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I never properly become 'lucid' in this, and I found the dream I had really disturbing so I'm going to cut a few details out for my own sake.

During the night an alarm I had set a week beforehand had gone off at 4am. I wasn't prepared for this, I had completely forgotten, but I decided it would be a good opportunity to do a SSILD because I seemed to have awoken just before an REM period. What followed was my third consecutive attempt at a SSILD and almost my second lucid dream in an extremely disturbing situation.

Dream 1: I hope I can purge this from my memory one day.
I was lying in my bed going through the cycles required in a SSILD technique, eventually I fall asleep (literally after an hour, insomnia nearly kicked in). I'm sitting on the edge of a bed reading a book about hydro-geology (one of the papers I'm studying in university), the room I'm in has a pale blue colour to it, and there is a bookshelf next to me. Two milfs walk in, and the one on the right suggests another book for me to read on the same topic. I thank her for the suggestion, and the two woman sit on either side of me. I get a bit uncomfortable and nervous as I realize what's going on, the two woman are attractive and seem to be interested in me. I put my head into my lap and draw a deep breath, something just doesn't feel right. In the space of a few seconds I've somehow gained the notion that I must be in a dream, but I haven't checked yet, and I'm still thinking about the two woman next to me... They look at me and I only have two thoughts going through my head: Do a reality check... Have a three-way...
Before I could even do anything in these few seconds of mild realization, the woman to my left has hooked up with me, I close my eyes, her tongue feels cold and thin, it shouldn't feel like that. The notion to do a reality check becomes stronger, I just KNOW that I'm dreaming, it has to be, I want to do one but I don't have enough time... I'm awake. And incredibly disturbed (since I left some details out, anyone reading this won't know why I feel disturbed).

I decide to reality check and make sure I didn't just have a false awakening, but nope, I'm awake. God damn it. Okay, try again. I go through the cycles again and try it from the beginning, but I'm too sleepy, I keep forgetting. I'm persistent though, I just KNEW that I could do it again. This is where another strange thing happened, I'm still not sure what actually occurred to me...

Lying on my left side, eyes closed. Something's happening. A strobe light-like sensation was happening to eyes, but instead of light, it was an alternating image, I instantly think that I'm entering a dream consciously. It happens in a rapid-fire act, going back and forth, where one second I can SEE my room, then I'm somewhere else, then back to my room, then back to the other place. This sensation only lasted a few seconds and I failed to make it stabilize. I should also note that in this case and inside the dream I had earlier, I felt my heart thumping away, I suspect that the adrenaline rush that came with the prospect of a lucid dream prevented from actually having one. Also I believe that the 'strobe light-like' thing I experienced might have been my eyes starting up an REM period as I was awake and aware, I thought that I might have accidentally almost induced a VILD (since I was heavily visualizing at the time).

1. I was in some sort of modern type classroom. The classroom was really nice, everything was polished and most of the interior of the room was white. The floor seemed to be a really buffed white marble tile. I was sitting next to a friend from school and on my other side I noticed the girl from school that I am currently crushing on. She was wearing a pink shirt and my god she looked gorgeous. I turned towards her and we talked for a bit.
Later on I remember looking out a window in the class. The window led to a view of the hallway. As I looked in the window I saw a really modern, high-tech city that had all kinds of neon colors; the main colors being orange and yellow. There were many skyscrapers in the city too, all of which had neon orange and yellow colors on them. It looked highly realistic and I felt very intrigued.

2. I was inside of my house and I had just walked upstairs. As I walked into my room I noticed that all of my furniture and belongings were all gone, nothing of mine was in the room. Instead, now the room was filled with furniture that wasn't mine but my sisters. I went to my parents and asked why all of my sister's stuff was now in my room. They told me that they ad switched our rooms and that now my room was my sister's. This pissed me off SO much, and I became so angry.
One reason is because my sisters room is alot smaller than mine. Also because I hated where my sister's room was located in the house. I decided to go on strike and instead of accepting my sister's room as mine, I would go sleep downstairs in the China room. I brought all of my sleeping stuff down into the China room and conveniently it was open and empty of everything. Somehow I got my mattress down into the room and I sat down on it.
I started thinking, "What if this is going to affect my Lucid Dreaming? I don't want to sleep down here!". My anger returned and I wondered why my parents made this stupid decision in the first place. I went back upstairs and looked into the room that was now my sister's. All of her furniture was white, and everything inside looked odd in a way I can't explain.

Wife, Son, and I were cruising down a double lane highway on a quad. We came to a high, steep, sand dune, which spanned the entire road. The only way around it, was over it. The wheels dug in, and then we got stuck half way up the dune. Concerned about flipping the quad, I asked Wife and Son to get off. I tried to drive up the dune, but it wouldn’t move, so I decided to turn the quad around, and head back down the dune. Incredibly, the quad magically turned around 180 degrees, and was pointing down the hill in the correct direction. I thought for a second that maybe I was dreaming, but I brushed it off, because everything seemed so real. Another quad was coming up the hill beside me, and it also got stuck. This backwoods looking fellow, with a baseball cap, and a crappy looking quad, was staring at me. A strange, black tar substance was oozing from his skin (kind of like X-Files). As I drove down the hill past him, he reached out and then smeared his black tar ooze all over me. It was totally disgusting, and I was pissed. I instantly became lucid (not sure why), drove the quad down to the bottom of the hill, and then I leaped off. I was mad. As I mention before I have a personal conviction not to be violent in my dreams, but this time I didn’t care. I flew up the hill to grab him, then he repelled me away with some sort of invisible force. I pushed real hard back at this invisible force and managed to grab onto him. We both floated up into the air wrestling, and I was gaining an advantage on him. While wrestling, we floated back down to the ground near the bottom of the hill. Suddenly, out of nowhere, comes this German Sheppard, and it attacks me. I let go of the man and grab the dog around it's chest. The thought of hurting the dog made me feel real guilty inside, and reminded me of my personal conviction. I stopped fighting, and thought to myself, “What am I doing? This is so wrong.” To my surprise, the backwoods guy turned into an East Indian man, dressed in a white robe, and the dog turned into an Asian woman, in a white dress. I still had my arm around her. The East Indian man said to me in a heavy accent, “You don’t handle humiliation well.” Then I said, “What?” He then said back to me, “Humiliation, when somebody does something to you, you don’t respond well.” I looked at him and said ,”Humiliation?” When I spoke the sound was distorted, and was breaking up. I was starting to wake, and the clarity was dissolving. He said back in a distorted voice, “Yes, Humiliation.” I focussed and concentrated on increased lucidity, and the clarity improved. I looked at the Asian woman, who I still had my arm around, and said, “Were you the dog?” She said yes, and I apologized to her. I then hugged her, put my head on her shoulder, and started to cry. I felt guilty for being violent in my lucid dream. The emotions then woke me.

I stand on the balcony with God, my friend amd the man I love from my past.I argue with mt friend.the ocean is burning with eed and yellow fire against the indogo sky.I curse the man I love saying: because you sorted out your life so quickly after I was gone it will last only a short time and then it will be broken.and I shout to God:why did you take him away from me?! I cry,the tears running down my face.I wake up because I sob loudly I cry so hard I wake up-all in tears. Today I find out that the man I love has another child while I have been pronounced infertile...

It was a non lucid dream. After something I don't recall happened I walked to where my brothers,cousins and people I don't know were. My cousin did something that made me angry so I started screaming at her. It made my brothers and another person mad so they started screaming at me. I left to another room and the screaming stopped but I felt something bad was going to happen cause my brother and a random guy walked into the room with a needle. "What are you going to do with that?..." I asked. "I'm just going to put this needle inside you so you won't get pregnant after I rape you." my brother said. I started running and yelled at him "why would you do that!? I'm your sister!" He didn't care though so him and his buddy jumped on me and he stabbed me with the needle. I pushed him afterwards and ran. I became lucid after that and decided to go through the window. When suddenly my brother's partner in crime jumped in front of me and said "If you go through the glass you'll end up breaking your head stupid." I ignored him though and went through the wall. I fell into a unknown place where there was a doll.The doll started out nice but than it got ugly real fast. It started screaming at me to play with it and stuff. But I did not want to so I ran.
I lost my lucidity after I got distracted with Chowder(CN Show) characters and icecream. Than woke up.

I look around to see my surroundings. I'm in my sophomore English class. Today I am working on finishing my class work as quickly as possible. something catches my attention it's a fly is in my monitor. It is just flying with complete calmness. BAM my computer has been screen blocked. I look to my sides to check if anyone else has their screen blocked I conclude that i am not the only one. My sophomore teacher begins to talk about a pop quiz. I look away and back to see my Junior English teacher now. She allows us last minute studying. I believe that I had already took the test so I beckon the teacher over. I ask her "Do I need to take the test?" She ponders over this question as if she doesn't know the answer. She answers yes and I start studying frantically as I only have a few minutes... As we start the pop quiz I look at it and have a hard time understanding it. I don't cheat, I start trying to remember my previous knowledge. The test is on my monitor and it gets screen blocked again all the others computers follow suite. An administrator walks in and talks to us blah blah blah. I am staring into my monitor watching the fly do its thing and fly. The administrator leaves and the teacher is my sophomore teacher again. The teacher give us full credit on the test as it was being timed. I hear noise in the corner of the room (its a kid from my WL) Gethsemane being his loud obnoxious self. He gets in trouble and is told to stay after class. The bell rings and me and Eduardo walk out of the B building. I see Gethsemane and ask him what happened he tells me "He gave me work to do but put the zeros into my report card already, for now." I say that I feel sorry for him and say my goodbyes. A we are leaving the building I look up into the sky and see how beautiful it is, it is cloudy but so bright and full of life. We head to our group's lunch table and the dream slowly fades away.
The Sky made me tear up a bit after i woke up.