non-lucid

Still can't LD to save my life. Really frustrating. On the upside, I am recalling better so I guess that's something. Maybe a few more nights of good recall can help me achieve LD.

Anyway, the first dream is a little fuzzy. We are at Ceder Point, or "my version" (one of many) of it, with my aunt Delores (whom I am estranged from) and her three boys who are in their twenties now, but for the dream, still children. I wanted to ride a roller coaster, the Raptor, but couldn't find it. They all were eager to ride this pirate ride, which I shied away from because it didn't seem safe to me.

They get on, and the operator loses control of the "rope" he pulls to make the machine sway (why he's using a thick "rope", I have no idea). He tells me to help him hold it so the people won't get hurt. I don't know what to do and start panicking. There is no way I can keep that stupid ship from crashing. I never see the end of this dream...

Second dream is about Star Trek...two girls are fighting in an arena. They are held in these black anti-gravity straps (hovering there while they beat the crap out of each other). They have powers akin to androids. Laser beams and super strength, reflexes. As soon as the fight starts, one of the girls loses her powers and gets clobbered by the other. There were other details, but nothing concrete to describe. I do remember seeing stars outside the window...but that's it.

Third dream was me at my parent's house going to sleep on the couch. I had colored pencils and ended up clinking them a little as I settled down. My mother comes out and bitches that I'm making too much noise. An argument (no surprise there since I have spoke to her since last December) ensues, and my dad comes out to back my mother up. Again no surprise there as he always does that no matter what her problem is. They say I need to move out, and the rest of the dream is spent trying to call people to pick me up, and trying to find another place to live. I do recall my best friend popping in the kitchen at one point to give me advice where to go.

Fourth dream took place in twenty minutes and was my best chance to WILD. Alas, no go. But it was really vivid. There was boy with a strange creature following him. It would take over people to catch him. I was watching all this, and it became aware of me watching. The boy, somehow, was tricked into entering this apartment with two older men. One wanted to hurt him, the other wanted to ransom him for money or something. I ran out and tip a detective who, instead of arresting the men, calls them on the phone. Either way, it provided a distraction for me to grab the boy's hand and get him out of there.

We enter a door, and inside the room there is another door. It's blue. A dark-haired woman opens it, and I know her sister peeking over her shoulder is infected with this thing that wants the child. Apparently, stupid me went into a connecting apartment. Oops.

I'm in a car now, and two women are in the backseat (have no idea where the boy went) who ask the driver (an older man who I never met) to stop at the bank. I realize the man is that thing again and I need to get out of the car. He stops at this large bank, the sign and building something out of the twenties or thirties. Vintage looking. This is when my alarm goes off.

Recurring themes: Amusement Parks, blond women, a child in danger, something lurking inside people, family estrangement.

Someone was in the back of work about to smoke a blunt so they ripped it open and said "there's tobacco in here" because he only smoked marijuana, not tobacco.

I don't work at Bojangles in real life but now I was and we had weekly status reports and a really high up drive-thru that you could barely see above. I told the new girl to smile and wave if she gets a cop through drive-thru.

We had to take a photo of the best part of our lives. I then played Starcraft 2 in zigzags of orange.

I was about to get off at 4 at work and Woody came in and I asked him if I could go even though he had been fired that day.

We had a cash drop at work and I had one twenty left afterward. Me and Becca talked about how we had a new manager and thus now we do cash drops, as we did not ever do them before.

I was playing Starcraft 2 and had marines killing something.

Flea-like flying mosquitoes looked for places on humans bodys to suck blood and make their back bigger like in the game Mr. Mosquito.

I was sitting on the couch and my mother turned around and smiled as she handed me a white and yellow piece of paper.

Someone lost their helmet and we all (some people) had water guns with tubes leading to water tanks on their backs, similar to what happens on the nickelodeon show Big Time Rush.

I can’t remember how I got to this house or this situation. But I was near this house and something bad happened between me and the house people. The house was at least two stories tall, and the hardwood floors were very rickety and the rooms were all very dark. Then on the outside of the house an old man who was rebelling against the house people warned me that the world was going to end, and the people inside were all evil, and they all had to die. The people inside the house seemed omniscient which scared me. The old man who had warned me of the groups evil ways gave me 3 knives, including my black spring blade which I own in real life, a red box cutter which I used to own in real life, and another large black knife, and he also gave me a snubby little revolver, and a double barrel shotgun which was a normal double barrel when he first gave it to me, and then changed to a an over/under double barrel later in the dream. Throughout the dream I was scared for my life, and was sure that the cult was just waiting for the perfect time to have me killed. Occasionally I had moments of spontaneous excitement and inspiration because I knew I was going to die anyway and that I might as well die fighting, and also realized that if I completed my mission I would become a hero. My first assassination attempt of the groups leader was one of the definite peaks of the dream’s intensity. Adrenaline rushing, I snuck into the house, I found the upstairs room where all the members were congregating, and waited outside because of his body guards (by the way, the groups leader looked kind of like my mentor). I finally heard a little girl, probably about 12 go to the bathroom, I snuck in behind her, and when she turned around I pepper sprayed her in the face and then shot her in the back of the head, a chunk of her brain came out and blood sprayed everywhere. I remembered thinking to myself – she’s not really an innocent little girl, she’s hell spawn in disguise. Of course, the members all freaked out. The body guards went in the bathroom to see what happened so I ran through the other door went up to the main guy, and stabbed in the neck with a fork. I definitely broke the skin, but all that happened was water came out and after briefly faking pain, he started smiling. I ran out because everyone was yelling and I thought they’d kill me. Later, I talked to members who were on the fringes of the group but still dedicated and they had heard what I had done to the young girl, and my assassination attempt. They were living in a series of vans and all looked especially deranged and haggard. They tried to guilt trip me and it started working, and they warned me of what I had gotten myself into and hinted I might be in danger. I wanted to get away from the situation so I went to the beach. There was a trail to the beach and I saw the old man on the way down there, and we talked about my assassination attempt, and he told me the world was ending again. I was walking on the beach by myself and the waves kept getting bigger and bigger – the tide was coming in really fast and suddenly I saw this massive wave start forming. It was really tall and kept growing as adrenaline was pulsing. I was afraid it was going to be a tidal wave because the water was rapidly receding on the beach. It came up barely to the dunes but I was scared the next wave might be bigger. For some reason I decided to go the store and get a mango. I went in very stealthily because the Cult Leader’s body guards were there. Luckily there were peaches and mango samples there at the store and I took a lot with me.

That’s all I remember. I had a lot of chores and work to do today, so I scribbled the essentials down in my journal before getting to work and then just got home and transcribed it to computer. I am disappointed because i did not become lucid in it...probably because i was so scared. However, I am confident and proud of what I have remembered and written down.

1. I'm trying to hack around in Facebook to find a way to see V's profile again (after she's blocked me IRL). Soon, however, I don't have to hack, as she re-adds me just long enough to send a poorly written but very painful letter (I fail the text RC).

2. I'm biking with E and C from the research station in a upscale community, trying to make a lunch date with the rest of the crew. In retrospect, the community has been a dream location before.

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Day 4

I first went to bed with an intention of doing a DILD. Repeated my mantras and everything. Went to bed at about 11:00.
Unfortunately, I do not recall any dreams after I woke up at about 12:50. I got up, used the bathroom, and went back to bed for another attempt at DILD.

Again, no results. I woke up at about 6:30. I then decided to try a WILD. I got up, used the bathroom, and went on this site and researched Lucid Dreams a bit more for about 20 minutes.
I went to bed, and started.

I tried to focus on my breathing and relax as much as possible, following the "One. I will have a lucid dream. Two. I will have a lucid dream. etc" technique. I counted to about 700 breaths then got exhausted and bored, as I was experiencing no hallucinations. I could feel my body get fairly numb, but otherwise, no results. So I just decided to go to sleep.

Again, no results. I woke up at about 9:00. I got up, used the bathroom (I drank a lot of water the previous day before bed) and went back to bed for a morning nap. For the first 20 minutes, I listened to Isochronal beats to calm me down and get me in the mindset, then I went to sleep.

I woke up, and after spending 2-3 minutes in bed, had recalled my previous dream in amazing detail. I began writing it down. Although it wasn't a lucid dream, I'll still tell it:

Note: The entire dream was in Third Person

I was at my friend's birthday party. Several people I had just met on a weekend Church trip were there. At lunch-time, we were served fried shrimp (Which I had for dinner last night). I heated it in the oven because it was cold. When it was done, oddly it was still cold so I heated it in the microwave for 30 seconds.

The dream then skipped places, yet still remained in the same general setting.

I was then in my mother's car, with my aunt in the passenger seat and my mother driving approaching my friend's house in which he was having his B-day. In the backseat, sat two tubs filled with hot water (I can't believe I didn't do a reality check here). It one tub was me and in another was a girl. We were both naked.

I believe the girl tried to seduce me by rubbing her breasts together. I told her to get in my tub while my aunt wasn't looking. She jumped in, and she started to stroke me. When my aunt started to look back she went into the other tub.

I then had a scene which I don't remember too well where I wasn't anywhere related to the B-day party. I talked to a manager and he showed my how many people went to his store in a day. Time was then fast forwarded, and I took an omniscient point of view (I think I was already) and saw people buying things from the shop and leaving very fast (Like when you speed up a surveillance camera).

I was back in front of my friend's house with the girl (we both had clothes on). Horny, I grabbed her hand and headed inside. There were two bathrooms inside. One was very spacious with a large hot tub in the background. However, it was being occupied by a person I had met on my mission's trip, so we went to the second bathroom.

The second bathroom was noticeably smaller, and had a very small pink bed beside the tub which was located in the middle of the room. The girl leaned on the bed, and I dry humped her. She said to stop and she wanted it inside of her so I obliged. I then humped her a couple of times and told her to suck. She died it briefly (Surprisingly, I kind of felt it and it felt amazing). I then woke up.

Hopefully next time I'll have a lucid dream and it won't be in third person!

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was in a smaller type of hospital patient room with only one bed; it looked pretty ordinary at first glance.

It looked pretty much like that, although there was a small rectangular whiteboard behind the bed, up against the wall. There was a black whiteboard marker along the bottom shelf. House was sitting upright in the hospital bed, with a layer of white sheets over top of his lower half. I was sitting in a stool in front of the bed, holding another marker.

We were writing down different words on the board in some sort of game. I only remember one: House wrote "fouche" on the board while I was turned away, and I asked him what that word meant. He stuck his tongue out at me and I saw a splot of ink on it.

He must have written the word with his tongue.

The last thing he said was, "it's the art of writing with your tongue. Duh!" That last word, he said with his classic House-ism tone.

7/31

It started out with me in this cold nasty camp somewhere in the russian back woods. I was with several other kids my age. It was cold and we were running around this waterloged camp when this b$#@ of a lady comes out and yells at us. I follow them and we walk to her. She tells us we can't leave and I start to think O no were stuck here.

I panic and try to run but she laughs and sounds her men after me who capture me and drag me back. We are taken back to a higher camp in the mountains where they keep us in a small room the hut were in is rickety the bunk bead is rusted and there is also a small reddish/pink couch for the other boy.

They decide to take us to another place to run more test on us which is like toucher. On the way there the small kid next to me tells me we have to stop this bus some some of the kids can get away. I see some fishing spears right next to us and I quickly jam it into the tire twice make so small holes.

We have to make a stop because the drive notices a flat tire. Some kids go to the bathroom. Me and the other kid are say were innocent and she try to blame this old guy. At this point I get very angry stand up and slap one of those baby bottle candy's out of her had the one that has powder sugar in it. She backs up frighted and tells me to get on the bus. I say screw this and try to make a break for it but am caught again.

They drive us back to the high camp in the mountains were me and two other kids plan on how to get out. My parents show up and they give me ice cream I scream at them telling them they have to take me or they will never see me again. They didn't even flinch just stood there like nothing happened. So I told them when the evil lady come by to and ask where we were to point in the opposite direction.

Me and two other guys run to this small guard house that has a small barrow in front of the window. It was hanging from a rope on a pulley. they pull it inside and I climb up to the top and they turn into wolfs I'm allittle lost at this point the dream is getting really weird then I wake up.

This was a really weird dream. I having issues I only remember the last dream that I have that night right before I wake up I think I'm going to bed to late. I also keep having nightmare non-lucid dreams.