But he seemed kind of an ok guy, and besides I felt bad for throwing bounders at him. Feeling "What's the worst that can happen in a dream?" kind of yet not fully lucid. So I listened to the old man's pleas and decided what the heck, and jumped down the cliff to go to where he wanted me to go. I thought he was going to direct me to a jail cell but I was facing a dark corridor now and I saw a bedroom through the door in front of me. I was getting a rapey vibe from the old man really. But in all honesty, probably just a trauma surfacing in the dream. And I was immediately teleported into a large bedroom.

The bedroom was very white, color wise. It was very square shaped instead of rectangle and the King sized bed that took up about 1/5 - 1/6th of the room. There was a small white chair there, round, so maybe a sofa chair; not comfortable enough to be a sofa but it was a round/square sitting apparatus like a sofa. There was a round and short coffee table beside the chair. The curtains, or the shutters rather, were closed and the room was rather dark, yet the sheer whiteness of everything in the room just reflected the leaking light from the curtains all over and made it feel not that dark. I was in trouble though.

I randomly began to feel vibrations from my nether regions for some reason. It had an orgasmic feeling but not really. Hard to describe. Just heat/vibration, slight pleasure. The vibration felt familiar but it was different. I don't know but somehow felt like I was welled up with power. It made me lucid, although very briefly. I decided to wake up since this was feeling uncomfortable. Stupid I know, but I am getting better. Next time I will remember to recall a dream goal or meditate.

So I awoke on top of a comfy bed. I was orgasming on the bed from the residual sensation from the dream. Maybe the most comfortable bed and sheets ever - like mellow white silk gently caressing my body while I was flipping out.

Yet I awoke again and realized it was FA.

*I realize now that this dream was very white, almost everything was white colored.

Notes

Progress = Good. Just gotta believe.

The cave game

Initially I was playing with some childhood friends, Steven and Y. We were playing a video game on a TV, black and fat and square, smooth satin surface with nicely curved edges - an old fashioned TV. The video game was a custom made one, user created content if you will. It felt like w3, but it was a platformer/shooter side scroller. The game was inside a cave, progressing from left to right. I have a little hard time recalling what happend. Perhaps I was inside that video game towards the end. I was at the depths of the cave, falling from above. It was dimly lit and there was a dungeon boss there. She was a demon of some sort, attractive if I recall ccorrectly. Something happend in the midset of it all. Like a time or dimensional warp that led me out of there.

Magical pizza, eyes of drayad, evil witches
It all began inside a classroom once again. It was the Japanese school, in elementary again. The environment was sort of connected to the dream prior, perhaps warped here. We were playing around in the classroom but I had to do something according to the dream plot...

I walked down the familiar hallways down to right, towards where the bathroom was. There was a gigantically massive pizza there; its diameter the size of a full grown adult. And more interestingly, the pizza had a strange green-ish glow that emanated from it - hinting at the potential powers welled within this big, bizzare foodstuff. BUT partaking it would mean death, for no mortal could withstand its magical radiation. I needed something before I could eat it. It was then that a magical being bestowed upon me her eyes. She had taken them out from her sockets and replaced my mortal eyes with hers, thereby giving me the power necessary for the magical pizza. I took a large slice of the pizza then began inspecting the girl who had given me the gift.

She was turned away from me, towards the entrance of where the bathroom was suppose to be in the school hall. However there were no bathrooms there. Just a occultistic dark room dimly lit by some glowing redness that seeped out of the edges of the floor where it met the walls. Not deep red like blood, but orange-red. In between us was the table that held the pizza but I paid not much attention to it no longer.

The skin on her back was colored likened the drought-ridden earth, whose dry desperate prayers of rain were met with naught but the blistering rays of the scorching sun - crackling yet still. They were dry, and a few small dark maroon triangular things that protruded from her back like a salamander... What are they called? I had an urge to speak to her so I did. She was bare. She was irritated however, and justly so, since she had given me her eyes from earlier. Her new slightly red and irritated eyes silently spoke the words,

"I gave you my eyes, what more do you want from me?"

She looked like Sabyn from highschool - perhaps she was there since her name begins similarly to Sabrina, the teenage witch cartoon. Witch => magical => this magical being - drayad/lizardlike. Her hair was dark brown wit ha hint of ombre that parted in the middle, raised slightly at the front. She had delicate and small features and was indeed beautiful. I had no interest in conversing with an irritated individual so I decided to leave her be and talk to her later. And so I walked back down the hallway previously.

I had the intention of meeting with my friends once again to just hang out or play. I felt an urge to look behind me. Behind me were some students but in from of them were two old women. They had short white-silver hair in a longer bowl cut that ran down to the bottom of their jaw. They appeared old, however their skin was somewhat immaculate for their age with very few wrinkles. That was when I saw their eyes. THE EYES. The eyes that gazed soullessly towards me. Perhaps lucid dreamers know of that death-stare that's in the Inception movie. Those eyes. I was afraid. I took a few steps back, without breaking eye contact form them. The fear likely led to the following events. It did, however make me semi-lucid. I remembered that I could teleport. So I willed to teleport. My body began to shift into a transparent, other-dimensional membrane that was a connection point between different time/space. I'd be teleporting momentarily and out of here. Admittedly I was a little smug, thinking to myself,

"Hehe, too bad. You can't catch me now~ huh?"

As I headed towards the other end of the hallway. However the witches' appeared unwavered, still looking my way. The one witch to the right began to move towards me. She floated into the air at massive speeds and grabbed unto my body with both hands. She could somehow could my body in the apparent ethreal state! Suppose she was a witch after all. With haunting gaze she repeated:

"Can't go back to this timeline. Can't go back to this timeline. Can't go back to this timeline."

As she pushed me backwards with immense strength towards the dark swirling portal at the end of the other side of the hall. I entered the black hole and heard a scream of a lady "ahhhhh" coming from me so maybe it was me.

Awoke and pretty shaken


Notes:
I have been having dreams about this elementary school repeatedly. Maybe this will be the last time. Although the witches were scary maybe they were helping me get over some issues from that time. Personally I'm not trying to end up there though.

Ld advices from skipper. Great stuff.

What is the message of the dream about elementary school? Maybe it's about being in the present instead of being in the past timeline. But I feel like maybe that was the time when I stopped being myself. As in I began to try to "fit in" instead of being myself. Trying to play pokemon to fit in with other kids.

Be myself. But who am I? I am... Well I want to be omnilucid really. And I realized, I actually liked writing DJs; so I will do that and kill two birds with one stone.

I meditated and I realized that I was free, FREE! and I loved to read. So I will read. I will read the most beautiful story in my lucid dreams. And maybe I could. You know, write it down for all to see. That is a worthy goal for me. So let me be omnilucid, oui.

The main problem is that I lose awareness of my surroundings completely while being so immersed in it all. Is it something one could overcome with training? Or could these two activities be antagonistic upon one another? Only time will tell.

Location :Beach, island natives natives, оннаくち disloyal, downfall of natives.

2x obe Mr tech lost lucidity.
Location :dark underground living quarters
Dream Zelda game, moving out, friend has kids, kids moving out, selling the Zelda game for cash, touching family moments of friend and his son. Cried and awoke.

Beast attacking me. It was a bear/lion in the forest or forest trail. Perhaps a hybrid beast. (might be from watching yt videos about bears)

VR game themed. Related to day time.

Today -
Location : class but not school, bright room white desks. People are learning stuff.
Learning something. Eating cup ramen with kimchi added for lunch at the end of the dream.

Location :class in school, looks like Japanese elementary school.
Having a raffle and eating some sweets, was ice-cream or cake. A Japanese classmate from back then in elementary was there. May have went to the mall after.

What was her name? I... Starts with I. I remember her face. She had a pony tail and had massive cute eyes.

I was sick all the time in elementary. Kind of this lingering cold. The past few days I have been getting a kind of the same thing. Maybe it's detox or releasing of some stuck energy back then since I was trying to do that before. Maybe this dream is related to that. Nostalgia of being sick. Or not sure if it's something else but just feeling very nostalgic or having feelings of.

I haven't been djing the most earnestly lately. I had probably around 5 dreams today but only recalled 2. Should I begin to write them all down again in full detail? Do I want to do that? Do I want to be lucid? Could I train dream recall without DJ?

I was practicing mindfulness the last 2 days and I was noticing I'm getting lucid in waking. Not while asleep though. Just. Feeling like I'm waking up. But I also feel like I'm dying. What will happen when I'm fully awake? Would I finally be lucid? I'm just very lost atm. But somehow feels like I'm finding my way and getting closer to my goal. But what is my goal? Whatever it is, I pray it be good. Id love to be omni lucid though. That would be fun. Maybe perfect dream recall to go along with that.

Been also doing wim hof method. Got me pretty energetic.

Its cold outside. I'd like to meditate in a nice warm beach in my dream. Maybe that's the dream goal for now.

Managed to fulfill my dream goal from this or last week.

My goal was to eat omnilucid pill once again then lay down to sleep within my dream in the same position as my physical body.

I read that sleeping within the dream in the same position as the physical body have some interesting effects and I wanted to try it.

--b4bed

I went to sleep pretty late and was awoken by noise outside and just laid in bed. That resulted in an inadvertent wbtb. Although I usually wake up naturally, being awoken by something else does appear to be more effective.

I expected little in all honesty, of getting a ld. Since I did not manage to be fully aware kind of thing I've been doing to its fullest in my opinion as I was immersed in reading for quite a bit before sleep. Not sure if awareness is the best word, maybe attentiveness is a better word.

-- pill laying down ld

I slowly fell asleep after being awoken, while I could still hear the sounds outside. I also focused on my body against the bed.

I WILDed. I awoke in the bed in the next room to where I slept. I realized I was dreaming and I saw the TV from the bed, it was in its regular position and there was some game being played on it. It looked like super smash brothers sort of thing. Similar but perhaps not 100% the same thing. I'm groggy within the dream and take a few moments to compose myself as I watch the TV.

I deild/FA a couple of times. I remember my dream goal and put my hands in front of me. I clasp my hands together, left atop the right, and will the manifestation of the omnilucid pill. I move away my left hand and this time it was crimson red/white colored capsule on my palm. I swallow it and FA.

Back on the bed. Losing lucidity momentarily but I remember I forgot something. Trying to recall it made me lucid once again. I summon it once again and FA again before I could lay down.

Third times the charm though and i managed to take the pill then lay down in the same position, I think.

I FA again and I felt like I laid down in the wrong position so I do the previous routine again in another position.

FA again. May have had a microawake that made me lose lucidity. I went to the front door to greet some guests. One guy comes and asks me questions. Felt more like interrogations. Perhaps some subtle life advices.

--plant invasion

I'm back. Still at home. But this time I'm a sort of a plant. A plant but a super plant that could move and all. My mission was world domination so I go head and follow the dream plot. The authorities figured out my plan and was out to exterminate me.

Initially I was just getting rid of investigators and the forces, just killing them off but eventually i figured that I needed to take a more subtle approach.

It began in the noon and now it was night time. One girl who was the daughter of the mayor was the key member after me. I (the plant) dying... My dark green plant vines just crawls to the ground before I release a part of the body that appears to die. Just kidding. I fake my death; as the plant and release some pollen when I seemingly die off that goes into her brain and sprouts - I take over her mind. I am just pretending to be her for a while after faking my death. Slowly but surely taking the townsъъэ via mind control... Then the world!

Was fun, really.


Notes:

I think that it might be key to increase attentiveness in key moments.

Perhaps especially upon awakenings or scene/activity change. To do rcs more attentively during those moments. May be much easier than all day and perhaps this is what is automatic in natural LDers.

Rather than trying to be super aware all day, perhaps **be attentive to changes, subtle or obvious**

I suspect this is why raduga technique is pretty effective. It creates a internal thought process like this :

Awake(event /change) - >oh I'm awake (noticing subtle change) -> I better do a technique (doing rc)

But instead of just doing it only upon awakening,

Event - > notice change-> do rc (increase attentiveness)

May be better. Sounds like kind of regular rc. But instead increase attentiveness.

"Attentiveness" rather than "awareness" because it feels more active than passive.


Current plan - ada/adrc use *any* change as trigger to increase attentiveness

The dream was in the highschool. Apparently the middle eastern empires took over and we were in a pretty bad place like the 1984 movie just everything was under heavy surveillance. I recall being in a computer lab and I had some sensitive information that was against the establishment. As we are leaving the school there are guards that are checking our belongings. Me and the gang were gonna be in trouble at this rate. My friend Steven distracts them while I try to throw our cells under some cars to destroy them. However we were caught by the guards. We were imprisoned. Under surveillance until we could leave for some kind of holiday.

I leave the building which now looked like a city hall or gov building. I head inside a large van or rv and it was a hideout of a certain pro gamer, K's hangout. He had a colorful personality. I leave after a bit. The roads were somewhat similar to a place near my friend ys house but different. I am heading back towards the building and find people dining on long dinner table. It was being segregated by race or country. Some vips and royalties were seated. The food looked OK, I remember seeing a chicken drumstick. The interior of the building was familiar, I'm pretty sure I visited it in my dram previously.

Wake

I dreamt something about stretching. It was a stretching dream, just myself and others stretching. Like yoga but not yoga, just stretching for couple of hours.(stretched outdoors earlier)

Notes: I lost consciousness before sleep unlike yesterday. May have had a cold so had trouble sleeping.perhaps will take it easy but will do my best nonetheless.

First dream was something about my friend Lucy. Did not write down much although the dream was pretty long.

FA
I then dreamt that I was writing down dj hence I didn't get much down from last dream. Could not erase, could have become lucid from that.

Just wrote jibberish and Lucy upon wake

Heresy elf lucid
I had thought about a story I read and it transformed into a dream as I fell back to sleep. It wasn't the same story but I thought I was just immersed in reading or seeing a story in the beginning as if I was reading a book and became more real.

Plot: Me and my elf companion were in a townhall or church or court like building of a small town being persecuted from trying to explain scientific ideas to a very religious bunch. Chased by townsfolk.

Interior was mostly wood, dark brown wood. Mahagony? Old Timey feeling. Huckleberry Finn like dress attires of ppl.

We escape to a small place, felt like the backroom of a church. Dark brown wooden pew or seat/benches, beautiful wood really. I look around. My elf companion suddenly begins to pleasure me with their mouth. This makes me lucid. It's stable and quite the pleasure but I wanted to wake up so I do.

Maybe am prude. What breathtaking beauty though, out of bounds of physical reality.

FA into my bed, pretty realistic FA.

Wake


Notes:

forgot dream goal. Will do it next time.

Well, felt better in dream.

At beginning of night I was having sniplets of Wilding into dream but awaking up upon realizing I was falling asleep each time. Just tried to keep my eyes open before falling asleep. Awoke once then had following dreams.

Knights :

I was in a game like setting where ppl had a kingdom and were fighting over territory. I was a queen for my kingdom like mini place. You had a set of resources and could hire Knights or upgrade weaponry or armory.

I opted to upgrade to the extreme, believing that I was very clever. But I was immediately ambushed before I could do anything. A single very powerful warrior ambushed through the front gates and I wasn't sure if my forces could handle it. So I rushed to the front to help them. I realized he was too powerful so I ran behind a knight right beside me. Since their objective was to kill me I decided to run around while my forces would attack him. My knight got one hit before he was obliterated by the enemy strike. I kept running towards the castle then in circle. One and another kept going down until I was the last one. I braced myself for the end but a hero struck the mighty enemy before me, his sword piercing through his back and I lived for another day.

I then saw the pov enemy territory that attacked me. He was pretty impressed that I survived.


Supermarket

It was a very ordinary like dream setting. A drive to the supermarket with my parents and childhood friends in 2 cars. Inside there was a sale on candy (maybe it was chocolate). We were heading back to the car and ready to leave but I thought about my cellphone. I looked around for my cellphone until I belived it was in a crevice by the front seat and it was there. Drove あわy。

I had snippets of lucid moments. Very short. 7 or 8 maybe lasting few seconds before waking each with the final one lasting perhaps 10 seconds. I was moving my eyes while closed forcefully to force an artificial rem to get back into it. Familiar scenes, some nature with trees and buildings. I tried to keep going back to sleep so didn't jot down.

Had a long dream after that. I was in a clinic/reception with a lady who was dealing with me. She tried to single me out and we had an audition for a famous comedians show. I recall having a similar theme before.

A personal worry. I think it's related to a negative experience at a clinic being singled out. I'll cleanse that energy or remove it.

So ppl went up on a huge tall thing. Kind of like a trojan horse but not a horse. Just wobbly structure and we had to stay on it to show our dedication to follow through challenges some people fell off. Part of me was nonchalant through all this, feeling like it was fake. Close to lucidity I think. Did another challenge I think.

Woke eventually.


Notes:
Before bed I was writing down all the people I met during my stay in the present living space or home. I had read a book talking about the need to clear past energy blockages to have more stable dreams without past influences. Should be able to go through previous places in couple of days.

LDs or attempts during august, before polyphasic experiment

Aug 2

Failed AP, was on bed, felt vibrations.


Aug 06 WILD
I was in a brightly lit house. Theme was white. It was open concept, more modern. Very clear. I explored the house a bit and found myself in an office. I explored a bit more and ended up in a terrace or balcony. It connected it to another part of the house. Where the '==' was the terrace.

(house) == (house)

I remember it was sunny probably, brightly lit. I think I've visited this house before in LDs. I recalled a dream goal about trying to be omnilucid but I think I had some murky feelings or fear about the dream ending soon so it did end before I could go across it.


Aug 10 DILD/DEILD
I had a FA earlier before the LD. . It was an LD chain, 3 times I think. I was at home but it was very dark. I was on the bed in bdrm and was afraid of something. Afraid of the darkness or robbers or animals. I have an FA again, and this time I recognize that I'm still in the dream and become lucid.

I leave the bedroom and find myself in a pool. Where I am just doing some acrobatic stuff on the pole atop of the pool. I FA into this scene 2-3 times. I eventually leave the pool and find myself in a small old wooden store. Something about eyes... Do not recall atm.

July

Tuesday LD DILD
I was in a bedroom of a university campus. Was in sort of an orgy on the bed.

Thurs
Failed AP. I heard the sound outside the window, recognized that I was in the perfect mix or awake/sleep and tried to do something. a bit anxcious and failed.

Sunday FLYING

I was on bed, heard sounds from outside the window. I thought about moving and turning around while drowsy feeling and trying to go back to sleep. I did this about 2 times. But on the second time while I was listening to the sound coming form the window I recognized that the source of the sound and where it I had moved to wasn't consistent. As in the noise came from the same direction even though I had moved. So I recognized something was amiss and just got out of the bed. I Wanted to fly outside so I went out the window and flew. I buzzed the wings on my back or something kind of a fairy or bee or something. Just enjoyed the blue skies and ended back on bed.

Repeat above and decided to fly again. I was flying like before but eventually the winds became very strong and I decided to switch my flying style. More like a bird thsi time so I just rode along the winds with my wings. It was cold winter outside now, ground was pale white painted by the snow. The wind was getting stronger. I recall seeing a kind of a medieval castle like place with a moat around it. It was grey and very tall and robust. I flew by and landed on one of the towers. Then I kept flying

Ended up in a very dry landscape, unlike a desert but more like a plain that's been struck by drought recently. I found a couple of knights just standing around. I dive-kick from above to one of them. They were allies though. So we just group up on ground and enter a cave or a dungeon. 3-4 of are beginning to prepare for 3 some or something for some reason and wake.

I believe that I couldn't recall a dream goal. It's almost as if the basal part of human nature drives you towards procreation as a default activity and this is pretty deeply ingrained within; well we're physically alive thanks to this however. But it stops you from experiencing more profound and interesting stuff.


CITY, Teleport LD

I was in an underground gymnasium or podium. There was a someone who was a friend long time ago, X, he signed me up for the Singing audition without telling me. I was then pressured to sing in front of the judges or ppl. I did not do too well. I scored myself 6/10. I was trying to get away from the place from the shame of singing so horribly. I tried to walk away from it all but I felt like I was followed. I went outside and tried to get away.

The walls of the gymnasium were brown bricks. The getaway scenery was outdoors, just regular asphalt but maybe more grey rather than black.The reason I was so embarrassed was because it was televised or something, just was rusty with singing.

On 24min nap

I sad in a sort of an old dormitory like place. I was with my friend Mike moving about in the building while I had a false awakening. I was being grabbed by hands out of nowhere while on bed and had another FA. Kind of scary. The feeling was familiar and i was lucid. Expected more hands but told myself it was OK. Dream scene changed. I was Pa. I found a baby me that looked so cute and hugged it. In a pool like area. I could teleport via intent to where I looked while grabbing bby me. Had to get baby me away from bad ppl. Baby me was just there chilling happy, derping. Dream goes back to the dorm area, some friends present.

Likely degrading lucidity towards the end.

Forgot about dream goals.

Also dreamt of going back into my body earlier nap.

Will log lds weeks ago when time comes.

Just 3-4 dild

Realized I was dreaming so sat down to meditate instead of stabilizing. Woke after a bit. Did that 3-4 times. Would love longer lds.

I recall exploring the old tall building that is related to previous dreams. The building was kind of a boarding school l, showed up many times in dream but haven't seen in a while.


Notes:
Been meditating alot. Does not feel long but hours pass. I still am able to keep track of time from numbness of legs. Is it crucial to ld? Maybe not.

Recall can be improved. Did not jot down dreams this week.

Nld spaceship vr, playing with a friend . Failed controlling while flying up and died. Did not want to be driver. Two more joined , 4 played, why am I the driver?

WILD trees woke,

Tried again, burn in vision of trees, vision, epiphany cycle of life burial, to plant, to feeding of future generations.

The wheel of life, stand sit in z axis like Buddha, stillness.

DILD

Bad crowd, house near university. Bad lady tricking others forcing others to crime. Rowdy bunch fighting over spotlight. Heading to darkness. Fending off bad guy with scissor to the death. Escaping parkour. Escape for year or so. Police on look out, one saw me, pretended to be cat. Policemen chase me. Park away. Parkour towards cliff. Betrayed by another who was tricked. Pushed into ocean. Replay cliff scene once.

Going through a residence girls dorm. Wanted to leave from window, window multi layered. Lucid.

Window = earlier in day.

Had 2 ld

First one was during nap. I tried to stabilize thought about meditating but did not see body so back to rubbing hands. Fear of it b stopping ended dream.

Second one was long during night. Perhaps several micro awakenings. I was exploring with 2 dcs, they stayed with me along scene changes. Even after teleporting. Started in city area , in apartment that was locked so tried to find other ways in didn't recall dream goal so explored. I also went to a condo or apartment that was brighter and seemed higher end I have a feeling it was the same one where I meditated outside. But this time I was inside. Was trying to get to country side at the end.

Had nlds too.