non-lucid

Key: Non-Lucid, Lucid, Commentary/Notes, Hypnagogic Hallucinations

Playing Mouse Trap

I was walking down the stairs at home. There was an old man with long white hair, wearing no top and tight trousers. He was on the ceiling above me. Suddenly he threw a mouse trap at me! It managed to catch me and snapped shut, gripping my skin. Ouch! I quickly removed it and threw it back at him. It caught him on the back and snapped shut, gripping his skin in much the same way. He scurried off.

Downstairs I ran in to my brother. He explained that a weird old man had just thrown a mouse trap at him. He also told me that it was some kind of twisted game where the 101st person to be caught by it would die. Of course, he threw it at me and it again caught me. Naturally, I was having none of it and I threw it back.

We proceeded to chase each other around the house throwing it at each other in turn. We were essentially trying to kill each other, which isn't very brotherly. Eventually he missed me, and I threw it at him again. I suddenly recall no more of the dream, so I don't know if it ended, I killed him, or if something else happened.

New Bioware Game

One of the guys that runs the game developer Bioware was showing me a new game they were working on. There was a big LCD screen and he was walking me through it, although the dream seemed mostly like my perspective was that of the camera in the game rather than me looking at a screen.

Strangely, it wasn't really an RPG but more of a Real-Time Strategy game. There were tribal looking guys standing around a camp fire. He sent them out and eventually he captured a small group of people who were hanging out on the map. Then he captured some more and built a large tent structure. There was a guy of some significance, like a leader character for the settlement or something. Anyway, it was explained that he was automatically generated, but could be deleted and a new one placed which could be named and have his appearance customised. So, the guy was deleted and a new guy created. He was showing me what were pre-generated characters. He selected from portrait pictures similar to the Baldur's Gate games, but they became increasingly surreal looking like strange abstract portraits.

I find myself in some sort of room. I don't there are four couches in the room, two side-by-side facing the other two in the same position. Sitting on the couches is a motherly and fatherly figure, and possibly their huge family.
The mother announces "How about we go play Laser Tag?" To which, the children shout and yell for joy. Next thing I know, they're attaching frozen fingers to their fingerless hands.
While they are doing this the children sing a song I've decided to title "It's Eyes". Don't ask.

Really disturbing dreams last night...

FIRST DREAM:

Come across news article about 'Roy Spencer', older gay gentleman, now dead, victim of a hate crime. I write an angry article about how if only anyone gave a fuck, maybe this sort of thing wouldn't happen. (The gays can't even get a leg up, this is a huge fking problem, how's a tranny even supposed to deal when a gay man can't even live without being beaten into a casket.) 'We can all sit around and whine and bitch to other gays within our closed social circles about this, but that doesn't solve the real problem- the fucking problem is Out There, in the REAL WORLD, not in the stagnant, 'safe' homosexual microcosms we create for ourselves in big cities! The only reason these exist is to keep us from remembering the truth- that out there, we're fucking sideshow oddities and second class citizens! Did you know his name? Did you? Yeah, if you did, maybe this never would've happened, right? Because no one fucks with the gays in YOUR social circle. So what, we have to know a shit ton of other gays, be part of a buttfking gang in order to be safe, be respected? What about all of the other gays you don't know, the ones you can't protect because you *aren't* sleeping with each other? No matter how big the homo microcosm in San Fran gets, guess what! Roy Spencer is still in bumfk Egypt, Georgia, getting pillaged to death! THINK about that!' I talk to Justin about this within the dream, as we go for a walk through China town on the way to my old home on Kukui Street. He thinks this is all hilarious, and feigns anger to 'get me all riled up', but the only thing that comes of it is I mouth off to him, too, for being white, male, 'straight', cisgendered and middle class, and to top it off, indignant. END.

SECOND DREAM:

Had a birthday celebration marathon that included many of the students from my middle school, years and years back. Part of the fun was driving racecars around on the ice, which was incredibly dangerous, but we didn't care. This was a race we held every year, but this time it was setup so that it would take place on my birthday. Ambi often won, so she was talking smack about how she was the best, 'because my mom's a racecar driver! And quite frankly, I know how to drive!' But one of the blonde girls from my intermediate school, who played the part of 'the new student' showed up on a Kawasaki Ninja and when it came to the race, left Ambi in the dust. She whined incessantly about this. At the end of the race, her and a Bruiser(from Borderlands) had ended up in a draw, so they had a rematch with just the two of them on a track. We had to ride a trailer to a new track since the cars had turned the road on the previous one to slush.

While we were in the motorhome on the way to the new track I was admiring 'the new girl's skin, which was flawless, and I was thinking about telling her to take good care of it, since she looked like she had the potential to age beautifully, but I didn't have the nerve to even talk to her. She seemed to think I was creepy. I was afraid she'd make fun of me. We decided to stop by the side of the frozen desert at a little roadside restaurant, where it was now Scott's(another kid back from middle school) birthday instead of mine. When I turned a dial, all of the seats rotated so that everyone was sitting in a new formation. I arranged everything so that it would be 'perfect'.

Someone had tacked a note above the table I was sitting at, that had UV reactive ink on it that you could only read with a special flashlight. I found the flashlight in my pocket and me, the new girl, and two other guys, one who wasn't me, but looked like I do in WL, read it: 'The people assigned to sit here, Scott actually has huge crushes on. If any of you would be so kind as to strip or at least get topless once he has his seat next to you, well- that would be quite a present now, wouldn't it?' I remember being surprised that this implied Scott was at least bisexual, possibly more into dudes than girls (wtf?) seeing as to how the fraction was 3:1. I was embarrassed, because I'd stripped my wifebeater off before I'd even read the note, since for some reason it was ungodly humid within the diner.

One of the girls across the restaurant whistled and yelled something like, 'Well, he sure is quick to fulfill wishes, isn't he!?' I heard another girl yell, 'God, he's so skinny! You could eat from the depression under his ribs!' I started to turn red and, stuttering, insisted that it wasn't my intent to 'make a show' out of taking my shirt off. I started trying to scramble back into it before anyone else catcalled me, but Scott was already having a seat. The boy who had my face said, 'Aww c'mon dude, don't fuck it up right when he shows up. At least let him get a look at'cha, Skeletor.' Scott overheard this and was mortified, and said, 'Did... did someone tell you something about me that you AREN'T SUPPOSED TO KNOW?' He started to panic.

I didn't want to lie, but I didn't want to give him the impression I was 'undressed for him', either, but I was also afraid my full explanation would seem like a rejection, not to mention being paired with revealing that people had been gossiping about him. I hated the drama and wished I never knew, and that I wasn't here. END.

Hey this was my dream that i remembered from last night, it is significantly longer than my last one and is in quite a bit more detail.

We are moving house. The tail of my skateboard breaks, i am holding it in my hands wobbling the tail, i felt deflated. i tell my mum and she didnt seem to care. On the way to the new house we stop at an avairy where we ask the worker to get the most aggressive bird. The worker puts his/her hand in and is immediatly pecked by a black bird with a white neck and red beak, no bigger than a pidgeon. Meanwhile scaling the outside of the cage is the bird we would take to our new home. The new house was in a row of semi detatched houses. When we open the door a big long dark stairscase is infront of me. We move through to the living room, which is more warm and inviting. There is a big TV, wide screen but an older model so more chunky. Everyone watches the TV but i keep asking where do i put the avairy. I then move to a corner of the room and move a sleek black wooden table aside to create a cove where the avairy could go as there was an indent in the wall. I then left the room and came back to find the avairy in the space i prepared.

The Dream then changes scene

I am walking down a road one that is a mix of the features of a local near by main road and a ancient greek style road. I am walking with my friend Harry and talking about another friend Matty G. We are walking over a bridge and i ask " we are not having people over already are we?" "no" Harry replies and then my friend peter appears and says just me. As we walk back i talk about mending my skateboard when we see this group of girls we dont like by some traffic lights. Another friend called Jake then crosses the road and i continue talking about putting my skate trucks onto my Old Old fracture deck.

19.07.2010

Employed in a top National Security room. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A decent night. I recalled four dreams and two or three dreams were pretty long. I missed some detail on the dreams, but they are still with a lot of detail. However, two of them are fragments. I had a fifth dream, but my wife's clock woke me abruptly and I forgot it entirely.
Third of the night:

I was going to be hired to clean in a room were the flights of several civil and military place were monitored. This place was some sort of National Security room and only very authorized people could get in. I wanted to get in there to gather information for an unknown reason.

I was inside this place. It was full of computers. The light was low in this place and the floors were black pearl. I saw some military working here and some stairs down to the next floor. That was the restricted area were I was going to work. I was with my wife and we searched for another employee for me to get started.

A female employee asked my wife to leave and escorted me to the restricted room. The room was full of computers, radars and military.







A guy who was a manager started to explain to me that I had to handle the equipment with care. Specially one of them. He pointed me out a huge radar that needed to be cleaned every day, but had several buttons that could cause a cataclysm if pressed. There was some soda dipping from this radar, I was going to clean it, but he told me that it was not a major flaw for cleanness.

On one of the computers, I saw a wireless controller inside a small cone. It was similar to this:







I was wondering what it would be for. I was told how to clean that equipment as well. I saw some pasta inside the cone, so I took all out of it and cleaned it. The manager told me that I was bright and I could work in the room as a researcher instead. He told me it was going to be a lifetime commitment but with a big monetary reward. He asked me if I was sure and I affirmed.

This manager reunited all of us and started to explain something about gravity. He told us that we needed to complete an assignment about gravity. He wanted transcripts, videos, pictures, everything. It was to prove our loyalty. He told us the first part of the assignment was due next Wednesday, which was 48 hours from that moment.

I was a little worried if I had time to complete it. I knew I was in there for the only purpose of spying, but I kind liked the job and I wanted to go for it.

Missed dream signs:
- Getting employment in a place where I have never applied.
- Soda spill not being a cleanness issue.
- A cone with pasta and a controller.
- The assignment... it had nothing to do with the job.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Talk with the DC and ask about my own secrets that were unknown for me..

19.07.2010

I belong to a gang! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A decent night. I recalled four dreams and two or three dreams were pretty long. I missed some detail on the dreams, but they are still with a lot of detail. However, two of them are fragments. I had a fifth dream, but my wife's clock woke me abruptly and I forgot it entirely.
Third of the night:

I was with a gang. We had fire weapons and a few bombs. The size of the bombs were similar to a golf ball. To fire them you had to do it the same way you would fire a dynamite.
I went to the street and a guy from a rival gang attacked me. Neither of us were armed, so we had a regular fight and I won.
My gang appeared and we started to look for some stuff.

A random guy that was not a member of my gang appeared next to me, and then, a few seconds an African American male approached at me very threatening. He had problems with the guy that did not belong to my gang. The guy tried to attack me, but I told him he could finish his business with the other guy, as I did not know him.

The scenery changed and we were again in our apartment. Not all my gang was with me. I was with two more guys. One was Chinese and the other one was Caucasian.
We were seating in a sofa talking about a crime. We suddenly heard a noise. The Chinese guy grabbed his gun and pointed to the front door. He started to walk towards it. There was a guy in one of our windows and he shot him. We all laughed.
We started to talk about our gang until we heard another noise. He grabbed his gun again. Someone opened our front door and left a package. The Chinese guy ran to the door while the two of us were in the sofa. The Chinese guy shouted, "They brought more bombs" The both of us jumped from the sofa and said, "Bombs!!!! I love when they bring bombs!"

One of the bomb was the size of baseball and it was all orange. The Caucasian guy activated the bomb and left it in a different room. The room was a replica from my bedroom when I was a kid. I told him to stop playing with the bomb. The Chinese guy ordered the same. We still heard the bomb going on. We ran to the room and we heard water running from a faucet. He de-activated the bomb.

We left the apartment looking forward to have an encounter with an enemy gang.

Missed dream sings:
- The weird bombs.
- Belonging to a gang.
- The cold blooded we were.

What I would have done if lucid:
- It was an interesting dream, so maybe follow the plot.

There was a second part where there were two airships. I was in one and the other one was our enemy. We had some magical powers like on Bleach or something similar. It was pretty epic xD We were shooting the other team with a giant, white bow that we controlled together, telekinetically. The arrows where large hollow white tubes with some sort of design. It somehow reminded me of Orihime Inoue off Bleach.
Somewhere in the ship were all these spells, perhaps in a book, and they were written in runes haha. They were making all these undead skeletons appear and that was pretty scary. They spawned from the back of both ships and were attacking everyone.
There was some way to stop them from doing it, if you were able to read the runes. I thought "oh maybe it won't be hard to learn if I know a bit of Swedish" hahaha.

Even though I was someone in one of the airships, I could somehow switch my view between the two ships and see that it was all just fancy CGI, and though to myself how true it was that anything can be done with computer animation these days, and thus the undead skeletons and stuff weren't really that cool anymore.

After this bit, there was a part with these aborigines and they were climbing up these stairs. I was climbing down because somehow I'd started up at the top. Unfortunately, they were behaving in a derelict manner and ripping all the stairs up and stuff like that.

I was planning to meet up with MB at the movies. We were going to go watch something and eat dinner and we also agreed that we'd go and rent some other movies out to watch either before or after the movie.

Then I mentioned to someone how I needed to apologise to CH, this girl that I did something mean to in year 7 IRL (I still need to do this one day if I ever see her).

At the train station on the way to the city centre to meet up with MB, there were all these photographs attached to the station platform. They were all photographs of the same thing - some random part of the station platform taken from a specific angle, but each photograph was from a different station. It was kinda cool to see all the differences between each one.

SM and MM were at the train station with me. We saw that the train was approaching, but for some reason it didn't stop at our platform. And this somehow had something to do with Africa being poor, lol. I think the platforms were named after different African cities or countries. And some of these didn't have enough money to fund the train to run to the city centre, hahaha.
As they came from Africa, SM and MM got really angry at this, mentioning something about racism. They went to complain to the woman on the platform, but she pointed them to the train warden in the little office next to the station. It was a man with a paper sign on his back and front that said TRAIN WARDEN. So unprofessional haha. They went off to complain, and I saw that there was a train in the distance approaching. I somehow knew that this train would take us to the city centre.

We boarded the train, SM and MM somehow exited my dream and I noticed that CH was on the train. I really should've gone up to her and talked and apologised to her, but instead I just did that thing where you acknowledge someone's presence by smiling at them, saying hi, and then I sat behind her.

When we arrived at the city train station, CH was walking in front of me and heading towards Baker's Delight (a bakery shop). I followed her and when we got there I THINK I offered to buy her something. I'm not sure though. I remember that there was heaps to choose from. Different slices and things like that.
Anyway, I didn't end up apologising to her :/

July 17, 2010

Synopsis: I'm roleplaying as a male dragon. Bad guys have locked up my friends! But the same bad guys are treating me as a king. Are they trying to pit my friends against me?

Night Time Note: I'm excited about seeing Inception the next day. So I fall asleep really wanting a fun dream. I also try to keep my thoughts as light and airy as possible as I fall asleep.

Faithful Friends of a Dragon
Bad guys are after us, I transform into dragon - though I probably looked more like a gargoyle. I try to fly away (I'm not the violent type, what can I say? ) But my friends can't fly at all!

Instead we find some pillars. We climb on top the pillars and to our happy surprise the bad guys are dumb. One, they don't know how to climb the pillars, two, even though they could still attack us with their spears they don't! So I dangle my clawed toes over their head mockingly.

But then my dream completely morphs around me. I'm a much larger dragon now. My friends are locked in a prison that faces my pillar. And everyone is referring to me as a guy. The bad guys treat me as some sort of god, but really I'm just as much their prisoner as my friends.

They try to please me by bringing me an innocent women and forcing her to become my wife. She bows down before me with fear, arms and legs bounded. She asks with a meek voice how she can please me, but I want nothing from her. I don't dismiss her though because I'm worried if I do the bad guys will abuse her. So I keep her near me and try to treat her as a friend.

I don't know if these people are just confused with reptilian bodies, because I don't remember turning into a guy or wanting a woman

They keep trying to please me with gifts, food, or whatever. All the while my friends get nothing. With their prisons facing me, watching me get the royal treatment. They're trying to make my friends envy me! Pit them against me!

I don't do what the bad guys ask of me. Instead I stubbornly perch myself on the pillar and do nothing. Frustrated with me, the bad guys leave me alone for some fresh air. Now was the right time for our escape!

My 'wife' quickly unlocks my friends from their prison. And to my happy surprise no one is angry at me. Instead they help my dragon butt escape out of the castle. I'm back down to a regular gargoyle size, and I feel myself again. The fastest way out is to fly. I carry my 'wife' and tell the rest of my friends that I'll be back for them.

We fly away without any of the guards noticing us. Now I just need to find some place to hide my 'wife'. I find a hobbit sized hole in the valley. When I place her down I apologize and hope she doesn't hate me. I also tell her that technically were not married anyways since neither one of us said 'yes' . Now that my 'wife' is just my friend I fly back to the castle.

But the rest of my friends were way ahead of me and meet me half away! Bad guys chasing them down the valley!

We've captured the king of the bad guys. He was represented by a mechanical toy. I rip him apart! And spread and bury his pieces all throughout this medieval land, making it near impossible to put him back together again.

His devoted minions find me and attack me. They too were mechanical, but android sized monsters. I rip them apart easily! But their magnetized spine would 'gather' the other pieces to reconstruct themselves. I rip their metal spine into even smaller pieces, scatter them miles away, and bury them deep.

Satisfied that the mechanical bad guys could never reconstruct themselves, I wake up!

-I've gotten a notebook dream journal and have kept up with my dreams, but I really don't feel like posting all of them, so the latest one....-


Friends, Flying, Highway
I was getting in a little kids toy jeep thing and driving it down the shoulder of oncoming traffic on a highway, at night. All I could see were the headlights of the vehicles. I was going really fast in the kids toy jeep and I started to drive out of control. I got scared and jumped out of it, and my friend V and another girl was there, we had just came from some kind of talent show? I start running down the highway, still towards the oncoming vehicles, and then I ran across the road to the grass that was in the middle of the two roads. There was a white car driving in the grass ahead of me, and I started to run faster. Then I leaped up, and the view was looked like what you would see if you were in an airplane, (I imagine.) I see land, water, and roads.

Then I remember trying to figure out where I was, I had asked someone "What's on top of New York?" (lol)

Dust Magnet:
My computer screen had a lot of dust build up. I wondered why that was the case and started scratching them off one by one and there was a ton to scratch off.

Random Kids:
I was in some neighbourhood with my family(mom and brother). We just stepped out of the car when two kids approached us. It seems that my mom knew them and they greeted us with "Salam" then some random stuff I can't remember. I was feeling totally confused and was about to talk, paused and then said "I'm totally lost, do I know you?"

Thoughts: Nice to have recalled two dreams even though they were pretty small. Recall occurred during the day though. I might be able to recall better now as I am making progress in my meditation. Hoping for a lucid i the next couple of days

Messed up Beak:
I was looking at my yellow canary who was sitting in his cage. I noticed that his peak was like rulers as in two small straight pieces. I was thinking "I couldn't wait until his peak was normal again" because it looked really odd.

Thoughts: Such an obvious sign and I missed it, lol. On the bright side, I can still recall very small parts of my dreams. Most be due to my recent act of taking up meditation

Mission:
I infiltrated some base with my sister. We had some shortcomings and fixed them. We also had a list of things to accomplish.

Thoughts: Unfortunately, I couldn't recall any more details of the base, the shortcomings and the things that we had to do

i was going through my mom's cellphone. there were things about her personal life and random things. like using Nair on her legs and underarms.

20.07.2010

Running for the bus (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in my basic school and I went away from there. I went to do something that I forgot what it was. I suddenly realized I only had 10 minutes left to get to my bus. I started running. I noticed that a friend i knew IRl was running behind me, i kept running and then my friend went to his house. I stopped for a moment and I saw him walking through his garden to his door. There was something weird in the middle of his garden. I started running for my bus again. Then I noticed my cousin was running behind me. I yelled at him. Then suddenly he was running in front of me. He ran up some stairs into an open place where a party was going on. I followed him. I knew Only 2 minutes had passed, and I still had enough time left. I ran through the people, and as i entered the place, I could clearly hear the song "seize the moment" play. I ran into someone, he looked angry at me, I kept running.

In this dream I had a nice idea of time, and it felt like 2 minutes took forever. Also the distance I ran didn't seem much and the song that was playing was really vivid. The onject in the garden could have been a dispenser from team fortress 2, i played that game the day before.

DC's: friend, cousin