lucid

7/18/2005
LD #7 “Make a Woman Appear”
I remember dreaming about college and Dave Phillips was there with me (I won’t go into any great detail about it.) Then I had a false awakening. I was in bed and got up. I was in a strange dark house, but this all seemed normal to me. I walked down a dark hall to the bathroom. I turned on the light and it was extremely bright. I went over the mirror and looked at my reflection. I had white spots (like dry patched of skin) all over my cheeks. I took a closer look. Then I realized that my face doesn’t look like this in real life. I actually questioned whether I should do a RC or no. I thought, this all seems too real to be a dream. Then I looked at my hand and counted my fingers, I had 8. I knew I was dreaming. I (as usual) began to rush out of fear of awakening. I walked out of the bathroom. I began to rub my hands together to increase lucidity, but the whole house was very dark so it was hard to tell if it worked. Sex over took me (once again). I found a door and opened it. It was a bed room. There was a bed covered in crumpled blankets. I closed my eyes and willed a woman into the bed, and it worked. When I opened my eyes and threw back the blankets there was an attractive naked woman lying there. I got into the bed with her with the intention of having sex, but immediately woke up.

7/1/2005
LD #6 “PERFECT ABS”
I remember being at my friend Mike’s house. I was looking out his back sliding glass doors at his lake. The lake was much smaller than in RL, really just a tiny pond. But there were large waves beating against the shoreline like the ocean. The Water level kept changing, one moment the water was very low, the next it came right up to his door. I remember seeing a dock/bridge that ran all the way across the pond. But part of it was submerged. I remember asking Mike and his bother Ed about it. We walked out to the shoreline and he had floated a large rusty oil drum out there to use to float the sunken section of dock up out of the water. I noticed that his dock was actually floating on huge bundles of trash. I wondered if this would pollute the lake.
The next thing I remember I am porky pig. I’m in a cartoon and I am chasing some girl pig through the jungle. We are sliding along vines that run from tree to tree like tight ropes. At one point I get a running start and catch up to her. I tackle her and we are suddenly tangled up in a bunch of blankets. We fall to the ground (no pain) and I am now myself and the cartoon girl pig is my fiancée. I am trying to gut untangled and she keeps rubbing up against me and moaning, trying to get me sexually aroused (and its working very well). I give in. I move the blankets enough so I have access to perform oral sex on her, and begin. She is moaning with pleasure. Suddenly I glance to my right and there is a large mirror there. I can see myself. I am standing there in just my underwear and I notice I have perfect abs. (My fiancé is now gone.) I flex my abs and they look like they belong to a body builder, I suddenly realize (much to my dismay) that my abs don’t look like this in real life (at least at this point in my life). I am lucid! I look at my hand and have 7 fingers. I am extremely lucid. I walk to the door and move to the next room, then to another door to another room. The rooms have no furniture, hardwood floors and stark white walls. Suddenly I say to myself, Stay calm, you always wake up too early because you get excited and rush around. So I take a moment to rub my hands together. I then calmly ask myself what I want to accomplish. I decide to try something new. I yell out, “I WANT TO MEET MY GREATEST FEAR!” Nothing happens. “SHOW YOURSELF!” Again, nothing appears. I begin to walk slowly and calmly to the next door and into the next room. There is a TV in the next room. There are (of course) cartoons playing, Sponge Bob this time. I know I am having trouble escaping from this “dream house.” I decide to go visit Sponge Bob by entering the TV. I kneel down in front of the TV and try to push my hand in. It won’t go. The screen is hard and cold just like RL. I remind myself that this is a dream and I can do anything. I try again and it works, my hand pushes in. (It feels like I’m pushing into warm dough.) I next push my head and body through, but simply end up on the other side of the TV, still in the same room. I stand and move to a door. I think for a moment, this door leads to the outside. I open the door and it is the outside. It is night and raining. I turn the lock on the door, but then stop and think What if I have to come back in? Then I laugh because this is only a dream. I begin to walk, in my bare feet, through the wet grass. I can feel the coolness of the rain on my body. I decide that I will search for some DC ‘s to speak with. I walk down a dark street with many houses, but I see no one. Then I come to a small park and there are kids and parents sitting on benches. It is now daytime, clear and warm (it changed without me realizing it.) I walk among them. It is so real that I do a second RC (looking at my 7 fingered hand) and I know I’m still dreaming. The first woman I approach to speak to only speaks Spanish. I notice a child reaching for a round rock (a bit smaller then a tennis ball) that is on the ground under one of the benches. I put my hand out (like a jedi) and will the stone to my hand. It flies through the air and I catch it. All the children see this and come running over. They gather around me, as I will the stone up onto the air in front of me and make it spin really fast. Suddenly I let the stone drop, the urge for sex has overtaken me yet again. (I really need to get control of this in the future.) I run off to find an attractive woman. I don’t get far before I wake up.

6/21/2005
LD #5 “Marketing Class Out Doors?”
I'm in my Marketing class, except it is taking place in a perfect New England town common. It is a perfect summer day; warm & sunny. I am lying on the grass with a blanket over me and a guy from work is to my right. He reaches out and grabs my arm. I get angry and grab his forearm, and squeeze with super human strength. I feel the bone snap in my grasp. He yells in pain and I suspect I'm dreaming. I apologize for breaking his arm and stand up. I look at my hand and realize that I have extra fingers. I begin jogging down the street. I wave to my professor, who is standing behind a brick podium atop a small grass hill. I get up to a good speed and jump into the air. I fly up at least 100ft like superman. I can see the entire town below me. The sky was blue with some puffy white clouds. It was bright, but I never actually saw the sun. I do a huge loop-da-loop and end up near a maple tree. I can see the leaves so clearly. I then fly (about 20ft off of the ground) down a cobble stone street. I come to a set of steps and at the bottom is a large fountain. I fly right into the water. It splashes all over me, it is cool and refreshing. I realize that I am now in a building, in a stair well. I slide down a stainless steel banister. I end up in a hotel lobby and there are lots of people. I wave at and greet some of the people. Suddenly the urge for sex takes over. I walk to a petite blond woman in a white and red striped sweater. I walk up to her and look deeply into her blue eyes. I slip my arm around her waist and can feel the fuzzy texture of her sweater, the softness of the flesh beneath, and the warmth of her body. I begin to gently lead her toward the elevator and she willingly walks with me. - I realize that this situation would really piss-off my fiancé and wake up.

5/18/2005
LD #4 “Clean up the Glue”
I was sitting in my living room watching Looney Toons. Bugs Bunny and Daffy Duck asked me to play a game. The game consisted of me squeezing this ball (about the size of a tennis ball, but smooth red plastic) and Elmer's glue would shoot out. Who ever got the most Elmer's glue would win. I squeezed the ball and a huge stream of glue shot out and landed on the hardwood floor. I was very upset and got up to get a paper towel to clean it up. When I tried to wipe it up it just smeared on the floor. Suddenly I realized I was dreaming. I stood up and decided to use Telekinesis to remove the glue. A young man suddenly came up from behind me and stood right in the puddle of glue. I shoved him out of the way and used my mind and hand (like a Jeti) to lift the glue off of the floor. I had some trouble at first, but finally the glue was floating in the air like a bubble. I moved it into the kitchen and dropped it into the sink. I then moved to the young man, slapped him on the back and said, "I'm dreaming, so I'm going flying." I jogged out the side door and into my yard. I went to jump into the air and noticed a car driving down the street. I delayed for a moment, because I didn't want the person in the car to see me fly. Then I thought "I'm dreaming" and jumped into the air. I flew about 20ft from the ground and woke up.

11/3/2004
LD #3 “Naked Co-Worker?”
4:30 a.m. – LD – Once again a naked woman prompts lucidity.
(I had a midterm test last night and was very relieved that it was over when I got home. I ate a large amount of a pomegranate just before bed.)
I really can’t remember anything of this dream prior to the point just before lucidity. I am in a classroom with a bunch of other students. Then Beth (a co-worker) comes up behind me. The teacher (a tall woman with long dark hair) is coming down the aisle in front of me to meet Beth. I turned to look at Beth and was shocked to find that she was naked. I immediately became lucid (this is an obvious dream sign for me.) (I remembered to rub my hands together to stabilize the dream, and it worked.) I didn’t even have to do an RC to verify, I just knew for a fact that I was dreaming. I looked closely at her. She had a very nice body (which she doesn’t have in RL). She asks the teacher if she has any pomegranate and the teacher replies that she doesn’t. I stand up and say, “Hey, I have some left over from last night.” I am still staring at Beth’s naked body and for a brief moment I consider having sex with her, but I realize that it would be wrong because Jen would be mad at me. I walk out of the room leading Beth. We go into the next class room (which is empty of people) and there are the two pieces of left over pomegranate on the teacher’s desk. I left Beth at this point. I walked back out into the hall and began to rub my hands together to increase lucidity. I turned left and went down a flight of steps to the first floor. I began walking down a long hall to leave the building. I remembered that I wanted to practice my flying. I passed a room on my left and looked in through the window on the door. The room was full of young women (in tight red sweaters) singing. Again the thought of sex crossed my mind, but I resisted. I knew that it would just cause me to wake up and I was supposed to practice my flying. I walked away from the temptation quickly and headed straight for the door that lead outside. I exited and saw a large group of high school kids standing under an “overhang” that extended out from the school. I raised my hand to them and yelled, “HI EVERYBODY!” in my best imitation of Dr. Nick from the Simpson’s TV show. The crowd of kids yelled back, “Hey Jeff V…..!” Then I thought, ‘hey I can really impress them by flying and I jumped into the air. I didn’t fly, I simply landed on my feet just like in RL. I then thought ‘this is my dream and I can fly!’ I jumped into the air superman style and this time I flew easily. I soared up over the school and I could see the roof of a large yellow house next to the school. I looked down at the grass and the tops of trees. I soared around for a few seconds and then landed. I noticed the radio towers near the school (they are there in RL also). I wanted to fly up to the top of the tallest one and see what the red light looks like up close. Suddenly there were some trees blocking my view of the towers. I started to run to the right to get around the trees so I could see the towers again, then I thought, ‘what am I doing? I can fly.’ I took off again and began to soar upward toward the tower and then the dream faded out too quickly for me to react. – I WOKE UP.

10/18/2004
LD #2 “The Indoor Pool”
5:05 a.m. - 2nd LD – after much trouble falling back to sleep, I suddenly find myself outside of an old house. It is fall and the trees have changed color. I realize that two hick guys (who I know in my dream but not in RL) own it. I walk up to the door and think, “I wish they had a pool.” I open the door and on the other side was a huge Olympic size built-in pool. I am standing right on the edge of it at the doorway. The two hicks are standing on the far end of the pool next to a large table. The pool touches the walls on the left and right. I yell to Mike (a friend/co-worker, who is suddenly with me), “Hey come look at this.” I step onto a tiny ledge to my right. Mike comes to the door and jumps right into the pool. I can feel the heat coming from the water and realize that it’s a heated pool. I say, “Oh my god, Jen would love this.” I close my eyes and try to ‘will’ a diving board into existence because I want to dive in, but it doesn’t work. I realize that I’m fully clothed and decide that I don’t want to get wet. I notice that there are hand rails, about 2 inches under the water, running the length of the pool on the left and right. I balance against the wall and walked down the rail to where the hicks are. My shoes get wet, and I can feel the warm water trickle into my shoes. (This is where the shallow end is.) (As I walk I notice that the tiles at the bottom of the pool are very old and worn, and I think, oh well. What should I expect from a hick’s pool?) I tell them that it’s a nice pool. One of the hicks is a guy, about my age. He has greasy hair and is wearing one of my company sweatshirts. It is all dirty. I think I had better clean him up before Jen gets there or else she will be upset. I try to ‘will’ the sweatshirt clean, but it doesn’t work. Suddenly, I realize that I’m trying to will things to happen and that is strange. I look at my hands and I can’t focus on them, if I look directly at any one of my fingers I can’t see it, but I can see the ones that I’m not looking at. “I’M DREAMING”, I yell. (I forget to rub my hands together.) I ignore the hicks and Mike (who has just gotten out of the pool.) I walk on water back across the pool where there are now huge plate glass windows. I am thinking I only want to explore. I get to the window and put my hand against it. It is cool and hard just like real glass. I look outside and there is a forest of fall colored trees. I am amazed by how clear it looks. The colors were more vibrant than RL. There is a low stone wall among the trees and I examine it. I look closely at a maple tree, and the leaves are a beautiful gold color and I can seem them rustling in a breeze. I can see bits of clear blue sky through the trees. I want to go outside, but I hear a door open behind me and turn around. Jen has walked in at the other end of the room. I see her and I desperately want to kiss her. I walk on water back to the other end of the pool. I am suddenly VERY aroused. (I still know that I am dreaming.) I think to myself that this is a bad idea because sex can wake me up, but I just have to kiss her. I walk up to her and notice that she has dark red lipstick on I can see light reflected off of her beautiful lips. I wonder to myself, “In a dream a kiss could be more intense than a kiss in RL.” I put my arms around her, one behind her right shoulder and the other behind her waist and pull her to me. She resists a bit. I pull her tight to me (I can feel her body against mine) and press my lips to hers. The kiss seemed to envelope my whole body, I felt like I was going to explode with sexual energy. Then the dream began to fade and I didn’t think to spin or rub my hands. – I WAKE UP. I do an RC by looking at my clock twice and I am actually awake.

10/5/2004

LD #1 “Can’t Ditch the Kid”

4:50 a.m. – LD - YESSSS!!!!! I DID IT!!! My 1st intentional lucid dream!! It started as a false awakening. I woke up in my bed and I knew (without looking at the clock) that it was time to get up for work. I got up and went to the bathroom. (My bed room was on the 1st floor in my dream, but on the 2nd floor in RL.) I went into the bathroom and looked at my face in the mirror. My nose was huge and blue, & it took up my whole face. I thought, ‘My nose doesn’t look like that!!’ Then I thought, ‘OH MY GOD!!’ And I looked at my hands. MY FIRST RC IN A DREAM, WOO HOO!! My fingers were all squiggly, just like you guys described. “I’M DREAMING!!” I yelled out loud. I walked out of the bathroom and into a hall, but it wasn’t my hall, it was a hall parent’s house. I actually remembered to rub my hands together as I walked down the hall and everything became clearer. HOLY CRAP, did things look real. As a Walked past a door on my left, Olivia (my girlfriend’s daughter) came running out after me. I tried to ignore her and went into the kitchen. (It wasn’t a kitchen I recognized.) I walked over to the sink and picked up a small jar that was sitting there. I felt it; it was cool and hard, it felt exactly like a real jar. I brought it up close to my face and looked at it; it was clear and reflected light, just like a real jar would. Then I threw it against the wall. It smashed brilliantly; glass flew everywhere, far more glass then should have come from a little jar. Olivia came running into the kitchen saying NICKIE, NICKIE!! (Her nick name for me.) I say, “Olivia, I’m busy.” I grab her and move her out of my way. I had to get away from her. She was ruining my first LD. I ran to the sliding glass doors that lead to the deck. (Just like at my parents house.) I slid the door open, turned and tried to close it to keep Olivia inside. She just slid open the door. So I slid the screen door closed and tried to lock it, but she managed to open that too. I ran to the gate on the deck and jumped over it figuring that she was too little to climb over it. It was about 4ft tall. I jumped up and landed on the top of it, and then jumped to the other side onto the grass. She jumped over it to. Then I said, “Olivia, go back in the house.” She kept following me saying, “NICKIE, NICKIE, NICKIE!!” So I finally said, “Screw this!” I did a superman and flew into the air. I didn’t have full control of my flight. At first I only got to 12-15ft off the ground and started to drift out of control toward a tree. Olivia jumped into the air to follow me, and now I’m starting to get REALLY annoyed with her. She is flying toward me calling, NICKIE, NICKIE!!” I thought, THIS IS MY DREAM AND I CAN FLY LIKE SUPERMAN! Then I got full control and began to fly higher and faster over housed and trees. I finally got away from Olivia. Then the dream started to fade and I forgot to rub my hands together. I woke up. It was 4:45 a.m. and there was no way I could go back to sleep. So I came down stairs (Did another RC incase this was a false awakening, and it wasn’t, I’m really awake.) to type this up before I forgot any of it.

9/14/04 - (I believe that was the date)

This was my very first LD and it happened naturally. I wasn’t trying to have LD ‘s, I didn’t even know that it was possible at the time.

1st LD – Unintentional “My Topless Girlfriend”

I was at work, which is a large room with many low cubicles. My coworkers are all at their stations taking phone calls as usually. I am sitting up at the front of the room doing my shift lead functions and my boss (Gail) is sitting to my left, in an adjacent cubicle. Suddenly, my girlfriend walks into the room topless. I was surprised and my first thought was, "How did she get by security like that?" Then I noticed that no one else was paying any attention to this half naked woman walking by them. Then something clicked in my mind........"Oh my god! I'm dreaming!" I got really excited (which was a mistake) and thought "Hey! I can do anything I want!" Then I woke up.

I found myself on top of what seemed like an ancient Indian temple in the middle of a sprawling city. The stone had become a dark green with age. I could see further temples breaking through the clouds in the distance.



I kneeled down and placed my hands on a wall. The wall was gritty and it felt like I was running my hands along sandpaper. Which each and every stroke I could feel the vividness of the dream pumping up. I then planted my face into the wall and took a long sniff. It didn't smell like anything in particular but this mere action sent the vividness into overload.

I stood up. I have never been in a dream that felt so real before. For brief moments I questioned my reality and I honestly thought that I was on top of a roof somewhere in India. Everything so was so clear that I could see the dust particles floating in front of my face.

This new found reality scared me a little. I was stood on top of a temple with no way of getting down. I could fly but in the back of my mind this felt too real to try something as dangerous as that. I decided to spin on the spot and teleport to somewhere safer.

I found myself in what I could only describe as Scotland. In fact there was a hiker with me who was singing something with a heavy Scottish accent. I ran towards some of the rocks to do the same as before but unfortunately I woke up.



Someone in my house slammed a door and it woke it me up. I honestly felt that that dream could of lasted hours! If only I had my ear plugs in.

1. [Non-Lucid] [Emotional]
I'm looking for Emily as I have become worried because I haven't heard from her for a while, I even thought about contacting her mother at this point.

Now I'm at a party of some sort and I find Emily and we start talking, she says "I love you" this surprised me and I replied with "What?", (You would not believe how much I love her in waking life) not sure what happens next but I follow her and then she runs off leaving me.

I go find her, she's sitting at a table looking down at this sheet of brown paper with text on it on the table (fat guy with a grey shirt on a couch opposite her saying something), so I approach her and I ask what's wrong, shes silent, this is worrying me, I talk to her then she lets out a few high pitched screams so I back off...then this random guy comes and crouches beside her, he says something to her, i don't know what but she seems ok with it...she then runs off I think, I stay at the table and cry. I wake up crying.

This felt so real, the emotions felt so real.

2. [Lucid] [WILD/DILD?]
I'm laying in my bed then all of a sudden I hear the sound of air rushing past my ears, I then see like a movie shot of me falling down to earth. (It was so colourful, was like an evening orange sky)

//I'm now in my bedroom standing in the middle and the front door is open so I rush outside onto my street (its quite bright) and I activate super speed and started running up the street about to fly// but I wake up. I was also wearing a white cape.

Sidenotes:
Should have stabilized first.

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Fragments:
Wrapping this thick black wire around a palm tree on the floor or something.

Possible dream signs:
Emily

I tried WILD IRL, but understood that i stood near my house with my son. I thought that i couldn't make WILD when kid disturbs me and we went in to see cartoons. The TV was on the floor and was upside down, but i switched it on and found cartoons. Then i went to the kitchen and remembered about WILD )) made RC - it's a dream. I decided to make a portal to the Alice in wonderland, stood in portal, and dived in the water. I could breath there. darkness. i awoke.

I was asleep on the wrong end of my bed. I remember "waking up" to the sounds of my great grandma talking to my family from the living room. I was way too lazy to investigate. I noticed a strange lady living in my tin toy safe at the end of my bed. She was approximately the size of a mans fist, beautiful, and very confident. She came out of her home whistling , making her way out of my bedroom.

I felt too drawn to her, so I beckoned her to me. To my surprise she did so. However, she kept whistling, which was starting to annoy me. Just as soon as I beckoned her towards me, I sent her away. She began to go towards my door before I changed my mind again and begged her back. All the while she was still listening. The back and forth game happened approximately 3 times before I really annoyed her.

The last time I begged her back, she sighed heavily, stopped whistling, and hit me with this bit of wisdom: "Let people send YOU to places, don't let them do tasks for you. - that's how a good spy does it."

I then gained semi lucidity, but as soon as I became fully aware that a tiny wise spy lady was talking to me, I woke up.

08.03.2014

Danzo Gets The Senju DNA (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's almost as if I'm at a sky city, but I'm not aware of this throughout the dream. I'm standing on a series of long wooden planks that are coated in red.

Feeling a sense of adrenaline surging through my dream body, and how I had awkward mental states fluctuating, and that Hashirama is actually talking to me made this obvious. Though it's a typical dream where I decided to be a spectator, and see how things would progress, because those are always fun when you don't have constant worries of having to plan.

Hashirama seems to be worried about something, but I'm not really bothered to ask him why. I knew that behind me would be a drop off from a high elevation, so I look forward to find there's a very large entrance that seems to be surrounded by some kind of mini-mountain. Inside, there seems to be a lot of retaliation going on, and I rush into the scene for no apparent reason.

Danzo is fighting someone, though I can't make out the facial composition of the other individual. It seems Danzo gets his neck pierced with a sword that goes digonally into his stomach.

Forgetting about all Naruto Shippuden logic, somehow I'm convinced that Hashirama's Senju DNA was something conveniently given before his (Danzo) apparent death in this dream. But of course, it's just an illusion when it's prevalent that he's using Izanagi. He looks at me, and probably Hashirama as well. And then he has a purple aura surrounding him, carrying on with the fight with whoever is surrounding us.

I can't remember much after that.

When I become lucid I am at my childhood neighbor's place. But the inside of the house has transformed into a big hot-spring. Some friends are there. Not the one to whom the house belongs though. I try to convince my friends that we are all sharing a dream, inciting them to become lucid. That first scene alone was quite long but I don't remember all the details. Eventually I decided to try to fly, which is my favorite thing to do when lucid dreaming. By controlling my breathing I begin to float out of the water and up. The roof is gone, leaving a majestic starry sky. My friends are worried. I have it all under control I tell them. I could control my floating flight at will, swiftly falling and rising. I go up. The sky envelops me. Far away I can see the hot-spring. And then it multiplies like a kaleidoscope. It covers all my field of view. The ground folds upon itself and envelops me in a bubble. In its walls I see crazy psychedelic visuals. I am surrounded by the greatest light spectacle I've ever seen.
I wake up. Or maybe the dream continues for a little bit. There was a scene where I kissed a girl in the hot-spring room but I can't quite position it in time. Anyways. I wake up. But not really. I am still dreaming but it takes me a while to realize. I am shocked by the dream I just had so I quickly pick up my diary and start writing it. That dream version of the entry was much more detailed than this one. Everything was really clear in my memory. I could come back to almost every moment, which is odd because I usually have somewhat bad recollection. The memories are so fresh. But I know that they are going to fade away. I wish I had a more concrete proof of the existence of that dream. As that thought crossed my mind a crystal sphere comes out of my mouth. It is the dream, condensed, complete in all its extension. By touching the ball I experience the entirety of the dream as a simultaneous memory.
But then another ball comes out of my mouth. And this one too is a complete dream, only one I have not yet had. In this ball is the complete dream, and I also experience it simultaneously; timeless. Maybe I actually go through the dream and it is only my memory that which was compressed. But then another comes out, and another. I don't remember how many. And each of them was a complete dream. Adventures, movies, epic symphonies. Experienced in a flash. I could perceive the totality of each dream but I wasn't able to retain most of it.
I showed them to my father. I was so happy to have these solid physical memories of so many marvelous dreams.
Eventually what came out of my mouth was not the crystal globes but some kind of jade eggs, vessels, cylinders. The top part comes apart so they can be opened. And when they are they produce a strange sound. Deep, kind of like a whale's. But each is different. Me and my dad play around with these dream instruments. I think by that time I knew I was dreaming again. Eventually the dream lost stability and faded. I don't remember its ending.

3/8* Before going to bed I didn't have much hope for an LD after an exhausting 2 days of physical activity but it was looking up 5 hours in during my WBTB and I felt confident. Poor recall during the non-lucid portion of the night. Fragments: 1. something about getting galantamine as a prize or for free as a reward. 2. The sport I was playing last night. LD: I'm outside and the lighting changes markedly from brighter to darker. I look around thinking that's strange, it's night time. I look to the sky and there is a light source behind the clouds and just as my sc tries to explain that it was due to clouds passing over the moon I realize that I am dreaming! The change in lighting was just too stark. I'm in a back yard and go into the house looking for a DC. I had planned to go back to last month's TOTM before doing another current TOTM because I loved the concept. I asked a random female DC "Who is my true love?...give me their name please?" She responded "L" (spelled out first name hidden here for privacy). I immediately thought of my very first girlfriend, she had the same name "but I haven't thought about her in years and I broke up with her and I never thought of her as that special...could it be a different 'L' " I thought during the dream. I told myself that it was time to move on. I went out through the front door wondering where I was and found I was stepping onto the street in front of my childhood home. I start heading towards the creek but that reminded me of a childhood run-in with the neighborhood bully and I walked up to his door and busted down the door with telekinesis. I walk inside, find the neighborhood bully and knock him a round a bit. Hmm...twice lately I have committed violence in an LD which is unusual for me. Having had enough of that, I thought of a goal I had planned for my first step of the 3 step tasks for the xcompetition that combined well with one of my personal goals but it required me to be in my current waking life locale. I do a closed eye teleport and arrive in front of my current home. I immediately start to float/fly towards and over the high tree line nearby and it feels so wonderful. I momentarily consider visiting Girl Friday but decide to continue with my goal of flying to the city, above and around the city and then towards and over the coast. I start flying somewhat leisurely checking out some local landmarks before deciding I should pick up the pace and start flying very fast and arrive at the city. My vision has become a little less vivid and I fly up to the top of one of the tall buildings and look around. I probably could have spent some more time working on the vividness but I decide I may not have much time and continue with my plan to fly around the city in a big circle at super speed. I end up in the void before feeling myself returning to my bed awake. I try to re-enter the dream just in case, but it seems apparent that I am too awake after that nice LD. 115

Awareness work type: retracing my steps (&looking at myself from the outside)+RC/visualizing goals
Pre bed: review of recent dream signs: stars, tram/variation, my fam, ex's; cliff/grass/ocean/sand visualization
wbtb: around 4.5 hours, did same as pre-bed + SSILD