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I literally started the entry for this dream in my notebook with "No sir, I didn't like it."

The dream started in an incredibly ornate, huge room in a huge building on a really upscale street. The room was immense. I can still remember it vividly because everything was so beautiful, from the blue silk wallpaper to the all-white furniture. I was sitting on a sofa, wondering why I was there. Two little girls in the next room over were putting on ballerina costumes. I asked them if they were getting ready for Halloween, and they told me they were actually getting ready for dance class. I leave this fancy building, and go to work.

Important fact about me: In real life, I work in a big daycare facility. The building is an old two-story high school, and each room serves a particular age group, from infants to preschoolers. I work in one of the toddler rooms.

One of our little boys comes in with his father. He looks really scuffed up and scared. His father tells us that the boy had been lost in the woods for nine hours. Dad didn't seem too upset by this, but I was. I was like "Your poor baby! Is he okay? Why is he even here today?" The boy even had a bruise on his back from an animal that attacked him in the woods. But no one, not my co-workers nor the boy's father, seemed at all concerned.

I walk to the bathroom. This is where it got really freaky. I see one of the infants in the sink, fully submerged underwater. She had turned blue.

Suddenly a co-worker is with me in the bathroom, helping me to get her out of the sink and trying to revive her. Nothing helps. We carry her body to my classroom, and all the while I'm sobbing.

No one else is upset that a baby has somehow drowned at work. They tell me that the nurse will take care of her, and her body is suddenly gone. She comes back with the nurse, and although she still looks really pale, she's alive and walking. Everyone in the room (The nurse, my co-workers, and the little boy's father) look at me and say "See? No big deal."

I wonder if this dream applies to my job at the moment, and how. Do I feel like some people are being apathetic to real problems? Am I being oversensitive to little things? Definitely things to ponder.

As I write my Dream Journal, I'm noticing more and more ways to realize I'm in a dream. For example, the co-worker randomly appearing in the bathroom (a male co-worker at that...scandalous!), rooms I've never seen and so on. I need to get better at noticing these little dream quirks. I WANT TO GO LUCID DANGIT!

Just adding more tags. Tag entry is limited to 10, but I feel that the additional tags are also important. Particularly, the balloons and ruins. I had a "vision" (not a dream, coz I was already awake, but my visualization is still quite sharp):

I was already awake, in fact already opened my eyes, and I was annoyed at the people attacking the dogs in the "demonstration" in my dream. Then I wondered what the balloons are supposed to mean. The dream made it seem like it's a weapon.

Then I went into a vision of a couple of guys tying up helium balloons on our wall, and left. There was a message on the balloons. Something about activism.

Then one night, the two were caught, and were asked why they were doing that, as if it was a crime. Or maybe the message was the crime. In the vision, I was trying to get mom to appear and defend them, since I don't really have much of a status in our home town. But for some reason, she just won't appear, so I talked instead.

I asked why they're angry at the two. They mentioned the balloons, and I said, yes I saw them, and I think they're nice. Then they mentioned the message on the balloons (something about Pinoy, with two other words). I said I didn't read (a lie), but they still look nice. The mob are starting to doubt their actions. Maybe it wasn't such a bad thing after all, I can hear them think.

One of the boys smiled a grateful smile at me. Then I remember after I saw them tying the balloons, he looked back at me, and we smiled.

I think the balloons were colored blue and red. Or was it yellow?

Last night, I tried out a new app called Lucid Dream Brainwave for iPad. My dream recall seems to be going in reverse, so I wanted to see if it would help any. I had it playing all night and saw no improvement whatsoever. This morning all I remember are fragments of one dream.

I'm at the airport with my mother and two of my brothers. We've just arrived from somewhere and are on our way to our car. As we're leaving the terminal, I stop to hold the door open for everyone, including two or three women who are behind us. One of my brothers yells for me to "hurry up", since I'm falling behind and I have the keys. I explain to him what I was doing, then we continue on to the car. My brothers aren't sure which car it is, so I take out the keys and use a button to open the trunk. They proceed to put their suitcases in the trunk then get in. I take my mom's suitcase to put it in the trunk and comment to her how light it is. She responds by saying she just packed enough for an overnight trip.

Later, I'm walking down a side walk to a large, really long table. Some kind of contest on going to go on there and the participants are finding seats. I'm dressed in nothing but shorts and a shirt and carrying some kind of curved stick. It's what I will need for the contest and all the participants have them. I notice some of the participants are guys that I work with at my job. I walk along the table looking for an empty seat. But since the seats are so close together, I'm trying to find one that still has vacant seats on either side of it. I finally find one and prop my stick against it to save my place. Looking at the way some of the other participants are dressed, I decide that should have also worn underwear and a pair of flip-flops.

Next I am walking up to a table where my mom is sitting and getting ready to eat dinner. I'm carrying a towel, some shorts and a pair of underwear wrapped up in the shorts. I alos have on a pair of flip-flops now. There is a woman standing at the table next to where my mom is sitting and she is stirring something white in a small pot of hot water that is sitting on the table. I ask my mom what it is and she tells me it's underwear and she's having it washed so they will be clean. She also tells me it's for Jasmine, who is one of her grandchildren in the waking world. I stand there and consider doing the same thing to the underwear I have, since I'm not sure if they're dirty or not. I decide not to (they look clean) and sit down.
Then two more peole join us at the table; a woman and a young girl. We greet them and my mom looks at the girl and says, "What a perfect little person." I turn and look at the girl to see what she looks like. She has long straight black hair, dark skin and braces. She smiles at my mom.

That's all I remember.

These are some of the dream signs I have discovered by going over my dream journal.

1. School (This is very common in my dreams and I graduated over three years ago.

2. Snakes (Usually a large number of them and all tiny. I am usually expected to take care of them but they escape and/or go all over the house.

3. The Girls (My two pretty bearded dragons. I often dream of them talking, being out of their home or being hurt unintentionally by me.

4. Strangers Wanting sex (Self explanatory really. I just often have horny strangers in my dreams.)

5. Kink (The sex is usually kinky.)

6.Losing her ( I used to dream every single night that my common-law wife left me, cheated on me, and did other extremely hurtful and scary things.

7. Video games (I often dream that instead of realizing I am dreaming, I am convinced I am in a video game. Because of this I have limited control and no fear of being harmed. It is sort of like lucid dreaming except that I am convinced that I am in a game.

Those are the main signs I have noticed so far. A big list? A small list? Please comment if you have any opinions on this. Thank you.

I found it interesting how that first WILD came to be. I think it must've been the universe giving me a perfect fool-proof opportunity and me taking it: I wake up from a vivid dream that I need to write down. Writing it takes about 10 minutes, and I am awake just the right amount, then try to WILD, get there in just 5 minutes, and have the most amazing, most vivid dream, let alone a lucid dream, I have ever had EVER.

I also found it very interesting that the imaginations I had in this vivid dream actually weren't as vivid as the physical reality of the dream as most other dreams are. Meaning I need to fix my theory:
The theory now is that depending on how vivid and conscious you are in the dream, your imagination's vividness will stay the same but feel like it varies because you compare it to the vividness of the dream reality. Otherwise, your mind works relatively similar to how it works in waking life. You translate the things around you. Waking physical life is just collections of vibrations and frequencies that your senses process in order for the mind to understand it, just as in dream reality where you translate the vibrations and frequencies around you. The realities are relatively the same, only that in dream reality you function at a higher level because you know you can do anything.

Another Observation: Everyone in that lucid dream was watching me in awe throughout the whole thing, unless they had a specific function in the dream, such as driving or teaching,etc. They would react to things the way I would best want them to react to things. They love it when I talk about my theories and things I am excited about, because I love talking about my theories and things I am excited about. They do not act on their own, unless I subconsciously expect or want them to. The WILD really revealed to me how everything and everyone really is just a projection, and how I am the real being there in control.

If I were to compare that with something for better understanding, it's almost just like from Tron, where the programs have specific functions and can't think and plan, and where the users that come in can create, control, and do everything they please in this reality. The projections are lower than the user, and they know it. It's as if they look at me as a God, The dreamer of the dream they are involved in. You get what I'm saying? Very interesting. I would rant more, but that would take up this whole page because I'm just so ecstatic right now.

Dream 1
I was in a room at college with my friend who was checking something on a computer. A girl I know was there she said that her cousin was going to straighten her hair. Also and I dry humped her. When I went to leave the college the gate looked like my old school gate and a bus was stopped outside.
We were then walking near a park another bus went past and I saw an advertisement with JLS on it 2 of them were wearing Michael Jackson’s thriller jacket. There were loads of roofs, I jumped on them and started running across.

Fragment
A woman punched a man, but the haymaker she trhough was so sick that she floored him in one punch.

False Awakening
I went down stairs and turned on the computer, it was much closer to the edge of the platform. I went onto youtube and clicked a video that had nudity, but it wasn't blocked.

When I went to search for a rapper named K Koke youtube tried to finish my search so it had stuff like K Kai and some charcter from Bakugan was in the corner next to the youtube logo which was on the right instead of the left. I exited the application and when I saw the other window it had loads of tabs full of some useless stuff.

I heard my sister upstairs and I quickly tried to X all of them.

Side Notes

I woke up and went back to sleep atleast three times, when I RC'd I kept plugging my real nose instead of the one in the dream. I saw a load of images like Robert Downey Jr and such.

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As usual I remembered a ton of dreams (around 7-8 dream scenarios). But I will only write down the lucid moment to save time.

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[COLOR="blue"]..I was thrown up on a roof and it looked too unreal.[/COLOR][COLOR="red"]I realised that it was a dream it looked like it didn't had an end and it looked like those kind of roofs with a top like black sandpaper. Sorry that's the best explaination I can give you. Anyway I started to run and jump really high, I thought to myself "This is how the astronauts felt when they jumped on the moon, but this is how a oneironaut feels when he jump in a dream :D".
Becaue of the emptiness I thought that this was exactly like Garry's Mod, but for real! So now I tried to summon a person, my friend Louise, for some reason. But I couldn't. So I imagined a rock and it appeared, and I went around the corner of that rock preparing to meet her. But she didn't appear... I was a little frustrated and eventually I forgot that I was dreaming and lost my lucidity.[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]I had a long vivid dream about Harry Potter when that ended I were in my school and had a long boring lesson, until I woke up for real.[/COLOR]

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non-lucid - black
semi-lucid - green
lucid - blue

People are chasing after me for some reason. I’m running away. I’m suddenly in a jeep.

I'm driving in daylight on a highway.

I know I’m dreaming without even checking I just know for some reason. I hyperspeed the car while driving. Then I close my eyes and I teleport me and the jeep. I appear to have teleported but I only teleported miles away from my original position. I'm still in the city highway. But this time it wasn't daylight the sun is beginning to set. I park my car in this empty parking lot structure. I get off the car and run. The people chasing after me seems to be a family. Why? I don't know. I see the mom and her daughter looking for me. I head back to the parking lot but too late her son is awaiting me there. So I decide to hide behind this white ceramic pole. The son is not spotting me but I occassionaly am turning since the daughter and mom keep walking beside the pole. I keep on turning since they keep walking around me. Mom says to son “Check everywhere” while she’s next to me by the pole but doesn’t see me. The daughter goes “You check mom”. They suddenly see me as I'm moving around the pole. The mom spots me moving around. I'm dreaming I can do whatever. I try to take a gun outta my pocket but it didn't work. I try to pretend to shoot a gun at the son even though there was no visible gun in my hand. I thought this is a dream even if there's no gun it could still work. I shoot at him he becomes stinged for a couple seconds then he's ok. The "imaginary" gun stops working all of a sudden and they catch me. I end up in their “house” which takes the appearance of my house in waking life for some reason. The mom puts me in the room with her husband. I decide to sneak out. I tiptoe out of the room. I try to sneak past the mom in the kitchen to go outside. I manage to get outside (YES!) but suddenly I'm caught before I could run. She puts me back to the room. Her husband is horny. He's starting to take of my pants and starts rubbing. He's talking very dirty. The mom comes in and stops it saying something like "Not now." I decide to try to escape again. The mom I notice is easy to sneak by. I tiptoe around her back while she's in the kitchen and manage to unlock the door leading to the backyard. I don't run but I fly away. I wanna hyperspeed so from what I read on DV I take a pill outta my pocket and it gives me hyperspeed. I’m flying in the cloudy night.

I'm dreaming I tell myself. I am now fully lucid. "What to do?" I think to myself. Then suddenly I know what I want to do. I want to get to Den to complete my next mission. I'm still flying. I decide to try to open portals for the first time. I decided to try. I'm trying to rip the air but it's not working (DAMN). I then trace the atmosphere with my two fingers making a circle for the portal. It still doesn't work (GRRR!). Then I take out a sword from my side like a knight and slash it 3 times then make a portal using the sword. Suddenly a portal appears in front of me inside a mirror. I walked up to it. I decided that onstead of going through it I want to try something with a mirror. I want to go to someone’s dream and ask for permission. I know just the person. I think of my first ex because I never got any closure at all. I want to talk to him. I need answers. I say his full name to the mirror "Lorenzo Miguel Salazar". He suddenly appears in the mirror. He’s choking. I look away at the horrific sight. I look back and I see a phone cord choking his neck. I realize this mirror was no ordinary mirror but a Halloween themed mirror kinda thing. I look next to me and there’s another mirror but with a computer attached to it. Like I had to fill out my name and info and fill out the other person's info I wanted to see kinda thing. I'm too lazy so I fly up. I look at my hands to stabilize myself to make evrything clearer. I suddenly appear in this fancy restaurant. I see it getting unclear so I restabilize by touching everything near me. I'm touching the floor and the wooden staircase by me and everything is clear again. I am facing a painting on the wall then suddenly a waiter approaches me. He asks me what I want. "I want to get to Denn" I tell him. "There's a way there from here" he replies. I’m suddenly more inside the restaurant. I am talking with an old man. Everything becomes unclear again so I restabilize by touching everything. Smelling everything in. I ask the old man to give me a fruit tart. I never ate anything in the dreamworld. I look in his bag and see a red velvet cake instead inside "Even better" I thought.

I attempt to eat it. It’s good but not as good as reality’s taste of it I though lol. The part of the restaurant I was in looks like a spaceship-themed restaurant. The walls around me are white and this part of the building I was in took the shape of an alien spaceship. I suddenly realize there are a lot of people in this restaurant. Suddenly evryone including me all follow the waiter I met earlier. He was gonna lead us to Denn. We’re all walking down a ramp as we approach a big parking structure with a bunch of cars. I’m talking to one girl I know she's a DC. She appears to be nice. I randomly tell her “I’m dreaming”. She suddenly loses control for some reason and starts crying. I hug her and ask her “What’s wrong?” she says, “Well then this all isn’t real then.” I say well without you guys I wouldn’t have dreams, and without me you guys wouldn’t be in a dream” Lol. She smiles. I ask “Where’s Denn? This is just a parking structure. I thought you guys are leading me to Denn?” They say “There’s a portal in the parking lot to get directly there. We approach a portal that is by a red car. It’s low, near the ground. I suddenly hurl through the portal face-first. It’s suddenly tunnel vision. I'm in a wormhole (COOL!).

I go through. When I get out all I see is darkness. My eyes are closed. I restabilize. I feel sand by me. I open my eyes. I am in the middle of the street by my house in waking life. I fly up again in disappointment. I'm not gonna give up. I Take out my sword slash it 3 times make a portal and I go through it. I re-stabilize. I feel grass and dirt by me. I open my eyes. I’m in Denn (SUCCESS!). I restabilize but my hands look like yellow fur or feathers instead of skin. I only have two fingers, one big and one small. I wonder what do I look like? I see WakingNomad in Denn again for some reason. I don’t pay attention to him. I think I gotta get to the forest and look in the mirror to get my normal look back lol. I run into the forest. I find the mirror. I look in the mirror. I see myself having a furry chicken body with a dalmation dog head. I quickly look away. I look back and say "WITCH" and I transform back to my player’s normal appearance. A witch wearing red. This time what I was wearing became clearer. I'm wearing a skin tight dark red top. A dark red witch hat which matched the color of my mini-dress floats down from the sky and lands on my head. I look in the mirror to see that my eyes were orange for some reason. It looked cool. I had a weird pg nose so I looked away and say "Nose back to normal". I look back and it changed back to normal. I walk away in Denn's forest and see some kind of doppleganger. I see someone that looks exactly like me wearing the same outfit and hat except she has a pig nose. I think "That's weird." I don't pay attention to it. I walk back to the village and WakingNomad is still there. We suddenly are in a kitchen and he is attempting to mix drinks/bartend LOL. He attepts to do tricks with a fork and lemon for some reason and he fails horribly lol. Me and this other girl inside laugh as he tries to look cool mixing and blending but a fail lol. I try one bottle that he's mixing.

It tastes like champagne but kinda saltier and stronger. First time I drank something in a dream and it had to be that? I thought lol. There’s pain in my right leg as im sleeping in reality. It wakes me up. I DEILD. I appear with a little boy asking me where to get nothing to buy in the free market of Denn. Before I could answer WakingNomad re-appears and answers his question saying "It costs nothing." I suddenly remember the quest I have to do. I have to buy a weapon and kill something with it. I buy a long shiny sword for nothing.

Before I could go out and venture to kill something with it the pain in my leg bothered me and woke me up completely.

I managed to check off a few things in my dream goals. I ate and drank in a dream and I went through a wormhole. I didn't get to finish the warrior level of RPG yet though. I also noticed my dream control is on and off hopefully it improves. lol

I really can't remember anything from last night. But i think it's important that i still do an entry to enforce the habit.

I was extremely tired when i went to bed and i think i was too exhausted to repeat my mantra as i drifted off. So i was completely engulfed in my dream. I was also quite high, which i hear doesnt help. Today I'm not going to smoke when i get home, and i'm going to go right to bed. Hopefully I will be able to at least recall my dreams tomorrow. And maybe get a little closer to an LD.

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I went to bed at a specific time and set my alarm at a specific time, so I sync my biologicalclock with the sun, but I adjusted it a little so it would fit my morning routine, so with one sleep cycle (90 minutes). The way I know this is because of the Bio2 Real Time, Ev's app.
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[COLOR="blue"]I actually remember many dreams, but they are not interesting for you and it's not worth to write all them down, so I will start at the lucid. But I can say that all the dreams were very vivid and most of them felt like I experienced them.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]Anyhow I had just finished my dream of walking up the stairs to the Eifeltower and it led to the Great Wall for some reason. But the dream changed and I was standing in my school, with my classmates.
I didn't hear them talk, but I heard my friend just laugh to nothing "He he... haha hehe" I noticed that something was strange. I went to the toilet and started to pee. When I felt that I was done, the urge came back, so I couldn't stop pee.[/COLOR] [COLOR="red"]I realised that this was a dream and I knew that I can pee in dreams without doing it for real, so I wasn't worried. I went outside, but I was standing there naked. For some reason my clothes had disapeared.
I was feeling a little embarrassed, but I knew that it was a dream and it was only my classes' dreamcharacters looking at me, but it was a little uncomfortable, so I imagined myself some new clothes.
I saw my friend Felix and asked him for fun "What stabilisation technique do you want me to use?" He said "Spinning" I started to spin slowly, so I could still see the surroundings. When I stopped Amanada was standing infront of me.
I looked her in the eyes and said "Hello!" Then I throw myself up in the air and landed on my back, and it actually hurted a little. Then I rubbed my hands. I don't believe in dream sharing or that stuff, but in this dream I started to consider that Amanda might be herself in my dream, so I told her to count my fingers on one hand. She said "haha why? but ok 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 ... 15!". She looked surprised at me and I said "This is a dream! You are dreaming!"
Shortly after this I started dreaming normally again, so I didn't experienced something special.
Although in the non lucid dream after this, I jumped out from a window and flew a broom and I also used the cruciatus curse on a mean guy.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I woke up alert and refreshed! I hope that this wasn't a placebo or something, because then Ev might have found the best lucid aid to lucid dreaming! And also I am ranked as a Dream Character on Banhurts Dream Journal program now :D [/COLOR]

I had five different dreams last night:

In my first dream, I'm in the military I think. I'm in a room with some other poeple (friends?) and we've been told to pack up all of our belongings because we're relocating. But I'm worried because I have a lot of equipment and we don't have much time. One of the guys asks me how much of the equipment is mine, so I show him about two or three speaker amps and some other stuff, then lead him into this room that has transparent walls. I show him some video game consoles of mine. There's an xBox 360, only it's been taken apart, customized then mounted on something that resembles the racks that computer servers are mounted on; only these racks are transparent as well. In the meantime, this man (the man in charge) keeps sticking his head in the doorway and announcing that "We're leaving."

My next dream is really weird, because I find myself inside the body of a female musician (along the lines of Joan Jett but it's not her). We're inside a big auditorium with a stage set up in the middle and we're about to give a concert. There is a crowd of people lined up outside waiting to get in. I walk up onstage, pick up a guitar and place the guitar sling over my shoulder. I'm thinking, "This sling is really comfortable" and look to see what brand it is. (I can't remember) Then I become nervous because I don't know how to play the guitar. I'm wondering since I'm inside someone else's body, will I have their abilities as well. I try playing a few notes on the guitar and to me they sound terrible! But everyone else seems to be pleased, which I find strange.

This next dream is one I 've had several times before, soit's familiar:
I'm walking around what looks like a large library. There are multiple floors and I'm lost. It alternates between a library and what looks like a college dorm. I think I'm trying to find my room.

In my next dream, I'm outside at night. It's like a scene from an old black and white horror movie: all the trees and grass are dead. I'm with some people I know: my sister-in-law, my daughter and my wife. There is a large fallen tree on the ground and we have to get past it to proceed. But there are wolves around and they are threatening us. I see a boy sitting on the ground that the wolves are going after, so I try to help him. But before I can reach him, the wolves drag him away. This scene repeats itself three times during this dream, which should have alerted me to the fact that I was dreaming but it didn't; I just went alonng with the dream. Anyway, I find some sticks/clubs/boards and hand them out to everyone so that we can attack the wolves and chase them off. We try to go one way but can't, so I start looking for a way through the tree, or up and over it. I can't find a way, but my wife walks forward and brushes away some leaves and branches to reveal a red brick floor. A hole opens up in the bricks and I see stairs leading down to a door leading to what looks like an old time outdoor shopping mall.

In my last dream, I'm riding around on a golf cart with my daughter. We're inside a hotel but it's set up with wide hallways, so it's easy to get around. I'm trying to find my way outside but keep taking wrong turns and having to turn around. This annoys my daughter because we have food and some glasses of water on a small tray in front of us and my driving makes one of the glasses fall over and spill water. I eventually find the door leading outside but when we get outside, it's raining hard and we have to stay under a small covered area to keep from getting wet.

on 21-10 23:30 - 2:30 on 22-10.

There was a guy in this complex that did something to hurt a cat and a dog. I went to investigate outside. There was a forested area and in between some bushes I found a dog there and a cat lying against the dog. They where seeking shelter there in the cold. I was really pissed about this because somehow this guy was involved in abandoning the animals or hurting them in some way. I went on to confront the fella. I think i did some shadowy moves where I stalked him while he was walking with dark tentacles harassing him all the time.

^This part was in the beginning i don't quite remember.

Later on i went into his room while he wasn't there. I went to lie in his bed and watch tv. There was a little lion cub in the room. It looked quite adorable, but i ignored it. The guy came home and i confronted him again. This time i wasn't angry anymore and i just listened to what he had to say and basically made up him. My hands where under the sheet and he reached out his fist to give a fist-"thump" . I was like whatever and our fists touched.

I wasn't beneath the sheets anymore and this guy phaseshifted into a lionness and went to lie down in the bed. The cub was still on the floor.

Then i told him i'm going to ignore what he said (dunno how our conversation went but apparently there was a reason for the animals in the forest ) and retrieve the animals. I stood up and walked towards the door then i heared a growl behind me and looked behind and i saw the lion angrily growling. I said relax, i'm not going to hurt you i'm just gonna get the animals. To no avail. It occured to me that lions don't understand human languange.
Then the lion pounced toward me and started biting in my flesh. I tried resisting, then he went on to bite where my hamstring is. I could feel teeth passing trough my flesh and felt my bones slowly crushing. When i resisted more, the baby cub came also and bit me in the same leg. I was getting desperate and I screamed out for help. Something about this made them have less of a hold of me, and i was able to walk out the door. There's about 10 rooms there and people where standing outside their doors trying to see what's going on.
There was this girl, that is a supervisor or sorts and she was riding a wheel-chair riding towards me lookin very casual like nothing is wrong. Things went haywire in my mind , i coulden't understand the situation i was in. Then i woke up. With the lyrics to Johnny Cash - God's gonna cut you down looping in my mind.



I went back to sleep and proceeded to have lovely dreams.

These dreams were extremely vivid this time. I was really amazed by how vivid. I remembered every single detail of the dreams right when I woke up, but gradually forgot most detail until writing some key notes.

This vividness perhaps has to do with getting very close to successfully WILDing at bedtime before the dreams. My heart started beating really fast when I was this close, and I couldn't calm it down, so I decided to stop and ask at the forums the next day and went to sleep naturally, and TA-DA! Super vivid dreams, much more than I've had in a long while.

It kinda sucks that I happened to fall asleep in the middle of the night in a not as good as super happy mood because that would've been really great, being that these dreams were super vivid. But no, both or all of them were kind of that awkward helpless and self-conscious doing stupid things feeling I sometimes get in social situations when I'm not feeling super happy and confident like I want to.

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I am in Art Class with Mr. Gamble in the print-making room (not in the room where you paint and print and apply acid, but the other room where you draw mostly). The room is full of students, some of them are standing up, some are sitting down, some are sitting down on impractical objects. I am sitting down on the table near the center, but slightly close to the rack in the corner of the room. I am swinging my legs around, minding my own business, doing nothing, just sitting there and observing or daydreaming a little bit. Lauren, Liz, and Bruce are nowhere to be found thank goodness for me in my waking reality looking back.

Mr. Gamble asks me about something, an assignment that I need to get done, this part of the dream probably associated with my anxiety IWL about completing the pop-up art. I apologize to him and say I'll get it in for sure on time. I begged god not to let him over-talk like usual. Thankfully, after asking me about that thing he walks away. I think he tells something to the class but I wasn't listening. Then I think he walks out the door.

Ms. Taylor is now in the classroom. Then I watch my brother come into the classroom. He has some friends waiting outside the door, the same and more friends as in the dream I had the previous night. He asks Ms. Taylor is he could go out to the food places down the street, as if Ms. Taylor was our mom. I don't question this at all. All I could think about at this point is coming with him. Ms. Taylor says "Yeah, go ahead." I say I will go with them. Then Josef leaves out the door not even noticing me there. I am hesitant to follow them now because it would be weird. Ms. Taylor says "well, go?." I feel rushed and embarrassed, and angry at Ms. Taylor for being angry at me. I run out the door to the hallway and I look down the hall towards staircase A. I see my brother walking back and from a distance, holding a pizza form or box or something, he tells Ms. Taylor that there's a group pizza thing and asks if he could buy it for him and his friends. She says yes, and he starts running back towards staircase A, into the distance. I wasn't able to ask him if I could go with him, and for that I feel frustrated and bad. He didn't notice me standing there speechless and waiting to speak at all! It's like I wasn't even there the whole time! Well I don't think that, I'm really just having vague 'forever alone' thoughts and feelings come to me. I impulsively follow him. Everyone is wearing light winter coats. It is snowing very lightly, and there is snow about a foot and a half deep on the other side of the drive in road of the school on the side toward the park, while the snow in the main grass area in the middle is also either about a foot deep, deeper, or lightly buried that you can see some grass. As I am walking toward my brother leaving the school and starting up to the middle area, I am playing with my cellphone, and it makes a loud noise that I don't even recall now from reading my notes. Then I am playing with some kind of thin chord from my cellphone that could be a part of a headphone. I trip and fall into the snow as I cross the drive in road toward the park, and hide in the snow, for the first time noticing and watching my brother play snowball fight. I then notice that the sliding part of the cellphone and the thin chord has submersed into ice cold snow, and am worried that it will break. I somehow check if it still works. Then I continue watching my brother. I feel left out, and want to reach out to him but he is so far away, and if I did, it would be awkward and embarrassing.

Then I wake up.

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This next dream I only clearly remember the part with Liz eating a butterfly. The rest is a very foggy memory of being on a bus with some awkward moments among friends that I blame on myself.

I'm not sure if we were also on a bus at this part or not, but it appeared to be a dark, small or hidden, location. I am there with Lauren and Liz. Liz is sitting on a bench or some higher seat above me and Lauren, and Lauren and I are looking slightly up at her. I don't see Lauren face very often in this fragment. Both of our eyes are focused on just Liz. I actually remembered completely clearly every single word and a phrase that stood out, that Liz said to us, and our responses. We are talking about butterflies for some reason. Liz says she hates butterflies, and starts eating one. We see her eating one, but it's like a thought form imagination that we each share or something, because none of us think she is actually eating a butterfly. The butterfly looked a little foggy as well. Then, to tease us even more, Liz uses a Harry Potter wand she had laid out beside her and casts and quick spell to manifest a real butterfly. It was a very large butterfly - noticing after waking up from the dream - but none of us questioned the size, we all knew it was real. She slowly starts eating the butterfly, tearing off the wing material from it's stems, one area by one. My and Laurens' reactions to this include super sad partially fake crying, yelling, "NO!!"'s, "STOP IT"'s, and EWW's. I am feeling very sad seeing this happen. In the end, she tore off 3 sections of the left wing. We were all so sad. The butterfly was very beautiful and very still while this was going on. It looked like a monarch, but was blue.

Observation: I seem to unknowingly control the situation in the dream by having hopes about something and worries about something. Ie: With Mr. Gamble, he rarely ever stop talking in real life, but in this dream I really wanted him to not talk so much as he does, and somehow felt like I had a bit of control over this by commanding it in my mind, and it worked! Maybe if I learn to notice these control coincidences and increased law of attraction in dreams, I will be able to recognize I can control things much more easily and thus have a lucid dream.

Whenever I am playing a video game in a dream:

If it is a computer game, I am almost completely immersed in the game reality that I forget about anything else around me (unless I'm talking to someone before I started playing and while playing). Aion and Sims 3 has always been a complete immersion/seperate dream since I can remember.

If it is a console video game (on TV) I am usually a little less immersed in it's reality. The visuals of the dream are only the game reality (in 3D and peripheral vision etc), but I think I still acknowledge the living room if I want to. I hear voices around me as well if anyone is speaking. If the dream is hazier that usual, the game completely turns into another dream, no matter the kind of game.

Perhaps this could indicate how the brain works when playing games or watching television?


Also I've noticed that I seem to associate a type of a kind of comfortable (not sure how to describe) wealth with the colour red, and the material of wood or marble, as I have many mansion or wealthy building dreams with red carpet or people with red outfits and dark wooden walls etc.

Somehow I only remembered just now what these dreams were. I've forgotten them earlier and was convinced that they were probably hazy, but I guess before I was just a little stressed (I was at school) to remember clearly. Today's dreams and yesterday's dreams were actually pretty vivid, as vivid as they usually are for moi. I'm only going to post today's dreams though. Two dreams had to do with pets and animals.

I am in my parents' bedroom, on the top floor of my house. The window is open, and the window net thing is also open. Both cats are in the room - Leeroy especially is very curious about the window. I recall the window being completely open before (in real life) and I am not afraid that the cats will run away onto the (flat) rooftop because they didn't last time. I simply watch them in humour. Then a small finch kind of bird flies in through the window and flies around in circles in the bedroom, disoriented. Suddenly my mom appears in the room with me, and I think to myself that we should let the cats eat this bird (since we have a pet bird that the cats keep trying to hunt). Then the thought comes into mind that maybe once they eat this bird, they'll want to eat Jerry (my pet bird) even more! My mom agrees (even though I was only thinking that, not speaking it aloud, but I didn't question it). My mom is silent and motionless, as if all decisions fall on me. I decide to just let the cats run around the room trying to catch the bird - because it is fun to watch and because they would definitely enjoy eating it (I thought that in almost those exact words). Then I have a short worried thought that the bird will lure the cats to go chase it outside the window, but I let those worries drift away from my optimistic mind. I continue to enjoy watching my cats chase, or now rather watch the bird fly around the room.

--- Side note: I noticed that having a thought inside a dream is much more vivid than having a thought in real life. In real life, the physical is obviously as vivid and realistic as it gets, and thoughts that you have also do bring images and scenarios to be imagined and sort of partly experienced by and through your mind, but don't feel as vivid as they may in a dream. When you have a thought in a dream, I notice that the images and scenarios that are imagined because of the thought are much more vivid in dream reality than real reality... sometimes just as vivid as the physical reality of the dream, that objects appear/disappear/shape-shift/change and that you jump in the dream to another fragment of the dream. After some thinking and theorizing, I have come to the conclusion that because a dream occurs in the mind and not in real physical reality, and because everything in the dream, including the dreamscape, objects, people, and thoughts, are all created by your mind in close frequencies, it makes it seem like the thoughts/imaginations you have in the dream are more vivid than in real life because you compare them with the physicality of the dream that is also created by your mind... If that makes sense. In real life, the frequency of real physical objects are very different from the frequency of your thoughts.

I also theorize that in a vivid lucid dream, by utilizing more of your conscious mind, you are able to convince your mind that the physicality of the dream is or can be just as real as the physicality of real life, and thus make it so. This second theory is not yet concluded on since I have not experienced enough lucid dreams to observe and learn enough to create a theory.

Yes, I do create a lot of theories about everything. This means I also over-analyze things in real life, however all of this analyzing and theorizing simply causes me to have a better understanding of how the mind and psychology of people works. (I don't theorize about scientific laws or whatever, only that which I can personally experience... Like dreams and thought and actions/reactions of other human beings! ) Okay well back to the dreams now.

---->The next dream was possibly the strangest one I have had in a long long while. It has to do with sexual themes, so just a warning, don't read this if you do not want to know.

I am at my old school, Fielding Drive P.S. There is a lot of the dream that is on the edge of my mind right now, but I can't pin it down, so I will just write down the fragment of the dream that I can remember clearly. I am in the junior computer lab. There is a bald teacher there, and I have just walked into the room, having a question to ask him which I either wasn't sure what the question was in the dream or just forgot it now. I am holding some school stuff, like maybe a binder or some paper, in my hand. I am at the door furthest from the exit of the junior hallway of the school. The teacher doesn't seem to acknowledge me walking in. He is not asking me what I am doing here, just continuing to sit at his computer playing card computer games or something. I realize that he is waiting for me to talk, even though he is not making eye contact with me or anything like that. I am hesitant to say anything because this is really strange. I don't think I say anything. After a while of standing there, I have the dirty thought that maybe he was watching porn before I came in, and quickly switched to playing computer games when he heard the door open. I ponder this thought, thinking if it's really realistic, and here is another proof of my theory by the way, the dream hazily sort of jumps between me walking back out the door, and then walking back in through the other door, the door closest to the exit door of the school and the teacher, walking in on the teacher that has become a cat but not really a cat licking it's erection. And then I start fapping as if I was watching cat porn really... odd.

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The other dream that I remember felt like it had to do with zip-lining or running some sort of course... It's a very hazy memory that I have of this. I'm with a group of people, some I recognize as friends, and some I just don't know at all, or are guides or other participants in this course. My brother is there too, and he is with some of his friends. We walk into the indoor part of the course. It is a mansion. With red carpet, and everything looks very rich. There are rich business people in the room mingling. At this point I think we all forget somehow that this was a zip-lining course. We enjoy the refreshments, and there is a bonfire somewhere, and an area of the room with the continued zip-lining course. I mingle with some of the rich business people. There was a problem and I was discussing possible solutions with them and I forget completely what this problem or solution was, but it had to do with business probably. Then I move onto the course. There is a complication with the next zip-line, where the pulley that is already on the wire doesn't go back unless the person on the other side of the zip-line sends it back to you or something. It is above a fire or something really dangerous that will kill you if you let go, and there are no harnesses in this zip-line. It is still in the mansion, and you can still see the room from here. The rich business people are upset that we will break something. I use the zip-line, get to the other side, and so does my brother. Some people die for unknown reasons. I think I kill someone, or maybe just feel like I killed someone. The blame goes on me anyway. I don't feel guilty, I accept the deaths as the reality of life and the dream and I think other people do too. The corpses immediately and unnoticeably vanish upon this acceptance. There's some more legal complications or whatever, but I was unaffected. Then more stuff happened that is on the brink of my mind.

Oh yes. Before we are at the part of the dream above, we are at my house, in the living room. My brother and I are talking, and I have two blankets laid out downstairs for me to sleep on because I sometimes sleep in the living room. Two of my brother's friends take to the couch, cover themselves with the blankets and go to sleep. It is not nighttime. I get angry that they are using my blankets, and express this anger slightly at my brother. Mostly, I am thinking if they will notice the possible smell of the blankets (?). They don't seem to notice anything. Then I go hang out downstairs with my brother, then his friends wake up, suddenly the dream seamlessly shifts to being at Mark's Work Wearhouse and then shifts to being back at home, chatting in the small walk-in hallway place of my house, and then playing a video game that combines Spyro, another game I played only in another dream I had a while ago, and Final Fantasy XII, in the mine cave area near the start of the game. My dream is immersed into this game, I am inside the game reality while hearing the roaring voices of my brother and his friends, and my quieter voice chatting back with them. More stuff happened that I can only feel the feeling/frequency of rather than exactly pinpoint what happened. I think at one point I was in danger of dying possibly because my brothers' friends' stupid mistake and my brother gets mad at them or something I don't know.

Yes, odd dreams today I know.