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First dream

For several days, I was driving by car to school. Once when I came back home, there was an utter mess inside. My family has visitors and everyone was preparing for brother's wedding. I saw that my pal looked like a known actor and wanted to make a photo with him, but I had to find something first. I took out a police officer suit and gave him. Mother wanted to make us a photo with a palm of her hand. Next day I was driving to school on a bike.

Second dream

It was a dark, rainy night. I was a vampire lord on a huge and wealthy, though a little rundown castle. I saw myself from third perspective - I had dark gray arms length hair, slightly gray skin and red eyes. I was wearing a purple-red nobleman suit. I was sitting in my study, when I sensed visitors. To remove suspicion I made a hotel in my castle. I went down a spiral staircase and saw a young couple. A man was taking their luggage while woman went to book a room. Then she told her partner to take luggage to their room.

I waited until he goes away and ran up to her. She was a tall blonde woman, wearing casual clothes. I could see from first person as it surely wasn't original part of dream plot. I caught her by arms, she tried to free herself. "Do you love him?" I asked and she said that yes. "Would you like to surprise him? I know a shortcut through this castle!" She agreed and I took her to another part of the castle, going through wealthy furnished chambers and dark corridors. I took her to a tower and opened a wardrobe, saying that it has power to bring her to her room.

She walked merrily inside. Darkness in the wardrobe was truly ominous, I laughed maniacally - flames shot from the wardrobe and demonic screams could be heard. After a while I said to myself "Just kidding..." She safely ended in her room. Going back through dark corridors I thought that they need more light. With my thoughts I invoked light. Each invocation sounded like I was burning up a torch. I tired to light a torch by shooting fire from my hands, which I did successfully.

I finally got to castles courtyard. Again I saw from third perspective. I looked at the sky and screamed, raising my hands a little. I summoned a thunderstorm, thunders stroke as I screamed. In the rain I ran towards main entrance and hid under cloaks hanging on the wall. I was crying, a butler came to say that I must go to my chamber. On the way I met another vampire and my mood got better. Together we entered my chamber, where vampire hunters were waiting for me. Together we unleashed our horrible powers against them, avoiding their holy magic. They got disintegrated, but my companion got destroyed in the end.

Dream one- I can't get my kids to sleep tonight, and I'm getting really frustrated and tired. the medicine I am on for my chest pain makes me feel like I'm going to fall asleep standing up, and they just won't sleep. My son asks for water, he's drank the first round I gave him already and just can't sleep without more water. I grudgingly get up and walk into the kitchen to refill his water bottle. My mom is standing in the kitchen with my former step brother, getting water from the fridge as I came in to do. I set the bottle down, really agitated that she's over so late and unannounced when I am already struggling to get the kids to bed as it is. "What the hell are you doing here?" I grumble. She replies, "I was in the neighborhood, and Dylan was thirsty, so I let myself in to get him a drink. I didn't think you'd mind!" I start to bring my hands up to my head in an expression of frustration and anger, then stop. My hands look weird, and she doesn't have a key to my house. I realize it's a dream, and try counting my fingers. I have five on the right hand, but seven on the left, and one of those seven is huge and misshapen. I shake my head, relieved, and tell her, "Never mind, this is just a dream. You can do what ever the fuck you want, I'm out of here." then I run through the kitchen and into the living room where I jump through the window. The window never seems to change, but I am able to pass right through it as if it doesn't exist. Part of me is still really unsure though. I know this is a dream, logically it can't be real, but my god it feels so real. usually my lucids still have a sort of muted dreamy quality to them. There may be one or two senses that I am focusing on, but all my others are normally quiet. Not this time, this time I smell the dirt and the grass, I see everything as real as life, I can feel the breeze and hear distant stormy noises, I can even feel my full weight of my feet on the ground below me. I think I'm going to try to force the unreal feeling by flying, but I can't get my feet to stay off the ground because I am struggling so much with how real it all feels. I notice the neighbors across the street have a trampoline in their front yard, and decide to try using that to launch myself into the air to fly. I run over and climb on, just to be completely blown away again by how much I can FEEL in the dream. I'm not just feeling the trampoline under my feet, I can feel the weave of the cloth moving below my feet, my hair moving around my face as I jump, and even the whole electric fear falling feeling in my arms and chest b/c I hate free falls. I try jumping higher and higher, noticing there's a trampoline in their back yard as well. I think maybe I can jump from one to the other and then take off in flight from the second trampoline since I can't get myself in the air on the first one. I jump to the second trampoline, and still can't get skyward. I decide to jump off the trampoline, the ground impact not hurting will surely break the whole "this is too real to be a dream" feeling, I land on the ground, feet first, with the impact throwing me slightly off balance so I end up on my hands and feet rather awkwardly and painfully. That totally didn't work as planned. I realize I have wasted a lot of dream time trying to force control of the dream, and I want to use my lucids to search for Kurasawa as much as possible, so I give up on control. I look for someone to ask about him, to find a direction to go. The neighbor has come out of her house, she's a middle aged black lady in the dream but I have never actually seen these neighbors in the whole year I have lived here. I walk towards her, and she stops as if a bit confused as to who I am and why I am in her yard jumping on her trampolines. I try to create a picture of Kurasawa to show her, but as hard as I try the square "picture" I am trying to draw into existence won't show up. I remind myself that I don't need to be able to see it, I just have to convince my brain that SHE can see it, and hold the air as if I am holding the picture. This works, and the lady stops, clearly in recognition, then takes an involuntary step backwards. "Hey, I'm sorry to bother you, but I am looking for someone. Have you seen this guy? and can you tell me what direction I can find him in?" She shakes her head, and takes a couple of steps back as I take a couple of steps towards her. She ducks under her clothes line, and starts retreating to her back porch. I follow her, imploring her, "I know you've seen him. I can tell you recognize the picture. Please tell me where I can find him!" She continues to shake her head, climbs the steps of her porch, then turns back to me. She takes a deep breath, then points behind her house, deeper into the neighborhood and up a hill (In the real neighborhood, the hill goes down not up like in the dream). I can't remember her exact words now, but they were something like, "He's up there, where she keeps all the ones she uses to control people. I can't help you." I start to ask her who "she" is, but the lady hurries inside her house as if she's afraid to be outside any longer. I walk up onto the porch as if to follow her, wondering on my way up the steps who "she" might be. Is "She" one of the goddesses I have dreamed about in the last year? Could she be the goddess Bridge that I have found myself calling my patron in dreams? Is she my own sub conscience? Why is she holding onto him? Is she trying to control me with him? On the porch I look out over the neighborhood and up the hill in the direction the lady had pointed. I can see lots of houses of the neighborhood, even some of the modular homes in the subdivision they built adjacent to ours. I notice the corner of a house tucked in behind those modular homes, and it just sticks out to me as important. It just FEELS like Kurasawa is there. I zoom my vision in on the corner, and it's as if I am not only looking through binoculars, but also pushing the houses between me and it aside to see the full house in better detail. At that moment, the overcast sky comes to life in a stormy rage. Thunder growls, lightning crackles, and the wind whips all around me as the sky gets darker and darker until all I see is black. Thunder claps, and instead of lightening lighting up the area, my vision flashes with clips of newspaper too fast for me to read. I realize that I am losing control, possibly even the whole dream it's self. I can actually remember in the dream that there were thunder storms called for, and I am sure this is the storm arriving in the waking reality and bleeding over into the dream reality. I try to cover my ears to block it out, too panicked to realize that dream hands can't block out waking life sounds. I fall, spinning, through the blackness and wake up.

Dream Two- I am on some sort of beach trip with many of the coworkers I interact with the most. The whole dream is very confusing because it jumps back and forth in time. One of the girls I work with has a new white car that is super fancy and all kinds of expensive. She is very proud and protective of it. We've got a really rickety house that we've all rented with many rooms. Every family has their own room. My boyfriend and kids are playing video games, but I want to explore the area. I go outside and find a forest oddly nearby. The forest looks almost dead and abandoned, but as I walk through it I hear my boss telling us about it as we unpack in the shack (like a memory I guess) and then I watch as he talks about the legend of faeries and elves bringing the forest to life, the forest in fact does come to life. I can even see the little fairies flitting around making it glow and grow. I twirl and dance through the forest like a cheesy movie scene just enjoying the magic of it. Then I am walking into a little beach shop with my kids, boyfriend, and boss. I need to pee, so I find the bathroom. As I am pulling up my drawers a lady and her handicapped daughter literally break the lock on the door to get in. Realizing the girl's disability though, I try to be as understanding as possible and just jerk my pants apologizing that I must be taking too long. The lady grunts to me that they just couldn't wait anymore because her daughter is special, then starts to use the restroom right in front of me. I stumble around looking for a sink to wash my hands, and when I can't find one the woman calls me an idiot for not realizing there just isn't one and getting out of her way. The daughter is grimmacing at her mom's rude behavior though, and keeps giving me apologetic looks. I bow to the daughter slightly and tell her I am sorry to have caused her any trouble, and that I think she is far more special in a far better way than her mother could ever understand. She seems to get that I am telling her that she is a way sweeter, better mannered person than her mother, and nods. I am grateful that she gets I am bad with words, but think highly of her for putting up with such a mother. I scramble out of the bathroom and my exhusband is in the shop. He starts fussing and yelling at me for who even knows what, I can't remember. My boss comes over and tries to get in the middle to defend me and my character, and I feel awful about it. I run outside and hop in my coworker's brand new fancy smancy car. My exhusband follows me, climbs in the car, and starts berating me again, this time getting so angry he's flinging his arms and fists animatedly around the car hitting the windows and dash and seats (he's not a violent person, so in the dream it didn't seem dangerous even though it sounds like it was lol) I show him out of the car as hard as I can, and tell him to get lost. He storms off after slamming the door, and I realize the car is in shambles around me. He's busted the seats open and dented both interior and exterior. I start crying again as my coworker comes out freaking out over her car. She cries too. At some point we start laughing about how funny it is to see the car looking so bad if you aren't attached to the situation. Then, I wake up.

I woke up from a non-lucid but my recall sucked from lack of sleep.

I forgot my dream shortly after I woke up

D1:
I was outside with my younger brother and we walked on a red path surrounded by beautiful green bushes. My glasses felt weird so I checked them and I noticed that the right side of the frame was loose. I tried to fix it and a screw fell out. My brother and I looked for the screw everywhere but we couldn't find it. So I just decided to go to an optician

D2:
There were four girls sitting with some dolls in front of them. Everyone of them took a doll and explained why their doll is the most beautiful. They were pretty racist and everyone of them said that their doll was beautiful because it didn't look like an african or asian girl.

And please don't tell me they're not racist they were at least 14 and exactly knew what they said. Even their parents were shocked.

D3:
Only some useless fragments. I even forgot them because there was no opportunity to write it here and I didn't write it down somewhere else

I don't remember my dream

I was dozing on on the sofa while watching tv, after coming home from an early morning shift.

The whole thing lasted only split second, but it gave me some "memory". Apparently I used to frequent a cooking chat with 4 others, when I stopped going. And I just now remembered that.

After snapping out of it, I actually felt sad that I stopped going to that chat while trying to figure out if it did really happen or not and why in the world did I forget about them and not go there any more.

1. I'm in the road behind an apartment complex entering into the parking area. I spot my car, but something feels strange. I have the thought that my car is a dream sign, and I continue to consider my surroundings a bit strange. As I approach, I naturally do a nose plug, breath and I'm lucid. I transition right to my car and am driving down the road in the parking area behind the building. I head around the side and look up toward a massive tree to my right, and well as the corner of the outisde of a building to the left. I decide to fly through the windshield and get an aerial view of the entire area. I easily ascend through, and up above the large tree to my right. I look down at the roof of the large apartment building as I consider what to do next with my dream. Dream goals don't come to me at this point, but I decide to anchor myself through senses, and focus on expanding/concentrating on my vision. I continue to fly over and above the roof.

I soon enter a void and resolve to hold my awarness until the next dream, and not lose focus. I hold for a while and...

2.I begin to notice two brick pillars on either side of me begin to form. They have a very slight red coloring to them, and I'm standing on a cream colored concrete walkway. The scene is becoming slightly more vivid, and as I look down the walkway, I notice a co-worker make her way around the walkway with a few of her students. I decide to follow and begin a conversation out of interest. I turn the corner but don't see them. I consider flying at this point, but decide I'll stay on the ground and focus on stability while I explore. I look down the concrete walkway, and see that it enters a fairly large building by passing into it, almost like a small tunnel.I walk down while constantly moving my vision around, trying a technique from a podcast I heard the previous day. This help stabilize a bit, and things become more vivid. I walk into the building and look left and right. The corridor extends pretty far in each direction, and rooms connect to either side; it looks almost like a huge storage area mixed with an office. I think about how long the LD is lasting, and am pretty happy with it. I then realize 'wow, anything can come around those corners right now' and am fascinated by this. Begin feeling as though I have sensations from my physical body and wake up.

bedtime: about 1am
long time to sleep at bed time

+ (impression) Something Lord of the Rings related, no concrete memories

+(mostly non-visual) in a gas station fueling a car, there is a guy there saying how this car can take either unleaded or leaded. Leaded, as long as (some other condition). I get him to repeat this because I'm pretty amazed at this flexibility

+ we leave a (church?) and the woman church official leaves the door ajar. My wife and I go back in. I try to place the door and the latch at the least suspicious angle. I'm trying to walk without being seen, so I'm keeping some perceived followers on the other side of obstacles as I move through the interiors. Then in the large open area, there are lots and lots of people sitting at desks/tables. People are there to get church approval for their plans. At one table nearby, a guy is introducing himself and telling the officials "this is a great book, you really should look into it." My wife is at a table, trying to get approval for our plans.

I'm in a room with a rope hanging from the ceiling. My task (to get final approval?) is to hang from the rope with my hands with my feet not touching the floor for 30 seconds. There is an analog clock on the wall and I try to do this and watch the second hand on the clock but I feel my feet are touching the floor and figure this will disqualify me. There is an athletic guy on my left with his rope and he successfully keeps his feet off of the floor the the full 30 seconds.

Then I realize: I do not have to use the strength of my arms, I could fashion a seat by tying knots in the rope and just sit in the loop for the 30 seconds. The rest of the time is me trying to tie knots in the rope but the rope has become huge cable and chains that are long and hopelessly tangled.

Outside with a (vehicle?) and some women workers, they are hooking up my (car?) to the supply lines. The supply lines seem to be electronic ribbon tables wound up into really huge spools, I see the computer-connector-looking ends as the women unroll them and attach them to my vehicle.

Wake, fairly long BTS
around 8am.
slow BTS, WILD attempt
final waking around 10:30?

+ LD#186 park maintenance room.
... I'm at the middle level of TV park (CH neighborhood), it is nighttime and I imagine that I could lash a small flying shield to my feet and fly around on it. I zoom down to the lowest level (BB courts) and I think that I can imagine things like laser guns and shoot things with them, which I do, up against the tennis practice wall, as I continue flying. There are obstacles outlined in bright red laser light on the edges, and I swoop around them avoiding them, having a great time flying. I think I could shoot some baskets like this but basketball doesn't really appeal to me. I fly up to around a tall streetlight up at the top of the back fence by the steep exit road down to the street below from the back corner, I think there are some people coming to this level and I want to avoid them [DREAM SIGN] (?). I look down at the gate and notice that it is made from two large solid metal doors. People wouldn't want to go down there because they could be ambushed.

I go down past the doors on the steep short curving road to the street below and notice a depression in the ground to the right, sort of a place you could climb down inside and be not seen, I think this could be a place also to be attacked without warning. I climb down inside this area and I notice that there is a very dark "cave" extending a bit to the back. There is a house immediately next to me with a murky window and I think I detect some movement inside which at first I'm concerned about then I ignore it. I look back again at the "cave" which intrigues me and use my smart phone as a weak flashlight and it reveals that there is a door to a small utility room there. I think this is the utility area for the park. I decide to go in and see that it goes back farther than I'd realized. About 20 feet from me in the low light I see a box sitting on something and it grabs my attention when I think I detect it moving a little.

I reach up my right hand and will the box to fly to me using TK. I feel a bit silly doing this because it won't work, but then I get an impression that the box flies towards me.
At this point I'm lucid and I walk further into the utility area. As I do so I see that the area opens up to a very large open light area like a gymnastics floor. I do a quick nose pinch with a quick short inhale and am not surprised that I can breathe. There are some girls sitting around there and this gets my attention. I'm wondering what to do but caveman takes over.

Spoiler for brief sexy time:

I'm feeling pretty horny so I take out my (ahem) from my pants and look down briefly at it. I look up again and see the girls are still sitting around. I pick the one closest to me and go up and position myself for some "attention"

and then I wake up.

I find myself in a dark room of what feels to be the 2nd story of a building. I walk toward a door, but something feels very strange. This feeling stays with me for a few seconds, and I begin to recognize 'the dream feel'. I put my right hand out in front of me, and it hits me: I'm dreaming. I walk into the next room and turn right to see a second story railing overlooking the first, in what appears to be my childhood home. The area is very dark, and the vividness is a bit weak at this point. I ramp up my awareness at this point, and the clarity/stability becomes a bit stronger. I look down and notice the front door as well as the large window above. Instead of heading down through the wall as I've done in other dreams, I decide to go down into the first floor, walk around, and stabilize for a bit.I make my way forward, yet the visuals quickly collapse into black. I tell myself to hold focus and to wait for images to start up. I hold in this area for a bit, then clasp my hands and begin imagining energy moving between them while making a waving motion in order to replicate friction and stay anchored. I hold for a while as images begin to appear into my awareness, as though the next dream is ready to load. I see a snowy town with lined up houses and a few cars parked outside. It reminds me of my uncle's neighborhood in the winter time. Shortly after, I wake up rapidly.

I was in my house with two of my sisters. It was a cold evening, we were in the living room. I was holding a short bow. I shot and the arrow hit a wall, going deeply inside it. Younger sister went there and took it out - it left a huge hole. I couldn't hold control over the bow and shot again, this time at a ceiling.

We decided to join with rest of our family and went to a small stadium where a movie night was happening. We took our seats and the movie started. Suddenly I found myself in the movie. It was a sunny day. I was inside some modernly furnished house. I had a strange feeling that something is wrong. Looking to the kitchen I saw my sister standing motionless. I used backdoor to get out of house without her noticing me, but saw that the way out of backyard is blocked by my neighbors, also motionless. I went back to the house and tried to sneak up to my room for something to defend myself with. Suddenly one of the steps in stairs creaked and sister moved towards me. I ran to bathroom and took some wooden log to fight. She opened the door, I knocked her out with wood and took her by legs. She was light as feather and I could easily carry her around. I sensed someone in the kitchen - it was the mother. I jumped inside there and used sister as a cudgel. Mother looked like a rotting corpse, she caught the sister and said "Nice idea..."

I found myself back at movie night, though in different place. I went back to my seat and watched.

The man navigated a cavernous subterranean maze, a confusing warren of suffocating tunnels leading to an abyss which true heights and depths were shrouded by its inky darkness. The tunnels in the cavern walls might lead upward but to reach them he had to cross great expanses on narrow and rickety wooden bridges. Even then, tunnels were treacherous and often deceptive, seeming to lead upward and outward only to lead deeper into the maze.

He could only see a few feet in front of himself and if he paused too long to consider his course of action the sentient, seeking darkness would become aware of his presence and destroy the bridge where he stood, for it could sense the light he emanated and sought only to eradicate it.

He had no idea how long he’d been underground, but it finally happened!
He clawed his way up through a chimney-like tunnel and found the ground floor!
There were windows!
He could see the sky! All wondrous and bright blue and beautiful over an evergreen forest.
Two doorways stood before him and he didn't have long to choose, so he chose the one nearest the window, thinking it would lead out into the glorious OPEN.
Oh, it did, but not how he had hoped, for on the other side there was a balcony. The door snapped shut and locked behind him. I could feel his tremulous, keening panic. As a ghostly bystander, I tried to reassure him that all hope was not lost. He could still jump, that the drop was no more than 8 feet from the balcony to the forest floor. Although he sensed me there, he shook his head to himself and remained convinced he couldn't make the jump because he had injured his leg in the climb.
After an eternity in the dark there was no retreat and no advance.
His despair was immediate and exquisite, he berated himself harshly. How could he be so stupid? He couldn’t even choose the right door! Especially now when it mattered most.

So, exhausted beyond all measure, he leaned against the railing and wept silently into his hands, knowing that now there would only be view of the open and no real escape.

I was in a house & the whole dream was so full of twists & turns that it was ridiculously complicated that even I couldn't sort it out to write it down, lol. Not lucid though.

My mom, another person, and I were driving motor cycles around town. Mine was neon green and black. The other's were yellow and black and orange and black. My mom rode on the back wheel all the way up the road. We were all going kind of fast. We did a short loop around town before we got back. I was relieved because I had't driven a motorcycle before and didn't know how to drive it very well.

I take my hand off of the silver car as the engine starts up, and turn away from the car as well as my brother. I begin to fly upward in the direction of a large pine tree. As I ascend and head toward the brancehs, my awareness begins to raise. I finally land high up on the branches, and turn back down to look at where I had flown from. Something feels a bit strange...surreal. I do a quick glance at my hand, but it's not very necessary; it hits me: I'm dreaming! I repeat to myself with the realization: "I'm in a lucid". I look at the pine branches and notice how vivid and blue they are. I glance up at the sky as well and take in the blue hue. I look downward and get a glimpse of the house I had flown from. The visuals quickly collapse, yet I hold awareness, and become determine to hold my awareness all the way through. I tell myself "Eric stay in this" then tell the dream "last an hour...last an hour". I continue to hold awareness in this void state, and remind myself mentally that it's just a 'loading area for another dream'. I rub my hands constantly to anchor. After some time I begin to imagine myself paddling a surfboard, and a wave finally reaching me and catching me. The feeling is interesting, but visuals don't kick in. I then decide to pretend I'm riding a skateboard. Again, no visuals. I suddenly realize I'm in a white tunnel/massive empty area and see a dark figure of a person begin to appear a distance away. I lose lucidity as the dream forms, and see myself walking toward my point of awareness with athletic clothing, and a slight limp as if I had hurt my left side. A tunnel area is fully formed at this point. The dream quickly jumps to an interesting fragment in which I'm explaining the lucid dream I just had to a middle aged man. He's wondering if it's a shared dream I experienced, and I explain how real it felt.