lucid

Journal Entry Lucid # 61 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I Meditated before going to sleep. WBTB

Lucid Dream # 61, day: 07/11/14, time: 3:27-4:40am Am" Miniature Soccer":
I am in what I think is San Francisco. It looks like there is some special event. I see people walking by. I am just standing there dazed. I see a bicycle pass by me. I am looking at the city lights while it darkens. I started to finally walk. I see another bicycle or was it the same one. I am now engaging in the dream. I realized that a carnival came to the city. I go inside and see that it's a miniature soccer match between insects. I realized it was a dream.

I started rubbing my hands to stabilize. I look around and my perception looked like an old 1960's camera. It had distortion along with those black dots in the film. I then wanted to fly out of the carnival tent. As I am ascending I see garden weed start to grow from the ground and it went all the way up to the tent. I thought I could breach the tent but when I got there it was difficult. It felt solid. I kept pushing through, my head got in and when it did I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid # 60 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I Meditated before going to sleep. As I was going to sleep I tired to notice the process of sleeping to induce a WILD or OBE.
As I start to feel the sinking sensation and I became aware of it, it disappeared.

Lucid Dream # 60, day: 07/07/14, time: Unknown-6:49am Am" Angel of Death":

The girl I once liked was in my room. She started to touch my private part and it felt good but I know we can't be together. It felt wrong. I left her and went to the bathroom to wash my face. I thought to myself it could be a dream. She wouldn't do this in waking life.

The bathroom light was off. I see a blurry image of myself, it gave me chills. I then go to my room. I look at that mirror and I see myself as an eight foot tall giant, wearing a black hoodie. I then turn around to see that it is not my reflection but Death. He had his staff with him. I couldn't see a face, the hoodie got rid of that.


A man shows up and distracts Angel of Death, "Killing one guy won't solve your problem". He teleported me to my house and I am watching it on tv. I felt powerless because he too my flight from me. When he teleported me, my perception changed, everything looks like a poorly 3d animation. They were having an intellectual conversation that I couldn't keep up with. They even said words I didn't know, they might have just made it up though. I grabbed paper and tried to write down what they said. I thought, "how stupid is that, this is a dream, if I write it down it doesn't matter!" I threw my paper away. I tried to enter the TV screen to stop Angel of Death.

Death pushes the other guy. He then summons me. He had an army of robots connected to a plug. They had these arms that were bluish and transparent. They used that to lounge at me. I used telekinesis and threw them aside. One of them threw a punch at me and I noticed it. I extended my arm and stopped it. He kept pushing at his arm and it got closer and closer to my face. I then pushed back with a burst of TK. I then went to the plug and I exploded it by clinching my fist.

There is a kid at church, in 6th grade and I introduced him to LD. He has been wonderful in dream control. The one thing is, he is extremely violent towards DC. He suggested if I have any trouble with dream characters I use TK to stop their heart. Creative but brutal.

And I remembered what he said. I started to fly, I didn't think much of it. I point my hand at Angel of Death and I clinched my fist. He grabbed the left side of his chest and fell. I thought about what I have done. I felt guilty. I went to him and I looked closer and realized that he was a machine. It was circuits that I blew out. I felt relieved. I starting thinking about Death and the irony that it has life.

I see the kid from church, ES. He said, "what now?" I looked around perplexed. I remembered that I wanted to make a portal. I told him that we are going to make a portal. I went to a supply closet and I said this will be our portal. I didn't really imagine a destination but I just wanted it to go somewhere else. I opened it and it didn't work. I tried over and over again but still nothing. He started to get bored. I told him and his friends that we could just fly away. I went to the window and I told them we are going to have to jump. His friends advised him not to follow me. I am flying outside their house. He started to fly to. They then tried it out. As we were flying I see a door in the middle of sky. I go to it and I open it. It has a shining light. I woke up.

I think the reference when the man told death "killing one guy won't solve your problem" he might have been talking to me as well.

In the past two weeks, the dreams have been intense, but I did not write any of them down.

In one, Boden didn't recognize me and didn't want anything to do with me. Boden, if I haven't mentioned him yet, has been with me from the beginning of my lucid dreams. I tried to get his attention. It was heartbreaking. Like I didn't exist to him. Like I was now so unrecognizable he couldn't fathom my being "good enough" to know his name. I felt crushed.

In another, I don't know who they were, but one was a young woman (feisty), the other a man around my age. I had to leave in a hurry and ended up walking around the city in the dark, in the rain, in a minidress and a flannel shirt the man lent me because it was cold outside. Every hotel I came to turned me away.

Sometimes I dream of just walking away from it all. Leave behind the stress I'm always under. I have nowhere to go and in the dreams it always seems to catch up to me (ain't that something?). Well, life recently has caught up to me. It's a constant struggle. The dreams I have are the only outlet I have available.

Lucid dreams I can go anywhere and drop any worry. I have friends who actually want to talk to me or spend time with me or just support me. Real life is so different. If I could choose a world to live in, it would be the dreams.

-Pix

Hello again and sorry for not posting recently. I have been trying some things recently with dream control that required a little field testing. My new medicine has helped me find a way to increase the duration of rem sleep through dream control. I was trying to find a way to stay in one dream instead of several dreams in one night. This has turned out to be a double sided coin however. You can stay in rem for longer and wake up sooner but on the other hand I have found out that you can also increase the duration of rem past the 'normal sleep time'. I can do this without the medication but is easier when on it. I believe that this may be a cause for some cases of people in a coma. I would like to test this longer but would have negative effects that I can not deal with having to pay rent and all. If there is anyone else who can do this and would like to try for me please pm me. I have slept for an entire day doing this. Your sense of time goes away after about 8-12 hours. If we can find out how this works we might be able to enter the dreams of people who are in a coma and help wake them up.

03.05.2014

Dreaming 101 (DILD)

Forgot to post this a while ago. One of my favorite dreams.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

0040 - I'm rushing to my college class. (Note: IRL, I'm not in college yet, but I don't notice this) I'm taking 5 courses at a time, as my schedule says, and one is on the 10th floor. At first I go up to the 8th or 9th with my friends, but realize that my class - D--- 101? is in 1029. Someone else and their mother is looking for the room as well, and notices me going there. I go in - it's a tiny entrance - find a seat, and sit down. I find out that we actually weren't supposed to be there, and that we were really lucky. I don't know what the class is about. The people in charge tell us to form groups of 5 or so, and everyone starts mixing together. I start panicking. I look around and see no one I can ask. I go up to this girl and ask, but she's doing some homework and says no. I look around again and Emily waves to me from across the room. I am relieved, and go sit down next to here. I say something about her saving my life and she laughs. Even so, I am disappointed in myself for not having made new friends in college. The people start talking, and it becomes apparent that we're supposed to "take a hit" of this substance. Me and Emily have never done drugs, and we don't want to. (Someone I know, possibly Emily, is sitting next to me) We get cups of this liquid gas and the person next to me decides to drink it, which we're not supposed to do. I inhale the gas, once, twice, imagine dropping into the ocean, and feel water all around me. I am asleep, and dreaming, and know that I am.

I don't remember what happens next. I think I start exploring. Oh - the other person may have been Stephanie. I'm with her in the dream. We're in a city, and I keep jumping and flying up and up and up, and she grows really big. I reach this overhang/cliff and grab onto the building, but it's weak and can't support my weight. I notice the big drop down to the street below and the arrows pointing in a line underneath me and tell S that she can go through the tunnel underneath to see me do an awesome drop. She doesn't really want to, or doesn't care either way. Not sure. Anyway, I keep holding onto the building wih a hand or two and my body keeps jumping up or floating up - perhaps on its own, or I have to keep doing so for some reason. It feels like I'm in space or constant antigravity or something. Eventually I jump too far and my legs overbalance and I flip over the edge and fall down.

It was realistic, I think. Fairly vivid. I fell down but I knew I could fly up, and so I did. It was somewhere around this point that I really realized that I was dreaming. I did an RC and everything. Things became clearer, more vivid without me trying. I fly around the city, looking at the cars, which weren't rendered properly, and we get up to the point up there. All the while, I remember the college course, and realize that it's about being about to control your dreams and trips and all that. When I meet Snape and crack my eyes open briefly in real life - or was it the college class? - I close my eyes immediately and imagine a well in the ground. A voice says, "Hover, don't drop," and I think I return to Snape and all that. New Yorkin' 2 on a billboard in rainbow letters somewhere in a city. Across the billboard there is another big poster, where the words all fluctuate. Snape is there, rather scary. Had to somewhat DEILD back in. He made a potion and reluctantly gives it to me, but says that if i take it, my other class will not be something. I decide not to take it.

I decide that I've had enough of a cloudy, foggy atmosphere and fly up past the overpasses crowding the city. The sky is beautiful and rainbow and full of stars. For once I am truly excited that this is a dream. There may have been an airship. I looked at the cars, which looked wonky and all that. At some point, the dream ends.

WILD
I recognized a micro-awakening around 4-5AM, I stayed still and SP hit me fairly quickly, The dream created around me and I found myself in a large city, I noticed I had a womanly body and suddenly remembered Vulture, I morphed into her and decided to begin her story here, the name of this city was appearantly Maetropol.
I decided to take control just a tiny bit to advance the story somewhat, I went into a small alley (I envisioned a bounty hunter café there) I went inside, many bounty hunters were there, all with their unique style, I went up to the bartender and asked for a job, he just laughed at me and said "aren't you a little young kid?" after that I got pushed away by this hulking guy "Leave the bounties to the big guys" I jumped up and yelled in his face "Well, come at me then you incompotent gorilla" He didn't appreciate that remark, he pulled out a large mace and began to smash at me, demolishing some tables and the floor, I decided I had enoug and I went outside, he followed me furiously, I quickly punched the ground and surrounded my two fists with stone. I lunged at him and I had hit him right in the face, he got knocked back a few meters, I quickly fired off those stone gloves at him and he went through to the street where he got hit by a truck. I went back inside, everybody now treating me with respect, I remember a guy coming up to me and telling me I had done a good job, I went back to the counter and asked for my job, I got a discription of a man with brown hair and brown eyes, appearantly he overthrew an evil general not long ago, I'm usually for the good guys, but when I hear what my reward was I immidiately took the job, the reward was 500.000$, I wasn't planning on giving up on that many money. I suddenly felt the dream fade away, I prepared for DEILD right that moment.

Two more lucids to report! One really short one in which I accomplished nothing, and the WILD from last night that was a failure at my own task, but may at least count toward the TotM.

I didn't post my brief failed attempt yesterday, so...

7/10/14

07.10.2014

Onward to Fail (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm talking to my parents, when I reach up to feel my hair and notice that its longer than it should be. It seems to be as long as it was before I cut it short, which means it's well past my shoulders. How could it possibly have gotten so long again?

It couldn't have. This only happens when I'm dreaming, I remind myself. I instantly recall the task that I've already failed at once. I'm supposed to find Dreamer and then find an elevator to Hell. I walk off, starting to call for her, but quickly feel myself losing the dream.

I try to stabilize it... No luck.

I'm pulled into a false awakening.

My problem seems to be that I'm too worried about stabilization, which causes me to think too much of my physical body. Since my attention is more on worrying about waking up, I lose the scene.

7/11/14

07.11.2014

Critter (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There are three black widow spiders in front of me, having a conversation. They are neutral to my presence. They also seem to be males, which means they're not venomous. Still, I'm not too keen on being bitten, so I am doing my best to get what I need without coming into contact with them.

I reach around their webs, only to be bitten by a different kind of bug. At first I think it's one of the spiders. I jerk my hand back and the bug comes with me. It's this weird blobby thing; I can't really call it an insect because it doesn't have six legs--- it only has four. Still, it's insect-like. It is white and globular; each part of its body looks squishy and balloon-like except for its legs, which are serrated like a grasshopper's. Its body is clearly intended to try to camouflage it as a rabbit. The bug's hind end is equip with blobby extensions made to look like rabbit ears. It's real, insectoid head protrudes from its back. (Although since it seems more like the bug walks upside down and backwards, like a human trying to do a crab walk, I suppose the head is actually protruding from the creature's stomach). It is the size of a small baby rabbit.

((This is the best I could sketch it with my non-existent art skills.))




I stare in awe at the strange creature for a while before I learn it can talk. This surprises me, despite the fact I found talking spiders perfectly normal. His name is Jack and he becomes my friend.

07.11.2014

Journey Toward Hell (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm lying in bed awake with my eyes closed when I feel a slight vibrating feeling that means I'm about to enter sleep. It would be great if I can turn this into a WILD since I wasn't even aiming for that. The vibrations grow stronger, and by the second wave I am fully within sleep paralysis. I figure I can just get up and start the dream. I'm wrong. I open my eyes, but I seem to have opened my physical eyes instead of my dream ones (something that I'm able to do while trapped in SP). When I do, the vibrations feel like they're tearing my head apart. I quickly shut my eyes again.

Surely if I just lie here, it'll HAVE to turn into a dream. I wait, but nothing happens except for more uncomfortable vibrations. I try to move, hoping I can just get up and walk into a dream. I'm completely unable to budge a single muscle, phantom or otherwise. Normally I can imaging rolling out of the bed to get the dream going. This doesn't work either. Maybe WILD isn't the best technique for someone who suffers from chronic sleep paralysis anyway.

Finally, I'm able to lift my dream arm. I grasp around blindly, reaching for something that I can use to pull myself up out of my body. I reach a dresser and finally manage to succeed in untangling myself from the physical world.

I'm standing in my bedroom just in front of the door. I do a quick RC just for good measure, but it's not necessary. I'm already lucid.

I run out the bedroom door, ending up in my childhood home. No way am I going to fail at my task this time! I do my best not to think of the dream ending as I exit my house. It's night time and pitch black outside, unlike in real life where the sun has just barely risen. I sprint across the street toward my neighbor's house. I call out for Dreamer, banging on the door.

The door swings open and a sleepy looking purple-haired girl stands there staring out at me. Finally! Some hint of success! "I found you!" I exclaim in delight. "Now we've got to find an elevator and make it down to Hell!"

I grab her hand and pull her out of the house, trying to convey the necessity for speed. We start to run down the road together, full throttle. "I know where an elevator is," she tells me, seeming to understand what's going on now after her brief confusion. "Follow me!"

As we run down the street, she asks me why I'm asleep at such a strange time. At first I don't understand; then I remember that she lives in Australia. "Oh, right. There's a huge time difference between where you are and where I am," I tell her. "Last time I checked, it was 7:00 in the morning here. That seems like a while ago and my alarm is supposed to go off at 7:30, so we really need to hurry!"

She leads me to a section of the street that never fails to have some kind of evil within my dreams. I hope this time will be different; I don't need any distractions. Dreamer veers to the right toward a farm that used to have donkeys irl. We run through the dark field toward an outhouse-shaped building. Suddenly, an evil looking farmer in a tractor begins riding toward us. I feel a twinge of fear at his appearance, but I ignore it.

We run into the "outhouse" which turns out to be far bigger on the inside than on the outside. I expect there to be an elevator in here. Instead, it's filled with hay and dirt. Dreamer and I climb up and hang from the ceiling like ninja's hoping to hide from the evil farmer. He'll never look up here, I tell myself.

He does. He looks up and sees us as soon as he walks into the building. An evil grin spreads across his face. Once spotted, Dreamer and I drop from the ceiling to face him. The man wordlessly turns and pulls a lever by the door. The floor drops away beneath us--- we're falling into a pit which most likely leads to Hell.

Dreamer gives me a helpful smile. "Does this count as an elevator?" she asks.

I don't think it does. I summon a platform beneath us. It's one of those circular platform elevators that I've only ever seen in video games. There's a vague rumbling noise as the elevator slowly descends deeper and deeper into the ground. It's dark, and there's not much scenery, so I start to become concerned with losing the dream.

"Can't this thing move any faster?" I complain. I run from wall to wall, trying to keep focused on the minimal imagery. It's no use. The dream fades and I have a false awakening.

I fall asleep, and immediately see a face directly in front of mine, maybe our noses are a full nose distance apart at most. A man is staring directly at me, sporting a big, regular mustache, and smiling happily. Looking right into my eyes as his wide face remains motionless. I scream in terror, completely surprised by this man, because just a moment ago I was laying in my bed, waiting for sleep.

I wake up with a jolt, then question why he was so terrifying for me? I think it was the surprise factor of going from being by myself, to having a face all up in my face.

Awake Non-Lucid Lucid

3:00

I woke up to my alarm playing "Helter Skelter". I went to the bathroom and stayed up for another minute or two for a total of around 5 or 6 minutes. I then stayed in my bed for an hour and thirty minutes until I fell asleep.

~4:28

I woke up in my bed,hearing the usual sounds when I'm lucid (rushin, et cetera). This time I wasn't scared. I attempted to someone to walk into my bedroom, but nothing happened. I tried to get up, and all I did was lay there. I was paralyzed. I close my dream eyes, thinking that I'm in sleep paralysis or something, and that I just need to wait a few more minutes. I ended up awake at 4:29.

I then layed in bed for another whole bunch of time, waiting to go to sleep, accepting that I failed to have an LD this night.

~5:00

I remember babies, and my hometown. There were good and evil babies, and devil babies. I especially remember a certain demon baby. I also remember the playground in my hometown.

"Yes!" I said to myself as Sleep-paralysis sets in "Now, don't think of anything scary... like the grudge...
fuck!" said I getting scared, but Luckily for me, nothing happend. Instead I left my body and felt myself floating
to the ceiling. I opened my eyes and looked down onto my bed, empty. "Jesus, my bed is a mess." I said.
I tried to floath down, but gravity had not set in, so I pulled myself down on an invicible rope.

"Okay..." I said happy. "... Gravity is setting in." I realized as I walked down the stairs. When I reached the ground
I looked up and saw, with horror, my mom sitting in the faraway couch. "Okay, Kasper, concentrate... Atleast you
can use your trick to spawn Constantine... Just use the script" I assured myself. My mom looks up.
"Hi! Mom! uhm... is Constantine outside?" said I, trying to be confident. "Yes, she is." my mom said calmly.
"Where you going?" She asked. "Grocerie-shopping with Constantine" I said, sticking to the script. "Shopping
for what, dear?" She suddenly asked. Dumbstruck I panicked, because this she never asked before. "Uhm...
Cookies!" I said. "Cookies... What...kind... of... cookies?" She began to say, in a robotic voice. I reached
for the door, ready to make a run for it. "the...salty ones?" I said quickly. "WRONG COOKIE!" She suddenly yelled.
I screamed, for my mom changed into a demonic nature. Eyes turning red and spinning... I shrieked, while opening
the door wildly. "Hello Ka - 'NO TIME TO EXPLAIN!'" I yelled, interrupting Constantine mid-sentence. I grabbed her hand
and ran away.

"What happend?" she asks confused. "Vincent's... favourite... monster!" I stuttered, running
at high pace. She looked back. "Your mom?" She asks. "No!... Cookie...monster". "How did that happen?" she asks me
in a confused tone. I stopped. "Things... tend to turn demonic if I panic. For some reason my mom left the
script and asked me something new, so I panicked. Cookie monster, for some reason, came up in my mind so I
said 'cookies' and... - 'COOKIES!'" Interrupted by my mom, still chasing me. I grabbed Constantine her hand
again and ran back in a wide circle to the house. Slamming the door shut behind us, I let out a sigh. "That was close"
I said. Suddenly the door started to open. With haste we held the door shut, with our back. Re-acting the scene
of Jurrasic Park. "Search for a shotgun!" I yelled, while wildly looking for a shotgun to blow my mom her head off.
At the end, there was no shotgun... "Keys" Constantine said and locked the door. "NOOOOO!" My mom yelled outside.
Feeling safe for a second, we came to the conclusion my mom had her own pair of keys. "It knows how to open doors!"
I yelled,still trying to re-act Jurrasic Park in a vain attempt to spawn a shotgun. As we were holding the handle,
a voice behind us spoke. "What's the problem?".

I looked back. "Who are you supposed to be?" I asked annoyed.
"Your father" he said. Getting angry for someone to impersonate my dad, I lost lucidity for a second and wanted
to punch him in the face if it was not for the reason I had my hands bussy holding my mom outside. Luckily, I came back.
"Do something!" I yelled. "Oh, your mother is in one of her periods again" He says, while shoving us away and opening the door.
"WRONG COOKIE!" My mom yelled at my dad. "I know, hon. I know, come with me" He said reassuring, while walking away with my mom.
We waited until the yelling of cookies was over, before we left the house and went to the opposite road.

"This is NOT what I wanted" I said angry. "The only thing I wanted was to spawn you, then we could just walk
and talk... Maybe about my dad or what Anne said. But nooo, I changed my mom into a monster... AGAIN!" said I in
a frenzy. "Do things turn demonic often?" asks Constantine. "I once punched my cat in the face... it turned demonic.
One time I came here and my dog was acting apeshit. He acts apeshit IRL too, but now it was, like, tottaly apeshit...
so I punched him in the face. And he turned demonic" I explained. "you... punched your mom?" she asks. "No, not yet
that is" I said back. "Thing is..." I started, "... I once changed the entire world into minecraft! Then I lost
lucidity and transformed into a mindless Steve... But I could do stuff! I once spawned a dragon, I did lost
control of it, but there are times I just can't do shit... I want to re-create a scene of Godzilla and King
Ghidorah from GMK and spawn Lars in it so he can see - 'is he black?' - intterupt Constantine me. "What? Who?
No, he is not black!" I said. "Why would you ever ask..." I began, but suddenly fell to the ground.

"What's happening now?" I thought to myself, when I suddenly found me and Constantine standing in a wooden house
with multiple floors. "This is so not going as I want it to go..." I sighed. I looked at Constantine and noticed
she changed faces again, but always keeps her black hair. "Why do you do that? Changing how you look?" I asked her.
"Because I want to look different sometimes" She said back. "So WHAT was the point of you taken me to shop for clothes
the entire time yesterday?" I asked baffled. "No point" She said calmly. I let out a sigh. "Constantine..." I began,
"... do you, like, hear me when I talk or think about you when I'm awake?" I asked nervously. "Yes, but not clear.
Like a radio with a lot of white noise. Words pop out, sometimes sentences." She answered back. "Oh... uhm...
about some of the things I think sometimes... You know..." I said in a little voice. "No problem for me" She said.
"Oh great" I said reassured. "You know, I found you as a kid..." said I. "Yes, but you asked me to take the form
of an adult" She said. "I only did that because we were thrown naked into a room and I didn't like the fact you
were a naked kid" I pointed out. "So, I changed" she said. "Yeah, you did" I said back. "I woke you up when you
saw me" she points out. "Yeah... you DID do that, yes" I said. "So... Why re-act our world with shopping? This
world is far superior!" I remarked. "You really think that?" she asked, frowning, in a voice that I felt slightly
offended by.

"So what do we do now?" she asks while we climbed the stairs. "I don't know... maybe I transform
myself into a woman?" I said suddenly. She stops. "Do it" she says. I closed my eyes and said "WOMAN" and opened my eyes again.
"Did it work?" she asks curiously. "I don't know... I don't see anything" I remarked. "Maybe I'm flat-chested?
wouldn't be a surprise IRL if I would have been a girl... Ah, no, that doesn't belong. No, still a guy" I said.
"Why not start small?" she said. "Small?" I asked back. "You know... wish IT away?" she said. "... and then
build it. I would show you, but you would just wake up again" She points out. "No, let's not do that at all" I said sharply.
"Why a woman, though?" she asks curiously. "'Cause your sex has it easier then us" I said unknowingly. She let out a sigh
and suddenly walked further on her own. "What? What is it? Constantine?" I said, following her. Suddenly I collided with a
person. A whole crowd appeared on the second floor and Constantine was nowhere to be seen. "Watch it!" Yelled a guy and pushed
me away onto another guy sitting on the edge of the balcony. "Watch it!" said this guy and pushed me back. I got
pissed. "No, you watch it!" I responded and pushed him with my whole body, causing us to fall over the balcony.

Luckily I discovered I had super-strength and with one hand I catched the edge and with the other the foot of the guy I made fall.
"Wow, that was close!" I remarked. I looked down and saw the guy I was holding looked rather lifeless... I saw his neck in a weird
position and it was dragging on the floor. "Oh Jesus..." I said. I let him go. A hand reached for me, I pulled on the hand, making
a second guy falling down and break his neck aswell. "Oh God!" I yelled. I pulled myself up. Suddenly every Dream-character
began to yell, making a hurricane of noise. I ran away, they ran after me. It was as scary as in the movie Inception. Suddenly
I was in a room and out of the other door, guys in white came in. "No, not you guys! I'm NOT GOING BACK! You guys captured me for 3
nights in a fuckin' row and held me in a looney-house before I could escape. And fuck the talking Taco-guy!" I said furiously, remembering
a past event. I said out loud "KATANA" and swung my arm, while grabbing an innocent Dream-character. "STAND BACK!" I yelled, while
holding my weapon against his throath. "OR I..." I began, realizing it was not a katana but a plastic knife you find in fastfood-chains
like McDonalds. "... slith...his...uhm, throath?" I stuttered. For a second I thought I was fucked, but the crowd seemed to take
my warning seriously. So I just went into it. "STAND BACK!" I yelled. "Easy, easy" said the men in white "Noone should get hurt". Out
of the other door, a cop-woman came in with a gun "Oh, no" I cried. I was so not in the mood for my brain to simulate what it thinks
a gun-wound would feel like. "What are your demands?" asked the cop. Now, from my experience with movies... and I watch alot of movies...
this was not going to end well for me, it never did in the movies. "I want Constantine!" I yelled. "Ok..." said a guy in white and got
closer. "But let him go, take me". I was more then happy to replace the two.

"No! My husband!" yelled a lady in the background.
A crowd formed around us. The cop holding her gun at me, the white men getting closer. A woman crying.
I almost began to laugh how absurd this situation was going, while all I wanted to do was talk with Constantine while walking
down a road. "What's happend now?" Asked Constantine, pushing her way through. "Constantine!" I yelled and threw away the guy to his
crying wife, making them stumble. I grabbed her hand and threw the plastic knife at the guy while yelling "take this with you!"
but rather then falling on the floor, it pierced the guy head and fell down dead. Everyone, like the cards in the world of Alice
in Wonderland, jumped in the air to get me. I fell down on the floor and yelled "Constantine, do something!" She bended over me and
created a bubble that defended us and suddenly a white flash appeared and we were in an empty room, but the same house.

My vision was distorted. I heard a voice. It said "Hey, there. My name is Paula!" It seemed my vision was zoomed in, suddenly I saw
I was looking at breasts. "Ack!" I fell backwards and restored my vision. A woman was standing there, with a huge cleavage. "Holy, STOP
you going to wake me up!" I yelled. She laughed. "You are not used to much are you?" she responds back. I didn't like her tone. "Who are you?"
I asked. "My name is Paula Shefe" She explained. "Paula Sheevee?" I asked. "No, look" My vision zoomed back in at a necklace that
resembled a dog-tag. "Ahn, Shefe" I remarked "Wow..." I said, "You DO can read in dreams! it's even crystal..." I began, suddenly noticing
I was, once again, looking at breasts "Ack!" I fell backwards again. "STOP MESSING WITH MY VISION!" I demanded. She responded
with more laughter. Constantine was chuckling aswell. "Damn you women!" I expressed. I began to walk away and they followed me.
Suddenly a kid came up and as frustrated as I was at that point I said "I'm gonna punch the snot out of that kid". "Sure" says
Constantine. "Murder, treason... what is child-abuse anyway?" she pointed out. "You're god-damn right" I remarked. "Falcon...." I began,
suddenly I was in my room, "... punch!". I hit a brick-wall. I shaked my hand, suddenly realizing I woke up.






- Because this is my dream journal I made it like it was a story. All the actions that happend, happend real. 85% of what is said was said indeed, some stuff were from other lucids I put into this to fill in a long gap where
just nothing happend. I began with only "I said" and stuff without emotions, but this got rather dull to read, so I made some emotions into it that I think would fit best. In short this is a story closely based what happend in ly dream. The character Paula original had more lines in my lucid, but I decided not to include them, because most of what she said was perverted. Figures the way she looked.

Dream 1
*
I am in matrix movie location, walking with my dad, Kishore and other one. I opened a door by pulling a steel. One guy jumped from that building.
*
I am in somekind of house, my bro is playing the GTA and I entered into GTA. I am driving the Tank in the city and got 4 police stars and I planned to escape. I entered into auditorium and see some died peoples on the floor. I think its due to that guy jumped from the building.
*
I am in toilet of old grand ma house, I feel down due to head rotation and I think its due to galatamine. One buy picked me and told he will washup the toilet. I am in hall and my mom talking with Rani. She told mahabhratham saguni is giving chance to her for acting. She is going to join and I think I can also join if I got the chance.
*
Suddenly my teeth got pain and Its due to set and bottom got broken steel and it pierced my teeth muscles, I took it and see blood in the set. Then someone coming to my home and I put that my mouth and it cause pain again. I took it and see the blood again and it is paining hard.
*
I woke up and I feel some kind of pain sensation in my mouth.
*
Lucid Dream : 15 min
*
I am in some kind of strange place and it is evening 7. I become lucid and closed my eyes. Then I realized I am in dream and I should not open and I should goto meditation. I started meditation and I feel some kind of stretches. Then I stand up in some kind of road.
*
I in feel of eyes open and close.* I plan to explore and concentrated on a plant and got irritation feeling. Then I planned not to do that.
I went to a hotel with only rooms. I searching for people, but I see no one in the hotel rooms. I see a high way and plan to go to that place. I am near the high way, but I am unable to walk toward that road and some feeling is pushing me backward.
*
I think of matrix dialogue and I planned to crawl to that road, Then I finally went to that road and the location is like my mill road. I am walking on that road I see my house.
*
Whenever I see the building the outer look is changing, since its dream. Then I move forward, I see a bus rash driving on the road and see the horrible driver inside the bus. I crossed the mill area and I am in plants and tree region, rain started a feel the rain.
*
Then I went to some kind of separate house location, I flew and entered into the compound. I see the camels with funny look, I see some 4 working person for that home and asked where is he and I know him. One person told me he inside the home and you can go. I asked that 4 persons – what do you represent?
They replied their name with strange look.
*
Then I entered into the house and see some peoples in the room, the main person is sleeping at centre in the bed, I think I need to talk to that person. He wake up and I asked him – hi how r u and it long time we meet before.
*
He woke up and some people carry him. I went to house outside and see cats and dogs and took one cat. One dog shouting with good style. See a big cat laying below a cart and I think I should not disturb it.
*
I am at backside of that house and I fly to its top and see a wonderful location with nice breeze. I see politics flags of DMK and ADMK and they are flying in wind. I is a wonderful experience and I enjoyed.
*
Then I flew left side of that building and I heard a voice “He is going to make your girl” something. All the people rushed to one location. I fly and landed on one place, I think since I flying they think I have powers.
*

Then I see a brother and his sister. then I woke up.

#335 - DEILD Chain - 3:37AM

WBTB Caffeine
DEILD with breathing mediation


I wake and feel super alert from the caffeine so I decide breathing meditation would be best. After a few seconds I stop because I feel odd like my body glitched. I think something is wrong at first but quickly realize that I am entering the dream really fast. I go back to relaxing while focusing on slow, even breathing. No other thoughts.

I am standing in my living room and immediately start with my goal. I figure since I had such great fire images in my last LD it should be easy to summon fire magic. I try it by holding a hand up and blind summoning. I see flickers of light on the walls like I am holding a torch so I look at my hand. To my disappointment, I find a mostly normal hand. I try snapping a thinking of a lighter. Nothing. I put three fingers together and imagine I am holding an energy source. My fingers glow like I am holding a super bright LED. I look closer, starring and sort of mesmerized. The dream crashes.

DEILD no thought just waiting

For some reason I think I think I am partially awake and I am chatting with NyxCC on my phone with CL and Dreamer and some other DV members. I type "Damn" and reenter the dream.

Back in living room. NyxxCC is floating in the corner near the front door. I'm ok with her observing and for some reason I don't bother to interact with her. I have a lot of internal dialog reasoning this all out. I decide to go outside walking right under her.

I want to fly to space again but this time I really want all the fun visuals of flight. This time flying is easy but every time I reach a certain height, I hit the void and have to visually focus, finding myself on ground level, having to start all over. This happens three or four times until I give up.

For some reason I think I have DEILD (False DEILD? FA?) Again, I think I am partially awake and on chat. I am mainly talking with NyxCC. Again I just type "Damn" and reenter the dream. I see multiple line of text pop up. I assume they are all asking what my problem is. I make a mental note to explain later.

I decide to continue flying but stay low. It has been dark out but now it looks like early morning. I think I must be running out of time. I see something odd on the horizon. It looks like the old Disney movie logo but I only see the top half. There are a handful of stars that match the design with the lines in them. They sky is that a sickening blue color.



I think that if I fly there I will enter a dream version of Disney Land but I quickly get distracted. I see traffic and a decorative line of trees that lead into downtown. I follow it flying from tree to tree. Suddenly, a wall forms in front of me with a ceiling threating to trap me in. I Spider-man up it and phase out the ceiling. I tell myself I will be on top of a tall building. There's some darkness but I emerge looking down on the city from a concrete platform. I see people entering an open football field. Curious, I descend.

As I get closer, I see cars pulling and people milling about. The field is now a baseball diamond. I am more of a fan of baseball and I get a little excited. There are no players but I have and idea. I strut out onto the field waving like an honorary guest. I begin to hear cheers from the crowd. Instead of stopping at the pitchers mound I step up to home plate. Someone hands me a bat and I get ready. Randy from work is now at the pitcher's mound. He tosses a weak throw and the ball falls just short of the plate like a lead weight; no bounce or roll. A ref takes up the ball and gives it back to Randy. He does an underhand toss much closer but the ball fall short again. I begin to feel cocky and mouth some taunts at Randy. After the third time I tell the ref to just give me the ball. I toss it up and swing fast. Visually, it looks like I missed but I couldn't allow that. I hear a low "THWACK" and the ball goes up. Now, we are in a gym and I hope the ball crashes through the wall, but instead, in ricochets in a corner and out an open door. I shrug at the crowd and drop the bat as the dream ends.

.

Date: 8 July

Wbtb time but I feel so tired, decide to have 1/3 latte nevertheless and do the wrong wbtb - straight into bed. A few mantras but I know this will lead to no lds as I feel super sleepy. I quickly fall asleep and guiltily wake up couple of times to confirm this is the case but am too lazy to wake up more. I decide to experiment with the third eye as a focus point to see if this increases my wakefulness and focus for an ld. Not really increase in wakefulness but it did serve as a sort of anchor.

LD: The dream starts as I find myself staring at some furniture, while still in sleepying position. One of those moments where you are not sure you are quite in and I concentrate more on the forehead point to get a better grip of the dream, then a bit later start moving my hands, etc. In the beginning I'm gently floating and spinning, it's not unpleasant. I want to make sure that have fully transitioned to this dream.

I think shortly of the location and wonder whether to do a direct teleport but decide against it. I get up, it's grandma's kitchen and for some reason I decide to take the stairs to go outside. I open the door with tk and also close it and lock it with my mind. It's almost as I could feel grandma's presence doing that. I get down the stairs and tk open the locked building door to get out. As I'm on the street I have a moment of excitement and tk lift a car in the air. Also do very short skateboarding down the street slightly above the ground.

My mind is very blurry as I try to remember any tasks for the totm. I recall the DV goal and look around to see if Sensei might be nearby. There's an older teenage boy on a bike with a slightly longer hair that could do. But let me try to get Sensei here. It's a whole street full of DCs so one of them has to be him. I concentrate and think about Sensei, turn to the side in the opposite direction and to my surprise there he is - tall with browish hair, etc. He smiles happily.

We go up the street which turns into a gray building and I decide we will be learning superpowers. I feel that instead of me doing all the controling as in tk, I should try to give the DC more free will and let it demonstrate super powers, while I'm just saying what we are about to do. There is a a pencil like object and I throw it in the air, trying not to hold it with my mind and say that BB should try to lift the object. Before he can react, it falls on the floor.

"Ok, maybe you can demonstrate fire magic instead", I hint. Sensei takes the initiative and produces a large peach colored napkin, unfolds it, throws it in the air and tries to blow in its direction. I now understand what trick he had in mind, he was going to ignite the whole paper with his breath. Unfortunately, that doesn't happen and the object just remains in the air for a while. I feel a bit guilty because maybe I have sabotaged the demonstration by being slow to understand the procedure and didn't put my expectation into it. I'm saying something mid-sentence when the dream abruptly comes to an end.

Non-ld: I have an earlier non-ld where BB is on some other platform online and has organized a dream game where we have to gather pieces of a puzzle.

Pre Bed: 5htp

Did not really do a WBTB, I woke up and laid in bed thinking about dreaming for awhile to try to put myself in the state. I am not sure if this happened right after I woke or as I was falling back to sleep but I kept my awareness as the dream started so I guess this was a wile and I would have to say that this was my first WILD that I know for sure it was actually a WILD.

My thoughts basically got a little strange and then turned into moving pictures, I just had a seedling of awareness I kept. I felt a very short stint of vibrations as I transitioned as well. I think I actually kind of willed a dream to start in a way. I kind of flowed with the dream for a minute or two before I tried to control anything.

I was in a building, maybe an apartment building with a few doors on the inside. It was brown and pretty dim inside, maybe wood flooring. On the doors I noticed pictures of girls, I had a feeling they were ex-girl friends but no one discernible. One door I noticed was open and a brunette girl was half way out the door, she just looked at me. I was headed to the front of the building where the exit was and saw a brick wall in front of me. I decided I would try to jump through it (for some reason I like to try to go through stuff in my lucids, usually not successful though), I went full force into the brick wall and it stopped me like a brick wall, I slid down and was in front of the doors leading out. I was on some city streets, no one around that I noticed. It was dark outside and the streets were kind of dirty like it was not a great part of town. I did an RC to just make sure and it was of course successful. I took to the sky and went up pretty fast pretty quick. I even thought as I went up that I wanted to explore the dream world a little more and not just go go go, but didn't listen to myself. As I was flying up I wanted to stop in the air to see where I was and find somewhere to go to but it seemed I could not slow down, I looked up and decided to just fly as fast as I could straight up. So I sped up even more and saw the moon, I tried to slow down and change direction to go to the moon but couldn't. I decided oh well I guess Ill try for the alien planet TOTM since I am up here. I then flew faster than I had before straight into the starts. I looked up and imagined a red planet and saw a speck of one, I looked ahead again and imagined the red speck much closer and I looked up, I came up on about 5 or 6 planets very fast and again I could not slow down. As I wizzed passed them I realized they were our solar system planets, at least Mars, Jupiter and Saturn, not sure if there were any others. I decided to give up on local planets and continued flying into space to find a different set of planets. I was thinking that it was quite a ways away and even partially tried the same thing I did with imagining a planet coming up but nothing came. I flew for a bit longer but lost the dream.

With a bunch of Jubilee people heading to a meeting slash conference in an old fashioned church building. I'm torn between sitting with somebody I sort of fancy and playing it cool (can't remember who it was that I was crushing on) I end up sitting on the row in front of her. There's some conversion about the way the conference is organised this time around, with cars parking on site rather than in separate car parks.

I'm outside of the meeting wandering to another building which contains some kind of dormitory. There's a couple of loaves of rustic looking bread on the wall beside a pond, which doesn't seem to have any purpose or meaning (but appear again later on) and down some steps there are other conference delegates and we just hang out a bit.

Everyone else seems to be heading off to the next meeting but for some reason it's a meeting I'm not going to. I laze around a bit and have a snooze. I wake up feeling a bit miffed that I haven't got a dream to journal. It's rained a little while I was resting, the bread looks tempting but is all soggy from the rain and I'm disappointed because I kinda fancied some.

FA - I wake up back at the meeting, I've been sleeping with my head on my crossed arms resting on a little desk for making notes. I think about the dream I just had and think about journaling it, then I realise where I am is a dream location and GET LUCID!

I glance at the people sitting next to me and realise that they're just a dream and I don't have to sit through a meeting I'm not in the mood for. I say "fuck this" and get out of my chair a little clumsily, nearly tripping over the other nearby chairs. I hover forward feeling very excited at being lucid again after a dry patch.

I spot Jofish sitting at a backward facing take at the front of the room. I say "hey Jo, I'm lucid!" He doesn't look all that impressed, so I hover a foot or so of the ground and say "Look! This is a dream!" He still doesn't seem to care and I remember that he's also just a DC and it really doesn't matter what he thinks. I float to the back of the room and people are starting to leave. I look at all their faces, noting that I don't recognise most of them. They are a variety of ages, including some older folk, which is a little surprising because Jubilee is sadly short on that front. I spot a nice looking young lady and start imagining how to get in her pants. The bunch of us start heading back to the campsite and I realise chasing tail isn't the highest calling in a lucid dream, so I start practicing flying along the path. I struggle to get any altitude by jumping (up to about 5 metres but coming back to a few feet above the ground) I try floating because when you jump, you come down, but floating doesn't come with that expectation. Still only a few feet up. I try doing a Superman pose and flying fast but can only go at a rather boring swift walk pace (at which speed, the Superman pose feels a little silly)

I remember the TOTM Basic Task of getting naked, so I turn back to the bunch of people I was walking with, I'm just a bit ahead of them from my flying practice. I rip off my shirt and they all notice that something odd is going on. Because they're *my* DCs, they know why I'm doing this and they're all a little expectant. I aim to pull my trousers down leaving my boxers to last but my boxers come down with my trousers. Immediately, the several young ladies in the group start throwing themselves at me, jostling for the privilege of being unusually nice to me. Then I wake up feeling a little bit miffed that my libido managed to hijack my dream even though I'd decided to do something different but still feeling a little pleased that I was so suddenly popular, even if only with my subconscious!

Apparently, starring a dream feeling horny can set certain expectations...