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im in my room and i just took out my bag of weed. im getting ready to smoke when my dad knocks on the door so I hide my liter and hitter. he walks in and says something. hes about to leave when he gives me a stern look and looks at something behind me. I turn around to see that i left my bag of weed out on my bed. I put on my O face and then woke up.


notes: little bit high, took some melatonin and xanex

August 22, 2011

I went to bed around 9 PM and woke up around midnight for unknown reasons. I couldn't fall back to sleep and just sat there for two hours before getting up to get something to drink. I finally got up around 3:00 AM.

I should have WILD or something but damn kids gave me a cold so my sore throat been killing me.

Good news is that the kids are finally gone so I may start dreaming again.

[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]This night the WBTB alarm woke me up. So tonight I made an attempt!
On my first awakening, I tried to look for images, listen for sounds and even imagine myself swimming, but none of these worked so I was not in a non-physical focus. On my fourth fourth awakening I felt that my my right foot were outside of the bed and was not covered by my blanket, so it was freezing to death. Then I felt that the rest of my body started to vibrate slightly and then it felt like my whole body was going to get on fire. Everything became so hot that got chocked and that made everything slowly fade back to normal. I said to myself, that I am not going to give up and continued laying still, and constantly checking if I were in a non-physical focus, but I was unfortunately laying in a really weird position, so I couldn't fall back to sleep either, so it was either la there for eternity uncomfortable with no effect or move and get back to sleep.
I gave up and closed the rest of the alarms and just went back to sleep.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I had a dream about a girl named Johanna, we used to be ehrm in love when we were kids, and when we got older we broke up even if it wasn't that serrious. In this dream I met that girl and said "Hey, it's been a while", but she was shy and seemed a little bit angry at me, so I leaved her alone.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I was standing in my old Taekwondo club and was going to change in the locker room, but when I there I saw that I was standing in the girls locker room. I felt embarrassed and I went to the other, but when I opened the door there was standing a girl changing, then she looked at me and said "Oh I am sorry I must have taken the wrong floor again.." I said "That's ok I forgot my (taekwondo) clothes anyway.."[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I were in a small room with nothinh except a big mirror on the wall. The characters from the tv-serie Chaos was standing there too, and they told me to smash the mirror. So I stepped back and smashed it with my elbow and it hurted.
Behind the mirror my old teacher looked surprised at me, then the dream changed but it was still the same room, and I met my friend Jacob and he told me that they were going to watch a movie at his place and he wondered if I wanted to join.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="blue"]I saw a girl and she walked up to me and asked "Do you wanna have sex?" She was way out of my league, so I ... [/COLOR][COLOR="red"]become lucid haha. But at this point I felt soo tired that I asked myself while I was lucid, do I really want to do this? I just want normal rest right now[/COLOR] [COLOR="blue"].. then I woke up. I took the blue pill.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]The next night I will start with the original Lucidology training, so this week I will just keep falling asleep through all the alarms.[/COLOR]

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I was at gamescom with a few friends, so I had no way of updating my DJ.
I'm a bit foggy on the details since this dream is from 2 days ago.
This was after being at gamescom for a day.


I'm walking through one of the massive halls at gamescom in cologne with both of my friends.
The big camera I'm wearing around my neck is quite heavy and annoying to carry around, but I definitely want to make some good photos.

Suddenly I notice a booth right next to me.
It's pretty huge and I nearly walked by without noticing it... how weird.
The booth itself is closed off, as is common with 18+ games, you have to go inside to see what's going on.
Outside, the booth is covered in surreal paintings which I like a lot, and on top of it there's a huge led sign saying "DREAMS".
How interesting, there's a game about dreams? How come I've never heard of it?

I proceed to take a picture of the booth.
I have some trouble using the camera... it acts weird, but I end up getting my shot.
Then I notice I've somehow lost both of my friends... how annoying!
It's going to be a pain to find them in this crowd.
I just remain still for a few seconds, hoping they'll turn around when they notice they've lost me.

But they don't... I can't see them anywhere.
Annoyed, I take out my mobile to call one of my friends in order to meet back up again.
Unfortunately, I have trouble navigating my contacts list.
The names appear to be out of order and I have trouble reading names.
I decide that my mobile is bugged and put it back into my pocket.

I initially wanted to restart it, but I just noticed that there is no queue to get into the dreaming booth,
but oddly enough, a lot of people are approaching it.
I quickly get in line so I can get in. I'll just reboot my phone after this and call my friends then.

Inside there is more surreal art, and very weird lighting.
I like it a lot though, it has a very nice and "dreamy" atmosphere to it, which is obviously what they were aiming for.
In the center of the room there's a very big mirror, stretching all over the room.
But I can't see any computers anywhere...
What kind of game is this? Is there no demo I can try out?

I overhear someone explaining the deal about "DREAMS", that it's not a game you play on a pc, it is a game you play with your mind.
I get an inexplicable shiver when I hear this.
He proceeds to explain about the mirror. According to him, only "dreamers" can enter the mirror.
You can spot dreamers because they have no reflection in the mirror, so they can walk straight through it to the other side.
Looking closely at the mirror, I can see that I have no reflection, but everyone else seems to have one.

Wait... I can't believe it took me this long to notice... the clues were so obvious. I'm dreaming!
The guy giving the explanations realizes that I have no reflection and starts mentioning it very cheerfully:

"Ohhhhhhhhhhhh! It looks like we've got ourselves a dreamer everyone!"

He approaches me, clearly wanting to interview me.

Nope I think, and quickly approach the mirror.
I want to know what's on the other side... I need to know, I am driven by curiosity.
I walk through the mirror without resistance and exit the booth on the other side.

I'm still at gamescom, but everything is different.
The booths are different, the lighting is different.
All games are played by dreaming, people just enter them with their mind.
I am amazed by this idea and I want to try every single one of them
Excited I start running towards the first game I see, but then everything darkens...
Shit, I'm an idiot, why did I not stabilize and try to control my excitement?
The dream ends...

August 21, 2011

Don't even have minor fragments anymore. Damn kids. They not even my.

[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]This time my WBTB alarm let me down again... It didn't start ringing, so now I am going to use a normal alarm clock to make sure that I really wake up. So it was no timer method this night, and I didn't remember many dream either.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]Someone told me where the best café were, and in the dream I really had to get there. When I found it I ordered a café laté. Then I had a dream about Amanda again and we were swimming in a pool with some other friends.[/COLOR]

Make a long story short, babysitting sucks.

Anyway my shows are on tonight so I doubt I will dream tonight though it is known to happen.

I stood off my bus like usual, except it was in Holme, which is a bit before I usually get off, so I had to walk the rest of the way. I was wearing headphones around my neck, and a white dax helmet in my arm. I put the helmet on with the shield down, but it was too small - the windshield hurt my nose. I readjusted it a couple times, while walking my way home, and thinking that I forgot my dax at home. I came to the decision of leaving the shield halfway down so my nose was free. I was walking at insane speed, and as I saw the road I needed to walk along to get home, I had to stop myself from walking further. As I was halfway down the road, I remembered that I don't even have a dax. I figured it must be a dream, and did a nose check to be sure. I didn't actually expect it to be a dream, so it came as a small surprise when I could breathe. Before I did the reality check, everything around me was bright in sunshine, and vivid as in real life. After the reality check, it immediately toned gray, and I struggled to focus. I eventually shut my eyes open, and was awake.


Side note: I remember that I saw my iPod all oddly bent as if it was caramel. I don't recall where in the dream I saw it though, - probably while walking - but I remember seeing that in another dream as well.
That's one dream sign for me A deformed iPod.

[COLOR="red"]Lucid [/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]
This night I went to bed later than usual, but I still decided to make an attempt. But my WBTB alarm never woke me up... So I woke up naturally 2 hours after my normal WBTB time ans I had to chabge the timer, but the light from the phone made it hard for me to fall asleep later. So this was the end of my lucid dream streak =(
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[COLOR="blue"]I only remembered some fragments of some dreams and the first was about me playing Starcraft II, I was zerg and my opponent was Terran. Then I had a weird sex dream and then when I woke up I imagined that I was walki g through my Gym then it was so vivid that I felt like I dreamed, but it was just a vivid thought that I couldn't separate to.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="red"]Lucid [/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I had a dream of me playing StarCraft II. But when I started to play, everything started to run much faster.
My opponent could for some reason keep up with that pace and then he smashed me with his army.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="slategray"]I woke up and saw that I had forget to turn the volume up on my Iphone so I had overslept one hour.
So I had to spend 7 minutes on fixing the timer setup on my Iphone app, but everytime I changed something on the Iphone it changed back, so I even thought I was dreaming, but I was just so tired that I messed up the buttons.
When I was done I got right back to sleep.

The alarm woke me up 4 times (8+4+8+12=32 minutes) but when I got the feeling agains I gave up and moved...

I then started to have a pretty vivid dream[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I dreamt that the characters from "How I met your mother" was going to be my new neighbours.
I got really happy and excited, then Robin comes and say that she hated this neighborhood and that made everyone to change their mind. For some weird reason I went down to hug Lily before they went away. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="slategray"]I woke up and thought damn I want to have my fourth lucid dream, I have to go back to sleep.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I had a dream about me having a dog and it was so cute, then I don't remember exactly because this was just a fragment when I woke up the next time.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="slategray"]
I woke up and remembered a fragment of a dog, and were still dissapointed that I didn't had my fourth in a row.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]Then I had a really vivid dream about me and my friend talking on Skype, but I can't remember what we talked about...[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I woke up and thought "That's it I can't, maybe I have a normal dream today and a lucid tomorrow no biggie" and I fell asleep.
This next dream was so vivid, and that is why I remember this one the best.[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="blue"]I was standing in a arena, and all my friends that I have known through out the years was standing on a blue square with a white circle on it. We were jumping sideways on the edges of this circle, and had foam balls to throw at each other, like a wierd version of the game I used to do in school on sports. Then I got the ball and throwed it at a guy next to me and he said "no you can't throw it on people near you it has to be someone far away from you. And they were far aware from me right, I almost needed binoculars to see them, I took the ball and aimed to a girl but the ball bounced in the ground 10 times before it reached her. And that didn't count. Then everybody just walked away except me and 4 others. So they said ok new rules you can only throw the ball at someone next to you, so now you have to run![/COLOR] [COLOR="royalblue"]I ran really quickly I run so fast that I was almost touched to ground with my ear in the curves.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="royalblue"]Then I also went out of there, and opened a door and was inside a squash room,[/COLOR] [COLOR="red"]and there from nowhere I just realised that I was dreaming! I got excited, too excited... I said to a girl that I saw "What?!, yes! yes! I am dreaming! [/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]and I woke up... still counts as a fourth to me :) [/COLOR]

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I seem to have disappeared the last few days, huh?

My sleep schedule's been F-ed the last 3 days (especially last night), so I've had little fragments but then fell back asleep and forgot them. Even though I'll be on vacation the next week I'll be trying to get sleep at reasonable hours so as not to bring my recall back to square 1.

[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I remembered one dream before my WBTB. I was playing the old school game Counter Strike with someone named Axel and it was too easy.
[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]This timer attempt was the closet I have ever been to waking sleep paralysis, but I fell for one of the body's test signals.
On the second alarm (8 + 4 = 12 min after my WBTB) I woke up and I felt that my muscles had the small vibration feeling, (like the feeling you have when you yawn). Then my nose tip started to itch like crazy, I thought that this was just another test signal, so I resisted for some seconds and my muscles started to get more paralysed, but then I just couldn't resist anymore and I got up and scrratched my nose...

Then I turned off the timer and went back to sleep.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I had a dream about me and my family eating breakfast. We looked out over the water and sat on a stone staircase.
But the breakfast was 1 km (0.6 miles) away, so I had to walk through a park and to a table places in the middle of nowhere.
I started to make my sandwishes and pancakes, then I see three guys approaching me and they want to steal the food!
I said "Hey what the F* are you guys think you are doing" and they gave me a (stay out of this or I will crush you) look and I had to run away. When I ran I felt that I only had to take one step then jump and I levitated a bit,[/COLOR] [COLOR="royalblue"]and that made me a little more aware. When I came back to the others they looked surprised at me and asked "Where have you been?" and I went through everything that I had done in my head, and I said to my dad "That can only mean one thing".[/COLOR]
[COLOR="red"]I AM DREAMING! This time the lucidity was so high that I could easily understand that my parents and my friends were Dream Characters. I thought "Wow now I can try to do things I would never dare in the real world" jumping from high heights, doing flips but the first thing I did was walking up to a hot girl and talk to her ...
I said "Hey I am not nervous to say anything because this is a dream and you are not real" she just laughed, then I did a double backflip and she was amazed. Hah random pick up techniques. Then I climbed to the top of this staircase and saw the first girl I fell in love with. My lucidity dropped... but still very aware. I said "Hey Liza how are you doing?" and she answered "Is this one of your impress me things? Because it wont work" ... I then thought Hmm if I have superpowers she might get interested in me .
My emotions were stronger than the lucidity, so this hyper lucid dream was wasted on girls...
So what did I do? I made an attempt to crush the glaswindow and fly, but I couldn't even scrath it so I fell down to the floor in pain. [/COLOR][COLOR="royalblue"]Lucidity dropped I hope, because the next thing I did was gay and embarrassing. I started to zone out and had one of my Stewie Musical moments (Watch this and you will understand http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DI6BEFWUU0k&feature=related) (I am not like this for real!) I started to sing and dragged her with me and I danced and sang like a love musical. I don't no where I got the inspiration and above all the lyrics, but I went well.

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When I finally was free from this curse, I were standing in Santas workshop and the Santa thought that I had been so nice so he gave me the power of flying! So I flew out the window and in super speed (I couldn't even control it) I flew straight into a building... And when I turned around I saw that it was my friend's apartment. So with all my powers I tried to fix it with telekinesis, but I only made the bricks shake a little. [/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]
Then I woke up and for the first time ever I felt exahausted, I don't believe in energy ways or something like that, but when I woke up I felt so tired that I thought for a second that it was because of wasting enegry in the dream.
Emotions - Lucidity 1 - 0[/COLOR]

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[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]This timer attempt was a disaster. I did my WBTB earlier so that I would have more time to dream, but instead I couldn't fall asleep at all. So I were fully awake through 3 alarms, then I gave up because it's was no point in laying still if I can't fall asleep. But when I tried to move I felt that I were in partial sleep paralysis, which means that if I could have endured one more alarm, I woul probably had come in full sleep paralysis! 3 alarms is 15 min + 8 + 4 = 27 minutes of laying still, and just focusing on falling asleep but failing. I did a reality check right after I gave up so it wasn't a false awakening.

At this time I didn't remember a single dream, so I turned the timer off and went to sleep to dream.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I don't remember exactly what I dreamt frst but I do have some fragments of it. I were in my cousin's house and he was moving out. So he offered me his gaming mouse, then he changed his mind. I then walked out of his house and to something that I think was supposed to be my home, but it doesn't look anything like it.

I was taking a cab and opened the left door and jumped out of it. I jumped high and almost reached the sky, but then I fell down on a grass hill that is outside my real house in my waking life. [/COLOR][COLOR="red"]From nowhere I realised that I was dreaming! For the first time in my life I remembered to do what I had planned in the dream when I get lucid, but for this time it was something totally different. The Lucidology workout said that I was going to wake myself up just to experience waking sleep paralysis, to do that I have to think of my sleeping body. So I started to think "Wow this is a dream, but now I want to wake up (thinking of my sleeping body). Everything turned black I had no weird sensations what so ever, but then I just found myself back on the grass hill again.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I was dissapointed and woke up, I thought... It turned out later that this was still a dream.
So in my false awakening I got out of bed and wrote down my dreams on a piece of paper near my bed.

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I was now standing in a grocery store, but this one only sold tapas and snacks. My friends were there so we were appearantly going to have this for lunch. I had problems with picking the tapas food up, and then I fell and hit my head in the table.
I were now walking around dizzy and I bumped into my friend Simon and he dropped his tapas on the floor...
When my friends were long gone, I now hade trouble with deciding what to choose. Then when I finally made up my mind. I didn't know where my friends were. So I started to watch some tv and I was watching Urban Legends, but the show was more like Myth Busters. On this episode they were going to see if they could determine if the water in a lake is shallow or deep by the temperture of the water, I saw a girl dive into the water. Then suddenly I was there!
I swam a few lenghts with her and there were 15 other girls and then I also saw my friends on the other side.
I started to swim my fifth lenght, but then I realised something embarrasssing. I was naked!
For a really weird reason I turn to the hottest girl of them all and points down and say "Ehrm I need to you know get underwear" and she said "that's cool you can come and change with me later" Relieved I then heard my friend pointing and laughing. Then I walked away with the hot girl and thought "HA jokes on you!"
...No I am lying I woke up and felt naked and embarressed[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I was going to add this dream to the notes, and I saw that there was no other dreams added!
So here I realised that I had had a False Awakening.

Tomorrow I will WBTB early again, but to make sure that I can fall asleep I will get back to sleep immediately.[/COLOR]

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Hey guys! Sorry I haven't been as active in the DV community as of late, I was (and still kind of am) going through a bit of a dry spell so I am focusing on meditation and WILD technique.

So this isn't really a dream entry but some stuff I thought would be cool to get down about my experimentation with sleep paralysis. For the past couple of weeks I've been allowing my body to go numb and enter into sleep paralysis while keeping my mind awake. I have been doing this successfully by laying flat on my back on my bed and allowing my body just to get taken by the feeling of the paralysis. I haven't been able to fall asleep in this state however. I mean its good for experimentation but sucks when I can't go to sleep. I don't usually sleep lying on my back so my mind doesn't want to go to bed when I do this.

At first I just would lie there and let my mind wonder and let my body just slip into SP. I would feel like I was in that roller coaster ride "The Gravatron." (where you are pinned to the wall and can't move) I was pinned to my bed and it almost felt like my bed had flipped over and I was stuck to it as if it were the ceiling. I would be hanging over a bottomless pit. I would do this nightly. Eventually it wouldn't take hardly any time at all for me to get into SP.

Last night I had sort of a break through of sorts. I have been researching into occult practices, and I had read of a practice that if you meditate while laying down, and you place a crystal in each hand, and one on your chakra point on your forehead (your third eye) you would "charge" or enhance your psychic ability. I tried such a method last night. I even had a particular crystal that is supposed to help with dream vividness and recall. I placed this one on my third eye.

The SP felt like normal at first, my limps going numb and everything. But I started to feel a weight press down right on my rib cage and my stomach. Then I felt a weight on my head, ( I could actually feel my head sink into my rather firm pillow). I didn't think anything of it til something just kicked in. I am not sure what it was or what it means but I was just lying there thinking about random thoughts (I.e. what I have to do before work the next day..etc) Then all those thoughts went silent, in fact ALL of my thoughts were cut off and my mind was completely clear. And it was like my thoughts were cut off mid sentence. Right after my mind just cut off my thoughts I immediately began to hear a low "hum" or more like I could hear a vibration. A few seconds after this started a high pitched ring was layered over top of the vibration. I had no control over this and I couldn't really think of anything else, it was like all my brain wanted to do was listen to this hum.

I opened my eyes and could see the air swirl in spirals above me. And that's when the ride started.....my body began to feel like it was stuck to the bed again, only this time it felt like I was never going to move again and I felt like my entire bed was rotating and spinning while I was strapped down. The crystals felt very warm and almost hot in my hands. The crystals almost rolled out of my hands (or at least it felt like this while my bed was spinning) and I had to enclose my fingers around them to keep them in place.

I think this went on for a good half hour to 45 min before I snapped back to this plane, put the crystals away, and went to bed.