non-lucid

July 21, 2010

Synopsis: Yucky school food again. A frightening flood threatens to drown me and my sister. Gotta get ready to evacuate asap!

Note: I had this dream on my birthday. Just going back in my little journal and trying to log in my entries here.

Flood on my Birthday!
What am I waiting for? The lunch line is so long and I just want a bloody salad. The people in front of me are soo slow. I peek over their shoulders and I see the lunch ladies are also serving pasta and bread. Like so many other lunch line dreams, the food is going real fast. But I just want the salad.

Later I meet up with my family. Me and my sister have moved into our first new apartment in New Jersey, and mom was dropping us off. Our folks say goodbye and drive all the way back south to Texas. It seemed kind of nice at first being so far away from the rest of the family, until I started watching the news.

A terrifying flood has risen 1000ft!!!! (is that even possible??) And it's coming this way! I look out the window. It's dark outside but I can already see it's flooding pretty bad. It's at least three feet high already. Me and sister are on the fourth floor. We may be way high but the flood is rising fast, and who wants to be trapped in a flooded city?

We have to leave this damned city!

I quickly run into my room and toss everything I can think of in my backpack. It's too heavy and I'm pulling out my hairs trying to decide what to leave behind. (I have so many sketchbooks and journals!). I toss my sandals, they're probably useless with this flood.

Sis is just watching TV casually like nothing is wrong. Hello! 1000ft high flood! Sis yawns and just says "I give up, were going to die. Oh well."

"I wanna live!"

I quickly come up with a plan in my head. I'll have to trek in the deep water on foot, probably for miles to reach the next city. But I know the way. I strap my backpack on, I'm ready to leave without my sis - and then there was a knock on the door.

It's my parents.

Mom came as soon as she found out about the horrible flood! Wait a minute, how did they drive here when the water was already too high? I look out the window again, and like magic, all the water is gone. Oh that's nice!

Mom however did not make my dream magically safe with her mommyness.

Later on everyone was getting settled for sleep. I change into my pjs and head for the kitchen for a glass of water. I walk into the dark living room. When I notice the silhouette of a man next to me, lounging for me!

I run back into my bedroom terrified, I want to scream but I can't. Sure in dreams there are some frightening monsters and demons you run from. But there is something about monsters that can exist in the real world, rapists, murderers, that invoke a much deeper fear in me!

I'm so terrified of the invader I want to cry.

But somehow the invader gets trapped into my closet. My sister opened the closet door just too wide, and he escapes. He was like smoke. And just like that he was gone. I woke up shortly after.

Me and my mother were at a thrift shop and I was looking at the vacuums to buy for a friend but they were all over one hundred dollars but when I looked in my wallet I had more money than I thought.

First I had a FA:

I woke up and started eating breakfast and doing the daily routine. I saw on the clock that it was 9:30 and went to call RE and tell her that I was sick and probably shouldn't come. Then it ended.

After, I had a nap:

I started off in some snowy place, and I was watching some people struggling to get on this icy block.

Then the scene changed, and I sort of realized that I had just lain down for a nap, and so I was lucid. At this point the scene had changed, and I was watching some DC throw webs at the ceiling like spiderman. I decided to try it to. I did the motion and the webs came spurting out. But I didn't have enough time to jump before the scene suddenly changed.

Now I was at home. I thought about my LD goals and decided I should try dream healing on my leg. I held my hands around my knee and felt warm energy flowing. Then the skeleton of my knee flashed in front of me, and I saw gold light wrapping it. After that, the dream ended, and I was thrown into another non-lucid sleep.

I dreamed I was swimming underwater. I can't remember using any breathing devices or anything. My friend Lawrence was leading the tour along with a few other people. Everything is tinted hazy blue.

We come to a narrow hallway with a large door at the end. The guys start moving towards it when I see a glowing parrot looking fish. I'm immediately told not to touch it because if I do it will kill me. So I evade it and we are helped through the gate.

Once through we are in an even larger area. There is a fairly narrow hallway sort of area that leads up s set of shallow steps and those steps lead into the wide open reef we came to see.

As we walk up the narrow steps I am stopped all of a sudden and someone points out a little hole in the base of the steps bi am told not go touch it because if I do it will come unplugged and suck me backwards and shoot me outta the room. That's good enough incentive for me to be careful.

With that in mind I continue forward and am constantly on edge not to touch anything. I see s semi large floating egg, about 12" long float by and I ask one of my guides If I'm allowed to touch the dragon egg even I'd just to save it from floating down the stairs and outta the room. The guide says no and as I watch the egg float by it flashes back and forth between the image of a fish and then back to the image of the egg.

For some reason Lawrence ends up getting way ahead of us and it's making the guides nervous. I tell them that I want to go back and they point towards the door at the end of the steps. I go to it and open it and then immediately I see the red parrot fish that kills on touch. It is alone in the vast blackness. I change my mind about leaving and turn back around.

I dream that a small group of people and I are heading down this steep forested hill. We reach the bottom and realize there is no true way out except climbing back up the other side of the bowl we climbed into. Before we do I take time to notice these absolutely gigantic trees that seem to tower over everything and while I do that I notice the spiders.

The spiders are gigantic and they have weaved a giant web around the entirety if the forrested bowl we walked into. I scream bur our leader ignores it and begins to climb up the side and past the enormously fat spiders. I'm frozen with fear and decide to follow too late. They take the spiders by surprise and manage to make it through a tiny hole in the web. The fat black and bulbous spider crawls over to the hole and seals it up. I am stuck.

I remember a fragment of a dream.

There was a party. It was at a pool. I did not know the place. My cousins were there, along with other people that I knew, as well as a lot that I didn't. It was crowded, but not uncomfortable. Everyone was happy and partying. Someone was tossed into the pool with his clothes on.

Conditions:
Fell asleep: 2:00 am

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

As always when I experience a dissapointement, life gives me a little consolation Although I didnt manage to LD again this night, I did beat my record of Most Dreams in a Night. 4 is now the record to beat

Dream 1: I am on a black street in my neighborhood. I know exactly what street it is, its close to the cycling road and the park. I go by bike sometimes. Anyway I see Philippe (again) who tells me to come play with them. There is also Justin, Olivier (the black one) and Amelie. Justin proposes we play a game where we have to press with our thumbs as fast as possible. It hurts.

Dream 2: I register in a class at school to learn more about and sing like Billy Talent. As I look for the classroom, I notice I am the only student of that class. Up a big set of stairs, M.Dugré and a female teacher are waiting for me. M.Dugré pulls out a weird paralelogramme with blocks inside. There is a single block missing. He asks me what the signification of this object is for the band. I have no idea. He sighs in despair.

Dream 3: The whole dream is centered around screamers. First we go to a park with a big screen. My mom tells there is a pikachu screamer here. I do like usual and hide my eyes and ears. The park has a new screamer every day, and for some reason we always come back. Later my mom convinces me to watch it as it is not scary at all. It isnt, really. After the creepy music that begins, all you see is a pikachu that falls next to a Marill. Not bad. Then the next time we go, the creepy music starts and everyone yells. But not me Im hidden. Then the park manager tells us that the daily screamer is cancelled before it scares kids (go figure). If you want to get your daily dose of being scared shitless, you must go to a huge manor at night. Nice. I decide to stay with my uncle but since its my dream and the plotline doesnt go forward if im not there () I still end up on a boat to the manor. As soon as we get there I feel like ive been there before, either with school or at Quebec with my family. Except now its pitch black outside. Luckily, the dream ends before I get the chance to go in. This was NOT a nightmare. It was a regular dream with the addition of something that would scare me in real life Had I watched one, it probably would have turned into a NM.

Dream 4: Short since it was at 7:15 in the morning. I am in the house when I see a big orange ball. Theres a big crack in it so I decide to put my head in it. I can still breathe through just fine. I walk around the house and watch out not to hit things. I also go on the patio and downstairs. Not long but counts as a dream

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was behind a square piece of hedge on the lawn of a rather modern-looking house; the exterior was saturated tan stucco with sienna brown accents, and the driveway was two flat slabs of yellow-tinted concrete. The location must have been set in a desert because the sky was blue and there wasn't much grass on the ground. I could see everything around me, even though it was fairly dark outside.

I was looking at a man who was walking along the driveway. His name is Hank, a character from the AMC series Breaking Bad; he was wearing a black jacket, slightly baggy, and blue jeans. I saw a flash of a salmon-colored shirt underneath, where the jacket was unzipped. He looked the same as the image below, but obviously with different clothing.

The car was red and fairly rusty; it looked like a van made in the 80's with sharper corners and less curves. There was a thin panel of polished wood placed horizontally around the vehicle as an accent.

He got into the car without opening the door; instead, he slipped through the open window which was slightly larger than it should've been. He turned the car on with an exaggerated twist of his arm, turning the key, and began to back up. I moved along the hedge as the car backed up, and then pulled out a cell phone. Without dialing any numbers, I immediately began to speak into it. "He's here," I spoke into the phone.

A pigeon appeared beside me; it was light gray and had black speckles all over its wings, as if someone had dusted it with pepper. It had the same cell phone stuck to the side of its head, without being propped up by anything. But it didn't speak, it just walked along the ground and disappeared on the other side of the hedge.

Non-Lucid
Side Notes

13-08-10 Fragmented stuff only from this night. In one dream I was back at that dreadful marketing job, trying my best to spend as little time on the phones as possible. I was doing the best in terms of time spent on the phones per lead, but I was just not happy. Mark was leading the team and he was shredding people's performance, he acted like a dick. Although right after the shouting he invited the entire team for coffee on him, I sort of missed out on this as I had to explain a couple of things to some clients who loved my little acting. An old school friend of mine (who never worked with me when I lived in England) was stood over the setting really wanting me to explain the quality assurance procedure. After this I walked out into the streets realising that I knew not what coffee shop to go to, it wasn't the usual shop and none of them looked as they used to (I remember feeling a bit suspicious about this, but I managed to find my friends soon after realising this).
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Well after this hell hole, dreaming got a whole lot more interesting..
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I was in some weird house after a party and my family was hungover. My sister requested that I joined her for some Crosby (it wasn't actually that particular show, but this is what she said) Now thinking I am in for a world of hurt she flicks on the telly and they explain their intentions of not only showing the next 6 episodes, but also how they will integrate Lady Gaga's new album into these. Just great, 3 hours of agonizing family entertainment spiced with ear sundering attempts at music are my thoughts at this point. However I quickly realize that the episodes will be centred around a boy-scouts-meet-girl-scouts-camp, which indeed sounds horrible, until I realise that the only rules in the camp are: boys must wear moose hats (lol) and the girls (lead by a brown haired, short Lady Gaga, yummy!!) must wear transparent bikinis and make themselves 'available'. For a short while I shift and I am actually in the camp exploring it myself, which is thoroughly enjoyable, until I shift back. At this point Drew (a good friend of mine who worked in the marketing company mentioned in the previous dream) is also lying watching. We talk about a test I still have to do that he, completed some time back by reading six pages (!?!?). Anyway, dirty as I feel, I decide that I would rather watch this show alone, so I come up with food as a distraction, I go to the fridge and see that there are some sausages and tomatoes which I decide to cook. I ask my sister how many she wants (Neither her nor me question my intentions of eating hot dogs at this point, which is odd considering the fact I am a vegetarian) anyhow she wants six. I go back to the kitchen and realise I am a vegetarian and decided to just go for the tomatoes. I wake up.

On side notes I attempted to WILD last night, and reached a state where the hallucinations were many, but kept getting distracted by some sort of bug (I checked it, and it was actually in the room). I couldn't seem to get past the hallucination point, but I did feel my body slap into a completely relaxed state. At certain points my body would shake violently, but pleasantly (something I have experienced while stoned AND (not simultaneously as I never practice meditation techniques under influence of any kind) when having practised quigong) I can stop these shakes with conscious efforts, but I tend to take an observing role and just let it roll over me. However I had had no sleep prior to these WILD attempts which could explain why I was unsuccessful (I am an utter noob at this though, so this is just way of getting across that I have read the WILD tutorials ^^).

Omg, this dream was really really freaky and weird!

I don't recall the beginning of it but somehow I hurt my arm really bad. I think I almost died or something in the injury. The first things I remember is that I was in the room in which I stayed in my parents place when visiting them in Umeå. I was surrounded by a whole bunch of people I know (Simon and Kim are the ones I can recall). Somehow my friends were helping me to regenerate into perfect health. Unfortunately my arm was too damaged to be regenerated because it wasn't connected to the rest of my body with veins anymore. I had a huge chunk (approx the size as if you would have ripped it off with your hand) gone from the upper arm. Only the bones and like some centimeters on the underside was left. I needed to get blood into the lower part of the arm, otherwise I would lose it. This was done by letting a bumblebee crawl there. Somehow that gave me like a plastic pipe from the vein in the top part to the lower part which allowed blood to flow through.

It hurt in my arm and I recall feeling faint due to the blood loss. I could barely move/lift the lower part of the arm because then it hurt in the wound.

After some time everybody was gathered in the living room to watch spirited away. The couch was crowded by people. I still felt pain in my arm and I knew that it would take really long time if it would heal. Linus said some word in english and Kim said it back to him in swedish but he didn't hear due to the noise from the TV. That made her believe that she had pronounced it wrongly when she hadn't so I told her she'd pronounced it good.

Plotron was suddenly there as well and sat next to me, lol (even though I have never seen him). He praised a sculpture thingy that stood on the window ledge. He said some constructive things about the construction. It was Linus who had made the sculpture and I told Plotron that. I was eating ice cream with my left hand since I had the injury on the other arm. I then dropped some on the floor and when I was trying to pick it up, I couldn't because it hurt when I tried with my damaged arm and I had the ice cream in the other. Plotron saw that I needed help and picked up the dropped ice cream and ate it, haha. XD

Peter and some other guy said to me that it was strange that I couldn't use my right arm. They didn't really believe in my injury or that it was that bad. I decided to show them the hole and I started to pull up my sweater arm. That was a un-nice process since every time I accidentally touched the injury, it would hurt and my arm twitched a bit. The hole was now covered with a bandage or something, but there was a hole in the bandage where you could see a part of the wound. they said "damn" or something similar.

Then I woke up and thought "omg...". I even checked my arm to make sure it was whole. xD The strangest thing about this dream is that it was sooo long! I remember having the impression that when we sat there and watched the movie, it was for a really long time. During all of this time I felt a slight pain in my arm that would get worse whenever I moved it or something. really freaky and weird dream.

Okay, so the night before yesterday, I remembered some dreams. I didn't write it down yesterday and now it is almost entirely gone from my mind. I do have the keywords I wrote down right after awakening and they are very funny. xD First of all, considering the handwriting I think I was extremely tired upon writing them, lol.

Some guy was evil
Me rabbit form (I have vague images of me being half transformed into a rabbit. I could jump to the ceiling)
Beat the guy due to starcraft? (wtf starcraft)
Daniel move, walk with furniture (This is something daniel kinda wants to do irl as well. To move somewhere and walk there with the furniture)
Dog challenge
Talk with a wheel (okay, wtf. This takes the prize)
Edi make fun of animal planet

PART 1 - DRAWING

Something about drawing...

ANALYSIS

I've been learning to draw and practiced some new things yesterday, likely trigger.

Wasn't able to get ahold of the voice recorder, hopefully will be able to try it tonight.

I've been waking up through the night a lot lately, which is unusual for me. I think it's because I feel compelled to sleep on my side, but I'm concerned about how that may affect the "ailment" I'm currently dealing with. May give it a try tonight, see if I have recovered enough for it to be comfortable and without negative effect. Would be interesting to see how it would impact recall.

Me (a paladin I think) and a group member (mage?) are on a rocky and grassy hill with a cave at the top. The cave contains two fast spawning titansteel nodes (one for each of us) and a green ogre that we have to continually kill to farm the nodes. We eventually leave the cave and find a bandit camp on the same hilltop. We meet another player (hunter) who rushes to the cave and steals my titansteel node, as I can see on the minimap. I grab small boulders that all have the exact same shape (circular with random rounded edges) and throw them infront of him, spelling out a word because I think that they look like they could be letters, all I can remember are the letters o, and e+r ("loser" maybe?). My partners tells me to warn him if the authorities are coming, and as i chase the thief down a narrow valley on the hill a large mob of people appear at the bottom. One walks up and yells something, and then kills the thief. I then retreat back up the mountain, running away from the mob and shouting to my partner to let him know that they are coming and we are in danger.

Don't remember a huge deal of last nights dreams.

I was dreaming of the simpsons and Mr Burns was really ill. Then it faded and suddenly my best friend Stuart was standing in my living room telling my mum he was going deep sea diving. He asked me did I want to come and all of a sudden we were standing on a dock with wooden slats, I could feel how cold the wind was and see the water all round the dock. At the end of the dock was a building with glass doors and I followed Stuart in while telling him that I needed a snorkel. He said that we could just share his. Inside the building I remember that the wall looked like it was made up of mostly green light, with pink and yellow at the top corner.

Then I woke up.

After waking up this morning, it was too early to get up to go to uni and I was feeling groggy so I went back to sleep. I fell into sleep paralysis (although my brain wasn't fully awake, it was pretty much still half-asleep) and I tried to lucid dream. Luckily it seemed to be a pretty deep sleep paralysis (previous times I would just wake up once I noticed myself breathing) and so I held onto it mentally to delve into lucidity.
I closed my eyes and imagined going through this weird place, and went through some weird tunnel thing at a factory. Just like how you close your eyes and imagine that you are somewhere. I was doing this for a while and thought that I was still just imagining it, as opposed to dreaming it.
I have a feeling that I was actually dreaming though, but I really can't be too sure. Silly me didn't do a reality check :/

I haven't written anything down in my physical DJ in a few days since I've been lazy but I've managed to remember a few frags of dreams that when I woke up, I thought were the most vivid and lengthy dreams in a while.

1: I was in some sort of farm patch and was cutting lettuce off the groun (been watching too much travel channel) and then threw them into a truck behind me. Then it was carrots. After that I reached into a big bush and felt a pain in my right hand. I noticed my pinky was gone! (Should've gotten lucid. Oh well ) It was as if my pinky was cut off.

Spoiler for Kinda Gross:

It was all scabby and overflowing with puss. When I touched it, it felt as if my pinky really were gone and it hurt like a mofo.

Then I continued on with cutting the vegetables.

2: I was in a very large airport like structure and there was an alien spacecraft floating above us They said that if we did not meet their demans that they would burn us alive with acid. After a minute or two it started raining, only it was raining acid. A drop landed on my head and it began to burn. Then, another drop landed on my wrist and also started to hurt. I looked down and there was a small welt where the dorp had hit. All this acid went straight through the roof, but when I put my sweatshirt on it protected me form the acid. I noticed other people running away trying to get away form it.

I was then in another circular room with several people whom I don't remember. There was a T.V. on the wall of a past dream I had (it was a sex dream, lol). They said that they had been monitering my dreams. I asked them "Wait, so you can see all of my dreams?"
"Yes." one of them replied. I started to feel embarressed about them seeing me have sex in my dreams. But then the dream abruptly ended. I'm glad it was just a dream