side notes

Saw someone I know in my dream. He was holding something.

Been using an app called awoken. I think it's helping. I started doing reality checks more. I also followed advice from a YouTube video which was to write in my journal I want to recall my dreams...

Had to get up really early to go to a company fall fest. It was a really good birthday for me. I'm exhausted!

Meesha woke me up every hour on the hour & then my wbtb every 2 hours. Dreaming was a joke.

1 pt non-lucid
2 pts wbtb
= 3 pts 3+ 114.5=117.5
3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


D1: Walking to my car after shopping at a flea market. I make a wrong turn & so do a bunch of other ppl. We are all trying to walk to our cars where we are in the middle of a gun fight. There a gang of mean bikers. ( I should note that most all the bikers that I've ever met in my life were nice ppl who raise money in my town.) They are everywhere & haul us all back to their cabin where they make us all work for them. A man & his wife were running things but mostly they weren't seen together. This dream was really long. There were a lot of escape attempts that went bad & ppl got hurt in various ways. We started wearing padding under our clothes because of all of the bullets that were flying so often. These ppl holding us there were really violent. I kept having to gather intel to try & find a way out & to try & stay safe. I was informing the new ppl who had just arrived about the padding. I'm gritting my teeth & they break & chip off. I'm trying to convince the woman to ease up on us. This place was being attacked by another gang, hence the padding idea helped quite a bit. There was a horrible blood bath fight so I upped my search to find a way out. So when they took us to this water slide being made out of actual tunnels that were next to the cabin. It wasn't finished but I was told it would be the most expensive slide attraction in the world when it was done. I start my decent down the slide when Meesha Cat jumps on my head in real life & I freak the hell out! It was only 2 minutes until my wbtb alarm so I'll count that as this time.
wbtb
D2: I'm fishing in my parking lot for a living. You gotta love the dream world! Other ppl were fishing out fish & other odd things. My dream grandson was supposed to be watching a movie in a near by movie theater type place but it's supposed to be an elaborate daycare. It was really big, like an auditorium. There is a roller coaster in there & things are happening that is some what like a Harry Potter kind of theme of things that are magically happening. I try to call my daughter at work & some guy tells me that if I was a good mom she would be there but cuz I won't take care of her kids she has to stay home. I'm so mad but I don't say anything to correct him. I ask him if he is her boss & he says no. My alarm goes off & I get up.

Had another lucid dream this morning. Was in this gas station searching for and eating pastries that I love so much. I was going to pay for them but decided since I was dreaming I was not going to do a damn thing but eat the pastries. After a while, I figured it was time to stop messing around and complete my goal: Find the dream character named, "Naomi"

I went outside the gas station to find a vehicle that was going to transport me as fast as possible to the park where I expected Naomi to be. All I found were cars that were missing a wheel. This is significant because here we see another obstacle keeping me from finding Naomi. I find a car that had all its wheels so I stole it of course. I heard sirens in the background meaning out of the blue(no pun intended) the police were on my tail. Fortunately, the park where Naomi should have been was only down the street from the gas station. I swerved into the park and ran into a tree. I rushed out of the car and ran towards the park bench where I knew Naomi should be. I was getting excited to finally complete this dream task I have been planning for weeks.

I finally arrived at the bench.

Instead of finding a black/asian woman with long, black braids, I found my dad sitting on the bench.

NO, DAMN IT.

Mind you I was lucid at this time, so I tried to use my dream powers of expectation to sort of summon "Naomi". I saw my father morph and distort a bit but no dice. The dream ends.



RANT TIME: The Naomi Obsession

Why the hell am I so passionately obsessed with finding a dream character from several dozen non-lucid dreams ago? Because the mere act of finding Naomi, at a certain place, at a certain time, in a specific form, to have a specific conversation, vindicates my ability to control the dream scene. That will officially mark the beginning of all the adventures I aspire to have; all the adventures that are the reasons why I have spent 7 years dabbling, researching, fantasizing, and failing at lucid dreaming. I can't have these adventures and memories if I spend most of the lucid dreams I ever have doing mundane things in places I already have familiarity with in waking life.

I am talking about achieving Inception levels of adventure; at least 4 nights a week. This, in my view, can not be done unless through sincere desire, planning, and expectation as in the case of finding Naomi.

Techniques:

So the "Ambience Induced Lucid Dream" technique I was fantasizing about several days ago is garbage. However, the root of it, SSILD, still holds water and has yielded positive results. This morning, I got an idea about the effectiveness of SSILD. Perhaps it was not in focusing on a sense for an extended length of time - as outlined in the original guide - that increases lucidity. Perhaps it was the act of switching focus from sight, sound, and touch that created the conditions favorable to induce a lucid dream. So I quickly switched focus from sight, sound and touch in a steady cadence. I guess spending 1 second per sense would be an accurate statement. Sometimes faster. Sometimes I would slow down and focus on a sense for a bit longer. But I was trying to get in as many cycles as possible because I have been having a problem where I would fall asleep without getting much done.

But of course, this wasn't the only thing I was doing to induce this lucid dream. I was also using prospective memory to visualize me becoming lucid in a later time. I wasn't repeating a mantra 10,000 times. I focused more on the visualization of me becoming lucid with the feeling that remembering to do this was very important. Mind you, I wasn't doing MILD and SSILD at the same time. I was bouncing between the SSILD-variant and the MILD-variant. WBTB was longer as well. I was awake for about 35-45 minutes. It wasn't intentional, it was just that I had a hard time falling asleep again.

1 pt non lucid
2 pts wbtb
=3 pts 3+ 111.5= 114.5

Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


I was in this group home but I'm an adult. There are lots of women there but I only recongnize one of the staff as a real staff member I had in my IRL group home as a kid. It looked kind of like a library. We all were gathering in this great big room, like unusually big. The ceiling began to crack. I was telling ppl to get out & dragged one of the girls out but it still fell and crushed a lot of ppl. But the staff just all acted like we just need to move forward & get back to normal immediately. The woman staff member I knew IRL as a kid told me I had to get more new clothes & didn't understand why I hadn't done so the last time the money was allotted for them. My alarm went off.
wbtb
I lost my recall because my husband called me.

I only had about 2 hrs of sleep last night. I am so exhausted. I kept having flash backs triggered by my friends mom dying & me contemplating going back to my home town for the funeral. Today wasn't much better. I get to my doctors appt & they say I've been dropped & I have to make them call billing to get it fixed, which I had already did yesterday. Only to have them tell me I was going to have to have a full blown drug test which is way more than the usual because they said I had, wait for it, METHADONE come up in my pee test last time. I'm freaking out at this point because I even quit drinking 2 1/2 yrs ago which I'm really proud of. After I get really crazy mad to the point I'm about to cry & they tell my husband he has to pay a crazy $350 on top of my usual payment plan & copay. He's freaking out cuz he's about to rip them a new one & knows I am already going off. The receptionist says, oh, I'm sorry, forget all about that, it was for someone else!!!!! These are ppl who know me & know good fucking well I don't anything like that so I'm still pissed but relieved. So I get my meds & Mike needs these shots in his neck & he says as long as he can go back to work, but that soooooo didn't happen. He went pale as a sheet & almost passed out. He then was all fucked up & I had to take the keys & eventually make him call work cuz he would have went into a meeting w/ an asshole like this & been fired. Bad bad bad fucking last 24 hrs! I just want sleep!

I did a counting induction into a lucid dream. I felt the transition but the reality check passed so unfortunately I did it too early. The transition was awesome though.

I woke up from a dream that became lucid but it didn't go well w/ my dream recall. I found out an old friend of mine's mother died & I've been trying to figure out how & if it's possible for me to travel the 6 hours for November the 4th. The funeral had to be postponed for my friends daughter to make it into town. Anyway I got obviously side tracked so this is my entry. Life comes before dreams.

Had a lucid dream this morning. I was at my old elementary school when I realized that this must be a dream. I walked out to the parking lot and did this spin technique to teleport back to my house because I wanted to complete a dream task: finding my dream guide. I made it back to my house and walked outside to see it raining extremely heavily and I noticed I had no shoes on. Now I'm thinking, "I don't want to spend the majority of my lucid dream trying to walk to through rain and mud". So I decide that I am going to go into my backyard and climb over my fence to find the dream character I am looking for.

I mean, I understood that dreams function off of expectation. My expectation was to find my dream guide at the park which was a bit of a long walk from my house. However, it was raining so heavily so I changed my expectation to find my dream character in the house that was behind mine so I only had to get over the fence and travel a shorter distance to find her. Dream ended unfortunately.

This isn't the first time an obstacle has stopped me from finding my dream guide. The first time it was this heavy wind that blew me away as I was trying to make my way down to the park.

Now how did I induce this DILD? It could have been several factors. For starters, I was more awake and active during my longer WBTB period. I mean I had turned on lights and written in my dream journal to the point where I had trouble going back to sleep. Secondly, I did my method of "Ambience Induced Lucid Dream" which involved me lying in bed and attempting to meditate, quiet my mind, and be aware of the ambient space of the room. In other words, suppose you had to navigate a room with your eyes closed. What senses would you need to focus more to get an idea of the space around you? I would say this is in a similar vein to SSILD that has you shift awareness to each of the major senses of Sight, Hearing and Touch. Other factors could have been my intense motivation to have a lucid dream; motivation being a big trigger for lucid dreams as explained in ETWOLD.

1 pt non-lucid
2 pts wbtb
= 3 pts for the night so 3+ 108.5= 111.5 total contest thus far

3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


D1 was unstable & my pen died when I went to write it down. I found one later that I used for dream 2.
WBTB
D2:I had a daughter but it wasn't my IRL daughter. I found her working in this dump of a bar & being taken advantage of by an old man. There was a lot of fighting going on & it was getting violent between me & the dirty old man. She was saying she was all grown up & he was over there looking at me from where she couldn't see him with a sly creepy look on his face. It was a dark nasty environment. WBTB alarm went off.

My allergies were really bad cuz I spent half of Sunday outside helping Mike trim back trees for winter. I fought a runny nose all night.

Couldn't recall anything again.

Sorry team, had 2 non-lucids but life got in the way & I couldn't log either. Sigh. Kids are now gone though, so I'm hopeful for tonight.

Early waking hours and getting back really tired (I was awake for 25 hours), nothing recalled.

1 pt non lucid
2 pts wbtb
= 3 3 + 105= 108 for total contest

3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


I was working in this pet store. It was really odd. There was one huge tank in particular that was like a big globe w/ a see through bottom & was way up in the air. I was almost under it but to the side. I saw a shark in it & shot at it which shattered the tank. Everyone was mad at me & we were all scrambling to save the fish & other creatures in the tank. I found these 3 kittens that were the size of a new born kitten & they were gasping for air & soaked. I didn't know how to help them. I was so confused because I couldn't tell if they were like some sort of "catfish" & were gasping because of not being in water or if they were essentially almost drowned some how.

Did wbtb but don't remember the last dream because I couldn't hold onto it due to a disruption in the house.

No dream recall because my grand-daughter yelled, "Hey grandma!" right by my ear & I thought the house was on fire. But she just thought she was being funny. Hence, no dream recall. I will set my alarm tomorrow & set out bowls for their cereal. Lesson learned. They are finally old enough to make their own cereal & turn on the tv so grandma can sleep in. Awe, what a great thing to finally happen! She is almost 7 & he is 5 1/2. I can't believe I haven't tried this at all over the last year!