non-lucid

PART 1 - SKATING AND MAGAZINE WITH FAMILY

In car, driving with mom. I think we're going to a skating rink.

Later, my little brother, B, looks through a magazine in which every page is an advertisement for other magazines. He gets upset because he wants a fitness magazine. I say in a casual way that it's on the way because I've ordered it myself, he calms down. I think he also says something to the effect of finding the women in the ad attractive.

Something about "taking over," a business...

ANALYSIS

No metaphorical meanings for skating jump out at me. Perhaps it's simply a generic symbol for leisure activity, a message to spend more time doing things with my mother.

The subject of B and fitness in general may have been triggered by an event that occurred several days earlier: B went for a run, said it felt great, and was in the middle of preparing some green beans to eat... when mom calls and asks if B wants anything from McDonald's. He gets his usual, counteracting all the good he did. I was upset with mom for this at the time.

B has been making some effort to eat healthier and exercise now and then, would explain his desire for the fitness magazine.

I'm more fit than I've been in years, could explain that I've "already ordered it," my fitness goals are on the way for me.

The attractive women comment seems literal, B often tends to make such remarks.

I went to bed hoping to DILD (didn't by the way) but this was my dream-

Was in a white room (been going into those a lot lately) and there was a table in front of me. I then scratched my head then a pile of dandruff fell on the table then I woke up.

07.08.2010

Underwater chess game. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Awful night! My fingers were hurting me extremely and I was not able to fall asleep until around 1:30 am. I tried to focus but the pain was so intense I could not help myself. I woke up at 06:11 am with a lot of finger pain and I did not went back to bed as I had to wake up at 06:30 am to attend an online meeting for my business. I was able to recall three dreams though (two fragments) It has been like four months I did not have such a bad night, so I hope it does not happen at least in other four months.

Third:

I was outdoors, it was very cloudy and I went to an airport. I was talking with a few DCs. I was helping these DCs to do a few things I cannot recall. Someone prevented me to perform a few tasks I wanted to. I meet with a couple DC and we had a conversation about breathing underwater. I remembered I forgot to grab a bag that would help me to breath underwater.

There was a chess tournament that was going to take place underwater. I was unsure if I would be able to complete the game as I could not breath underwater. I dove in and I saw a chess board. The room was all white with a wooden rectangle table in the middle. The pieces were spread around so i though I could not even get started. I saw another game next to this chess game. I placed the pieces in order to play. The white queen was a Sexy Marge Simpson. I think all the other pieces were normal. I looked around and when i looked back at the board, all the pieces were in the box again!

Suddenly, I felt an earthquake. It was a small earthquake, it was around a Magnitude 6. A few DC got scared, but not me. I felt worse ones. A few seconds later, I felt a second earthquake. This time it was about Magnitude 6.5 I was not scared either, but I woke up.

Missed dream signs:
- I was breathing underwater.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Explore this odd place.

07.08.2010

Angry mob! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Awful night! My fingers were hurting me extremely and I was not able to fall asleep until around 1:30 am. I tried to focus but the pain was so intense I could not help myself. I woke up at 06:11 am with a lot of finger pain and I did not went back to bed as I had to wake up at 06:30 am to attend an online meeting for my business. I was able to recall three dreams though (two fragments) It has been like four months I did not have such a bad night, so I hope it does not happen at least in other four months.

Second:

- In a city.
- Day.
- I was in the middle of an angry mob.
- We wanted to save a princess.
- We wanted to kick lazy people out of the city.
- We grabbed each other and blocked the roads.
- I had a white thing around my left arm that I wanted it to be seen.
- We were shouting.
- This city was in the middle of the dessert.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Head for a ToTY.

I watched Mirrors right before going to bed. this is about a week ago and will be short.


Everywhere I look there are mirrors. But I'm not looking back. It scares me. I'm in this room, I cant escape. Both my languages flood my ears, and a high pitched noise keeps getting sharper.
It doesn't end. I feel an earthquake.
It shakes me harder. I hear a voice, my saviour.
"wake up."
Suddenly my dad's on the ground and my fist hurts like hell.
Oops, I woke up swinging. Sorry dad.
I was hopeful it was a false awakening. It wasnt.

So, I'm a hardcore gymnast, I'll start with that. Anyway, theres a celebrity named Ayla Kell whom I truly admire for looks and voice.

The dream started in a party place, it was for my birthday, I was sitting on the inside of a booth. I ate a piece of cake and "phased" out of my seat (my mother was in my way, getting out just..happened) after seeing Chelsea Hobbs (another person from the same gymnastics TV show) pass by. Fastforward to a few minutes later, and somehow I'm taking photos in a photobooth with Ayla Kell. I get a kiss on the cheek in one of the photos. We get out and look at the photos. my vision then becomes that of a game, and the photos literally take up the whole spectrum of my vision. Ayla and I then talk, I see a few other people from my past (a girl i fell for in Hawaii, the man who shot me when i stopped him from robbing a store, so on and so on). A few seconds later I see a man with dark wings walk in, everyone moves out of his way. Not scared, they just move. Another man is infront of me, I sense serious danger. I tell Ayla to get behind me, she does.

As a side note - I'm bilingual, I just want to throw that out there before I get to the next part.

The man infront of me starts to speak, and it takes my brain a few seconds to adjust to a seperate language. "Dammi la ragazza." - Give me the girl.
"Non, lei e' per mio e' nessuno tutti." - No, she is for me and no one else.
For some reason seeing them didnt scare me.
"Give me her or we'll kill you."
The man on the right of me (the one who moved all the people) said it. And for some reason alarms went off in my head. I willed a sword into existance, and when the demon infront of me realized what I was doing, he ran at me.
-This is where I became lucid-
The sword materialized AS he jumped to slice me up, I swung up and he disappated, almost like a ghost hit by iron. Then the demon to the right of me (who I turned to face) said, "Nice try. But you can't protect her forever."
He disappeared, and I ended up in a solitary confinement cell with Ayla.
I started to speak in latin, and she disappeared. Then I woke up.

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

It was nighttime, and I was in the backyard of my house, surrounded by tall wooden fence. The outside of the house was light stucco, and the whole backyard was covered in grass, illuminated slightly by small circular modern lights on the walls of the house itself. There were a few flat, square-shaped stepping stones scattered around the yard. In the middle was a large in-ground pool complete with a few small interior lights, but there was no water inside. Instead, there was fog coming out of it slowly, behaving like smoke but it didn't smell.

I was sitting on the edge of the "pool" with my sister standing beside me. She told me that she didn't want to go in, and so I somehow jumped in right from that sitting position. I was floating in the fog, and then I thought about sinking down deeper into the pool. I began to go down, and I could hardly see anything around me except gray pool wall. I felt my sister tap me on the head and I suddenly resurfaced. She said, "don't go under, or you'll get amnesia."

I remember going from a mortal to a God like thing, creating and stuff. Then I was about to have sex with Hayley from American Dad some other guys came in and demanded they join, it was then revealed that hayley has a "uniboob"

Anyway...

Earlier in the dream I was gonna go cosplay, so I decided to REALLY get into it.. I decided to saw off my left arm right above the elbow because I planned to have a prosthetic attached,

Now here is the weird part...

It was sawed off but couldn't see it? Basically from MY point of view I had an entire arm, but from the elbow down, it just phased right through everything. I took a picture with moms cell phone and THEN I could see the cut, it looked gruesome...

I then later reattached it and I had a scar around the circumference of my arm and I later found myself on a camp crestview like campus and I went around showing it off to everyone...

so ill catch you up on reality first: My aunt has stayed the whole summer at my house. She is in the middle of a divorce,and the court is being unfair to her and mike ( husband) is a b**** who called my aunt bipolar to the court and is taking away all her money and is trying to keep my cousin too. Lea, my cousin is eight and loves her mother more than father, because he scares her, and abuses her pets and such. Abnout a month ago, police officers came into my house, yelled at me and my little sister, searched our house and took away my cousin(note: my aunt and cousin [used to?] live in nebraska, i live in Colorado) And tookm her back 'home'. I havent seen her since and i miss her. My aunt is still working on filing things against mike and is still living at my house.

Dream time:
( i was stupid and didnt write thhe dream down, so this is what i remember from the words i did write down)
There was a hhuge house(my aunt had a huge house before this happened) and my aunt and i were looking for Lea. Mike was there, and he left and we looked on each floor for lea, but couldnt find her. we knew she was there. I looked at a map and saw that there was a seccret floor where mike was keeping her locked up, but before we could find it mike was back and we were terrrified . the the dream faded into another, less-relevant one( My other cousin apparently lucid dreams in her spare time[why diodnt i realize i was dreaming??!])
But does anyone know what this could mean? or did i just have thhis dream because of what is happening?

Went to bed in a very good mood. My girlfriend has come down for the weekend. Feeling rather positive that I'll obtain lucidity -- not necessarily imminently, but I believe the goal is well within reach.

Again it was another bad night for dream recall, sadly.

I had a dream that I was discussing with Dave Chappelle the 'dangers of white people'. He was explaining how he liked to scare them.

Missed Dream Signs:

-Talking to a celebrity as part of everyday life

Very bad dream recall the next morning. Went to bed feeling fairly positive, rather relaxed.

I dreamed that I was having an online chat with James from "wowhobbs", a popular youtube channel. I recall my internet kept disconnecting and interrupting our chat (this is a frequent real life occurrence)

Missed Dream Signs:

-The only sign I noticed that was my room was completely rearranged than that of my waking room.

I am at my sister-in-laws house in England but it does not look like her house except that it is old like hers. I am in a bedroom and an acquaintance from work comes in with his son who is about 5 years old in my dream (he is actually about 13 but the last time I saw him he was about 5). They want something from me but I don't remember what it is.

I then find myself taking a shower in the kitchen. There is a curtain separating the shower but I can hear what everyone is saying. My S.I.L. is saying that her husband is addicted to a strange and little known drug. I say from the shower that she should not worry as I have been addicted to every drug there is and that it is easy to get off them!

Next thing I know, I am meeting a bunch of people off a bus and my daughter is with me. I am wearing a white cotton sundress with very thick black tights. I walk with my daughter to a ferry terminal and wait in line.

Next thing I am back at my sister-in-laws house in the same bedroom as before and my daughter picks up my tights which I must have taken off and says "Mum, these tights are way too big, you should have bought the size smaller". I told her that I like them to be big.

I am then in a hallway which I believe to be in the same house and see a big old dog. I pet the dog but am told not to pet the dog as it has to be put down and he is taken into a cubicle and given a pill. He comes out of the cubicle and I am relieved as he seems to be okay. He then starts to get all wobbly on his feel and I am very upset. I wake up.

I am at a party to celebrate my lucid dreaming. Everyone is dressed up. The party is held at a big mansion with a long driveway leading up to it. It is in the countryside with no other houses around.

August 7, 2010

Shed break-in
Had this dream in the first cycle of the night! These ones always impress me, for some reason. They're usually quite vivid for first-cycle dreams.

It's night time, and I was at work, monitoring the cameras. I had one camera feeding from a lot that was across the street from my building. I see these two guys in there try to attack this maintenance shed in the middle of the lot (DS = Watching people commit crimes). There are some expensive tools in there. They only attacked the shed door once though, so I guessed they weren't really serious about breaking into it, so I thought I would call the police non-emergency line to get them removed. However one of the tenants in the building distracted me from completing this task (I can't remember how).

Back to watching the cameras, for some reason, I couldn't get them to move, now, so I could get better views (DS = technology not working properly). I saw this orange glow coming from off to the side and I saw flashing lights. I wondered if there was a fire next door? I stepped outside to the sidewalk and noticed that it was just a very bright street light. One of my co-workers decides to go outside and patrol the parking lot, since we can't get the cameras moving, now.

I went back inside to fiddle with the cameras. I still could not get them to work, and I suddenly thought my co-worker has been outside for a really long time. I went outside to survey the lot. I got this bird's eye view, and saw those two guys from before, still there, and then I saw my guard lying on the ground, struggling to get back up. I watched, horrified, as one of the criminals stomped on my co-workers' chest and kicked him.

I shouted at them, and they saw me. "Oh, shit!" one guy said, once he realized they were being watched. I realized they saw me. They took off after me as I ran across the street, back to my building. I got inside the door just in time to put it between us, but I wasn't sure if I would be successful in locking it. Didn't matter, because the slamming shut of the door is what startled me out of my sleep.

Elise's house
I'm visiting with my friend, Elise. She has this awesome house in the middle of the woods. Most of the dream is just me hanging out there and nothing really happening. The house had large, tinted windows, and a glass door, also tinted. Inside, was all white walled and white furniture. It was, as I said, very awesome.

I remember leaving at some point and talking with Elise again later on. She mentioned this scary thing happened after I'd left. This bear came up to the front door and tried to attack her house.

August 6, 2010

School dance
I was sitting in school behind this guy I really liked. We were chatting about the dance coming up.

[Finding shoes]
I was at this store, trying to find shoes to go with my dress. i happened to be in my dress, at the time, and this was right before the dance. My dress was a light blue colour with a white filmy over-lay thingy.

Hillary and Norma
I was downtown, getting some food for lunch. i wanted to stop into this buffet place called Marcello's where I used to go when I worked for them.

I ran into Hillary and Norma (my former employers for the company I got really depressed while working at) on my way there, and they asked me how I was. i said was receptioning again, but it was for a radio station, so I was really happy.

In the shop
I was in the shop, and the cashier was lecturing me on eating good food. He asked me to guess his age and birth date. I observed his face and noticed very few lines, so I guessed he was 32. I was wrong, he was 39.

For the date, I blanked my mind and March 2nd screamed in my head. I asked him if I was right, and he was surprised and dismayed - I was right.

In hindsight, I wonder why my brain was obsessed with the number 32? I got his age wrong, but March 2nd is also 3/2...