non-lucid

02.08.2010

End of The World (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It was a hot day, the sun seemed larger and bright red. People were wearing their tiniest sets of clothes. I was in 5 stars hotel with my friend Don and with Tom Felton (Draco Malfoy) who I had just met at the hotel. We agreed to go to the pool, but first Tom had to get his towel in his room. We entered his room and while he searched for his towel, me and Don were talking about sports, and I asked him if we was going to join the wrestling team again next year (we met in the wrestling team IRL). After Tom found his towel, we started walking towards the pool. We saw, through a window, a huge explotion far away. Someone then turned on a radio and we hear the terrible screams coming from it "A huge chaotic wave of heat is spreading all over the world, destroying everything on its way". I turn pale, "This can't be happening" is the first thing I think. "It must be a joke, like War of the Worlds", but panic invaded me, everyone was panicking, screaming, unsure of what to do, what to say. I look through the window and I see a chain of explosions moving closer every second. It was just matters of seconds before it reached us. Then I felt an intense heat, and everything went white. I felt pain, heat, and cold, but the worst thing were the screams, which were still in my head, the most horrible screams I had ever heard in my life. Three things came to my mind:
1) So, this is how I die after all.
2) Stupid scientists, they really were off when they calculated the sun wouldn't turn into a red giant in about 5 billion years...
3) How am I still thinking? Is there life after or death.. or am I about to wake up.

This one has been the scariest dream I've ever had, not because of death itself, I've had lucid nightmares in which I kill myself, but it was just so real it was hard to accept the World would end... so soon?, that I would never see my girl friend, or my family again. It was a very strange experience once I was 'dead', in the white void after the heat wave reached me. The fact that I was alive, but could still think seemed really odd, yet interesting. Right after I considered the possibility of this being a dream, I woke up, my heart beating as if I had just ran a marathon.

Was at a family reunion last night at my parents' place, which seemed to have provided the location for the dreams last night that I could remember.

1st off, a small fragment of what feels more like a memory than a dream, but doesn't make any sense. My cousin and I standing in the back yard chatting, as we had done most of the actual reunion. He asked if I'd drawn anything new. I stated that as a matter of fact, I had, thinking about the fact that my sketch book was in the van. Dream shifted or ended or something before I could go get it.

2nd. My wife Jen, my friends Brandon and William, and I had left my parents place and were walking over to a nearby gas station I used to go to for squishees and snacks and such after school. We were standing across the road from the gas station waiting for a break in traffic. William asked if I remembered how to do this (referring to crossing that street and its 4 lanes of constant traffic) In response I grabbed Jen by her hand as a break in traffic was opening up, and we all dashed to the island between the lanes, and then across to the other side of the street a moment later. We got into the gas station of indeterminate branding (it's a Chevron, but didn't have any recognizable markings in the dream. Never noticed that in the dream though) and William and Jen went off to get their own things. I was standing there just off beside Brandon, when I heard a couple of girls who were there comment "Wow, he's big" "Isn't he a bit too big though?" followed by the two looking over at me. I, wearing a tank top, took this as referring to my arms which, while larger than the average guy, are certainly not what I'd consider to be huge.

Few moments passed, and there was some other girl I didn't know who went to walk by in front of me, and then started touching and rubbing my upper torso. She wasn't looking at me though, but past me, and seemed to be acting almost like she was drunk, but minus the stumbling around.

Dream shifted slightly, and while I don't have any actual memory of it, I have it in my head that some people were either in the shop, or came into the shop, and were going to try and hijack a train that was apparently nearby. Next thing I remember of the dream, which actually came after I woke up, was a birds eye view of the train they were trying to hijack, zooming towards the back of the train, and specifically the last car. The roof dissapeared like a cross-section, and showed a bunch of crates arranged in a V with the apex pointing towards the end of the train. I got the impression there were train guards stationed there? And there was a voice over mocking the people on not being able to hijack the train if they couldn't even figure out which end the engine was on.

There was probably more to remember, but as I was lying there trying to recapture the dreams, I was being talked to. I could feel myself losing grip on details, and that made me a sad panda.

Although I never get a lucid dream yet, this morning I (almost) accomplished a feat i have never done before; remembering TWO dreams in ONE night. Today again I woke up right after a dream (about 5 or 5:30) and remembered the dream i just got out of. Going back to bed, it was a guarantee I would dream one more time and have 2 to write in my journal. Unfortunately, I had to go play golf with my father at 6. Out of luck. I tried to go back to sleep but nope. My fathers alarm clock buzzed. Times out.

The dream:
In my classroom at my high school. I am sitting at my place but nobody is with me. I look around and see Alexis, Antoine, Yussef and Eric behind me. At the end of the class there is Catherine and Severine (see Wave 2) with Etienne. He hugs Sev. I think its pathetic, since shes not his GF and she thinks hes ugly. Then my French teacher starts talking to the class. She refers to Alexis as the French fry, cause hes blond. She did some comments about the organisation of the class and how a teacher could help you with your binders (?). Then Eric says something racial against Muslims in the class. I think at that point our teacher is a man.

At recess in my primary schools yard, he walks and talks to his friends when he sees all the Arabic kids of the school. He starts to walk away and puts on his hood but they gang up on him and chase him around. I pop up and walk behind them while talking to Karim (who is a Muslim) and asking him of its really that funny. He answers yes and I agree in my head. Then at some point he pulls out a shovel and tries to hit me. I stop it with my hands. The dude is freakin crazy in real life, i wouldnt be surprised if he hit someone with a shovel. This happens in front of my French teacher who doesnt say a thing. End of Wave 4. Wave 5 coming up tonight.

Lol I remember a random part of my dream included Cvan. He told me on MSN "hey this is for if you feel like fapping" and gave me a link and I thought it would be a porn vid but it was a porn .gif of something I can't remember what. Haha xD

Okay, another part of my dream. We (myself and someone else that I can't remember who. It might've been my brother) went to this martial arts place. I think that Jacinta (a highschool friend) was there and that she was training and I think she made us feel unwelcome there. We went to two different martial arts places and she was at both.

PART 1 - PLAYING SC2 WITH G

Playing my friend G in Starcraft 2. They don't actually play IRL. This part won't make any sense to anyone who doesn't play...

I was Zerg at some points and Protoss at others... it's one of those weird dream effects where both are sort of true at the same time.

I expand twice with no army, they attack before I can make one and win.

We have a rematch, this time I'm careful not to over-extend myself, I make a bunch of Photon Cannons. We don't get to finish the game for some reason, it ends before any real battles happen.

ANALYSIS

The thing that stands out most to me is the symbolism of proactive/reactive, or offensive/defensive.

I would say I tend to act in a reactive way around this friend. Perhaps the game was a metaphor for this.

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PART 2 - WEBCAM WITH G

Next, G turns on a webcam. It's starting to get late. They are in some sort of party environment... loud music in the background.

At one point this music production guy that G is working with (in the dream) comes on cam. Short hair, black t-shirt, mid 30s, quite buff. Don't remember anything he says.

ANALYSIS

This seems to relate to the fact that IRL G "has things going on" in their life, while I'm still at a point of preparing for the future, without much of note happening in mine.

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PART 3 - WRONG TURN DOWN A LONG, WINDING ROAD

Now, it's dark. I leave the house, presumably where the above scenarios took place. I'm riding a bike, presumably headed "home" (wherever that is in this particular dream world.)

I take a long turn down a long, winding, isolated, spooky road. It goes on as far as I can see. There are bushes on either side. Once, maybe twice, an old guy (60+) passes me going the opposite direction in a car. I'm singing to myself out loud about how I don't want to get attacked.

At some point I realize I'm going the wrong way and turn around, right at a sharp U turn in the road.

As I do, a lanky older guy (40+) with glasses, narrow face and messy brown hair, possibly wearing a trench coat (or I may just be adding that retrospectively) starts following me. I stop and tell him to wait in place for a bit until I'm farther ahead, he does so. I have a rectangular knife for protection but don't have to use it.

ANALYSIS

I'm constantly thinking about what paths to take in life, planning my future, repetitively reevaluating the conclusions I come to. When I come to a conclusion I often jump "all in"; but often, I change my mind and jump back "all out." All or nothing.

On a symbolic level the first thing that comes to mind is that I almost decided to spend the next year hardcore studying online poker, but decided against it after hearing even the best can often go upwards of a full year with little winnings on a downswing.

Could have been a lot of time and effort spent in a less than optimal way, may also explain the sense of risk.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


The Camp and the Colonel

I can't remember that much about this dream which I had around 2.30am. One and a half hours after going to sleep. I think the first half of/ the dream was in first person, the second in third

I was at some sort of cabin in the words, and one of my friends was there (never seen them in real life). He had this massive porn collection and all the titles were something like final something 1, final something 2 and so on.

He then explained to me that he had collected these DVDs on all media and showed me a chart of video >> DVD >> Blu-ray.

The chart was in pictures showing a video (which looked like a picture of an envelope) a golden disc(DVD) and behind that but over the top a blue disc (blu-ray).

I dont remember what happened next but then I was in the woods and this old English colonel guy with a moustache was begging me to let him sleep in my bed. He assured me that there was no funny business going on and tryed to give off the impression he was scared. I was unconvinced and thought he wanted to be in my bed for less savoury reasons but relented.

I woke up

I woke up again around 4am and couldn't remember my dream. However im pretty sure it had a monkey in it

A bunch of frags last night because I didn't sleep well. I'm surprised I even recalled anything at all. Watched True Blood and that influenced many aspects of my dreams.

Fragment #1

I'm in a car, sitting there waiting for someone. An older man is with me. I know who he is in the dream, but waking, I can't remember. Dom's character from Inception opens the car door and sits down in the driver seat. I scoot over (somehow we can fit all of us in the front seats) Dom tells me to start cleaning up the car, how could I get it so dirty? I begin to clean it with the older man giving me helpful advice on what to use, and how to clean. There was more, but I can't remember.

Fragment #2

I'm a knight, and I'm searching these tents for survivors. A child calls out for help, a little creepily, but I go anyway. Two children are there, a blond girl and a boy. They peek from their hiding place and tell me to come into the tent. I already know what they are. Vampires. They want me to come in the shade so they can feed. I feel bad when I go in, pretend to be stupid so they attack. I drag the girl out into the sun, but I forget what happened to the boy.

Fragment #3

It's winter, and I'm taking pictures of these strange peacock/eagles that have landed on this dock. It's red with gray underfeathers. Another comes, black one, and tries to hurt the first. I throw snowballs at it, stunning it and making it fly away. A second one tries to hurt the first and I hurl a big ice ball at it. It slumps over dead, then turns into a man. The red bird shapeshifts into a man and says not to worry, the others were evil.

There was more to this dream, but I can't recall.

I'm on a bus going to God knows where. It stops and I get off to find myself at an alleyway. There are lots of kids my age and younger. I'm looking for a child and I ask this boy in a battered top hat, “Have you seen a negro kid on a yellow tricicle with red wheels. I get no answer, so I ask another child and she points me in the right direction. I walk where she pointed. Up ahead was some crossroads and beyond that a doorway, no door. As I walk, four of my friends join me. We cross the crossroads and then to my left was a café, it looked like a bus or coach with the front lopped off. We walk up to the door way and I hear clicking noises, like metal on metal. I look up out of the doorway and see one of my teachers, who immediately steps back so I can't see him. A car park is before me, with some cars parked. There are even some burnt out cars which there are trees and plants growing out of them. I look past the one at 2 o'clock to see some more of my teachers hiding away. There's three of them. I look to my friends and tell them something (can't remember what exactly) but I then look out to the car park again and leg it to the pristine car which is dead ahead. I hear the sound of fully automatic fire behind me. We were being shot at. We hid behind the car. It was a Renault Clio. Another teacher comes out with a gun, but fails to do harm since she doesn't know how to use it. I take the weapon off her, and shoot her. I also take down the teacher on the roof. We capture the remaining teacher. I remember talking to one of them and asking, “Why would you do this?”
“To rule the world.”
“Will you have any friends if you rule the world?”
He laughs. “I have all the friends I need.” Then the army appears from no where. Aircraft could be heard flying over head and radios where going off.
Me and my friends ran for it. We split at the cross roads, me and one friend, Rhys, go straight ahead. We run the the alley where I started and make a right then left and we come to a church and claim sanctuary. We wait, constantly looking out for the army through the windows. We watch as some guy runs jumps into a nearby lake and swims for his life. After a few minutes we see people making a chain and blocking access to the church. We eventually leave the church, and walk along the bank of the lake and come to a car. The rest of my friends are waiting for us.
Me and my motely crew are now in a car travelling through the woods. I do not remember anything significant happening.
I am now in a cave (same dream) looking for a hiding place, I exit the cave after being unable to find a suitable one, and go down the woodland path leading from the cave. At the bottom there is a tunnel which has another path leading away from it, the path is on a cliff edge.I hear footsteps coming from the tunnel. I stop walking to listen, thinking it might be the army. It isn't. It's a boy scout, I do not know him and he is running for his life. I go to help him. He makes it up the path on the cliff edge. He is a good way up before I catch up to him, he stumbles and falls to the ground and sprains his ankle. Rhys jumps out of nowhere and helps me carry him up the hill. Below us is a very steep slope, which gradually turns into a cliff face the further you make your way along. At the bottom of which is a river bank. and barbed wire fencing stopping us from just walking into it. The boy 'jumps' without warning and hurtles towards the ground below. He just misses being caught in the barbed wire. Rhys and I continue to run. He jumps just before the river bank ends, missung the barbed wire. I run to the point where there is no river bank and just water and I jump. The dream ends.

Before I went to bed last night I ate a few pieces of cheese to help evoke some creative dreaming! After reading a little I fell asleep and had a series of dreams that I believe occurred in the hours just before I woke up (this is what it felt like anyway). This is what I remember upon waking up.

1st fragment of dream: I remember this was a long detailed dream, but I only remember the end part. I was travelling with my boyfriend, not my real boyfriend but someone I have never met before in my life. Somehow something went wrong and we were being arrested by a woman who was in control of the area we were staying. She had the power to decide if we were to go to jail, which would mean never being released or seeing each other again. My dream boyfriend did not argue this but I pleaded and cried with the woman to let us go, that we were getting married soon and I wanted to spend my life with my boyfriend. She never said she would let us go but I knew in my mind then that she would release us. That is all I remember...

2nd Fragment of Dream: Occurred just before I woke up. I was stranded on a big empty wooden boat at sea with a group of people I did not know. The boat had a closed top with dark wooden panels and hardly any windows. There were lots of areas and hallways I explored and a couple of rooms where the majority of the group of people stayed. The first part focused on us meeting another little boat and begging for help. We did not understand why they didnt want to help until our boat crashed into theirs, at which point they began climbing onto our big boat. I remember feeling threatened and trying to calm them down in case they were angry we damaged their boat.

This then turned into another part of the same dream where I wanted to get away from the people on the boat, we were in close proximity of each other and I needed some space from the group. I explored the corners of the boat and found a white wood panelled door. This door had several swing parts to it and when I walked through there were stairs. I did not go up the stairs, however another girl came and went up the stairs and I was able to see through her eyes there were more people upstairs, hundreds more people. We then realised this was the upper class and we weren't allowed upstairs and I remember trying to convince them I could come upstairs but they all looked down at me. That was when I realised that we must be the lower class. This was when I woke up.

3rd Fragment of Dream: I managed to fall back asleep for another hour where I remember dreaming that I was being sick everywhere in a room with another girlfriend in it. She was sick once but then looked at me and saw how much mess there was in the room. The room then turned into a red car and a guy friend told us that we would be ok we just had to abandon the car on the road, which we decided to do.

I don't know what any of these mean but they all seem to revolve around travelling places to some extent. They also don't feature any real people.

So it even has a backstory. A kid was drowned in some bay by a supposed CIA agent and all the history about the kid has been removed. I and some other guys talk with some sailor dude and he exclaims that the "CIA can do anything".
The dream ports me back to some kind of burgershot like restaurant where i am teaching martial arts (most likely, karate). Also, everyone is in the backroom where the actual burgers are made. Near the end somebody asks me "Where do you work?" and i remember saying that i work in some hot dog restaurant. Everyone takes it as a joke.
Now supposedly night has came, me and some of my schoolmates are remaining in the backroom. We see that there are a few uneaten hamburgers left and attempt to eat them. They are way too salty and no one is able to finish them, so we throw them into the trash can.
Suddenly, i have a feeling of danger burst in me (i'd assume everyone else has it too, since they act like me). I take a look out of the backroom (for the first time) and it seems I'm in some skyscraper-like building and the backroom being the only room of our "burgershot". We see some shadow moving towards us (it's dark in the corridors, they dimly lighted tho) and dash towards a lift.
Now this is the craziest lift i have ever seen. It's around the size of a pretty big room, it has paintings, a sofa, pillows and a few cushions. We start moving downwards (we didn't need to press a button) and bright white light starts flashing from behind the door. It doesn't stop and we see a few shadows moving from behind the door (i'd assume, humans). The lift stops. The doors open and all they reveal is a picture of the skyscraper.
The feeling of danger gets even stronger. But others seem to be unable to feel it. They feel sleepy and decide they'll stay here until they wake up. Before i realize what to do, a guy dashes through the picture and ends up jumping out of the skyscraper's first floor window. He lands on some kind of roof (the ones above doors), without any injury. Like 20 meters away from the building there is someone standing. I somehow realize he's someone from CIA. While i'm watching him, he pulls out a gun and fires at the jumpers arm leaving him heavily injured. The CIA agent laughs and enters the building. I jump out the same second.
As I land, the other guy decides to make a run for it. When I land, I jump off the roof and start dashing towards him but before I reach him, the same CIA agent captures him and starts pulling the guy towards the building.
Only now i notice that this skyscraper is build in the middle of a dead forest. Trees have no leaves, they look burnt and weak. There are also some fences with no practical use. They're extremely short (about a few meters in length) and the fence itself is made from slate which is about 2-3 meters in height. I continue running through the forest and as I reach one of the fences i hear the CIA agent talking. He seems to be talking to 2 girls (who look incredibly similar to the ones i left at the building). I seem cornered to the fence. The CIA agent laughs and throws a gun towards me. I decide not to catch it. The agent and the girls are amused by the sighting. I turn my back and jump over the fence and continue my run for it.
The dream ports me near some cinema/cafeteria high in the mountains. I get in the building and notice that it has a lot of people in it. But not only it has a cinema and a cafeteria in it, but also living spots, a gym, studying spots. I enter the cafeteria. It's built like a balcony and has a great panoramic view upon the ground below. It somehow struck me that this is slightly above the place where the kid was drowned. Sudden depression hits me and I want to suicide by jumping out of the balcony. I manage to not do that (would be a bad idea, probably) and I exit the cafeteria. In the corridor I notice 3 of my schoolmates. I feel endangered. They pull out guns that look like desert eagles. I run towards the gym but as I reach it a guy with a broom says
"Is he even allowed here?"
A lot of people turn to look at me. Then my schoolmates run in. Someone tells them put away those weapons. He keeps repeating it until one of them does it. The others concede too.

In the aftermath I remember staying in the same cinema/cafeteria/whatever and talking to one of the 3 schoolmates that were supposed to kill me.

It only now struck me that the cafeteria/cinema/whatever could possibly be a last resort for people being chased by CIA or whatnot.

1) something about Arthur???

2) Playing soccer at the Portuguese club. We're dominating some kids. I'm trying to get my shoes on to play but I notice that they're broken, somehow I will them to get fixed and they do! (I don't become lucid ). The kids we're playing are really arrogant.

3)I'm walking through the mall in my hometown. I think I'm semi lucid or at least dreaming that I'm lucid??? I have a basket ball in my hand and I'm using it to stabilize my dream (I read a tutorial about this before going to bed). If I was lucid I loose it. It's the Derby btw. the two main schools in our town and the rugby and hockey games are on. Gym is winning the rugby. We go to the hockey field and Rowan begins to play, he plays quite well, running fast and falling over while he takes a back stick shot, he almost scores. I'm getting ready to play too when some people on horses come onto the field. It's some other sporting event that is taking place, we lead the horses off.... the dream ends

1) I remember playing on top of some roofs with my friends, I think we are kids. We have like a fort up there. At some stage I am on the ground and some other kids are on top of the roof where our fort is but I'm an adult now (this could have been later).

2)Running somewhere with someone who I know is a genius, we're running through peoples gardens to get to our destination, I trust him because he's a genius. we run into a garden and I see a mother and a daughter that I know doing zoomba in their living room we sneak into their house to try sneak out the back and continue on our journey but they see us. They turn into a different mother and daughter (G and H).

At some point I have a big scab diagonally down my face because I ran into something. I pull the scab off trying not to anyone see but G sees and whispers judgmentally to someone else what I am doing.

We're travelling in D's car and we have to avoid ostriches in the road. We turn left towards mountains (V's farm). I think the vehicle changes my dad and my uncle are there on the left there is a huge platform built onto the side of a mountain, it is Bafana Bafana's south africa soccer team) world cup training camp. It's like a HUGE highway on ramp ending in a dead end. My dad and uncle? discuss how this facility can now be used to bring in money and offset it's huge cost.

I'm in a house still have the wound on my face, I'm really upset about having been forced to do something against my will by my family.

I suspect going lucid a couple times but waking up straight away.

1) I remember something to do with the TV show fringe....

2) I've somehow bought a old trailer/house from an old lady, it needs serious repairs. A repair guy comes to inspect it and as he enters one of the old ladys plates falls off the wall, I notice that she has plates hanging on all the walls and that the top of the walls need repairs, the floor is also wonky. There are cinder blocks and a trampoline holding up the floor underneath the trailer. I remember telling someone that at least once it's fixed I'll have a trampoline . I remember looking around the garden there was a tree and a swingset.

Important note: Encountered dream cue. Strange things with my hair.


I didn't sleep well. Couldn't remember a single dream. Kept waking up and going back to sleep. Until Phillip went to church. I woke up for a while and when I went back to sleep I had an EPIC dream.

This time I was on a road trip down south with Lloyd and Robby. Most of what I remember is driving back up North. I was using a GPS but I kept making wrong turns so we visited lots of different places, stopping whenever we saw something interesting. Many things happened but there's a particular image I want to preserve.

It's night time and I'm high up on a hill overlooking a city. The city's built on the shore--and the islands--of a vast lake. The lights of the houses wink on and off like a hundred million fireflies or early morning dew on a freshly baled field, and each is reflected in the dark water. I am full of awe and the perfect understanding of why I travel.

Another especially interesting fragment: my subconscious is trying its damndest to hand control over to my conscious mind. In my dream I'd stopped at a hotel and while asleep I'd dreamed about my main dream cue.

In the dream in a dream I'm sitting on a bench outside a strip mall kind of thing. It's very upscale and the windows of the shops are enormous. i'm waiting for someone. Robby, I think. I'm still on the road trip. I dont' know how much of what I remember is the dream in a dream. But I'm certain of this part.

I look in a window and see my reflection. I decide I want no hair on the left half of my head. I take out a razor and begin shaving. It's a pink disposable razor and I'm having trouble. At some point it becomes a brush made of hard plastic spirals. I think instead of shaving it actually pulled hair out. It pulled, anyway, and hurt slightly. I was still having trouble with it and could only manage to make a bald spot on the left front of my head. A girl on a bench across from me commented that I was messing up the color distributions (in the waking world I have dark blond hair and a bleached mohawk) and I explained what I was up to.

Later (back in dream layer one) I was in the car and remembering my dream from the night before. But when I put my hand through my hair the bald spot was STILL THERE. "How could that be?" I thought. I had a brief minor freak out in which I believe I *almost* attained lucidity. Instead I decided I mush have actually pulled my hair out while I was asleep. I'm getting close.

So many scenes and places. Takes so long to write. I've captured the two most important parts so I'll leave things here for now. Perhaps I'll pick up later.

1. I'm at a football stadium in the desert. The Cincinnati Bengals are playing a game against an unspecified team, and I'm on the field as a Bengal's lineman pushing against the enemy offense. I actually do an OK job, and as the downs progress I get teammate support in a kind of military, "Hoo-ah!" way

2. I'm watching what seems to be a fight scene from an X-Men comic or movie taking place in a desert. The choreography is stunning, as is the skill of the mutants. The fight ends with Jean Grey drawing all the combatants towards her in a massive display of psychic power, then throwing them apart in a sphere of blue light. The Silver Surfer rides by, quipping, "And I thought I was overpowered!"