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Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #220: Purple Haze

I’m walking through a hallway in an art school, getting ready to attend a class. I recall a previous dream where a lot of money had been stolen from my wallet and I dig for my wallet in a panic. I recall my intent to LD, get suspicious and nose pinch RC my way into lucidity.

I remember my intent to summon Dreamer for the challenge as I walk into one of the classrooms, but as I walk in a cluster of art students engage me in conversation. Before I know it, I’m blabbing about lucid dreaming until I’m only semi-lucid. Something prompts me to take out my iPod and check it. It acts just like waking life, but one of the words on-screen is “Kentucky”. Look away, look back, the letters are now a jumble, and I’m lucid again.

Wary of being distracted again, I duck back out into the hallway, which is now empty. I walk along for a while, thinking about how I’ll do my summon. I want to try rolling with what the dream gives me and using an existing DC. I step into an atrium where I see a handful of DCs walking around. I point at the closest one and say, “You’re Dreamer!” Immediately I notice that her hair is purple and she’s walking toward me. I lean in to make sure and it’s a perfect match!

“Yeah it’s me!” she says, as if nothing could be more obvious.

We hug and I start describing my plans for the dream. I tell her that I’m planning for us to do something together but that I’m having some trouble remembering Task of the Month. “That is Task of the Month!” she says, laughing. (Good call!)

“Oh right,” I say, “that’s Basic. [Note: Wrong, that’s Bonus!] But what’s advanced?”

She furrows her brow and then shrugs. We walk down the hall together and I tell her that I have an idea for something cool to do outside. We talk a bit more but I’m feeling like all this walking is compromising my lucidity, so I say, “Hey, let’s just fly, okay?” I turn my back toward her because for some reason I think she needs to ride around on my back. (How insulting!)

“Okay!” she says, and hops onto my back, “seatbelting” herself on by reaching her right arm over my right shoulder and her left hand under my left arm, then clasping her hands together. I hop up into the air and fortunately the flying feels effortless. We go soaring through the atrium into an area that looks like a shopping mall. There are a number of DCs milling about below and I’m surprised to see that a few of them also have purple hair!

We swoop low past a bench of DCs and a few of them run. I laugh at this, and Dreamer does too (though a little less maniacally than me.) We’re heading toward a low wall and I have a little trouble pulling up, my dream body kind of “oozing” awkwardly over the top. Made it, though! I see a set of doors off in the distance, so I set us down and head for them, determined to get outside. All the while I keep talking about how all of this is a lucid dream.

As I’m talking Dreamer starts taking over more and more of the conversation. I keep my left hand on her right shoulder as I walk in order to keep her “stuck” as part of the scene. But after a bit I notice that her accent, perfect at first, sounds all wrong and she’s changed the subject from dreaming to how I really should go back to art school. I nearly lose lucidity, but look over in time to see that Dreamer has been replaced by a young, dark-haired woman who looks Thai. “You never go to your art classes!” she says. “How can you expect to succeed if you don't go to your art classes?”

“You are not Dreamer!” I declare, pointing a dorky finger in the air and running for the exit.

“Wait!” says the woman, and I feel her grab onto my ankle. I ignore the sensation, though, and fly out through the door, phasing outside to a parking lot. There are a number of DCs milling about, mostly women, and all of them have purple hair!

I swoop toward the closest DC, a stout, middle-aged woman with glasses. “You’re Dreamer!” I say, pointing dramatically at her and kind of dropping into a goofy lunge. She says something noncommittal so I follow up with, “Don’t worry, you will be,” which she seems to accept with some surprise.

I tell her that my Task is to eat a huge dessert (somehow I’ve finally remembered) and she tells me that there is a “Chili’s” nearby. I point to a building and leadingly say, “You mean there, right?” She agrees and somehow I wind up inside of this restaurant, the purple-haired woman no longer around.

I’m walking forward in a huge line in order to enter the restaurant, which winds through some kind of indoor forest. I zoom in close to the tree’s detail and see ants crawling along the bark. I study the way that the lighting and shadows play off of the trees in real-time and I brag about all of this detail to the DCs, gushing that “This is all inside my head!” They nod politely and look a little uncomfortable.

We come to a long spiral staircase downward that leads to a cavern floor blanketed in mist. I don’t want to wait so I leap over the side, floating down to the floor and then moving into a dark tunnel. I remember how Dreamer had good luck producing a flame from her finger and how Xanous had focused on the pain of the experience to create fire in his hands. I hold up my thumb and expect this to happen for me as well but there’s nothing.

Now I expect pain and heat. There’s a slight tingling ache, but it’s little more than a nuisance. “The big fire!” I say. Nothing. I exit the tunnel into a large, darkened movie theater. I try to shout “The big fire!” but I get the sensation of my waking life voice croaking out the words and I’m startled awake.

I don't recall the first or second dream but in the third dream I appeared on my bed and couldn't move. I felt someone enter the room and thought to myself good thoughts so nothing bad would happen. Two girls entered my room and tried to pin me on my bed. But I kicked them and started flying. I was flying backwards out of my house saying " change to a happy place with light" more than three times. I saw the scenery changing and appeared on white stairs. There was a door in front of me and I opened it to see a room that was dim but still had some light. I was happy but wanted to find my guide so I opened another door in the room and to my surprise I was now in the elevator. In it I could see a small boy in the corner and so I asked him if I should try going to my cousin's dream or find my guide. He told me I could see my cousin but if I found my guide we could bond more. I said OK and asked what floor to go to and he said 1c. I pressed the button but the elevator went up a bit than stopped. I pushed the elevator up with my hands and was at the fifth floor. I saw a group of guys with guns and went to fight them. I beat them up than remembered my guide was on the 1st floor. I teleported to the room and found another guy with a gun. I beat him up than ran into the apartment building room. I saw Dawn than asked if he was OK. He was fighting a Italian man who wanted to kill us. Eventually we won the fight and one of the bad guys shrunk into a tiny person saying they gave up. Someone threw a garbage bag at him and I guess he got squashed. The old Italian man tried to shoot me but I begged him not to. He decided he was just going to leave. But when he was leaving I took one of the working guns and shot his butt. He wanted to get me for that but Dawn made him go away. After that I ate Dawn's starburst and he went to take care of a little girl. Woke up after that.

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When I was trying to get lucid I appeared in a forest with lots of rocks that hurt my feet.
I heard someone calling me in the distance than I woke up. I tried getting lucid again and did. I appeared in a old black car that they had in the olden days and observed the radio. I saw the radio wasn't working well and exited the car to explore the world. But when I saw my dad talking on a old phone I was distracted. Than my brother exited the car and I saw my brother's skin was scraped a lot and asked what happened. He didn't tell me why. His appearance just changed and he took me into a bus. We went through the bus and appeared in a old house that looked abandoned. I was kind of creeped out cause I saw a small figure with a dark hood floating above that turned invisble. The scenery soon changed into my house living room and the boy started dancing with me. I said I couldn't dance and he said he knew that I couldn't. I was thinking of questions to ask him but he grabbed my hand and walked me down the stairs quickly. I saw my dad putting away junk into his closet than the boy showed me into my older brothers room and I woke up.

I was in this giant Lego city. I don't remember exactly what made me lucid, but I was. I somehow remembered the TOTM, so I decided to get naked. My clothes suddenly disappeared. I went to go find a DC. I found this Lego guy that had an elephant head. I ran up to him naked, and he kept trying to look away.

Spoiler for Rated PG-13 for Nudity and Graphic Stupidity:

"Look at my penis!" I shouted. I then accidentally hit him in the face with my junk. He started running away. I tried to run after him to apologize, but he ran into his house. "Well, that's done."

I then couldn't think of any other intentions, so I flew away into the sky. I was very lucid, so I had great control when flying. I saw an airplane (still made out of Legos) above me, so I flew inside, only to find the pilot passed out in the cockpit. I think I lost lucidity at that point.

There's a gap in my recall here, but then I was playing this Pokemon game in the living room of my old house, where R and C were apparently living. I was playing on an NES, although the graphics were more GameCube quality. I apparently had to catch all the Pokemon and if I didn't do it in one try, I had to start over to get the rest. I was scared when I got to the end, for fear that the NES wouldn't save my progress. But then I woke up.

The dream starts off non-lucid, and it is just a projection. We watch as a group composed of all child laborers are working to build a log dam in a mountainous area. They are actually led by a child and they are attempting to dam. None of the children seem to be complaining about the difficulty of the labor, even though some of them are as young as maybe six.
When they were finally finished they did just that. The child who was leading them shouted into the air and everyone ran and dove into the lake. There were hundreds of children in the lake, all different ages and nationalities. It was also nighttime while this was happening, but a beautiful full moon illuminated the scene.
-Dream Skips-
Manei (Gonna take getting used to on that name, already shortened it.) and I are riding in the back of my grandfather's car. We are still in the mountainous are where the kids built their lake. It feels like a national park or something. Lucidity hits me like a sack of bricks. I look at her and for some reason think to ask her about her nationality. Ever since she began appearing in my dreams she's always had tan skin and dark hair.
She replies saying that for all practical intents and purposes, she is just native american. She then goes on to talk to me about how she is working on an ongoing project to perfect her physical form in my dreams.
I then ask her why sometimes she appears like she did last time, an old woman, or a man or anything else.
She replies that sometimes she just feels like slacking off.
Then, we both just burst out laughing. (It's funny because I slack of a lot too.)
I lose some lucidity. My grandfather stops the car and we get out and begin walking through the woods. Manei begins talking about how the chase scene from a movie was filmed on the trail that we are walking. In the chase, the hero gets chased by a huge mountain lion that continually rams into trees. Eventually the lion is so confused and disoriented from hitting its head so many times that it gives up on the chase.
I wake up.

7/13/14* Awesome! Finally one of my recent vivid dreams became lucid! Similar calm, highly lucid, exploration like my grassy sea lucid and right after seeing the closest thing I have seen to a grassy sea: I just watched Gravity for the first time last night and there is a scene where you see a grassy vegetation growing up out of a large body of water. When I saw that scene in the movie IWL my heart fluttered emotionally with the memory of the wonderful lucid dream it so much reminded me of and it must have inspired another awesome LD. I think it solidified the point for me to slow down and explore all of the wonder right around you. I have also had similar experiences IWL.

One of my earlier dreams was very vivid. At the end there is a squirrel that got into a house with a gathering or party. After trying to lead him out an open door, I was able to catch it but it reached back and bit my hand. I moved my hands further up his body to the base of his head to keep him from biting me again. All I could see from the injury was what looked more like a bloody scratch. I woke with the thought that the squirrel biting me should have made me lucid.

I am on a trip again, a common theme. My family and I are heading to quarantine area where they are going to apply some treatment to everyone via spray in the room so that no one carries any diseases into this foreign country. In a seemingly semi lucid moment I put my arms around this beautiful woman who takes to it kindly at first but then pushes me away. I sit on the floor apparently wearing a baseball cap as my view is slightly obscured looking upwards. Two cute kids are playing with me as I sit there. My wife is sitting on a ledge above on the perimeter of the room and a guy next to her is apparently stinky and she makes a face. I asked my wife where our son is. She didn't seem sure and didn't seem worried. Doors to the room opened up to let everyone out and transport trolleys are coming in and I'm the last one still in there and the doors closed but I'm able to scurry my way to the door and open it and go out. It is a beautiful countryside with
green hills reminding me of where I was in 1993. Lots of people hanging around outside but no wife and son. I just wait knowing they would know where to find me. People are sitting at an outdoor table talking while most others mingling much like a party but it is daytime, outside and of course in the beautiful scenery. I see a group walking down the road maybe they are with them up that way. I pass a place that raises collies apparently, the dog breed. I strain my neck to see and a dog runs up to me to jump or bite me...ah dog dream sign (One of the dream signs I thought about during WBTB...I'm dreaming.. fades and I clench my eyes to try to reenter the dream. It probably never ended, probably just the void, it's hazy but I can see a little bit and I think of the task of the month and I start to visualize an elevator...nothing at first but then a big red button appears and I press it and at this point it is more like I am visualizing an elevator door opening and seeing the elevator car and stepping in.
I can feel myself going up up up in what feels more like an open-air elevator car and still hazy. I am not satisfied with experience due to the lack of visuals. I think that I wake up but wait remember always check when waking up. I do feel that I'm still in a dream, an FA, laying in bed. I get out of bed. I'm in a hotel room with strange striped wallpaper. I end up face down on the floor and struggle to crawl up to the wall to lift myself up. How tricky the transition is to an FA. Try to stick my finger through my palm and it indicates that I am awake. No! I am sure that I'm dreaming so I look at my left hand and there are five fingers. But, I have a small appendage or extra little finger sticking out to the right of my left index finger going out from a spot about 3/4 of an inch down my finger. I think again of the elevator task...a hotel should be perfect. I go through two sets of doors to exit my hotel room but before I close the door I take one
more look at my hand and it looks just like before surprisingly...five fingers with a little extra one. The hallway of the hotel is awesome it looks maybe 1920s!! The walls are adorned with a beautiful rich dark wood paneling up and down. I go down to one end of the hall and there's a short flight of stairs up straight ahead, maybe 5 stairs and I start to go up and I think this wouldn't be the way to an elevator but at the top I see there's a small opening or space and there is a small door not more than a foot and a half tall . I go back the other way down the hall past where I came out and circle around to the right and I see a man and a woman in an open area with curtains that are opened. It looks like an opium den and/or a brothel. I keep going then I come to an opening in the hall there is a weird creature or boy sitting on the floor with his back to me. I decide to turn my back to him...out of sight out of mind. I continue down another hall and
walk past this man who had first looks like a guy in a suit and tie. Still not seeing an elevator I decide to go back to the man who now looks more like a bellman , an old fashioned one. I asked him if there's an elevator here. He says that the elevator will be ready in 1 to 2 weeks. I then think perhaps I can teleport to one of the neighboring buildings it seems like I'm in a big city downtown with lots of buildings back at the early part of the century from everything I see in this hotel and the way that guy is dressed. I'm amazed how vivid this dream is and how beautiful everything is. I ask if there's another building around with an elevator. The guy says that actually I can ride their elevator but I just have to sign a waiver. I ask him where will it take me. He says it will take me up to the top. I ask him what is there? He says the tree. I say the tree? Is this construction, unfinished? No he says it is solid. It used to house our Communications
department(?). I follow him towards the elevator down the hall that looks like a maintenance corridor and I'm having trouble standing up straight. I am leaning heavily as if I will fall to my left down a stairwell but I am hanging on to some bars or pipes that line the right side. It seems like the guy I am following is growing impatient at how slow I am. I'm in a dilemma. I'm not sure if I should let go and have faith that I can walk straight or keep going while holding on. I think it's okay if I fall it is just a dream but I might lose the scene and my path to the elevator. I also I think that I could teleport. I got probably 20 feet down this hall hanging on before I finally woke up for real. Still very cool lucid scenes and I wake up smiling. My day practices up until yesterday were focusing on doing the elevator task next for whatever reason. Yesterday I thought I started incubating the idea that I should meet up with Dreamer first, but next need to incubate that a bit more. Might have gotten to that task if I had ever completed the elevator one! 173

I'm walking home from town with a couple of bags of grocery shopping, crossing the ringroad roundabout by the police station. I'm coming down the stairs into the underpass and notice that the headroom at the bottom of the stairs is very restricted, so I'm stooping to see if I'm in anyone's way.

I spot John Fieldsend and his wife, who I've never seen outside of Shrewsbury, where I used to live years ago, and a girl I take to be their daughter (though far too young but hey) I greet them with "Hello, Fieldsends" I also notice that I'm not wearing and shoes and the ground's a little wet so my yellow socks are getting wet. I decide I should get my shipping home before I go back to town to get my boots which I "remember" I left in a shop up town.

Coming out of the far side of the underpass (onto a street that's not the one normally there) I notice the sunny well lit ambiance and identify it as one of my dreamsigns. All of a sudden I realise that seeing the Fieldsends counts, too, and the very low headroom in the underpass, and having no shoes on is also suspicious. I decide to do a reality check because I'm more suspicious than convinced. I start levitating above the ground and now I *know* it's a dream!

I ditch the shopping bags and fly up above the houses. My dream starts to fade rapidly. It's getting dark and I'm nowhere near any surfaces to fondle. I try spinning but the dream keeps fading. I'm now aware of my sleeping body and realise I can't keep hold of the dream. In retrospect, it might have been an FA, but I just rolled over and went back to sleep, not even smart enough to try a DEILD, Doh!

Another lucid dream, once more proving to me at least some parts of me seem to be regenerating. Or not decaying further. Either way...

...the first part of the dream I can recall begins with me being in some kind of 'mall'. While it felt and was treated like a shopping mall, it much more looked like a home, that was maybe a little bigger than an average house. The interior was largely gray with some white, relatively normal I'd say, it didn't look fancy but acceptable by my standards. I remember the living room, there was someone I didn't know, a Playstation (1) and a staircase when walking through the room, which felt very spacious as it was connected to the other rooms, no doors or stuff that made you feel you changed the room.
I eventually walked up the stairs, and remember a more white kitchen like room, with an silver oven placed at an convenient height to work with. Somehow I felt and noticed that the dream played during a different time than reality, I was somewhat in the past, and first upon realizing that planned to make use of it to change things for the better.
I'm not quite sure what happened, or how, but then I'm standing on a small ledge, outside of a building, 20 m above the ground or something. The view I saw was... absolutely amazing, apocalyptic and dark. A feeling emerges I couldn't describe, a more valuable experience than I could ever get from watching even the most emotional movies in real life for hours. I'm falling down and I realize I'm dreaming, I feel relaxed and fine.
I'm in a big zone, I don't even know what it was, a train station, a building, maybe just an open place with some constructions. I was testing around with gravity, and again I also was flying a little. My girlfriend was there as well, she asked me if I was still dreaming, I did an reality check and replied that I was of course still dreaming. After some more time of being lucid but somehow doing nothing fancy I felt my focus fading for a moment, then I woke up.

Man, if just for once I would actually start doing something relevant upon becoming lucid...

I am in some unique parkway area, already partially lucid, in the rainforest. There are pathways and boardwalks leading around jagged peaks jutting out of the ocean. Exotic tropical flora covers almost every available square inch of the ground. It was magnificent. I could not however get the full view of the location as it was a rainy, foggy, muggy day.
I am walking down the pathway when my dream guide shows up, and BAM, fully lucid. But she doesn't look like herself, she's way old. Usually she's a teenager like me, but now she's probably in her 50's or 60's with greying hair, and wearing a running outfit. But I've seen her be everything from a toddler to a really buff man, and go through about a million outfits along the way. I just know her when I see her.
She asks me to follow her, then turns and runs the other way, and I follow. So I begin pushing across the ground, not so much running as I am just hovering to keep pace with her, and she begins talking.
She slowly comes out and says that she is telling me her name. First name, then Surname, then middle name. (Why this was such a big secret until now remains a mystery...) But here we are. Her full name was (and I guessed on the spelling, Just pronunciation)
Maneimonei Qui Tarr
Two years ago, she told me to pick a name for my dream journal. Now she tells me her actual name. You know what, there is no way I am going back and editing the 100-odd entries that reference the placeholder name Lia. So my dream guide will simply be referenced as Maneimonei from now on.
I repeated the name to myself several times as to not forget it, and layer down some stabilization by rubbing my hands together. I was not certain how much longer this lucid dream would last.
The two of us arrived at a large stucco building with a small ventilation duct cut into the side. She crawls inside. I try to follow, but I don't fit.
I try to shrink myself to go inside, but cannot. So I begin pulling on the sides of the entrance and making it bigger. I crawl in, pushing on all sides of the interior of the building making it bigger as I go. I wake up.

Standing in a rather plain room. Empty walls, beige carpet. I begin hearing the intro music for "Turn Down for What" and start acting like the character from the intro to the music video. Before any lyrics start, I realize I'm dreaming, and want to combine it with the TOTM. The first one I think of is to get naked. I think about how I'm going to do both, and wake up before doing either.

// I was thinking rather introspectively, to the exclusion of everything I was doing. Maybe that woke me up?

>> Next time: Try thinking while still interacting with the dream.

Dream started with my Father Mother and brother all inside Father room , it was near night we were discussing what place will go to. That's when we all agreed that the place that cost $500,000 was best , I began to become excited that this was going to happen and couldn't wait for it. I ask my Father does he think he could do this every several months however he did not answer and continue to lay down watching television. That's when we all fell asleep that's when the next day began and the sun began to rise up. I got up to my surprise my brother has already been waiting for me to wake up, I knew today was the day for the trip so I felt excited again and quickly went inside the bathroom to prepare. As I am in the bathroom I look at myself in the mirror and realize I had facial hair and a lot of it, it was very long. I then starting thinking when I woke up why wasn't my brother surprise about the new appearance but decided to accept it and thought it must've all grew over last night. I came out and waited with my Mother and brother for Father to arrive however I knew this was going to take hours and decided to fall back to sleep. The scene began to change and the alleged dream began I was in my elementary school however it was 3rd person point of view, I saw this boy who was ask by another kid to watch his cat . The boy agreed to watch over his cat as he went inside the school however right after the cat owner leaves the boy snatches the cat and went behind the school. He sat there talking to the cat telling the cat that it had to die as he didn't want to be caught and knew the cat owner were suspect him if he steals it. A police guard started walking toward his direction and this made the boy panic to where he decided to run leaving the school off in to the woods and I never saw the boy again. I then wake up from this dream and got out of bed , it was night and I began getting excited realizing he'll be here. I went out to the living room and look through the window and saw Father coming inside. I started running around in joy in till I trip on the ground and fell. I got up and went inside Father's room looking for other stuff my Father enter inside as well and told me he won't be able to do it this night as he car needed to be fix. I told him I understand and decided to go back to sleep, that's when I back in the other dream where the police was talking to the cat owner saying he did see a orange hair kid running away which made the cat owner angry. That's when 3rd person point of view was gone and I finally realize I had my own body again. The police officer, a commander and the cat owner come toward my way and I realize I needed to walk with them. As we all walk the scene change to a door which I open it and left the door open for the commander and others to enter in. We all appear in my living room, it was dark blue outside through the windows which told me that it was soon to be night. As we stood there the commander decided to hit the cat owner in the face, the cat owner began to panic and ran all the way upstairs. I notice this and began thinking again wondering if commander is going to attack me as well, he was in the kitchen and began gliding after he did a loud howl he starts flying viciously. I began to panic and decided to run toward him to fight, as we collided he disappear and I hit the front door with my face. I became lucid however I could not stop flying around I had no control of it as I am flying around I tell myself to stay calm and to try landing. My flying began to get lower itself as it enough for me to start walking, I still felt like there was a force pushing me away. I also felt very light headed I wonder if I had any dream control but knew it can't be much I had a hard time stopping that. I test to see if I could make a DC appear by closing my eyes however it did not happen and knowing the chance that this could wake me up I did it anyway. I woke up. Lucidity Time : 55 seconds

Journal Entry Lucid # 61 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I Meditated before going to sleep. WBTB

Lucid Dream # 61, day: 07/11/14, time: 3:27-4:40am Am" Miniature Soccer":
I am in what I think is San Francisco. It looks like there is some special event. I see people walking by. I am just standing there dazed. I see a bicycle pass by me. I am looking at the city lights while it darkens. I started to finally walk. I see another bicycle or was it the same one. I am now engaging in the dream. I realized that a carnival came to the city. I go inside and see that it's a miniature soccer match between insects. I realized it was a dream.

I started rubbing my hands to stabilize. I look around and my perception looked like an old 1960's camera. It had distortion along with those black dots in the film. I then wanted to fly out of the carnival tent. As I am ascending I see garden weed start to grow from the ground and it went all the way up to the tent. I thought I could breach the tent but when I got there it was difficult. It felt solid. I kept pushing through, my head got in and when it did I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid # 60 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I Meditated before going to sleep. As I was going to sleep I tired to notice the process of sleeping to induce a WILD or OBE.
As I start to feel the sinking sensation and I became aware of it, it disappeared.

Lucid Dream # 60, day: 07/07/14, time: Unknown-6:49am Am" Angel of Death":

The girl I once liked was in my room. She started to touch my private part and it felt good but I know we can't be together. It felt wrong. I left her and went to the bathroom to wash my face. I thought to myself it could be a dream. She wouldn't do this in waking life.

The bathroom light was off. I see a blurry image of myself, it gave me chills. I then go to my room. I look at that mirror and I see myself as an eight foot tall giant, wearing a black hoodie. I then turn around to see that it is not my reflection but Death. He had his staff with him. I couldn't see a face, the hoodie got rid of that.


A man shows up and distracts Angel of Death, "Killing one guy won't solve your problem". He teleported me to my house and I am watching it on tv. I felt powerless because he too my flight from me. When he teleported me, my perception changed, everything looks like a poorly 3d animation. They were having an intellectual conversation that I couldn't keep up with. They even said words I didn't know, they might have just made it up though. I grabbed paper and tried to write down what they said. I thought, "how stupid is that, this is a dream, if I write it down it doesn't matter!" I threw my paper away. I tried to enter the TV screen to stop Angel of Death.

Death pushes the other guy. He then summons me. He had an army of robots connected to a plug. They had these arms that were bluish and transparent. They used that to lounge at me. I used telekinesis and threw them aside. One of them threw a punch at me and I noticed it. I extended my arm and stopped it. He kept pushing at his arm and it got closer and closer to my face. I then pushed back with a burst of TK. I then went to the plug and I exploded it by clinching my fist.

There is a kid at church, in 6th grade and I introduced him to LD. He has been wonderful in dream control. The one thing is, he is extremely violent towards DC. He suggested if I have any trouble with dream characters I use TK to stop their heart. Creative but brutal.

And I remembered what he said. I started to fly, I didn't think much of it. I point my hand at Angel of Death and I clinched my fist. He grabbed the left side of his chest and fell. I thought about what I have done. I felt guilty. I went to him and I looked closer and realized that he was a machine. It was circuits that I blew out. I felt relieved. I starting thinking about Death and the irony that it has life.

I see the kid from church, ES. He said, "what now?" I looked around perplexed. I remembered that I wanted to make a portal. I told him that we are going to make a portal. I went to a supply closet and I said this will be our portal. I didn't really imagine a destination but I just wanted it to go somewhere else. I opened it and it didn't work. I tried over and over again but still nothing. He started to get bored. I told him and his friends that we could just fly away. I went to the window and I told them we are going to have to jump. His friends advised him not to follow me. I am flying outside their house. He started to fly to. They then tried it out. As we were flying I see a door in the middle of sky. I go to it and I open it. It has a shining light. I woke up.

I think the reference when the man told death "killing one guy won't solve your problem" he might have been talking to me as well.

In the past two weeks, the dreams have been intense, but I did not write any of them down.

In one, Boden didn't recognize me and didn't want anything to do with me. Boden, if I haven't mentioned him yet, has been with me from the beginning of my lucid dreams. I tried to get his attention. It was heartbreaking. Like I didn't exist to him. Like I was now so unrecognizable he couldn't fathom my being "good enough" to know his name. I felt crushed.

In another, I don't know who they were, but one was a young woman (feisty), the other a man around my age. I had to leave in a hurry and ended up walking around the city in the dark, in the rain, in a minidress and a flannel shirt the man lent me because it was cold outside. Every hotel I came to turned me away.

Sometimes I dream of just walking away from it all. Leave behind the stress I'm always under. I have nowhere to go and in the dreams it always seems to catch up to me (ain't that something?). Well, life recently has caught up to me. It's a constant struggle. The dreams I have are the only outlet I have available.

Lucid dreams I can go anywhere and drop any worry. I have friends who actually want to talk to me or spend time with me or just support me. Real life is so different. If I could choose a world to live in, it would be the dreams.

-Pix

Hello again and sorry for not posting recently. I have been trying some things recently with dream control that required a little field testing. My new medicine has helped me find a way to increase the duration of rem sleep through dream control. I was trying to find a way to stay in one dream instead of several dreams in one night. This has turned out to be a double sided coin however. You can stay in rem for longer and wake up sooner but on the other hand I have found out that you can also increase the duration of rem past the 'normal sleep time'. I can do this without the medication but is easier when on it. I believe that this may be a cause for some cases of people in a coma. I would like to test this longer but would have negative effects that I can not deal with having to pay rent and all. If there is anyone else who can do this and would like to try for me please pm me. I have slept for an entire day doing this. Your sense of time goes away after about 8-12 hours. If we can find out how this works we might be able to enter the dreams of people who are in a coma and help wake them up.

03.05.2014

Dreaming 101 (DILD)

Forgot to post this a while ago. One of my favorite dreams.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

0040 - I'm rushing to my college class. (Note: IRL, I'm not in college yet, but I don't notice this) I'm taking 5 courses at a time, as my schedule says, and one is on the 10th floor. At first I go up to the 8th or 9th with my friends, but realize that my class - D--- 101? is in 1029. Someone else and their mother is looking for the room as well, and notices me going there. I go in - it's a tiny entrance - find a seat, and sit down. I find out that we actually weren't supposed to be there, and that we were really lucky. I don't know what the class is about. The people in charge tell us to form groups of 5 or so, and everyone starts mixing together. I start panicking. I look around and see no one I can ask. I go up to this girl and ask, but she's doing some homework and says no. I look around again and Emily waves to me from across the room. I am relieved, and go sit down next to here. I say something about her saving my life and she laughs. Even so, I am disappointed in myself for not having made new friends in college. The people start talking, and it becomes apparent that we're supposed to "take a hit" of this substance. Me and Emily have never done drugs, and we don't want to. (Someone I know, possibly Emily, is sitting next to me) We get cups of this liquid gas and the person next to me decides to drink it, which we're not supposed to do. I inhale the gas, once, twice, imagine dropping into the ocean, and feel water all around me. I am asleep, and dreaming, and know that I am.

I don't remember what happens next. I think I start exploring. Oh - the other person may have been Stephanie. I'm with her in the dream. We're in a city, and I keep jumping and flying up and up and up, and she grows really big. I reach this overhang/cliff and grab onto the building, but it's weak and can't support my weight. I notice the big drop down to the street below and the arrows pointing in a line underneath me and tell S that she can go through the tunnel underneath to see me do an awesome drop. She doesn't really want to, or doesn't care either way. Not sure. Anyway, I keep holding onto the building wih a hand or two and my body keeps jumping up or floating up - perhaps on its own, or I have to keep doing so for some reason. It feels like I'm in space or constant antigravity or something. Eventually I jump too far and my legs overbalance and I flip over the edge and fall down.

It was realistic, I think. Fairly vivid. I fell down but I knew I could fly up, and so I did. It was somewhere around this point that I really realized that I was dreaming. I did an RC and everything. Things became clearer, more vivid without me trying. I fly around the city, looking at the cars, which weren't rendered properly, and we get up to the point up there. All the while, I remember the college course, and realize that it's about being about to control your dreams and trips and all that. When I meet Snape and crack my eyes open briefly in real life - or was it the college class? - I close my eyes immediately and imagine a well in the ground. A voice says, "Hover, don't drop," and I think I return to Snape and all that. New Yorkin' 2 on a billboard in rainbow letters somewhere in a city. Across the billboard there is another big poster, where the words all fluctuate. Snape is there, rather scary. Had to somewhat DEILD back in. He made a potion and reluctantly gives it to me, but says that if i take it, my other class will not be something. I decide not to take it.

I decide that I've had enough of a cloudy, foggy atmosphere and fly up past the overpasses crowding the city. The sky is beautiful and rainbow and full of stars. For once I am truly excited that this is a dream. There may have been an airship. I looked at the cars, which looked wonky and all that. At some point, the dream ends.